#and what my goddamn brain came up with was basically a version of foster's home imaginary friends

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

Hey Gaud which 5 history figures would you like to hunt down?

THANK you. 

christopher colombus, mao zedong, stalin, hitler, leopold ii, hideki tojo, hirohito, kim il sung, ronald reagan, nixon, both george bushes, andrew jackson, obviously trump, and preferably i would assassinate them as young adults but i’m genuinely not picky 

#hitler tw #politics tw #murder tw #ask to tag #i would totally murder baby hitler #it's not IDEAL but i would do it #i would be delighted to remove them from the timeline at any age #although if they were babies i would probably just kidnap them and put them in a responsible foster home situation #anyway i accidentally allowed my mind to wander down this tangent for 30 seconds #and what my goddamn brain came up with was basically a version of foster's home imaginary friends #but it's an orphanage for history's monsters who were removed from the timestream as babies in order to be rehabilitated #like an even more messed up version of clone high i guess #an orphanage for history's dictators with me as a caring foster parent i hate my fucking brain #oh!!! also basically every member of 15th/16th century european royalty #and then all the heads of the noble families just to be safe #destroy feudalism from the top up. cut off colonialism before it manifests #i would hunt them with a crossbow #make a long weekend of it. bring some friends for a picnic and hunting party. we'd have a pack of wild dogs

[nekosd43]

Lavender, orange, and canary?

SHIT YEAH I CAN TALK ABOUT MUSIC FOREVER HOPE YOU’RE READY FOR A VERY INCOMPATIBLE MIX OF SONGS AND SCATTERSHOT EXPLANATIONS.  I EVEN MADE YOUTUBE PLAYLISTS.  I PUT IT UNDER A CUT BECAUSE IT GOT LONG AND I RESPECT PEOPLE’S TIMELINES TOO MUCH TO DO THAT DO YOU GUYS.

If you just want the playlists but not the explanations:

Lavender

Orange

Canary

lavender: songs you connect to

I’d like to entitle this Playlist “Songs that have the ability to make me cry without warning if they come on”

Setting Sail, Coming Home - Darren Korb - I associate this song with the death of a friend (COMING OUT STRONG HERE) so that might be unfair but I can and have put this song on for hours and just cry/sing.  It’s so good.

This Year - The Mountain Goats - I know it’s cliche to make this your anthem but THIS IS MY MOTHERFUCKING FIGHT SONG.  I cannot BEGIN to tell you how many hard times I’ve gotten through muttering “I am gonna make it through this year if it kills me.”

Stronger Than You - Aivi & Surasshu & Estelle - THE GAY ANTHEM I DIDN’T KNOW I NEEDED UNTIL IT HAPPENED AND NOW I CANNOT GET THROUGH A DAY WITHOUT IT.

Six Days at the Bottom of the Ocean - Explosions in the Sky - I remember the first time i heard this song, it felt like something was melting in me.  Like, something that had frozen over was warming up for the very first time in a long time.

Exile Vilify - The National - I love this song for every bit of it, but the line “No you’re thinking too fast / You’re like marbles on glass” is what really sells it because I can’t think of a better way to explain what my brain feels like when I’m in the middle of an anxiety attack.

Brand New Colony - The Postal Service - This is sappy as fuck but my long time SO who doesn’t have a head for music or lyrics managed to memorize the lyrics of this song (and I cannot stress how hard that is for him, he literally does not hear music or lyrics the same way I do) and quoted them to me on a date once.  It was adorable, I think of it every time I hear it.

We Never Change - Coldplay - I legit don’t know what it is about this song, I think it’s the repetition of “I want to live life and always be true” because yeah big mood. 

Starts With One - Shiny Toy Guns - This whole fucking album was there for me when my depression and anxiety got to it’s absolute worst.  Even though the content of the song is sad, singing it out with full force always made me feel better.

Here Comes a Thought - Aivi & Surasshu, Estelle, & AJ Michalka - Steven Universe of course was able to give me a mindfulness song that best describes the feelings of intrusive thoughts and ALSO how to deal with them and I cry EVERY GODDAMN TIME.

Never Quite Free - The Mountain Goats - This is a great song about coping with trauma and how it stays with you, even when you’re “over” it.  It’s not happy, but I take comfort in it because it reminds me that it’s okay to not be okay, and that that’s not my fault when something causes me to relapse.

Everything’s Alright - Laura Shigihara - Another song about dealing with bad things and finding comfort in other people.  I loved this song since the first time I heard it.  Played the game it came (To the Moon) from like two years later and yeah, it’s a gut punch.

Eight Melodies - Keiichi Suzuki and Hirokazu Tanaka - Earthbound means a lot to me.  The Sanctuaries and the Eight Melodies mean a lot to me too.  I always have to take a minute for a good cry when I’m playing this game and this part happens.

Undertale - Toby Fox - I remember exactly how I felt when I walked down the long hallway in Undertale and this song started playing for the first time.  It was so out of place from the rest of the soundtrack stylistically, but absolutely perfect.  I remember thinking “this game is changing me.”  I played Undertale REALLY early, before the hype spoiled it for everyone, and this was the moment I realized I was going to be a different person after playing it.

King and Lionheart - Of Monsters and Men - OKAY THIS SONG HAS ONLY BEEN IN MY LIFE FOR TWO WEEKS AND IT’S ALREADY MADE ME CRY UPWARDS OF A TRILLION TIMES SO YEAH.  Just like, fuck me up.  Seriously.  Songs about being there for people you love and holding hands in the endtimes just… UGH.

orange: songs you want other people to associate with you

I call this playlist “BIG MOOD”

Die Anywhere Else - Alec Holowka & Scott Benson (Cover by Mandopony) - I have a weakness for a good riff and a catchy chorus and also anyone who knows me knows the chorus is BIG MOOD HOLY SHIT I WANT TO DIE ANYWHERE BUT HERE.

Live and Learn - Crush 40 - Look I like garbage and I need everyone who knows me to understand that sometimes I unironically listen to butt rock from sonic games.  If you can’t accept that about me we can’t be friends.

Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger - Daft Punk - I like to think I’m including this song because of it’s connotations about improving yourself and working towards being a better you but no it’s just robots I love robots.

Dog Days are Over - Florence + The Machine - I literally listen to this song every morning.  It’s my alarm clock.

No Dogs on the Moon - Griffin McElroy - MY AESTHETIC.  Seriously this song is just me.  Catchy off-sync tune with samples of dogs autotuned to nonsense and absolute cuteness.  This is me in song form.

What Would Captain Picard Do? - Hank Green - I may or may not quote this song unironically to people when I make decisions about important things.

Saturn Valley Caverns - Keiichi Suzuki and Hirokazu Tanaka - There’s a tumblr post somewhere about that one friend who makes you listen to shitty ambient cave music from Earthbound on vinyl… I am that friend.

Ready Steady Go! - L’Arc~en~Ciel - LOOK THIS SONG GOT ME THROUGH HIGH SCHOOL AND I COULDN’T FIND A GOOD QUALITY FULL VERSION BUT THAT’S OKAY THE FMA CUT IS PRETTY GOOD CUT.

Love Today - Mika - I think if I wanted people to know one thing it’s that I try my best to love everyone and this song works really good for capturing that mood.

Float On - Modest Mouse - I want to be this chill.  A lot of people think I am this chill.  I am not.  I wish i WAS THO.

Foreign Object - The Mountain Goats - Everyone should know my favorite Mountain Goats song is the one about the guy getting stabbed in the face with a knife because why wouldn’t it be.

Shy Guy’s Toybox - Yuka Tsujiyoko - This is what the inside of my brain feels like on a good day.

*~ASTERISK~ - Orange Range - I guess this song is from Bleach but I never watched Bleach.  I heard this song one time and I was like “THAT.  I WANT TO BE THE WAY THAT SONG MAKES ME FEEL.”  So yeah.  I want to be the way this song makes me feel.

Computer Music - she - sometimes I am basically a shitpost generating robot and people know this and love this about me therefore this song best expresses my love as a computer who loves music.

Pursuing My True Self - Shoji Meguro - Besides the fact that this is from Persona 4 and everyone needs to know I love Persona 4, I’ve taken on this song on as a personal creed because it makes me want to fucking jump kick the moon.

Movin’ Right Along - The Muppets (cover by Alkaline Trio) - Another chill song about going with the flow that I wish I was and i TRY SO HARD TO BE also I love the Muppets and this cover fucking rocks.

Love Like You - Rebecca Sugar - I am trash for this song it just fucks me right up.

canary:songs to listen to on a sunny day

Also known as “PUMPED UP KICKS THAT MAKE ME WANT TO PUNCH THE SUN”. 

I’m not gonna give individual explanations for these ones, but these are songs that make me feel energized and ready to take on the world, which I need when it’s sunny because I hate the sun and want to die.  Also I associate sun with summer, and summer reminds me of being at home and listening to KROQ (local radio station) with my dad.  A lot of these are the kinds of songs that we’d listen to.

I Bet You Look Good on the Dance Floor - Arctic Monkeys

Think I’m in Love - Beck

Ain’t No Rest for the Wicked - Cage the Elephant

World Go Boom - DJ Earworm

Cosmic Love - Florence + The Machine

These Days - Foo Fighters

Don’t Stop (Color on the Walls) - Foster the People

Holy Touch - Foxy Shazam

In This City - Iglu & Hartly

Are You Gonna be my Girl? - Jet

Big Casino - Jimmy Eat World

Bad Romance - Lady Gaga

No Children - The Mountain Goats

I will Wait - Mumford and Sons

Savior - Rise Against

Cherry Bomb - The Runaways

Far Behind - Social Distortion

Reptilla - The Strokes

Everything is AWESOME!!! - Tegan and Sara

It’s Getting Boring By the Sea - Blood Red Shoes

THAT WAS FUN BUT I SPENT WAY TOO MUCH TIME ON IT.