#and tries to avoid conflict

[childrenofthesun77]

...okay, so I'm probably not the first person to notice this.

But gear's earing that he points towards when he says that he did the same ritual he wanted to help kuro with already on himself before:

actually looks pretty similar to the pieces of the necklace the count used to create the servamps:

The different pieces of the necklace seem to contain one demon each and the count used them to create the servamps.

So...did the count either learn this technique from the werewolves or is he possible even originally a werewolf himself? It would explain why he's immortal, that's why I'm wondering about this.

Gear says that the ritual is used to remove spirits, could it be that the count removed his own sins using the werewolf ritual and created the demons this way? But he went too far and removed too much unlike gear who only removed one part of himself? Him removing the sins from himself would also explain why he's so weird and doesn't understand other beings. As the sin demons say, they are a natural part of being a human and we have seen multiple times that denying their existence is harmful, removing them all from you would probably lead to you not being able to relate to other people anymore.

Maybe removing all these parts of himself is also why he has no appearance. Without his demons he's not a person anymore.

The count originally being a werewolf would also explain why he has magical abilities (gear can also use magic) before other magicians existed and why he's so anxious about certain people dying. Gear talks about how his immortality makes him sad because human friends do die, but unlike the count gear seems to accept death, grieves in a heathier way than the count and is able to move on and make new friends. Could also explain why his magic and creations are all strongly tied to the (full) moon.

Another similarity is that while werewolves apparently can't reproduce gear was able to have descendants by sharing his life force (it's mentioned in chapter 135 which isn't translated yet) with a woman and through her human children tsurugi is related to gear. Sigurd explained to nicco that the magicians came to be because the count let humans drink his blood, three survived, got magical ablities and became the ancestors of all human magicians:

Maybe the count is more of a werecat though. He and the sloth demon do seem to have a closer connection, even though the count's appearance changes depending on the person looking at him he does usually keep his tail and the tip looks exactly like the one of kuro's cat/lion form and similar to the the one of inner sloth's non-human form.

It was also stated multiple times that the sloth demon is the strongest. I wonder why that is. Servamp comments on the fact that being lazy is often actually a sign of depression/anxiety through kuro's arc, so maybe the count was depressed and that's why the sloth demon is the strongest? Basically the demons strength depends on how much the count suffered from the different sins? It would also explain why melancholy is so strong, I assume kuro refusing to see him no matter how many siblings he sent his way to tell him to come looking for the count made him extremely sad and probably even made him come up with the plan to have himself be killed and then put in the same body as kuro through the ritual.

I assume he was behind C3 ordering the servamps to kill him because he's the one who created the magicians and thus C3 and lily who is kind of working for him was probably the one who put the idea that the count needed to be killed into the head of his eve (aka a member of the alicein family who hold a lot of power in C3 basically since the beginning. I explained this in more detail in another post). The people from C3 even said that the count can only be killed if he wants to and yeah, kuro didn't truly kill him, but he did destroy his body and kuro seems to have met little resistance when he attacked the count. Which probably means the count wanted this to happen.

#servamp #...if the servamps/demons all came from the count and the magicians are all basically the descendants of the count #does that mean this truly is all just a huge family conflict #since basically everyone involved is somewhat related to the count?😅 #Sigurd says he's related to one of the three people who drank the counts blood #I'm still wondering if mahiru is special because he might have the blood of all three bloodlines #and C3 has a rule in place that forbids all three bloodlines from crossing #probably put in place by the count or lily #and that's why akira told nobody who the father of her child was #I still like my absolute crack theory that because mahiru might have “more” of the counts blood in him that he has no fixed appearance eith #But because he's so normal everyone perceives him as normal so nobody noticed until now that mahiru looks slightly different to all of them #honestly it would explain/excuse some questionable choices made by characters who as far as we know should be good people #Like why akira didn't tell anybody who the father was #why tooru tried to avoid being seen with mahiru in school by always saying he's to busy #Why tooru told mahiru not to tell the secret to anyone else #and why mahiru was raised as mundane as possible and as far away from C3 as possible #even why tooru kept his work for C3 secret from mahiru even after mahiru made the contract #and why he still didn't tell him the name of his father #If people know your relatives they start comparing you to them #If people knew that touma was mahiru's father they might expect mahiru to look like him #If people only knew mahiru was related to akira and tooru they would expect him to look like them #If people at school only knew mahiru but never met tooru before mahiru's appearance to them might be too different from tooru #Touma saying mahiru looks exactly like tooru doesn't disprove this crack theory either btw #Touma sees mahiru as tooru 2.0 and he's not 100% convinced he's actually mahiru's father so mahiru appearing as a copy of tooru makes sense #Just like mahiru would perceive himself as looking like akira and tooru because those are the only close relatives of his he knows #Sorry but I'm having too much fun with this crack theory #the twist that raising mahiru as the “ordinary high school student” was all a plot by his family #to keep people from noticing that they don't actually agree on what he looks like is too funny to me

[squidcandy]

an unkind lover.

kurokei week day 2: injury

#kurokeiweek2023 #enstars #ensemble stars #kuro kiryu #keito hasumi #kurokei #yes i did draw a self indulgent comic set during blade & fist even though #next to nobody has read that event story #tfw your girl is conflict avoidant and tries to avoid you #because she cant bear the weight of your affection #myart

[brittlebutch]

actually it's kind of funny how people will say Alex's fatal flaw is that he 'doesn't ask for help' and that it's his determination to handle things on his own that leads to his deterioration and eventual death when his whole introduction to the present-day timeline was a very literal cry for help that simply went ignored

#N posts stuff #like even if you think alex was lying throughout the entirety of season 2 and he was waiting from the Moment jay showed up #JUST to kill him (Which again i don't think makes much sense when he could have killed Tim & Jay immediately instead of #breaking Tim's leg. anyway) EVEN IF alex spent that whole time lying it doesn't actually change the fact that he would have at least #been Pretending to Ask For Help and if he wasn't lying then he was Literally Asking For Help and it doesn't Actually matter #what intention Alex had because the text is Ambiguous about Alex's honesty during season two; what isn't ambiguous is the way #other characters (specifically Jay) respond to him; like yeah - S2 Brian/Tim were never in one million years going to help Alex with shit #so sort of any argument that brings up Tim as someone who asks for/offers help is borderline meaningless in this era of the series #Jay had the 'opportunity' to help Alex (and i'll get back to that in a sec) but DIDN'T - Jay wasn't Interested in actually offering Alex #'help' bc Jay is ultimately curious about Answers and 'Offering Help' and 'Getting Answers' are two Wildly conflicting goals #Jay thinks Alex has answers and when Alex doesn't Offer these 'Answers' to Jay on a silver platter Jay gets pissed off and paranoid #and starts Stalking Alex bc he thinks it's 'Suspicious' that Alex won't give him the Answers (that Alex probably doesn't Actually have) #ANYWAY. ultimately this post is about how it's absurd when people argue #that individual character choices could have made a difference in the way this series played out - specifically wrt Alex #because EVERYONE in this WHOLE series are being affected by influences outside of their control ; including Brian Tim and Jay #so it's silly when people are like 'if ALEX had just made a different choice For Himself this could have all been avoided' WRONG. #bc Ultimately there's not really a way to 'help' someone else out of this situation - Tim tried and failed Repeatedly #the comics proved he even failed with Jessica - like MH isn't a horror situation where you can kill the big bad #'getting help' is a meaningless argument - what would successfully helping or getting help even look like? anyway. #the sub argument of this post is that Alex's biggest 'sin' is that he doesn't perform emotions the way other people want him to #like Alex is a character with a kind of flat affect - instead of LOOKING scared or grieved he LOOKS bored or angry #and everyone judges him based on that - so Alex is 'Suspicious' he's 'Lying' he's 'Guilty' but all of these deductions are predicated #on the belief that Alex isn't reacting to his circumstances the way a 'Normal' person would - so it MUST all be an act and so he's guilty #so everyone treats him like he's guilty until the end of season two when he's like 'Fuck it FINE i'll be guilty then' and so it goes #not a self-fulfilled prophecy but being Cornered Into a prophecy and then Blamed for it - SAD. anyway

[boyfridged]

i’ve been thinking a lot about what is so unique and appealing about 80s robin jay’s moral standing that got completely lost in plot later on. and i think a huge part of it is that in a genre so focused on crime-fighting, his motivations and approach don’t focus on the category of crime at all. in fact, he doesn’t seem to believe in any moral dogma; and it’s not motivated by nihilism, but rather his open-heartedness and relational ethical outlook.

we first meet (post-crisis) jay when he is stealing. when confronted about his actions by bruce he’s confident that he didn’t do anything wrong – he’s not apologetic, he doesn’t seem to think that he has morally failed on any account. later on, when confronted by batman again, jay says that he’s no “crook.” at this point, the reader might assume that jay has no concept of wrong-doing, or that stealing is just not one of the deeds that he considers wrong-doing. yet, later on we see jay so intent on stopping ma gunn and her students, refusing to be implicit in their actions. there are, of course, lots of reasons for which we can assume he was against stealing in this specific instance (an authority figure being involved, the target, the motivations, the school itself being an abusive environment etc.), but what we gather is that jay has an extremely strong sense of justice and is committed to moral duty. that's all typical for characters in superhero comics, isn't it? however, what remains distinctive is that this moral duty is not dictated by any dogma – he trusts his moral instincts. this attitude – his distrust toward power structures, confidence in his moral compass, and situational approach, is something that is maintained throughout his robin run. it is also evident in how he evaluates other people – we never see him condemning his parents, for example, and that includes willis, who was a petty criminal. i think from there arises the potential for a rift between bruce and jay that could be, have jay lived, far more utilised in batman comics than it was within his short robin run.

after all, while bruce’s approach is often called a ‘philosophy of love and care,’ he doesn’t ascribe to the ethics of care [eoc] (as defined in modern scholarship btw) in the same way that jay does. ethics of care ‘deny that morality consists in obedience to a universal law’ and focus on the ideals of caring for other people and non-institutionalized justice. bruce, while obviously caring, is still bound by his belief in the legal system and deontological norms. he is benevolent, but he is also ultimately morally committed to the idea of a legal system and thus frames criminals as failing to meet these moral (legal-adjacent) standards (even when he recognizes it is a result of their circumstances). in other words, he might think that a criminal is a good person despite leading a life of crime. meanwhile, for jay there is no despite; jay doesn't think that engaging in crime says anything about a person's moral personality at all. morality, for him, is more of an emotional practice, grounded in empathy and the question of what he can do for people ‘here and now.’ he doesn’t ascribe to maxims nor utilitarian calculations. for jay, in morality, there’s no place for impartiality that bruce believes in; moral decisions are embedded within a net of interpersonal relationships and social structures that cannot be generalised like the law or even a “moral code” does it. it’s all about responsiveness. 

to sum up, jay's moral compass is relative and passionate in a way that doesn't fit batman's philosophy. this is mostly because bruce wants to avoid the sort of arbitrariness that seems to guide eoc. also, both for vigilantism, and jay, eoc poses a challenge in the sense that it doesn't create a certain 'intellectualised' distance from both the victims and the perpetrators; there's no proximity in the judgment; it's emotional.

all of this is of course hardly relevant post-2004. there might be minimal space for accommodating some of it within the canon progression (for example, the fact that eoc typically emphasises the responsibility that comes with pre-existing familial relationships and allows for prioritizing them, as well as the flexibility regarding moral deliberations), but the utilitarian framework and the question of stopping the crime vs controlling the underworld is not something that can be easily reconciled with jay’s previous lack of interest in labeling crime. 

#fyi i'm ignoring a single panel in which jay says 'evil wins. he chose the life of crime' because i think there's much more nuance to that #as in: choosing a life of crime to deliberately cause harm is a whole another matter #also: inb4 this post is not bruce slander. please do not read it as such #as i said eoc is highly criticised for being arbitrary which is something that bruce seeks to avoid #also ethics of care are highly controversial esp that their early iterations are gender essentialist and ascribe this attitude to women #wow look at me accidentally girl-coding jay #but also on the topic of post-res jay. #it's typically assumed that ethics of care take a family model and extend it into morality as a whole #'the ethics of care considers the family as the primary sphere in which to understand ethical behavior' #so #an over-simplification: you are allowed to care for your family over everything else #re: jay's lack of understanding of bruce's conflict in duty as batman vs father #for jay there's no dilemma. how you conduct yourself in the familial context determines who you are as a person #also if you are interested in eoc feel free to ask because googling will only confuse you... #as a term it's used in many weird ways. but i'm thinking about a general line of thought that evolves into slote's philosophy #look at me giving in and bringing philosophy into comics. sorry. i tried to simplify it as much as possible #i didn't even say anything on criminology and the label and the strain theories. #i'm so brave for not info-dumping #i said even though i just info-dumped #jay.zip #jay.txt #dc #fatal flaw #core texts #robin days

[dirtytransmasc]

you know, I changed my mind, Quaritch always loved spider, form the beginning, any attempts to make it seem like he was using him was a lie and a front, he forced himself to hurt lauder e cause he was scared of getting attached, you wanna know how I know.

the look, the look he gave spider when he figured out who he was. the pure pain and confusion and love on his face when he recognizes his son, even if this is his only knew memory of him in 16 years (his only memories of spider are of when he was a baby and being abused by of Quaritch who are 2 different people}) he knew that was his baby, the baby his original self hurt.

I know because when he hears his sins screams, he can't stand it, it hurts him (and we know this guy has a tolerance for human/na'vi suffering) and he puts a stop to it, quickly.

the first words they exchange outside of the kidnapping (as father and son) is him apologizing for what his original self did. he attempts to comfort him, to make him feel safe.

he cared for this kid, he loved him, he protected him like no one had before, I will stand by that.

#I ignore any and all potential evidence that Quaritch was really using him #like I said #I think he forced himself to use the kid #he tried to stop himself from getting to attached #you could see the conflict in his eyes when spider begged him to leave the village people alone #the pain when spider avoids his touch and starts to visibly hate him #he tried so hard to not let this kid 'ruin' him and failed so badly #and it's hurting me #if my dad showed up and his first words to me was an apology for something he didn't even really do #I'd trauma bond to his ass just like spider did #avatar spider #spider avatar #spider socorro #miles socorro #miles spider socorro #spider quaritch #miles quaritch #Quaritch #too many thoughts about them #avatar 2 #avatar way of water #avatar 2 spoilers

[dollsome-does-tumblr]

our health is important! and precarious! let’s keep masking in public and not going out to spread germs when we’re sick! please!!!!!

#this post brought to you by: #had some relatives knowingly come over sick last weekend and now our entire extended family is crumbing into coughs and fever and vomiting #(i tried to fight for sick people not coming over. it was overruled. don’t you know it’s 2024 and people don’t get really sick anymore? 😩) #i haven’t gotten sick yet but there’s no way i am not gonna #and i am not looking forward to my impending long dark night of the soul; it sounds so so bad. #anyway: wish I could say this to my extended family but I’m too conflict-avoidant! #so I’m saying it to the blue abyss instead! #😷😷😷😷😷😷 #MASK UP! TAKE PRECAUTIONS! NURTURE YOUR HEALTH! IT’S NEVER GUARANTEED! #dollsome's deep thoughts #and now to try to put all of next week’s work online because no way am i spreading this evil … #idk if this is covid but like. you can actually mask to help avoid all contagious illnesses! 🤯 #god i really struggle with coexisting w/ my fellow humans sometimes #why does everyone else so consistently not give a crap

[threadbaresweater]

Choso reminds me of that one guy in high school (I think we all knew a guy like him)– big, broad, soft-spoken and gentle with his friends (most of whom are girls. The artsy types, the introverts, the loners, the stoners). He's always outside in the parking lot before school, smoking a cigarette with his backpack slung over one shoulder. And maybe he'll catch your eye one day and give you the barest hint of a smile, and you'd never know he has a thing for you because he's so afraid of rejection. So you finish school and see him in the halls from time to time but you never get the chance to realize the depth of his devotion. He pines after you for longer than he'd like to admit, but he'd never take the risk of telling you.

#he's also really intimidating and could totally hold his own in a fight #though he doesn't want to and really tries to avoid conflict #a gentle giant #and he's not the smartest but he has a deep love of history and the classics

[mars-ipan]

dungeons and dragons is so fun bc right now i’m in 2 campaigns and i play them back-to-back on fridays.

in the first campaign i play this mangy little level 5 goblin spores druid named pellet. she is silly and i love her to death. also she will bite your ankles and it will fucking Hurt. the entire party she’s a part of is very well balanced and- despite their sometimes clashing personalities- they’re very competent in combat which leads to thrilling high-stakes battles

in the second campaign i play a level 4 half-elf goolock named cal. we’re all playing villains in a cyberpunk and we work for a villain organization. cal is NOT built for this whole high-stakes job thing, nor is the rest of his team. this party consists of a bunch of glass cannons and one glass nuclear bomb (our wizard). today’s session was the first time cal has been in combat and not passed out or been downed- we did not finish this encounter, though, so there’s still time for him to get bodied

#marzi speaks #it’s SO funny #i go from this incredibly powerful druid to the world’s most pathetic nepo baby #pellet does not know what a sex or a romance is- she just knows people are weird about each other sometimes #cal avoids discussions of sex but pretends women love him. he does not know that he’s gay yet but the closet is glass #pellet is unbothered and in her lane. she finds conflict funny #cal has become a dedicated hater of one specific hero after she absolutely bodied him. he tries to flame her on social media #today pellet moonbeamed the shit out of a horrifying spider cyborg and prepared to do surgery on a party member #today cal’s organization got raided and he is currently fighting a very strong hero in a robe and skincare face mask #pellet laughs at god. cal begs god for just one good day #they’re so funny

[glbtrx]

Godness this world is so complicated. Society is so complicated. Everything is so complicated. Why can't we just live. We're all gonna die. Why can't everyone just search for their own happiness. Why isn't everyone interested in researching peace?

#glbtrx #conflicts exist because one or more sides actually don't want to try to find the solution and the truth #everyone tries to avoid that #it's so frustrating. humans are

[lilalilan]

There's just something kind of lonely about being trans in a way that doesn't line up with the mainstream narratives about transness

[wavetapper]

derangement aside I do recommend getting into bms, even if you don't end up playing any of the charts. the amount of insanely creative songs and music videos that get released every year For Free just for this community game is amazing and the fact that some get picked up and licensed for commercial games and artists who started out making work for bms get commissioned for them as well is just. idk

#blah blah if you play rhythm games even a little bit i can almost guarantee youve heard at least one song that originated from bms #and that song wad probably conflict BUT THERE ARE OTHERS and you can play the original charts for free on your computie #bemuse.ninja is an in-browser bms player if you want to try it out but dont want to download anything. it comes with songs as well #theres a really good english language guide for beatoraja which comes with links to song packs and skins and the like #beatoraja is just. quite convenient to set up actually i never tried lr2 and quite frankly from what ive heard im a little bit afraid to #idk look tl;dr if you want a rhythm game with basically infinite content and big free song events multiple times a year #then there is a Game For You. and no you do not need a controller there are good keyboard layouts for it just avoid the default keybinds #bmsposting

[totally-not-an-awkward-okapi]

I posted my Mirage design once and was immediately so embarrassed that I didn’t draw him for 3 years, so time to rectify that.

#I wanted to focus harder on him being a mechanical creature #so that meant so much time figuring out his vehicle mode which you don’t even get to see. #I genuinely never registered he’s supposed to be a formula 1 car so I got to dip my toes into that for a bit to figure out his alt form #i ended up switch him to a Red Bull Racing RB18 just because I perfered it’s aerodynamic curves #the other benefit was really emphasizing that he’s a fairly small and very light bot #for reference the RB18 weighs 1760 lbs and is about 200 inches long #in bot form your average human comes up to his knee #which I think adds a dimension to his avoidance of dirrect conflict- most bots could literally just chuck him #I tried to emphasize that by including the hollow arms of the Henkei! Henkei! Mirage toy he’s mostly based on #god sorry I have a lot of thoughts about this boy #my art #tf mirage

[softichill]

Never before has something managed to grab my heartstrings and fucking snap them from the sheer force of their pull until this series

#Cricket chirping #Trigun #GENUINELY CRIED OVER BOTH OF WOLFWOOD'S DEATHS #I sat in stunned silence after watching ep 24 of the 98 anime and couldn't make myself keep watching for the rest of the night #I never get this emotional over an entire series. I'll be sad about certain characters or be emotional abt certain aspects of other things #But never has the story alone been enough to make me unlock New Emotions like Trigun has #The angel arm. The plants clearly trying to scream as they're run to their last breaths. Vash finally being forced to go against his morals #as he screams at every conflicting thought #Watching Vash get broken because no matter how hard he tries he cannot avoid putting people in danger

[revelisms]

Excerpt: You Can't Replace Her

Vi's return has Jinx floundering. Sevika sifts through the layers.

From 'heron blue,' an AU where Vi and Jinx reconnect under different terms. Slow, rocky relationship rebuilding, found family messiness, and political schemings. Full story on AO3

Sat at the table across from the kitchenette's thin galley, Jinx twists her plait about one finger—a single one, today, the weave of it adorned with scraps of bullet casings and clips—and doesn't say a word. She squeezes the cool metal of one of the casings, hard enough to sting.

"I'm not mad at you, you brat," Sevika grumbles, without sparing her a glance. "Not your fault the little shit's back from the dead. But, of the seven hells—" 

Her thick fingers spear into the creases beneath her eyes: a slow kneading. She says nothing, for a beat. Just smokes, and smokes. 

"He loves you too damned much," she growls quietly, then. She flicks the ash of her cigarette over a tray on the balcony's railing. "Your sister worth all this, to you?"

The casing between Jinx's fingers aches. 

Ever since he'd placed a meal and a plan before her—laid a quiet, terrifying choice in her hands—she'd turned the thought over, for hours, and hours. 

Do you want her near you?

She wanted her sister's presence, less than craved it—like a girl yearned for her favorite toy; like an infant wailed for their mother; like a child found comfort in the lonely walls of their room, closed off from the rest of the world.

She missed her. She was terrified of her. She longed for her. She hated her.

She hadn't been able to answer him, then. She couldn't.

The same denial sits on her tongue, now.

"I don't...I don't know," she mumbles.

"'Course you don't," Sevika snarks.

"I don't know, okay?" Jinx wrenches her head away, glaring into the yellowing paper of the wall. "She—she left me." Her nail picks and picks at her knee. "She left me, because I—I wasn't good enough, I wasn't strong enough, I was—I was weak." A crack in her voice, thin and sharp. "I was weak, and I ruined everything."

The shadow across from her chuffs, quietly. "Boss doesn't see you as weak."

Jinx curls her shoulders to her ears, pressing her cheek into one of them. "Doesn't matter."

"Like you couldn't knock me off my feet, if you tried." A steel-gray stare flicks over at her, cold points in the greenish haze that stretches beyond this small room, seeping through the open door like a sweet-soured fog. "When we took you in, you couldn't throw a punch for shit. You took to a gun like it was welded through you, though." Sevika lifts one brow, with a shrug of her shoulder. "Still need to work on your punches," she notes, dryly. "But they're better."

Mylo's voice scratches and claws through Jinx's ears.

"So what?" she spits. "I'm not—not like her. I'll never be like her."

"Why do you need to be?" Those eyes again, staring hard at her. "You can't replace her." Sevika huffs, turning back to the smog-tainted view that spills down from the balcony's edge. "If you had that in your head, with her gone—sure as hell doesn't matter, now."

The words tear at something in Jinx's bones, buried so deep into the marrow that it uproots her. She blinks. Breathes. Shakes.

"Something you Fissure brats should've learned, years ago," Sevika rumbles on, a low, muted thing. "Someone dies, you leave them dead. You don't carry around their corpse, making yourself into their image; you don't become them, to you, or to anybody else." She ticks the ash from her cigarette. "You can't."

Jinx's fingers tremble over her knee. The swallow she forces down clings like ash to her throat. "Then," she whispers, "then what do I—what do I do?"

Sevika's mouth curls at a snarl.

"You be." A final drag: the cigarette crushed into the tray, among a litter of countless others. "Whatever you need for yourself, first. Damn the rest."

Silco, in his own ways, had told her the same. Cradled her head beneath the cold drape of the Pilt's waves, with the gentlest sweep of his thumb: as though she were still only a scrappy street-cat of a girl, eleven years old and raging at the world. As though he were lowering himself back down into the place of his rebirth, where he had reforged himself, rebuilt himself. Where he'd found what he needed, to survive again.

She hadn't quite understood it all, then. 

She'd been too lost in the silence of the waves, in the strange peace she'd found floating in the blackwater, in the warmth of his hand lifting her back to the surface. Lost in her own fears of going back to the terrors gnashing on the shores. Too exhausted to move, to come back to herself. 

He'd carried her from the shallows, like he'd carried her back from the wreckage that day. They'd sat at the water's edge for hours, his coat draped over her shoulders, his eyes so faraway, and said nothing.

She thinks she might understand, now.

#fic excerpt #arcane fanfic #heron blue #heron!verse #jinx #jinx arcane #sevika #sevika arcane #jinx & sevika #the more times i watch acts 2-3 the more i'm like...who is jinx modeling herself off of? #because while powder's definitely still in there - visually displayed as much as emotionally - there's always a conflict #whether it's her trying to be what silco wants #what vi would have wanted #what vander told them all *not* to be #what she *can't* be to avoid the ghosts of mylo and claggor #visually it feels like she's a hodgepodge of those around her #and emotionally there's so much pulling her in different directions #in a way - for all her criticisms - i think sevika's almost a neutral party here #jinx constantly tries to demean her/reduce the threat of her #likely as a way to mentally separate how close sev is to silco + to wrestle with jinx's insecurities against her fighting power #but i'd argue that even then - there's parts of sevika's image that jinx has incorporated into herself #and so her perspective still matters to her #even if she won't fully acknowledge it #grumpy mentor/stepmom vibes through the roof #they hate each other (but not always) #writing

[neonsbian]

this is kinda a stupid question but do streams count if you use a pirated version of spotify?

#ive been avoiding listening to kpop on spotify bc of the strike #but it accidentally played an sm song and i was like oh shit #i mean i skipped it but i didnt realize it was playing until 20 secs in #i tried looking up the answer to this online but i kept getting conflicting answers #like id assume no bc im not paying for it or sitting thro ads #but im still not sure #if it does count i might finally phase out my spotify usage #ive been wanting to stop using spotify for a while but it has like 10 years of my listening history on there so like. its daunting lmao #vinnie talks

[tinkkles]

My resolution for 2023 is to get blocked by more people on the internet I am too old to open my activity page and see someone accusing me of being an alpha male gigachad for knowing that crow isn't a tumblr sexyman

#really a lot to unpack #idk how i have avoided conflict with Certified Strange d2 fans for so long #but i think its time to start picking fights and getting on lists bc when one of them tries to interact with me it is so bizarre