#and zero energy bc of work

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

butterfly Howdy... he must be the prettiest girl at the party.... also so so tired

#i imagine that metamorphosis is Exhausting #turning to goop & then reforming takes a lot of work and energy yk #absolutely zero rest going on in there! #i can so vividly picture everyone gathering around his chrysalis waiting for him to emerge #ready to watch him to break free Beautiful and Refreshed #and then he just kinda. slides out and slaps against the ground. goopy. half dead. confused. crinkled #also much fluffier!!! #when he dries. before that he looks like someone drowned him #Having So Many Butterfly Howdy Thoughts #scribble salad #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #welcome home fanart #howdy pillar #yassified howdy <3 #i wanted his butterfly form to be like... longer??? more ~Elegant~ if that makes sense? #longer hair... longer fluff... longer antennae... claws bc why the fuck not. claws fuck severely. #eyelash thingies.... #hed probably end up cutting his hair short again but yk. wanna draw him with whatever the fuck that style is #is it a mullet? WHO KNOWS!

[cinna-bunnie]

u ever hope an ex is doing good then hear about the direction their life went and it's all just fucking tragic

#i got A Lot of tea from my coworkers who used to b friends with her on lunch bc we share my office #and we went in complete opposite directions. she's changed so much it's kind of scary even to her friends #she cut off all her queer and trans friends and said “[her] values have changed” and agrees with things her idiot toxic boyfriend #says when it's like girl this is SO so disappointing i know u know better. you are so much better than this u deserve sm better than this #i don't know if she's actually gone Full Catholic but she's extremely family oriented n her family is Mexican Catholic iykyk #it was a big problem in our relationship bc I'd only get to see Other People once every couple of months 😓 #anyways new dude is extremely machismo and even by those standards he's Far on the aggressive side it's really scary #she even wants to get married and have kids but like the scenes he makes and the way he blows up on her and makes her cry #really hurts my heart to learn about. she's such a beautiful smart and sweet girl i was hoping she'd figure out what she wants for #herself after we split. and i don't wanna make assumptions about her thought process but it sounds like she got more reliant on her #fam not less to the point that even her friends were stressed about it and aksjdkak. i could see how someone who #has the energy and desire to go to Everything and gets along great w ur fam is nicer compared to like. #a trans woman who feels like a caged animal and is constantly begging for rest she never gets #but are all the sacrifices you're making worth it? there is zero “haha that sucks” it's just. tragic. u cut off ur childhood best friend for #being enby?? I'd imagine she doesn't feel “lonely” but god she sounds trapped and i worry for her #but otoh hearing who she turned into really gave me closure bc no fucking way would i want to date someone like this... #and that is a nice thing to heal inside of me albeit healing from something fucked up #just the thought of “maybe. one day” till y'all have changed so much u can't recognize and don't want each other #i assumed she wasn't the same person anymore bc i wasn't but hoped she changed for the better. but 😐 ig not. idk. #I'm gonna have complicated feelings on this all day im At work and can't focus lol

[darehearts]

if you're reading this know that ily 👀

#i'll post some short replies and maybe write a one liner or two #remember that starter call from yesterday? i am softe............. #so there's no cap on it anymore. i have zero social battery in #the evenings so if you see me doing ic things and not replying #ooc it's bc work takes all that energy. just wanted to let you all #know that's it ;u; #tbd

[leefi]

im getting infused

#theyre about to stick those thangs in me #really curious to see the change in mental acumen/energy levels that’s gonna happen after this #my pipe dream is that this lessens my anxiety because my heart won’t have to be working overtime but idk if that’s how it works #(im getting iron infusions bc ive been at critically low levels for the past 13 years 😁👍 ferritin stores NEAR ZERO)

[sanchoyoscribbles]

'Tokyo Mew 2: Tokyo Miracle' is a nextgen webcomic based off of Tokyo Mew Mew! The comic's very first page releases on the first!

Read it at tokyomiracle.net, and find out when it updates and other news by following @tokyomiracle! I won't be posting about it each time here on my art blog after it starts releasing, so I highly recommend following that blog if you're interested 💗

#tokyo mew mew #tokyo miracle #tm2 #mira aoyama #i also will not be putting every single promo in the tokyo mew mew tag no worries lmao i dont wanna spam yall 😭 but also ive done zero #promo at all this month bc uhhh. many things happened. + ive spent any free energy working on pages!! so i could have a small stock of them #i like 2 be ahead :)

[brittlebutch]

truly i have not done any kind of sculpting in years but the new season sent me into a State and now here we are

#N posts stuff #i think its possibly obvious it’s been a while since my single 3d design class but #that’s art babey! wingin’ it!! #we did. ZERO planning for this we sprung into it with some tin foil and a manic energy so i’m having trouble telling how. cogent it is lol #i also did not use this kind of clay in college we used like proper baked clay stuff and this is air dry #bc i bought it to do some little painted charms and then got waylaid by Stoats #so the texture is very unfamiliar to me lol but it’s fun to figure it out and i hope she turns out well #i’ve been storing her in a tied off garbage bag between sessions bc idk how else to store it where it won’t dry out but it’s been working #pretty well so far it seems; so i won’t complain lol

[eyefocusing]

this has been the most week

#complaining ahead!!!! ik i dont make personal posts on here much anymore but i Need to vent in some tags for a bit #stepmom crashed the uhaul so bad this weekend that she had to be flown to a hospital three counties away #shes super lucky to even be alive but shes only got like. a single broken rib????? #aunt and i have been going to the crash site to clean up and recover what we can #bc the truck was totally full when it crashed and flipped over lol. stuff was scattered everywhere #its been fascinating to see what managed to survive getting flung out of a truck going so fast it took out multiple trees #the completely sealed bottle of v8 was pretty good. and my rolled up rug that got flung 15ft into a tree still makes me laugh #thankfully a lot of what was in the truck was just furniture but we still have nooooooo idea what the state of any of it is #bc they cant open the truck to check it out #and the moms r now stuck over there for a week bc the person they stayed w after the hospital has covid #and im taking full care of our 11 (11!!!) pets bc aunt works 12 hour shifts so she has like zero energy for any of that when she Is here #i mean im usually the go-to pet carer of the family anyways but this has been such a mentally taxing year i just want to nap for awhile #would love to be able to sleep for longer than three hours w/o a puppy pottying on the floor or cats escaping or dogs barking like mad

[dogbunni]

I have been on semi-haitus bc I recently got diagnosed with hypertension (at 24!!!! what da fuck!) so I've been trying to reduce some stress in my life while also trying to like figure out what I need to change diet/lifestyle wise and get all the testing done that I need to get done and figure out medication w my Dr. it's been kind of a lot

#im still SO stressed but that is because i suffer from shit life syndrome and there is little i can do about that #like im in pain all the time and also autistic and also my cat is terminally ill #and also i cant work because of the disabilities so im still living at home with my parents and idk what im going to do with my life #also living with my parents is a special kind of hell no offense to them but 🙃 #so the STRESS #i just realised that i was stressing a little about updating CTTD and i am NAUGHT going to worsen my health over fanfiction #so ive gone on an impromptu tumblr/ao3 haitus #idk when im going to be BACK back #but im still on here reblogging shit sometimes #just not rly making nendo headcanons or screaming in tags #i dont have the energy im SO stressed hahahahaha fuck #i have to get tested for diabetes??? #so my stepdad has been on my case about how much sugar i eat bc i always crave sugar #ive been trying to cut down like ive got zero sugar syrups for my (decaf!!!) coffees #and im trying to eat less chocolate #idk its hard man. my life already sucks and now my mundane little joys are slowly being cut out one by one #idk #anyways thats my life update! #saiki k fandom i love u all and i may not be active or in any of u guys notifs gushing about fan art or neno rn #but KNOW that i am still just as feral about it i am just half dead and so tired i am so sorry <3 #dogbunni diary log

[izzy-b-hands]

shout out to ND for making it incredibly hard to get caught up on COVID boosters; I think that may be why this time having COVID is kicking my ass so hard

#text post #i at least have been getting up to go downstairs but today i don't even want that and i hate that #my throat is killing me and there is Zero energy in any limbs and i slept for shit #bc apparently at this stage i should have been sleeping sitting up to help the throat (i am sitting up in bed now aksnfkgn) #butterscotch weed hard candy do ur work and numb my throat a bit pls #it keeps it from hurting as much and my god i have never been more grateful for weed aksndkfng #thank travis for travis but instead it's thank ppl who fought for legalization for it being legalized #i feel so lazy!!! sitting in bed!! gnashing teeth and frustration!!! #there is i think? a woodpecker outside tho and that's so cool #bc the last one i saw and heard was at my great aunt and great grandmothers place while they were both still alive #they claimed to hate the guy but after the fake owl didn't scare him off he just got to Stay aksndkfng #aunt Betty and great granma pls lend me some strength here bc im a Baby TM when sick like this aksndkgngn

[ladychlo]

:')

#mmm guys #I'm gonna answer your asks about louis' promo in tags #but If I dont answer all your asks #just know its because I spent the longest ass week at work + uni and today is my only day off and I have #zero energy zero coherent thought zero will to argue back about something or to have a proper give an take conversation about anything #and if I share lyrics sent to me (real or not) is just for fandom and for fun I have zero idea if they're real or not #and if you screen shot them please judt crop my url bc my aks are overwhelming rn #thank you #and SO SO SORRY #I dont try to come off rude or anything but I'm genuinely not in the right pleasant mindset to talk about anything too deeply or seriously #and I appreciate you sending me your thoughts and opinions I respect them all

[themagnificentmx]

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#i think ive hit my breaking point #3 missing assignments in my ap envirosci class #brings my grade down to a 66 :// #im gonna fucking lose it oh my god #it's fine bc i can turn it in late and hope my teacher takes pity on me #but . oh i want to strangle myself for forgetting to turn it in #i am not a freshman anymore !! fucking christ i need to get my shit together !!! #also . near tears because of precalc again #teacher assigned us homework and i Cannot figure out the last 6 problems #want to bash my head in bc i dont get it #im supposed to be smart istg #oh And i have my debate guide + art history notes that im behind on #ok . first thing i need to turn all my late work in #i do not have energy to care i just . cant have a zero in for my labs #gonna do that when i get to school and pray i dont cry in class #gotta finish my debate guide tn and then attempt some notes in the morning #Fuck why do i keep putting myself in this position #hey if any of yall have read this far into my vent post please send words of encouragement #D.vents

[nonbinarynightcrawler]

god being an adult is so scary 

things I have or will be paying off in the next few weeks - helping the neighbors pay for fixing our driveway (grinding it down and re-paving so that it doesn’t scrape our cars when we drive over it) ((AFTER the first contractor took their down payment and just fully disappeared)) - joint paying for a new backyard fence (and potentially having to dig out part of our backyard bc dirt has piled up against it and the neighbor’s yard is dug out slightly so our yard is about half a foot above theirs) - down payment on solar panel installation

#my savings are about to be zero and that's terrifying it's the first time I've had so little set aside #I recently got a raise at work but it's still part time and jesus #i literally only planned for the solar panel thing #the other two are being spearheaded by other neighbors and i dont control the timeline #and i cant push back the solar panels bc it's being sponsored by an energy trust and they only have so many to do in each district #oooghghg capitalism

[songtwo]

also my mom just booked a trip w our yoga group to this volcano/park for September which is cool enough already but i was thinking that if i get my scholarships I'd buy tickets for placebo the next day and also two days prior is a friend's bday party and a couple of days later is my friends' farewell party . nice

#the placebo tix r weird though there r still a lot available but there's only from two seats #and the cheapest is just rly shitty and the other one isn't even that nice and it's double #and the thing is I'd buy two one for me and one for my dad #though even if i bought the more expensive tickets they'd be like . 4 times less of what he's paying for me but anyway #bc when i said we should go see placebo he said yes but then the corona capital happened and he's basically paying for my tickets and all #there's also the franz Ferdinand/the vaccines gig which is sooooo slay but we both prefer placebo #but idk . if i only get one scholarship I'll buy the cheap ones the vibe and energy will be there anyway #and if i get both then the expensive ones #and if i get none then I'll kill myself #Though i also wanted to save for a trip me and my friends will take in October:3 #But there's also the money from the summer's work so! I'm not at zeroes anymore #i need a job sooooo badly but I'll most likely change my internship so i won't be working online anymore #so I'll have even less time . as if i didn't have any free time already #i forgot what the main idea of this post was . anyway excited yoga and parties will happen 👍

[lilyaceofdiamonds]

I really hate how much my brain hates to do new things sometimes

#oops i’m ranting in the tags apparently #tw for uhh depression and anxiety and eating difficulties in the tags if you read them #i made it to the door of a cafe two blocks from my flat #i’ve walked past it a dozen times in the six months i’ve lived here #and the menu looks good it’s coffee and breakfast foods and sandwiches #and they have donuts from a donut place i like #but it’s in a building with like three doors right next to each other and i didn’t know which one it was #and now i do bc i thought to check the address online #and made it to the door but it looks small and there were People there because it’s like noon duh #and i couldn’t see if there was more table just by peeking through the window while trying to look like i wasn’t peeking in #so i stood a foot away from the door and then left and went to my normal coffee place one block in the other direction #but i still haven’t gotten FOOD which is … not great i haven’t eaten anything in a couple days #i mean i had chinese food that i split between sat and sun as my lunch at work #but i should probably eat something but i’m tired of only going to the chipotle near safeway or the pizza bar which isn’t open yet anyway #which leads us back to i hate my brain and i’ll probably just end up getting chipotle again #but there are so many local restaurants that i want to try!! but i’m so picky about food while also hating to ask for modifications #and i used up most of the energy today dragging myself into the shower for the first time in dayss #and i need to do laundry and go grocery shopping and do the dishes and and and #and i’m still fucking exhausted even though i passed out on the couch last night and didn’t drag myself out until like 11 am #and i have work tomorrow so laundry NEEDS to happen because i worked eight days in a row and have zero clean work clothes #and i can hear my stomach growling at me because coffee was not enough and i know better and i’m really not trying to starve myself to death #but goddamn i just don’t want to have to do anything #i hate this #why brain why #mental health: deteriorating #my ramblings

[woosansang]

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#jazzy talks #delete later #i cant even bring myself to do any of the work i was supposed to do two weeks ago #i have stuff sitting around from the previous topic from all my classes and we're nearly finished with the current topic #how did i get so far behind #im so tired #im so fed up with dealing with shitty shitty kids who dont listen or show basic human respect #three more weeks of term....................... #i just want to rest #i cant even reply to all the messages in my notifs on my phone bc the thought of using energy even for that is inconcievable #since i have zero energy to give #ive broken down three times today already like how am i supposed to keep going through every week like this #it's fucking monday

[heartual]

jesus fuckening christ i have never submitted an essay before with this little time left

#🍄.txt #11:58 (she says in all caps if you could capitalize numbers) #no proofreading two sentence conclusion no checking works cited submitted raw #i have no idea what i said at any point in this paper but it’s out of my hands now 🛌 #gonna need to lay in bed for at least half an hour before i can muster up the energy to go shower bc i have class in the morning #when i said i was submitting the worst thing i’ve literally ever written so far in college. that was a premonition #but i submitted something!! no zero for midterm at least i think i can take that at this point otherwise i’ll cry #literally all i want is a c. please that’s all i ask