#anon i do get the impression you may not be looking for the morose answers i enjoy giving... i do apologise for this

[blackwaxidol]

whats valin’s relationship with his ghost like if he isnt that happy with the traveler

he loves Eos, in spite of the nature of her birth. he considers the collective need of the ghost to bring forth a guardian something of a force of nature in the way diseased deer will breed, rather than malicious intent.

in all their time together she has never attempted to push him towards a certain goal or idea, nor would she be able to, her guardian is far too stubborn to be swayed towards a "proper" cause. but, even if Valin were not so adamant in his ways, she would never feel right to ask after his loyalty to the quiet god. the only reason she had been able to reforge him in the Light to begin with was because another Ghost (and by extension, his charge) had owed her, and she feels the weight of Valin's trauma is her fault.

had she asked anyone else on Earth, out of the goodness of their hearts, to bring her to the solar edge, perhaps things would be different.

#answered #tw for tags i always have a lot to say and have written thoughts on this only privately in my notes app #thus i divulge them a little... #anon i do get the impression you may not be looking for the morose answers i enjoy giving... i do apologise for this #oc: valin #(tw rape) ​ah... despite everything... the first ghost to make up part of Valin's morbid ring collection is not his rapist's Ghost. #perhaps it would surprise some. Eos herself is the only one who knows how deep Valin's sheer hatred is. how potent. #it is the kind of rage so specific to grief that the two are one in the same. do you know it? #the complete breakdown of the human mind is in the cracked-voiced screaming that asks why or perhaps declares hatred or pleads for itself #do you know that kind of upset? you are crying and it hurts to breathe and your heart could stop from the force of your stress. #i emphasise this for the sake of not being bothered by people who read shallowly. if that makes sense. #regardless i carry on... #yes this rage... this hoarseness of the voice as you scream and cry and your head hurts from stress. complete breakdown of personhood. #you become not human but rather a force of will. something that moves sideways so to speak. you lose yourself in the pain you express. #completely hollowed and you feel compulsion to distance yourself from the human condition because it is agonising like drinking fire. #i am rambling... #what i was saying... what i was saying is... #despite everything it would make sense (to someone who does not know Valin) that he may destroy the ghost. #perhaps this ghost appears to all an enabler. it is an easy thing to focus crowded anger upon. #but think... is burning your world so easy as it is to imagine burning other's? #people will always chant (rightfully so) on the killing of an abuser of a friend or loved one... #but to BE the person up against this adversary when they are so close to you... it is not so simple as to fight back and be vengeful #the hollywood protagonist does not exist in actuality. #it takes a lot to stand up to a person in such a way and it can be unfathomable to an observer as to why they don't just do X or say Y #do you... understand me? what i am saying? #the feeling is... it is why someone cannot ''just leave''. everyone has their reasons. it is terrifying to try. #and that... alongside his guilt of the concept of bringing it upon himself... is why Valin has not killed that Ghost.