#and we cant even VISIT her bc of this whole covid shit. we dont wanna get her and my papa sick!!!

[nightseeye]

Bro its now tag rant hours

Warning for cancer ment. and overall anxiety/panic

#vent #vent post #im scared as shit rn! terrified!! off the shits x-treme fear!!!!! #yesterday i learned my nana has breast cancer!!!! #and the more i think abg it the more it literally hurts!!!! #it got caught early but like! shit! fuck! damn what if it goes wrong!!! #i really cant stand the thought of my nana dying i can Not!!!!! #and my mom didnt talk abt this but i know medical bills are fuckin Expensive! screaming!!!!! #im also worried that if my nana dies... im gonna forget her #my great uncle died a few years ago and i? cant muster up solid feelings about it #i dont really remember him #i dont want that to happen with my nana y'know? #and we cant even VISIT her bc of this whole covid shit. we dont wanna get her and my papa sick!!! #i. :( #im big sad dot png but i also feel like im suppressing the emotions n i Know thats not healthy #its probably adhd helping out w that aspect :/ #i also just. dont wanna cry over an empty grave! i wanna see the glass half full!! but im terrified!!!! #and despite all this ive still gotta try n pull my english grade outta the dirt. h. school is already hard enough online as is #this isnt gonna help #man im just feeling all kinds of fucked up about this #:( #nighty chatter