#and uther's an asshole and probably was jealous and resentful that ygraine would confide in balinor and spent so much time with him

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I still think it would have been so fucking narratively interesting, and would have made so much more sense if Arthur had used the horn to call Ygraine instead of Uther. Like the whole series she is the one person who he has always wanted to know more about but never got the chance to. Uther never talked about her, the one time he got the chance to see her and hear her speak her story, hear her say she didn't blame him for her death and that she loved him it seemed to have been a lie (to his knowledge). Ygraine deserved to have more of her story told, to be more than just Uther's dead wife and Arthur's dead mother. She should have had the opportunity to be angry about no one remembering who she really was and that the love she had for her people, her beliefs and ideals, all of that was erased by the man she married. He killed innocent people, their people, people who it was their duty to protect, and he had the audacity to do it in her name, as if she would ever want that. He put that blood on her hands after she had no say in it. He turned her name from that of a respected and beloved Queen of all to one that is now only associated with blood, death and terror.

I want to hear her anger over how Uther was more of a king raising an heir than a father raising his son. She died to give her son life, and the man she left him in the hands of didn't have the decency to comfort him when he cried? to show him he is loved? He dares allow Arthur to blame himself for her death and feel guilty for it, and to make arthur feel he must work to deserve his father's love and support, to shout at him and shut him down every time he voices his own opinions and desires?

Then the part of the episode where Uther was raging over what Arthur had done to his kingdom, she tells him how proud she is of him. That she is proud that now he is her legacy instead of all the death and fear. She meets merlin and asks him if he is related to Balinor because he looks like him. She tells him that she was friends with him. She is ecstatic that despite everything, their sons somehow still met and became friends. She thanks him for protecting Arthur and showing him love and care (... and for also helping him not be so much of an arrogant ass).

I really just want Arthur to be a mama's boy. to have wanted to be known as the Son of Ygraine, instead of the Son of Uther, to have the veil lifted and then struggle with the realization that he now despises the man he looked up to and revered all his life. That his father manipulated and lied to him, and was a flawed man. I wish they would have given Ygraine her own identity and opinions separate from Uther and Arthur.

#ygraine du bois #ygraine pendragon #arthur pendragon #merlin bbc #I have gone on a whole rant abt this to my friend who doesnt watch merlin #i firmly believe that Ygraine and Balinor interacted just like arthur and merlin #thats why uther made an example of Balinor's dragon specifically #bc balinor was probably extremely vocal abt how ygraine wouldnt have wanted this #and uther's an asshole and probably was jealous and resentful that ygraine would confide in balinor and spent so much time with him #i have a lot of thoughts about ygraine #and love the thought of arthur soaking up every piece of information he got about her and trying to mirror it