#anime bl | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

abipolarsimp · 10 months

Text

❧ Avaricious Affection

a one-shot fanfiction story

©rozuannecchi

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐅𝐈𝐑𝐒𝐓 𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐄 that Ushijima laid his eyes on Shoyo's sister, he already knew he fucked up. He can't understand himself why he wants to see Natsu's face everyday and every-minute of his life. It's like a drug that he wants to take every minute of his life.

He wished to meet Natsu again and know more about her, and his wish came true. The girl he adore becomes his student. '𝘐 𝘢𝘮 𝘎𝘰𝘥'𝘴 𝘧𝘢𝘷𝘰𝘳𝘪𝘵𝘦 𝘢𝘧𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘢𝘭𝘭.' he thought to himself, and entered the classroom with a little smile on his lips. He knew for sure that his weekdays will not be boring anymore.

Since that day, Ushijima always looks forward to teach the section where Natsu belongs. He doesn't know why he loves her so much to the point that his world revolved around her every time he will see her. He knows that his love for the little girl isn't ordinary and he can't name that feeling. But deep down he is afraid to realize that feeling.

"𝙈𝙞𝙨𝙨 𝙃𝙞𝙣𝙖𝙩𝙖. 𝙄 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙩𝙤 𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙮 𝙖𝙛𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙘𝙡𝙖𝙨𝙨." Natsu flinched by the sudden call of Ushijima. She looked at her hands fidgeting and nods slowly. '𝘐 𝘸𝘰𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘐 𝘥𝘪𝘥 𝘸𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦. 𝘐 𝘩𝘰𝘱𝘦 𝘕𝘪𝘪-𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘯 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴, 𝘰𝘳 𝘦𝘭𝘴𝘦 𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘭𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘦 𝘮𝘦 𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘪𝘯.' She sighs and didn't even bother to look at him. She was nervous because she doesn't have any clue why she needs to stay.

"𝙏𝙝𝙖𝙩'𝙨 𝙖𝙡𝙡 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙩𝙤𝙙𝙖𝙮. 𝘿𝙤𝙣'𝙩 𝙛𝙤𝙧𝙜𝙚𝙩 𝙩𝙤 𝙖𝙣𝙨𝙬𝙚𝙧 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙖𝙘𝙩𝙞𝙫𝙞𝙩𝙞𝙚𝙨 𝙞𝙣 𝙥𝙖𝙜𝙚𝙨 69 𝙖𝙣𝙙 70." Ushijima put all the papers and book in his bag, ready to leave. "𝘼𝙡𝙨𝙤, 𝙈𝙞𝙨𝙨 𝙃𝙞𝙣𝙖𝙩𝙖. 𝘿𝙤𝙣'𝙩 𝙛𝙤𝙧𝙜𝙚𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙣𝙚𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙮 𝙖𝙛𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙘𝙡𝙖𝙨��." "𝙔𝙚𝙨, 𝙎𝙞𝙧. 𝙄 𝙪𝙣𝙙𝙚𝙧𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙣𝙙. " "𝙄𝙛 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩'𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙘𝙖𝙨𝙚, 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙜𝙤𝙤𝙙𝙗𝙮𝙚 𝙘𝙡𝙖𝙨𝙨." The whole class bid farewell to their teacher, except one girl that only wants for the ground to open up and just eat her.

Ushijima is humming a happy song the moment he left the classroom with a small smile of victory on his lips. The happiness on him is so visible, while Natsu is stuck to the teasing of her classmates for being able to stay and talk longer with their hot teacher.

After hours of teaching and the students' listening, the bell rang symbolizes that the school hours are all ended. Hearing the bell ringing, Ushijima can't help to feel the excitement that bubbling inside him while Natsu's nervousness is swallowing her up. She wants to disappear in the world right at that moment, she didn't even hear the door opened. She came back to reality when suddenly someone called her name.

Natsu can't help but to turned around, at that time she didn't see a teacher. She saw a predator ready to attack its prey. The smile that was on Ushijima's lips faded when he saw Natsu's state. It feels like Natsu saw a ghost and she's ready to faint. He runs immediately in her side to catch her when she faints literally.

𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐓𝐀 𝐒𝐇𝐎𝐘𝐎 is one of the co-workers of Ushijima Wakatoshi and a brother to Natsu. He is hard-working, sweet, and a protective older brother. Since the moment he realized that Natsu is growing, he decided that he will protect her no matter what happens.

That night he thought that Natsu already went home but his mother called him telling him that Natsu is not home yet. He was in terror because he doesn't know what will he do if something bad happened to his precious little sister.

𝘊𝘭𝘢𝘴𝘴𝘳𝘰𝘰𝘮 is the first place that comes into Shoyo's mind. He stands abruptly on his sit and run as fast as he could to Natsu's classroom to check if she's really there. Shoyo stopped at the front door of Natsu's classroom panting really hard.

When Shoyo decided to open the door he heard voices inside of that room. His hand stopped mid-air because he realized that one of the voices belongs to his sister. Shoyo peaks at the window and he was shocked on what he saw. It was his sister - Natsu- and Ushijima talking about something happily. Their backs are facing Shoyo's direction so they didn't saw or noticed him. "𝙉𝙖𝙩𝙨𝙪. 𝘼𝙧𝙚𝙣'𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙢𝙤𝙢 𝙜𝙤𝙣𝙣𝙖 𝙨𝙘𝙤𝙡𝙙 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙜𝙤𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙝𝙤𝙢𝙚 𝙡𝙖𝙩𝙚?"

"𝙊𝙝 𝙨𝙝𝙤𝙤𝙩! 𝙏𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙠 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙧𝙚𝙢𝙞𝙣𝙙𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙢𝙚 𝙐𝙨𝙝𝙞𝙟𝙪𝙢𝙖-𝙨𝙚𝙣𝙨𝙚𝙞." Shoyo saw Natsu stands from her chair and fix her uniform and bag. She bid goodbye to her sensei and runs outside of the room. He panicked for a second and decided to hide at the room next door. He calmed himself and ready to go out of the room when suddenly, Ushijima said something that made Shoyo's world crumble.

"𝙔𝙤𝙪 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙢𝙞𝙣𝙚, 𝙉𝙖𝙩𝙨𝙪. 𝙔𝙤𝙪 𝙖𝙡𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙮 𝙗𝙚𝙡𝙤𝙣𝙜𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙢𝙚 𝙨𝙞𝙣𝙘𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙙𝙖𝙮 𝙬𝙚 𝙢𝙚𝙩." Shoyo heard Ushijima's footsteps that was vanishing from his ear. Shoyo's hands are shaking and his lips are trembling. He doesn't know what is the meaning of what he heard but his gut feel tells him that something bad will happen. Slowly, he opened the door and walks outside the room while his mind is wandering somewhere else. A month passed since that night. Shoyo always checked his sister before and after the class. He also avoid Ushijima in school even in the faculty room but Ushijima didn't noticed it. Shoyo wants to make sure about what he heard that night. He doesn't want to confront Ushijima without a solid evidence in his hands.

Since that night, Ushijima didn't tell Natsu to stay after the class anymore but he always make sure that their path will always meet and they wilk talk to each other for like a minute or two. Sadly, Shoyo doesn't know that those things are happening.

𝙊𝙉𝙀 𝙏𝙄𝙈𝙀, there was a faculty meeting that made every teachers and staffs to stay longer in the school. It was the best moment for Shoyo to know something about Ushijima's motive. '𝘛𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦, 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘴𝘶𝘳𝘦. 𝘐 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘳𝘦𝘥-𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘥.' He thought while sending Ushijima daggers secretly. After the meeting, everyone decided to go for a drink but Shoyo told everyone that he still needs to do some lesson plans so he excused himself.

He didn't noticed that Ushijima was gone in the group because his mind is busy calculating all the things he planned. When the group was already out of his sight, he ran as fast as he could to go back to the faculty room. Shoyo stopped at the front door of the faculty room, running out of breath. He waited for a few minutes for him to catch his breath before he decided to open the door. The moment that he opened the door of the faculty room, his jaw dropped.

The lights of the faculty room were off so it was dark but he heard moans inside that room. His body shivers from the cold and the voice, the sweat that was running to his face because he ran, doubled because of the fear he was feeling right at that moment.

The moans continue and Shoyo already wants to ask '𝘸𝘩𝘰'𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦?' But his mouth can't form a single word and his body move on his own. He walks silently towards that voice and when his foot reached their destination, his whole body went weak.

He saw Ushijima masturbating and moaning while looking at the picture of his sister. He covered his mouth with his two hands and walks backward not trying to make a sound. Shoyo was crying silently at the corner because he witnessed how Ushijima dirtied Natsu's image and dignity.

"𝙄'𝙡𝙡 𝙣𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧 𝙨𝙩𝙤𝙥 𝙣𝙚𝙚𝙙𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙮𝙤𝙪, 𝙉𝙖𝙩𝙨𝙪." He said with a hoarse voice, still looking at Natsu's picture while he continued pleasuring himself. When Ushijima reached his climax he cleans himself and smiled one more time before he put the picture back inside the drawer of his table.

"𝙔𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙥𝙞𝙘𝙩𝙪𝙧𝙚 𝙞𝙨 𝙣𝙤𝙩 𝙚𝙣𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝 𝙩𝙤 𝙨𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙨𝙛𝙮 𝙢𝙮 𝙙𝙚𝙨𝙞𝙧𝙚, 𝙢𝙮 𝙡𝙞𝙩𝙩𝙡𝙚 𝙖𝙣𝙜𝙚𝙡." Ushijima stands and fixes his things when he heard something. He heard someone run and closed the door. Ushijima's body tensed when a realization hit him. Someone saw him and his secret will leak anytime. On the other hand, Shoyo run fast while crying, as if a killer is chasing him. He can't bear to watch and listen to Ushijima anymore. When he reached his own apartment, his knee dropped. He shouted inside his apartment and you can hear the pain and anger in his voice.

𝙎𝙄𝙉𝘾𝙀 𝙏𝙃𝘼𝙏 𝙉𝙄𝙂𝙃𝙏, Shoyo isn't going out of his apartment for even a day. His co-teachers are calling him for being absent in 3 days straight. His sister and mother doesn't have any idea what is happening to Shoyo. Lastly, Ushijima already knew that it was Shoyo who saw him that night. Half of him feels guilty but half of him also feels nothing.

A week had passed and Shoyo decided to confront Ushijima and give him a deal. A deal were Shoyo will sacrifice his own pride and dignity.

Monday, he attended the school and he walked straightly to Natsu's classroom not minding to give a report to their dean. When he arrived at the front door of the room, Natsu immediately saw him. Shoyo can't smile to his own sister because the nightmare that he saw that night, keeps on haunting him. Shoyo knocked on the door and he only waved at his sister before he looked at Ushijima who's ready to teach the class. "𝙐𝙨𝙝𝙞𝙟𝙞𝙢𝙖 -𝙨𝙚𝙣𝙨𝙚𝙞, 𝙘𝙖𝙣 𝙬𝙚 𝙩𝙖𝙡𝙠 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙖 𝙛𝙚𝙬 𝙢𝙞𝙣𝙪𝙩𝙚𝙨? 𝙄𝙛 𝙞𝙩'𝙨 𝙤𝙠𝙖𝙮 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙮𝙤𝙪." Shoyo smiles innocently at Ushijima and Ushijima only look at him with a 'i-knew-it'-look.

Shoyo walked towards the school's rooftop with Ushijima behind him. When they reached the rooftop, Shoyo didn't wait for even a second and he punched Ushijima in the face. Ushijima fell on the ground with a loud thud and a shock expression written on his face.

"𝙔-𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙙𝙖𝙧𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙛𝙖𝙣𝙩𝙖𝙨𝙞𝙯𝙚 𝙢𝙮 𝙨𝙞𝙨𝙩𝙚𝙧!! 𝙒𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙖 𝙛-𝙛𝙪𝙘𝙠𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙥𝙚𝙙𝙤?!" Shoyo shouted and didn't controo his tears while pointing his index finger towards Ushijima. He was so mad at Ushijima. So mad that he wants to kill him, right at that moment.

He knelt infront of Ushijima who's still shocked about what happened. Shoyo calmed himself and wipednhis tears and snots. He looked straightly at Ushijima's eyes, and the guy who already snapped back at the present look back at him.

"𝙒𝙝𝙮 𝙙𝙞𝙙 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙙𝙤 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩?" Shoyo asked him, trying to calm his voice. Ushijima sighed and looked straightly at his eyes. "𝘽𝙚𝙘𝙖𝙪𝙨𝙚 𝙄 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙨𝙞𝙨𝙩𝙚𝙧." He stood up and dusted his uniform.

Shoyo stood abruptly ready to punch Ushijima again when Ushijima catch his fist and pulls Shoyo closer to him. Shoyo tries to escape from his enemy's embrace but Ushijima is stronger than him.

When he was ready to shout, something warm and soft touched his lips. He gasped when he realized that Ushijima is kissing him. That moment, Ushijima took it as advantage to enter his tounge inside Shoyo's mouth and explores it.

Ushijima looked one last time at Shoyo before he closes his eyes and deepened the kiss. Shoyo's knee went weak but luckily Ushijima held his waist tightly. Shoyo let out a moan which he regretted afterward. He broke the kiss and pushed Ushijima with his full energy. His face was red as tomato and his mind was on cloud nine.

Ushijima smirks at how he affected Shoyo from his kiss. He walks slowly towards Shoyo, still smirking. When he stopped, he leans in and whispers in Shoyo's ear. "𝘿𝙤 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙩𝙤 𝙗𝙚 𝙖 𝙧𝙚𝙥𝙡𝙖𝙘𝙚𝙢𝙚𝙣𝙩 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙨𝙞𝙨𝙩𝙚𝙧?"

Shoyo's body shivered from what Ushijima said. As if Ushijima seems to already know what's on his mind. Ushijima kissed Shoyo's cheek before he turned his back and walked toward the door of the rooftop. Suddenly, before he took a step outside Shoyo grabbed his hand.

"𝘿𝙤𝙣'𝙩.𝙮𝙤𝙪.𝙛𝙪𝙘𝙠𝙞𝙣𝙜.𝙙𝙖𝙧𝙚.𝙩𝙤𝙪𝙘𝙝.𝙢𝙮.𝙨𝙞𝙨𝙩𝙚𝙧." He gritted his teeth because of the anger that he's feeling. Ushijima smirked on what he heard, he finally got the answer that he wanted to hear. He pulled Shoyo closer to him again, and in that moment he knew that he already wrapped Shoyo in his fingers.

𝙈𝙊𝙉𝙏𝙃𝙎 𝙃𝘼𝙑𝙀 𝙋𝘼𝙎𝙎𝙀𝘿 since Shoyo accepted Ushijima's deal. He became his fuck-buddy and even though it was weird for him, he can't do anything but to spread his legs for Ushijima.

He wants his sister to be safe even though he needs to throw away his pride and dignity as a man. "𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘰𝘯𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵." From that text, Shoyo already knew what Ushijima wants.

After the class he made sure first that Natsu went home safely before he went to his own apartment to get ready for the night. That night, just like usual. Ushijima told Shoyo to wear a blindfold and put some clothes in his mouth to prevent him from moaning.

He knew what Ushijima's doing, he wants to imagine that it was Natsu that he's fucking. Ushijima devours him that night, he was fucking him mercilessly and not minding if he was hurting or not.

Shoyo's moans and sobs are mixing under the piece of cloth that was covering his mouth while Ushijima is moaning Natsu's name loudly while thrusting inside him. "𝙃𝙖... 𝙏𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙬𝙖𝙨 𝙜𝙤𝙤𝙙!" Ushijima stands and leave him from the bed. Ushijima went to the bathroom to clean himself.

While him, he was so dirty and sore. He tried to sit down even though his body hurts so much. He removed the cloth and blindfold, his tears streamed down into his cheeks.

He stands up from the bed and picks up all of his clothes. He wants to go home as soon as possible, so even though he's dirty and he can't move properly. He still tried to wear the clothes that he's wearing awhile ago and luckily he succeeded.

He looks at the bathroom door and heard the water still running, so he decided to go home without saying goodbye. When he picked up his phone from Ushijima's side table, Ushijima's phone lit up and Shoyo saw and read the notification.

It was Natsu who texted Ushijima greeting him a '𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘺 2𝘯𝘥 𝘮𝘰𝘯𝘵𝘩𝘴𝘢𝘳𝘺'. Shoyo's blood boils. He forgot about his bruised and sore body, he runs towards the highway and calls a taxi to take him to his mother's house.

When he arrived at his mother's house, he knocked on the door angrily and lucky for him, it was Natsu who opened the door. Before Natsu can speak and before Shoyo can calm himself, a hard slap already went to Natsu's face.

Both of them were shocked on what happened. Natsu was on the verge of tears and Shoyo feels guilty but his anger is eating him up. He pushed her inside the house and locked the door behind him. He was looking straightly at Natsu, who doesn't have any idea what is going on. Lucky for them, their mother isn't there that night.

"𝙉-𝙣𝙞𝙞- 𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙣? 𝙒𝙝𝙮 𝙙-𝙙𝙞𝙙 𝙮𝙤�� 𝙨𝙡𝙖𝙥 𝙢-𝙢𝙚?" Natsu can't control herself anymore and cried infront him. Shoyo wants to say sorry but he can't. So, he did what he needs to do.

"𝙃𝙊𝙒 𝘿𝘼𝙍𝙀 𝙔𝙊𝙐 𝙃𝘼𝙑𝙀 𝘼 𝙍𝙀𝙇𝘼𝙏𝙄𝙊𝙉𝙎𝙃𝙄𝙋 𝙒𝙄𝙏𝙃 𝙔𝙊𝙐𝙍 𝙏𝙀𝘼𝘾𝙃𝙀𝙍?!!! 𝙃𝙊𝙒 𝘿𝘼𝙍𝙀 𝙔𝙊𝙐 𝙎𝙏𝙀𝘼𝙇 𝙈𝙔 𝙈𝘼𝙉?!! 𝘼𝙉𝘿 𝙃𝙊𝙒 𝘿𝘼𝙍𝙀 𝙔𝙊𝙐 𝙁𝙐𝘾𝙆𝙄𝙉𝙂 𝙎𝙏𝘼𝘽 𝙈𝙀 𝘼𝙏 𝙈𝙔 𝘽𝘼𝘾𝙆??!!!" Shoyo didn't controlled himself anymore. He shouted at his sister.

"𝙄-𝙄 𝙩-𝙩𝙝𝙧𝙚𝙬 𝙖𝙬𝙖𝙮 𝙢𝙮 𝙥𝙧𝙞𝙙𝙚 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙙𝙞𝙜𝙣𝙞𝙩𝙮 𝙟𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝙩𝙤 𝙨𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪! 𝙄-𝙄 𝙚𝙣𝙙𝙪𝙧𝙚𝙙 𝙖𝙡𝙡 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙥𝙖𝙞𝙣, 𝙨𝙤 𝙝𝙚 𝙬𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙣𝙤𝙩 𝙩-𝙩𝙤𝙪𝙘𝙝 𝙮𝙤𝙪. 𝘽-𝙗𝙪𝙩 𝙬𝙝𝙮, 𝙉𝙖𝙩𝙨𝙪?!". Shoyo breakdown infront of his sister. He wants to tell her everything he did just for her.

In exchange of her safety and her bright future, he sold his soul and body to a demon. Natsu was shocked and she didn't know what to say. She knelt infront of his brother and give him a warmth hug.

A hug that fulls of love and longing. Shoyo cries harder when he felt the hug he was seeking along time ago. He hug his sister back, tighter and doesn't want to let go.

When something hit him hard. He pushed his sister away from him and runs out of the house. Natsu kept on calling his name but it feels like Shoyo can't hear her voice. He was walking out of nowhere and keeps telling himself "𝙉𝙊"

𝘿𝙞𝙙 𝙎𝙝𝙤𝙮𝙤 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙞𝙯𝙚𝙙 𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙤𝙬𝙣 𝙛𝙚𝙚𝙡𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙨 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙐𝙨𝙝𝙞𝙟𝙞𝙢𝙖?

𝘿𝙞𝙙 𝙝𝙚 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙞𝙯𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙛𝙧𝙤𝙢 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙗𝙚𝙜𝙞𝙣𝙣𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙝𝙚 𝙖𝙡𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙮 𝙡𝙤𝙨𝙩 𝙩𝙤 𝙐𝙨𝙝𝙞𝙟𝙞𝙢𝙖?

He keeps on walking and walking when something wet dropped on his shoulder. He looks up and he saw raindrops are keep on falling from the sky. He laughs and cries when he realized two fundamental truths at the exact same time.

One, he's doing everything because he loves Ushijima, even though Ushijima only treat him as slave and nothing more, it was okay for him. Two, his love for Ushijima and the love of Ushijima for Natsu are just the same. It was not a simple love.

𝙎𝙄𝙉𝘾𝙀 𝙏𝙃𝘼𝙏 𝙉𝙄𝙂𝙃𝙏, he didn't contact Natsu and he didn't even answer her calls. He also resigned at his job as a teacher because he doesn't want Natsu's path and his path to crossed.

He didn't told Ushijima the reason why he resigned and he also didn't confronted Ushijima about what he discovered. He let them do the things they want to do. Everytime Ushijima calls him or texts him to come to his apartment, Shoyo always satisfies his needs.

But little did Ushijima and Natsu knows, Shoyo was trying his best to make Ushijima fall for him. He wants Ushijima alone and he doesn't want anyone to block his plans and wants. But something happened.

It was Ushijima's birthday when Shoyo decided to surprise him. He baked a cake and he ordered a costume for a roleplay, it was his gift for Ushijima.

He arrived at Ushijima's apartment, he tried to open the door and luckily it wasn't locked. The time that he stepped at the entrance, loud moans were echoing inside the apartment. Shaking, he walks towards Ushijima's room and he dropped the cake as he saw Natsu and Ushijima fucking, in the bed full of red roses. The two stopped and looked at him with wide eyes.

The two person infront of him were in mess, and they were enjoying what they're doing. His tears streams down into his cheeks as he turn his back away from them and runs fast, leaving that place. He was walking and crying silently. He feels broken and mad, he wants to kill them but he can't.

𝙏𝙝𝙚𝙮 𝙢𝙖𝙙𝙚 𝙝𝙞𝙢 𝙛𝙤𝙤𝙡.

𝙏𝙝𝙚𝙮 𝙢𝙖𝙙𝙚 𝙝𝙞𝙢 𝙨𝙩𝙪𝙥𝙞𝙙, 𝙙𝙪𝙢𝙗 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙬𝙤𝙧𝙩𝙝𝙡𝙚𝙨𝙨.

That night, his heart and soul shattered into billion pieces.

A week passed since that happened. Now, he was eating alone in the park. He wants to get revenge but he doesn't know how. When someone sits beside him and said something that trigger his interest. "𝙒𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙢𝙚 𝙩𝙤 𝙠𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙥𝙚𝙧𝙨𝙤𝙣 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙮𝙤𝙪?"

A red haired guy, was looking down at him and he's smirking. Shoyo was shocked because the man knew what on his mind.

Shoyo opened his mouth to talk when the guy said something again. "𝙈𝙮 𝙣𝙖𝙢𝙚 𝙞𝙨 𝙏𝙚𝙣𝙙𝙤𝙪. 𝙉𝙞𝙘𝙚 𝙩𝙤 𝙢𝙚𝙚𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪, 𝙃𝙞𝙣𝙖𝙩𝙖 𝙎𝙝𝙤𝙮𝙤." Shoyo's heart beats faster because of what he heard.

How does this creepy guy knew him?!! It was like, this guy was reading his mind and he analyzes everything about the person infront of him.

Shoyo stands from his sit when the guy named Tendou grabbed his hand. Shoyo glares at Tendou but he just laughs at him. He pulls him to sit again and explained everything he knew.

Tendou was Ushijima's bestfriend. Ushijima stole his girlfriend and treated her as a sex slave. Tendou was so angry that time at Ushijima but he was more angry when he knew that his girlfriend sold herself to Ushijima because she was tired of Tendou.

When Tendou already told Shoyo everything, he asked Shoyo again for one last time. But the thing is, Shoyo decided that he is the one who will kill the person. "𝘾𝙤𝙢𝙚 𝙤𝙣. 𝙏𝙝𝙚𝙮'𝙧𝙚 𝙣𝙤𝙩 𝙬𝙤𝙧𝙩𝙝𝙮 𝙤𝙛 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙩𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙨, 𝙬𝙝𝙮 𝙙𝙤𝙣'𝙩 𝙬𝙚 𝙟𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝙠𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙢? 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩, 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙘𝙖𝙣 𝙛𝙧𝙚𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧𝙨𝙚𝙡𝙛." with that idea, something pushed Shoyo to agree with him.

Tendou smirked and they made plans. But there's something that is bothering Shoyo. His gut-feels are telling him to stop and don't try to do the plan. But Shoyo was so stubborn.

𝙒𝙃𝙀𝙉 𝙏𝙃𝙀 𝙉𝙄𝙂𝙃𝙏 to kill that person came, the thing that Shoyo's gut feels are telling him happened. He didn't killed Ushijima, it was Natsu. He killed his own sister because of jealousy and wrath. "𝙔𝙤𝙪 𝙨𝙤𝙡𝙙 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙨𝙤𝙪𝙡 𝙩𝙤 𝙖 𝙙𝙚𝙢𝙤𝙣 𝙟𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙢𝙚 𝙩𝙤 𝙗𝙚𝙩𝙧𝙖𝙮 𝙮𝙤𝙪. 𝙄'𝙢 𝙨𝙤𝙧𝙧𝙮, 𝙗𝙧𝙤𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧. 𝙏-𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙠 𝙮𝙤𝙪, 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙛𝙧𝙚𝙚𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙢𝙚." Natsu coughed blood before she closed her eyes as the grip of her hand on his brother's clothe loosened.

But little did he know, that Tendou betrayed him and he calls Ushijima to go to that abandoned place and watch how Shoyo kill his beloved. When Ushijima arrived, he was already late.

Shoyo is crying infront of Natsu's lifeless body holding an axe in his right hand. A river of emotions flows inside him. The guilt, the longing and the love that he was missing for so long.

He dropped the axe and hugs Natsu's body. "𝙉-𝙉𝘼𝙏𝙎𝙐!!!!!" He shouts and cries in agony, he wants to turn back the time but he can't.

𝙃𝙚 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩𝙨 𝙩𝙤 𝙨𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙨𝙞𝙨𝙩𝙚𝙧.

𝙃𝙚 𝙙𝙤𝙚𝙨𝙣'𝙩 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙝𝙚𝙧 𝙩𝙤 𝙙𝙞𝙚.

"𝙄-𝙞'𝙢 𝙨𝙤𝙧𝙧𝙮! 𝙉𝙖𝙩𝙨𝙪, 𝙥-𝙥𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙨𝙚, 𝙬𝙖𝙠𝙚 𝙪𝙥!! 𝙉𝙖𝙩𝙨𝙪!! 𝙄'𝙢 𝙨𝙤𝙧𝙧𝙮! 𝙄'𝙢 𝙨𝙤𝙧𝙧𝙮, 𝙉𝙞𝙞-𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙣 𝙞𝙨 𝙖𝙡𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙮 𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙚. 𝙄 𝙬𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙨𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙉𝙖𝙩𝙨𝙪. 𝙄 𝙥𝙧𝙤𝙢𝙞𝙨𝙚! 𝙉𝙖𝙩𝙨𝙪, 𝙥𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙨𝙚 𝙙𝙤𝙣'𝙩 𝙙𝙞𝙚 𝙤𝙣 𝙢𝙚."

Shoyo was panicking. He carried Natsu, bridal style. He was walking towards to entrance when a silhouette of a man came into his view.

He was frightened because he knew who's the owner of that silhouette. From the build of his body, he already knew.

Shoyo body stiffened and before he could react, a punch went to his face. He falls to the ground with Natsu still in his arms. He hugs Natsu, protecting her from any pain and beatings. "𝙔𝙊𝙐 𝙁𝙐𝘾𝙆𝙄𝙉𝙂 𝙈𝙊𝙉𝙎𝙏𝙀𝙍!!!"

Ushijima pushed Shoyo away from Natsu and he was the one carried the lifeless body of Natsu. Before he leaves the place with Natsu in his arms, he gives Shoyo a hard and powerful kick into his stomach that made him cough a blood.

Ushijima tries to save Natsu but before he arrived to the hospital, Natsu was dead on arrival. That night, he drowned himself in alcohol. He calls everyone who can help him to make a decent funeral for his little angel.

He also asked Tendou not to let Shoyo escaped. Ushijima also told Mrs. Hinata that her daughter was involved in an accident and died.

Natsu's mother can't take the news, she cried and cried until she passed out. Ushijima lied because he doesn't want the police to capture Shoyo that easily.

He wants to make him pay, everything he did to his little angel. At the funeral, he lets Shoyo to see his sister so their mother wouldn't suspect a thing.

𝙈𝙊𝙉𝙏𝙃𝙎 𝙃𝘼𝙑𝙀 𝙋𝘼𝙎𝙎𝙀𝘿 𝙎𝙄𝙉𝘾𝙀 𝙏𝙃𝙀 𝙁𝙐𝙉𝙀𝙍𝘼𝙇, every day and night Ushijima is devastated and he was drowning himself in alcohols.

He wants to forget but he can't so he did what he planned. He married Shoyo and bought a new house, that makes the tangerine happily but it wasn't like that. It wasn't a happy ending.

Everyday, everynight, everytime he saw Shoyo or he remembers Natsu. He will give Shoyo a beating and he will treat him like a slave. It was the usual routine of their lives and Shoyo is already used to it.

He was already numb, physically, mentally, and emotionally. When Ushijima stopped all those beatings and harassments. Shoyo was not shocked anymore when he can't feel any emptyness, or happiness when Ushijima stopped.

It's been three years when Ushijima stopped, he also didn't talked to Shoyo or even glanced at him at their house.

Shoyo finally feels free, that day he decided to go for a shopping. He wants to treat himself before he asked Ushijima for a divorce and surrender to the police.

At the mall, he saw something that he wished he didn't see. It was Ushijima with a girl beside him, they are talking happily and they are looking at the rings. Shoyo, for a long time felt a pang of jealousy in his heart. He turned his back immediately and leaves that place. That day he was already decided.

When he came home, he runs immediately to their room, he wrote a letter for Ushijima before he leaves the house saying a small goodbye. For a long time, he cried. That day, the sun was still shine but he's already crying.

He was walking without destination, when his feet brought him to the cemetery, infront of his sisters grave. He knelt infront of Natsu's grave, asking for forgiveness for a thousand times.

When a warm breeze passed by, as if it was Natsu hugging him tightly and saying "𝙄𝙩'𝙨 𝙤𝙠𝙖𝙮, 𝙉𝙞𝙞𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙣. 𝙄 𝙖𝙡𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙮 𝙛𝙤𝙧𝙜𝙞𝙫𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪. 𝙄 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪." with that, Shoyo cries even more.

When he woke up it was already dark and he was still infront of Natsu's grave. He stands up and dust-off his clothes, he smiled one more time before he decided to leave the cemetery. He doesn't want to go home, he wants to go somewhere else. When a place comes into his mind.

There was a beach near in their school, he walks to go to that beach while his mind his wandering somewhere else.

𝙃𝙚 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩𝙨 𝙩𝙤 𝙢𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙤𝙣.

𝙃𝙚 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩𝙨 𝙩𝙤 𝙢𝙖𝙠𝙚 𝙐𝙨𝙝𝙞𝙟𝙞𝙢𝙖 𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙥𝙮.

𝙃𝙚 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩𝙨 𝙩𝙤 𝙢𝙖𝙠𝙚 𝙞𝙩 𝙧𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙩.

Now, that Ushijima already found someone who can give him light from his dark world, he is happy to let him go. Shoyo arrived at the beach. The cold breeze, rustling sounds of trees and the restlesness of the sea, gives him peace.

He looked up to the sky full of stars, when suddenly a shooting star passed by. He closed his eyes and wished for Ushijima and his Mother's safety and happiness. He smiled for one last time before he walks to the sea.

He didn't stop walking not until the sea is swallowing him. When Shoyo already feels he is drowning, a tear scaped from his eyes and he smiled for one last time. A smile full of love and happiness.

𝘐'𝘮 𝘴𝘰𝘳𝘳𝘺 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘣𝘦𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧𝘪𝘴𝘩, 𝘜𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘫��𝘮𝘢.

𝘐'𝘮 𝘴𝘰𝘳𝘳𝘺 𝘪𝘧 𝘐 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘮𝘺 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘪𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘢𝘴 𝘐 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘵𝘦𝘤𝘵 𝘮𝘺 𝘴𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘳.

𝘐 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘮𝘺 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘣𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘰𝘯 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘮𝘺 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘶𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘳.

𝘜𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘫𝘪𝘮𝘢, 𝘐'𝘮 𝘭𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘨𝘰 𝘯𝘰𝘸.

𝘐 𝘮𝘢𝘺 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘣𝘦 𝘢𝘣𝘭𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘣𝘢𝘤𝘬 𝘮𝘺 𝘴𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘳, 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦 𝘭𝘦𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘣𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘺.

𝘣𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘪𝘦𝘳 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘦𝘭𝘴𝘦, 𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦.

𝙏𝙃𝘼𝙏 𝙉𝙄𝙂𝙃𝙏, Ushijima was so happy. He was ready to talk to Shoyo again. "𝙄 𝙬𝙞𝙨𝙝 𝙎𝙝𝙤𝙮𝙤 𝙬𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨. 𝙄 𝙘𝙖𝙣'𝙩 𝙬𝙖𝙞𝙩 𝙩𝙤 𝙨𝙚𝙚 𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙚𝙭𝙥𝙧𝙚𝙨𝙨𝙞𝙤𝙣." He laughed at himself, as he recall Shoyo's expressions every time he will tease him.

He was ready to move forward and make a new life with Shoyo. But that night, he went to an empty house. Lights are off and Shoyo's not there.

His heart beats faster because something wasn't right. He dropped all the paper bags and runs towards their room. He turned on the lights and Shoyo cannot be seen.

He checked all the rooms, bathrooms and even the backyard of their house. He can't see Shoyo. He walks inside the house again and tries to call his phone. "𝙎𝙝𝙞𝙩! 𝙋𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙨𝙚, 𝙥𝙞𝙘𝙠 𝙪𝙥 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙥𝙝𝙤𝙣𝙚. 𝙄'𝙢 𝙗𝙚𝙜𝙜𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙮𝙤𝙪, 𝙎𝙝𝙤𝙮𝙤. 𝙋𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙨𝙚, 𝙥𝙞𝙘𝙠 𝙞𝙩 𝙪𝙥."

Shoyo's phone rings and he immediately run to where it came from, but the rings led him to their room. Shoyo's phone was ringing on top of the side table, with the letter he wrote besides it.

Ushijima picks up the letter and sits down at the bed. With a trembling hand, he opened it and read it.

"𝘏𝘦𝘺 𝘜𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘫𝘪𝘮𝘢, 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘪𝘵 𝘯𝘰𝘸? 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘢𝘮𝘦 𝘩𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘭𝘢𝘵𝘦 𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘪𝘯, 𝘩𝘢. 𝘣𝘵𝘸, 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘯𝘦𝘳 𝘪𝘴 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘥𝘨𝘦, 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘦𝘢𝘵! 𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘣𝘢𝘵𝘩 𝘪𝘴 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘺 𝘵𝘰𝘰, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘰𝘸𝘦𝘭𝘴 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘭𝘥𝘦𝘥 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘢𝘣𝘪𝘯𝘦𝘵. 𝘐 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘭𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘺 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘴𝘰 𝘐 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥𝘯'𝘵 𝘣𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘥 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶, 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘐 𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘳𝘦𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺 𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘭𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘴𝘰 𝘐 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘐'𝘮 𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘶𝘴𝘦𝘧𝘶𝘭.

𝘉𝘶𝘵, 𝘐 𝘨𝘶𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘣𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘢𝘴𝘵 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘐 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘥𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴. 𝘏𝘢𝘩𝘢, 𝘴𝘰𝘳𝘳𝘺 𝘚𝘩𝘪𝘮𝘢! 𝘐 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘐 𝘢𝘮 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘣𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘶𝘯𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘪𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘮𝘢𝘥𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘴𝘶𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘳, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘐'𝘮 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘴𝘰𝘳𝘳𝘺 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵. 𝘐 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘵𝘦𝘤𝘵 𝘮𝘺 𝘴𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘰 𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘪𝘤𝘦 𝘮𝘦, 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘮𝘺 𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧𝘪𝘴𝘩𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘨𝘰𝘵 𝘢𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘥 𝘰𝘧 𝘮𝘦. 𝘚𝘩𝘪𝘮𝘢, 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘬 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘮𝘦. 𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘪𝘧 𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘮𝘦, 𝘰𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘴𝘦𝘦𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘕𝘢𝘵𝘴𝘶 𝘪𝘯 𝘮𝘦. 𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘦, 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘢𝘵 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘭𝘰𝘰𝘬𝘦𝘥 𝘢𝘵 𝘮𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘮𝘦.

𝘐 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘐 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘣𝘦 𝘶𝘯𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘳 𝘣𝘺 𝘴𝘢𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴, 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘺𝘦𝘴. 𝘐'𝘮 𝘭𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘨𝘰 𝘯𝘰𝘸, 𝘚𝘩𝘪𝘮𝘢. 𝘐'𝘮 𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘣𝘢𝘤𝘬 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘧𝘳𝘦𝘦𝘥𝘰𝘮, 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘐 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘦𝘴𝘦𝘳𝘷𝘦 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘦𝘭𝘴𝘦. 𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘥𝘦𝘴𝘦𝘳𝘷𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘺 𝘣𝘺 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘪𝘥𝘦 𝘢𝘧𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘐 𝘥𝘪𝘥, 𝘢𝘭𝘴𝘰 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘺. 𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘤𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘢𝘤𝘵 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘺 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘮𝘦, 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘐 𝘢𝘮 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘭𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦. 𝘕𝘰𝘸, 𝘭𝘦𝘵 𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴. 𝘐 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶, 𝘚𝘩𝘪𝘮𝘢. 𝘐 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶, 𝘴𝘰 𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦 𝘧𝘳𝘦𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘮𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘦𝘭𝘴𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘥𝘦𝘴𝘦𝘳𝘷𝘦𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘯 𝘐 𝘥𝘦𝘴𝘦𝘳𝘷𝘦𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶. 𝘐 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶, 𝘴𝘰 𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦 𝘣𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘮𝘦.

-𝘚𝘩𝘰𝘺𝘰 "

The last time he cried so much is when Natsu died, and now he's crying again because of Shoyo. He shouted and hugged the paper tightly, he cried and cried and cried, because his tangerine left him.

Ushijima pulls a box inside his pocket. He opened it and there was a ring inside of it. "𝙒-𝙬𝙝𝙮?! 𝙒𝙝𝙮 𝙙𝙞𝙙 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙢𝙚?! 𝙄𝙩 𝙬𝙖𝙨 𝙮-𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙬𝙝𝙤 𝙙𝙖𝙢𝙖𝙜𝙚𝙙 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙝𝙪𝙧𝙩 𝙢𝙚 𝙗𝙚𝙛𝙤𝙧𝙚 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙞𝙩'𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙖𝙜𝙖𝙞𝙣 𝙬𝙝𝙤'𝙨 𝙝𝙪𝙧𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙢𝙚 𝙧𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙩 𝙣𝙤𝙬. 𝙎-𝙨𝙝𝙤𝙮𝙤, 𝙄'𝙢 𝙨𝙤𝙧𝙧𝙮. 𝙋-𝙥𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙨𝙚, 𝙘𝙤𝙢𝙚 𝙗𝙖𝙘𝙠 𝙩𝙤 𝙢𝙚. 𝙄-𝙄'𝙢 𝙗𝙚𝙜𝙜𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙮𝙤𝙪!"

Little did Shoyo know, the time when Ushijima stopped beating him and harassing him is the time when Ushijima realized his own feelings for Shoyo. He realized that he loves Shoyo and he's just doing those things because of hatred.

When he realized his own feelings, Ushijima ask a psychiatrist to help him. He wants to be a better man for Shoyo. He wants Shoyo to be happy with him.

The consulting treatment, happened for 2 and a half years. When he was ready to face Shoyo again, his cousin suggested him to marry Shoyo again, now that their love aren't full of greed, wrath and jealousy anymore.

When Shoyo saw him with a girl, it was his cousin. She's helping him searching a beautiful ring that will suit Shoyo's finger. But, Shoyo saw it as a misunderstanding.

Ushijima cried again and again before he decided to call everyone. He asked for a help, he begged to them to help him find his sunshine.

He can't bare anymore if he will lose Shoyo too. Because if that happens, he is sure, he will not forgive himself and he knows he will not love someone else again.

That night, Ushijima didn't sleep. He waited for news from his friends while he's cooking a dinner and fixing their room while crying.

He wants everything ready when Shoyo comes back. He will propose to Shoyo because he wants everything to make it right.

Ushijima waited and waited but there's no news he received. When the morning came, Tendou called him over the phone. He said that they already found Shoyo.

Ushijima was so happy because finally, they found his tangerine but his world crumbled when Tendou added a bad news. "𝙄'𝙢 𝙨𝙤𝙧𝙧𝙮, 𝙢𝙖𝙣." Shoyo is already dead. He drowned himself.

2 notes · View notes