#and you just feel 163529251 feelings at once and it's overwhelming and it's literally stopping you from living

[murobrown]

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#do you ever feel so good that you just completely ignore all the bad feelings for weeks? #and you are doing just fine but then things start to fuck up and you can no longer ignore bad feelings #but you go and pretend it's okay #and suddenly it just hits you all at once #and you just feel 163529251 feelings at once and it's overwhelming and it's literally stopping you from living #I think that the stress from last week just triggered everything #I've been so busy I didn't have time to really feel anything or really think about anything #and now got to bed and I don't even want to fall asleep because I know I will wake up soon and get stressed #stress completely overwhelmed me tonight...I couldn't do anything but cry and I felt really defeated #I'm just so frustrated and overworked and hungry and stressed and fucking exhausted like never before #my whole body hurts like hell #I don't think I ever overworked to this point #it made me want to throw up when I got home today #there are so many things I need to manage now I can't really focus on any of them #and the idea that my first free day will be on Thursday just makes me want to cry again #and I'm working on Friday again...fuck me #I can't even imagine surviving tomorrow #I just want someone to tell me it's going to be okay and lie in bed with me for a while #sorry for another rant... I just don't want to sleep even though I know I should unless I want to pass out tomorrow #I even thought about hurting myself so that I won't have to work tomorrow #like spraining my ankle or breaking my finger #I think I'm officially going insane... goodnight I hope I will not wake up tomorrow #also I love you all very much and I hope everyone is happy and safe and healthy because you mean a lot to me ❤️❤️❤️❤️ ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️