#and we’re going back and forth (on facetime ofc) about this and I’m kind of joking about it but i’m like listen I know i can’t do anything

[troybarnesbucky]

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#i’ve been friends with my ex’s best friend since before we broke up more than two years ago. #so i’ve known him 4 years now and we really get along and get each other more than anyone else in our lives #we don’t talk often — facetime every few weeks and that’s it — because the breakup was bad and then we didn’t talk for awhile after it #but when we started talking again it was exclusively on facetime. i’ve seen him in person twice and only one time was intentional #but the dude is Fucked Up. like mentally all over the place and very emotionally stunted and socially closed off #i know more about him than anyone else does and even i can’t get through to him about certain things #and one particular thing is my ex — he’s still ‘friends’ with him but he’s realized over the last year or so that they’ve sorta grown out of #their friendship. and i’m neutral idc if they’re friends or not and we otherwise don’t talk about him unless we talk about how he impacted #our own lives — like how our relationship was or how their friendship is faring. #that all changed when last year my ex drunk texted me and accosted me in public and since then things have been different #so he feels really guilty about still being friends with me and MIND YOU were literally friends over facetime and that’s it #and he told my ex that we still talk and my ex barely even cared bc it’s not his type to care really #but he ALWAYS tells me that he feels guilty about being my friend and that he should just cut me out of his life #again.. we facetime every once in awhile but we’re very open with each other so ig that’s friendship #and i bring it up every once in awhile but i’m always like ‘let me talk to my ex and just tell him that we’re friends so you won’t feel #guilty’ but he always shuts me down. and tonight i asked if i could do anything to just… get rid of the guilt? because it’s not fair that #i know how guilty i make him feel and can’t change it. it’s not in my control. which is his reasoning. #but in fucking retrospect everything he said to me was genuinely fucked up. because he would tell me straight to my face that he wanted to #cut me off — and he’s done it before! but i would reach out awhile later and he’d be ‘drawn back in’ (his words) #and we’re going back and forth (on facetime ofc) about this and I’m kind of joking about it but i’m like listen I know i can’t do anything #about it but it sucks because u never answer my texts and that’s fine but in my head i assume it’s because u finally decided to cut me off #and i changed the subject for a minute and then out of the blue he’s like ‘ok i think i’m ready to wrap this up’ and i’m like ‘uh… the call? #or our friendship…?’ and i’m kinda joking but he literally says ‘no us.’ to my fucking face. and im like ‘uh…. ok. goodbye i guess?’ #and he just fucking waves. that’s it. no ‘i’m sorry for letting my guilt get in the way of our friendship’ #and i just hang up. #and like ok in retrospect i shouldn’t have pushed him to hang out in person (i’m leaving soon and i’m like ‘ur not gonna see my for awhile!’ #but in actuality i really don’t care about hanging out irl i just hate that he feels guilty and TELLS me. like I know we’re open but why #do u think telling me that i’m the problem is necessary???) #and i kept saying ‘don’t worry i don’t really care that doesn’t matter to me i just don’t want our friendship to make you feel shitty’

[singt0mecalum]

alright so more on Mali bc that’s a thing now: You meet Mali through coincidence really. You’re done with college and you move to London (bc why not and we’ll be on the same time zone that’s always good) And you decide to check out a bar some friends recommended to you that play live music. And you see Mali singing there and you get to talking and hit it off immediately and talk for hours and hours. And over the next months y’all become better and better friends

omg Lena being in the same timezone for the past three weeks has been magical let’s be real. Okay so i guess we can say this is part 1 of the whole Mali setting you up with Cal thing.

but like yes one day i want to move far away from the US and potentially never come back and I loved London when i visited so i’m down for this. So like okay imagine you’ve been been living there for a few weeks maybe a little over a month and like you’ve gone out with your co-workers a few times and you’re friendly but not like friends ya know? and then one of them finds out how much you like music and going to shows and stuff and they recommend the coffee shop/bar that does live music a few nights a week and so you go one night after you got off work and stuff. and so like you show up and sit kind of close to the stage and order a latte and check your phone while you wait and when a girl pops up on stage to sing you put your phone down to watch. and so she starts singing and you’re like damn i love her and so you sit there a vibe along to the like four or five songs she plays. and then when she steps off stage you decide to approach her to tell her how much you enjoyed her set and how you thought she was like super talented. and she’s just like “omg thank you that means so much. what’s you’re name” and so you tell her duh and she goes “i’m Mali” and so y’all find somewhere to sit and y’all just sit and talk for the rest of the night. y’all talk about anything and everything. she tells you about her time on the voice and her family back home in Australia and kind of grazes over her brother and how he’s a musician too and the she’s just so so proud of him but you don’t really get more than that about him (do you really blame her though). and of course you tell her about you’re family back home in the states and why you decided to move to London and what you do for a job. and then when it’s time to go bc sorry guys we gotta kick you out we’re closing now y’all decide to exchange numbers and social media and stuff and after y’all walk outside you definitely make plans to meet up again later in the week. and y’all do and it’s great.

and then suddenly y’all are joined at the hip and y’all have sleepover at least once a week. and y’all know everything about each other. she knows how you don’t like being around a lot of people and you’re pretty shy. and you know all about her insecurities of people not liking her music or how she’s scared to fall into her brothers shadow. and she knows about your shit luck with guys in college and how you’ve literally been single your whole ass life because men ain’t shit and how you’ve given up on finding anyone and how you’ve pretty much given up on love at this point. and eventually she tells you who her brother actually is and that she waited because she thought you were really cool but was scared you’d only want to be her friend to get to him and you reassure her that while you like his band you like her and y’alls friendship more. (cue the cute friendship bonding tears)

and when her parents come to town you meet them and go to dinner and lunch and fall in love with them too just like you have with Mali. and one day Mali has press stuff she has to do so you take them out around the town and show them some of your favorite places and then y’all go back to Mali’s apartment and Joy teaches you how to make traditional Maori dishes for dinner while David watches tv. and when Mali get’s home and sees you and Joy making dessert and dinner waiting on the stove she gets all soft because her best friend and mom are getting along so well. and she thinks that now all she needs is Cal there and the picture would be complete and that’s when she realizes that she’s never going to let you escape now. and when Mali has to take them to the airport a day or two later she drags you along too and as she’s saying goodbye to her dad Joy pulls you into a bone crushing hug because you’re my daughter now too (ugh i’m crying) and David pulls you into one too and tells you it was so nice to meet you and that he can’t wait to see you again. and Mali is just watching all of this happening with the biggest heart eyes. and so any time her parents call or facetime you’re there too because they can’t not talk to their second daughter. and at some point Joy gets your number from Mali and y’all talk pretty often. and when Mali goes home for a short trip it’s an unspoken thing that ofc you’re going too because momma and dad Hood would kill her if she didn’t bring you with.

and of course the longer you’re friends the more y’all appear on each other social medias and so the boys get a lil curious and ask about you and she goes that’s my best friend you’ve been replaced Cal sorry not sorry. and when the boys call or facetime sometimes you’re in the backgroud or across the room and small “hi”s are exchanged every now and then and they all follow you on instagram and twitter but y’all don’t really talk except like maybe a comment here and there. nothing major. and then at some point Mali has to go to LA for her music stuff and to visit her brother and she’s gone for like ever or at least it feels that way when it’s really only like 2 weeks. but y’all facetime every day and Mali starts making little comments here and then about her brother but you don’t really think anything of it and then when she’s at dinner with the boys one night she makes a comment here and there to Cal about you but ofc he’s oblivious BUT Ash isn’t and so after dinner he’s like “yo what was up with that” and she’s like “oh you caught on to what I was doing? here let me tell you my plan” and so she tells him about how she thinks y’all would be so good together and that y’all are both so similar and that mom and dad love her so like why not? and so after she goes home to London she’ll subtly drop hints here and there, but naturally you don’t pick up on them. and Ash is also dropping hints but like Cal’s the same level of oblivious and of course Mali and Ash are texting back and forth about it the whole time.

and so like after she comes back y’all are pretty much together every day and when one of y’all go on a date the other anxiously waits for you to get done and then when it’s finally over you go to the others apartment and talk about it and whether or not you’ll see the guy and with you it’s pretty much always a “yeah definitely not” but with her it’s nine times out of ten a no from her and sometimes if she does go on a second or third date it doesn’t progress past that. and y’all both just bond over how guys fucking suck and that’s usually when she’ll slip in a comment about her brother and how “i wish more guys were like Cal and the boys” or “my brother and the rest of the boys would never” and stuff like that. and after a while you just give up on going on dates and y’all just gush over hers but ofc she’s like “we need to find you a good man… like Cal…” and you just give her a strange look, “or Ash. you didn’t let me finish. plus i wasn’t actually serious” but she totally was serious because who better for her best friend than her other best friend/brother and vice versa because she just wants the two people she loves the most to love each other too.

okay i need to stop now before i actually kill myself.

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#han answers #oops #i hate myself for this one #what have i done #Lena this is all your fault #calum blurb #5sos blurb