#anyway idk where that rant came from im sorry

[ace-the-fox]

Even more dad Kira and Haruka:

https://vt.tiktok.com/ZSLsvf4jH/

LMAO

Not Kira/Gabriel and the cupid shuffle 😭

#jjba #jjba oc #haruka kira #yoshikage kira #may be an unpopular opinion but i only saw a few episodes of miraculous #but adrien was so much more interesting than the actual protagonist #im sorry marienette but i don't care about you 💀 #also idk if this ever was proved #but i was never into shipping Marienette (def spelling that wrong) and Adrien #bc it always seemed like she was more into the image Adrien felt forced into than Adrien himself #you feel me? #anyways sorry for the random rant #idk where this all came from lol

[youareinlovetv]

so i have a best friend who ive known for 10 ish years at this point. we’ll call them A. A is really close to me. we’re both lgbtq+ which means we can talk about that kind of stuff and not feel unsafe. i would trust them with my life. i would trust them with any secret.

but a couple months ago (im only just remembering to post this now) we were on an overnight school trip. A brought a pride flag in their bag, one of those big ones you can get from like Tiger or idk where else. that’s great, you know. cool. brought it with them everywhere they went. also cool. good for them for being proud and confident in their identity.

but later i was assigned to be in a dorm with A, and they hung up their pride flag over the wardrobe. it’s a huge pride flag. you had to take it off the wardrobe to open it. and later in the evening some girls we dont like or know very well came into our room. not being rude or anything. just there. when they saw the pride flag they left, after giving me and A some weird looks. some teachers also came in, just to check on us later in the evening, and saw the pride flag. they didn’t say anything, but i didn’t know these teachers well and i don’t want them to know that im lgbtq+. i know i didn’t specify that the pride flag applied to ME, but people are going to assume things whatever you do.

A is still a really good friend, but i can’t get over how they effectively outed me without my permission. i took the pride flag down overnight and put it away. i’m sure A would understand. i don’t want a pride flag in my room for everyone who walks past to see.

lgbtq+ don’t want to be outed by you! it’s not your thing to tell people!!! don’t wait for them to ask you to not out them! it’s none of your business!!! what if they don’t want people to know!!! what if they’re unsafe!!! i know A is also lgbtq+, but in a way it hurt more that they weren’t respecting my privacy with my identity.

anyway rant over sorry abt that ily <3

#lgbtq+ #lgbtqia + community #gay #lesbian #bisexual #genderqueer #respect identity

[bellacatt-art]

Right, okay so.... I watched Day of the Doctor for the first time ever (yes, I'm quite new to Doctor Who and I never really got to watch this special all the way through until now BUT - )

I'm gonna start rambling for a bit, so really sorry about that but OHH MY GOD I LOVED IT SM!!!! >.< Imo, considering it was a 50th anniversary special, it really delivered on that, it was so entertaining and fun! I loved all the little jokes, the fun references and the expansion on the Time War, it was just *chefs kiss* :3

I loved the War Doctor too, he was really intriguing to me!

I remember before I watched this, I never fully knew why he wasn't counted with the other doctors (yk, like how we have Third Doctor, Eighth Doctor, etc), but I get it now, I understand 😅👍

It was also really sad how the Doctor sort of distanced themself from that regeneration because they hated being reminded of the Time War, like that was really sad ngl :"(

Again, I'm not like majorly attached to War Doctor because we don't have much material to go off tbh, but I still like him a lot, he's a cool guy!

And OMFG THE FRIENDSHIP DYNAMIC BETWEEN TEN AND ELEVEN, I QKDNWJDJSJND 😆😭💗

They're so silly, I loved watching these two interact with each other!! 🤧💞

David Tennant and Matt Smith are so funny together, I genuinely wish we could've gotten more of them two together, like at least another special or mini episode with them two, I would've loved that! 🥺

And okay, PLEASE JUST,,, LET ME RAMBLE ABOUT THIS BC IM SO NOT NORMAL LIKE OMFG 😭😭🤧🤧

When the Doctor's came back to save Gallifrey, I qksnwndnqkdnjs 😆

Like, I already love any sort of multi-Doctor story where they get to meet each other, but when they ALL LINED UP, I 🥺💞💞

Idk idk man, it made my autistic brain very happy for some reason, like okay this is gonna sound weird but like

They were all lined up in EXACTLY the order I would've put them in if I could've lined them up myself!! idk why but the order they stood in?? It made me so stupidly happy 😭🤧

And aaaaa, the Four cameo at the end??? Hello??? That was adorable!! 🤧🥺

I'm sorry, but Four and Eleven are two of my favourite Doctors and them just talking together made me so happy ☆☆

I have a lot of respect for Tom Baker, he's done so much for the DW community, and I love him a lot ^^

Eeeee okay!! That's the end of my huge ramble!

Sorry about that, it probably WILL happen again! >:3

Ik this episode came out a decade ago now so it's probably old news or smth, but I just needed to ramble! I'm autistic and I love a good ramble hehehe :))

I knew I was going to love Day of the Doctor already but I didn't predict I would love it *that* much like omgg 🥲 my mum was sat on the couch next to me when I was watching it (she was doing her work at the time) and I kept going "OH MY GOD, MUM!! LOOK AT THIS!!" :D

Like, idk I just love finding joy in things and expressing my true authentic self, I love it I love it!!

Anyways, if anyone's seen Day Of The Doctor, please tell me your thoughts! Feel free to comment and tell me, like I'm genuinely curious, and I'm always up for a discussion about things I like!!

Okay, that's the end of Bella's rant of the day! ^-^

#doctor who #day of the doctor #discussion #eleventh doctor #tenth doctor #war doctor #dw 50th #autistic rambling #hehe :3

[delulu-with-wandanat]

I am sad and disheartened even though it's about a fictional character, I needed someone to share it with who can understand, I was roaming around the internet, reading stuff about Natasha. I have seen a lot of stuff mocking nat, her abilities, her usability, tweets joking about her guns against aliens ( how wrong), her running around whilst the other avengers are "flying",... Not to forget, the ones resuming her only by her titties and ass, then there was a tweet by a WANDA( WOMAN)Stan saying she would have been a run through, cum dumpster if the MCU was ok with sex scenes & the truly sad part is how everyone was laughing at that. It's sad to see that Natasha not only had been done dirty by marvel but also the audience.

The funny part is a lot of people believe that yelena is a better character than nat, of course she would be, no one let nat to be more than an ass and titties as if though the whole screentime she got in the MCU was just a steamy photo session. I got a lot to say about the sexualization part I don't know how to put it in words, it's a lot

OMG- please you can rant to be abt it all the time please. I’ve been ranting about this for DAYSSSS IM SO GLAD SOMEONE ELSE FELT THE SAME.

First of its sad (yet not surprising) that a Wanda stan said that. They always let down other women in order to bring her up. That’s why there was a phase where i hated Wanda because of her fans (dont come at me ok seriously on tiktok they wont stfu).

Literally the coolest thing about Nat is the fact that she has no powers but get shit done, A LOT. Everyone has their preferences, but literally how can you not see how cool she is?!!

Natasha Romanoff, no powers but will not hesitate to charge into battles with other superheroes. Homegirl only had one, let me emphasize this ONE parachute yet mf just jumped from THOUSANDS of feet in the air. Knowing she could’ve died but she’s such a pure soul so she did so without any second thought. HOW ARE U NOT IN LOVE WITH HER ALREADY?!!

I truly trullyyy do love Natasha, she’s a fictional character, but omg she’s like so cool and everything. But like u said she was done so dirty by Marvel and the audience. (which is why i like to say, ppl who love Natasha is literally the coolest ppl ever. I aint joking, other superheroes are easy to like, but natasha is for legends only)

Im very sad for Scarlett too, the way she got overly sexualized especially in the early days of the MCU. Then when she finally got her solo movie, her character got thrown off a cliff BEFORE HER SOLO MOVIE CAME OUT and ppl constantly said Yelena stole the movie. Look i love Yelena, but this aint about her. Please, let Nat have one thing, but she really can’t can’t she?? Literally have some more respect for Scarlett.

And another cool thing about Nat is the fact that she kept her heart even after all the traumatic childhood she went through as a child. People love to say Wanda had the saddest life, but so did Nat. We all know what the red room is basically mirroring in real life, marvel won’t say it but we know what it is. They both have sad traumatic past, but Natasha kept her heart. And after going through all of that?!!! I dont know how one could but here she is!!!

She was taken as a child, put in a mission where she had a taste of what a normal life would be, ripped away from her and had to be put in the red room again. Found a family with the avengers yet they never seemed to care much abt her don’t they? Found her sister but then her sister was snapped, and then had to lead the Avengers for 5 years because idk wtf the others were doing. AND THEN SHE DIED WTF MARVEL WTFFF?!

Anyway im so sorry, i could rant about this all day. God i love her sm you don’t understand 🥲🥲

#vlake answers #vlake rants #vlake is Natasha’s number one supporter #i will defend natasha romanoff til my dying breath #natasha romanoff

[lljdnh]

- changes

pairing: mark lee x f!reader

warnings: this story revolves around the reader having a restrictive eating disorder. if this triggers you in anyway, please do not read!! i write to help vent and materialize my feelings into words and this is just what im dealing with. there is some argument and language!!!!!

genre: angst, fluff, idk lol

note: def not proof read for edits and this is probably ass but it is what it is lol. im sorry if any of yall are dealing with this shit too. it sucks. also b/f/n means best friend’s name.

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whichever disordered bitch said to romanticize not eating obviously never had the (dis)pleasure of being sat in front of your best friend and boyfriend, having to defend yourself against their concerns and grievances.

had you been looking at them, you would’ve noticed [b/f/n]’s tense expression - eyebrows knitted, deep breathes through the nose - and mark fidgeting anxiously as he remained seated across from you in the living room. instead, your eyes fixated on the texture of the couch you were seated on, praying to every god that you could melt into the ground to never be seen again.

[b/f/n] continued to talk at you - though you only caught half of what she said… you’re ruining yourself… you’ve changed… where did my best friend go? and though you knew it was out of concern and anxiety, her shaky voice and harsh words stunned you. there was only so much you could take.

“are you done yet?”

your best friend paused her rant upon hearing your voice for the first time since you all sat down. “what was that?”

you cleared your throat, mustering up the courage to look at her blankly. “i said, are you done yet?”

eyes widening, she scoffed in disbelief.

“are you serious? am i done yet? you’re fucking torturing yourself and you expect me to sit around and watch it happen?”

“im literally fine; what’s it to you anyway?” your voice began to raise in anger.

mark sat watching the exchange escalate, unsure of how to respond. his eyes traveled back and forth between the two of you, his girlfriend and her best friend who came to him for support and advice about confronting you.

she gave a sarcastic laugh. “what’s it to me? im your best friend, [y/n]. we’ve been friends for years now and you expect me to not care? i feel bad suggesting we go out for dinner because i know you’ll be stressing over what to order. you’re distracted all the time. you’re tired. we hardly do anything together anymore. and i know it’s not about me but god.. is it so wrong to miss my best friend?” her anger slowly dissipated into desperation as she struggled to maintain a level voice and hold her tears in. you looked towards mark blankly and made eye contact with him, seeing the exasperation and upset in his face.

“we just want to help.” you heard him say softly.

it was your turn to scoff. “is this some ploy to make me out to be some freak or crazy person? i told you im fine - okay, maybe a bit stressed but who fucking isnt? i cant believe you two would just talk behind my back and make assumptions - are you implying i have an eating disorder? what the fuck?” you gave a dry laugh. you knew you were being irrational, but what else were you to do? you knew you had a problem, but why would anyone want to admit that in front of the two people they held dearest in their life?

moments pass before the front door to your shared apartment slammed as you watched [b/f/n] storm out with her bag, likely to clear her head. you stared at your lap, unsure of what to say. instead, you focused on catching your breath and calming your racing heart. the anxiety that had overtaken you manifested itself as a cold that enveloped you, delivering a shiver in response.

your head shoots up at the sound of mark’s voice. “do you really think she came to me worried about her best friend because she wanted to sabotage you somehow?” and while his question seemed accusatory, his voice conveyed nothing but genuine concern and care. he looked at you sincerely, leg bouncing up and down in anticipation.

“i-fuck.” you responded breathlessly, running a hand through your hair anxiously. mark stands from his position on the couch opposite and moves to sit next to you, but not before you stand yourself and take a step back. he blinks at you. “i’ve obviously been a nuisance in your lives and thats the last thing i ever wanted… i think its best if i just..” you trailed off.

“best if you what?”

you bit your lip, doing everything in your power to hold your tears in. “you deserve some space away. i shouldnt be causing all of this stress and maybe… maybe some time apart would be good for you. for you both.”

“baby what are you saying? don’t be like that.” he reached out to you, pulling you into his arms and holding your body securely against his own. leaning down to place small kisses on the crown of your head, he felt your body begin to shake as you succumbed to your tears and anguish.

“im so, so sorry. it wasnt ever supposed to get this bad; i- i dont know what to do mark.. i feel so stuck.” you cried powerlessly. he rubbed your back soothingly as he watched you let yourself go.

mark, with his soft character and tender heart, found it difficult to maintain his composure when you had finally let yourself be so vulnerable in his presence. though he hated to admit it, he had anticipated this exact scene happening months ago when your friend had first expressed her concerns about your worsening eating and food anxiety. and though they agreed to remain passive, hoping by some chance that you wouldn’t fall any worse, your recent state had worried them far too much for comfort.

as you pulled away slightly to look up at him after a couple deep breaths, you noticed the few stray tears that trailed down his solemn face. you gave him a small smile and wiped his eyes.

“shhh… don’t cry; you’ll make me cry.” you laughed softly with tears lining your waterline. he shook his head lightly, sniffling. you continued, “i’ll be okay. give me time. i’m sorry i was an asshole earlier.”

“it was a high pressure situation. i dont blame you.” he breathed. you hang your head, head resting against his chest as you played with his fingers that was holding your own. “though i do think you owe [b/f/n] an apology. as she does to you. she was worried sick.”

you sighed, “yeah. i’ll call her now.”

you pulled away to grab a tissue, wiping your nose and shakily ringing her phone. after a heartfelt apology (on both sides) and perhaps a couple more tears shed, you both settled your guilt and hung up.

upon tossing your phone on the couch, you realized mark had likely disappeared into your bedroom. you move slowly to your room, seeing him seated on the edge of your bed, fidgeting with his fingers.

you sat next to him, the bed sinking slightly to lean you two slightly closer to each other. you laid down on your back, pulling him back with you to enjoy the view that was your white ceiling.

“may i ask why?”

you took a deep breath and held your stare at the ceiling.

“its always been like this mark. since i was in middle school and getting comments from family and classmates about my body. sometimes it just gets worse than usual.” you shrugged.

“im sorry.”

“why are you apologizing? it’s no one’s fault but my own.” you turned to him slightly, brushing away the hair that fell in front of his eyes. you gave him a small smile despite his consistent gaze looking upward.

“is there anything i can do to help?”

“ah-” you paused. “i wish i knew. i dont know how to undo nearly a decade of disordered eating and tormenting thoughts about my body.”

“does your therapist know? how has that been going?” he continued to ask sincerely.

you sighed, “i dont think ive been completely honest with her. maybe ill start there.”

“maybe that'll help.” he replied, turning on his side and propping himself up with his arm.

he looked down at you and smiled, leaning in to press a sweet kiss to your lips. you attempted to sit up without breaking the kiss but to no avail, giggling in response. your hands moved to run through his hair, as you reconnected, lips moving in sync desperately as he held your body close to his.

breathlessly - and with reddened lips - you pull away slowly. “i love you. i think i need a nap.”

“i love you too baby.” he adjusted himself so he was laying the right way on your bed, you following.

for the next 2 minutes as you settled down, rethinking all that went down, you closed your eyes and maintained silence as he did the same.

of course, no one can say for certain when or how recovery starts or happens. if it was a step by step guide, it would be so much easier to break free from the grasp of restriction, worried family and friends, guilt, and consequential fatigue. you and mark both knew this.

but knowing there was always someone there to watch you in concern, genuinely worried about your health and wellbeing helped to ease your heart just a degree more. and just knowing that would help you moving forward in the future.

#mark x reader #mark lee x reader #nct x reader #nct angst #mark angst #mark lee angst #nct dream angst #nct fluff #mark lee fluff #nct dream x reader #mark fluff #nct oneshot #nct imagine #mark lee oneshot

[notdeezy]

Istg these ideas are just coming at me rapid fire I'm sorry 💀

Anywho, Im gonna have to ask you to bare with me on this one. It's more of a fic prompt than anything, but I still think it's a cool idea.

AU for Injustice where, instead of Hal becoming a Yellow Lantern and Barry siding with Clark, Hal is called back to Oa (alongside the other Green Lanterns on Earth)

Barry meanwhile tries to lay low with Wally in Central, effectively leaving the League and keeping to himself in his home city. He's still the Flash and does his job, but doesn't leave Central City.

One day though, Clark comes into town and does one of his speeches, ultimately actually turnig Central City against the Flash.

Both this and Hal's orders coming in happen at around the same time. So, he takes Barry and Wally with him to Oa. I'd say this would be decision backed by Bruce? Idk. It's hard to think about, especially with Barry's dedication to Central City, but with enough push from the ppl being against him, I can see it happening.

Anyways, here's where things get wild.

After arriving on Oa and getting his sector reassigned, we find out that Hal is to be in charge of the planet where the events of Slime Rancher take place.

Long story short, the fic would br exploring the 4-5 years Hal and Barry spend on Far, Far Range with Barry & Wally ranching slimes and Hal monitoring the sector.

Throw in some retrosepctive thoughts, lore from the game (slime rancher), some moments of fluff where Hal visits Wally & Barry after a mission, a couple other spicy things, and I think it's a really cool premise

Ok Im done ranting now byeeee

I am not sorry at all but I literally know NOTHING about slime rancher and this is what came to my head when I read the sentence involving the words "barry and hal slime rancher" and poorly scribbled this on my phone while the rdr2 house building song repeatedly played in my head now live with it

Also Wally is like 10 here for no reason but who cares this image feels like a scuffed, cursed version of the infamous little house on the prairie halbarry au fanfic anyway

#deezy answers #today has been miserable so this has helped making me feel a bit better #halbarry #not tagging anything more

[newathens]

oh my god, you’re the first person I’ve seen say anything negative about Will (idk how popular Will actually is bc I’m not super involved in the fandom despite loving pjo more than anything bc I kinda hate it there) but thank you, I thought I was alone in my mild dislike/apathy towards him!

Nico is one of my favorite characters from pjo and I want to be excited for the new book so bad but I can’t help but be worried that the Will and Nico relationship is gonna end up being like a main focus, and I just cannot bring myself to care about it bc I do not care about Will

I feel like this is part of a larger problem that Rick has where he seems to think that every character needs a romantic interest no matter how shallow or rushed the connection they have is, this is especially prevalent in hoo imo (one of the many reasons why I think it’s the worst series of the group) which is where Nico and Will as a couple are first set up

If Rick had bothered to give them even a little bit of build up for their relationship then maybe I would like them more but he didn’t, he just threw them together, gave them a couple of cute (ig) scenes together and then suddenly they’re dating, which doesn’t even make sense for Nico’s character imo, also this is just a personal thing ig but I really do not think they’re personalities go well together or that Nico would actually like Will all that much but idk

Anyway sorry for the rant I’ve just never been able to get these feelings out before lol

don’t apologize! im glad to be able to give u a response haha

dislike for will was a lot more prevalent a few years ago. time and fall in popularity of pjo on here got rid of that; also i think pjo twt has some weird obsession with him. you’re not alone in your dislike! his fan service-ness radiates off him in waves. when BoO came out i was shocked hearing about them becoming a thing. it never made sense and many of the scenes i’ve come across between them in that book feels forced.

their relationship in trials of apollo is a bit better but that’s only cause riordan has more time to develop them; there are still many points in ToA that feel weird or cringe-ish. to me at least will comes off as a mama bear, in a bad way. i’d say this is because nico seems to be handled more childishly by the author than he did in pjato and will happens to be the conveyor of that.

will could have been given some substance by having a more present role in apollo’s storyline, but unfortunately that didn’t happen.

i could keep going on and on but everything you’ve said is absolutely right and i understand your feelings in concern to the nico book. i’d say go into it looking for things you enjoy and always hold out the hope to be pleasantly surprised. we really don’t know what this book is going to hold anymore—personally im hoping for a titan vs titan fight!

#pjo

[cozymochi]

im so sorry people are being assholes in the comments of ur iz animatics :((( they bring such joy and are so well done!! forever grateful that you share you art <3 even if you decide to take them down i just wanted to let you know that you are appreciated <3<3<3 hoping your day goes well and you find small unexpected delights

I don’t plan on taking them down. That carnal part of me gets a lil’ joy when I still see nice comments anyway. It’s only been a year, but I still get comments! So that’s crazy.

BUT!!

Another fear I do have is the response if I do post again, and it’s completely different than what those 2.4k subs are expecting to see. I’ve already warned about it literally a year in advance, and then again very recently in multiple places. Idk why I SHOULD be uneased by it, but it’s not like IZ fans are quiet when it comes to their distaste when something changes. *cough.* It’s part of why I’ve distanced myself from that fandom (there’s a myriad of reasons but still).

Insanity incoming:

I don’t have immediate plans to make more animatics, they’re kind of long term thing to consider. Back when I used to make them I had NOTHING but free time and my biggest concern was feeding myself cuz my home environment was horrid and I had zero means of leaving since I lived in bum fuck nowhere! Since my last yt upload I moved out, was in a car wreck (not even 2 days in), my own car went through thousands of dollars in repairs, i got a job, went through a period where I worked nearly 100hrs for several months consecutively with hardly any breaks, and to think! It wasn’t and it’s still not sustainable. Things changed. And I do not want to go “home.” After being forced to visit family again a month ago I especially don’t want to go back.

The channel was literally a dumping ground. I got those 2k subs when I wasn’t posting for a year. So! You can imagine I might not be prioritizing a channel I only used as a dumping ground or in a state to make fully or even barely boarded videos and shitposts weekly or monthly. Idk what these people want from me schedule wise. I make $0 from it, and monetizing for a few cents isn’t worth it. I didn’t even get paid when I made thumbnails and assets for bigger channels lmfao. Yeah, I did do that. Wouldn’t know tho. Paid in “exposure” hurr hurr or “omg i need that money myself XDD cmon” whatever backwards excuse.

So what’s next in line but a bunch of strangers with fickle attention being passive aggressive and demanding I make more stuff when I say multiple times that I don’t intend to, and if I do (big if) it WON’T be what they came here for. They aren’t paying me. It’s not like I have a gajillion other things to be concerned about.

…Okay, that was a tangent.

Those few condescending comments make me just wanna outright cancel what iz stuff was left on the backburner. It was more like an indefinite hiatus until I can stomach finishing them. The files take up space anyway for the projects I’m actually interested in. Even if all of them are purely hypotheticals until I can get my focus together (which isn’t likely to happen anytime soon).

sorry about the TMI rant for a second but!! MAN!! It’s frustrating! If anything I could very well take them down. But, I won’t. Besides, for all I know some tiktok took some and it’s getting an exponentially higher amount of views anyway. I should at least keep mine…

It’s not like i don’t WANT to use it for actual new things, but the sheer pressure keeps me away. I get enough pressure to make animatics offline as it is. And if someone out there is gonna be all like “well who cares what those kids think” believe me, I get it and I promise don’t care. But at the same time it’s egghhhhhh. I delete the comments anyway.… however that doesn’t mean they still won’t bug me.

Considering all of the above it’s a miracle I don’t just take them down.

#cozy ask #Any of the condescending comments I just delete anyway. #i dont have the chops to be a ‘content creator’ or whatever robotic term people use nowadays #im not a content creator! #i just make shit then pin it on the fridge #i promise the annoying remarks are few and far between. its mostly just quoting the video or nice stuff #I dont even read them often. i just check if im bored or on accident

[xiaowhore]

okay. okay. so i cannot . function . i lied im gonna rant about it now

//luke personal story 4 spoilers utc

i am Devastated. luke pearce is so. he is so much. this route is too much. i havent played through the other ps4 routes yet but i am fairly certain nothing could ever top this. luke has ruined me for anyone else. how am i supposed to go for the other boys nOW?!?!?!??! i can't. the entire time, ill be like This Is Wrong. This Doesn't Feel Right. My Heart Does Not Beat For You

first, i gotta praise the case: the story about the hidaka sisters was really good, especially for a personal story. i did not think they'd put this much effort on it?? it was really dark and holy fuck, nami's voice actor popped off. she sounded really fragile and- im gonna sound weird for saying this, but her screams were voiced really well. like Man. it made me feel so sorry for her.

mc was SO AMAZING in the last few parts of the chapter. she is so?? brave?? perfect?? heroic?????? I'D fall for her too!!!!!! she was crying but she still went by her own to save nami even though there was a low chance of survival 😭😭 luke is a worrywart for good reason!! mc worries about luke injuring himself but she's equally as bad when sacrificing herself for others!!! (dunno how the other choice went, but i picked the one where she provoked daniel and she got beat up........ i wonder if i could have avoided that....)

oh god the lake scene. mc did such a good job to escape from the car. nami gave me a scare when she deadass broke her finger so she could fit her hand through the cuff like what the fuck ma'am!!!!!!! when she was close to giving up, i was like NO. YOU CAME THIS FAR. YOU BROKE A GODDAMN FINGER. YOU CANT GIVE UP NOW!! so glad mc talked her out of it. its also horrifying to think about giving up on another person for your own survival and witnessing how theyd sink after they drown........ or even worse, their dead body floating on the water........ i was thinking no way tot would do that right....

ANYWAYS. CAN WE TALK. ABOUT KAJI YUKI. LIKE OH MY GOD. GIVE THIS MAN A RAISE HE DESERVES IT. his voice gave me chills when luke screamed for the first time when searching for mc like GOD. THE PAIN IN HIS VOICE. THE WORRY. THE ANXIOUSNESS. KAJI YUKI HOW DO YOU DO IT. MY HEART SHATTERED INTO PIECES. like i could feel how luke was so desperate to find the girl he promised to save, and IM JUST SO

I REALLY DID NOT EXPECT IT. THE DESPERATION SOUNDED TOO REAL. I CANNOT BE ANYMORE GRATEFUL THEY GOT KAJI YUKI TO VOICE LUKE PEARCE 😭😭 i am deceased. this chapter destroyed me.

THEN THEN THEN MC WAKES UP AT THE HOSPITAL. THE MOMENT BEFORE AARON AND XU WALKED IN WAS SO SWEET. definitely punched my pillow in frustration at the cockblock even though i have full knowledge that the confession is gonna be at the anniv card lol

i am just so. god. idk whats gonna happen in the anniv card, i just hope when luke tells her the truth about his illness, she wont cry too much......... why must luke be the dying cannon fodder. was the long lost childhood friend private detective national security bureau agent character not interesting enough hyv

#theyre so sweet i just want them to be happy forever ughhhhhh #luke/mc is def my fav relationship (not biased) #their chemistry is overwhelming #mao — !

[banghwa]

i wonder how you feel about namjoon? i find what he's doing in chapter 2 really interesting. he literally said 'fuck the trendsetter'. 🥲 wildflower might be the best song he's ever written (lbr if taylor swift released a song with such lyricism, we'd be hearing about it for years lol), and once again it has this theme of the rift between ideals and reality, of trying to hold onto yourself and your values when the world pushes back and breaks your heart. indigo was about choosing to be a human being, to create art beyond trends and limitations, to stand tall as an artist on his own terms. he chose to perform in like. a 200 max capacity venue bc that was his dream as a teenager before everything happened. he befriended the entire k-indie scene lol. it's amazing how he's overcoming the pressure of bts' crown. he's doing exactly what fans demand of their faves (authenticity & artistry), but then indigo is probably one of the least supported/commercially successful solo releases. 👀

he's also the only member i think that's kind of ambivalent about the future of bts. i think he's distanced himself from the Brand as much as possible for his own health, but i find his uncertainty about what bts are gonna do and what they will say in the future intriguing. he was definitely right in last year's festa when he said that bts have ran out of messages to give to the world.

anyway sorry for ranting sm about namjoon in your askbox, i just think it's amazing how much he's giving his all to be a true Artist in the most corporate era of kpop ever lol.

ohhhh I won’t let myself get too sappy about it but. i really do love namjoon so much. i dont think I can put it into words. hes such a brilliant lyricist. you’re so right if it was a white woman who wrote wildflower people would be screaming about it being the sadgirl song of the decade. he’s also just. really inspirational to me, i look up to him in a lot of ways. when i was first getting into bts, he was my first “official” bias i guess until hope world came out and changed everything lol. but he continues to have such an important space in my heart. i love the way he thinks, i love how genuine he tries to be, how he knows he’s very flawed and doesnt see it necessarily as a compromising thing. he means a lot to me :’)

ithink you’re right too like. things are probably very complicated for him around bts “the brand”, rm the artist, kim namjoon the person, which are things he explores to beautifully in indigo. i think he’s probably the member whose ties to bts as a “brand” are probably the tightest and not as easily severed bcs he’s the leader and the face and all of his mistakes now represents the group. and i think you’re so right, while indigo seemed to do well (then again, im so out of the loop that i dont rly know what doing well or not means in kpop anymore lol) or at least be very well received, it definitely is not being recognized for what it is by armys themselves…..its weird i feel like namjoon is sorta in this paradox where he can’t separate himself from bts but he is also too different from/too real and flawed for the bts brand that ppl dont rly pay attention to him…..but he’s also really respected by other people who are just really and genuinely into music. idk where im going with this all this to say i love him a lot i genuinely plan to get everythingoes tattooed and if he ever releases his own book I would be first in line to buy it

#this makes like. no sense sorry .... #i wonder why i dont talk abt namjoon more often actually but now that i think abt it #its hard to explain but whenever i think abt him and what hes gone through i cant help but remember #how overwhelmed he looked at the festa dinner last year. and it just makes me really sad #obviously i dont know his thoughts or his perspective. i dont wanna put words in his mouth #but from what he said. he expressed a lot of conflicting feelings and its sad bcs i dont think armys want to hear him #anyways i just hope kim namjoon the person lives a full and fulfilling life whatever that means to him and feels genuinely loved every day #💌 #anonymous

[kaylor]

I need to know if this is me being simply a hater or wHAT because i literally cannot understand the hype the atw short film got/gets? (Also the song but that’s another topic lol) like yeah… i think its an ok video and i understand why taylor is trying to push this damn video in almost every film festival but like… is is THAT good or is it just because SHE made it? Like, and so sorry for this rant i really apologize lmao, at this point idk if her stuff gets hyped up because of its actual value or because it’s Taylor Swift? I mean whenever i hear taylor is directing something im like… yikes. Like good for her because she gets to do that bc she likes it and also bc of who she is, the contacts she has and also the money, like that beckham kid who first was a chef and then a photographer. Idk, i hate being a hater or feeling like it but sometimes I look at this fandom (in general) and I’m like gurl whAT? Anyways thank u for coming to my ted talk

naw mate i totally get where you're coming from because i too am very indifferent if not mildly hostile towards atw10. like it was a cute mv and she obviously put a lot of effort into it but ...it just falls very flat to me. i don't know if that's because 1) i hate atw10 as a song like it's just very boring and tacky to me or 2) i'm way too "close" to taylor as a fan to have like , an objective opinion about her directing style or whatever because i have my own well established personal opinions about a song from a decade ago that is very dear to me and any extra "content" about it just bothers me tbh like it's just unnecessary to me and kind of taints the legacy of the song for me. which is why i ignore atw10's existence tbh. i haven't listened to it since it came out and i probably never will again. like i straight up just don't care for it, but i will leave the debate on its artistic merit to people who know and care about directing.

[cloudslou]

okkkk sooooo let's go, brace yourself it's gonna be a long rant. (also sorry if i don't make sense, english isn't my first language)

i am a larrie too and most people i follow here are larries bc i kinda feel like they're a safe space you know? BUT the fandom can be so fucking tiring and annoying sometimes. not everything louis and harry do have to do with larry and that's okay!!!!!! (i know saying something like that can get you dragged to hell in this fandom...anyways. lol) not everything is an easter egg. not everything has to be interpreted (?) a certain way. i know it's fun to find little things in their music that are connected, i get the thrill. but sometimes it's too much, the fandom makes the most out of too little things and it's so ??????. my issue is mostly with how some people in the fandom view louis and his ideas and themes and stuff. let him have his fucking moment without connecting EVERYTHING, every single little detail of his art to harry. they are their own individuals and they have their own career and they make their own art. there are connections and parallels, someone has to be dumb not to see them but sometimes it's good to let them have something for themselves each. - i.e. i saw someone making the fitf ono about how harry had one too and blah blah married yeah we get it!!!!! but what the FUCK does louis promoting his album have to do with harry? what the hell does louis having one, two, whatever special concerts to promote his album have to do with harry? it's like, louis follows every step harry takes (i'm always speaking in terms of their career and art), he does whatever harry does, he doesn't have creative freedom (? not the right phrase but idk how else to say it sorry). it's like some people see his work as a copy of harry's, you know what i mean? this is not meant to be sorry for louis or to pity him, i know he hates that and i know you do too. it's more like, louis is his own person, OUTSIDE of the relationship!!! (as is harry of course), not everything he does has to be depended on the relationship or his partner, he has his own mind, his own ideas, his own creativity. he doesn't have to have anyone as a "step" where he has to be on to build his career (does that make sense?). he's gaining sooooooo much popularity and recognition, i know walls was successful, but this era is on another level. let him fucking have this for HIMSELF. he did that HIMSELF. it's kinda unfair to take that away from him by implying that everything he does has to do with anyone but him.

anyway, this is where the rant ends. didn't wanna make a post about it bc as i said, saying this stuff can get you dragged to hell in this fandom bc let's be honest, there are certain opinions that apparently everyone has to have. thank you for your time and patience. post it if you want, or not idk. of course i'd love to hear your opinion on this. byyeeeeee <3

anon im so glad u came back i was hoping to see a msg from u when i got home from class.

i think im largely on the same page as you!!! i consider myself a larrie and thats mainly who i follow and who my friends r, like thats my Circle in the fandom, but it can be very exhausting when its the only lens ppl use to look at their art. not only is it just a tad annoying, i think its pretty dismissive and reductive to take that approach every time. i have similar feelings abt taylor when ppl jump to immediately connect a song to her public life story and then dont go further. for me its like.... there is so much more to a song (or any piece of art) than its "true" meaning (and i say that liberally because even when larries connect on of hl's songs to the other or their real lives, this is no more "true" than connecting a song to a girlfriend, etc, i think there's too much certainty by fans in this fandom) and it limits ur enjoyment of a song i think to not push to break out of that box.

also i think people drawing connections between career stuff is mostly. connecting dots that arent there. one-off concerts are not a rarity and theres already differences in their album release shows. i dont follow many musicians super closely, but i believe ashe also had an album release show last month. and (iirc) lthq said these shows will be a mix of songs from walls and fitf (so it wont be a straight through play of the album like harry's ono show are).

#ask #anon #like u said #i like the thrill #but the thrill doesnt belong to.....everything

[writers-ex]

Istg i am so tense today 💀

So yesterday was Friday. Its Saturday morning here rn, btw. And some of my friends werent coming to college due to personal reasons. Now because everyone is usually busy in their work, no one has time to send the notes from the classes, so they told everyone to take the day off. Our Fridays are shorter days btw.

Being the head girl of the college, i tried to stop them cuz it might get us in trouble. But they didnt listen, so everyone was taking the day off. So i also thought that there is no reason to go to the college cuz no ones coming. So no one came, as planned.

EXCEPT ONE GIRL. She advertised the plan of not coming to college to everyone on our insta group, and then she just backed out. We thought that it was ok as long as she didnt tell anyone.

BUT THEN WHAT HAPPENED? We get a message from the teachers, saying that the parents have to tell the reason why everyone except that girl came. We panicked a bit but we all had our excuses. We decided not to message the teacher and just tell our excuses on Monday.

And thats where it all came crashing down. We just got a message, like 5 mins before the time i am writing this, that our whole class except that girl will be heavily penalized because we 'lied to our parents about the day being off' and 'breaking the college discipline code'. Btw we never lied to our parents.

Anyways, we found out that THAT GIRL SNITCHED ON US, SENT OUR CHAT'S SCREENSHOTS TO THE PRINCIPAL, AND GOT OUT OF THE PLAN LIKE SHE WAS NEVER INVOLVED. Mind you, if her parenyts had agreed to let her take the day off, she would never have come to school. And she was so unapologetic too. Like i get that we werent all innocent, but snitching and throwing everyone under the bus is so wrong 😭😭😭

I never liked that girl tbh. She fails her classes, she is not good at any extra curriculars, she is a wannabe teachers pet. And she visits the washroom 10 times a day idk why. Thats suspicious, if you ask me.

Im sorry for this long story, but i just wanted to vent out. Please pray for me and my class 😓

-🦔

this girl sounds horrible so i hope your weekend is better, i am glaring at her from my laptop and patting your back as well >:( rude little troll- please keep me posted bc this sounds…i want to know you are ok plz

side rant that happened with a girl in my class that turned out to be a cousin of mine…she so fricking ditzy giggling and making the teacher answer the most randomest questions in class while they give us lecture like bish wait or write it down BUT NO she keeps going and asking about the test and only paying attention to a lecture if its going to be on a test and not the actual INFORMATION WE NEED TO DO THE JOB LIKE BISH LIFE ISN"T ABT A GRADE????? i care abt my grade and study but like i want to perform the actual job correctly so even if the textbook is old i want to understand the idea and actually perform the task up to the standards NOT WEAR MY HEADPHONES AND LEAVE RANDOMLY FOR ABT AN HOUR OF CLASS ONLY TO BUG THE TEACHER ABT DOING THE LECTURE AGAIN BC YOU "LEFT SOMETHING IN UR CAR" why do you have to leave TEN TIMES A DAY TO UR CAR?????????????????? and then she hugs and hangs out with me like nothing happens and smells dirty like idk ur home life but shower or borrow my perfume please TTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT dont even get me started on her cheating and she has the nerve to complain abt her grades being one point less when she cheats??????????? i study and earn my grade honestly PISS OFF but i usually just smile and walk away before i punch the wall <3 bro this wednesday i was cleaning instruments during our BUSIET CLINIC EVER so i had to clean everything for eight hours straight with no help and one classmate lost a tiny screw in the sink when i left to grab some water BC I HAVEN"T DRANK WATER IN LIKE FIVE HOURS?????? so im tired, thirsty, and surviving off some milk i drank in the morning bc we don't get breaks for food either and THIS GIRL HAS THE NERVE TO LAUGH AND HUG ME SAYING THAT SHE WANTS ME TO CLEAN HER ROOM BC SHE NEEDS TO GET SMT IN HER CAR WHILE IM PANCIKING ABT LOOSING THIS SCREW THATS EXPENSIVE AND INSTRUMENTS ARE PILING (and god im so mad rn) and its all a blur after that bc i think i cried or blacked out and kept cleaning ignoring her :') i hate my life bc she thinks we're buddies and i want to slap her

whew rant over….so sorry to sound so violent this girl gets me mad and did also b4 we left class yesterday (it was friday for me) GAH

#🦔 anon