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thedragonofthecastle · 4 years

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tagging everyone who followed me before cause it’s calming

if you want to follow me here please do, if you don’t want to no pressure

(from @primaryyblogg incase ya forget)

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phursonas · 7 years

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congrats on 7k !!!!!!

thankies ... :’)

#how nice #angstieties #send me asks fun

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a-scary-noodle · 5 years

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Deceit angst = Angstceit

Virgil angst = Angstiety

Roman angst = Creangstivity

Patton angst = Morangstity

Logan angst = Logangst

Remus angst = Intruangst

Sorry I'm really craving some sympth Deceit angst rn

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astronomicaldan · 7 years

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my fav emoji is 👌 (also if u could rate my sb wetnsticky tht wld b Amazing :-((( )

for @wetnsticky

url: i don’t rly get it | this is nice | who did you kill

theme: default | it’s pretty cool | wow this is goals | hello are you michelangelo

icon: its nice | aw this is perfect | where and how did you find this

posts: not my thing | pretty great | im highkey stalking your blog rn

following?: no but ily | i am now | ofc i am | unfollow button? what’s that

comments: your posts are great

no more please

#wetnsticky #angstieties #seb does blogrates

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sassyshoulderangel319 · 6 years

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Headcanon that Every. Single. Sanders Side. Writes fanfiction.

Patton:

~Username: PatDadLovesLove ~Author Bio: “I love my sons (esp. my dark strange son)! Do what’s right. Stay in school. Don’t do drugs (unless they’re prescribed by a professional and then use as directed).” ~Patton generally writes ridiculously emotional fics for whatever ship he’s feeling up for that day. Usually writes one-shots. ~His fluff is teeth-rottingly sweet and any angst he writes will make you weep at three-AM because you just found this fic and it’s so good and it hurts so much but you just. Can’t. Stop. ~Sometimes his fluff and angst are in the same fic, so one chapter you’ll be squealing and giggling and “Aw!”ing, and two chapters later you’re sobbing profusely. ~His three multi-chapter fics are REALLY long because he doesn’t have the heart to finish them. ~(His Frequent Commenter is Virgil. Patton knows but pretends he doesn’t. Virgil leaves long comments. Patton loves it.) ~Takes requests. Will write long one-shots for commenters when they say they’re feeling down.

Virgil:

~Username: Angstiety (made when he was a teen, changed to Vngstiety when he started accepting himself but had enough of a following that he didn’t want to change it so much as to be unrecognizable. Also aesthetic. Might make more changes later.) ~Author Bio: “Whatever. I write whatever shows up in my head.” ~Generally tends to write angst so deep that you’ll feel like your chest has literally become a void. ~Often writes song fics. Usually for angsty songs. Sometimes for cheesy ones. ~Always has profound observations about life, love, friendship, and identity ~Will probably also make you cry ~Has had occasion to write an entire fic in the form of sonnet after sonnet. (Or three. One might have also been an epic free verse poem) ~Writes some fluff. Not as cavity-inducing as Patton’s but there are moments when he comes close. Sometimes uses it to break up long overly-angsty long-form fics to give the readers’ heartaches a break. ~Patton leaves long comments glowing with praise. The others don’t know his account exists. ~Occasionally takes requests. Depends on his mood.

Roman:

~Username: PrinceRoman (obvious, but he likes it) ~Author Bio: “I AM THE GREATEST PRINCE IN ALL THE LAND!” ~Doesn’t really care what genre he’s writing, but usually does wildly creative AU’s. ~KING (or prince?) of self-insert fics ~His fics are of EPIC proportions. That one he wrote for Logan for Christmas? Yeah that one was almost conservatively-lengthed by his standards. ~Usually commits to one or two WIPs till they’re finished, and they. Get. LOOOOONG. ~Will write one-shots on the side when feeling uninspired for his long-forms. ~Sometimes gets troll comments from Virgil, but the troll comments also hold a double entendre of actually being really complimentary (e.g. “This sucks good!” being left on Roman’s vampire!AU fic, quickly followed by a smiley face and a thumbs-up emoji). ~Patton leaves long comments glowing with praise. ~When not writing a self-insert, he writes whatever ship he’s obsessed with at the moment. ~Also takes requests occasionally. A little more frequently than Virgil when one request is just *shakes fist* so creative! Sometimes may take suggestions for what direction his fic should go if he’s stuck.

Logan:

~Username: EthosPathosLogan ~Author Bio: “If you can’t say something right, don’t say anything at all. (And if you say something wrong, apologize immediately and learn from your mistake.)” ~Hoo boy. Logan’s fics. ~Almost as long as Roman’s. Longer than Patton’s and Virgil’s usual lengths. ~Has an expansive vocabulary. ~Perfect formatting. ~Deeply researched. As accurate as possible. ~His descriptions are often a bit too long, too wordy, and a little too detailed, but he wants to be accurate! ~Often cites academic articles (in perfect MLA format) in his author’s notes (or an entire Works Cited chapter at the end) in case anyone wants to learn more. ~His first fic literally read like he was describing the results of a scientific study. He improved from there. ~Doesn’t write romance. Doesn’t write too much emotion at all unless he’s indulging. Prefers to write mystery!AU’s and detective!AU’s. Intricately-woven plot-lines and subtly-placed details. Half of his readers are mildly convinced he’s an Agatha Christie descendent. ~The other half believe he’s actually Sir Arthur Conan Doyle reincarnated given he tends to write almost solely for Sherlock Holmes. ~Once wrote a crossover where Sherlock met Data. Got weirdly popular and he doesn’t know why. ~Patton leaves long comments glowing with praise. ~Doesn’t take requests or suggestions usually.

Deceit:

~Username: SnakesAndLies ~Author Bio: “The cake is a lie. And so is everything else. Including you. And me. And life. Deal with it.” ~Plot? What is plot? ~Canon? Is that a thing? ~Not to Deceit ~Crack fics and crack ships ~Short chapters, short fics, short one-shots ~You can never tell if he’s joking or not when he writes some of these things. Like, seriously, what was that all about? And with that username it’s even harder ~Sometimes he writes really nasty fics---like you can feel the malice coming through your screen. ~You can almost imagine the author has a forked tongue. ~That being said, he does have some clever ways to turn a phrase.

Sleep has an account but doesn’t post anything so no one knows if he writes. He just stays up all night reading. Sometimes he’ll comment at 4AM. When that happens it appears to be key-smashing because he’s too tired to string coherent thoughts together.

#long post #Sanders Sides #Thomas Sanders #thatsthat24 #Logan Sanders #Roman Sanders #Virgil Sanders #Patton Sanders #Deceit Sanders #Logan #Roman #Patton #Virgil #Deceit #Deceit's username could use some work but idk #i tacked him on at the end #Sleep Sanders #Remy Sanders

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angstietyprone · 5 years

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#Angstiety #Memes

#Memes #Dank Memes #Meme Stash

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listen-to-my-nonsense · 3 years

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all-da-fandoms · 7 years

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I love the sanders sides, specifically:

Roman = Drama son/ Drama Boi

Logan = Mr.Sanders/ Smort Son/ Smort boi

Patton = Pops/Patt/Patt-Patt/ Papa Patt-Patt/Sunshine Boi/ Dad Son/Dad

Virgil = Angstiety/MY SON/dark son/emo son/angst son/son/emo boi

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sanderssides-fics · 7 years

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Regret (a warning fic of the during and aftermath)

Plot: angstiety Tw: suicide,suicide attempt, attempted overdose, alcohol consumption, suicide note, CPR, hospital mention, A/N: give me honest opinions please Tags: @the-prince-and-the-emo @analogically-prinxiety @softlogic @dan-yuna @princey-and-hottopic @princeyandanxiety @the-sanders-sides _________666_________

Ann stared blankly at the wall adjacent to him, as he had been for 5 days. He didn't sleep, eat, or move other than a few blinks. Ann's thoughts were tearing at him, too busy fighting them to do much else.

"You're worthless"

"Just kill yourself"

"No one needs you here"

"Jump out the window face first"

"You're a waste of oxygen"

"You're nothing"

"You're an illness"

"You're the bad guy, and that's all...you'll ever..be"

"You've lost"

"You'll never be loved"

"Nobody would care if you're gone"

"If anything they'd be happier"

Anxiety blinked hard, bringing him back to reality "nobody would care" He repeated, tears in his eyes but he didn't cry. He wasn't scared, he was determined as he walked to his attached bathroom. 3:00...3:00...3:00 the clock blinked the early hour, Anxiety quietly searched the cabinet before finding what he needed. Serepax, oxazepan, the anxiety medication the doctor had prescribed for his worst anxiety days. He peeled the back label to seek instructions.

'An overdose of oxazepan can be fatal, please seek medical help if you suspect you have overdosed, symptoms may include: extreme drowsiness, confusion, weakness or tired feeling, muscle weakness, loss of balance or coordination, feeling light-headed, fainting, or coma' The label read and Anxiety popped the container open, lulling out 15 pills into his hand. 'Do not consume with alcohol' caught Anxiety's dazed eye before he waddled over to his dresser and dug in the sweater drawer pulling out a bottle of gin and filled his mouth with the harsh alcohol before dumping all the pills in his mouth at once and swallowed. Anxiety returned to his bed and sat quietly 3:15...3:15...3:16 the clock flashed next to his bed. "Blink." Anxiety spoke before each flash and then he noticed he was feeling light-headed. A small disoriented 'oo' dwelled in his mouth as he also felt weak and dropped casually on to his bed. Struggling to the pull the bed covers over himself.

3:20..3:21... Anxiety didn't know where the clock went, it had melted into the pitch black room like everything else. Anxiety felt sleepy, his eyelids to heavy to hold anymore as they fell. Limp body, limp mind, 6:30..beep..6:31 Patton opened Anxiety's door and smiled seeing Anxiety was finally sleeping, didn't think twice before closing the door. He got Roman to fencing practice, soon after and Logan left for work.

2:46..2:47 Anx's eyes blinked open and he began to cry, he was still alive and he hated it.

"Good job, you failed"

"You can't even kill yourself right!"

"Those are meds designed to destroy Anxiety how are you still here?!"

"Such a waste of oxygen"

Anxiety let the tears and sobs go freely, his eyes let tears go until they were dry and his throat sobbed until it burned.

He had failed, he'd try again later.

_-_

A week later, Roman had a fencing competition out of town and Anxiety offered to watch the house. Roman didn't care, he never cared what Anxiety did..at least that's how Anxiety viewed. Logan, Roman, and Patton were all gone for the weekend. Anxiety took his Blink 182 cd and put it on on that Saturday night, the family would be home around noon Sunday morning. Anxiety held the rope in his hands, a montra of encouragement in his head, the evil gremlin voices replaced with that of his family. He whimpered as he tied the noose and then secured it on the closet rod. The note he had wrote placed on his dresser beneath his phone. Adam's song played through the house as Anxiety stood on a few shoe boxes in the closet and slipped the rough thread spiral around his sensitive neck.

'Final words?' A voice in Anxiety's head spoke and Anxiety whispered how much he loved his family. How this was for them, for all of them, to keep them happy and not broken. A chain is stronger without its weak link. He let his hands drop to his sides.

Just as the boxes slipped from beneath him, Anxiety regretted this and regretted ever thinking of it. He clawed at the rope and shook in desperate need of release as the thick thread pulled tighter around his thinning throat. A sickly gasp and breathless, soundless scream for help coming from his blue lips as Anxiety's face turned red and then purple, then pale as it dropped to meet his chin to his chest, arms falling to his sides and legs dangled like Christmas streamers.

Gentle loving embraces from Patton.

Verbal battles ending in tackle hugs from Roman.

Debates and discussion with Logan.

Sweet memories and some bad ones floated through Anxiety's mind as he viewed his past. Swallowing his final breath and all was black, all was gone, nothing lasts forever. Anxiety didn't want to feel nothing forever.

12:00...12:00...12:00

The first to run to see Anxiety that next sunny Sunday morning was Roman, wanting to show his first place trophy to his favourite baby brother. "ANXI!" Roman smiled bouncing to Anxiety's room until he stepped inside. His voice cut short and his mouth ran dry. "A-Anx? Thi-this isn't funny!" Prince was scared. Anx was just dangling there, feet swaying gently as the rope was almost breaking Anxiety's neck in half. The entirety of his body was pale and his eyes were shut. Roman slowly approached the hanging frame and poked Anx, the body swung back but no other movement was made. A blood curdling scream emitted from Roman, calling the attention of Patton.

When the father figure reached the door of Anxiety's bedroom he too froze. "God no! Please no!" He sobbed and broke out of his trance, running to the closet to cut Anxiety down from thread leash. The rope shredding in Patton's shaky hands as he threw it behind him and listened to Anxiety's mouth for any breath... Nothing.

Tears claimed his face and Anxiety's shirt as Patton desperately began CPR. "Anx please, it's not your time. Oh my God come back now please!" Patton spoke, low on his own oxygen as he pumped Anxiety's chest and tried to get his lungs going with warm breaths filling Anxiety's cold mouth. Roman had ran to get Logan to call the paramedics. Patton didn't stop, he wasn't going to just let his 'son' slip away so quick... so young. Patton screamed and sobbed for Anx to wake, to respond, to breathe... to live.

Roman cried in his room, it all was too much for the prince, his mind playing tricks on him. Voices saying if he had been there more, had been a better brother, been a better person. Anxiety would be alive, he'd still have a brother to be there for.

Anxiety's pale skin, blue lips, and red throat were embedded in the Imaginative traits mind, panning views of Anxiety dangling in his closet door way. The bang of a trophy hitting the ground, the bang of his heart was some how louder. Roman pulled at his hair and screamed loud with eyes clenched shut as he realized all the warning signs Anxiety had given them of this... they could've stopped this.

Logan felt his chest tight, a heart beat was not how to deceive this rapid tempo in his chest. A bass drum of a sped up rock band, ears ringing louder than ever before. Patton's sobs and Roman's screams filled the house as Logan tried to stay calm on the phone. He knew something had been wrong but ignored it. Now their beautiful Anxiety was gone and that thought killed Logan worse than he had ever before.

Paramedics rushed in, white coats and blue masks. They checked Anxiety and pulled Patton away from the unresponsive body. Hoisting their little emo on to a stretcher and taking him away on that wheeled bed of seemingful hopeless death. Sirens in a white vehicle sped off to a far away building that released the desperate sense of out of reach help and pointless breaths stolen by demon thoughts.

Patton dropped to his knees in sobs and broken cries. Deep, shaky, staggered breaths filled the air more than the stench of death. Sobs and whimpers emitted from a darkened once lively room of the imaginary optimism that protected a hyper boy, but today these bright walls were darkened and suffocating like that dreaded rope. 'Leave me alone!' 'No one cares!' 'You're so needy!' Things once said from the royals mouth towards the fallen trait came to Roman's mind resulting in another cry of helplessness and self blame. How could he? Treating such a young soul like that? Logan lain on the couch, a Dizzy vision and headache kept him from leaving the cushions of defeat. His heart felt pressurized and painful as his ears rang louder than before, glasses fogged in his fearful cold sweat. Unable to drive, he awaited the call. Whether Of Anxiety's untimely demise or relieving survival.

One hours time lead all the boys into Anxiety's room cuddled into Anxiety's bed wuth tears on their face as they found the letter and opened it in fear of the words the boy might have wrote. Broken souls could write many things. Nothing could have prepared them for what they read though.

"Dear family,

_____I'm sorry, I know that you tried. Those times when we were young and you were all so excited when we'd find eachother at night. Cuddle in the dark watching Disney movies with the protections of each other's necks at scary parts.

____But there's no neck to hide in from the scary parts of life, face them head on and get knocked down. You're supposed to get up and fight your battles to win your wars and hold on to your life like a child does to their hand when their finger is sore. Tears unfolding down your face. Suck it up, was so popular as we grew up. I never liked growing up with those realizations.

____No escape from what's wrong for years on end and sometimes it just felt like nothing ever ended. There's always something wrong and nothing is ever okay and nothing is ever easy. They told me when I grew up I'd amount to something but I never did, I was only ever pain and only ever darkness. I'm the bad guy and that's all I've ever been.

____Everything is too hard these days. It hurts, it hurts a lot. I tried and it's not your fault, it's never been your faults. I'm doing this for me because I'm selfish and stubborn, that's what suicide is. Selfish and stubborn.

____Adding up to your expectation was too much I'm sorry. I wanted to be okay and be happy and be who you wanted me to be but I never could and I never would and I never did. Maybe when I'm gone, maybe things will be better.

____I'm sorry, I'm so sorry but it's too hard and it hurts so much. These thoughts are too loud and these words are too little. You're the best family you could have been, but I'm not worthy of it and I'm not worthy of life. Read the first two words of each paragraph and then the final sentence of this note.

_____I l♡ve you, goodbye. "

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