#anyway expect more of these guys @ some point bc as i said. i LOVE them

[sergle]

I think my favorite thing about doing ginger red hair instead of cherry red hair is: lying to people about it

#I love the cherry red / wine red and I'll probably go back at some point bc it's my Origin. #but for now. #I don't actively lie to people but bc it's a Natural and Plausible hair color #and I'm already pale and I dye my eyebrows to match my hair. ppl figure it's natural #and it has come up MULTIPLE TIMES. and I've recently been rolling with it instead of correcting ppl. bc who cares? #recent examples that come to mind (but I did correct them in this one) my surgeon assuming it was natural #and using my genetics as a natural redhead as a baseline to tell me about what I can expect from my future scarring #and then again later with the anesthesia. they were going to dose me differently #the anesthesiologist glanced at me when I came into the OR and was getting the stuff ready on his cart #and when he heard me talking to my doc and re-telling him that oh the hair isn't natural #he was behind the curtain like FUCK #taking shit off his cart and quietly redoing his setup #that's how I learned that redheads need higher doses of anesthesia than other ppl. #they also need more of the topical stuff like lidocaine. apparently they metabolize it faster(?) #ANYWAY he was going to up my dose thinking I needed it lol #so i almost got way more sedatives and pain meds than i needed bc of my hair dye LMAOOO #other more Normal Life examples was a country dude in full hunting gear holding a door open for me someplace #and I said thank you and he lifted his hat up to point at his (natural) red hair and said ''twins!'' #this one sticks with me because that was such a cute thing to do. what the hell #and at snakefest I was talking to some people at their food truck. there was an older guy who trapped me into a convo for like 30mins #he was Very Nice. and they were going to some type of irish festival next and said I should go too bc I'll be right at home #flat out just was like. this bitch looks irish #and I don't know why all of this is so funny to me. it has no reason to be.

[greg-montgomery]

Please just the team telling r about HOW MUCH OF A SOFT SPOT AARON HAS FOR THEM like god he’s literally such a grouch to Morgan and prentiss but he kisses the ground you walk on and they’re like BESTIE GET A GRIP HES WRAPPED AROJND YOUR FINGER bc reader is convinced he doesn’t share their feelings and he’s just being polite </3

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“Guys, please stop. You’re giving me false hope,” you sighed, dropping your hands on your lap. “I know you’re only trying to make me feel better, but honestly this is making me feel worse.”

“False hope? Sweetheart, the man is in love with you,” Derek said.

“No, he’s not.” You pouted.

You regretted ever telling your friends about your crush on Hotch. What you expected was them making fun of you for it. What you got were daily lectures on how your boss had the hots for you.

“He makes you coffee every single morning,” Emily pointed out.

“He’s just being polite!” you argued.

“We arrive here at the same time every day and he has never made one for me.”

“I’m sure there’s an explanation for this,” you said. “Maybe he thinks you won’t like it the way he makes it. But he knows I do, so that’s why he only does it for me.”

“Okay…” Derek spoke again. His eyebrow was raised, showing he had a very good point to add. “What about when you got hurt last week? It was only a scratch on your cheek but Hotch was ready to drive you to a hospital.”

“Now you’re exaggerating!”

“I saw him cupping your cheeks, it’s true!” Emily exclaimed.

“I also saw that,” Spencer, who had just been observing the conversation, added.

“You too, Spence?”

“Sorry.” He lifted his hands up in defense. “I’m only pointing out what I saw.”

You crossed your arms against your chest. There was no way you’d let them get to you. If you let your heart believe that Aaron had feelings for you then it would break even harder. “He’s like this with all of us.”

Emily moved close to you and took your hand in hers. “No, he’s not,” she said with a smile. “How can you not see it? He looks at you like you’re his sun and stars.”

“We could have an experiment,” Spencer suggested.

“What kind of experiment?”

“Emily got yelled at yesterday for making a mistake during paperwork,” he explained. “I can see you’re preparing a similar report today so you could make on purpose the same mistake as her. Let’s see if he reacts the same way when he sees it. If he yells at you too then that means he treats you the same way he treats all of us. If he doesn’t…then you’re his soft spot.”

“Fine,” you agreed. “Only so you can all finally stop torturing me with this.”

A few hours later, your report was on Hotch’s desk.

“Y/N?”

You heard your name in that warm voice of his and lifted your head to look at him. He was standing at his office door with a smile, certainly not looking like a man about to start yelling.

“Can you please come to my office for a moment?”

“Of course.”

Walking up the stairs to his office, you could feel the stares of your colleagues. Time to prove them wrong, you thought. Even though, you were secretly praying for the opposite.

“What do you need me for?” you acted naive.

“I was just looking at your report,” he said, sitting down on his chair. “And-”

“Oh no, did I make a mistake?”

“No, it’s nothing important!” he rushed to reassure you. “It’s just some little thing. I only wanted to show you so you know the correct way to do it from now on.”

There was a sweet smile on his face. His voice was soft and not at all angry.

“Come on, let me show you.”

It didn’t feel scary to go close to him. So you did.

It was a bit hard to pay attention to him explaining your mistake, since you were staring at his fingers brushing the paper in front of you. It didn’t matter anyway, your mistake wasn’t an accident at all.

“Okay?” he asked when he was done.

“Okay. I’m really sorry, Hotch,” you said, giving him your best puppy eyes. If you were gonna do this experiment, you were gonna do it right. “I’ll be more careful from now on.”

“Why don’t you come to my office next time you prepare a report like this one? We can do it together, hm?”

“But you’re so busy, I don’t wanna slow you down,” you argued, your heart beating faster and faster as you realized that Aaron wasn’t angry at all with you.

“Nonsense. We’re doing it together next time.”

“Okay,” you said. “Thank you, Hotch.”

Just before you arrived at the door, you heard him calling your name. “Oh and Y/N?”

“Yeah?” you responded, looking back at him.

“The team is right.”

“Right on what?”

He smirked and dropped his gaze back to his papers. “You know what.”

You turned around to exit his office with a huge grin on your face. Sometimes it feels better when you lose.

#aaron hotchner x reader #hotch x reader #aaron hotchner #hotch #criminal minds #ask #hotch 🪐

[rene-spade]

Ok but how are the crazy f1 dads with their daughters dating? Who on the grid do they like?

oof this is a loaded ask bc they really are all out of it 😭 they just love their babies fr

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dad! kimi | growing up räikkönen!

FIRST OF ALL kimi doesn’t really vibe with most people in general, let alone anyone who’s trying to get with his little lumienkeli. kimi was lucky to raise a little girl similar to him, who listens when he places a no dating rule lasting until she’s 21 (as far as he knows anyways). despises the guys on the grid trying to get with her; he was one of them once so he thinks of them as animals, especially leclerc who’s known for his brow-raising dating life. also hates pierre but he already didn’t fw him bc he’s french. he is SLIGHTLY more easy going with women around his daughter so any grid guys with girlfriends might have an advantage. he finds that he wants the im-a-dog-and-ill-do-whatever-my-girl-says type for his daughter, but he dislikes unintelligence. he does not like anyone on the grid, but he best tolerates:

mick schumacher!

oscar piastri (+lily)

he vibes with kika okay but hates pierre 💀

bonus! he actually really likes max but his hate/distrust for jos overpowers that so he’s not letting that happen

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dad! jenson | growing up button!

OK SO JENSON is a bit less intense than kimi, however he is much more publicly affectionate with his daughter which means that he has definitely gone on public rants about how no man is good wen enough for his baby. that being said, he is a decent judge of character so he doesn’t hate anyone on the grid. but he gets real serious when he notices people hitting on his baby. this is mostly bc he was def a whore when he was younger so he isn’t quick to trust guys who are living the same lifestyle he was. he kind of turns on dad-mode when he notices anyone eyeing her up. but alas, he raised his own mini-me, who attracts just about everyone, and who likes to flirt back. it takes warming up to, but he can see himself fine with most of the drivers. he most prefers people who are friendly and who didn’t act like him when he was in f1 like:

george russel

daniel ricciardo

lando norris

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dad! fernando | growing up alonso!

NANDO IS DEFINITELY one of those guys who thinks he’s a “cool dad” bc he’s a young father and his daughter is his best friend. but in reality he’s one of those intense, fiercely overprotective dads who have impossibly high expectations for his daughters partner. 100% the type to punch a mechanic for saying gross things about his princesa. he’ll be calm and in a good mood then someone on the grid (or any man ever) mentions his daughter and he’s like 😐. UNLESS! it’s carlos. carlos is the only one who meets his standards, sorry to literally everyone else. but even with carlos, he can be a little stern just to get his point across about not messing with his only child. he just feels the need to personally approve of his daughter’s partner bc he’s hyper-paranoid about someone hurting her. his list looks something like:

carlos sainz!!!

that’s it

i mean if you put a gun to his head maybe max bc he’s a winner but he needs to learn to speak spanish so-

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dad! jos | growing up verstappen! unfortunately

FUCK JOS VERSTAPPEN obviously, however this man is one crazy dad who we have to discuss. his love for his youngest daughter is wild and unpredictable, and it’s very different from the way he treats his other children. his baby has some extreme one-sided beef with him that he’s smart enough to know about, so he isn’t too forceful about bonding, it’s definitely more desperate since max found success in f1 and she sticks with her big brother now. her entire life, he’s never allowed her to date, and when he found out about her first secret bf, he got arrested for trying to kill the kid so. he has IMPOSSIBLY high standards for his daughters partner and definitely wants her to marry within the f1 community, but he hates losers and despises half the grid.

suddenly he’s charles leclerc’s biggest fan !

lewis hamilton but he’ll never admit it

MAYBE carlos sainz

bonus! max obvi likes daniel ricciardo best but jos doesn’t fw him like that

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Ren

#dark! f1 #f1 fanfic #f1 fic #f1 grid x reader #obsessive f1 #carlos sainz x reader #charles leclerc x reader #f1 oc #f1 reverse harem #daniel riccardo x reader #max verstappen x reader #lando norris x reader #lewis hamilton x reader #kimi räikkönen x daughter reader #dad! jenson button #dad! fernando alonso #dad! kimi räikkönen #jos verstappen

[emry-stars-art]

The princess bride is an incredible movie but I have to say my very favorite scene is the sword fight between Westley and Inigo. (I fence so this scene is one of my all time favorites) Anyway what I’m proposing is that Andrew learned to fence growing up and kept at it. First because it would be very cool and second because I think everyone should fence especially gay royalty.

And you're RIGHT

So. I drew it obviously but i also love the idea of this being one of Nathaniel and Andrew's first close encounters. So I also wrote it here, thank you SO MUCH for your tips on how fencing works and i hope it doesn't mess it up too bad that I switched around some of the rules, we'll say it's Palmetto's traditions 💕😅

And actually I think this it's how Nathaniel gets to be Andrew's bodyguard in the first place. You guys read the ideas below and tell me if you agree or not bc honestlyyyyyyy 👀

(Find the royal au writing masterpost here 💕)

The first thing Andrew notices is that Nathaniel listens. He didn't expect to be taken seriously with "Don't come back until you're equal in the sport". Or he expected Nathaniel to come back time and time again to challenge him until he finally beat Andrew by luck or sheer probability. But the next time Day tries to hand Andrew's fencing off to Nathaniel again, Nathaniel declines (which infuriates Day in his usual huffy attitude but thats besides the point).

When Day goes over to question Nathaniel on it where he's leaning on the fence - again just watching - Nathaniel only says "I'm not good enough yet." Not "the prince ordered it" or "I'm not allowed to". It seems like he really is just listening to what Andrew said.

Day tries to say he's fine, he needs work but he's getting better. He won't get "good" without more practice. But Nathaniel only shakes his head.

Andrew finds this horribly interesting.

So Nathaniel keeps practicing with Day and maybe some others - maybe he gets to practice against some soldiers and he meets Matthew Boyd, the infantryman the myth the legend (was that even a rank back then I can't remember. Probably). Until finally, a good while later, Nathaniel actually manages to beat Day. They're both surprised, but time and time again Nathaniel proves he's at almost equal skill. And if he's equal to Day, he has a chance against Andrew.

Andrew's first hint that something has changed is that Day actually asks Nathaniel again - he'd stopped trying after a second refusal. The next is that Nathaniel actually accepts.

It's exhilarating to have Nathaniel on the other end of his challenge once more. It takes more clear prompting, but he even has Nathaniel talking again, though less boldly than the last time. He enjoys it (by Andrew's terms in a sport he still considers halfway useless) as much as he had the first.

Nathaniel wins fair and square.

After that, seeing Nathaniel take his words so literally and respect them and then best him in fair hand-to-hand combat? Andrew knows exactly who to ask for when Day's finally had enough of being his stand-in guard.

#thissssss was super fun hehe #i was bemoaning the loss of the sword under the chin #bc it doesnt take far into nathaniel/abram's employment for both of them to be very careful with each other #MUCH LESS after evermore #but we snuck it in bois #anyway #fan art #my art #my writing #royal au #aftg #all for the game #neil josten #andrew minyard #kevin day #asks

[souji-upseta]

yo my name is nyx, it's my birthday today (2/3). my birthdays have sucked SHIT the past few years for reasons that are depressing—

—cringe is also dead, i killed her myself, and i'm still grieving her loss. its been very hard for me—

—since i am the protagonist of Me and can do st abt this, this year i turn 31, and i will at some point turn 31.4, with all of this in mind, what do i want for my birthday? i'll tell you:

to talk about homestuck.

i'll do that, anyways, but you'd be doing me a gift by giving me a prompt to follow, and to feel slightly more validated in my inability to shut up about my hyperfixation.

so i'm asking YOU to talk about homestuck with me.

talk to me abt homestuck? ask me my headcanons. my thoughts. my relationship to the work. tell me yours. expect nothing that's profound, and plenty that's stupid.

i'm even turning anon on, for the first time in 6 fucking years. where making this happen.

this never expires btw. today is my birthday, but, for story purposes, let's say that it's still my birthday after it isn't, bc i will still want and, if i am honest, NEED you to talk to me about homestuck for years onward. i'm very metatextual like that.

i get the feeling it's going to be a long day.

>Nyx: Be the other guy.

You are now the other guy! What will you do?

>Web Tumblr User: Inbox Tumblr user souji-upseta?

>Mobile App Tumblr User: Do that, but hyperlink is unavailable?

=(n×∞)>

FOURTH WALL BREAK!

you are now nyx again, and i am now me, and i need to exposit some lore.

as in, some starting points to get u going, since "homestuck" is a very broad subject:

•i'm a massive massive slut for the epilogues and post canon content/hsbc. pesterquest is too good for this gay earth.

•dirk is my fav, ALL of the dirks, all of them, and it isn't even close. my fav relationship is the canon platonic/familial one between dirk and dave. i fucking love the striders. dave is my 1.5th fav.

•im more invested in dave's relationship to corndogs (and corn dogs) than you even know.

•mspa reader is my second fav after the striders, bc they are a good thembo friendsimp and also bc they are me and they are You. i might be biased. i love You. i love me. i love us. we're fucking gr8.

•im pretty canon-compliant, so my fav ship is dirkjake as exes (for now), and my fav ship as not-exes is panquadrant (canon) davekat.

i'm also really fascinated by rosemary and would welcome more opportunities to learn abt and talk about them but if homestuck makes a statement about anything it's to let the women and the sapphic characters tell their story (thats a joke, talk to me abt them too)

•june eg(g)bert real.

•i'm fascinated by classpects and the applications of paradox space's classpecting and extended zodiac system when applied to real life, since our only experience of those fictional systems is in linear dimensions of spacetime, and our only experience of astrology is as a species that in-universe cannot experience the sign caste system the same way the fictional aliens that created our species in their own image do. skaia knows, but we sure as fuck don't.

•i'm a former prince of heart (2012-2020) and a current knight of space, and my aspect is light. that is a thing that actually makes perfect sense for the reasons i just said.

don't ask me about vriska serket or (vriska) serket. not bc i'm not willing to discuss dark or problematic characters (hello, lanque bombyx) but bc:

for one, she can speak for her damn self, and has, tyvm.

for two, talking at length about a problematic character in any positive capacity marks you as an enemy of the state if that character is a woman, and being an enemy of the state is way too much fucking pressure for me for reasons i already explained as soon as i told you i'm a knignt of space. i wouldnt make a very good enemy of the state. it'd be an unhealthy blackrom relationship to the detriment of us all.

for three, i can just give you all my opinions/headcanons on vriska that matter:

•JOHN HUGGING VRISKA IN HSBC YESSSSSSSSSS

•she's greasy and gross and unkept af but not unclean or unsanitary, like, she bathes, she smells fine, she changes her clothes, but she's got the troll crust punk aesthetic absolutely on LOCK. she doesn't comb her hair.

•it would have been funny if she did even more bad things

•aradia did nothing wrong. vriska did but the meme is funny even if someone needs to take that meme out back and shoot it for the good of humanity.

•she should beat up ultimate dirk, and my reasoning for that is bc that would, also, be really fucking funny if she did

•john has both punched her in the face and hugged her, and now that john has punched aranea in the face, all that's left is for june—i assume she will have come out of her egg(bert) by then—to hug aranea and complete the circle of stupidity.

•she is trans yeah but she doesn't wanna get into it, she doesn't have to, and neither do i.

•vrisrezi most important relationship in homestuck.

there. you already got me to talk about vriska at length, and you didn't have to try. moot issue.

#homestuck #dirk strider #dave strider #june egbert #vriska serket #dirkjake #davekat #strider bros #homestuck epilogues #homestuck post canon #homestuck meta #homestuck shitpost

[nephriteknight]

sometimes when you're brainrotting two things, the only way to cope is to smush those things together. therefore: how i think bells hells would do at Blood On The Clocktower! (or social deduction games in general.) some of this is mechanical some of it is textual some of it is Just Vibes

Orym: Not the best at lying, but very good at figuring out when someone else is. Tends to hold of on claiming for a while unless he's like a top 4. Probably follows Fearne and/or Ashton around too much, regardless of their characters/alignments. If he's ever evil with one of them he gets very excited to the point that it's almost a tell. Orym is the guy who knows exactly who everyone has been talking to, he is watching EVERYONE in his peripheral vision.

Imogen: Deception queen, nobody clocks when she's lying, but she's not the best at coming up with strategic bluffs. Initially found playing evil Very Stressful, but i think she'd come around to it. DEFINITELY talks with Laudna first every single game.

Chetney: on the fucking case. this man is a genius at this game; if he's evil, nobody can tell bc he always acts this weird, it's no different, and if he's good, he solves the game when evil least expects it. not good at lying but gets by via the power of Lying Always For Shits And Giggles (And Also Tactics)

Ashton: mister -2 to charisma cannot lie for shit. they love the game anyways, but if he's the imp he's star passing pretty much immediately (orym is going to catch him if he doesn't lmao). enjoys interrogating ppl and trying to figure out their characters. probably downplays their own usefulness to the good team but often provides big pieces of the puzzle.

Laudna: absolutely loving it. the storyteller perchance? (altho i could see orym or ash getting in on it too? I May Be Projecting.) i think laudna gets very excited to be on the evil team (maybe too obviously excited), but overall is just having a good time, solving the mystery or being the demon. yeah the more i think about it the more i think she'd really like storytelling. i mean i wore my laudna dress the first time i hosted a clocktower party the vibes are right

FCG: probably one of those people who feels bad about lying in lying games lmao. i think they'd get really into it eventually though. i don't think he'd be good at bluffing while evil, but i think he'd have a really fun time as good and get really into solving it and figuring out wtf is going on.

Fearne: Pure Chaos. you can never tell if she's evil because she is always unpredictable. will commit to the bit always. will offer you the mez word as a good player. has turned several people evil bc they thought she was joking about the mez word and she was Not. she's def not BAD at the game, she's observant and she's good at bluffing, but she is An Experience, and i say that with the most love. very fun to play with i think.

Dorian: probably a little overwhelmed by the complexity (of clocktower specifically). he is, in the words of fearne, "a very bad liar". enjoys it nonetheless, but he is not the clocktower champ by any means (again, said with so much love). still, he's a good sport about it and he's having a good time, and that's what matters! i could def see him storytelling as well. (BONUS, if he brings dariax: he follows dorian around and asks him questions about how the game works constantly. catches ppl off guard w good bluffs sometimes but only when he lucks into good strats or a teammate tells him what to bluff as.)

#critical role #bells hells #chetney pock o'pea #dorian storm #laudna #fresh cut grass #fearne calloway #imogen temult #ashton greymoore #orym #orym of the air ashari

[ma1dita]

Even though Luke doesn’t cheat on Trouble, I listen to Burn from Hamilton and imagine these two post tlt bc yes i like the pain,, no i don’t need therapy, officer 😀

girl the way this is probably canon anyway bc in the trouble!verse luke is a Hamilton Hater ™ and trouble was known to be singing songs from the musical with her ex-bf

im DYINGGGG but damn if you go to therapy hop in we can carpool

sidenote there's still a lot that can relate in the lyrics and im bored rn so lets feed into the delusion for a bit (guys I'm a fic writer who peaked in the 2010s in the age of bad youtube fan recreations of songs to fit their otps... i know how to work with scraps)

She said, "Be careful with that one, love , "He will do what it takes to survive" // You and your words flooded my senses, Your sentences left me defenseless, You built me palaces out of paragraphs, You built cathedrals // I'm re-reading the letters you wrote me, I'm searching and scanning for answers in every line, For some kind of sign, And when you were mine // The world seemed to burn, Burn

Mr. D warned her from the beginning about Luke, even silently in 'play pretend' because she was becoming more like her old self (reckless and crazy, just like him) when she was falling in love with Luke, and it isn't a bad thing but definitely takes away fro what her and Luke have been working at as THE counselors of CHB. Luke's always been good with words as a son of Hermes to the point that it even fools Trouble to some extent, there comes a point where her as an amazing actress can't tell when he's lying---and he learned that from her...

You published the letters she wrote you, You told the whole world, How you brought this girl into our bed, In clearing your name, You have ruined our lives // Do you know what Angelica said, When she read what you'd done?, She said, "You've married an Icarus, "He has flown too close to the sun" // You and your words obsessed with your legacy, Your sentences border on senseless, And you are paranoid in every paragraph, How they perceive you, You, you, you!

this made me giggle OKAY HEAR ME OUT LMFAOOOO ever since they got together (in the span of a little over a year before his betrayal), they always sleep in the same bed when they can as mentioned in 'now that we're older' because they barely have time to themselves in the day....when 'when the chaos is through' is posted, that's when Luke agrees to side with Kronos in his ultimate belief to protect Trouble from impending war and eventually give her a better life outside of CHB. (imagine kronos dressed as eliza schuyler and we're set because luke essentially brings him to bed with them for half of their relationship and she doesn't know LMFAOOOOO) and well yeah yall know his decline after TLT but he's in too deep to fall back

I'm erasing myself from the narrative, Let future historians wonder how Eliza reacted, When you broke her heart, You have torn it all apart // I'm watching it burn, Watching it burn, The world has no right to my heart, The world has no place in our bed, They don't get to know what I said, I'm burning the memories, Burning the letters that might have redeemed you // You forfeit all rights to my heart, You forfeit the place in our bed, You'll sleep in your office instead, With only the memories of when you were mine //I hope that you burn

The beginning part reminds me of the confrontation scene in 'love is a blister' where the counselors put Trouble on trial for loving Luke---the reality of it is they and everyone at camp only know what Luke & Trouble have shown them, but everything between them is private and their own. They didn't expect him to leave her behind. There are a lot of references throughout the series and especially in 'solipsism' where his last time alive as his waning sense of self he goes to visit Trouble who's fresh from visiting Annie in 'love is a blister' and he literally is burning through his old self as kronos overtakes his body. He couldn't imagine not being able to say goodbye before becoming true vessel and well in TLO, teeeechnically what happens and what i plan to write i--[GUNSHOTS]

me saying scraps and then copy pasting almost the whole damn song... ive said too much. this was entertaining, how'd I do?

#trouble!verse #pls yap to me more about trouble!verse #જ⁀➴ jo answers ! #mooties: laeserath ! (˶ ˘ ³˘)ˆᵕ ˆ˶)

[meshlasolus]

House Of Memories (33/?)

Obi-Wan Kenobi x Padawan!reader

Warnings: kissing, fluff, some spicy things, Jealous obi-wan my dudes

Summary: Obi-Wan becomes very jealous over your new assigned partner, Mak Lotor.

A/n: OKAY GUYS IM BACK,,, i decided not to do two updates, and instead combined them both into one episode, it just felt like it all needed to be together idk... also Mak Lotor in my head is austin butler bc i have issues

also y'all if you like the story, maybe consider buying me a coffee :)

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(Gif by mcgregor)

It was the council's decision. It was their choice to put you through yet another uncomfortable situation, and by now, you couldn't help but feel like this dislike for you was purposely getting out of hand.

"You will be temporarily placed to assignment with Padawan Mak Lotor. You will be required to separate from your Master while he completes a mission on Dathomir with General Skywalker," Mace Windu took the lead on issuing the republics agenda for the week. Your face dropped, because you knew exactly what the council was doing. They sensed something with you, and you knew it. Whether or not they knew about yours and Obi-Wan's secret, they did not let on, but they knew something. They were awfully keen on keeping you both apart, even if it was only for a small bit of time. "Having dispersed all missions, this meeting is adjourned, please inquire me with any questions you have regarding your assignments."

You had just one question, which was: Why the hell are you doing this to me? You however expected that a question like that would result in a lecture you were not in the mood, or even willing enough to hear at all.

As you made your way into the hall, Obi-Wan shot you a sympathetic look that said, 'We'll talk about it later,' before he turned to Anakin to discuss the terms of their own new mission.

You nodded to him and continued down the corridor, hoping that nothing would stop you between the place you stood and the path to your apartment door. Funny thing though, luck was never on your side, and seemed to almost resent you.

"Where are you off to so early?" Of course....

You turned around a forced a smile onto your face. Mak Lotor was a lovely boy, who was well known for his skills with a lightsaber, although you could probably take him if you tried.

"I was hoping to turn in, but I don't think I could have slept with all the ruckus going on."

You had met him a few times, briefly, and knew that he looked at you in a way that perhaps he shouldn't, not that you have any say in how anyone should look at you, when you were practically the poster child for disobeying the laws of the Jedi order.

"If you'd like to join me, I find the meditation gardens are far more peaceful this time of the evening," he offered, the nod of his head causing his braid to whip around to the other side of his shoulder.

You thought about it for a moment. You didn't dislike Mak, not at all. He was a kind, and genuine person that most of the female padawans tended to draw towards. You needed to get to know him better for this next week anyway, and you figured it probably best to do that before you flew into the fire of a battle. You tilted your head to the side before deciding.

"I suppose it wouldn't hurt... I'm sure it will be lovely."

He smiled sweetly before letting you catch up to his side and he could lead the way.

Obi-Wan could not pay attention to a single thing that Anakin said, he was far too focused on the conversation taking place several feet away from him, and now the interaction had turned into steps down the hallway.

He didn't like the way that boy looked at you, the way he smiled at you like you lit up the room. You did light up the room, but that was beside the point. He didn't like feeling that this boy perhaps harbored things for you like he did.

When he saw Mak move his hand to the small of your back when you both turned down the hallway, he just about lost it, his face became red, and his brows were visibly strewn with aggression. Mak was touching you where only he had touched you. He was putting his hands on you in any capacity to be quite frank, and it was not okay. It was only now that poor Anakin even realized his former Master could not be bothered with the information that was being offered. He waved a hand in front of his face like a five-year-old, just to gain his attention again.

"I'm sorry, Anakin, but we'll need to go over this tomorrow. I'm a bit too distracted at the moment." he admitted, letting his head fall parallel to the ground in shame over not listening to the important information his former Padawan was trying to relay to him.

"Is this about them pairing her with Mak Lotor?" Anakin could see right through his old Master, although maybe he didn't see everything, for he had no idea of the relationship status you both held. You didn't truly label it anyways; it was just the beginning of something you didn't fully grasp the concept of yet. It was just the idea of 'to love and be loved in return.'

Obi-Wan sighed, un-wanting to admit that something so trivial was upsetting him so greatly.

"You can trust her; she won't let him step out of line."

"That's not what I'm afraid of," Obi-Wan's insecurities were rising all at once, every single thing that he'd thought of when telling himself that you could never love him in return. Those days were over, but the insecurities still remained, though usually on a quiet loop in the back of his mind. Now they were fully fronted, and the only things he could possibly think of right now.

Mak was your age, he was tall, good looking, and polite He was so much younger than Obi-Wan and had only lived about as much of a life as you have and could relate to you experience wise. He had charm that all the other Padawan girls seemed to fall for, and he'd hoped to the maker that you'd not be one of them. Oh, how he loved you, and if he lost you romantically to this boy, he'd snap. His jealousy was arising more than he'd like to admit, but Anakin could see it. He could feel it, as it became like a thick shroud in the force around him.

Jealousy and envy were two different things. Envy was craving the possession of something that was not yours, something that was held by another. Jealousy was the fear of losing something of value. He valued you to no end, so yes, he was jealous.

"She doesn't care for him like she does for you, she never could," Anakin tried to break the trance surrounding Obi-Wan, and it worked to an extent. He thought about the things you'd said to him when you thought he was dead. As horrible as it seemed, he held that confession close to him, because it was your first, he heard that you felt the same way. The first time he knew that his feelings weren't one sided, and he hadn't gone through so many sleepless nights for nothing. You loved him, but right now... he didn't know if that was enough. Love grows in places where you often don't expect it to.

"You're right. I'm sure it will be just another assignment. I'll see you tomorrow for take-off," Obi-Wan swiftly brought this conversation to an end. He knew Anakin meant well, but Anakin didn't know how far anything had progressed, and so he couldn't understand how deeply this concerned Obi-Wan. He wondered if he was enough for you, and if you would still see him as someone worth your time after you'd spent a week with this boy. This boy was in all aspects a better person for you to share a relationship with. Even despite the laws of attachment, you and Mak made sense.... but you and him? It was highly inappropriate to even think that a Master of his rank would have feelings for his Padawan that was a little over half his age. Especially one he had a hand in raising... it was preposterous, and anyone who didn't know you both would think that Obi-Wan was taking advantage of you...

But you loved him... and that was all he could think about as he walked back to the apartment. He may not be enough to deserve you, but you loved him anyways... and as soon as you returned from your outing, he was going to show you just how much he adored you in return.

-

"Okay your turn, truth or dare," Mak said, trying to speak through his fit of laughter. You were funny, or at least he seemed to think so.

"Truth," you said, as you'd only picked dares until this point. There wasn't much he could dare you to do that you would refuse, you were a Jedi after all... but the truth, especially when guarded by the laws of the old game, would have to be spoken whether you liked it or not... even if you didn't utter the words, the thought would slip into your signature, and you'd be outted. You were feeling a bit dangerous tonight.

"What's it like having General Kenobi for a Master? It's gotta be intimidating, right?"

You furrowed your brows, unsure of his question. Did Obi intimidate people? Was he seen as a threat?

"Not at all. I understand he can be rather stoic when others are around him, but when it's just he and I, or when it was he and I and Anakin, he's very gentle, and kind. He can be... protective, at times, but I don't mind that so much anymore."

"You don't feel pressure to be better because of him?" You weren't quite sure why this mattered so much, but it seemed to be important to him how you answered.

"I don't... I actually feel encouraged to do better by him. He's a good teacher," and a wonderful man, in whom I love dearly, you thought, but didn't dwell too much on it. "I've known him since before he was ever a knight, and there hasn't been a time since where he wasn't in my life."

"It must be nice, to have a real connection with your mentor..." he trailed, looking out into the city over the garden's balcony. "My master never really understood the way my mind works. I have this... blockage with the force, it's why I rely so heavily on my weapon. Instead of helping me work through it, he always just forced me to get over it and try harder the next time a problem would arise."

"I'm sorry," you apologized, but you weren't quite sure what you were sorry for... that his master was horrible, that he had this mental blockage, or that you couldn't understand his struggle. He was so sweet, genuine... you found a hard time believing anyone would treat him so, but then again, not everyone had a Master like Obi-Wan Kenobi, who was patient, and kind, and encouraging. "That must be hard."

"It gets easier with time. I just feel like I'm going to spend my whole life trying to please him and never get anywhere. The worst part is that..." he cut himself off from finishing that sentence, but you figured you had his meaning in mind.

"The worst part is that you care about what he thinks of you."

He nodded. You understood that, because even when you didn't know Obi-Wan fell in love with you, you cared so much about what he thought, and strived to make him proud. He always said he was, but sometimes you wondered if he meant it, because there were so many things you did wrong... Mak didn't have a Master like that and in all honestly, neither did many of the Padawans in this temple. Ahsoka did, only because Anakin followed after Obi-Wan. You didn't know him for very long, but you remembered Master Qui Gon being the same way.

"You know, your reputation proceeds you," he said, and you scoffed, thinking that you even had a reputation in the first place seemed utterly foolish at all.

"You think I'm a bad influence, then?"

"I meant your actual reputation, not the council's opinion of you. You're very insightful," he corrected you, and you softened a bit. He was very complimentary of you thus far, and seemed like he actually enjoyed your company, so perhaps this week's assignment wouldn't be so bad. Making friends wasn't always your strong suit, and envy over your abilities often times got in the way... but he didn't seem envious at all, just, for lack of a better word, fascinated with you.

"That's kind of you, I didn't know I had a reputation other than the council..." you didn't want to start on about the council, you promised Obi-Wan you would only rant to him about all the things that happened, and sometimes he would even try to use his influence to fix things that had gone against you. It might seem like favoritism, but it wasn't really, not when they had punished you for no reason to begin with. You changed the subject light heartedly, hoping to steer it back to the game. "Alright, truth or dare?"

"Dare..."

"Oh boy."

-

Obi-Wan was worried beyond reason by now. Relationship or not, he was still your Master, and you never left for more than an hour without telling him where you'd be.

He was pacing the floors, unsure of when you'd be back. He combed the temple for your signature, but it hadn't been opened to him, which meant you closed it off. Either you did that because you didn't want someone near you to hear your thoughts, or you did it because you purposely didn't want him to know where you were.

He tried to calm himself down, but the small green monster named jealousy was crawling back into his mind, filling it with doubts and more fears of losing you. It had been into the wee hours of the morning when he sensed your presence coming down the hall.

He went to the door, ready to open it, but then he felt a second presence... Mak was walking you back to your door? That was a bit possessive, wasn't it?

He could hear your soft giggles, followed by whispers of 'shhh, he might be asleep.'

Obi-Wan stepped back from the entranceway, and into the sitting area, waiting for you to come in, and leave the boy outside. When the door slid open, he heard him utter a quiet goodnight before you were inside, and it was closed again.

You weren't startled by seeing him, waiting up for you, but you were a bit surprised... he had to be up early tomorrow, didn't he?

"What are you doing up, still? You're going to be tired on your mission tomorrow," you approached him with concern, placing a hand on his face. He leaned into it, feeling more at ease now that you were here, with him.

"I can't sleep very well without you anymore," he covered. It wasn't a lie, because since you started sleeping with him every night, he'd grown used to the comfort that surrounded him. He kissed your head and helped you take off your cloak, walking it back to the rack by the door.

"I'm sorry I was out so late, I wanted to get to know Mak a little, he seems nice... I think you would like him."

No, he did not like him. Mak Lotor kept his little one out way past the time she usually turned in, and he could see in your eyes, he was not the only one who would be exhausted tomorrow.

"I'm sure I would," he responded, following after you to get ready for the night.

You began recalling the events of your day to him, as you always did before bed, but you had so much to say about the boy you'd been paired with for this week. He missed the days you would come home, and he would listen to you talk about Anakin losing the racing simulators again, or when you would help train a class of younglings with Ahsoka. He missed the days when you would come back and be happy to see him. You were already so taken by this boy, it was only a matter of time, now.

Once in bed, you found yourself curling around him, and smiled at the comfort it brought him physically and mentally, but only for a moment. He was still lying awake, thinking about how tomorrow he was going away, and you were going to be left with Mak Lotor. He would be gone for a week, and you'd be sleeping on your own, as would he. His mind wandered to places he shouldn't, because he knew you wouldn't do anything to betray his trust... not ever. He just couldn't stop himself from worrying. Normally he would meditate, clear his mind of anything that troubled him, and only focus on his breathing, or since you were with him, he would focus on yours.

He couldn't bring himself to meditate on this, he felt it needed more action, something physical, something like staking a claim.

"My love?" he asked softly, hoping you were still awake.

"Yeah?"

You sounded like you were just as conscious as he was, maybe even more so... did your thoughts trouble you, too? He wondered if as he did, you pondered about the mission, what it was going to entail.

"Are you tired?" he asked, his whisper growing a but louder now knowing you weren't sleeping, or even trying to.

"Not really," you admitted, and he breathed out slowly, read to enact his plan, to stake his claim.

He sat up, leaving you looking up at him from where you laid. You were confused for a moment, until you saw the look in his eyes. They were glazed with something you were unsure about, the moonlight doing little to aid your inspection, but the the look of them was hunger, and need. You were getting to know these parts of him very well as of recently, and you knew when he had that look in his eyes, he only wanted to love you, physically.

He leaned over you, coming close enough that your breath hitched, but eased upon his gentle kiss meeting your lips, moving slowly, but passionately, the way kisses were mean to be given. This man was the only one to ever kiss you, and yet you felt that no one else could do it like he could. No one could ever love you or know you like he did. He'd known you from the early stages of your life, knew every little habit of yours, every little expression, he could even read your thoughts without using the force... he just knew you.

His hands reached down for yours, finding them and bringing them to rest by your head on either side, starting by clenching softly around your wrists, then moving to open your palm, as his fingers gently weaved themselves with your own. He used them as leverage to push himself up and take a glance at you, laid beneath him in the dim light of the city outside his window. Your eyes were blown with the feelings of the moment, and your lips were slightly swollen with his kisses, with your hair fanned out behind your head. An angel, a complete vision of loveliness. You emanated light even in this dark room, in the small hours of night. She is the light incarnate... that will never change

"You're beautiful, little one..."

And then he was back, his lips venturing lower now, skimming over the skin of your neck, inhaling your sweet scent as he kept going. He tucked his head into the crook, while kissing, sucking, and even biting on the area when your neck met your shoulder. His short beard rubbed against the skin surrounding his target, and the sensation of the mild burn it gave you, well, you couldn't get enough. You wished he would let free one of your hands, you wanted so badly to thread your fingers through his hair, to tug on the strands softly and maybe push him to emit one of those groans you craved to hear. It was a sweet sound, the sound of his pleasure... even the smallest things could drive him to the heavenly noises, but you were held down by his hands on your own, and you doubted you were strong enough to get them free.

"Obi," you let out, slightly hushed as he hit a sensitive spot on your shoulder, making you to writhe beneath him at the contact.

He took that as a sign for him to do it again, accept he went full on the second time, nibbling the skin gently with his teeth, and truly acknowledging what it was to actually taste you. He was entranced with your taste, it consumed him, and he wanted more... more of your skin, more of you. He wanted so badly to make love to you tonight, to give you all of himself and show you what it really was to be connected in that way... but he wouldn't. He'd made up his mind long ago, that he would let you decide when that would be. If that was something you really wanted, then he was going to wait for you to tell him you did. He was going to wait until you were sure that it was something you were open to. You'd never been with a sexual partner in your life, and until you expressed to him that you were ready to lose that purity in yourself, he would be perfectly content to love you like this, in the most innocent form of love he could possess.... but wait-

Did you just-?

He kept on with his movements, to see if you would do it again, and sure enough, your hips bucked up into his in a smooth and quick motion, causing him to groan into your shoulder. The vibration sending tingles down your spine, and you craved to have his lips back on yours, but your hands were still trapped beneath his, and you were unable to coherently speak your desires to him... so you did what you thought was rational, focusing on his mouth, and using the force to bring it back to yours, along with the rest of him being thrashed around on account of your impatience. The force could be used in so many unholy ways, you'd thought about it before, but couldn't for the life of you gain the confidence to ask him about it. You were sure it was not a topic that was appropriate, even for the both of you. You were almost certain that thoughts like those would be wrong and using your gift for such things as that would not be something to express in words.

He kissed you deeper, exploring your mouth religiously, like it was the only thing that could bring him salvation.

You kept bucking your hips into his, and he had to show massive restraint over it. He knew at some point you'd be feeling something that wasn't there before but fought hard to prevent it altogether. He didn't need you to feel obligated to anything you weren't ready for.

You wrapped your legs around his waist, squeezing them together behind his back and pulling yourself closer into him. He now understood your meaning. You wanted to be closer to him, to feel his body on yours... but he still held down your hands. He lifted one from the bed, freeing it and allowing you access to his hair, which had already become horribly untamed with his escapades down your neck. You grabbed at the roots, pulling softly and hearing the result of it, which you'd been longing to hear all this time. It was caught by your lips and echoed on into your head, like a song that was stuck there on repeat for days on end.

Now with one of his hands free, he tucked it beneath your waist, lifting it up so your bodies were firmly against each other. the warmth, no, the heat spreading through places he feared it shouldn't be spreading.

He knew he needed to nip this in the bud before it went any further. Even if you said the words, he knew tonight was not the right time. You were supposed to be sleeping as it was, and the hours you'd be missing if you kept on would make you exhausted tomorrow. Obi-Wan was not willing to let your first time be rushed and was certainly not willing to let you be in such a state for your assignment that began tomorrow. More than anything else, he would want to stay with you the morning after, to hold you and assure you that he was there by your side and that he wasn't going anywhere. That could not be said about the day ahead.

He broke apart from you slowly, his last kiss lasting, and when it ended, he pulled your bottom lip with his teeth a little. He let it go, and pushed himself up a little, letting your body back down on the mattress. He looked over you again, seeing as how you looked more tired now, but still eager somehow. You were so willing to lay and kiss him all night long, to touch and feel him and let him take the same pleasure from you. You were everything.

"I think perhaps it's time to sleep, my love," he caressed your cheek with the back of his knuckles, smiling and pecking the top of your head before he laid back down beside you.

You instantly wrapped around him again, face buried in his chest, head resting underneath his. He would never get used to the feeling of holding you while you slept, not even since the first time he did it all those years ago. It gave him a sense of security, knowing you were safe within his arms, protected by his strong embrace.

He fell asleep much easier now, having staked his claim and shown you his love in the physical form it took.

-

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[iwanderthroughthesenights]

Alright mi gente, we're just a few hours away from the release of TTPD and I have successfully managed to stay away from spoilers and leaks completely.

However, I have potentially hot takes that I haven't said here bc I'm scared of being cancelled but since it's almost release time anyways fuck it imma just say it:

- Everyone expects the album to reveal that Joe Alwyn cheated in some way. The lyrics and hints we have gotten so far all point to that too. However, since before the album was announced, what made the most sense to me timeline-wise is that she was the one who was unfaithful at the end in some way, whether emotional or physical, and most probably through her involvement with Matt Healy. I neither judge nor condone this behaviour, but it makes sense and I will be the opposite of surprised if she reveals that's what happened.

- I never once thought Taylor and Joe would ever break up until it was announced on April 8th 2023. I rooted for them a lot, I wanted her to be happy. HOWEVER I will say Renegade strongly changed my perception of how things were. In 2019 when Lover came out I thought "cute they're on the same page and getting married good for them". When the pandemic happened I assumed that was the reason they hadn't done it, of course they would want to have a celebration with their loved ones. BUT when Renegade came out in 2021, I realized the reason why they'd stopped moving forward wasn't that.

- I knew something was Wrong with them on Eras Tour opening night when he was not there. Even then, I never thought they'd break up.

- I strongly disagree with ppl who say he gaslit and manipulated her and that things were wrong from the start. I think that assumption is profoundly disrrspectful to Taylor and to her art. One of the things I love so much about her songs is the raw humanity and complete emotions they portray. Fucking up, blowing things out of proportion, hurting those who we love the most etc are extremely human experiences present in everyone and every relationship. Most artists don't include those aspects of love and relationships in their personal art but Taylor does and that's what makes her music so real and relatable. Do not descredit that by claiming she was manipulated and gaslit for 6 years and never actually loved. On the contrary, there was SO MUCH love there, so much adoration, that it makes the fact that they couldn't make it work bc of fundamental incompatibilities all the more painful.

Sometimes all the love in the world is not enough to keep two people together.

Love you guys. See you on the other side ✌️

#taylor swift #eras tour #joe alwyn #midnights #matty healy #ttpd #lover #renegade #folklore

[17magpiesinatrenchcoat]

TELL US YOUR PK HEADCANONS!!! (if you wanna)

Oh HELL yeah

I’ve already said a bunch of these on ig… but you guys get to have more 😈😈

putting a cut here bc it’s fuckin long lol 💀💀

My fan name for him is Astennu!! Means god of the moon.. and WL’s name is Faraway :D

pan/polygamous: ]

autistic ofc bc I love projecting he's very bad at masking too, he's good at keeping up one specific persona (typical cold ruler mask..) but as soon as someone doesn't act the exact way he expects them to do he doesn't know how to react, and the mask slips, very practiced and good but only in very specific circumstances, another reason why he's so antisocial

he is good at heart and has strong morals, but they're usually overpowered by fear, so he usually just does what's easiest instead of what's right, even though it hurts him more in the long run

he doesn't give a shit about gender, everyone just started calling him a guy and he was like "ok lol"

likes singing and is quite good at it too!! (or. in the case of my au, he was before his voice got messed up)

NO spacial awareness whatsoever, always gets lost in thought, constantly bumping into shit, , he has a bunch of gnarly scars just from that

his godly powers are too much for his mortal-ish body, he regularly gets sick bevause of them, and it was even worse before he used most of them to create hallownest, he was basically permanently in pain lol LOSER

he can't control his glow, so it betrays his emotions a lot (and he can accidentally flashbang people when he feels really strong emotions)

refuses to be vulnerable at all. pushes everyone away, somewhat consciously too, believing himself to be a burden and that they'd be better off without him

drinks literally nothing but coffee {or the hallownest equivalent to it anyway)

very bad memory (projecting again)

he doesn't know how to interact with. people. much less be a parent. he's a terrible parent LOL he tries but he's just not good at it whatsoever

kind of a shitty immune system due to his powers making him sick so often, another reason he's reclusive

ameteur painter (he doesn't understand it much but it makes lurien really happy so)

his special interest is just. inventing intricate technology in general, he completely hyper focuses on it and would spend literal days doing it if it wasn't for wl dragging him out of his workshop LOL

EXTREMELY deadpan and can be very rude without realising it

Stuff always gets stuck in his horns and he usually doesn’t notice until it gets pointed out (which usually take hours bc wl and lurien think it’s funny lol)

Literally does not know how to make connections with people whatsoever every connection he has made has been accidental

dating both lurien and wl obviously 🫶🫶🫶(wl is also dating dryya but I haven’t put much thought into that one yet I should) the gods do not care for monogamy

Hmm.. for his relationships with some of the other characters..

realising that I have not fleshed out his relationship with wl really omg what’s wrong with me I need to fix that ☹️☹️ but uh here’s the other characters for now lol

him and lurien are both deranged autism buddies <33 lurien does not take any form of authority seriously at all, and doesn’t like taking orders (pathological demand avoidance, autistic thing, pretty sure I have it lol) and so.. he never like. acted like pk was a god. he just treated him like a normal person. and pk had no clue how to react to that so he could not keep up his mask around lurien at all.. so eventually they ended up realising they have common interests and ended up becoming friends.. and later.. hmmm?? they are both incredibly awkward and socially inept lol so it took way longer to happen then it should 💀

but yeah they have a very funky dynamic LOL they can talk for hours about their common interests <3 and hmm.. their dynamic is basically this

He never thought that much of herrah other than being vaguely scared of her;; but she fucking hated him LOL she thought he was an inept cowardly moron

but.. the more time she spent as queen, she grew to understand him a lot more as she felt how much that role and pressure could tear someone down

She still doesn’t like him that much, but she understands why he is the way he is now, and tries to be nicer bevause she knows how it feels

He and monomon have a very weird relationship.. they’re kinda friends but also kinda fucking hate each other LOL;; like;; theyre really fucking mean and hostile to each other but it’s not really genuine, it’s more out of habit than anything, and they do care about each other and look out for each other, it’s just sort of the manifestation of them both being emotionally inept assholes who don’t know how to communicate, so they sorta take it out on each other, but neither of them mind, they know neither of them actually mean it

so yeah sorta like;; idk weird ass friendship where they both pretend to hate each other to vent at how shit the world is but they both know neither of them mean it bevause the anger isn’t directed at each other at all, and it’s kinda become a game between them who can come up with the most ridiculous insults LOL

Uhhh I guess that’s it lol!! Yeah I said there was a lot 💀 if you have any questions or more headcanon ideas for me… well you know where to find me 💜💜

#rambling #pale king #HEADCANONS!!!! #shut up lori

[spector]

my goomens s2 thoughts

ok so spoilers obviously BUT

my god . this was a shitshow GFFHIGHFIg i really went in with like . the lowest expectations bc all i wanted was a). see my purple whore (gabriel) and see him be funny b). have a good finale for him where he remains the most special boy in heaven

i did NOT expect the show to be sooo bad in the writing department it was insane. like, ok, i don't care much for crowley and aziraphale, i never did. i love it when they're being fruity and silly on screen, that's fun but overall I'm not very much invested in them. but in this season u barely get them doing fun stuff together, they're always split up and on their own they just don't deliver

AND THE WORST FUCKING PART. are those fucking minisodes/flashbacks . they're so bad. my god. but its clear everyone involved in creating them LOVES the idea but ???? every single one of them SUCKED and took focus away from interesting things that were happening in the PRESENT. the entire mystery plot about gabriel was interesting but guess what, they set it up and then . forget about it until the last episode where they just do a MASSIVE exposition dump in like 15 minutes. u get the entire mystery handed to you on a silver platter and the worst part is, they could have set it up like a genuine investigation for the viewer to guess it, but its the same as BBC sherlock fuckery. the actual resolution is something u never could have guessed on your own !!!!!!!! like there were hints (wit the fly in the shop) but they NEVER followed up on it, they just randomly resolve it in the final episode . my god

anyways back to the minisodes/flashbacks. theyre so bad. i said that already but they're so bad. the blitz episode is the worst offender bc not only it takes place right after that really nice scene from s1 and thusly robs it of any emotional impact, but its also . JUST BAD. EXTREMELY BORING AND UNFUNNY. DREADFULLY UNFUNNY. job minisode was really bad too . the finale of it was ok but the whole buildup was stupid as FUCK. the corpse robbing bit in victorian edinburgh was SOOOO boring and at the end there - extremely cringe. WHY DID THEY EVEN BOTHER WITH THOSE. THEY ADDED NOTHING TO THE PLOT. at least in s1 when they did the minisodes, they served as character exploration for crowley and aziraphale and they also set up some of heaven/hell lore, THE ONES IN S2 WERE NOTHING. NOTHING AT ALL . at one point it seemed like all the bits from the past somehow lead to the current mystery (like that doctor guy and the pub named after him) BUT THEN IT ALL TURNED OUT TO NOT BE CONNECTED AT ALL

the blitz episode . my god . it was just . so bad. i have no words really.

and the lesbian subplot - like. it needed to be more connected to the main plot. i didn't mind it at all but . it went and disappeared and then suddenly became the focus of episode five... WHEN AT THIS POINT, WE SHOULDVE BEEN GETTING CLOSER TO SOLVING THE MYSTERY. BUT THE MYSTERY WAS SHELVED FOR SOME FUCKING REASON. its insane how much aziraphale and crowley just. forget about gabriel even tho they should be busting ass to solve the case as it were.

and my god, gabriel. ive never been like. ride or die for gabriel/beelzebub, they've always been two boss bitches that slayed together or whatever , i prefer them to be that and not romantically involved but i also dont mind them to be an item. so whatever, i dont mind them being endgame BUT I MIND BOTH OF THEM DITCHING THEIR POSITIONS OF POWER BECAUSE I THINK THEYRE TOO COOL FOR THAT . WHATEVER . THATS LAME . they should've like. reorganized everything .

AND ALSO THE WAY THEY KEPT SHELVING GABRIEL AND JUST LIKE. LEAVING HIM OUT OF EPISODES????? WHAT??? THE WHOLE CATALYST FOR EVERYTHING AND THEY FORGET ABOUT HIM FOR LONG STRETCHES OF TIME. INSANE??? AND RESOLVE EVERYTHING SOOO QUICKLY IN THE FINAL EPISODE??? what the hell

ITS JSUT ? INSANE HOW BAD THE WRITING IS and i don't even mean that from a gabriel girlie's perspective. imagine if the season starts out with like, idk a murder mystery and it looks like solving the murder is the most important thing for the story, at least it seems so in episode one. and then suddenly the rest of the season is about what the two detectives did some time ago and its totally unrelated and also at some point there are two episodes dedicated to them looking for some files for an unrelated mystery to get their bosses of their back. and the murder is solved at the last moment through magical CCTV footage they could've accessed at any point in the season if they just Tried A Bit Harder.

it really boggles the mind. it REALLY DOES. they should have dropped all the minisodes they did NOTHING . the ball episode should have been like. ep 3 or smth. the rest should've been the investigation of the weird fuckery. shax was wasted. additional hell and heaven lore felt like deconstruction instead of worldbuilding. I'm going insane with how bad all of this was, I REALLY DIDNT EXPECT IT TO BE SUCH A SHITSHOW LIKE DFHGIDDHGIGH ITS FUNNY??? ITS JUST BASICS OF SHOWMAKING .

I SAID TO SUSAN THAT THIS FEELS LIKE A SHOW WRITTEN DURING THE WRITERS STRIKE BUT IT WASNT . IT WAS WRITTEN BEFORE OUGHHHH

and again, i dont care about aziraphale but the last moment arc felt so out of character for him like my god, didn't we just spend an entire job minisode establishing he's questioning heaven and now he just returns to it AUHGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG what the fuck is going on. how is this so BAD HGIFGHGIH . the last episode is such a shitshow that its like. its remarkable. I'm genuinely surprised bc my expectations were low but WOW. just WOW

i have to stop now before i continue picking everything apart but AUGHGHG JESUS !!!!! I COULDNT HAVE PREDICTED IT BEING SO BAD

#this is a bit unhinged but im just like. im in such shock over how bad it was

[striving-artist]

Hi!! this is about the "we should still vote for Biden" post

Context: this is in good faith. I agree with the points you made in your addition and the post as a whole, I'm just looking to discuss it a little if that's okay. Another important bit of context— I keep up with news and politics and elections and everything, but next year's presidential election will be the first election I'll be old enough to vote in. So. Coming from a somewhat educated but also young and NOT an expert pov.

Anyways!! Now that that's out of the way.

I agree that the widespread determination not to vote for him again is harmful because if leftists and liberals aren't voting for Biden, conservatives are still going to vote for trump and get him back in office. I don't want that to happen. He is so much worse in so many ways and it especially scares me because he is very vocally transphobic. Voting Biden back in makes sense to me.

But the argument I've been seeing most is that if people vote for Democrats even when they actively assist with genocide, they'll learn that they can keep doing that without alienating their voter base, and they can do it without worrying about losing power. This also makes sense to me.

But I don't. I don't understand what else we can do. Not voting for him won't stop US aid to Israel. Wed just be trading Genocide Joe for Genocide Donald. It's not that I don't care about Palestinians— what's happening is horrible. What's happening Should Not Be Happening. But abstaining from voting to make a point to the democrats is just going to sentence us to four years under a guy who will do the exact same thing, probably worse, overseas, and commit atrocities against POC and immigrants and other minorities in the US too. It's not that I'm valuing American lives over Palestinian lives— its just that neither option will save Palestinian lives. Neither option will stop killing them.

I just don't know what we're supposed to do. I want to change things so bad but there just isn't a way to do that within the current system and in the meantime it's all just harm reduction.

Direct answers to what you asked about first before I go rambling into the bigger scope. Eternal Caveat: I am not an expert either.

Be loud. Be persistent.

Be present. Bring your friends.

Don't expect immediate results.

Here's a nice summary of things.

Contact your reps, do not lie about your residence, and don't give them an excuse to discard real constituents opinions bc you were spam calling from across the country. Contact their field offices, not just DC. Visit if you can.

Accept now that what you say today won't impact what happens today. It builds over time, and will impact months and years from now. The more persistent you are, the bigger and longer that impact will be.

Contact when you're mad, AND contact when you're thrilled. This is cross party. If you have a rep of the opposing party, and they do a thing you support, tell them. If you have a rep you voted for and they fuck up? Tell. Them.

Find advocacy groups. I love Run for Something. I love Leaders We Deserve. They can help amplify your voice. There are many. Find the one that fits you.

Lots more words under the cut.

I'll get into HOW to contact, but, I need to poke a hole in something you said. The election is a year out. There are some primary races, but incumbents rarely lose those. Bluntly? Most politicians don't think that their actions or stance about Gaza will impact elections. Americans have no long term memory for this. Shutdowns will have more impact. Taxes have more impact. A lot of young people will hold onto this, and we should make sure they hear us, but most americans aren't paying enough attention for it to matter to them in eleven months.

Sorry that's depressing af. Lets talk about best way to raise your voice so you can maximize your impact.

I'm sure you've heard all the advice about contacting reps before, Up and Down the Ballot, and I definitely know that it can be exhausting to keep going when it seems like nothing is changing. They don't hear the actual voicemails we leave, they don't read the actual emails or letters, that's their staff, but they and their Chief of Staff get counts at the end of every day with how many calls, and what people were calling about. Occasionally, staff will pass on excerpts or quotes to the elected guy, but its never a guarantee.

At the start of any major event, they get an initial ratio of calls that they translate as the people's gut reaction. Lets say they start out getting around a 50/50 split on a topic. Okay, that tells them to make their choice based on other factors, or to make their argument to their voters. But over time, that split changes, and the people that care more, that are more invested, will skew it. When it changes to 70/30 in favor, and they keep hearing that for weeks or months, that changes their math. It's telling them that the people who are more than flash-pan interested in the topic are strongly in favor. Might not have any impact this time, they may have already voted, but, it goes into their notes as a Thing That Matters to Voters.

So, great, you should contact them as much as possible. You knew that.

But, as you also know, Voicemail fills up. Emails spit back standard form responses. Even if you do reach a live human beings, they have to follow a script. Don't take that as them ignoring you. Sending custom responses to every single email is flat impossible over hot button issues. Staffers cannot randomly change their boss' stance bc you could be recording the call. Trust that they're keeping the tally, and keep calling.

I can get same day delivery from Amazon, I will not get same day change from politicians.

Also, the people who are sending mass faxes? Love that. Write physical letters too. Physical Thing Piling Up in the Office has more impact on a person than a number on a computer. Get your friends, order some pizza, write letters to every person that represents you. You'll get a form letter back. Accept that in advance. Your individual voice likely won't be heard. You are part of a larger crowd, all yelling the same thing. That shifts your rep, and as more reps shift, it puts pressure higher up the chain.

So, where does that leave us if we want them to literally hear Our Words? In person events.

Congress goes back to their districts pretty often, and (most) have public events. The closer to an election, the more they have. Show up. Politely, professionally, show up, and ask questions. Dress business casual if you can. Those events tend to be filled with older, more conservative constituents. Bring your friends, and choose who has the best speaking voice/prepared speech. Practice it, bring notecards. If any of you get handed the mic in a town hall, pass it over to that guy. (staff might be annoyed about this)

And look, I badly want to light things on fire until people listen. But I also know that doesn't help. Same reason we cannot scream or yell or threaten when we call/email/etc. If you start cursing at a staffer or a representative they are (often) allowed to hang up. They will dismiss you. It gets counted differently than if you said your piece in full.

It's a continuation of why protests that turn violent get dismissed so easily. "oh, they weren't there because they cared, they just wanted to steal/loot/burn." Screaming insults takes your message of 'constituent offended and angry about politicians actions' and turns it into 'shouty idiot we should ignore'

Again, it sucks that this is the case, but, to put it into scale with the internet: its the same as blocking someone. If you show up in my inbox with a real question, I am very here for it. If you show up and call me a 'libtard cunt' I just ignore it. Politicians do the same.

Older, but a nice overview on talking to politicians

Politicians want to stay in power. It is rare for someone to take actions in office that they know will see them lose their next election. Liz Cheney did it. Kinzinger did it. McCaskill did it. They're outliers. For most of them, they'll bend their morals to keep their seat. If the whole of their district is screaming for them to support A, even if they personally want B, they're gonna vote for A.

Now. ----------

Broader picture response. I'm sorry that this is your first election. My first was Obama in 08, and its been downhill ever since. But even then, I didn't like McCain's policies, but I respected him. That stayed true btw. You don't get to have that. You're starting with a rematch election that is simply exhausting to live through. My current consolation is that I don't think Biden will make it through four more years, so the VP will matter.

Some things to point out that, honestly, won't make you feel better, but might make things easier to swallow.

Joe Biden is not cackling in the White House and gleefully sending money with the hope that more Palestinian children get murdered. He just isn't. He isn't doing what we want, but that level of comic book evil isn't a thing in reality.

Calling him Genocide Joe is a product of the Trump era. It sounds like a trump insult. 'little marco' 'crooked hillary' 'lying ted cruz' You can hear it, right? It's tabloids and its trump. Don't do that. Don't reduce the opposition, or even your reluctant allies, down to a single trait. It is the start of dehumanizing someone, which becomes dehumanizing a group, which, you guessed it, leads to genocide like we are seeing in Gaza. It's how Trump started, its how he continued, and its how he is escalating.

Same reason you shouldn't say that Israel is doing this, or that Jews are doing this -- that flattens the group down to an action. Plenty of residents of Israel oppose this. Plenty of Jews oppose this. The people of Israel are not attacking Gaza, the Israeli government is. And even then, Bibi is not officially attacking Gaza, only Hamas. It's flagrant bullshit, but they're saying it as a veneer of acceptability.

You can simultaneously hate someone, and understand that they are a person with internal complexity and reasoning. You can hate the actions that a government is taking without assigning the guilt to whole nation.

Again, not to be bitchy or repetitive, but Bibi is taking the actions of Hamas, and laying the blame on all Gazans. Trump takes the actions of a few people and blames every immigrant. Don't do that. It's easy, its comforting, and its a trap.

Can't find a great source or article about how Trump changed political language so Dems use radicalized tone too, but this one is okay.

Next ------

America is not as strong as we pretend we are. It was already a waning power, and the Trump admin took a sledgehammer to it. It's improved with Biden, and a lot of the world is hoping we bounce back, but it's not the universal thing it once was. Lots of countries have nukes. Why would other countries listen to us when we legit look like our government might collapse at any moment? Maybe, maybe, fifty years ago, the US could have bullied in and demanded a stop to things. We can't now. Neither can Russia or China, actually.

We can bribe people, we can undermine countries and governments the way we did in South America, we can push and prod and beg, but we do not have the ability to throw weight around and immediately win.

Its scary and confusing for americans, bc we're raised on this idea that we can kick in any door and force a change. We can't. We shouldn't.

Far more likely than the US supporting Israel with this shit, is that we're telling them to stop and Israel is not listening. Since the remaining global authority of America is built on the idea that we have authority... I don't know, maybe its as simple as that. The US can't stop them, so we're pretending that we're allowing it and trying to fix it in the background. The Biden admin has done similar before. It usually works better than public demands.

It's horrifying because we live in the internet age, and we are watching videos of massacres that we wouldn't have seen fifty years ago. That doesn't mean we let it slide bc we might have before, just that if this feels like its worse? That's because we aren't as separated from it as before.

And, personally, my feelings on this are complex. I don't think America should be walking into other countries and doing whatever we want. We don't get to impose our preferences or our morals on other people. Top to bottom. I don't want american evangelicals showing up in Uganda and pushing to make homosexuality punishable by death (they did this). I don't want american soldiers pushing our agenda in impoverished nations. At the same time, I want someone to step in and stop genocides and land grab wars. I want someone to bring in medicine and aid, even if they have to bribe a corrupt official to get there. I want someone to just go fix it so we don't have child labor mining for cobalt and picking acai and farming quinoa and chocolate.

But if someone showed up in the states, marched soldiers into, lets say Texas, and imposed martial law so women had abortion access, that wouldn't be okay, even though I support the goal.

Geopolitics is complex. It will always be complex. If its overwhelming and you feel guilty, take a breath. That's true for everyone.

Additions ------

I do not believe in non-violent protest as a true solution. A protest is a tacit threat of violence. It is a group showing up to say 'hey, we outnumber you, and we're pissed' That said, participating in a protest is dangerous because it can become violent, and the crowd might outnumber, but the cops has more weapons, and they're trigger happy af.

No group is a monolith. Not even That Group. Treating them like one makes it easier for their leaders to manipulate them. You make them into a tighter group by lumping them together.

Gen Z gives me a lot of hope. Also a lot of fear. There is a ton of access to info that I couldn't easily reach at your age. Then again, the trend to making everything a 30 second snapshot is terrible. Propaganda spreads so so easily online, and our parents did not set you up with the tools you need to check it.

Last. The moral arc bends towards freedom. More rights, more safety, more health, more safety. That doesn't mean it is a linear path. But when I first voted, Gay Marriage was a pipe dream. When my mom first voted, women getting verbally harassed was exciting cause at least it wasn't physical anymore. When my grandma first voted, interracial marriage wasn't legal everywhere.

Things get better. Slowly, with blood under our nails and scars from the fights we lose, things get better.

You are already doing the right thing, you are already helping by paying attention. Keep watching, take breaks so you don't burn out, and get back in the fight when you can.

#us politics #israel palestine conflict #Can you tell I want/ed to be a speech writer? #sorry for typos #still having keyboard issues

[pink-strawberry-kissess]

I’ve also randomly had thought of a High School AU with them! I always thought it was kinda cute how their dynamic is very role reversal with their age difference. Typical in American HS stories is a big deal if the freshman girl gets the attention of the hot guy senior but in their case Ada is the hot senior and he’s the freshman that wants to impress her lol it definitely feels that way in RE2R.

The scenario I’ve always had was freshman Leon enters school (becomes very popular himself) meets Ada for the first time via a very great encounter that I haven’t come up with yet lol but I see her as a bit of a loner, preferring to hang by herself, so maybe stumbles upon her alone in her favorite nook in the library and develops a huge crush, not knowing she’s a senior. When he tells his crew (other RE cast members) they (likely Claire telling him she heard from her older brother) tell them everything the know about her & advise him to stay away from her bc of school gossip labeling her as a “bitch, Maneater, selfish, slut,” (basically everything real life Ada haters call her). Leon doesn’t care about what they say and pursues her anyway, and during his pursuit, even Ada herself advises he shouldn’t be interested in her, but that doesn’t stop his persistence. Her breaks through her resolve, date through the school year and have cute moments/experiences together until finally the angst shows up!

Close towards the end of the school year, they have a fight over something. Haven’t thought it all through yet but something along the lines of Ada lying to him about something or keeping something from him. He finds out and confronts her, in his anger says things he doesn’t truly mean, maybe about how everyone was right about her. Ada would let him believe that, maybe act nonchalant about it and they break up. School gossip now sees Leon as just another poor victim of her. Leon is left with mixed emotions regret and bad for some of the stuff he said, doesn’t really believe what people label her as after getting to see all the different sides of her when they were dating. But at the same time is still hurt & angry, yet also wants to be with her. He ends up never having the courage to speak to her again up to the end of the school year so she ultimately graduates and goes off the college.

They don’t talk again for years until after he graduates. At that point he convinces himself he’s accepted all the things left unsaid between them and it was probably for the best, thinking “no one really ends up with their HS sweetheart anyways right?” but then finally sees her again…Like RE4 I would out around 6 years where he’s 21/22 and she’s 24/25 when they come across each other again, maybe even older 🧐 From there I hadn’t thought enough ahead how their reunion would go lol

These are the Aeon brain rot things that keep me up at night 😭😂

this is adorable!!!!

leon with a baby face makes me >:3

send me more! i'd love to do a collab or something hehe

also gave you a really long tag lmao

i feel like they'd meet in the library or something, even though leon's popular later, he's still horrible with the ladies, they think he's cringe or just too young. or something. kinda in like the whole "he's so hot, but he's your friend's younger brother type of way."

he stumbles into ada eating lunch on her own and he's not expecting it at all, maybe her head in buried in a book and it's one of his favourites. they bond over that and then he leaves it at that. maybe one of them asks where leon was at lunch the other day and he said he had it in the library and they're like ?? what the hell were you doing in the library? and eventually they figure out it's because of ada. they warn him that's she's trouble or whatever and (also i hate the narrative that ada gets called a slut, cause if anything, another main female character has actually been written to be sexually promiscuous, but ada gets labelled as a "slut??" get outta hereee)

i'd actually love a bit of a banter between these two, and also cause i feel like "slut shaming" is so prevalent in high school that it would be interesting discourse

i could imagine them maybe getting together for a while and she doesn't want to tell him that she's actually leaving after graduating to go travel or something and she lied about what school she was going to. (leon was planning to go to a certain one, and ada panicked and just said, yeah same) and he's hurt over the idea of not being able to see her.

AHHHHH

#highschool aeon au anon #ask heart #heart answers #ada wong #leon s kennedy #leon kennedy #aeon #leon x ada #leon kennedy x ada wong #leon s kennedy x ada wong #highschool au

[distant-screaming]

okay I have to know more about the tinngun wlw au but I can’t think of what yet so I’m thinking as I type, apologies if this is the most incoherent thing you’ve ever read

tinngun they are women they are lesbians you said there are slight changes in the ways they treat each other and stuff or something like that bc there’s society against them now which sucks but anyway what was I saying uhhhhhhhhhhhhh rIGHT

can you give some specific scenarios that are either new or changed? like the pool scenes, or if there’s any differences with the scenes in gun’s mum’s milk cafe?

ALSO from some of the things Astro said about their art (WHICH WAS FREAKING INCREDIBLE BTW) I’ve gathered that gun is more gender non conforming, less feminine and stuff? So I was wondering, what brought you guys to that conclusion, and also could you elaborate more on how her character changes at all? What kinds of clothes does she wear? Does her personality change at all? Is she suddenly more fierce and has to stand up for herself a lot because she doesn’t “look like a girl” and because she’s the only girl in the band and because she’s a lesbian? Does she break/bend rules as often as canon!gun? Or does she try to keep a low profile because she already gets a lot of stares and whispers for being who she is?

sorry I think I love this au too much but pls tell me everything you possibly can about it bc I just need more of it fjfjfjfjrjfirj

AJFSKFKFK THANK YOU FOR YOUR ASK we will literally take any excuse possible to talk about the au <3

Bee (@transpran) and I had so much fun answering these, we ended up rambling a bit more than was probably necessary. I'm not gonna apologize though. They're lesbians, come on.

some specific scenarios that are either new or changed?

Dee (that's me!): In terms of specific scenarios that change, pretty much most of the scenes change at least a little bit - but I don't want to give too much away, because I'm working on a couple drabbles that explore some scenes! Please look forward to that :)

What brought you guys to [Gun as more gnc], and does her character change at all?

Bee: as far as gun being gender nonconforming, i think she grew up naturally into it from being around so many boys, obviously that doesn't happen to every girl who has mostly dude friends but it does tend to be more common among them. especially with being the leader of an otherwise all-boys band, i think as a result she developed into someone who's fierce when she needs to be and able to play around easily (boys are ROWDY at that age generally), someone who can blend in and be "one of the boys." and i do think she enjoys her life that way; i don't think gun consciously cares much about gender at all. but what happens when she meets tinn is that she realizes what she likes about her, and some of it is focused on their differences, on tinn's careful femininity, her gentleness, her lack of a temper (with a few exceptions, as we know). and she admires all that a great deal. part of the differences in the story would be, i think, about gun seeing all that and wondering if she's doing it wrong herself, if not caring about her gender has been mostly just out of convenience so she wouldn't have to think about hard questions, etc. and how she comes out on the other side loving herself as she is and understanding herself more, and that the beauty of being a woman, or anybody, is the power of choosing who you are regardless of what's expected of you by society.

Dee: pretty much all of that! Plus, I think Gun has always been allowed to express herself however she wants (by her parents, Chinzhilla) so she's never really had to like, come up with reasons for anything. She just is! She also has to unpack a little bit of 'do I like this about Tinn or do I want [gender thing] for myself' which is, I think, a common question that often pops up for queer people (or at least it seems to do so for me ajdkd). In terms of character changes, I think one of us said at some point that girl!Gun is more of a 'crunchy' character. Even from a very basic perspective - Fourth's face is very prominent and strong, which, while considered attractive on a guy, could make for a girl!Gun who is often considered rude or grumpy - which can lead to some very interesting changes in the character and choices girl!Gun would make in comparison to canon!Gun.

What kind of clothes does she wear?

Dee: I think Gun is a lot more varied in terms of patterns and style because she'd get more freedom to explore clothes in the first place, but it would end up being pretty similar to canon!Gun's outfits anyway. She also wears more jackets and hoodies as a way to cover up more thoroughly.

Bee: clotheswise, i don't think gun's outfits would change much from original gun. maybe they'd be more form fitting if she doesn't outright shop at the boy's section, but the general vibe would be the same. i think she'd also enjoy loose crop tops on top of sports bras though, and similar stuff.

Does she break/bend rules as often as canon!gun?

Bee: rulebreaking: i think part of gun and friends being outcasts is the rulebreaking and the being bad at studying and school thing. so if anything she'd double down on it. gun has been shown to be very much a "i'll be exactly what they expect of me, and then i'll prove them all wrong" kind of character, if that makes any sense, and girl!gun pretty much has to pick between behaving and not - straddling the line is more dangerous for her cause it could ruin her future and reputation no matter what she did. so she either does what society expects, or says to hell with it with all her chest. we know what she'd choose.

Dee: something else I think is an aspect of Gun's character is that she's very used to center stage. She's been singing and performing since very little, and she enjoys it, so I think she's pretty oblivious to some of the attention she attracts. Obviously she's not wholly unaware, but still. Also, in some ways, I think Gun is even more likely to bend rules because she's so used to having to loophole her way into certain spaces and having to command the room to gain the same respect her male friends seem to get. Girl!Gun is more likely to play with technicalities because it's what she's had to do for ages. Also, she gains a bit of a fan club due to her brazen nature, especially younger queer kids (though this doesn't click for her until much, much later).

Thank you again for your questions! Feel free to ask more, we're both super normal about this au, promise! <- blatant lie

#I genuinely did not expect the answers to be this long HELP #wlw tinngun au #quodekash beloved #msp #my school president series #tinngun #guntinn #distant screaming screams into the void

[bixy]

So, I'm an only child, but I have this one friend and I feel like he would be the closest to what I would call like a younger brother. He's always been like someone that would just love to bother you or say something ridiculous just to get a reaction out of someone.

And his one friend has a crush on me so he'd make a group chat for the three of us, but I noticed his one friend says the n word kind of often and when I asked my one friend what was up with that he got so extremely defensive but also he is one of the types of people, that will defend his guy friends no matter what, and he only hangs out with like the same 10 people so it's kind of like an echochamber, but also if I was doing something shitty I'd want my friends to tell me or I'd tell my friends too. And then he told me I wouldn't get it because I'm not from the hood (for reference both of these guys are Mexican), and then told me it isn't even a big deal and that he says it all the time, which is not true at all bc if it was I wouldn't have been his friend for so long lmao but ever since I asked him about why his friend said that he says it excessively, and the last time I saw it kept being like "can you say the n word" to me and just wanted to make me uncomfortable lmao like how pathetic, but I think what pisses me off more than anything is that this guy truly claims to be a leftist lmao

and I've met one of my closest friends from him and I told her I'm not going to hang out with him anymore and she was like "really, thats so sad why?" and we've already talked about this in the past, and she was like maybe its just a phase he'll grow out of, but also her lack of reaction is like also upsetting to me too?? I mean she grew up in Mexico so maybe she doesn't understand the complexity and weight of that word but I cannot wrap my head around why people want to say that word so bad? And like, at one point, I considered him a friend so I tried to explain why you shouldn't, and it just felt like he brushed me off, and if anything I am just so like ? do fucking better? you're a fucking adult? but also to claim to be a leftist and support minorities and talk about what it's like to be an immigrant all the time to just mock me for the dumbest reason, just because you surround yourself by shitty people lmao

and I was at a party the other day and I invited one of my best friends there, who is a black man and my other friends met him, and the other day my friend was like "do you think your friend would care if I said it" and it was just weird?? like do you hear yourself???

anyways, this means I'm gonna cut out like uhhhh 13 people or so out of my life but I don't care, I've cut out people for less, but it makes me sad bc I really expected better from my friends and people I'd spend my free time with, like why do you want to say racial slurs so bad? I do remember watching topgun or whatever with some of those guys and one of them said something about fucking japs which is hilarious because, you know, I am half japanese, he apologized right after be I started laughing bc it was kind of wild and then he realized but it still felt weird lmao but whatever but yeah a few days ago when I saw some friends and one of them kept interrogating me about that, I fully knew that it was gonna be the last time I ever see him lmao

#personal #but anyways I need to focus on school anyways #so that I can move out at some point