#anyway at least i don't look too bad

[fourteenthz]

VIERAPRIL 10 - BREATH

I dream of their breath stopping, and before I know, mine does too.

#vierapril #ffxiv viera #vierapril 2024 #ffxiv #ffxiv oc #wol posting #ofc should've turned thancred at least until the mark was showing HOWEVER I was busy overthinking her posing so !! just know it's him!! #i gotta stop taking angst turns with those prompts but. well. #also dont look too fast or you will get the wrong idea lol NO TIME TO CONSIDER THAT #plus is that quote anything? have I told you guys i'm in a creative block and I don't write in like a month? it's bad. #idek what that first pic means I wanted it (bc I feel like 1 pic is too little) but also !! i didn't like how it looked by itself #so have that ig!! anyway each each interaction with this post i'll consider a kiss on thesa just #bc i feel guilty abt the angst i'm putting her thru...... u got this girl. #also expect many srb for this one bc i like it hehe and posting early :)

[koddlet]

sooo i haven't gotten around to scanning any of the mini zines yet but theoretically... any interest in buying photocopies? or maybe scan packs for ppl to print off themselves?

#a few people have asked so i do plan on testing it out #but like... as a general thing...??? #i havent sold things online before so i'm a bit unsure of how to go about it #they'd be very very cheap essentially just postage #there's printing too but i think it wont be too bad cuz i can print off so many in one go. at least i should be able to #i'd need to edit it together to see but u know #i know the Worst Zine is what a lot of ppl want but i don't know if i can replicate the charm of it #anyway im just aaying things. i don't even know if photocopies will look good cuz of all the whiteout i use lol

[merlinmerlot]

i finally finished bg3

and it only took me [looks at steam]

SIX HUNDRED HOURS

#merlin.txt #w/ the new computer the rest of act 3 went by super quickly #honestly i dont think my computer and my sanity would have survived all those cutscenes #ANYWAYS initial thoughts: #cried like a baby. ending credits songs really really good. i can't WAIT to start a new playthru. HOWEVER: #oh my god the ending felt so fucking rushed. i was expecting like a typical rpg ending slideshow at LEAST but nothing??? #like you only get One cutscene with your romanced partner (a short one too) but i don't get to see what everyone else is doing??? hello?? #gale is literally like 'lets celebrate' and we don't get to see the celebration??? or at the very least a chance to talk to everyone again #like in act 1 and 2???? #imo i think the most satisfying one was lae'zels. god i love her #also act 3 is hella buggy especially towards the end. a lot of broken dialogue. but ah well #OK NOW SPOILER THOUGHTS SAMMIE DONT LOOK: #the game Really wants you to turn illithid but i ended up just letting karlach do it ... i felt bad .. but like #i found the arc of my tav like. getting So close to going full power hungry and martyr and hero only to finally be humbled like - #'you dont have to always play hero' was really interesting. like doing that and then hearing the post credits 'the power' song. gshldgksmal #guy who is soo miserable abt the fact that all their cool illithid powers are now gone. has to go back to being normal #ALSO. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THE ENDING AST SCENE. HELLO? #HIM RUNNING AWAY FROM THE SUN. IT BEING COMPLETELY PLAYED FOR LAUGHS. SO MEAN #any other time i may have laughed but the fact that you dont really get epilogues made that Really sting. #THE FACT THAT THE COMPANIONS ARE NOT EVEN NICE ABOUT IT??????

[arsonist-chicken]

I got to look at the room in the dormitory and now I'm torn between taking it and running, or maybe taking a bit more time to find something... less really cramped and where the washing machine doesn't smell sour, somehow

#and i have to decide today help #like yeah my flatmates are awful and I hate them and am in a bad mood whenever they're home #but they're usually gone on the weekends so at least I'm alone then #there's Something weird about the dormitory I looked at but I can't put my finger on it. apart from the awful smell in the laundry room #but I mean I could take my laundry to a laundromat if I really didn't want to use that washing machine I guess #there's shared kitchens there too but oh well i've done that before #but by god am I looking forward to living alone after university #all I want is a flat with enough space for a large bed or a pull-out couch for when friends visit #and ideally a balcony and cats allowed #mine #jess' flatmate rants #am I being too picky? all student rooms are very small and shared kitchens and bathrooms are normal #what really threw me off was the washing machine ngl #aaah maybe that's another thing: my old dorm was bigger so more anonymous #this one has a kitchen for 8-10 people #i'm not very social; I don't want to be friends with the people in my dorm; I want to be alone and left alone when I'm at home #anyway. guess I have that to consider for the next hour or so #aah Vse Kar Vem came up and I'm crying again; wonderful #also you know those days when anyone talking in the same room as you makes you want to murder them? i'm on like week two or three of that #with no stop and idk why and what's wrong; send help #ngl maybe my problem is less with the dorm itself and more that I literally can't imagine a good future for myself right now #where I get to not live either in my childhood bedroom forever or only ever with flatmates which. I'm never moving in with strangers again #and I have no friends I could move in with who would want that or don't already live with their boyfriends

[running-in-the-dark]

things I've got to do tonight:

watch Leverage: Redemption

paint a rubber duck in a Christmas sweater for my husband's Christmas present

maybe write like. one page for my thesis. idk. I'm gonna try, okay? I'm gonna at least try.

#he wanted it to be an actual duck at first but I don't paint animals usually and there's no way I could make it look sort of okay and be #finished before Christmas. so then he suggested a rubber duck #which is better #but it'll probably still be bad! #anyway. yeah yeah I'm working on the damn thesis or whatever. okay fine. #I'm gonna do it and I'm gonna have enough and I'm gonna get it printed (if I can find one damn copy shop that's open next week - no luck so #far) and then I'll mail it on Wednesday and hope it arrives on Thursday. #it'll be bad and it'll be so so close and it might be too late but. ugh whatever I'll at least try even though I don't want to and it makes #me want to die 😤 #personal

[beesinspades]

i'm very :3 because the dark urge being fully customizable might be thanks to my very enthusiastic suggestion as a playtester.....I mean maybe other playtesters who came after me (my group was apparently the first to try the dark urge out, at least in gent, because the group before us didn't even know that origin existed) suggested it too, I don't know, but :3 even if I'm just one of the people who suggested it, I'm :3 because HELL YEAAAAH!!!!

I loved the dark urge so much (even though I couldn't finish my playthrough with them, since they were my second playthrough of the playtest) that i was like "this is too good, since they're not a companion origin story u guys need to make it possible to play them as any race not just the dragonborn variations"

AND THEY DIIIIID i'm so happy!!!!

#baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #bee talks #I legit screamed when they said it during the last panel from hell #finally i can talk about this #me playing with my customized dark urge character: HEHEHEHE THIS IS EVERYTHING I EVER WANTEEED #also insane to see my name in the credits like wow #also idk maybe it was always planned for the dark urge to be fully customizable but #during my playtest they could only be a dragonborn #and all the promo art/etc is the dragonborn #so I assume it wasn't?? #wish my memory wasn't so bad because i suggested it at least twice but i don't remember if i did it only in written form or aloud as well #in which case they didn't tell me 'oh yeah we were already gonna do that' because i would've remembered that at least #ANYWAY ANYWAY #I'M JUST EXCITED #also i might have something to do with the alchemy window #because there wasn't any and i was the idiot with no healer in my party whatsoever so i was relying on potions and so on day 2 or 3 #I complained that alchemy wasn't intuitive enough and the dev looked at the other dev like 'oh yeah we could ask to add that' #'shouldn't be too hard' #and then two weeks later they asked us to focus some of our feedback on alchemy specifically #but tbh i doubt i was the first and only one who suggested an alchemy window because god crafting straight from the inventory was HELL #it was all trial and error digging in the inventory trying to find the components #and there was no alchemy pouch. and no 'automatic' recipes. pain and suffering #lastly: if we get an ace character / ace romance options in the next divinity game: you're welcome #anyway sorry what are these tags god i can't shut up can i #i'm just so happy i got to have a small tiny part in this amazing game!!! #it's wonderful seeing everyone enjoying it so much the devs are so passionate and worked so hard!!! #and I'm having a blast too playing it without all the bugs and unfinished cutscenes bahahaha #BG3 GOTY!!!!!

[vargaslovinghours]

Y’know like, nyah

#💟 #Doodles #Art #Edgar #Scriabin #And Also With You #Okay first - look at Scriabin's hand in the first one I'm so pleased #I don't know why claws are always the funnest to draw and always turn out the prettiest but I am not about to stop lol #Fun posing ♪ #All the rest are pin style nails tho haha ♪ Those are fun too #Demon!Scriabin is just fun to draw in general ✨ He has a different kind of contrast to him that's really fun to line somehow #Angel!Edgar is gorgeous too! I just feel bad that I keep running out of room for all his details ouq Both of them really #I managed to get both wings in the first one for Scriabin at least! I max out at two wings per side lol #I want to I want to ahhh I'll have to figure how to make it cleaner :P #Anyway! #Since them making contact feels so nice a good strong pet from head to tail would probably feel really good :3 #Lazily flopping around like a cat to be as decadent and sinful as possible haha ♪ #Edgar he's going to get the wrong idea if you touch him so casually! #Not like he needs much of an excuse haha

[meymeyzart]

tatsurinne.........

#ARGHGGGG I WAS GONNA UPLOAD THIS 3 HOURS AGO #BUT THAT STUPID FOUTH IMAGE #THE STUPID TATSUMI ON THE SECOND PHOTO #I'VE REDRAWN IT 10000000000000000000000 TIMES #AND IT STILL LOOKS SO BAD BUT I DON'T CARE ANYMORE I'M DONE #JUST LOOK AT HIM ON THE FIRST PHOTO AND RINNE ON THE SECOND ONE THEY ACTUALLY LOOK CUTE #btw the babygirl tatsumi I was talking about is the one on the right on the first image #OBVIOUSLY NOT THE LAST ONE LOL. URGGH #it;s gonna haunt me forever bbtu idccccc #at least he looks cute in the first photo <3 no idea what happened after tho </3 just look at rinne there #anyway #I imagine tatsumi's leg started acting up so rinne is bringing him wherever he needs to be or whatever #but as always you can make up ur own scenario #even now as I type this I have to be looking at that stupid fourth panel #anwayy #I feel like I want tatsurinne to become by brand or osmething I'm so invested in them for some reason #and then hopefully more people will see the light #and I'll be that one tatsurinne artist or something #just kidding rinne's hair is too annoying to draw for me to draw him regularly /hj #if u read this far I love you #tatsurinne #rinnetatsu #tatsurin #rintatsu #enstars #ensemble stars #kazehaya tatsumi #tatsumi kazehaya #amagi rinne #my art

[scare-ard--sleigh]

okay like I had to make Tweaks to a tech article i submitted, which included writing up a meta title (of which i just grabbed the first half of the actual title) a meta description (the description you see on google that no one actually looks at) and bumping down the Grammarly 'plagiarism' score from 3% down to 2% (changing the wording around in 2 sentences) and i'm just like . why do we even have editors lmao like what are we paying those people for .

#work stuff #silver jelly #like at my main job i could have gotten all that done as an editor in less than the time it took them to type out the #message sending it back to me ????????? #(like we do not give a shit about the Grammarly scores unless they're like > 11% and i DO think it's stupid that mine was 'unacceptable' #at 3% when their rule isn't even 2% it's 'less than 3%' like throw me a fucking bone here man) #like it's not even a me being lazy thing; if the editor had looked and seen that i'd missed those things and either fixed them or told me #to fix them BEFORE we sent it to the client we'd look 100% more professional . don't get me wrong; their text wall of guidelines is in fact #bogus and that's Why i missed these things bc i had 9000 other things to think about when i was getting it ready for submission. but why is #that ALL on me??? when i KNOW there's at least one other set of eyes on this thing?? idk doesn't sit right !! #and it just makes me personally look bad (because i 'alone' am making the company look bad despite the fact that the editor #could have said something! (or god forbid DONE something!) i know she has access to these guidelines too !!!) #anyway i'm gonna see if any fashion magazines are hiring i'm sooooo doneeeeeee

[musicrunsthroughmysoul]

It's so funny when people look at themselves in photos/videos/etc. retrospectively and whatever they have to say about themselves in the old photos/videos is often something like "I look like I'm 12" when they were actually quite a bit older than that. Culturally-approved response to aging.

#I was watching an interview with Stuart and Mark of Big Country from 1989 and apparently they had to watch their first big music video #aka ''In a Big Country'' and the first thing Stuart said about it was ''I look about 12 in it'' and it just made me realize #that pretty much everyone says that? no matter how much older folks are than the original photo/video/etc. the age is always '12'... #at least as a joke people say that. you know. #too bad I can never use that joke because most people think that I'm 12 now. (no they don't but yes they do) but anyway...LOL #I'm just kind of wondering why the age is always '12' as a joke. what is it about the look of 12 year olds that make people think #'ah yes the universal joke age for ''holy shit I was young'': 12'????

[scribefindegil]

The thing about post-finale Ekurei is that they pass the "Kill Claudio" test and that's why their bickering is Good.

#like #in a sideways way where they wouldn't necessarily do it for each *other* without complaining #but they would do it for Mob in a heartbeat #and knowing this about each other is a big part of their bond #they refect each other in ways that could be scary or painful-- #except part of the reflection is how much they both love Mob #and that lets them see each other and themselves in a better light #there's at least one good thing they share #and that makes all the bad things--not *better* but #less frightening #so they're able to look themselves & each other in the eye and see the whole picture #wow i am . . . too tired to make this post #i don't know that these tags say what i want them to at all #anyway. #much ado about nothing is the ONLY metric for bickering couples #but i think dimple & reigen can live up to it #(it's about the trust! #for them the trust just comes through a third party) #mp100 #ekurei #that tag ramble had better be enough to keep this mess from getting maintagged

[mothram]

#diana's music diary #good afternoon I'm very tired... #yesterday was okay enough.. maybe even good? Lancer was fun! Ophelia messed up really bad and now the crew is in danger!! yay!! #didn't do all that much else really... I was so exhausted and idk why... I've been so so tired lately... more than my usual eepiness... #I don't know what the exact reason is too it's like... I'm sure I got enough sleep... I had a headache and stuff too so maybe that? #well whatever... I still haven't decided on changing urls yet... today I woke up after like 3 or 4 hours of sleep so my brain is melting #spent an hour looking for a part for my coffee grinder cause I needed it for something (something that isn't coffee) #I couldn't find it so I ended up using a knife to cheat it into working... which worked well but was a little bit more messy n.n;; #I found a couple of nice things when I was looking at least! #a rarity plush an ex gave me and the jacket Sheila gave me years ago... I should clean them up they got a bit dusty from my last move... #anyway later I'm going to try to have some fun... will maybe hang out with friends or just vc with my partner... idk... #the thing I had to get up now for should be done by later at least 😊 let's keep making today good and fun even while eepy n_n;

[byler-heart]

no but imagine if the scripts were actually real but people started saying the writing was like a wattpad fanfiction and even bad writing (bc it was pro byler and the jancy problem) so the duffers were so embarrassed they decided to say it was fake? lmaoooo

#byler #the situation was so weird too #anyways i kinda feel bad for nick and i dont like how the duffers handle the thing either #at least we're getting official scripts scenes #but if they're not as iconic as: #HIS MOUTH DRY AS CALIFORNIA SUMMER #Mike smiles. Will BLUSHES #His face can light up a room #no! don't look at him. #i hate who i am #now it's Mike who doesn't get it #Will turns to a window full of emptiness that goes on forever #He STIFFLES HIS SOBS fuly resigned to knowing he's just ripped off the Band-Aid #THEN I DON'T WANT IT #these will forever be real in my heart

[volivolition]

what's the theme you're fucking going for here voliiii!!! what are you fucking getting at!!! what are you trying to say, what's the point??

#still working on this drama chapter in Swept Up. they're. confusing to work with? from an empathy standpoint at least. #skill who is trying to honestly understand the other skills VS skill who is just always lying and putting on an act. #and then theres the whole thing that im not going to spoil yet but the dynamic. fuck man. i dont even know what im trying to say here #lying is bad? no i dont care about that. honest communication is important maybe? i feel like i need a central theme for this. #and i dont want the theme to be ''empathy good'' because low-empathy people are also good and i love them!! and also: #empathy is a flawed character!! i try to portray this. i dont like moralism/centrism which empathy believes in and is the main skill for #empathy you stupid centralist (affectionate) i know this is just because you don't know how to make everyone happy. who can fix this? #you dont think you can fix this! you feel too much debilitating sadness to make meaningful change!! responsibilite to others more capable #still. i do depict empathy as often kind on a small level because i think that's in character. empathy just helps you understand. #i guess this fic is also a ''empathy doesn't mean kindness. kindness is a choice you can make afterwards but empathy just means empathy'' #but that's not a centralizing theme that all the chapters share. its also about vulnerability and the mortifying ordeal of being known #urgh. i'll think about it some more. knowing me its probably another ''love (in all forms) is the meaning to life'' type story lmao <3 #i need to make a skill chart for this harry. all i know is that Volition is his skill signature but Empathy is his highest stat #hyper-empathetic harry with the rsd that comes from adhd!! haha!! suffering. everybody fucking hate you. this is based on me btw lmao #i was working on voli's chapter which has a flashback and child empathy! new to the mindspace looking out through harry's eyes and crying #the world is full of sad people and it's just too much for a lil guy! the backstory i have planned for this like. huh okay. wild. anyway!! #oh shit ive made a fucking breakthrough with the drama chapter. its not a theme but its something i figured out at least. we stay winning!! #chemi chats #task: swept up

[rattusn0rvegicus]

Bro they really be trying to put four year olds on antipsychotics... crazy shit

#Look I have very mixed and confusing feelings about the fact that I didn't receive any psychiatric treatment at all until I was 19-20 and #didn't get antipsychotics until I was 22-23. But like... #The pendulum can swing way too far in the other direction too #I'm reading Anatomy of an Epidemic and oh I'd love to have a conversation with Robert Whitaker about my case #<- grew up fundie Christian and very extremely anxious and then obsessive compulsive and then psychotic and depressed #(but did not receive any medical care for it whatsoever) #While I think meds would have helped me I also think that the average modern American psychiatrist solution of like #'throw more and more drugs at the problem until they go away and throw drugs at the side effects of those drugs' is. Bad #Idk what I'm saying tbh #I know for a fact my issues (aside from at least part of my emotional numbness) aren't iatrogenic. I was Very Mentally Ill from the start #And while I do consider my utter lack of care as a kid/teen/young adult to be some form of neglect it's like #The alternative (the modern American psychiatric system) was NAWT good either #I don't know a single person who's on meds who doesn't have some sort of complicated relationship with them and all I'm saying #is they shouldn't be treated as a magic bullet #Hell *I* have very complicated feelings about my meds and I haven't really been *harmed* by them just... Chilled Out Too Much #ANYWAYS #This book is kind of shitty towards ppl on SSDI (kind of implying that they're a Burden To The Country) which is gross #but otherwise I'm enjoying it

[the-local-lurker]

So, lately I've been interested in the Legend of Zelda and now whenever Link gets a new item and holds it above his head, I'm reminded of when you feed slugpups in Rain World and vice versa

Just little guys being happy about getting items. I do relate.

So anyway next time I find a green slugpup I'm naming it Link

#rain world #rain world spoilers #at least i think slugpups count as a spoiler #slugpup #I'm a bit scared to tag it since this would be the first time I'd get near interacting with the fandom but #legend of zelda #i wanted to draw this for quite a while #with much less effort put into it #it wasn't even supposed to be colored in at first #but i once again got carried away #it actually ended up being much better than i expected ot to #as long as you don't look at it for too long #anyway #i hope it's not too bad #drawing is hard #I'm still trying to get the hang of it #my art