it’s interesting that when you look at before and after weight photos it seems as though the thinner version had been hiding underneath, as if they had to come out eventually. like that was the true reality, the obvious conclusion. I wonder how I’m supposed to look. what does my body look like under all of this unnecessary fat?
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Literally this is the last time I’m going to try and become a skinny queen. Literally have had this Ed for like 3 years and have lost sm weight then gained it all back again :(
But this time I’ll actually pull through and I need to hold myself accountable every time I slip up
(Also need an ana coach if anyone’s interested)
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"Why won't you just eat?"
Because one time when I was 16 my best friend invited me to hang out with her and her crush and then uninvited me because she was embarrassed of me
Because one time when I was 13 my friends and I went shopping and when I tried on a skirt one of them laughed
Because one time when I was 8 I was at the beach with my cousin and when I floated on my back she called me a whale
Because I remember every single time I was too much and I never want to feel it again
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I binged yesterday, I was so angry that i'm trying fasting for the first time, I'm doing 20-4, I will tell you if it works ( I don't know how y'all do 48h of fasting )
Maybe in a few days I will do 24h, eat then 24h again
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crazy how much energy things take when you’re mentally ill
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Only had 2 black coffees today and no food, i'm trying to mitigate my moment of weakness from yesterday when i made myself pasta at 11pm
I'll eat lettuce and tomatoes tomorrow i think
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intro!!
any prns!!
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not new to shtwt/edtwt/shblr/edblr
DNI WEIRDOS
need more moots ??
stats below <3
ask for my ed/shtwt @ :)
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you're thinking of eating? wtf are you, an on-land whale that needs a mobility scooter in shops because you get so out of breath standing and walking?? think of these things first.
these things are SO MUCH BETTER than eating:
learning
playing games
making playlists and pinterest/mood boards
shopping
blogging/diary writing
crafts
walking + other exercises
story and/or letter writing
handheld console customising (+ homebrewing if youre into that!)
device customising
ah you've done them, good job! but what about hanging out with friends/family, cleaning your room, stocking your (imaginary) mini fridge with lowcal foods and drinks, drinking water/tea/monster, looking at thin people and mean inspo threads/posts or sleeping?
ooo youve done em! good job!! now here's some appetite suppressants:
smoking + vaping
low cal drinks
sleeping (again)
gross inspo
have fun! remember to take your meds, vitamins and whatever else you take <3
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Kill me lol I want to get back to 800 calories a day and I can’t even just get to 1200
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Telling myself that if I have to stand straight and pose, then I’m not actually skinny </3
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