#antibiotics are mean to me :(

[academiccockroach]

it's 1 AM and I have a very specific bone to pick with a very specific thing I consume, enjoy and endorse wholeheartedly

here's the thing about vampire bites. they are depicted as this little unhinged and nasty but mostly sexy thing right. our guy (gender neutral) gets bitten and it's like ah! it hurts but also it hurts good ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°). and here im talking about like. proper vampire teeth, non of that twilight bullshit just two to four proper fangs nothing more nothing less

well clearly the person writing the sexy biting smut scene has never been bitten by a cat. I dont mean like 'ah no Scruffy bit me a little' i don't even mean 'oh no Sceuffy bit me a lot' i mean like a fully grown ass feral cat that has never been touched by human in its life and craves the taste of flesh biting thru skin muscle cartilage -even sometimes bone- whatever the fuck you got in your meat sack that tiny needle thin tooth is piercing right through it

and here's the thing. it doesn't hurt at first oh no. okay well it hurts but if doesn't hurt too much ya know what i mean. and it leaves a cute little mark nothing serious at all

but in a day that wound is gonna swell. and it's gunna. hurt like all fuck because it just directly injected about five gazillion bacteria directly into a neat little incubation pouch and then closed it right up. its gona swell its gonna ooze and throb and hurt and if that shits in your neck ur pretty much done for i mean an infection right next to the jugular is just easy mode for the bacteria

so unless your vampire boyfriend gargles with antiseptic beforehand you aint gotta worry about turning or bleeding out or developing a biting kink cus youre gonna be delirious from meningitis with a football sized phlegmone in your neck beggjng for the sweet sweet release of death thank you for coming to my ted talk please ensure your vampire boyfriend employs proper dental hygiene

#i also find the image of the morning after hilarious #no walk of shame but ambulance ride of shame to get the wound disinfected #and yea ive been bitten by a caf recently and reevaluated my stance on this issue #its been more than a week and my finger just stopped hurting #it legitimately looks like ive put it into a saw trap #i mean the cat had a right to bite me but man dod you have tk bite THROUGH the joint #i legitimately cried from pain four nights in a row there was no medication strong enough to stop the the trobbing #my finger was FULL of puss I mean f u l l #and I must add I got it properly cleaned right away antibiotics anti inflammatory drugs tbe whole package #i know what im doing alright but man i never want to experience thag again #one of the worst pains in my life and I've broken five bones and dislocated multiple joints #ive had thick ass meedles inserted directly into my knee no anaesthetic whatsoever and it don even come CLOSE #I HOPE THAT LITTLE SHIT IS HAPPY #roachrambles #vampires #tw biting

[anonymocha]

my meds kicked in (neg) and it brought back my irrational fear of my art reaching twitter and people making a double-digit pages callout document of me

#mochats #sorry for not replying or doing my homework my tummy aches #twitter makes me anxious #idk why but it feels very alienating to me #tumblr is like a safe space to me? this is a place where i can dgaf and mean it #twitter on the other hand... feels like walking on glass shards #hence why my account is DEAD #my ass will not survive the winter (twitter) #also i hate how there's very little tagging system thete #like how tf do i find my yuri #i hate webbed sites with bad tagging systems #makes it hard to filter things AND find things you like #i also suddenly feel guilty for my lesbianism #one must imagine a gay goy happy #i took my antibiotics wrong and now my brain wants to rot mfw

[running-in-the-dark]

kinda disappointed with how this weekend went. I mean, it wasn't bad! but it was our first weekend in the new apartment, and I/we wanted to get a lot done. I already did a lot during the week (a lot for me, not a lot for most people I guess), but there's lots of things that I can't do/can't do on my own, either because I'm too short or not strong enough or I need someone else to hold something or whatever. which realistically just won't get done during the week because my husband works full time, so. it sort of sucks that only one very small, unimportant thing got done. 😔

#like. there's no rush. not really. #I mean we do get our kitchen in two weeks so we'll have to have space to install it then lol #but other than that it's fine #except everyone constantly makes me feel like it isn't. #they're so judgmental and shitty about it #yeah it's chaotic and messy as hell. there's boxes everywhere. we've only found some of our kitchen stuff so we're mostly eating microwave #meals with plastic utensils. all of that stuff #so fucking what? it doesn't affect any of them! I wish they'd just stop commenting on it but they don't. #well. at least it's just over the phone now. I haven't seen my or my husband's family since we moved in and I'm not planning to anytime soon #precisely because they will not stop doing this no matter how I react to it #like in what world would that ever do anything good? it doesn't motivate me to get shit done any faster. because guess what? I'm already #going as fast as I can. #like. I've had (maybe still have) a middle ear infection and been on antibiotics all week and I still got so much done! that's good enough #and this part is fun to me! I like that nothing is finished and everything is possible and new and different #it does also stress me out but so far it mostly feels like an adventure #anyway. I'm just venting but seriously why is everyone I know irl so mean all the time?! #personal

[gogglebeast]

My brain earlier, for no reason, half awake: We have garlic powder now. We could make garlic milk. Like chocolate milk but with garlic

Me: ..We are Not doing tha

#me trying to post on social media again means you all get to see posts like This #to be fair I am on a strong course of antibiotics for an infection. but Still #I've put sprinkles on pizza before and I'll do it again #has anyone tried this

[bisexualspace]

something that bothers me every day at work are medication 'allergies' that just aren't true allergies

And i don't blame the patient's because its just poor education on our part on what classifies an allergy (probably should avoid the drug in future) vs a side effect/adverse reaction (we can use the drug in future unless theres an equally effective alternative with some supportive meds)

nausea/vomiting/diarrhea after taking a medication is almost certainly not an allergy, especially with antibiotics (antibiotics of all sorts are known to cause this as a side effect!)

the reason it bothers me is because so many people get slapped with 'penicillin allergy' which means you can have THE most effective antibiotics for several conditions (skin infections, chest infections, meningitis, gut infections are often in part treated with penicillins). Us using an alternative is possible but largely far less effective! And just because someone hasn't sat down and explained that its not an allergy!!

#this is actually a rant against health professionals for not explaining stuff aren't allergies but also #health professionals for recording these things as allergies bc they didnt take 2 seconds to explore the reaction #literally if a patient tells me 'i have a penicillin allergy!' #i just ask - what happens when you have it (which is important even if it is an allergy bc there are cross reactions in anaphylaxis) #and if its 'nausea/vomiting/diarrhea' i just politely say #that it isn't an allergy. its a side effect. and while we can try to avoid this medication it will mean you have worse treatment #or risk worse outcomes #and usually patients are very receptive #and i totally get you dont want to vomit! i can help with that #but also if you have a skin infection which is severe i need to give you penicillins first line!!! #so you dont die! #anyways this was a bad weekend of night shifts lol #trying to like. give antibiotics to dying patients when people are arguing they have an 'allergy' to it #when they dont and even if they had a mild allergy i would risk it in certain circumstances bc it is literally life or death

[storm-of-feathers]

if the branwen twins were my pharmacists id forgive my pharmacy for so much

#its been like a year but im actually still kinda angry ab the time they called me an addict to my face #well okay it wasnt said *to* me #it was said *about* me in front of me. which is kinda worse tbh?? #and then when i was like wtf she was like ''oh its just our lingo'' like bitch i know what drug addiction means. whats wrong with you #she doesnt work there anymore and i never escalated that incident (partially bc i was so shocked in the moment) but it stuck with me. #like what the hell and fuck. even if i was (still) an addict... thats irrelevant to me trying to get antibiotics for a uti. like come on. #who is out here snorting amoxicillin

[batz]

realizing its almost been 6 months since top surgery:)

#frank.txt #despite all the complications i had w healing im rlly happy w how my chest looks:) #ALTHOUGH. ONE BIG COMPLAINT #i used to use my bras as an extra pocket for my phone or lighter or whatever. but now i dont wear bras and therefore have no extra pocket #:( u win some u lose some :( #anyway all shirts look awesome on me now AND i can wear t shirts w funny text or image ans ppl wont feel awkward reading it:) #also the scars r fading rlly well! they almost blend in w my skin completely! (keyword almost. theyr still visible atp) #the way the scars r shaped is interesting bc theyre like a U shape. but bc of that when i inevitably build my pectoral muscles #the scars should blend into the shadow caused by thr muscle. i also dont have a Completrly flat chest bc im fat:0 #tbh my surgeon did rlly well . i have a lot of problems with him bc hes kind of a dick but from like. idk an artistic standpoint hes good #but the doctor standpoint hes Uhm. well i lost a nipple and had severe infection due to denied antibiotics and lack of aftercare #BUT. the lost nipple isnt visible and it looks normal now somehow AND. i didn't die from the infection so. I mean #i just had to spend christmas with a fever of 103 LMAO #HONESTLY THO i would do it again EVEN if i knew i would go thru hell bc this surgery fuckn saved my life holy shit #i didnt realize just how much i dissociated from my own body bc of dysphoria. now i feel more in touch with it and happy!:) #also now i can Eventually get that chest tattoo i wanted for like 7 years lmao #erm yippee:)

[theforgottendaydreamer]

I developed antibiotic resistance. Well, fuck.

#literally just toss me in a ditch and let me die there #antibiotics #illness #immune system #for those of you who don't know what that means #you basically means that my body does not react to antibiotics because it got used to that kind of medication #so basically I have no proper way of fighting off infections since antibiotics do not work on me

[non-un-topo]

Just realized I probably didn't get the summer job I desperately wanted (the student job I currently have but had to re-apply for) and not to be dramatic but this on top of the weight of about a hundred other things happening right now is just fucking crushing me

#if these antibiotics make me throw up today that would be the icing on the cake #i didn't hear back or anything i'm just assuming since i heard them saying the summer positions have been 'filled' #so idk if that means they've decided on who they want to interview or if they meant applications are closed or what #trying not to catastrophize though. trying. #i am so bone tired of hearing 'i'm sorry' lately. i don't want to hear another one.

[marzipanandminutiae]

I wasn’t born in the wrong era because the past was some wonderful mythical utopia

I was born in the wrong era because I have summer SAD and the world is on fire

#personal #climate anxiety #when I say I would give up voting rights and antibiotics to not be living through this hell #I mean it #this is the 1 most anxiety-inducing thing for me and I'm coming to believe that no other material improvements in my quality of life #from what my life would have been in say...1875 #are worth it #of course I can only speak for myself- I'm a white woman from an upper-middle-class family #despite being a woman and gay #the race and socioeconomic class thing make up for a lot of ills (though they don't fix them entirely of course) #so take this with a huge grain of salt. just venting on my personal blog #and I individually cannot do jack shit about this. I mean I can protest and vote and call my representatives- and that matters! #but I can't make it not be happening right now. or stop happening within my lifetime #the effects I mean. even if carbon emissions stop The Horrors are here to stay #(not that it's pointless. it's absolutely not. not remotely. there IS hope and it DOES matter) #(but like. temperatures above 80F are intolerable for me) #(so you understand my predicament)

[hellyeahsickaf]

I wish I had a normal immune system. I do everything right and I have a UTI again anyway. 😒

Just hoping I last until tomorrow when I can get antibiotics and not develop another kidney infection overnight. That shit comes on faster than you think.

#a bit scary because i know my body's fighting it #i feel weakness but once the fever hits you're in trouble trust me #last time i felt this way but had a migraine coming on so i took a nap. woke up it hurt worse and i had bad kidney pain #a fever of about 103 going on 104. inching towards sepsis. family member tried to convince me to wait it out #i told them i might not make it overnight considering the timeline from kidney infection to sepsis and they didn't believe me #same person that gave me covid through negligence lmfao #chronic illness #disability #chronic pain #here's hoping i'm fine in the morning i mean i have an 11am appointment #but uh my antibiotics will have to wait till about 6-7pm #i have to be okay for 20 hours... i need my immune system to do its best till then. #sometimes i think about how id be so dead in another time period like this is the legit only time period that a body like mine can survive

[good-boy-ren]

the fandom comment section for your man...

VHIUFVMFBFBMOBKVM

the fact that i recognize EXACTLY who that is bc there were only 3 oushirou-likers in the EN fandom back then KJANSDKJNSKJFNKJN ;;; like, this person (bottom 2 comments) and i still follow each other on twit even if we don't talk as much anymore (moved to different fandoms)!!

2010's stsk fandom was.......... interesting. KJNKJNKJANKJDN. i miss the people, i don't miss the LoL RaNdOm raunchy humor as much.... 🥴🥴🥴

actually i think i might even know who the first one is too lmao idsjfkj some people saw oushirou as like. the Fandom Jester. puts on his silly little hat and jingles his silly little bells. ;;; and we had a friend who saw him that way and typed like that. god our fandom was so insular. ;;;;;;;;

#genuinely ty for this jo ksjdnfkj this is. super nostalgic. this was my selfship fandom before there was a proper selfship fandom #and i miss a lot of my stsk friends so badly... they'd all thrive here (in selfship) :') #i would not expect oushirou to have comments on his fandom page tho so i'm genuinely just like 🔍🔍🔍 LMAO. time capsule fr. #i mean... i say that but... i'm actually wondering about the second comment now... #it's very possible that's me and it just got memory-holed when i got pumped full of antibiotics a couple of months later KJNASDK ;; #[ favs. ] #📌 [ my posts. ] #[ asks. ] #[ oomfies ; jo. ] #📷 [ phantom hearts. ] #[ suggestive. ]

[milimeters-morales]

okay i am still super tired but i’m thinking SUPER hard about fem miles and now thinking of just … he stops by the hospital because his mom forgot her lunch and his dad is at work and her coworkers are like “omg who’s that girl?? why is she here for rio??” and miles is like. so happy <33 because !!!! !!!! yknow !!!! and on his way out a little kid is like “mommy i want my hair like hers” and points at miles and i’m so :3 i’m :3 !!!

#these antibiotics are making me tired but th actual painkiller i’m supposed to take is actually supposed to make me tired so #double tired but that means DOUBLE TRANSFEM MILES AND MILESGANKE THOUGHTS! I KNOW MATH #miles morales #spiderman #spider man #transfemme miles #m&m posts

[minibunz]

I would really love it if instead of trying to scare me, my mom would try and be nice while I’m dealing with this drain issue

#the first thing she said when I told her they think it might be mildly infected was #telling me a story about how someone’s father she knew went in for knee surgery and then died two weeks later bc of an infection #like thanks mom I really needed to hear that rn #they got me on antibiotics within like 12 hours of me calling them and telling them what’s wrong (literally called at 1am) #they don’t think it’s serious bc I’m not feverish the area isn’t hot and I’m not like Sick #but they were better safe than sorry with antibiotics #doesn’t mean I don’t have anxiety about it

[loserchildhotpants]

i have had a bad day

#melanie lives #my vibes have been rancid all day #friend is upset w me and won’t tell me what I did that upset them #fear response is strong!!! #also I’m hella fuckin poor #it’s gonna be like $600 for my fuckin neuropsych testing #therapy has been effective lately which also means I’m feeling skinless and fucked up #dreading Mother’s Day which my email is reminding me of every day #merry has another 6 week round of antibiotics and painkillers to go and idk how to afford that either #and I feel terrible that he’s in discomfort and I can’t fix it #ugh feeling defeated and Bad

[batz]

my bday wish is healing frm top surgery sooner PLS

#dealing w a Lot of complications bc my surgeon is weird abt giving native ppl antibiotics BUT #im gonna b referred to Another top surgeon just for help w the seroma n the infection -_- #hes a LOT more responsive and they actually respond to my emails And told me it was v weird i was initially refused antibiotics post-op so! #at least my current set of doctors r better! #i mean the results og the top surgery r good everything looks gr8 just. hes not a nice surgeon ig. and ths happened to others too so its #just a Thing #tbh it makes me v sad but im still happy w the results! just sad tht i was told infection and fever were Normal ans then #was ignored post op by my surgeons office. #I MEAN things r better now but im just bummed out that i had to deal with a shitty doctor for my tpp surgery too #oh well im just relaxing n ya.. #frank.txt #all my shirts look so epic on me tho OUGH #and im no longer feverish n vomming 24/7 bc im on heavy duty antibiotics so yippeeee