#anyway give me more of this friendship

[butterflysonnets]

yes i'm rooting for m*leven breakup because byler is neat but mostly? i'm rooting for m*leven breakup for the sake of el and mike.

to me, their romance was always a puppy love born out of a combination of social pressures, naïve curiosity, and a lack of true understanding regarding intimacy and romantic love and what it really is. it was real in that they do truly, deeply care about each other and they are close friends, maybe even shared an attraction, but a maturing romance is so much more than that. they've grown up and out of being boyfriend/girlfriend, and that's okay! i think television/film needs to show more often that most of us don't have definite "soulmates" or first childhood loves that we spend our whole lives with. it doesn't mean these relationships meant nothing and didn't impact us, it just means they've run their course and that something else is in the cards, and this is part of life!

i've always felt el was at her best and most confident self when broken up with mike, discovering who she was and what she liked alongside another girl her age instead of just relying on mike for mentorship on how to live in the real world. she deserves more of an opportunity to find herself, her autonomy, and her independence, and to love who she is, and she's made it clear she's felt insecure in the relationship with mike because she isn't being loved and understood the way she wants, needs, and deserves from someone who is her partner.

also, it's okay if mike doesn't love her in "the way he should". he is not obligated to love her romantically and stay in a relationship with her just because she's a girl, because she "needed someone", or because he cares about her a lot. he shouldn't be pressured into a romance if it's not truly coming from his heart. he deserves freedom to find out and honour who he is, too, instead of just staying in his non-functional first relationship — one he got into as a child, essentially — and defining himself that way because it's what's expected when a boy and a girl are close. he loves her in some way, yes, but it's okay if he doesn't feel comfortable or secure being her boyfriend anymore, for whatever reason that is. he's felt insecure too, and that's valid and it matters.

they are their own people and are steadily growing and changing every day. they need time to figure out who those people are, and it's become clear (at least in my opinion) that those people aren't meant to be a couple at this stage.

they deserve freedom. they deserve to grow up and be authentic to themselves and not feel like they need to lie for the sake of a relationship. they deserve to move on from this version of their relationship that isn't making them happy and rekindle the best part of their bond: their strong, beautiful friendship. they don't have to be a couple if it doesn't make them stronger and better and happier people.

i think it would be healthy and wonderful for a show, especially one consumed frequently by young adults, to show a relationship starting, progressing, and ending on good terms in this way. sometimes things don't work out, and that is okay.

#eve text #elmike #stranger things #byler #only tagging byler because i feel like yall will like this take lol #tagging tagging tagging WHAT ARE EVERYONE ELSE'S THOUGHTS #god i can't believe i'm making a post about stranger things. this feels like poking a bear #i'm not particularly anti m*leven but like... they'd have to do something pretty special at this point for me to feel like it's viable #i'm seeing the bts of s5 and it's got me Having Thoughts #elmike friendship is something i am so passionate about #even before i ever liked byler (didn't ship at all until s4 even though i knew it was a thing before) i've felt this way about elmike #i always believed they were close friends at heart and needed to break up #the romance part of them felt very distinctly young and very much “he was a boy she was a girl” to me #and it hasn't deepened into anything more mature and i don't see how it could based on the current state of the writing... #the fact that lumax exists — a young relationship that is actively maturing and is healthy — makes that clear to me #and the “love confession” in s4 and how disingenuous and miserable it felt was just the nail in the coffin #also the fact that will (who is IN LOVE with mike) was instrumental in making it happen? ... uh... okay... interesting choice… #fucked up and reductive if they make it another queer unrequited love sacrifice for the sake of pushing the heterosexual agenda YUCK #so i really hope the speculation about a m*leven breakup is real!! i think it just makes sense for their characters but who knows #i don't believe in the notion of love at first sight or one true love and i think the writers don't too??? #love to me is an accumulation of experiences and we inevitably choose it at some point rather than fall into it... but idk #tv is so fixated on keeping couples together... sometimes it's just not reality guys especially with young people... LET IT GO... #like i said though i'm not 100% sold that they're going to give up their “golden couple” LMAO #stranger things hasn't historically subverted too many tropes if i'm being honest #anyway i seriously need this season to come out quickly... i'm so bored and getting my master's is crushing my soul #i need frivolity #ALSO btw i won't respond to hateful messages about this so please don't bother. it's not that serious. this is a netflix show

[sysig]

Just be honest! (Patreon)

Bonus:

Could be :)

#Doodles #Wander Over Yonder #Emperor Awesome #Commander Peepers #Maybe something less friendship and more something else Eyesome? :3c #Could be :) #Hhhh yet more fun poses and contact points! Especially Awesome's legs and Peepers resting his ''cheek'' on his hand :D #The slight squish upgrading to a full squish with the shape of his eye-cheek changing! I did that and I'm happy about it! Haha ♪ #Plus how fun it is to draw him sitting lightly with his arm on his leg ah ♥ His proportions are so fun #Anyway ♪ Lol #Awesome's feeling all introspective and it's giving him the vapours lol #He's a hedonist! A coward! A gossip! Someone who coasts through life with no care to who he steps on! Except ♪ #Not me thinking Peepers could be Awesome's Wander lol - ''If I stopped hating that one thing then what was the point of hating the rest?'' #As soon as he starts seeing the humanity of one little guy where does that put him ♫ #Personally I think he'd still be a mostly selfish jerk - at least for a while - considering how hard realizing he even Likes Peeps would be #Even here he's like ''This sucks! Being friends with you bites and not in the cool way!'' Lol #He's just being a baby and coming to terms with his feelings #And Peepers might possibly be picking up on that a little bit :) It's still comedically optimized not to worry lol ♫ #Awesome is only starting to approach his own feelings but he's being very obvious - throwing a tantrum even lol #So Peeps noticing before Awesome realizing he should be hiding it way harder than he currently is - he just doesn't know yet! #Probably both blushing up a storm just before bed that night lol ''Can't believe I said all that to him'' ''He takes me seriously'' hehe <3 #It feels good! Trust and understanding slowly building up :) That's what makes me interested in their dynamic! :D

[stuckinapril]

about unconditional love; sometimes i have to remind myself how lucky i am to have my best friend of 10+ years. consistent communication throughout that time, even with long distance after they moved 2 years later. we love each other very deeply, and if its not unconditional, then i dont know what is. i have rocky relationships with my parents, and their love does not feel safe, so having my best friend and meeting them at a young age (middle school) was definitely the universe throwing me a bone lol. and we didn’t realize when we first met just how important we would end up being to each other. but now we just see each other and know each other so intimately. ive learned so much about myself and navigating relationships because of our friendship. even when we disagree, its hard to take it personal because we have this mutual understanding that we are both operating from a place of true love for one another. i truly wish you and everyone gets to experience a love like this someday. its amazing. and it exists!

so very happy for you anon !! i do really hope i get to experience something similar to this one day

#i think i’m finally at a point where i do have a couple of healthy friendships in my life #i fully intend on cherishing those viciously #and it would also be fair to acknowledge my part in this repeating pattern. bc i do play a part #but yeah this is literally everything i could hope for truly. to me unconditional love isn’t liberally accepting toxicity from each other #it’s acknowledging flaws & trying to work through them anyway #i am no saint whatsoever but i do feel like i’ve run into so many relationships where the grace given was not equal #and my unconditional love fantasy always had to do w friendships more than it ever did relationships :’) #one day ! manifesting #this really is so very sweet & gives me hope <3 #ask

[stoshasaurus]

haven't been making any sfw ultrakill or overwatch drawings to add to this blog, but I have been drawing some discords lately (a goofy goober from My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, for the majority of my followers that are probably unfamiliar)

(if you're a follower and know who he is you're a g i love you)

yes i am also an mlp artist and have a very complex au and ships going on. twicord ftw fuck everything else/silly

WOE! CyberCord be upon ye

normal art should resume soon hopefully, either ultrakill, overwatch, or completely unrelated and breaking into another fandom that i am not remotely equipped to deal with. been doing that lately.

#art #my little pony #my little pony friendship is magic #friendship is magic #separating the 'mylittlepony' and 'friendshipismagic' is giving me deviantart flashbacks #no i will NOT be giving you my deviantart #cybercord is for an AU i'm making :D #if you're interested whether or not you know about mlp in my au PLEASE ask i am so eager to blab about this au i've been developing #i've literally been actively working on it nonstop for like five years no joke #i've been in the mlp fandom MUCHHH longer than I've been in ultrakill or overwatch #its very near and dear to my heart #my twitter is muchhh more mlp aligned so if you want more mlp drawings from me my twitter is linked in my pinned #anyway #discord mlp #discord my beloved #less than three

[ginalinettiofficial]

so i’ve been rewatching community again and just. again. this show is so incredible and it deserved better than the way we’ve damn near forgotten it. shit is so fucking good both in terms of like. being so so fun to watch and also in terms of emotionally WRECKING you when you least expect it

#d speaks #community #yeah i just watched pillows and blankets #tbh troy and abed alone is something that is just. literally give me a show that has ever depicted friendship more beautifully #trobed #my BELOVEDS #anyways need to take a break for my sanity so i don’t get to s4 too quickly because then i’ll get to the END of s4 too quickly and be. so as #so sad* lol. anyways gonna go read hella community fanfic wish me luck. i imagine at some point i’ll have to dive onto ff.net….. #the sacrifices i make for my hyperfixation smdh

[xinnamoon]

One thing I enjoy is when Malleus is included with Zhongli, Dan Heng, and Neuvillette (hoyo dragon boys) making the dragon 4 like yes please adopt the Disney princess he deserve more friends.

#it’s really giving off brave tangle dragons vibes #like crossover friendships will never get old to me #Zhongli #dan Heng #genshin neuvillette #malleus draconia #genshin impact #twisted wonderland #dragonssssssss #hell yeah #ramble #rise of the brave tangled dragons #that what it was called lol #anyways it gives off that vibe and I’m all for it #in fact we should add more dragon husbands to the roster

[fictionadventurer]

The Heir of Redclyffe is teaching me that what Little Women really needed was for the March sisters to have a clever, witty, sharp-tongued, disabled brother who was BFFs with Laurie.

#charles edmonstone my beloved #he's so much fun #and his friendship with guy is one of the best parts of the book #i'm shocked to see a victorian book where the disabled person is neither a monster nor a saint #the disability affects his life and the household but it's far from the only thing about him #he's a great character in his own right #he even has a plot-relevant illness #but the plot relevance isn't 'oh no he's near death let's have drama' #but 'he's having a flareup and can't write letters so someone loses a vital correspondant at an unfortunate moment' #(charles does later lampshade the lost opportunity for a dramatic deathbed reconciliation scene) #but anyway despite my continued comparisons of this book and little women #they are different books #aside from the laurie thing and the general family atmosphere and the moralizing mother figure there's quite a lot different #for one thing the male characters are much more interesting than most of the female ones #the girls are fine but certainly not the main draw of the story #i do like the religious aspect of this one more though #at first it was giving me anxiety cuz they agonize over teeny little sins #but once we moved from childish concerns to more adult ones the faith aspect became much deeper #still clunky and eye-rolling at times but also surprisingly natural in some places #and i'm still holding my breath for whatever made jo cry over this book #66% through the book; it's gotta be coming relatively soon #books #the heir of redclyffe #little women #charlotte mary yonge #louisa may alcott

[crehador]

i don't know if i think it's really funny or kind of a shame that many people are going to know tadaima okaeri solely as "the omegaverse bl" when it's actually such a sweet slice-of-life about community, family, the struggles of the older generation to understand the younger and vice versa, recovering from social isolation and how recursive that recovery can be, forging lasting friendships as adults, and so on. it's so wholesome and drama-free that it barely has any plot to speak of, but what it lacks in plot it makes up for in themes and man. what beautiful themes

#since my recent reread i've been giving more thought to why i like it SO much #because on the surface it really is just fluff #and i love fluff! but usually require some substance to be completely invested in something #and hoooooo boy am i invested #and i think yeah it's the themes. the friendships the community the intergenerational family tensions that are resolved #in such a satisfying way to me #but yeah of course it is also the omegaverse bl lol #iirc my first read years back of only the first volume left me like ''awh that was super cute'' but it was not memorable #and that makes sense bc it's the community that takes shape in later volumes as the rest of the cast enter their lives #that really appeals to me #anyway! random thinky thoughts before bed #i'm already seeing some comments along the lines of ''this is so cute but why did it have to be omegaverse that's so weird and gross'' #''it could have just been normal'' #it's omegaverse because that's the story the author wanted to tell. you fools. you absolute buffoons #flashbacks to all the writing workshop critiques i've received that went something like #''this is really good but do they have to be gay. there's no reason they can't just be normal'' ah fun times :) <- sarcastic guy #goodniiight dashboard if you are for some reason still reading these tags here's a little surprise: #SUPER BOOP!!!!!!

[idol-emu-otori-official-archived]

╰┈➤ SHUFFLE AU

DESTINATION POINT (DP)

the Leo/need adjacent unit, composed of Ichika Hoshino, Airi Momoi, Ena Shinonome, and Minori Hanasato. ☆ a girl who's lost her friendships, and three others searching for their worth.

about the group's name: ♡ originally, i had "from here to there" in mind, but someone from the Discord gave me the name "destination point" and i thought it was much better, so i went with that. ♪

about the SEKAI: ♡ the Train SEKAI. no one knows when it left, or where it's going - just that it never stops. it's the perfect place for those who feel like they're lagging behind. just close your eyes and let yourself be carried away, right? but maybe there's something you can do… starts with a Miku and a Rin. the former's hardworking and talented, but the latter struggles - Rin is somewhat influenced by Ena's (and, to a lesser extent, Airi's) jealousy towards others.

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Ichika hasn't managed to rekindle her friendship with her friends, and she's not doing particularly well. At one point, she meets Airi - who just quit being an idol. The two start talking and become friends, at which point they end up forming a band together. Airi wants to try finding a place where she could finally be taken seriously.

Ena's invited by Airi, and Minori - who had failed auditions recently - ends up inspired by Ichika's kindness, Airi's drive and Ena's determination, which is how she joins. (Haruka completely gave up on being an idol; something Minori is saddened by.)

In my mind, Ichika plays the guitar; Airi, the drums; Minori, the keyboard and Ena, the bass.

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IDEAL HEAVEN! (IH)

the MORE MORE JUMP! adjacent unit, composed of Mafuyu Asahina, Emu Otori, Mizuki Akiyama and Shizuku Hinomori. ☆ an up-and-coming idol group that combines cuteness and sophistication.

about the SEKAI: ♡ quite similar to the Empty SEKAI, but with some idol influences - a broken stage with no one in sight. there's no bright lights, no colorful props. nothing. that SEKAI both comforts and pains Mafuyu. home to a lone Miku. sweet, hopeful, but genuinely crushed by the pressure she's feeling.

•

Mafuyu's mother wants a perfect child. idols are very frequently represented as being perfect - so, she decides that her daughter should become one, too. Mafuyu's not keen on the idea, but that's her mother; she's obedient, so she goes along with it.

Shizuku still quit Cheerful * Days, but instead of stopping altogether she ends up with Mafuyu. Emu wants to make people smile, but no one ever came; Wonderlands × Showtime was never a thing. so she decides to become an idol instead, even if it means she'll never bring back the Wonder Stage to its former state.

Mizuki's half-dragged into IDEAL HEAVEN! by Emu, who saw them looking with interest at idol merch. after bringing them to meet Mafuyu and Shizuku, Mizuki ends up accepting - the idea of wearing cute clothes and being called cute doesn't seem too terrible.

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READY MADE SUCCESS (RMS)

the Vivid BAD SQUAD adjacent unit, composed of Haruka Kiritani, An Shiraishi, Shiho Hinomori and Akito Shinonome. ☆ two street musicians chasing after their dream, and the two girls they brought with them.

about the SEKAI: ♡ the Street SEKAI. weirdly, it seems Haruka's idol background has somewhat influenced its appearance. its inhabitants are Miku, Meiko and Len. this Miku is levelheaded, but it seems like there's something holding her back from going all-in...

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after quitting being an idol, Haruka is invited by An to join her.

An's never met Kohane, and she never found a partner. Haruka is hesitant for a moment before deciding to give it a shot, though she keeps struggling with singing. Shiho tries getting more experience, meets Akito. no one really knows how these two ended together, but they both have a similar drive and take music very seriously.

eventually, they all start working together. Haruka deals with her guilt and, while she doubts she'll become an idol again, she's mostly made peace with what happened.

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STARLIGHT ☆ EVERMORE (S ☆ E)

the Wonderlands × Showtime adjacent unit, composed of Tsukasa Tenma, Saki Tenma, Kanade Yoisaki and Toya Aoyagi. ☆ a strange troupe of people who aim to help others through their performances.

about the SEKAI: ♡ still very much Tsukasa's, so it's the Wonderland SEKAI. [kanade goes there for the first time and dies. alas, they're still a shut-in and this place is simply too colorful for her poor eyes.] starts with a Miku and a Kaito, though this version of the former uses far less onomatopoeias.

Tsukasa figures he needs to show the world how much of a star he is himself, and he drags his siblings into it (with varying degrees of willingness).

a part of Saki still wishes she could be in a band with her friends; she's only somewhat managed to repair her friendship with Ichika. but she's still happy to do something fun and lighthearted after all her struggles. Toya's very excited to do something with Tsukasa and his siblings. he also gets to stick it to his dad, which, honestly - is a bonus.

out of the three, Kanade is obviously the most hesitant about the whole thing. but she sees Tsukasa's drive to make others happy, something she shares with him, so she ends up agreeing. Kanade is… slightly healthier physically on account of the stubborn people looking after her, as well as all the exercise she does she does as part of Starlight ☆ Evermore. mentally? eh… we'll get there. i need her traumatized to be interesting. <3

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LONELY SYNDROME (LS)

the 25-ji, Nightcord de. adjacent unit, composed of Nene Kusanagi, Rui Kamishiro, Honami Mochizuki and Kohane Azusawa. ☆ hidden behind avatars, these citizens of the web tell stories online.

about the SEKAI: ♡ the arcade SEKAI. this Miku is shy and withdrawn, though she one day hopes she'll be able to break out of her shell, just like Nene. alongside her is Luka - she has a bit of a teasing attitude and a catlike personality, but she always does her best to boost Nene's confidence.

about the group's name: ♡ syndrome refers to a group of symptoms - i paired it with the word lonely because i felt like it represented the atmosphere of an arcade. you're connected with people who share your interests, but at the same time, you're sort of separate from them. surrounded by people, but utterly alone…

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Nene's social anxiety hasn't gotten better over the years. since she never joins Wonderlands × Showtime, she doesn't learn how to fight her stage fright.

but, she finds an alternate solution; using an avatar online. it's less stress-inducing, and it lets her pursue acting, in a way - it's not what Nene wants, but it's close enough. she figures she could be satisfied with that. Rui ends up figuring out what she's doing, and asks if he can help. Nene doesn't really have any reason to say no, so they start working together.

as for Honami and Kohane, they ended up on Nene's channel by pure accident. but her performances quickly became a comfort to them, since they were struggling at the time (the former because she no longer had her friends, the latter because of her lack of confidence).

unfortunately, ignoring your problems only goes so far, and eventually, her feelings give birth to the arcade SEKAI.

#// ooc #shuffle au #didn't bother detailing every SEKAI - they're mostly staying the same #destination point is accidentally very similar to richie's unit 💔 #and ideal heaven! also. oh well. i didn't do it on purpose.......... #my favorite out of these five is lonely syndrome & starlight ☆ evermore :D #which is evident because a) i developed lonely syndrome's story the most and b) starlight ☆ evermore has all my favorite characters #pushing my tenma agenda <3 #lonely syndrome is like… dear to me because i struggle with very bad social anxiety and it's held me back so many times #so i relate to nene a bunch #i wish i could just - go out there and show people what i'm capable of doing. but i just freeze in place each time. it's easier to just… #give up. y'know? it hurts less. #and fun fact: lonely syndrome's luka is more or less based on rui? he's an important person in nene's life so you know - #i figured that it would influence one of the virtual singers. i love nene and rui's friendship ww #i put Kanade in the WxS-adjacent group because i wanted her to die <3 #also. the potential of others finding out that this pathetic wet cat? is in a theater troupe?? insane. i think it's hilarious. #ready made success is a name i settled with despite not being very satisfied of it - so changes might happen! #there's some angst potential in there. i put some for emu too :3c #anyway. enough rambling in tags. i feel bad 💔 #i'm insanen over them. if you have any questions - feel free to ask. teehee <3

[snixx]

got queerbaited into reading a book by chatgpt. is this rock bottom

#girlblogging.pdf #apparently coding isn't the only thing that thing is ass at. fetching basic information is too #i mean i Wanted to read it anyway and i knew it wasnt queer before. idk why i let chatgpt gaslight me into believing i was making it up #whatever. neither the main character nor her best friend are textually queer or in love with each other. they're both pretty boy crazy tbh #but the mc is giving big aro vibes. like she's so done with her best friend every time she starts talking about men or crushes #also her crush on this guy is giving extremely platonic im not biased i swear #she just throws herself at him because she thinks itd be cool to date her besties crushs bff #so she could feel normal like her #they do have a cute friendship though. mc and the guy. also they start dating like 2 seconds after her bff dies so it's not really romantic #also theres a very cool lesbian who gets more pagetime than the guy and whos friendship with mc is super angsty so #w #its a really good book ok i just went in with really wrong expectations #like a sapphic hiaylm #but every day i grow closer to the great truth of my life that sapphic hiaylm will never exist #and i should stop looking for it and find the beauty in things for their originality and what they are #anyway in this case the lack of sapphicness did not detract from the book at all dont get me wrong #i just found it funny

[neraiutsuze]

boy i love it when a battle comes together in a narratively perfect way

sixth or seventh try at the cazador battle. for once instead of opening with a call lightning, he decides to open with a blight and insta-kill my bard, who normally starts by dimension-dooring to free astarion. this means that things get perilously close to popping off ascension-wise before jaheira and shadowheart can get her back up and a Daylight off. this kind of sets the tone for the battle, which goes Badly for almost the whole time. it hits the point where both my bard and shadowheart are just spamming Mass Cure Wounds and Mass Healing Word to keep people on their feet.

however. eventually astarion gets in perfect postion to break out the scroll of disintegrate right at cazador. who fails the save. and finally takes a proper hit to his ridiculous HP pool. he then pitches a fit and runs right at astarion to try and fuck him up, but the healing from the ladies keeps him on his feet - and then cazador was in perfect 'astarion has a scroll of Sunbeam' range. he did also hit ryse with it because i didn't realise she was in range. it's fine. she gets it. she's cast fireball on herself to get enemies before now. that put him on his last legs.

and then astarion'd taken a potion of speed before, so he had another attack - and he was wearing the risky ring, so he had sneak attack from the advantage.

get fucked, cazador.

#the power of friendship gives you loot and backup that lets you fuck up your abuser #baldur's gate 3 #miri plays baldur's gate 3 #anyway i cried i love my best friend who wins the Not As Evil As You Could Have Been award #i fully understand why you cannot hug him at this moment i feel like he would not want it he needs to process but #god damn he's gonna get hugs the moment he feels a bit more stable #EVEN IF THE GAME DOESN'T SHOW ME THEM. HE DEFINITELY GETS THEM. #also it helped that jaheira's summoned elemental was able to stand on one of the ritual circles and hold the line there #and shadowheart - when she was up - was able to do the same on another #and astarion had a third #so POWER OF FRIENDSHIP (DRAINING YOUR ABUSER OF POWER)

[soldier-poet-king]

I may be the meanest pettiest person on the whole entire planet (I am) but the concept of Catholic speed dating is the absolute worst thing I can think of and the whole "date while staying true to your values" vibe like. How do YOU know what my values are? I can't stand 99% of Catholics (and Christians broadly tbh. *Mr incredible voice: I'm not affiliated with you) and i would fistfight them in a heartbeat. The type of person drawn to the "marriage discernment" event is the exact type of person I want to AVOID at all costs.

Like yeah romance sounds nice and all, and I'm very good at just sitting here vaguely wishing for things, but I can barely form long term friendships with a significant intimate foundation. Even if I WERE to be in a relationship, the other party would almost certainly be non Catholic or be a bad Catholic like me and have to get cool with a lot of stuff real quick

#franposting #im rlly just whining and being mean sorry #this came up TWICE today. once with a coworker and once with a friend #and im like????? YOUR EXPERIENCES ARE NOT UNIVERSAL we are clearly leading v different lives #and also if ur relationship isnt built on friendship before becoming romantic im largely uninterested tbh #all of this is a moot point bc me??? marriage??? HAVING CHILDREN??? #absolutely the fuck not the most horrifying thing i cant think of is being pregnant tbh #spare uterus anyone. i do not need or want this one #anyway where my angry socialist catholics at. not even just for romance i want more friends ;-; #its like. how can u be queer and religious and socialist. and its like. idk how to explain to you that these things are all interconnected #and my commitment to goodness and praxis and justice is largely BECAUSE of my religious convictions #just bc my co-religionists give us a bad name. like #mr incrediblevoice. IM NOT AFFILIATED WITH YOU #anyway yeah any tgirls want a uterus i absolutely will not be using mine /is only half joking

[lemonhemlock]

it's so frustrating dealing with a friend that seems set on finding imaginary slights against their person and seethes in silence waiting for you to figure out what you did 'wrong' this time 🤦‍♀️

#this is the fifth time since october i've invited her somewhere to catch up and she said no #always with some excuse #which. sure. i can't verify #maybe the 8th time in the last year she refused for some reason or another #but there's only so many times you can give someone the benefit of the doubt #when she never initiates anything and just waits for us to ask her out #and if you don't happen to do that within the secret interval of time she is available and which she never discloses #she registers it as a slight #i'm so tired of these stupid mind games how old are you/?? #also she is SO hard to get hold of. never answers anything on any messaging app for days on end including the weekends #even if the proposal is time sensitive #girl you are NOT that busy bffr #i remember we invited her to see barbieheimer and she did not freaking answer on time. as usual. #and we had to get tickets without her bc the time slots quickly sold out #and ofc she was pissed at us bc she's can't be bothered to reply 🤦‍♀️ #she always is pissed even when it's clearly her fault #when she clearly sees the message bc she DOES check the apps whaddyaknow #and the one time we did manage to see each other she had the gall to propose that we go out more often!!! #and then never initiates anything and refuses everything #ik if i were to recount this to a third person they would tell me she already checked out of this friendship #it's so stupid #having to walk on these eggshells #bc we didn't even have a falling out she's just finding pretexts to become offended #that was been her modus operandi since the freaking pandemic #good lord the stories i have #lemonposting #anyway i'm bummed out now

[thedevilprince]

I'm always way more emotionally stable when I have self-indulgent fantasies about spending time with my favourite characters.

#i know that daydreaming for hours upon hours in a day is not good for me or whatever #but it keeps me happy sober and alive #and i think that's more important overall to be honest #it can keep me away from socializing with real people but #all my relationships with real people have never worked out for me anyway #i've kind of given up at this point #i would rather just have followers with parasocial attachments to me than friends anyway #sorry i just have so much trouble with making and maintaining friendships... #it's too hard when i keep getting hurt again and again #getting genuinely close to someone and becoming attached is honestly like giving a person a loaded gun and begging them not to shoot me #but they always do. always. #original posts #dp's journal

[sexynetra]

today is a good day for a little bit of fun and love and whimsy :) !!!! post a snippet where characters are being silly/teasing/playful :)

This snippet is in honor of my beloved @lady-assnali who I am absolutely commissioning to write the rosenali companion side fic once I post the story :)

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Denali had a reputation among the skating community for always falling for a fellow athlete at every competition she went to. And as her friend, Gigi knew this better than anyone. But that didn’t stop it from being annoying as hell to get kicked out of her own room at nearly every competition.

“She’s this Scottish snowboarder, I think her name is Rosé? Oh my god, she’s so hot, I think I’m in love. And that accent. I almost proposed on the spot, I swear on my life,” Denali gushed, turning to look at Gigi with a wide smile lighting up her face.

Gigi pursed her lips to hide her smile. “Wow, proposing already. That's quite a vote of confidence for this competition's girl of the week,” She hummed, cracking up as she dodged the pillow Denali chucked at her in lieu of a response. “How long are you expecting her to stay? I need my beauty sleep, you two can’t have the room all night.”

“But I need post-sex cuddles, Geeg. You should see her arms, she's so strong. I bet she could lift both of us without breaking a sweat.”

#the whole Denali section makes me very happy I am genuinely sad that I picked a format that doesn’t allow me to give Denali and rosé more #screentime #like idk they’re so fun I want to know their story #and also I want to write more Gigi and nali friendship but alas! this fic is too focused on the stupid FaceTime calls #anyways please enjoy :) I hope I can get you the full story soon #drag race #rpdr #RuPaul’s drag race #Gigi Goode #Denali foxx #rosé #rosenali #crygi #Crystal methyd #my writing #untitled crygi fic #Olympics au #ask #ask game #writing game #thecollectionsof

[lookingforhappy]

Realising now that the two dynamics I want explored further are Lila & five and Sloane & five… a.k.a. Five steals his brothers’ girlfriends…

#4am no sleep posting #gotta give a presentation tmw wtf is wrong w me #anyway #five & Lila is a banger of a friendship #and five & Sloane deserve more exploration #they’re so similar #& they get along p well so far #plus the whole same personality different outlook thing is cool #they’re the kind of people that end up at the same conclusion but thru totally different routes #and they have some established respect going on in s3 #when will sloane return from the war #honestly I watched s3 trailer once #and knew that sloane was my fav #of the sparrows #kinda lucked out there #Marcus was my 2nd fav #did not luck out there #anyway the fives my beloveds