#any questions about their looks or etc

[orlaite]

Jeremy Wilson, Lawrence of Arabia: The Authorized Biography, p. 534 - Photograph of Dahoum by Lawrence, 1911, Wilson p.312 - T.E Lawrence, Seven Pillars of Wisdom, p. 22/23 - John Mack, A Prince of Our Disorder, p. 88 - Scetch of Dahoum by Francis Dodd, July 1913 - Wilson, p.673 - Mack, p. 98 - Photograph of crew assisting Lawrence at Carchemish: Dahoum, Abd es Salaam, Gregori and Sheik Hamoudi - T.E Lawrence, Seven Pillars of Wisdom (1922 Oxford Text), Epilogue - Letter by Lawrence, Wilson, p. 545 - Dahoum photographed by Lawrence ca. 1912 - Lawrence, wearing some of Dahoum's clothes, photographed by Dahoum ca. 1912 - Letter by Lawrence to a British Foreign Office staff member, Mack, p. 189 - Mack, p. 190 - Mack, p. 97 - Lawrence, Seven Pillars of Wisdom - Letter by Lawrence to a young companion in the R.A.F, Mack, p. 97/98

#t.e. lawrence #dahoum #selim ahmed #sheikh ahmed #seven pillars of wisdom #^ not exactly in accordance with any standardized academic reference style but that wouldnt look too pretty in a webweave would it. #i did my best to make the source of information clear while still looking somewhat aesthetically pleasing #but if anyone has questions about editions/acess/etc wrt these sources just hit me up! #mine #tel

[noecoded]

If you could have any Asmo/reader fic what would be the things you would want from it? like an ideal fic would contain what tropes or AUS or situations or whatever

uhmm anything wellwritten that characterizes asmo similar to the way i do ! i rlly like character exploration , both more serious stuff & just sillycute...anything where asmo is a little cunning and toxic and also gets railed into oblivion.anything where hes a vampire. ill write a tag essay about the specifics

#xreaders are too unrelatable for me usually .. im aroace and the only relationship dynamics that r rlly interesting to me r likee #toxic or tumultuous...i think in many asmo fics hes just very one note or like not a complex love interest .which is fine because hes like #that in the game but i am especially drawn to fics where the author has their own kind of unique take on it. nuance. etc #it's really interesting to see situations in which asmo kind of reaps the consequences of shitty behavior or struggles with parts of himsel #f he doesnt like. not just in like ohhh im insecure sobsob but like deeprooted issues & patterns thought processes that come with being a d #demon that maybe clash with human morality or ideals...like what if he sees human lives as generally more disposable because hes lived for #so long?? what would a fic be like about him wanting a fling with a human that ends up taking apart their life but to him its just a fun #little romance without any real consequences or commitment?? even if he was obsessed w them professing his undying love etc etc he could ge #t bored and drop it anytime and outlive them by millions of years and forget...& how does a human love an entity like that? how could the r #relationship look anything close to normal ever...anyway i like fics that touch on questions like this theyre kind of rare though #this all being said i def dont think asmo is completely evil💭 nuance #at work so im literally just wasting time by thinking about this rn but this was like the asmotoni dynamic its too interesting to me #asmotoni is like this in my head but on papwr i just draw them fucking witj bunny ears sorry #this doesnt even answer ur question really. if i could write a fic rn it would be like 200k word emo band au that isnt xreader or a romance #fic it would just be asmo beel belphie as humans starting a band and their rise and fall etc ive been thinking abt that plot nonstop

[evakant]

thirty days of zewu-jun(e)  —  day ten

#theuntamededit #mdzsedit #the untamed #mdzs #lan xichen #zewu jun #liu haikuan #fdstuff #fragifs #zewujune #cqledit #listen of all the things that make me angry in this show #of all the 'why didn't he do this' and 'why didn't she say this' etc. etc. #of all the what ifs. of all the insanity inducing moments and dialogue lines. #lan-zongzhu drinking that cup is the thing that makes me the angriest #no joke! i know why he does it. i know he does the math but fuck if just thinking about it doesn't make my blood boil #not taking any questions at this time. i have nothing to add. #sorry zewu-jun i am so angry right now i can't even look at you #tv

[quarks-pussy]

Mirror Kira is something that can actually be so personal

#in a number of ways tbh like defo in a gay way and in terms of clone fucker rights and in terms of evil girlbossing etc etc but most of all #most of the mirror characters (to me) feel like au versions of the prime characters and obviously they ARE but they're still very much atta #attached to the prime characters y'know what i mean? like maybe not everyone but most mirror characters do feel like they basically are wha #the prime characters could've been if their lives had been different and like it's not completely out of the question for mirror kira but s #she still feels so... herself. like she's not defined by prime kira on any level. most mirror characters feel very defined by their prime c #counterparts and mirror kira... she's different. she is literally herself and no similarities will change that. she does not exist as an ex #extension of prime kira she is her own separate character. mirror kira could literally exist in the prime universe without even having to b #connected to prime kira by anything other than name and face. file off her serial numbers and you're golden & have a new and extremely comp #compelling villain. she is separate she's herself and nobody else. all the other mirror characters feel like twisted versions of the prime #characters who took a different path at some point. if there's any way to apply this to mirror kira that point would be her birth. like she #genuinely feels like they took a look at the circumstances on bajor in the mirror verse and thought about how a bajoran might grow up there #and THEN they made that bajoran kira. like i'm not saying she's nothing like prime kira but she just feels so much more developed tbh as if #they genuinely wrote out her whole life rather than just its present state y'know. it's great! i adore her #anyway #mirror kira nerys #mirrorverse #star trek deep space nine #ds9 #yes most of the meat of this post is in the tags lmao idek why #original posts fresh from quark's pussy

[hella1975]

the closest ill ever get to being a pick me girl is the joy that fills me when the chefs at work so clearly favouritise me. like im there nicely cleaned up in my smart-casual uniform just a 20 year old waitress smiling my customer service smile and behind me spawns Scary Dog Privilege 10x in the form of several burly middle-aged chefs at least three of which have criminal records and would all stick a bread knife in someone for bothering me

#like it's really funny bc i worked HARD with back of house bc i knew my job would be significantly easier if they liked me #(it speeds your orders through. you can ask for things without being told to fuck off during a rush. they'll get you food on shift etc) #and also there's a stereotype especially in fancier places where floor staff look down on kitchen staff and i think that's shitty #so i was always going to be try with them and be nice but ALSO when i first started my job it was in a peak era so while these days #we're struggling a lot and have had to employ a lot of college kids that dont know what they're doing #when i joined it was all private school girls that would swan about the place very snootily. so the divide between front and back of hosue #was INTENSE when i joined. and there i was a little state school girlie and the chefs immediately recognised that #and took me under their wing. so even though the class angle doesnt exist so much anymore and theres majority state schoolers #im still very much in with the chefs in a way not many of the other floor staff are. and there's also the fact im not scared of them #like chefs ARE rude and a lot of them DONT like or even respect floor staff but i will GLADLY tell them to fuck off if i think it necessary #and that's a language they understand like ironically there's one chef that doesnt get on with ANY of the waitresses #(i talked about him on another post he's the soup one) but he likes me bc when he tried that rude dismissive act i told him to shove it #and now the other waitresses literally SEND ME TO TALK TO HIM when they have questions/want something bc they know he'll listen to me #and me and the head chef are besties and the one kp will talk OVER THE OTHER WAITRESSES' heads and completely blank them #so she can talk to me and it's all just really funny bc the kitchen staff LOVE me and that's not even me being arrogant #it's like a known thing at work that they love me and im just. a 20 year old 5'2 waitress with my little pearl necklace and blouse #and some tattooed ginger mohawked 6ft chef is there getting angry for me when i come in complaining about a table #or the kp that is literally on probation will give me a sticky toffee pudding and tell everyone to leave me the fuck alone LMAO #hella slaves to capitalism

[solargoose]

Revised Thunderclan family tree for the Scrambled Rewrite, as of the start of The Prophecies Begin. I will not be updating this as I go (I will make new ones for each arc though). Underlined names are ocs, question marks represent cats that are either unknown to the clan or are unimportant and so I didn't come up with names for them. Described below the cut in case it's difficult to read/follow.

Moonflower and Stormtail's kits are Bluestar and Snowfur. The line for Bluestar's mate extends off the page. Snowfur's mate was Thistleclaw, their kit is Whitestorm. Whitestorm's mate is Willowpelt.

Thistleclaw's parents were Windflight and Poppydawn.

Willowpelt's parents were Foggyleap (oc) and an unknown tom. Her current mate is Whitestorm. Her previous mate is unknown, and their kit is Graypaw.

Amberwing (oc) and Applesnow (oc) were Brackenkit's parents. Brackenkit was adopted by Frostfur and Lionheart.

Lionheart's parents are Smallear and Speckletail. His mate is Frostfur. Their biological kits are Cinderkit, Thornkit, and Brightkit, and they adopted Brackenkit.

Frostfur's parents were Robinwing and Fuzzypelt.

Sandpaw's parents were Gingerstripe (oc) and Stoatclaw(oc).

Littlestripe (oc) and Acornscar (oc) had two kits: Longtail and Dustpaw.

Swiftbreeze and Adderfang were the parents of Spottedleaf, Redtail, Patchpelt, and Leopardfoot. Patchpelt and an unknown mate were the parents of Beetleflight (oc). Leopardfoot and Pine were the parents of Nightkit, Tigerclaw, and Mistkit. Beetleflight and Goldenflower were the parents of Swiftkit. Tigerclaw and Goldenflower are currently mates.

Goldenflower's parents were Sunstar and Tansypetal (oc).

Oneeye and Halftail are the parents of Runningwind.

Rainfur and an unknown mate were the parents of Thrushpelt, Tawnyspots, and Dappletail. Dappletail and an unknown mate were the parents of Mousefur.

Jake and Nutmeg are the parents of Firepaw, Princess, Socks, Ruby, and Scourge.

Volefang (oc) and Smokysky (oc) were the parents of Ravenpaw and Darkstripe. Darkstripe is currently mates with Brindleface.

Sweetpaw and Rosetail were siblings. Their parents are unknown. Rosetail and an unknown mate were the parents of Brindleface.

#Scrambled Rewrite #Scrambled Rewrite - The Prophecies Begin #You're welcome to ask questions about this #but also if the question is why did I change a cat's parents the answer is to make the clan less related to each other #as for how I decided which cats to change that varied a lot #and if you're looking at Mousefur and Runningwind going but wait neither of them had kits why does it matter if they're siblings then #it's because I plan on making some small changes to future families as well #breaking up large litters where multiple cats from the litter go on to have large litters etc #and Runningwind and Mousefur are both Free Real Estate for future kits #but I haven't decided which kits if any they'll have so I need them both to be totally unattached from everyone else

[wallpaper-inside-my-heart]

💙Smoshblr December Asks Day 30💛

top 3 favourite planets 🌌

Saturn! 🪐-> It's just so pretty! Like look at its rings!

2. Neptune! 💙-> such a gorgeous blue colour!

3. Venus! 🧡 -> Our beautiful morning/evening"star"

-> Fun fact: Did you know that you can tell if you are looking at a star or planet, by whether or not it "blinks"? If it blinks/twinkles it's a star and if the light remains consistent then it is a planet! (That's have you can easily spot Venus most nights! 😊)

#I'm a big astronomy girlie so I just had to include this question in here somehow 😹💜 #I could prob talk for hours about any of these outside of comments on their looks #cause the formation of all the different planets #their atmosphere composition #their moons!! etc etc is sooo incredibly fascinating to me #also has anyone else ever seen saturn from a telescope?! it somehow feels so fake to me to actually see a clear picture of it from earth :O #smoshblr december asks

[lupismaris]

If anyone has a spare thought/fuck to give please toss it my way I'm treading the delicate path of sorting out the possible (absolutely likely) fuck ups of a former colleague and explaining to their supervisor that they allowed said fuck ups to continue for far longer than they needed to all for the sake of not wanting to ask questions

#this project costs a million dollars easily and nonone felt like asking questions about how logistics were handled. #not until the coordinator was fired and we were left picking up the pieces. my boss is handling the budget issues as delicately as she can #and im trying to handle the fact that the postage/printing/mailing problems we've been having for literal years #might all be due to the fact that said colleague who was asked to retire just couldn't provide ample time to the mailing team #so that the funds could be allotted in escrow thus requiring us to front the cash from our budget or a printers credit. #which happened almost every other project #said colleague was 22 year tenured. they should've known how to avoid this. but now their supervisor is trained for this process #and is fighting any sense of change and claiming all the errors ans embarrassments were the result of other ppl and departments #my guy the call is coming from inside the house etc #i sent a very hefty info based email to explain everything and am now waiting for his inevitable reply where he argues it all #and i have to dig my heals in and politely explain that maybe the problem was in fact his team this time #im not looking forward to that because im at my limit with the designers and publication team and i leave for maine in three days #my fucks are becoming slim to none even though i wanted a promotion out of this

[ayakashibackstreet]

So, the eShop is no longer available on 3DS and Wii U, therefore, there is no longer a legitimate way of buying games for these systems. What a bummer!

Anyways, here's guides on installing custom firmware on both of those consoles (even on the newest firmware versions):

3DS: https://3ds.hacks.guide/

Wii U: https://wiiu.hacks.guide/

Not only will that allow you to use awesome homebrew applications, it will also allow you to install game backups.

Happy gaming <3

#I don't have a Wii U but the guide looks pretty simple #Meanwhile I modded my 3DS a few years back I think? It was really easy and now I get to play whatever from whatever region I want etc. #+ the custom themes??? I love custom themes aaaa #Anyways I don't wanna link the 3DS archive that I use to get games #just in case Ninty gets particularly C&D happy #but if you have any questions about 3DS hacking/where to get games my inbox is open <3 #I don't know nearly as much about the Wii U scene since again I don't have a Wii U #but if anything I'll try to help with that too #anyways this is mainly for my mutuals if any of them have a 3DS/Wii U they'd like to mod #but if you want to you can reblog I don't particularly mind

[arsonist-chicken]

PSA, don't talk about anything in your town hall that you don't want every employee and their families to know. Maybe avoid your town hall in general and move to a town where none of your relatives or anyone else you know works unless you want them to know your business.

#source: my mother works in the town hall in the social housing department and immediately when arriving home #starts telling everyone everything that happened today and who applied for housing and who got it and who was kicked out etc etc. #which I Do Not want to know; and also it's another reason for me to move away for a while at least after graduating #because otherwise i'd have applied for social housing in my town which. requires filling out the forms that my mother reviews now. #she doesn't decide who gets housing but i don't need her to look at all my documents and insurance times and former employers etc etc #SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP I don't want to know any of this!! how do you arrive home and immediately start talking a mile a second!! #@people who are in relationships: how the FUCK do you deal with coming home and not getting some peace and quiet? #i would lose it if I came home and was immediately talked at for the entire evening about things i don't give a shit about #and that should also not leave the town hall or even the office it belongs to #'are you not hungry or do you just not want to eat with us'. what. the fuck kind of answer do you expect to that. #yes i'm hungry but i'd rather sit in my room hungry and go to my swimming club hungry later than eat with you #and be talked at and questioned about what i did today and what my plans are for the tenth time this week #and having to repeat everything twice for some reason. sunday aka me leaving cannot come soon enough #mine #vent and rant #i also don't need to hear about her GODDAMN DIET PLANS *AGAIN*. i don't care i don't care i don't care!! #leave me alone with dieting!! i'm perfectly capable of falling back into disordered eating habits all by myself! I don't need someone else #to talk about diets and weights and weight loss and calories and weight watchers all the time for that! #i'm perfectly capable of hurting myself like that all on my own; i don't need outside encouragement! god. i cannot wait to live alone #and have my own damn kitchen and enough money to buy proper food that's good for me and that i like regularly. #maybe even see a dietician once to help me find some foods with iron and other things i often have too little of. #and no one to tell me when to eat and then be passive-aggressive about it when i say i don't want to eat now

[sateurn]

😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

These sobs really limited my tags?????

I have so many more thoughts this is so so much less than 1/2. Broski. Big dislike

#its ‘i watched a tv show and i need to talk about it in the tags of this site im not on anymore’ time #ty to the void for always accepting my thoughts <3 #so honestly its just me thinking about the andromeda tv show. i just finished it and it left me destitute bc i clung onto the first 2 season #s as a basis and had ten thousand questions i *assumed* would be resolved. spoiler alert: they were nto #not*. and the coda addition helps but like. not enough. it explains some of the #oh fyi if anyone is reading or cared there will be spoilers #anyways it explained some of them ex for the cosmic engine bit. seemed pretty relevant and then was never mentioned again #i also MUCH prefer that version of trance — i had speculation she was a sun avatar which i took as confirmation when i finally noticed her #tattoo when harper used it to remind himself he put that data in the sun etc etc but i much prefer the sun-as-consciousness-astral-poject- #ing-slash-dreamjng-itself-a-body / being a little devil. i think that feels much more true to what we got in worldbuilding early on and tbh #the bar is on the floor bc any explanation would be better than what we got. also im sorry but s5 i trusted SO hard that that whole virgil #vox bit in the finale was insulting. couldnt even tie up the loose end you invented at the last minute????? MY god. i understand getting you #r budget halved but like. broski. it would have been better to ignore it at that point imo. #anywhoodle. i also have just ISSUES w the lack of resolution & not doing justice to literally any character #listen. why would you sink SO much effort into tyr just to have honestly what i feel is a disrespectful end to that character. like #tyr required me to do a LOT of thinking bc i sympathized with his position in exile etc while thinking also bro thats real fucked up. bro #stop thats fuckinng e*genics again dude. tbh with the entire species (im not looking up how to spell that rn) bc like the foundation of #their entire race is e*ugenics. (sorry censoring bc im in the tags just venting about tv) which obviously is a terrible idea but i think the #so it was like i am fundamentally against the concept but in show universe theg obviously did it etc but for me provided such a huge like #context to the universe. i fundamentally am not on board with all the commonwealth stuff like yeah i get it the magog are bad and scary but #like the neitzcheans (sp??? idc) are also Right There bein scary. then theres the ‘enhanced’ debate re dylan beka etc that like. is the same #but ‘’different’’ i guess. 🙄 anyways that is just to point out like. the level of thinking this show put me through just to blindside me w/ #no resolution. i had SO much hope. tyr selling iut to the abyss is disrespectful to all of the established work the actor did for him and #to the character as well even if i think the ideology is icky. he was shown to be even less and less self-centric survival guy as it went on #and also tbh i didnt understand the him stealing his kids dna thing. i really thought that was gonna gi in a different less bs direction #okay also while im here can i just say. that tyr and dylan had THE most romantic tension to me. everyone else felt very friendshipy and i am #NOT one to usually fall into a ‘they obviously should be together’ pipeline that the writers dont make themselves. but the back and forth ( #and intense eye contact) had me sitting there like. it was made in 2000 i know they wont do it but for not doing it they sure did! not that #i think they’d make a good couple (they would not) but that there was definitely something there on the dl you know? something more than #‘mutual respect’ you feel? and tbh! they also ruined the tyr beka thing by making her the matriarch. big ew huge ick.

[sanstropfremir]

not kpop but i was wondering if you listen to fujii kaze? idk much about set design and costumes and all that but he seems soooo fucking refreshing from everything else kpop/jpop have been doing lately, and the mv videos all connect to eachother and its so good i adore it i wonder if you have any thoughts on him

I do actually! although prior to you sending this i had never watched any of his mvs and i didn't even know what he looked like. i listen to a lot of j-music in isolation, meaning i listen to whatever my spotify algorithm serves me and the couple of jrock bands that i am unhealthily obsessed with. so self admittedly i am not a good person to ask in terms of comparing him to the wider scene because i have NO clue what the wider scene is or what it looks like. i watched about half a dozen of his mvs and i like them! he has a really good creative team working with him (i'm not sure if it's all the same director or not) and i really like the colour grading! whoever does the editing has a really good eye bc they really know how to fill out the value and depth, which makes everything look really lush and rich. also great colour coordination in costume/production design etc. just good mvs all around.

#i can sort of see that they're all tied together but i'm not super interested in chasing all those leads lmao #fujii kaze #non kpop questions #like a lot of jpn music i listen to as focus/just chillin music so i listen to alot in his approximate genre #but i dont actively seek it out as a visual experience bc that's not what i enjoy it for? if that makes sense #i dont like mondays. is one of my fave bands but i could NOT tell you what any of them look like and i don't need to know 🤷‍♀️ #sorry i dont have more thoughts! my jpop side is mostly just about music not so much about the visuals etc #text #answers

[mwagneto]

ok so which part of "i dont want to have in depth discussion about the war on my silly fandom blog that i (and probably a lot of people who would end up seeing said discussions) use to get away from my real life where there is a war and 500 other horrors" is so hard to get

#mf i got like 10 asks about it bro i dont want to think about it !!!!!!!!!! #can i just dissociate and look at funney posts and gifset once every few days without #ppl treating me like a political blog. i already said all my opinions if u want them that bad just read them again #like questions about basic shit are fine but im not getting into deep political stuff that's not why this blog exists #if i post an opinion there's like a 90% chance it's coz i broke out of my dissociative slumber for #a few seconds in order to have A Thought ™ and I'll never think about it again. if you agree and #wanna expand on it that's one thing but im not a debate club and im especially not a discourse blog #anyway. dont send me asks that prompt discussions on the war or inflation or anything like that #i cant do anything about it and the more i think about it the worse it gets. ion wanna #log on here and open my ask box only to see 5 more asks about your russia headcanons especially when it's #straying into conspiracy theory level shit #im not a newspaper im just some mentally ill guy im here to look at gifs . please #barking #like again idk how to phrase this without sounding like i dont want any asks #asks about fandom discourse are always welcome. i might not publish it if the take is too hot but i always enjoy them #questions like ''how do you feel about /current bad thing/'' are ok but if it's #something I've been asked before i probably wont have anything else to say #essays about the war/economic crisis/housing crisis/etc... no ? please ? im just trynta enjoy whatever show im insane about currently #on here anyway. escapism and all

[lunarharp]

a random draft where i was ramblingg about witch hat & art to myself for myself :)

rare time i feel like actually going off about the thing i’m having fun with right now in more detail ... but not on twt where strangers might try to discuss back at me lol sorry but that is scary. (not that you even have the room to soliloquy on there)

i love how there's characters for varying types of artists to relate to. people like agott who have been adept at drawing from a young age but feel overwhelmed by feelings of not meeting their expectations. and are driven mostly by feelings of wanting to prove their worth..

people like oru who have always been around the art but now are burnt out from commissions and wondering just what they're drawing for... and ones i relate to the most personally like coco and qifrey, who started drawing at an older age to the skilled people around them. like coco i'm so happy that i'm in the world of drawing(/magic) now and excited every day but also weighed down by fears that i'll never get to what i where i need to be after starting at this late stage and also whether i'm really cut out for this....

and like qifrey i only started drawing after a narrow escape from trauma... i started drawing to make sense of what my life is now, just as he was invited by beldaruit to become a witch because it was the only safe path he could take. (although i've not been through anything quite like what he's been through... ouagh)

and there’s tetia who just wants to draw to make other people feel happy about what she’s made, to have fun, and spread hope and happiness and gratitude. who feels so happy whenever someone thanks her for what she’s created - i understand now how it feels to want to thank them for thanking her and how making art, when you get a meaningful response, can be a truly warm communal type experience. but you do need that response - her overwhelming happiness when the dragon thing was happy and she said it was the first time she’d ever felt fully appreciated for her magic and it made her soooo happy. she had been drawing until then, but it was the last puzzle in place to make her realise the breadth of what magic can be for her.

and riche who is determined to not lose the “her”-ness from her art, doesn’t want to learn new techniques and become more regular and orthodox in style if it means she feels she’s losing something... i get that!!! precious autistic-coded child... the ways we feel about our art differ depending on our own mental landscapes. hahhhh... shirahama said she began this series because she was having a conversation with artist friends about how it feels like drawing just really is magic. i mean..... it is.

i think writing feels like magic too, and i’m glad i can do both now. any creation is total magic. i’ve drawn scenes that were in my head and that’s let other people see them and if i can trust their comments about it, has moved them in some way or at least let them imagine a scene or a situation that they wouldn’t have imagined otherwise. but it’s different from just telling someone about it. when you draw something, or write something it really exists now - outside of you. THAT’S SO WEIRD.

i liked drawing a lot of takarazuka things (before i realised i got kind of burnt out drawing all this transcore stuff that people were not exactly responding to because it’s so niche and weird lmao) but drawing fanart for something that also ONLY exists in art is so special. it’s not acted by real people. like.. they’re just little people that someone drew and now i draw them too. total magic. and she gets up and draws them every day the same as me...

i love that a manga isn’t just art, it’s storytelling too. doing both writing and drawing at the same time - it feels like such a perfect and fascinating combination of skills and facets of creation. i’m better at writing than drawing, so i don’t feel like i can express my original stories well enough in comic form just yet. but i might just get there.

the world is so confusing and overwhelming and terrible every day. only creation is something i can understand. sometimes i can’t understand it - when i feel REALLY bad, it’s definitely like, what’s the point. and i wish i had more things to experience at present than just creation - i want to be outside and just feel and be as well as create. and at some point i’ll definitely stop posting my creations online. but creating has become something that i don’t need to understand the reason for it - so at those times when i wonder what the real point to any of this is.... lately, i usually still create anyway. just as you’d still breathe and sleep even though you’re hurt and confused by the horrors of the world. it’s becoming how i express myself. i find myself drawing pretty much every day because it’s part of how i make sense of shit now and i naturally want to do it. not doing it is painful.

i hope this magic continues. i hope it becomes far more wonderful than i can even imagine from here.

and i won't lose.

#things really are different if you start drawing in your mid/late 20s or onwards. #you haven't developed your idea of yourself as an 'artist' at the time your brain was developing your identity. #but reading something that is basically saying- it's not too late and you have your own magic that only youan do... is so heartening. #also the manga is very gay. it's not THAT shockingly original and fascinating a story- but like... #i just don't know many ongoing fun series with interesting lovable characters where there are also major representations #for disability race queerness etc. #esp if tetia is trans. shirahama-sensei you can tell me... #MOSTLY IM LOSING MY MIND AT WHERE THE SERIES IS GOING LIKE I AM SCARED. my theories are dark and i fear for qifrey SOMEONE HELP HIMMM.. #ONCE AGAIN LET SOMEONE HLEP YOU YOU QUESTIONABLE AND TRAGIC GAY LITTLE SKIRT MAN #i hate that i had to just let my fic be so short. I CANT WRITE ANY MORE RIGHT NOW...i would have to make up so much plot stuff #bc orufrey CANNT happen they cant freaking KISS until so much is sorted out between them which requires the plot moving forward and.. #AUGHHH !!!! sensei please just tell me what happens please please please please please please please please please #the next chapter looks hella plot-ful but STILL..it's going to take YEARS..i just want to know if qifrey IS GOING TO SURVIVE THIS SHIT !!!! #if the brimhats [redacted] then he'll [redacted] and THEN WHAT IF [redacted] has to [redacted] I FEEL LIKE SENSEI'LL DO THAT !!! SCARED #SURELLLY she'll have [redacted] have to [redacted] but i dont think shed go as far as [redacted] ?????? #i plan to go to japan next year if possible anyway but what if it's too early for an anime-fuelled merch section in animate. please #this is like the first new and non-zuka thing i've been hyperfixated on for years. i need official qifrey and oru items. I need the items #once again i feel weird putting my personal feelings and theories on the internet to an audience of nobody but once again we will die. #am i going to be on my deathbed thinking 'oh i shouldn't have happily gone off about witch hat on tumblr that time how embarrassing' no. #do you know how worthwhile it is to enjoy something. and to basically avoid other fanworks for the most part so you're just surrounded #by your own pure and enjoyable feelings. #i actually went to a local queer art place yesterday and like. man i was very different to them but #there are people somewhat like me out there huh. somewhere. i'm going to make zines and art and express my world. even if just a bit. #literally why would you priv reblog something like this i think there is something wrong with you? i feel better about myself now #i will find the ones like me not the ones like you <3

[wolves-in-the-world]

"Look, there's no shame in being a starter gang. I was in one in middle school! It was awesome, we had little bells on our bikes and everything."

martin, you little shit <3

#lethal weapon trainwreck #is it any wonder he's always getting in fights. man cannot keep his sass to himself and I love that for him. #this is kind of fun because when he entered the room I got Uh Oh vibes #because he's there to question a dude who took a cattleprod to him in a fight and because... martin was serious‚ for a moment there. #but apparently he gets his revenge by teasing someone who isn't allowed to punch him in the face for it #cruz casting him a little look like ''oh okay‚ you're funny'' #and again. love that for him. that's beautiful. #SLIGHTLY sad I didn't get to see him scary but I'm sure that will happen. #also deep sigh this is all in the context of ''this is a terrible cop show and martin is a terrible cop'' etc etc #obviously he should not be being scary at people in interrogation rooms where there is miraculously never a lawyer present #consider that disclaimer 2 about this show I will not say it every time.

[boyishs]

skfjdjsj bones and all making me yearn for love for the first time since… perhaps spring time when the sun got longer and i’m entertaining the idea of reactivating the apps… someone stop me this would be a one way ticket to shit mental health

#stfu a #like honestly my summer was ruined bc of d*ting #and i have so much to look forward to w the holidays & break from work & family vacation & then my birthday & then amusements park plans w #my friends. like i’m not gonna have any time til end of january and i’m not about to be anywhere near the apps around february so it’s all #just out of the question. but ig it would be nice to find love one day #but it’d have to be irl like locking eyes with someone at a store or bus or park etc #i hope when we go on vacation there’ll be a nice tourist my age visiting from the same city as me maybe that’ll fix me