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#another bummer is that between the surgery and all the antibiotics I've been treating his eyes with
feluka · 3 years
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#remember when i said i had to take care of my cats' eye infections or else they'll need enucleation?#well the good news is that i mostly got the infection under control and they're doing fine in that regard#the bad news is that shams developed an ulcer in his right eye. an infection is one thing but there's nothing i can do about an ulcer :(#2 vets said he'll need enucleation#I'm going to a third one asap but. it looks like he's gonna need it#ofc I'll have him do it if it spares him pain but GOD surgeries of all sorts terrify me#just the idea that he's going to go through that makes my heart stop.#I've been having nonstop nightmares since i saw an unusual shape in his eyes#he's playing and eating well so i shouldn't be worried but if something happens to him#I'll die. i can't survive this. i love him so much. i can't even stand to think of the pain he'll go through during the recovery#i hate seeing him hurt he's the sweetest sweetest sweetest boy#he's just as affectionate as his brother but he's just more scared. but in the rare moments he feels at peace#he becomes the cuddliest most affectionate sweetest boy#ohh I'm crying. i looked it up and complications are rare and this operation is successful almost all the time but#i have so much anxiety#:(((((((((#another bummer is that between the surgery and all the antibiotics I've been treating his eyes with#I'm quickly running out of money#and i know that's a very selfish thought to have but i worry about money a lot#their previous fosters have been kind enough to send me lots of supplies and medicine for them so I'm making do#he's fine rn :) playing with his brother and climbing around and stuff#sunlight#shams
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