#anyway i've never tried anything like this before. hope it's decent <3

[arttrampbelle]

Hobie Brown/Spiderpunk self ship asks

I tried to make some self ship hcs n answer some ask game stuff.

Hobie is a new f/o so bear with me. I'm still working on things in the writing. And i haven't done any spiderman stuff in a while. I only know so much of him particularly. But from what i could gather and what mutuals told me. I think i got him down decently. Also he reminds me hella of my irl s/o. So theres that too.

I also just don't want people to come at me or be toxic or unnecessarily mean. I already dealt with that before with marvel fans. I dont wanna go thru that again.

But i still wanna enjoy the characters. So I'm trying to just stay in my lane,enjoy the character and write what i wanna write. Idgaf if its not "canon" . And i haven't seen the movie yet(look i will just bear with me ok? I haven't been able to)

Some things are tba because i haven't come up with something as of yet.

New self ship tag is

❤🇬🇧🌹Webs n roses🌹🇬🇧💙

(Cuz i couldn't think of anything else,and it sounded good enough)

Anyways i hope you like these.

Cw:may have hints at smut or nsfw content. Fluff. Hella fluff.

💙🇬🇧❤🇬🇧💙🇬🇧❤🇬🇧💙🇬🇧❤🇬🇧💙🇬🇧❤🇬🇧💙

• Star- Does your F/O do anything to calm you when you're upset?: hobie will try to talk it out. Straight up. He doesn't bullshit with that. If you're not feeling good he'll be there to comfort and or help me out. Whatever is needed at the time. He knows hugs and talking it through with me and giving me a space to let go is what is best. But if i need to scream and let it out,he blasts some of his fave "let that shit go" music.

• Planet- What about your F/O drew you to them? Was it their personality? Their looks? Their story? Something else?: ok look hobie is down my alley. He's my jam to my butter. Everything down to a T. Speaking of which. He reminds me so damn hard of my irl bae. But just British flavored. Fr. 💖💕

• Galaxy- What do you and your F/O do when one of you is homesick?: he'll try to make something homemade that reminds me of home. And I'll try to make him an art piece that helps remind him. 💖

• Black Hole- Have you ever had a strange dream about your F/O? : he's a very very recently acquired f/o so not yet.

• White Dwarf- Do you and your F/O have any plans for the future, big or small?: currently just living bro. Living life. What happens,happens.

• Moon- What's something your F/O does that never fails to make you happy?: makes me playlists. 🥺💕

• Solar Wind- Does your F/O have any skills they like to show off?: besides the sick ass guitar skils? Nothing special. Maybe his patchwork and suit work mostly.

• Neutron Star- Describe something silly you've done with your F/O: taking funny pics. Making memes. Drawing funny doodles of each other. Him Sending random pics saying "dis you luv? >:p <3)

• Quasar- Open ended! Gush as much as you want about your F/O, anything you want to talk about is fair game: ok ok ok ok. Look. I'm just now getting back into spiderman. I only know a very lottle a out hobie brown spiderpunk. I only know from what my sibling has told me. And only know thru osmosis from friends. So please. Please. Please don't come for me. Dont be an asshole. I've already gotten harrassment from marvel fans before i DO NOT WANT THAT EVER AGAIN plz. And i already seen some bigots and oof people in the tags so im trying to avoid that like the plague. I just wanna love on hobie in peace. Thank you.

1.Sommelier: If you were to describe your f/o in terms of flavors, what flavors would you assign them and why? (Ex.: citrusy, savory, minty, etc.): like a nice homemade,homely type thing. Like a homemade soft baked bread. Dark molasses bread. With natural butter. And strawberry and BlackBerry jam. Either that or a home made hazelnut chocolate chip cookie. Sweet but not overly. Like a bitter dark chocolate or a very very tart fruity flavor. Or a thick chili sauce that has kick to it. Either way bold,smooth,slightly sweet and always always homemade with love or small business owned.

2. Appellation: If possible, look up and tell us the meaning of your f/o's name + tell us if you feel it reflects your f/o in any way (those of you with OC f/os, It's your time to shine ;)): that im not sure. I have to again fresh up on my spider lore.

3. Izod: How tough is your f/o? Have they ever reached their breaking point and if so, what happened and how did they pick themselves back up afterwards + how did you help them through this time?: again i have to fresh up on my spider lore.

4. Teeter-totter: How playful is your f/o? How do they like to have fun? What makes them laugh and let loose? What's their favorite card/board/video game?: hobie is very playful. Cheeky little shit. He loves to game,but he loves retro games. Listen to music. Have a few drinks and maybe if he feels like it. Smoke a bit.

5. Panache: How confident is your f/o? What makes them feel confident- an outfit? A cologne/perfume? How do you like to make them feel confident and how do they like to boost your confidence?: he was born cool. Srry. Like hobie built up confidence. And he hates seeing me hard on myself. So he tries his best to help me build that up. Sometimes he'll say "just do it luv. Nobody does you like you. And what's sexier and more fucking radical than being yourself?" 💕 either that or he'll say "stop bein hard on yaself. Or do i have to get out that sunshine meself?" Then proceeds to tickle or tease me because he's like that. The cute bastard.

6. Luxe: What is your f/o's idea of luxury? If they had enough money, what would they spend it on?: "luxurious is fer the suits *belch*" honestly if he did. He'd give it all back to the community or help out at a shelter or something equivalent. Hardly would ever keep it for himself. Either that or put it to grassroot organizations to help spread awareness and help people.

7. Resonance: Describe your f/o's voice; if you don't have an audio reference, tell me what your f/o's voice sounds like to you. Feel free to break out the similies and metaphors!: from what i Heard a cockney accent and is heavy British. And unapologetically black. And im fucking here for it.

8. Bauble: Does your f/o like to collect anything? If not, do they own something that brings them immense joy and satisfaction- if so, tell us about it!: guitar picks. Bottle caps. Sometimes if he doesn't use them or they get too worn or break for some reason. He'll repurpose them into jewelry,art,or decorations.

9. Doughty: Tell us about a moment your f/o showed extreme bravery and determination in the face of something dangerous or just really challenging. What motivated them to be brave? How does your f/o encourage you to be brave?: again lore problem. But as for helping me sometimes he'll take me on patrol if he knows it's gonna be a chill night. But ONLY if it's a chill night. Not to say he won't let me help him on missons or anything. He can and would. But he wouldn't ever pressure me either. If i really feel like it. He will gear me up Properly.

10. Vociferous: What are some things your f/o is passionate about? Why are they passionate about these things? Do you share their passions? How likely are they to get into a debate over their passions?: ANTI ESTABLISHMENT. But fr tho. He's punk. Spiderpunk. He's acab. He's against corruption,fucked up authority/if any at all. But most of all. Music and self Expression. Of all kinds. Art. Music. Books. History. Real history. You name it.

1.Pop — What's the sweetest or nicest thing your f/o has done for you?: made me a dress. A whole dress. Made up of various materials. And maybe a stolen(ish) dress(it was gonna be throw away because it had one tiny tear in it) from some basic ass high priced store. Sewed it up. Added patchwork,studs,etc. And a matching leather jacket and denim purse. With pockets too. All made with love. But most of all he did it just because. Not wanting anything out of it. Tho....he did get a thank you kiss from me. 💋🥰

2. Rock — What's something you and your f/o are proud of each other for?: the fact despite the bullshit. We stand strong. And the fact i get along with other spooderpeeps.

3. Folk — What's something funny your f/o has done or said, or a moment that has made you laugh?: honestly it would probably be the most cheeky,corney thing but he'd make it sound so smooth. His sarcasm is legendary.

4. Punk — How do you and your f/o enjoy spending time together?: chillin,sometimes snuggle while listening to music. Sometimes with clothes,not all the time. But sometimes all you need is a big ol t shirt,some good ass pizza,a blunt,your honey,and a funny movie.

5. Jazz — What are some sweet or nice nicknames you and your f/o have for one another?: for me hobie calls me "sugarplum,honey,honeydew,luv,doe,doll(only when he's mad at me),peach,babe,baby,kittycat,kitten,catscratch,queen bitch(affectionate),ms.belle(when he's being sassy),kristabelle(when he's being super sweet),rosie(in songs mostly),lovey dovey(only if he's being seriously romantic),and beautiful" as for me i mostly call him "hobie(i like his name),hobs,spoodz,punki,bb,baby,honey,bae" that's pretty straightforward.

6. Indie — What makes you and your f/os bond so special/what is your favorite part of the bond you two share?: honestly our love of being free spirits and loving life no matter what. Also dreaming and trying to make the world a better place to live the best way we can with what we can to the best of our ability. Our love and passion for music and art. History and knowledge.

7. Rap — What do you and your f/o do together that makes y'all happy/excited?: honestly i do love the nights he can take me out swinging with him. It helped me get over my fear of heights.

8. Metal — Is your f/o more of the soft and sweet type, or goofy and outspoken type?: outspoken,unapologetic,sweet,rebellious,creatively driven,genuine and honest to a fault.

9. Musicals — What colors/sounds/scents remind you and your f/o of one another?: dark blue,deep red,dark purples,silver n gold and blacks,sounds of metal clinging,guitars and amp sounds,the smell of leather,canna,sandalwood and patchouli. And the sound of a motorcycle engine. The feel of patchwork and stitches.

10. Gaming tracks — What is a core memory or a memory you will never forget with your f/o?: our 2nd date. Sure first date was nice. But the 2nd date. Thats where it hit. Dancing and jamming out in an abandoned warehouse. I think it was near a dock? There was a recently thrown out mattress he found. We laid there for hours taking in the moment. Enjoying each others company. Like nothing else mattered. For a small short moment. He didn't have to worry. And neither did i. Those moments are brief,but worth it every time we can get it. There may or may not have been a make out sesh as well with the jamming sesh. But you know.

1.Vanilla- What's something you do with your f/o that makes you feel at peace?: honestly just vibing. We dont have to do much. Hell we can just do nothing. And yet i would love every moment.

2. Chocolate- How long have you known your f/o?: (new blorbo,new f/o. So I'm working on a backstory still)

3. Strawberry- What's a memory you two share that makes you smile no matter what?: honestly any and every moment. But those two above the dress n the 2nd date is the best. Oh and him moving into my loft flat/apartment.

4. Mint Chip- What's something that you disagree with your f/o on?: not much. Again hobie reminds me a bit of my IRL signficant other. My irl fiance. (My bby trey 🥺) so i kinda know the deal somewhat. Anything we disagree on may be a method we do things but we never hold that against each other nor stop each other. Im not his keeper. I'd feel the same probably with hobie too. So he's his own man,he can make his own decisions. As long as he's safe and touches base if he can. Im good. Reassurance is what i need. Hobie's got plenty

5. Cookie Dough- What's yours and your f/os' love languages?: honestly i feel like words of affirmation and physical touch is hobies. Gift giving only if its meaningful,useful,or from the heart or homemade. Quality time is something precious to either of us so we take what we can get. Acts of service are kinda automatic for both of us so it's a given. Im hella about acts of service and parallel play n vibing together.

6. Moose Tracks- What does a typical night in look like for you two?: well after a night patrol,he'll come into the loft. Usually thru the ceiling window or thru the side door 2nd exit near the pantry in the kitchen. But rarely he'll use the front door. If he does....some bad or really really good news is probably gonna be put down. He'll climb into bed and snuggle next to me. Sometimes he'll take off his spiderduds but sometimes not. Sometimes he'll straight up crash. Day patrols are done in shifts. And not always guaranteed to stay during any lunch dates we have. But thats the part of being a spiderpunks ol lady i guess. Lol. But the special nights,days,or moments. We'll take a whole day to ourselves. And if any other spidermen are in the area. He'll give them a heads up first. To take this one.

7. Cherry- Who does the cooking and who does the cleaning?: we both do. Aint no gender roles. Only cinnamon rolls.

8. Salted Caramel- How long did it take for you to realize you liked your f/o? Or vice versa, how long did it take them to say something if they spoke up first?: honestly i think we might hit it off good. Tho again i hc we didn't really really hit it off till the 2nd date. And by the 3rd date....well....yeah. it was obvious and official.

• Who makes the other blush all the time and who finds it adorable?: fucking hobie and his stupid cute face. *blush angy*  hobie: "awww what's the matt 'er belle? Did 'chu miss me that much?" *kiss kiss*  (nah but i feel he would be easy to tease me its not that hard to rile me up playfully)

• Who sings in the shower?:  honestly we both do be he blasts music in the shower. Sometimes we'll both sing.

• What would their song to each other be?: oooo thats a tough one. I might have to get back to you on that. I need to look at my music.

• Who embarrasses the other in public with kisses and pet names?: hobie. I do too but this man isn't phased....on the outside. Inside he's screaming and melting. Outside he's just smiling and egging me on and being a cutie nuisance and i love him sm for it.

• Who curses, and who reprimands the other for it?: neither, we encourage the fuck outta each other.

• What small quirks do they love about each other?: honestly he loves me as i am. All my quirks and my curves. The fact i gets spooked easy,my nose scrunches and even my cute pouty lip. The fact i stim with my hands,my hair,my squees when im excited. The fact my voice can go from growly deep bass to super light and cutesy. And my sass. Oh my sass.

• Who makes the other laugh more?: both of us.

• Who gets jealous easier?: neither. But if we do have those feels we talk about it. And are honest and sit with it. ONLY HEALTHY COMMUNICATION IN THIS HOUSE! It comes n it goes and we don't think nothing of it. We treat it healthy and let it be and not dwell on unnecessary shit.

• How did they know they were right for each other?: all i said was sevendust should have been more loved then they got and kurt Cobain was killed and was covered up and how the industry is a cold bitch. Also i was casually talking to miles about metal history of my fave bands and hobie came in and had eye wide and i swear you could hear his heart beat out his chest. Hobie chill its ok. 💀

• Who brings up the subject of kids first?: ok look we aint worried rn. But i did have that talk with him. But we don't want any rn. Mostly because you seen this economy?! Bro. I cant afford a mini me or a mini him. I can't do that irl. What makes you think fictional would be any better even in the most ideal. But maybe some day. But we aint broken up if we dont or cant.

• Who's adorable when they're sleepy, and who gets grumpy and irritable?: hobie: "dats you baby 😏💖"  me: "😒😤....🥺💕"

• Who's more protective?: both of us are but he's probably more so. Just a bit. Not smotheringly but just more aggressively. But in a respectful way?

• How do they express their feelings (Words, visual art, a song, etc.)?: music,art,etc.

• Where would they go on a 3am adventure?: to the nearest open food joint. But to get a bite,go to a rooftop. And sit me on his lap while he feeds me and talks about his day.

• Who has a hobby only the other knows about?: he knows about my plushie collection. He gets a bit annoyed sometimes but it makes me happy so he started making plushies for me and he surprises me with one every birthday.

• How do they hype each other up?: he screams "YOU GOT THIS BAAAABY! GO FUCKIN WRECK EM!" or something equivalent. But most of all he'll genuinely,and honestly gas me up. But expression in song and art is his fave way.

• Who picks flowers for the other?: we both do. Sometimes I'll make flower crowns. Hobie will wear them to rallies.

• Which one wears the "I'm with stupid" t-shirt?: hobie would but it would point to other spoodermen. Never his girl. I'd wear a goth clown shirt,band t, or a horror movie shirt more likely. Or some retro cartoon.

• Who's the better dancer?: i dunno. Maybe him but we thrash. Not dance.

• Who infodumps and who listens with heart eyes?: we both do. And it gets INTENSE

[ALARM JELLYFISH] ~ Has a time come when you and your F/O had to work with your enemies? If so, how did that go?: im not sure. We haven't encountered a situation with any roster as of yet personally. But as for life problems? Yeah. Ther eis no ethical consumption under capitalism. 😔. But as for a supervillain or some shit? Not yet. Hopefully we don't,but if we have to. I guess.

[BLOODYBELLY COMB JELLYFISH] ~ Are there any outfits of your F/O’s that you find… particularly strange?: not really. I think they are all cool.

[CRYSTAL JELLYFISH] ~ How does your F/O act in public? And in contrast, how do they act when they’re in private with you?: ok hobie doesn't hide shit from nobody. What ya see is what you get. Well....for the most part. The spooder identity kinda stays hidden but for good reason. But as for how he acts with me? Not really much difference. Outside of normal hero biz. He's same ol hobie 💖 tho he masks(i hc all spooders are neurodivernt. You can not convince me otherwise!)

[FRIED EGG JELLYFISH] ~ How does it go when you and your F/O try to cook together?: comforting af. I hc he cooks decent. He aint no five star chef or Gordon Ramsay. But he can cook a home meal. I know it sounds cliche but he does like fish n chips. But he makes it extra special for me as i like it extra crispy. I like to make breakfast for him. He does drink both coffee and tea but he likes black tea for mornings and oolong for nighttime to chill n vibe. Baking is a chaotic mess but worth it.

[GIANT PHANTOM JELLYFISH] ~ Do you and your F/O often flaunt your relationship, or do you tend to keep it hidden?: 50/50. People who know are close. People who aren't dont need to know. Simple.

[IMMORTAL JELLYFISH] ~ Do any deaths occur in your self-ship lore? Did you or your F/O have to save each other from death? Or is your lore free from risk?: again base lore not known yet. Gimme time. As for our relationship personally? Yeah plenty of times but that comes with the spooder. It's a feature.

[LION’S MANE JELLYFISH] ~ What is the height difference between you and your F/O?: he's canonly 6'3" . Im around 5'6ish. So yeah. HE TOL BEAN!

[MOON JELLYFISH] ~ If you had to compare your F/O to any sort of cosmic entity (planets, meteors/comets, stars, black holes, etc), what would you pick and why?: black hole sun,wont you come? Aaaannnd waash away the raaain. Oops sorry. I got carried away. Maybe a vlack hole,stars,and a distant nebula. Deep space.

[PINK COMB JELLYFISH] ~ How clingy would you say your F/O is?: not clingy. He's the right amount of cuddlebug and chill. He's extra cuddly tho when he has his down moments. But it's not always the most easy thing to deal with a sad hobie. Because he legit goes limp. You try picking up that tol bean of a spiderman to the bed or couch. Look i feel hobie gets hella numb,quiet and limp when sad,depresso,or just absolutely feels like shit. Like if he's feeling good,happy,or excited and pumped. He's hella expressive,smooth,open,and stims. Hands flapping,feet tapping,hugs hugs and more hugs,plays with his chain on his suit. Etc

[PINK MEANIE JELLYFISH] ~ Tell us all about why your F/O loves you! All about why you’re their special person!: hobie you should take this. Hobie: "kay luv. Ok the reason why i love er,is simple. I just do. I love her as she is mate. She's beautiful,clever,creative and a ball o' sunshine. She's got a lot of love in her heart and anyone who dares make little hen here cry. They'll answer to me." *cracks knuckles* . Thnx hobie. You're so sweet. ^-^ :3 <3. "Of course baby" *smooch*

[SEA WASP JELLYFISH] ~ If you’ve ever had moments where you felt invisible/insignificant, how has your F/O helped through them? How do you help your F/O through those moments?: yeah. He does help. But i feel everyone yells and is affectionately aggresive or uber supportive. Especially peter. Like good friend. Good man. Miles too.

[UPSIDE-DOWN JELLYFISH] ~ What’s your F/O’s favorite way to relax with you?: see above.

Adventurecore ~ If you could take your F/O anywhere in real life, where would you take them?: honestly a fucking metal concert. Because i honestly wanna go again. Fr. I haven't been to one in a long time now. I sad.

Barbiecore ~ Show us your favorite outfit that your F/O has worn!: tba

Bastardcore ~ Are there any “flaws” of your F/O that you find endearing?: honestly he's fucking flawless to me. But honestly im not sure of yet. Again new f/o.

Cabincore~ You and your F/O are enjoying a weekend in nature. How do you spend it?: picnic. Walking. Finding cool ass rocks to make stuff out of it.

Dazecore ~ What would you say is your F/O’s biggest passion (outside of you, of course )?: music and art. Making his own style n clothes. Standing up for whats right,the cause man. 100%

Expressionism ~ Describe to us exactly how your F/O makes you feel! Or, for a twist, describe how you make your F/O feel! Or do both!: i can't contain it in coherent words so keyboard smash. Afsjkflgllhlrofjgkhllhlhllslldlglgnsbbakslal. So yeah.

Femme Fatale ~ What, in your opinion, is your F/O’s greatest achievement?: again not sure yet. Lore,not found. Error.

Film Noir ~ Are there any questions about your F/O that you’d like to see their source answer?: tba

Groundcore ~ What would your F/O do if you became a worm?: put me in a garden and tend to the garden. Because he care. Call me wormybelle.

Hipness Purgatory ~ If your F/O drew you, how would it turn out?: i like to think abstract and epic. I love it. Look im an artist thru n thru. I love all forms (cept when its used for corporate greed n that bullshit. Because yeah)

Internet Academia ~ How did you discover your F/O or their source?: i was always a spiderman fan. (Namely venom and spidermans villain roster) but the more people talked about hobie. Im like omfg he's exactly my type.

Joyride ~ How would a road trip with your F/O, friends/associates, and you go?: chaotic,epic,fun af.

Kidcore ~ Tell us about the earliest memory you can remember with your F/O!: tba

Lo-Fi ~ Let’s say your F/O is up late working on something. How do you support them, or how do you get them to go to bed?: i have to drag him. I swear he does that on purpose.

Nintencore ~ Create a Pokémon team for your F/O!: i can't be bothered to remember all the pokemon names. So plz dont attack me :'3

Petcore ~ What animal reminds you of your F/O?: besides a spider. Maybe a cat or a snake. Like a ball python.

Red Academia ~ What’s your favorite fun-fact about your F/O?: tba

Sleepycore ~ What is it like going to bed with your F/O? How do they sleep?: comforting af. He'll wrap himself close around me. He's tol so he'll be engulfing me. He likes to have white noise to sleep. A fan or something equivalent. And honestly same.

• Queen - ‘39: If you could tell your F/O any one thing, across the barriers of reality and fiction, what would you tell them? Would it be advice, reassurance, or something else?: i love you,stay safe,and fucking acab. Im a simple woman.

• Oingo Boingo - Out of Control: If your F/O could tell you any one thing, what do you think they would want you to know?: that he's doing good. And i mean that in all the areas. Mental,physical,spiritual,emotional. All that. Other than that he tells me what he needs to tell me when he needs to.

• Talking Heads - This Must Be the Place (Naive Melody): What, in your opinion, is the most important or poignant thing you have learned from your F/O?: be yourself, everyone else is taken.

• Prince - Baby I’m a Star: What has your F/O’s effect on you in real life been? Have they changed you in any way, influenced your actions, behaviors, beliefs, or interests?: honestly since its a new f/o im not sure. But I've been shaped by similar characters and especially metal,punk,rock,and that kind of music because i breathed and ate that growing up. It still is in my veins n never let go of its raging claws and biting force. You either get it or you dont.

• Billy Joel - The Longest Time: What effect do you imagine you would have on your F/O? Do you think that you would influence how they think of things, their interests, or how they react to things? Do you think they would try different things because of you?: perhaps. But overall we can be comfortable with each other and around each other. Trust is hella important and very tight with us. I trust him with my life and he does the same. We both defend each other in public AND private.

• Whitesnake - Here I Go Again: Is there any particular activity or hobby you do in real life that always makes you think of your F/O, or that you like to imagine doing with them? Is this something you did before you met them, or is it something you picked up because of them?: again tba. But know.

• Daryl Hall & John Oates - Out of Touch: What conceptual or intangible things do you associate with your F/O? (eg., colors, music, scents, times, etc): see above

• Elton John - I’m Still Standing: What’s a song you enjoy (one that you didn’t pick up from them, if applicable) that you think your F/O would also like?: honestly my whole ass metal playlists i have he would be down. Hell i have some hidden playlists because i am a chaotic disorganized mess of a rat. (Adhd unfortunately) i come across random songs n artists in my recommendations on YouTube and the like. And if i like it I'll save it (maybe forget later but ya know)

• David Bowie - Let’s Dance: Are there any songs you’ve picked up from your F/O or their media, or because they remind you of them?: tba

• Prince - Take Me With You: What’s your ideal hangout with them? Is it something low-key, like hanging out at home and watching a movie, or is it more ambitious, like a road trip to a certain place?: many places. Besides at home. The rooftop of the pubs,pizza place,a warehouse near a dock,on top of ol big ben,and our loft apartment/flat rooftop mostly. Sometimes a café that's nearby.

• The Cars - Just What I Needed - Is there something tangible that you own that makes you think of your F/O, like clothing, or a tool? Did you buy it because of them, or come to associate it with them? Why does it make you think of them?: tba

• The Cure - Lullaby: What do you think your F/O is afraid of? How would you help them deal with that?: im not sure. I dunno what canonly he is scared of. So im not sure. tba?

I Forgot That You Existed: How does your f/o handle being wronged? Do they hold grudges or are they the type who lets everything roll off their back?: it depends on who and what they did. Most of the time he's got tact and is smart about it. But sometimes people need a punch in the mouth. So im not responsible for that.

Cruel Summer: Was there anything that stopped you from shipping with your f/o at first or was it love at first sight? Are things more complicated than they appear?: nobody's gonna stop me. No damn fans are gonna make me from loving this beautiful spooder of a man. Idgaf. Like a part of me does get worried but mostly ar racist ass bigots but then again their "opinions" dont matter.

Lover: What is your favorite part of the life you’ve built with your f/o?: i guess the fact we have a place of refuge in this complicated world of multiverse bullshit.

The Man: What strengthens your f/o in your opinion? What do they believe strengthens you?: freedom to just be. And hobie believes that hope and love like genuine, unconditional and with nothing to hide or control. That type of love. That pure love in the rawest form. Love just because and because it pisses people off. He finds that very attractive and a very good trait to have.

The Archer: Has you f/o had a positive or negative relationship with love in the past and how has that affected their relationship with you?:im not sure. I dont think so again lore not known.

I Think He Knows: List all of the things about your f/o that make you fall in love with them a little more each time!: again new f/o but omfg this man. This spiderman is a cutie.

Miss Americana & The Heartbreak Prince: If you and your f/o ran away together, where would you go?: i dunno. Wherever we are is home.

Paper Rings: Would you and your f/o ever consider getting married?: yes. Most definitely. But it is what it is rn.

Cornelia Street: Do you and your f/o live together? If so, what is your domestic life like? If not, what would it be like if you moved in together?: in my hc. Yes. We share an a loft apartment/flat.

Death By A Thousand Cuts: How do you and your f/o handle bad times/how are you there for each other when life gets rough?: we have healthy communication. And sometimes we do need time to cool off. But we tell each other with honesty. Sometimes it gets rough. Sometimes it gets heated. But it NEVER stays that way. But we are honest are true about ourselves to each other and are very transparent. And we can ve vulnerable around each other.

London Boy: Do you and your f/o travel? if you both could live somewhere besides where you’re from, where would you like to live?: sometimes we do. But it's rare. Hobie has responsibilities. Irregardless of his rebellious nature.

Soon You’ll Get Better: How do you and your f/o take care of each other when one of you is sick?: soup,medicine,rest,good vibing music and lots of funny videos and shows. He doesn't care if he gets sick he hates seeing me not feelin myself.

False God: Do you think of you and your f/o as soulmates? Why or why not?: im not sure. I wanna say yes. But again life is a weird mess. All i know is he's perfect enough for me.

You Need To Calm Down: Do you have any lgbt+ headcanons for your f/o?: not sure yet. But he's a fucking ally at least you twatwaffles!! He's spiderpunk ffs. Perhaps enby of some sort? Not sure i dont really do those hcs out of personal principles to leave it open to interpretation n  respect.

Afterglow: Do you and your f/o fight often? How do you and your f/o apologize to each other? Who apologizes first?: not often. But it does happen it aint all candies n roses. But we talk it out,aak how do we do better next time. And if its really emotional,and we really need a release. We fuck. Plain n simple. I aint gonna sugarcoat it.

ME!: What do you love the most about your f/o? What do they love the most about you?: see above.

It’s Nice To Have A Friend: Were you and your f/o friends before you became lovers?: I'd like to think maybe we became friends as we became lovers too. Because you sometimes do find a best friend in your lover. Then again im bias because that's how me and my irl s/o is. So yeah.

Daylight: How has your relationship with your f/o changed your opinion of love? How has their relationship with you changed their opinion of love?: i think of it as we both strengthen and soften each other in the areas we need.

• When you first met, what were your first impressions of each other? Did they start off positive right away or were they negative? Did your impression of each other change over time? If so, what made them change?: my opinion how i feel now is he's dope af. And i don't think that will change any time soon.

• What compelled you both to keep on seeing each other? Was there already an immediate spark between you two or were there other circumstances they forced you to be together?: gwen n miles gave me courage to ask him out. Hobie just said " ha! Knew it •3~" needless to say i was a thousand shades red.

• Who confessed first? What drove them to do it? Did you immediately become a couple after that or did it take some time before you both became one officially?: me. And we went out on a few dates before he and i called it official.

• What was it like when you started dating? Was there a lot of awkward tension? Did it take some time for you to both adjust? Or did it start out rather smoothly?: awkward but cute.

• Who cares about the first date really. What was the second date like? Who was the one that planned it or did you both plan it together? If you went somewhere specific for it, why that location? And if you did a specific activity on the date, why that?: first date was a cafe,dinner then a pub. 2nd date was jamming out at the abandoned warehouse. And the 3rd date was a concert. And lets say sparks flew. Both metaphorically and literally.

• What was the worst date you’ve had? What made it the worst? When did you both realize that it was bad? Did you do anything to try to make up for it and/or fix it?: well there were a few where some bitch ass dude tried to mug some poor old lady right in front on my salad. He didn't get far. No hobie didn't do anything. I did. I hate my lunch being interrupted. Hobie i swear had heart eyes but i was too busy trying to enjoy my lunch and was too pissed at the audacity of people. The old lady was ok btw.

• Are there any interests that you don’t share with each other? If yes, what are they and why can’t they seem to get into it? Does this cause any problems for either of you?: not really. I mean i hc he smokes 🍃 but i dont really. But idc if he do.

• Is there any interests you two bond over having? Or are there any interests either of you now enjoy because of the other introducing it to them?: he and i sing together. I sometimes join in on a beat and riff. But i love listening more.

• Are they any secrets you’re keeping from each other? What are they and why do they desperately want to keep it? Is there any scenario where the other would confess to those secrets?: im not sure we're pretty open n honest. Its the world that dont know. And we gonna keep it that way.

• What are some things you associate with each other? Why those things? Are some of them just random or are they very significant things to that person?: again see above.

• What do you both think of marriage if you aren’t married? Would you ever want to get married? If no, is there any specific reason or is it just something you’re disinterested in?: see above.

• If you’re already married, did anything change between your relationship after marriage? What exactly changed? Or did it pretty much stay the same?: tba.

• What’s something really embarrassing that happened between you? Has it become a funny story you tell to friends now or is it a deep secret you’re both taking to the grave?: again new f/o haven't gotten that far yet. Tba

• When was the first time either of you cried in front of each other? Is crying in front of the other something common for either of you?: we don't hide out feels bro. Thats not punk,metal or cash money of you if you dont cry in front of your bae. Im sorry. You gotta let that pride go man. You got feels too.

• Have you met each others’ friends and families? How did things go? Do you all get along pretty well or just tolerate each other? Or are any of you on bad terms for any reason? If you haven’t met them though, is there any reason why?: tba

• Are there any mannerisms you picked up from each other? If so, what are they? How do you both react to it? How did friends react to it?: honestly i got more observant. I mean i was already. But even more so. And better at patching up wounds. And making my own clothes. ^-^

• Are there any unresolved problems or arguments between the two of you? Any reason why you haven’t been able to resolve them?: not of the moment.

• Who’s the first one to apologize? Are they apologizing first genuinely out of guilt or is there an alternative motive? If one of you struggles to be the first one to apologize, why? Is there any specific reason behind it?: me. I dont like staying angry. I really dont. I do feel sometimes guilt but hobie straightened my ass out for that. To be honest with my emotions and not beholden to them. And he hates seeing me upset. So no going to bed angy for us.

• What’s that one funny story that happened during your relationship that never fails making either of you laugh? What makes it so funny to both of you?: besides the mugging old lady. He once accidentally turned the amp to high while practicing. And farted accidentally. And the mic on the ground nearby picked it up. Sounded throughout the whole apartment/flat. I was in tears. He was red af. Yelling n cursing at me. Hobie: "OI! IT WAS ONE TIME LUV! ONE TIME!"

• What are each of your dreams and goals for the future? Any specific aspirations they have? Do either of your dreams conflict with each other or are they able to coexist?: tba

#self ship #self ship asks #self ship ask game #hobie brown self ship #hobie brown #spiderpunk #spiderman #self shipping #spooder-husband #❤🇬🇧🌹Webs n roses🌹🇬🇧💙 #new self ship tag

[butterinrecovery]

Toxic Relationships

Why does it feel like almost all of my friends and family are toxic and or unsupportive?

My sister just left town without saying goodbye, my long time friend yelled at me because I called him out on a behavior, another friend replies in very short texts even when I say something is wrong. My mother laughs at mental health sometimes, I've been ghosted so much on Facebook that I deleted it along with messenger.

I know that no one is perfect and we all have flaws, but why is it so hard to find decent human beings to interact with? Is it because almost all the people I know also have mental health issues and that creates more drama? I would really like to figure this out.

Right now I can't stop thinking about the fact my sister didn't even send me a text (or anything) before leaving town, and my friend didn't even apologize for yelling at me, and I'm still thinking about my ex who gaslighted the fuck outa me almost a year ago. Intrusive thoughts are not my friend in all this. But, on Instagram this morning, I saw a reel from a therapist I follow. It was a picture of her, with the words Feeling burnt out? Unappreciated? Etc. and then in the next clip, it says Check your boundaries. So that got me thinking.

But how exactly do I create healthy boundaries with people like my sister and my friend and my mom and all? I've tried telling my sister many times that it hurts me when she does this, she does it again and again anyway. My friend is usually so sweet and nice but has his mean points, I guess. I'm not sure how to establish a boundary around that at all. And then my mom, I guess I could tell her WHEN she is laughing that it's not okay, but I'm never able to say it in the moment for some reason. Crap.

Sorry to go off on a tangent but I really needed to get this all out. Just trying to get better and I've been super depressed lately. Hope you guys are doing okay. <3

#mental health #toxic relationships #toxic people #toxic #toxic friends #depression #boundaries #setting boundaries #intrusive thoughts #mental illness #unsupportive relationships

[gamercase2000]

6, 12 and 32 for the Pride ask game? :3

(OOC: I'm not super sure if this is meant to be answered by just Casey, or if I can answer as well, so, I'll just answer with Cas, and if needed/wanted, I'll post my own answers separately. Also, hoo boy this was a lot to write, and will probably be a lot to read, I hope that's okay-)

6. What made you realize that your current labels fit you?

Well, for me being trans, I honestly just never really thought I fit in as a girl, I guess? All of my friends growing up were always guys, but my parents always tried to get me to be more like my sister, and I just didn't like that. I always felt pretty uncomfortable in my skin, as you can imagine, and in high school, I was finally introduced to the idea of being transgender, and everything just… I dunno, clicked, I guess. Like, I didn't feel like I was in the right body, and finding out what being trans meant just made everything make sense.

As for me being pan, I just… I dunno. I mean, I noticed that I had this… I don't wanna say 'pattern,' since it was very much not that, but I've always ended up having crushes on just anybody I found attractive, not really paying attention to their gender or gender presentation, if that makes sense? I honestly almost wanna say I'm demisexual sometimes, since the people I've ever really had crushes on were people I knew already, but I think that's more, like, demiromantic than anything else? Maybe panromantic but I tended to just crush on my friends since I already knew them? I dunno, but, I think the best way I can explain it is, like, as long as we get along really well, I'm capable of having a crush on anybody, but, even if we're in a relationship, I have to trust you enough to let things go further than that, if that makes sense.

12. Favorite flag(s) visually?

I really like the trans and pan flags. Not just because I am trans and pan, but, they're just really pretty. I especially like how good the pink, yellow, and blue look together on the pan flag. That's not a combination I thought would look good together, honestly. But, it works, and I like it.

32. Something you wish people understood about your identity?

Well, I know a decent amount of people joke when they say this, but, no, being pan does not mean that I'm attracted to pans. Or pandas, for that matter, though they are adorable little fluff balls that I'd love to see in-person one of these days.

Anyway, uh, also, with me being trans, no, it's not just "Oh, I'm not comfortable that I don't fit into society's standards for women, so I don't want to be a girl so I can avoid that," I genuinely felt discomfort and (TW: s**cidal thoughts mention) had really bad suicidal thoughts whenever I focused on what "made me a girl." I hated it, and not just because I was the only girl- or, "girl," I guess, now- in my friend group, I legitimately felt like something was wrong, that I had this huge disconnect with my body and that it needed to be fixed somehow, for lack of better phrasing. But, if people just paid a little attention, they'd know that I'm much happier now than I was ten, fifteen years ago before I could afford to transition. That stuff's expensive, so I totally would've started sooner if I could have.

(OOC: Alrighty, there ya go. It's been a hot minute since I did anything with Casey here, so I may portray him a bit differently than how he's written in his little profile thing. Hope that's alright, though! Thanks for the ask, this was pretty fun, honestly. ^^)

[genshin-impact-writings]

Can I please requests “I never dared to even dream about you feeling the same.” with Childe and an adepti reader who hates him, but he loves them?

Preferably fluffy tsun tsun please?

Hey there, dear! It's been a while since I've written something for Tartaglia, so your request was absolutely perfect, thank you for sending it in. I hope you like what I came up with! <3 Have a great day/night and stay safe.

Seaside rendezvous – Tartaglia/Childe x adeptus!reader (gn!reader)

Tartaglia should have known better than to fall for someone like you. Someone who clearly hated him, no matter how hard he tried to prove that he was actually a somewhat decent person, that he was so much more than just the Fatui Harbinger who was a threat to Liyue and its people. Heck, he should have stayed far, far away from you after your first meeting in Guyun Stone Forest where you had told him that you’d kill him if he ever dared to cause harm to your beloved home again. And yet, he didn’t stay away.

At first, it had just been a fun game to come and see you, to find out how far he could go until you snapped. How long he had to annoy you before you’d finally agree to fight him. But much to his surprise, you never lost your patience. Sometimes, it had even seemed like you secretly enjoyed his company – only to insist that it was quite the opposite when he started to tease you about it.

It still amused him how you always told him to leave you alone, only to start a conversation shortly after. But as the time went by, he had realized that it wasn’t just about annoying you or challenging you to a battle he most likely wouldn’t be able to win anyway. He couldn’t really remember when he finally noticed that he came to see you almost every day because the days felt empty without your company and your constant bickering.

And he had to admit that it was awful to be in love with someone who’d never return his feelings, not now and not in a million years. It would have been better to stop visiting you as as soon as he realized his feelings. But at the same time, Tartaglia knew that this emotional turmoil was better than not knowing you at all, although his heart, his foolish, lovestruck heart kept breaking a little more every time you said that you hated him. It was pathetic and embarrassing, he was very well aware of that, but he still couldn’t help it.

Even now, as you glared at him and let out an exasperated sigh, he couldn’t stop wishing that you’d finally stop treating him like your arch enemy.

“You don’t have many friends, do you?” you asked. “Or why else do you keep coming here?”

“Because I wanted to see you, obviously,” he replied with a smirk that couldn’t quite hide the insecurity in his blue eyes that had always reminded you of the ocean. The next moment, you frowned at your own thoughts. Thankfully, you hadn’t said that out loud, or else he would have gotten the idea that you had some kind of sympathy for him – which definitely wasn’t the case… would never be the case. You huffed, both at your hideous thoughts and his words, and sat down in the sand, staring up at him. “You’re annoying.”

Once again, a smile flashed over Tartaglia’s face. “But you’d miss me if I wouldn’t be here,” he said. “Come on, don’t be shy, you can admit it.”

“Shut up. I won’t admit anything.”

“But you’re not denying it either.”

You groaned. “Please, just stop talking.”

“Yeah, fine,” he agreed as he sat down next to you, crossing his ankles as he leaned back against the rocks behind him. “I can keep you company without saying a word.”

You refrained from telling him that you didn’t need his company at all, knowing that it would only result in yet another conversation you really didn’t want right now. So, you just closed your eyes, enjoying the silence that had settled between the two of you. It was almost peaceful to sit here, the sunlight warm on your face and the calming sound of the waves in the background.

If only – no. No, it was actually quite nice to have Tartaglia by your side, after spending so many years on your own. The life of an Adeptus could be lonely, devastatingly lonely even, and although you sometimes went to the city to visit Yanfei and Ganyu, you had never really liked the hustle and bustle of Liyue Harbour. In this sense, it was great that Tartaglia came to Guyun Stone Forest instead of asking you to meet him in the city – to which you’d never agree, obviously.

You groaned. Developing some kind of sympathy for him was the last thing you needed, especially since you knew exactly what he had done to Liyue. It would contradict everything you believed, everything you had done in the past to protect the land, if you allowed yourself to fall for someone like him. You should continue to hate him, not enjoy his company. But at the same time, you couldn’t deny that you looked forward to seeing him, no matter how hard to tried to deny it.

“You know,” Tartaglia said, his voice so quiet that you could barely hear him but you still turned your head to look at him, patiently waiting for him to continue his sentence, “it’s really unusual that you don’t tell me to leave you alone. If I didn’t know any better I’d say you actually like that I’m here.”

“Most definitely not.”

He chuckled softly. “Come on, you can admit it. I won’t tease you, I promise.”

“Don’t promise something you can’t keep,” you replied. “You always tease me. Maybe that’s why –” You paused for a moment, trying to figure out what to say next. “Maybe that’s why I don’t tell you how I really feel about this whole situation. Or how I feel about you.”

“How you feel about me?” he repeated, his brows perked up as he stared at you like you had just told him that you had actually three heads. “You’ve made that very clear in the past.”

“I don’t know when that changed. At first, I just thought that I’ve gotten used to it, that you don’t annoy me as much as you did previously because I accustomed myself to the situation but maybe that’s not the truth. Maybe I actually like you.”

Tartaglia hummed in response, only to freeze just a moment later when his brain finally comprehended what you had just told him. It couldn’t be real; surely he was imagining things because it simply couldn’t be true that you liked him after acting like you hated no one more than him for the past couple of months. But then again, why shouldn’t you have changed your opinion after getting to know him better?

And in that moment, he simply couldn’t help himself, although he had sworn to never give in to these urges. He leaned in, cupped your face with his hands and finally pressed a gentle kiss to your lips.

You startled at first, drawing back ever so slightly but when one of his hands moved to the back of your neck to pull you closer again, you found yourself relaxing, slowly melting into his touch and the feeling of his warm lips against yours.

When he pulled away, he almost expected you to punch him in the face, despite the fact that you had just kissed him back, but instead, you just stared back at him, your gaze filled with an insecurity he had never seen with you before, your pupils blown wide. “Could you-“, you stopped and cleared your throat when you realized how breathy your voice sounded. “Could you maybe do that again?”

A soft smile flashed over his face. “You know, I never dared to even dream about you feeling the same.“

“I don’t,” you mumbled, already leaning in to kiss him again. “I hate you. I hate you so much.”

“I know.”

Thank you so much for reading! If you enjoyed it please consider reblogging. I'd really appreciate the support. <3

Taglist: @somemothgoingferal, @blissmal, @aimicoos, @childe-support, @the-gayest-sky-kid

#childe x reader #tartaglia x reader #childe x you #tartaglia x you #genshin impact x reader #genshin impact fluff #childe x gn!reader #gn!reader #gender neutral reader #reader insert #genshin tartaglia x reader #genshin childe x reader #genshin scenarios #genshin impact

[meimae]

30/09/21

I'm early once again! Brought to you by my desperate need to continue my reading streak, here's a look at my September Immersion Overview!

This was an interesting month - I limited myself fully to just dramas (and a bit of Youtube) as listening and VNs as reading immersion and it has been pretty effective as I managed to immerse another 100 hours or so despite being busy. I remember dabbling in so many different media in April, and I honestly can't imagine how I managed to keep up with all those. Hopefully I can continue at this pace since this has been quite a fun month of immersion overall.

The Anki side of things have been quite successful as well since I was able to add so many new cards that I have now a total of 10,077 words in my mining deck only a few days after I hit 1.5 years of immersion. I wasn't too far behind after all!

DRAMAS

43.47 hours of dramas and Youtube

Code Blue 2 + 3 + Movie

Binged these at the beginning of the month. There was not one bad episode in this whole series, and I highly recommend it to anyone who wants to test their listening ability. It's extremely fast paced and there's never a dull moment.

Also, what a tease, my ship never sailed despite there being so many allusions to the possibility of there being more. (´；ω；｀)

ごちそうさん

I think I watched til Week 2 of this before stopping in exchange for reading instead. Might pick it up again later. Really liked the kid version of the protag in the beginning, but there was so little of her.

社内マリッジハニー

Wanted something really easy to listen to and this was a good choice for that. This is one of those dramas that tries very hard to have a dramatic plot, but fails since its so short there's barely any time to do anything about it. Still, if you just want some really short and simple SOL drama that's pure fluff, then this is decent enough.

彼女はキレイだった

Was waiting the entire month for this to finish airing so I could binge it. This was fun to watch, and had a pretty fast paced story til the end. Could have stopped at episode 7 and not gone the stereotypical hospital scene route I would've been satisfied. This overused story trope of the girl being "ugly" and "changing" should really die though. Anyway, I don't think I've ever watched the original Kdrama, but I just might have to eventually.

VISUAL NOVELS

Reading has been so much fun lately thanks to visual novels. I managed to read another 67.83 hours this month, and I feel like I've gotten into the groove of reading again. I've been better at picking reading over listening for once and I'm really hopeful about keeping up with it in the months to come.

Continuing my streak from last month, I not only read a total of 1.15 million characters this month, but hit a few reading milestones such as reading for 7 hours and reading 100k characters in a day a few times. Pretty exciting to actually hit some of my reading goals, some of which at some point felt impossible.

A-are otoges the key? ( ﾟдﾟ)

剣が君

I can't stop thinking about this, I genuinely love it so much. I rated it a 9 in my review, but I keep thinking its worth a 10 since then.

Don't mind me, I'm holding myself back from giving an otoge a 10 when I really shouldn't be. I just need to read more VNs to be able to justify it. Like I don't want to be that person who hasn't read Fate or Higurashi or Clannad yet and rating stuff a 10 already. Lmao.

Read my review here!

あやかしごはん

Another otoge?!

This was my filler VN for the month - something easy to read while I was busy, so I can keep up with my daily character reading goal while spending less amount of time with it. This one feels really ridiculous, because my stats for this one is just as crazy as it was in 剣が君, and hopefully I'll be able to show you next month.

Gotta love the good and easy SoL VNs where dictionary lookups are minimal.

-☆-

I'll be reading more next month - yet another otoge won the vote at TMW VN Club! Love that the otoge fans have the opportunity to actually vote for and win the polls in the club. Also pretty happy that the guys who did venture into reading 剣が君 have been seemingly as floored as the rest of us. Pleased that I found a really good, non-toxic Japanese language learning community online. ( ´∀｀)

That's it for this month! Thanks for reading, and updates in the future as always.

#language acquisition #language learning #langblr #study blog #studyblr #japanese language #japanese #language immersion #japanese langblr #japanese studyblr #剣が君 #あやかしごはん #社内マリッジハニー #ごちそうさん #Code Blue #彼女はキレイだった #jdrama #visual novels #visual novel #immersion overview

[binniedeactivated]

so reading your last beomgyu fic made me think about something... 😳 do you think you can write a college au smut where the reader is an exchange student and beomgyu is assigned to introduce her to uni rules (and stuff like that) but things go.. wrong?👀 shiiit, i've got a lot of beomgyu in my mind wth 🤣

𝐏𝐀𝐈𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆 | 𝐜𝐡𝐨𝐢 𝐛𝐞𝐨𝐦𝐠𝐲𝐮 𝐱 𝐛𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐤!𝐠𝐢𝐫𝐥 𝐆𝐄𝐍𝐑𝐄 | 𝐜𝐨𝐥𝐥𝐞𝐠𝐞 𝐚𝐮!𝐬𝐦𝐮𝐭 𝐖/𝐂 | 2.7k 𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 | 𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐢𝐬𝐦, 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐬𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐧, 𝐥𝐚𝐩 𝐫𝐢𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠, 𝐝𝐢𝐫𝐭𝐲 𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐤, 𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐧𝐲𝐦·𝐩𝐡𝐨·𝐦𝐚·𝐧𝐢·𝐚𝐜 / 𝐚 𝐰𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐮𝐧𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐫𝐨𝐥𝐥𝐚𝐛𝐥𝐞 𝐨𝐫 𝐞𝐱𝐜𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐬𝐞𝐱𝐮𝐚𝐥 𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐢𝐫𝐞.

a/n: hope you enjoy this! ily </3 

“babe they just assigned me a new student, I already told you that”. beomgyu spoke while throwing a hoodie over his head. he was on facetime with his long time girlfriend lana.

“i know and that pisses me off. we were supposed to meet up and I have another class in an hour or two. ugh can I just come to your dorm room after you’re done?“.

“yeah that’s fine I guess. It shouldn’t take that long”.

she scrunched up her nose. “you guess? so that means you don’t want me to come then?”.

beomgyu rolls his eyes.  he hated how she always caught an attitude for no reason. “that is not what I’m saying”.

“if you don’t want to see me beomgyu just say that then”.

“and why would I say that?”

“because. you’ve been avoiding me lately anyways. what is it? are you with someone else?”.

he shoves his feet in his sneakers. “I haven’t been avoiding you I have basketball practice. don’t you have my schedule? do you ever look at it?”.

she sucks her teeth. “whatever. I’ll be by your dorm in a few. I’ll text you when I’m there”.

sneaking a look in the mirror beomgyu flattens the small hairs that were sticking up from his head. it was getting late in the evening and of course he didn’t look as neat as he did this morning but he thought he looked pretty decent for now. he closes his room door and checks the messages sent to him from the floor’s RA.

room 325. he looks at the array of doors in front of him and realizes the room he was looking for should be around the corner. he turns down a few hallways and once arrived he knocks softly before shoving his hands in his pockets.  this arrangement was pretty frequent for him so he wasn’t nervous at all to recite the floor rules. it often went smoothly if the student didn’t have any extra follow up questions.

but once the door swung open beomgyu’s eyes widened. standing just beneath his nose her skin was the beautiful color of milk chocolate. her curly, black middle parted hair stopped just at her shoulders. her pudgy lips were glazed in lip gloss and her dark brown almond shaped eyes and curly eyelashes were nearly way too beautiful for beomgyu to even look into. he fidgeted nervously.

“um-hi hello I’m choi beomgyu i’m uh..this floor’s assistant RA”. he introduced, hoping she didn’t think he was a total dork for his stuttering. yet she gave him a small smile anyway. the whiteness of her teeth was blinding, might he add.

“hey I’m jasmin. Is there anything you need?”. she leans in closer while leaning on the doorway and beomgyu felt his heart throb. he discreetly backed up a bit to keep himself from being so nervous. she was just so beautiful and he never thought a girl like her would even want to transfer to a university in south korea.

“um-- I just have to lay down the floor rules. it’s a procedure done with every transfer student. uhh do you have a minute?”.

she nods before chuckling softly. “yeah but--are you okay? you seem a little..off”.

beomgyu shakes his head trying to laugh it off. “ah no no it��s just.. um- I’m a little worn out from practice today so I’m tired and my mind isn’t fully here”.

“Ah I understand”. she nods. And she did. playing a couple of sports back in america herself, she knew the feeling of a long day’s worth of practice. The both of them take awkward glances into the opposite directions avoiding each other’s gaze.

“so? do you want to come in?”. she invites after a couple a seconds of silence.

“yeah um-- sure this won’t take long”. he accepts. he hoped he wouldn’t do anything stupid while he was in there. after closing the door behind him she kicks a small box further in her closet. it would be off-putting for beomgyu to see her sex toys firsthand. because jasmin was a nymphomaniac. she wasn’t afraid to admit that sex was her livelihood and she needed it every night and day.  it was a good thing beomgyu wasn’t paying attention to her at all though, more so on the way she decorated her dorm.

“wow it’s pretty nice in here. you decorated this all on your own?”.

“yeah. needed a chair to get to the high places but I tried. would you like a snack or anything?”.

“no no i’m fine. thank you though. so yeah- welcome to sejong dorm hall. you’ll love it here. it’s the most diverse out of all the dorm halls on campus. our rules are pretty simple. if you return late keep quiet, no outside guests allowed in the dorm hall, don’t damage any of the building’s furniture or belongings, no drugs or any intoxicating liquor and my favorite rule of them all, no sex of any sort”.

she laughs. “no sex huh?”.

“yeah. I’m sorry that’s the dumbest rule ever. the university really values study time and giving students a peaceful place to study even if it’s in their rooms. and of course if someone’s having sex in the room above, things aren’t as peaceful”.

she shrugs her shoulders. “eh I don’t know. I think I’ll still be able to calculate an equation or two with a bed rumbling above me“. she jokes, with her and beomgyu sharing a laugh soon after.

“but um- I do have a small request”. she says meekly.

“what is it?“.

“I have this kind of condition... and i was wondering if it can be excused“. she says lowly and beomgyu wondered why she was fidgeting all of a sudden. but she had to ask him, otherwise she’d be getting kicked out pretty soon.

“um yeah I can make some arrangements with the RA...what’s the condition?”.

she draws herself closer to him. beomgyu immediately grew nervous, backing himself into the nearby desk.

“I’m um--”. she semi-whispered. she places her arm on his shoulder, her lips were just inches from his own. “I’m kind of a nymphomaniac. if I don’t get what I want my condition will get worse. can i be an exception to the rule?”.

the way her pretty eyes stares at his lips in need. beomgyu didn’t know what to do with himself. he felt caged in. and he hated the fact that he was being turned on just by the seductive tone in her voice. he swallows the lump in his throat.

“I um---I don’t know if the university will allow th--”.

with no warning she pushes her pillow-like lips against beomgyu’s gently kissing him over and over before slipping her tongue in between his lips. she promised herself she would stop kissing him if he didn’t kiss back.

but he did.

she wraps her arms around his neck and allows the kiss to gradually grow rough and sloppier. beomgyu wanted to stop, he swear he did. but her lips were something he couldn’t get enough of. the way she kissed him with desire and passion like it would be the last kiss she ever had in her life. she clutches his wrists and slides his hands down to her ass.

“jasmin--”. beomgyu spoke in between the fluttering kisses. “jasmin I don’t think we should do-- this we’re going to get expelled”. yet the more he kissed her he didn’t know if he was trying to convince her or himself. what made things even worse about this affair was the sheer fact that he knew no one would ever approve of it. because jasmin was black. especially his girlfriend who would practically murder beomgyu if he ever found out he cheated on her with a black girl. but beomgyu disregarded skin color. he always did. he was never racist like his peers. his phone buzzed in his pocket. he fishes it out and glances at lana’s caller ID. jasmin pulls away with the same seductive glance before she hangs up.

“how about we make a deal beomgyu?”. she offers while pushing him backwards until he was sitting on the desk. she crawls on his lap and holds the nape of his neck sucking hickies into it. beomgyu’s eyes closed and a sigh of relief spills from his lips. her lips were different than the small pecks he was used to from lana. her lips were so hypnotizing, soft and perfect he couldn’t even bring himself to speak.

“if you keep fucking me and covering for me,”. she starts prior to leaving hickies in a few other spots. “I won’t tell your little girlfriend about this”. she finishes before moving upwards to kiss his bottom lip. she tongue kisses him once more. “deal?”. she smirks knowing she already had beomgyu wrapped around her finger. she reaches underneath her skirt and sluggishly slid her lacy panties down her thighs. beomgyu didn’t know how much his lips were parted due to pure shock and arousal. she tossed them to the side.

“deal?”.

he nods his head desperately and she clashes their lips rougher this time around. the more she grinds her hips against him the tighter his pants felt. it isn’t like he had to do all the work either. once she felt him get hard she unzips his jeans and pulls it out herself. she bit her lips and inches herself down on it until beomgyu was fully seated inside of her. she was satisfied, finally filled and wanted nothing but bliss to take her mind away.

“does it feel good baby?”. she asks softly.

and beomgyu, god beomgyu looked as if he could just melt. his eyes were lidded and hazy while he looked at her. she hadn’t even moved a muscle yet and the hairs on the back of his neck were already raising at how wet and tight she was. his mind boggled at how everything about her was so hypnotizing.

he clutches her waist and nods diligently. “p-please ride me”. he begs. she follows his plead and does as she were told, sinking down his dick slower than she reared up. beomgyu’s head drops back between his shoulders with an erotic groan.

“you have to be quiet gyu. remember the rules?”. she breathes loving the sight of the blonde-haired boy becoming undone.

“you feel so fucking good”.

she grins and continues with the rotation with of her hips trying to keep the meek moans that awaited in her throat at a minimum. he brings his head up and lets his hands bracket her moving hips. he thought he finally had himself under control through his weighty breathing. but jasmin does a thrust particularly hard that unraveled him all over again.

“s-shitt”.

she grins once more. “potty mouth”.

“i c-can’t control myself”.

and he couldn’t, especially with the room filled with nothing but their discreet moans, the squelchy sounds of jasmin riding his lap and the desk clashing against the bed in front of it. she quickens her pace,  being just as stubborn as the orgasm that ached within them both.

“fuckk this feels way better right?”.

by now beomgyu’s head was clouded. he wanted to groan as loud as he want  it was painful that he had to keep quiet. he resorted to low whimpers while gripping her waist tighter.

“don’t ask stupid questions. look whose the potty mouth now?”.

she wanted to say something slick back but she couldn’t. she was also trapped in her own clouds with her hands splayed on gyu’s chest. “oh my god”. she hisses, almost dreamy.

beomgyu gazes at her, “come down here”.

“w-why?”.

“because if you keep riding me like this I don’t know if i’m going to be able to control myself much longer”.

bouncing atop of beomgyu she leans her head lower to flatten his lips, the both of them drinking in each other’s moans to keep them from going directly through the walls. he reaches his hands down to cup her ass while her thighs trembled.

“fuckk--fuck keep doing that”. beomgyu groaned in between the pauses of their hot feuding tongues.  she ruts her hips down harder with each thrust with curse words of her own disappearing into the cavern of beomgyu’s mouth. without warning and in perfect sync the both of them reached their highs, jasmin still riding him diligently even with his cum dripping down her thighs. his hips bucked up into her still cumming, he decides to hold her up to refrain her from riding him no longer to keep from the overstimulation. she smirks while watching him finish. she kisses his sticky bottom lip yet again.

“fuck-- did I just cum inside of you?”.

she chuckles and kisses him one last time before climbing back down off of his lap pulling her skirt down. beomgyu sat up and straightened himself up again.

“don’t worry, I take pills beomgyu”.

he breathed in relief, zipping his pants back up. “good”. he stood up with his legs kind of limp and him kind of feeling tired. he didn’t know what he was going to tell lana when he got back to his room. he couldn’t believe what he was about to ask jasmin but he shoved down his pride. he couldn’t get enough.

“maybe, maybe I can get your number for whenever we do this again?”.

#choi beomgyu #beomgyu #beomgyu smut #txt smut #beomgyu x black!reader

[lilallama]

I can't- I've requested 3 times this day and you answered on the same day! I hope you're not forcing yourself! If you want to take a break, Go on! Also, I saw the newspaper club, It's a good idea, In my opinion. Anyway, May I request again? 😅 How Yoongi met Y/N. Like, The backstory? We know Y/N protected him, But I want (I sound selfish and like a spoiled brat wth-) to know the scenes and all that.

[Don't worry, I really love answering your asks. Today has been very boring for me, so getting to write something is very nice. Also, to clarify about following "story", during the time this takes place Yoongi is in 7th grade (so around 12/13 years old, same as Y/n)💕🍑]

!!TRIGGER WARNING!!

Contains themes of bullying, slight suicide mention, parental negligence, obsessive behaviour and homophobia, proceed with caution

It was a day like any other. During school hours Yoongi spend most of his time staring outside the window, in the back of the class. Occasionally he'd get paper airplanes thrown his way, with mean messages written on them, or someone would fire spit balls at him.

He stared down at his desk, while fumbling with his hand. It was filled with mean messages, varying from "No one likes you" to "kill yourself faggot", written in Sharpie. A shiver runs down his spine as he remembered the time he tried to clean it up. It all ended with gum stuck in his hair, it was so bad that his mother had to cut his hair. For weeks it looked horrible, as his mother couldn't bother to pay for a professional hairdresser to cut it, nor spend any time in making it look halfway decent. So now, he just leaves the desk be. It's not like the teachers would care anyway.

Shortly before the end of class, his teacher asked him to bring some copies to the principal, as she couldn't bother to do it herself. But to his shock, once he got back, just a few minutes after the bell rang, his backpack was nowhere to be seen. But he then saw a window opened wide and looked out. As he looked down he spotted his bag, hanging on a tree, with some of his papers laying underneath on the ground.

Immediately he sprinted out to the tree. Despite his efforts, he just couldn't reach the bag. Just as he managed to pull it down, someone pushed him into the ground. A group of kids from his class laughed at him while grabbing his backpack. He stood up and tried to retain it, but two boys just trew the bag over his head, again and again, taunting him. The short boy was starting to tear up. "Oh, look at that! Is the little freak gonna cry?" A girl mocked him, as the others laughed. Yoongi's eyes were like glued to the ground as tears started spilling.

"Hey!" Just then someone someone interrupted their harassment. "Give him his backpack back!" They glared at the bullies while stepping closer to them.

This whole scene was very absurd. The well known shy kid stood up for the nobody freakshow. "Please, what're you going to do?" "Call your mommy?"

The young kid just crossed their arms, "I'm sure your parents would love to know about you stealing her cigarettes, to smoke during break, Sadayo." The girl that warning was aimed at suddenly got very pale. "And you," she turned to another kid, "Your dad would like to know about your recent grades, wouldn't he?". The kid was nervously rubbing his neck, while they turned to the guy with the backpack in hand, "And you! I'm sure everyone would like to know what you're hiding, Jason." The boy looked around panicked before, scoffing and throwing the backpack their way. "You're both crazy, dude. Come on, let's not waste our time with those weirdos." They turned and left the crying Yoongi with the mysterious other kid.

"Are you okay?" Their voice was soft and gently when addressing him. It was.. nice, very nice. They pulled a tissue out of their own bag and whiped his tears away. "I'm sorry about that." Yoongi looked up at them, "B-but you didn't do anything. You helped me.." Then it hid him. They. Helped. Him.

They giggled, "Here's your bag." They nudged his backpack towards him. For a moment Yoongi flinched, which caused a confused look on their part. "Uhm, th-thank you.." he muttered while hugging the backpack to his chest and stared at the ground.

"How about, I get you some ice cream? To cheer you up and all. Their smile was so genuine and kind, they actually meant well with him. So much kindness was overwhelming for the young boy, yet he somehow managed to stutter out an answer. "Y-yes."

The bullies never bothered him again, most definitely afraid of tgeir secrets getting leaked by that mysterious stranger.

What was their name again?

"Y/n.." Yoongi muttered under his breath while sitting in his room, at the end of the day. Everything was silent, the only thing he could hear was the ticking of the clock and his mothers drunken rambles downstairs. Slowly a smile formed on his face, "Y/n." That smile turned into giggles, and then full on laughter. The young boy stormed to his desk and took out his notebook, filling the pages with "Y/n".

#yandere bts #yandere suga #cooking club

[eagles-translated]

Answering Eagles questions before the season 3 finale (Part 1/2)

I've received a bunch of questions since 3x08 and 3x09 dropped, so I compiled all the questions into two posts. I had to split them up because Tumblr only allows 10 images per post. Anyway, keep reading to see my answers and enjoy! 👇

My theory is that everybody will be gathered together for some event and then shit goes down. Sort of like the ending of 1x08.

We've seen an image of Adam, Omar, and Ludde together at a party of some sort. I can't post it here because of Tumblr only allowing ten pictures, but you can find it in Ludde's prediction post that I made prior to the season 3 premiere.

Felicia might be absent from this considering how her mental health has been recently, and instead opting to stay at home rather than attending a party.

I have my suspicions that Elias will be attending this party, though. We saw him at some concert in the season 3 trailer and they made it look like he was watching Amie singing in Stockholm. But maybe Amie will be performing at this party and Elias is watching her here instead?

It seems like Amie singing at the end of the season has become kind of a recurring theme. She performed "Follow" in 1x08 and "Second Sight" in 2x10 (on the radio, but my point still stands). I wouldn't be surprised if they followed this trend by having Amie perform a new song in the season 3 finale.

Maybe Elias approaches her after the performance to express how good she is. He hasn't really seen her do a live performance since 1x08, where she still hadn't really come out of her shell. They've also grown a lot closer this season. Perhaps Elias even has something more to tell her?

I can't help but feel like this party will end on a bad note, though. We have that whole thing with Andreas potentially buying a gun or whatever he's up to (discussed this more in another question down below).

I have a feeling this party is going to get interrupted in some way and that the season is going to end on a major cliffhanger.

I don't even know what they'll do with Ludde and Felicia. Ludde has no idea what happened to Felicia in these last two episodes, and I hope they'll have a conversation just to clear the air surrounding the whole press situation. Ludde still loves her even if he broke things off, and I would really like to see him reassure Felicia that the blame lies with Jack and not her. I don't think they will get back together and repeat what 2x10 did since the drama is still so fresh. Felicia shouldn't really get into a relationship right now, either.

I'm unsure about Klara. I feel like she's mostly done her part this season, but maybe things aren't completely finished between her and Elias. Maybe there were some things left unsaid on Klara's part when she met with Elias at the café, and Elias never really confirmed where he was at.

This talk regarding their relationship (and Eagles?) might happen in the season finale. I'm leaning towards them ending it for good since I doubt they will be getting back together. However, I'm pretty sure that it will be on good terms now after everything Klara did for Felicia.

I somewhat agree with this, even if it was worded a little harshly. Felicia shouldn't have been so quick to share the most personal thing that had ever happened to her on her first date with a guy she had just met. And she shouldn't have done the same thing with Jack, even if it was someone she'd known for longer.

I think she should've at least waited a while to see if the person she told her secrets to was trustworthy—sort of like Ludde did when he told Felicia the truth about how Andreas landed in prison. That's a huge secret and it made more sense to have it be shared closer to the end of the first season rather in the first three episodes.

On the other hand, I can definitely understand why she was so quick to share her problems. Felicia was really lonely when she first came to Oskarshamn. Her parents were fighting all the time, and her dad was only focused on Elias' hockey career. She carried these huge traumatic events and had nobody really supporting her when she ended up at the hospital and was sent to rehab. Felicia couldn't share the secret about her dad's affair either. She really had nobody in her life that she could talk to about any of this.

So it's reasonable that when she finally met a person who she really connected with, she felt comfortable enough to finally share these burdens she had been carrying. She actually started out by saying this to Ludde in 1x03:

I don’t know why I’m telling you this. I don’t talk about it to people.

I don't think Felicia set out to tell her whole backstory to Ludde. It just happened. I'm not saying it was the right choice, but Felicia probably realized that she desperately needed someone to talk to. And she said herself that it felt really good to just get these secrets out (until it didn't when she thought Ludde had spilled the beans to Klara). Felicia even made sure to stress to Ludde that he couldn't tell anybody about her experiences in the US.

Felicia: I don’t want this to come out, that’s really important. Ludde: Of course, I’d never tell.

A similar situation arose with Jack. Felicia was more isolated than ever and she had aborted a child that nobody knew about—not even her mom. That's a huge secret to carry on your own.

Felicia had known Jack since she was a child. She trusted him and he was a family friend. Not only that, but Jack has the ability to be incredibly charming when he wants to be. If anything, it makes more sense that Felicia told her personal things to Jack rather than to Ludde. She couldn't predict that Jack would turn out to be a cheating asshole who would leak everything in the press. It's kind of sad that Felicia would have to constantly keep quiet about all the wounds she's carrying when support from the people around her is the thing she needs and craves.

I've never said that the Kroon family's reaction to them being slandered in the press wasn't valid. I actually understood their anger and frustration quite well, but they let their emotions get the better of them. Yelling at Felicia did nothing to help the situation even though it's fair that they would direct their anger at the person who was to blame in that situation.

It wasn't pretty, and ganging up on Felicia (when her personal business had also been leaked) wasn't the best way to deal with the situation. But because their privacy was violated, I understand it. I can agree with you on that part.

It just sounds like you're implying that Felicia isn't allowed to share personal stuff at all because it would be "gifting ammo to expose her family". If Jack had actually been a decent person and never ruined her family's reputation in the press, you wouldn't be as harsh on her. The situation just got blown out of proportion for everybody.

Put these questions together since they were sort of asking the same thing regarding the last scene of 3x09. Here is the full transcript from that scene if anybody needs a reminder:

Man: Hey. Andreas: Hello. Man: Wasn’t yesterday. Welcome to the outside. Andreas: Thanks. Hey… The last time I saw you, you said you knew somebody who sells. Man: Are you thinking of a fully automatic? Andreas: Yeah, whatever. Man: There’s a guy in Stockholm. I’ll fix it. I’ll send you the number. Just tell him I sent you. Andreas: Alright, good. Got it. Man: Good. Good, see you. Andreas: See you.

It actually didn't click for me at all when I first saw this scene that Andreas could've been talking about buying a gun—my first thought was actually that he was talking about a car because I'm that stupid lmao.

Anyway, there is definitely potential for the season to end on a cliffhanger involving a gun and Andreas. I have a few theories on what the season could end like. Season 3 has been so much darker than previous seasons, so while this might feel too serious for a show like Eagles it's definitely not out of the question after the recent episodes. Anyway, here's what I think could happen.

1. The season ends with Andreas having the gun—but we don't know if he'll actually use it 2. The season ends with Andreas just about to shoot someone—but we don't know who (?) 3. The season ends with Andreas having just shot someone—but we don't know who (?)

I don't know which one of these theories I'm leaning more towards, but I really hope this won't be the outcome for Andreas. He just spent close to a year in prison for something he didn't even do. Andreas is not a criminal, and it would be disappointing if he actually ended up doing this. They could be throwing us for a loop.

I mean, personally I don't think shooting somebody because they were the reason my younger brother didn't get into his dream school is enough reason to risk ending up in prison for. Yes, Ludde got his reputation ruined, but there are other ways to solve that than to resort to crime. Andreas should know that too, considering the whole thing where he got landed in jail because he tried to protect Ludde.

This could absolutely be the case but at the same time I'm a little unsure. Hopefully things will just go up from here since the last two episodes were so dark, but I'm unsure what that last scene in 3x09 will mean for the season finale.

I hope they will do something similar to 2x10, where the ending was more bittersweet than just sour. We had the moment with Elias finally being drafted to the US and then Felicia and Ludde finally getting back together. We saw Amie achieve her dreams as a pop star. And yet there were still sour tones with us seeing Klara's dad passing away, Ludde being brought to the police station, and Amie being entirely alone and heartbroken.

2x10 was a really good episode and the ending montage gave me goosebumps the first time I saw it. I think ending a season like that, with both positives and negatives, hits you more emotionally rather than just ending on one or the other. The 1x08 season finale was really depressing and while the cliffhanger was intriguing, it didn't hit as hard for me as 2x10.

I'm kind of curious if they'll be able to top that episode—it's definitely among my personal favorites.

My stance is that if Elias and Amie won't happen in 3x10, they will be guaranteed to happen in season 4. There is no way they're passing that opportunity up. They have clear chemistry, are fan favorites, and it absolutely makes sense for them to get together considering where they're at in their journeys—both having realized their dreams but then coming back to Oskarshamn because it didn't turn out the way they thought it would.

I think they have a mutual understanding of each other—in season 3 more than ever—and it would definitely be a shame if their potential was wasted. So I can't see the writer(s) passing up that opportunity.

There is a possibility for Elias to make a move in the season 3 finale, but I think it's better to keep our expectations low. We just had Felicia go through something really traumatic and her whole family is dealing with the ramifications of Jack slandering them in the media. Elias's relationship with Amie might have to take a backseat because of that.

There's also the thing where we thought that Petra might forbid Amie from seeing Elias because the newspapers painted him as a sex addict. But I think Petra and Amie have reached an understanding in their relationship after the whole Michael thing, and I can see Petra taking Amie's word when saying that Elias isn't what the press makes him out to be—and that he's not like his father.

I really do want to see something happen between them in the season finale, though. I'm excited but impatient for Elias and Amie and I think there are many fans who feel the same way.

But there is a reason they've been so slow to develop their relationship. Elias and Amie have grown as people separately and they're at a point where I believe they're more compatible than they ever were previously. They've been building their character development, slowly but surely, and I like that they haven't been rushed together like Felicia and Ludde were.

If nothing happens between them in season 3, don't lose hope. I think season 4 will absolutely be Elias and Amie's season.

I hope so. I hope Petra isn't listening to the tabloids and tries to see what's in front of her instead, which is that Elias is not Mats.

Elias is entirely his own person. I know Petra was heartbroken when Mats left her after getting drafted, but when Elias was put into this exact situation he hesitated because he didn't want to leave Klara alone.

Klara: Elias… I don’t understand why you’re even thinking about this. Of course you’re going [to the US]. You’ve always wanted this. Right? Elias: But I don’t want to leave you.

Petra doesn't know about this, but we as the audience do. Elias's actions have always been caring and supportive (and I'm not just saying this because Elias has always been my favorite character). It should only be a matter of time until Petra realizes that, if she just gave him a chance.

I think that Petra will eventually see that Amie has finally found someone special who makes her happy. That Elias isn't at all like how Mats was at his age, or like Michael who didn't even bother to support her.

Petra has been so unlucky in love and I hope she can see through her prejudices and let her daughter be happy and loved, in the way that Petra never really got to be.

It could happen, but even if it does I don't think they will be separated for most of season 4.

Maybe Amie decides to finally take charge of her career and tells the record label that she's doing this her way or not at all. Maybe she even decides to quit to try a music career on her own terms, or with a different label that doesn't make her as successful but doesn't control her.

I never felt like the particular record label Amie ended up with was a great fit for her. Yes, she's very talented and I would love to see her become an even bigger star, but only if it's done the way Amie wants it to be done. There could be the possibility of Amie leaving the label, just like how Elias left the US.

I definitely think Felicia has picked up on Elias overworking himself. He's been at the gym constantly, even during the school field trip to Stockholm. Elias left this huge opportunity in the US to come back to Eagles, and the overworking could be a result of him feeling like he has to prove to both himself and the people around him that this decision was the right one.

They've been super subtle about this whole thing and I hope they will be discussing it properly soon instead of just giving us small snippets. There was discussion about this being an eating disorder, but I think it's leaning more towards overworking like you said and bad eating habits (in my opinion, we would need to see something more drastic before drawing the conclusion that Elias might have an eating disorder).

There's so much that needs to be brought up in the season 3 finale—like what exactly Andreas is planning and its outcome, Felicia healing after her suicide attempt and potentially having a conversation with Ludde, and maybe some sort of triangle drama between Elias and if he'll choose Klara or Amie. There are so many possibilities here that I have my suspicions that this storyline won't be fully resolved in just one episode.

I think it will be pushed forward into season 4 because that seems to make the most sense right now. I've been wrong before though, so something else could definitely happen.

#eagles svt #svt eagles #if you sent in a question recently and it wasn't among these you'll probably find it in part 2! #working on it right now

[loveactualharry]

The Shamrock of the Sea [A Niall Horan short fiction.]

Good evening lovely people. I haven't been able to post anything decent on here for a while, and I know many of you are still waiting for part 3 of "December, 1997" - I'll be quick on that : it's coming next week.

Meanwhile, you might or might not be interested in a little Niall thing!

I originally wrote it for a friend, but I thought It'd be nice to share. So, here it's Part 1 of The Shamrock and The Sea.

Overview: Niall is the only son of a wealthy Irish family in 1897. He sails to New York to negotiate a business on behalf of his father. But The Shamrock has a different fate for him in mind.

Facts: Harry has a part in it as well!

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24th July 1897

“Lily. For you, again.”

Her colleague had panted, throwing the umpteenth letter on her bed. She swiftly lifted up, sitting on the slender, uncomfortable mattress. Her fingers unfolded that paper, slightly wrinkly and rough. The words gathered in the middle of the page, written in a neat, clean handwriting. She noticed how the letters slightly leaned towards the right angle: the author of those verses had to have been lefthanded, she figured.

“One more? Jesus, it’s the sixth in five days.” Sarah remarked, absentmindedly tying the back of her apron.

“I know! Lily, are you sure you don’t know who sent them?” Selene asked with hands on her hips, squinting her eyes. Sarah darted at her, then turned around rolling her eyes. She did not like the questioning tone she always put out. And anyway, she was the last person in the position of questioning her colleagues, especially after Sarah had caught her sneaking out of his cabin. She twitched nervously at the mere thought.

Lily, however, failed to catch the jealousy displayed in the eyes of her best friend, still too caught up in her own thoughts to even care.

“I told you both, and a million times: I have no idea. I don’t know who sent them. Maybe…maybe it’s just a mistake.” She tried to convince herself, getting up and rubbing her palms on the wrinkly surface of her work uniform.

“Or maybe it’s a secret admirer.” Sarah winked at her with a silly face, “A secret admirer who is also a poet. Wait, maybe he is rich! Maybe it’s Lord Styles!” she battled her eyelashes, looking up with a dreamy face, before curling her lips and darting her eyes towards her friend, tapping her foot. “Are you fucking Lord Styles? You’d better not, or I’ll-”

Lily let out a puffed laugh, placing her hands on Sarah’s shoulders. She adjusted her long, silky hair, shaking her head. “I am not doing anything with Lord Styles. First off, he is way too out of our league, and second, I could never do this to you.”

They both tried to look serious but burst out in a loud laugh.

Selena looked at them from afar, hands still on her hips.

“Shut up, you are going to get us all in trouble. We’d better get to work.”

Sarah rolled her eyes again, sneaking out of her friend’s hug to follow the other girl outside.

“Yes, miss. But seriously, Lily, try to find out who this secret admirer is. Maybe one of the musicians?” she hinted.

“I think we are setting out hopes too high. For what we knew, it could be some kind of joke.”

She lowered her eyes, looking at the words inked on the paper one last time.

“You, that's what I've been missing,

Was tangled up and twisted

Now all the clouds been lifted

Lately, my heart's been so empty.”

Her heart still beat in the hope that it would be no joke.

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Dublin, 14th July 1897

HORAN, NIALL JAMES.

The name was inked on that yellowish piece of paper. He read it one last time, then raised his blue, wide eyes. Niall was still amazed at that monumental, imponent structure in front of him. His gaze run on the long, majestic right broadside of the ship. Not far away from him, the long cue on the third-class passenger’s footbridge disgorged in a chaotic mass of unhealthy-looking and dirty men, women and children, gathering upon each other, pushing and shouting phrases in Gaelic.

“Come on, son, let’s move forward.”

His father grabbed his arm, dragging him around, in the that multitude of souls, looking for some sort of salvation on that ship. “The Shamrock of The Sea”, they had called it, in the hope that it would cast the light of good luck upon those travelling on it to the new world. Niall had heard many times his father ramble about how he knew the lord who had funded the construction of the Shamrock, but he had never paid much attention to that. He had never been fond of business and funding, and he had a relative interest in the world of major buyers and sellers. He knew, though, that the trip to America would be a lifechanging path for him, and he was grateful that his father had put enough expectations on him to give him the opportunity to go and negotiate a business on his behalf. New York was waiting for him, and he was excited. Yet, much as he loved his hometown and his country, he wished he didn’t have to come back to Ireland.

“Are you sure you’re ready for this, my baby? You don’t have to do it if you don’t want to.”

His mother stopped to wipe a few tears away from her cheeks. She hadn’t stopped crying ever since they had left Mullingar a few days before. Niall found it sweet and heart-breaking at the same time. Mr. Horan senior asked two of their servants to load his son’s trunk and all his belonging up on board. The boy cupped his mother’s cheeks, looking at Maura with a half-smile.

“I’m alright, ma. I’ll do what I have to do and…I’ll be right back to you sooner that you think. Stop crying for me, will ya, ma?”

The lady smiled through her whimpers and nodded. He held her close in one last, long hug.

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18th July 1897

Niall had spent the first few days wandering around, exploring all the salons, hallways and decks he had access to. Of course, travelling as a first-class passenger had its advantages. Nobody would pay much attention to him wandering around every part of the ship. He liked to look at the other people around him though. He fancied reading and collecting the multitude of emotions displayed on everyone’s face. Most of the passengers were rich, wealthy people, happy to be there, excited about their new adventure and all the comforts that would accompany them to the new world. He could recognize them. Not only by the clear expensiveness of their clothing and shiny jewels, but also because they wore proud smiles on their lips. The men often gathered around the counter of the bar for a sip of whiskey, or they would play cards, setting their bets higher and higher each time. Niall liked to play bets with himself, too. For example, he enjoyed betting on who would have lost at least half of their fortune before even getting to America. One of his favourites to bet on was Lord Styles. He was rich, extremely rich, apparently. And he would walk around the salons with a proud smile on his lips and, very often, more than one woman behind him. He had heard stories about him: he was, apparently, the most coveted bachelor of the whole Cheshire county. And nobody knew why. Niall liked to take the piss out of him, and he didn’t like him very much.

Sometimes, he liked to wander along the lower decks of the ship, and once he had even reached the stern, where the third-class passengers where hoarded. In was different, down there. Hidden in their cheap cabins, mother would try to soften the cry of their many children, shrieking out of fear and hunger. Some young men would whimper, facing the parapet running along the back deck, looking back and thinking about the mother and lovers they had left behind. Niall wondered which storied they carried along. He wanted to ask, sometimes. But he knew the wound of leaving their motherland behind was still too fresh, and scars were still wide open and too delicate.

His trip from Mullingar to Dublin had been long and exhausting, and over the past few nights he still hadn’t been able to adjust to his new bed, losing more sleep than he should have. His sunken eyes and his slightly unshaved face made him look older than he actually was, and he knew he needed some rest. After all, it would be a long trip to New York, and most of the times he preferred staying up at night to write or play his beloved fiddle. So, after lunch he found his way through the decks and staircases, to the cabin 402. He let his gaze travel up to the golden number on the black wooden door, then opened it, still holding the case of his fiddle in one hand. He rarely left it behind and found some kind of comfort in carrying it around with him.

The girl in the room flinched, then turned around as the key clicked in the lock. Niall stepped in, and there she was. She had dark, brown hair, which were thin and shiny. He couldn’t see her eyes, though. He put his fiddle on the freshly made bed, furrowing his thick, ash-blond eyebrows as he slowly walked towards her.

“Good afternoon, Sir. My apologies, I was just bringing fresh towels for you.”

She performed a quick, small bow in front of him. Then, she left with a fleeting glance. Niall noticed how her big brown eyes had rested upon his face for a little longer, before she stormed out of the cabin. He felt his throat go dry for a couple seconds, standing like frozen on the spot. He was normally not an impulsive man, usually very calm and thoughtful. But there was no hesitation in his steps, which led him out of that cabin, after grabbing the pile of white towels she had just left inside. His deep, blue irises squinted, looking around the corridor till he spotted her.

“Excuse me?” he called.

The brown-eyed girl turned around in his direction, still holding one hand on the handle of the wooden trolley she was pushing around on the mahogany wooden floor.

Niall straightened his back as he walked towards her in long strides. There they were face to face again. Now he could see. She looked younger than him, a couple years maybe, he guessed. Her cheeks were slightly flushed, and she carried no ring on her left hand.

“Yes, sir?” she patiently said, bringing Niall back to reality. She was staring at him, now. He had wide, deep, baby-blue eyes. His hair, she thought, resembled a dense honeypot, fluffy and perfectly combed. His cheeks were slightly puffy, making him look younger than he actually was, in contrast with the shallow shade of beard. He had thin lips, and a lovely dimple rested beneath his chin.

“Aye, I…I need to have my towels changed.” He demanded. Then mentally cursed himself.

She furrowed her brows in confusion, taking one step back.

“My apologies, Sir, but I brought laundry-fresh ones no more than one minute ago.”

Niall tapped his foot on the floor, following an irregular rhythm.

“I know, I saw you. I just don’t think they are clean and fresh enough.” He stated, handing her the pile of cloths.

She slightly parted her lips, but bit her tongue right after, taking a new pile from the trolley.

“As you command, sir.” She answered, handing the fresher towels to the man, never breaking eye contact, till she once again bowed before him and went back her own way.

“Many thanks, miss…”

His eyes were quick enough to shoot a glance at the silver name badge on her chest. He stood there, watching her walk away, holding the new towels in his right hand, before heading back to cabin number 402. He locked the door, frantically opening his large, black trunk, searching for ink and paper. Niall sat on the floor, writing her name on that page. Lily.

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Same anon as before x) I've started to reread the DC version book 1. I also stopped to compare the changes from the original website version. Was there a reasoning behind why you decided to cut out a lot of Hsin's interaction with the bar owner Jessica? Like his mutual physical interest in her and the kiss ect? Was it influenced in any way by fan opinions?

Hi again! <3 + :D

This is where I was like “Oh I bet I misunderstood that other question” lol Sorry again about that if I did, or sorry again if I didn’t and thought I did XD

Ok so for the purposes of lessening confusion (and yes, I am aware I am the sole reason it became so confusing haha) I’m going to take “original website version” to reference what we currently call “Original Evenfall” aka the pdf/ebook you can download for free at aisylum.com/project/icos. That is in comparison to the “edited” version aka Director’s Cut aka DC. So when I say original/DC that’s what I’m referencing. Hope that helps/isn’t confusing and makes sense.

With the whole DC edit, full disclosure: the whole reason that came about was 1) we felt like there were parts of the first book especially that definitely needed a lot of editing to flow better and make sense, but also 2) we had been discussing how it would be cool to eventually get them printed in book format somehow for physical copies. 

We agreed on this; what we had different views on was how to go about it. Me being wordy ass me, I thought we should just edit/add/whatever as made sense for the story, and pay zero attention to the word count itself. “Sonny” specifically went into it wanting us to cut a percentage of the word count in order to make it more of a “normal” sized book, which should help with physical publishing and maybe getting new readers, etc. I forget what ‘his’ goal was - I think the goal was to cut 33% of the word count out or something? 25%? I just remember I thought it was way too large a percentage because I’m wordy af lol

Anyway we split the book in half more or less and each of us was responsible for trying to cut things down as much as possible while maintaining the story etc. I ended up having most of Monterrey because I wanted to update Jorge and all that. But because of the way the story is written, things changed in the early part of the book would affect the way things were done in the later half of the book.

From what I recall, we both felt the Jessica parts were a bit over-dramatic at times and maybe detracted from the story. Or maybe it’s more accurate to say that when we had the book in context of the rest of DC editing, the way Jessica was handled stood out too much if it remained the Original Evenfall way in the midst of the DC editing. So that ended up getting changed a decent amount. I honestly can’t remember who changed it but it doesn’t really matter since ultimately no matter what one person changed, the other had to agree it was okay or they were okay enough with that change before we published it.

I think at the time we were trying to make things flow better, which meant lessening some of the drama which also affected a bit how Hsin interacted with people and how Boyd responded to those interactions. It’s possible that was the right choice, I don’t know.

But in retrospect, I’m not sure that the change did any favors for Boyd. His story always was very specifically built piece by piece to show why he reacts how he does at different points in the story. He was hella insecure and full of self-doubt and jealous and just emotional in general over the whole Jessica thing because of the way that was first written, and that built into why he does or doesn’t do certain things not only in the rest of Evenfall, but also into Afterimage and even Interludes. 

We were initially thinking that after we did Evenfall DC we would DC the rest of the books, so the thinking was we could smooth out some of those things in later books. But since those DC versions never happened, it just ends up making Boyd seem particularly melodramatic at times in later scenes, if a person hasn’t read the original and only read DC. Which then I think led into the way some readers viewed everything going on especially in Afterimage and Interludes. By the time Fade rolls around, it ends up mostly evening out and being pretty consistent across the board in how readers view things, but I think some of those changes in DC ended up being detrimental to the flow of the story in the context of only having one DC book instead of all 4 DC books flowing together using the same points of reference and building off those.

So, generally - we probably changed Jessica thinking that it made more sense at that time in context of the way the rest of the scenes were written, but that wasn’t thinking in terms of being in context of the way everything was written in later books. So now some things Hsin does or thinks later, or Boyd does or thinks later, or even other people do/think later, seem more melodramatic or odd than they need to be. I think we thought we were doing a good job of keeping the key points needed, and generally we did in terms of plot - like, Jessica As A Possible Rival is still a thing, but it’s less imminent of a feeling because Hsin’s reactions aren’t as intense or whatever as they had been the first time, which is like a little ripple going down the line affecting other things we didn’t realize.

In the end, I’m still glad we made the DC version - it’s super fun having a physical copy, and there are some parts of that version I like a lot, that didn’t show in the original version. New scenes we wrote, or characters we got to expand on. But because “Sonny” had gone into it specifically wanting a specific amount of words cut, we did also cut some scenes out in order to more meet that goal, or adjust the way some scenes were written. And then on top of that, just editing anything will affect the way other stuff is written in that book. Since Boyd especially as a narrator/person is so much built on cause and effect, action and consequence, I tried to keep the spirit of that intact in the DC version but I think I failed in some parts and didn’t realize it at the time or just was so tired of editing I was like “Fuck it; let’s just go with this... It will never be perfect, so this can be good enough.”

By the way, I’m not blaming “Sonny” for this or anything - I’m just mentioning the whole word count thing because it was a thing we didn’t really agree on, but it ended up becoming the shared goal because it was the easiest way to move forward, and because I thought maybe there was enough repetition in the narration it would end up being a moot point. I was all for editing and cutting out unnecessary stuff, I just got hung up on the idea of having to meet a quota for it. I just didn’t want that to be part of the goal; I just wanted the goal to be improving the story as a whole. 

But on the other hand, because we had that specific goal, we may have gone about editing a bit differently, like writing new scenes that combined plot points from other disparate scenes. And I like some of those new scenes a lot. So it probably works out in the end, it just means there’s a lot of give and take when comparing the two versions. 

Ultimately, it probably makes sense for someone who likes the series to read both versions, if they are up to it, to really get an idea of everything that was written as happening in canon, even though that canon at times is a bit opposed to each other between versions.

Which is probably a super confusing way of going about things and no doubt is a super confusing answer - but hopefully it made sense in some form ^^;

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[cinnamonrollcipher]

Hello! I'm really impressed with your link/Gerudo cosplay! Did you make it yourself, or do you know of anywhere to buy it? I've tried looking online, but no luck! (I was hoping to dress up for Halloween)

Hello! Sorry this took me awhile to get to but I saw thisask and thought I could turn it into a little tutorial of sorts? Anyway, justin case you or anyone else is planning on making this costume I thought I couldexplain my process a little bit and let you guys know what mistakes I made soyou won’t make them too. Because at this point a few of the pieces from mycosplay need to be remade for comfort and functionality reasons. Not going tolie, this cosplay is a lot of work, especially for someone like me who has verylimited sewing skills (this is only my second sewn cosplay), but its superrewarding. Alright, this is going to be long so buckle up. Let’s start!

First off, the pants. This is probably the easiest part tomake because it is the only piece that I didn’t have to draft a pattern for.Just look around for harem pants patterns and find one that matches the shape ofLink’s. Personally I used the US-Erna pattern from firstloungeberlin on Etsy (avery nice pattern, it has pockets!)

Next the shirt. Make sure to have some sort of stretchfabric for this, like stretch cotton or jersey. Otherwise the shirt will notlay flat like it’s supposed to. I made this mistake and had to go out and buy morefabric which was annoying haha. Anyways, as for the pattern, it’s basically a slightlyaltered halter style crop top. I watched a few DIY crop top videos on YouTubethen used a tank top to draft a basic pattern. The shirt will have to bedecently tight in order to lay flat (which is why I put a zipper in the back tomake it easier to put on). Also for those of us with breasts, I recommenddoubling the fabric up so it’s less see through. My shirt is two layers and itworked great. Personally, when I remake the shirt I’m going to use bias tape tofinish the edges for a cleaner look but you can finish them however you like.

Once the shirt is pieced together it’s time to paint it (theruffles at the bottom of the shirt were added after painting). This was one ofmy biggest mistakes. I was cheap and used acrylic paint. Don’t do that. It endsup being stiff and took all the stretch out of my fabric, meaning I had to addan extra panel in the back to make it fit. Now, I recently found out there is aproduct that can be mixed with paint to make it flexible like fabric paintafter blasting it with heat. But I have never used it so I don’t know if itactually works, so if you can use fabric paint. I freehanded the paint becausestretchy fabric is hard to draw guides on but if you need to you could makestencils probably. Also be sure to put something underneath the shirt like apiece of paper to soak up the paint that seeps through the fabric. You willneed several coats depending on the type of paint you use. Another mistake Imade at this point was using craft foam for the gold detail thingy in the centerof the shirt. It ended up bending a lot because of where it is on the shirt andit honesty isn’t super sturdy. I would recommend just painting this detail.

For the neck piece I used a synthetic metallic like band…..stuff.I’m not sure what it’s called haha. Anyway, my advice here is if you use a verysynthetic material like this: use super glue. Because hot glue just won’t stickto it.

Next is the arm pieces. So I used the metallic stuff for theactually bands and added Velcro to secure them around my arms. This works finebut it may be a bit easier to use a wide stretchy ribbon type fabric instead,just so it clings to the arm better. I just couldn’t find anything like thatthat looked right so I went the Velcro route. It works well enough. Now I useda sheer fabric for my arm pieces. This means I finished the edges with fraycheck, which honestly makes them a bit itchy, so I recommend covering the areainside the band where the fabric and band are attached together with morefabric. Just to protect your skin from irritation. I drafted the pattern forthe arm pieces myself which is pretty easy, just measure the length of your armand its circumference. Then add in the little gaps at each end. Before sewingthe fabric into its tube shape I painted it. Fun fact: sheer fabric is a painin the ass to paint. It cannot be touching anything, like at all. I had tobasically suspend it and paint it. Same for the face veil.

Next was the head piece. I drafted the pattern for this aswell and it’s a tad hard to explain without pictures. Basically it was roundedat the top then went straight down then into a point at the bottom. Now thiswill not fit your head right away. You need to take the fabric at the top andon either side of the head, gather a small dart of fabric and sew it down. Thiswill force the top of the veil to take a circular shape and thus fit your head.I then hot glued 3 extension clips to the inside of the veil so it would stayon my head.

Finally came the belts. Okay, real talk. I messed these upbad. So I won’t be explaining my process for these. I should have used muchthicker fabric for them and I didn’t make them long enough to fully wrap aroundme.

Okay so that’s about it. If you have any other questionsfeel free to drop me an ask! Sorry if some of this didn’t make sense.