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[lovesickeros]

☆ even the gods bleed

{☆} characters furina, neuvillette {☆} notes cult au, imposter au, multi-chapter, gender neutral reader {☆} warnings blood, injury, light angst {☆} word count 2.3k

What was justice?

Focalors had asked herself that question many times during the long nights she spends awake pouring over the prophecy of a dead God, words replaying in her mind like a broken record until the sun rose like a blooming flower.

She was the God of Justice, an Archon, yet she herself lacked the answer to such a simple and yet so very complex question.

How does one define what is just and what is not? How does she know that what she believes to be just is right? Is it justice if one being alone may sway the scales of justice on a whim? What justice is there to be found in the cold, watery grave that awaits her nation?

She does not know.

Perhaps she may never know.

What she does know, at least, is that this is not justice.

It is a mockery of it.

She stands before the bloodied, broken body like the judge, her sword held so tightly in her hand her fingers feel stiff, a dull ache adding to the weight of what she's seen. For a long, horrible moment she almost thinks they are dead – something she would have reveled in, only a day prior – before she sees the subtle rise and fall of their chest. Breathing, but barely.

The rain felt heavier upon her shoulders at the realization – she was not sure if it was in relief or horror.

Her nails dig into her palm, mind stuck somewhere between that abject horror and confusion so palpable she swore she could hear the gears in her head turning.

For a long, silent moment as she stares upon the body beneath the heavy rain..she wonders if this is how it all ends instead. If the world itself will simply crumple in on itself and cease – without its heart, it will wither, after all – long before the waters ever swallow her nation whole.

Because, try as she might to rationalize it, for every drop of rain that hits her like pins and needles, soaking her down to the bone..the body of the imposter is completely dry. Even the water pooling along the stones dares not to leave so much as a splotch against their ragged, torn clothes.

She remembers the meeting so very clearly, and she thinks she is a fool to not have noticed sooner – the Creator upon their gilded throne, finger pointed in accusation at the visage far too similar to their own. The imposter. She remembers the lilt of their voice as they called for their death as easily as one would speak of the weather – and to no one other then herself would she admit the spark of fear it had ignited within her. Because beneath the divine charade there was a sick enjoyment in the way they looked upon the imposter – like a bug beneath their shoe.

She understands, now.

She had thought that perhaps finally – finally – she could do right by her people, by her Creator, if she rid Teyvat of this..intrusion.

Now she sees herself as what it all really is – blind lambs following the herder.

Perhaps she would be considered a heretic under the eyes of the law – beneath the weight of justice, heavy as the heart that bears its sins. Perhaps this is a mistake, one she would come to regret.

But for now, she sheathes her blade with unsteady hands, the sound making her ears ring – for what she had almost done, what she had already done – as she stumbles like a newborn lamb towards the broken body of..

..What, exactly? Human? Divine? She is not so sure what to call them. Creator? No. The name is bitter upon her tongue, now, burning like liquid flame down her throat.

Where once she had spoken it in reverence and admiration, it felt hollow and empty, now.

Her vision wavers as she kneels down against the rain soaked stones, the rain upon her back growing heavier as she reaches a shaky hand forth – and for a moment, however brief, she feels the weight of expectation, of a title she fears she may never live up to, wash away with the waters that fall from the heavens.

The bruises and blood smeared across their skin are like strokes of a paintbrush, their body the canvas from which such horrid art is created. It makes her ill.

Doubt wavers her composure briefly – her position is already unsteady. She has never been seen as an equal to many of the other Archons. Her own people do not see her as their Archon, but an actor in a grand play that they shall simply toss aside and replace like a broken doll the moment she bores them.

What does she have left to lose?

She reaches out again, her hand settling onto their shoulder and turning them onto their back. She..isn't sure what to do, actually. She's never been particularly physically capable – she tended to avoid fights, even if she oft provoked them – and she was certainly no healer.

Yet what choice does she have but to march on anyway? She is in the heart of the city, it is far more dangerous here then anywhere else..she had little time to make her move.

Fontaine was, after all, a nation founded on the principle of justice. To know an injustice has been made against the most Divine..the entire nation was in a frenzy.

Her eyes dart around nervously, hands clasped tight on their shoulders and her lips drawn into a taut line – someone would notice her absence. One of the Archons would point out her absence in the coordination of the search.

Her options were just as limited as her time – she couldn't just take them out of the city. Security was tight, and as much as she fancied herself an escape artist – Neuvillette could hardly keep her in one place for too long – she doubted she could do the same with the limp body of the imposter in tow.

..The Palais Mermonia it was, then.

Her room had a secret entrance that few knew about, and even fewer would dare to traverse. She just..had to hide them there for a bit and hope Neuvillette wouldn't notice anything different.

Probably.

Still, there was the problem of actually..transporting the body. As grim as it sounded. Her only solace was the fact she didn't have to worry about them catching a cold, at least, and their breaths were still audible, if only barely. So she had to resort to some..unexpected methods.

Seeing the limp form of, well, the imposter – she'd really have to ask for something else to call them when they woke up – stuck in a bubble of hydro wasn't exactly on her bucket list.

Then again, neither was treason.

Well, first time for everything, right?

It wasn't breaking the law if no one else knew about it.

..Neuvillette didn't have to know about it, really. It was fine.

She could, of course, technically try to talk some sense into Neuvillette – he'd listen to her, right? She thought she was pretty close with him..but he was also the one person more obsessed with justice then she was. Such a stickler for the law..so maybe she's breaking a few, it's fine.

But he was also pretty devout, as much as he tried to keep his worship private – with Focalors around, nothing was really secret. Maybe she could get him to settle down long enough to prove it.

..How was she going to prove it?

An exaggerated groan escaped her lips as she led the bubbled imposter – she really wished she didn't have to resort to that, it would be a lot a more awkward to explain then dragging the body around – through the winding streets of Fontaine. She's just glad she's already memorized the entire city like the back of her hand..and a little dramatics went a long way. People listened when the Hydro Archon spoke, and she was suddenly very, very glad for that fact, even if they treated her more like a mascot then a God.

And partially because she, maybe, just a little..stole a few documents detailing the layout and a little personal exploration of her own – but what Neuvillette didn't know couldn't hurt him!

After what felt like hours, though was really no more then half an hour at best, she'd managed to drag herself – soaked to the bone with rain – and the conveniently bubbled imposter up through the secret entrance and into her room.

The perceived safety, as flimsy as it was, was..comforting. Until she heard the rustle of fabric, the clearing of a throat and the pop of a bubble as she, in her surprise, popped it – and then the thud of the imposter hitting the floor.

She felt a bit of regret about that part, at least, wincing.

"Lady Furina." His voice was as sharp and cool as she remembered it always being – like fresh spring water, she'd heard it described. Soothing. It did not feeling very soothing right about now.

She turned sharply on her heel, a forced smile tugging at her lips on reflex, every muscle in her body tensed – she probably looked like a wet cat right about now, soaked with rain, but that was the last thing on her mind.

"Do you mind explaining what, exactly, you did?" Not what you're doing, she notes – what she did. He was mad. Oh, she was really in for a scolding now. She twiddled her thumbs, laughing weakly, though it quickly dies out at the awkward, tense silence.

"Well, you see – it's rather complicated! I can– I can explain." Her attempts to diffuse are met with a raised brow and the sharp tap of his cane. Every single thought is plagued with the urge to run, but the unsteady breathes of the 'imposter' keep her rooted in place. "Well?"

She was sweating bullets, her nails digging into her palm as she scrambled for any excuse that could warrant her not getting hauled off and scolded thoroughly at best – she was coming up empty. How was she supposed to prove that the 'imposter' was very much not what the 'Creator' said they were? Their unconscious body was doing no one any favors, certainly.

"The Creator is lying," She blurts out, immediately regretting her impulsiveness when she feels the sudden weight of his stare – the piercing hues of his eyes that remind her just who is the strongest between them. It is not her, she knows. It never has been. "You can see for yourself! Don't you trust me, Neuvillette–?"

Her voice is cut off by the sharp click of his cane as he strides across the room in only a few steps, his height making her feel like a child about to scolded. She hated it, but she grit her teeth through the exchange. She reminded herself that this was for the sake of the 'imposter' and any affront to her ego was..tolerable.

To her credit, too, she didn't immediately lash out when she saw him poke at their body with his cane, turning them onto their back – she wanted too, though. She considered it, but the thought was quickly shot down when his stare turned back upon her, and she felt frozen in place again, her tongue a heavy weight in her mouth.

Yet she couldn't shake the sudden tenseness to his shoulders, his brows furrowed and a distant look to his eyes. It was..haunting, in a way.

She knows it well, she realizes. The realization and acceptance, the crumbling of every solid foundation you've ever known – leaving you to flounder in the waves, alone and afraid.

The gentleness in which he picks up the limp body surprises her though, his cane set aside. The rain howls like a horrid storm outside, but she cannot focus on anything but the furrow of their brows, the soft noise that escapes their lips.

"I trust that you know that this must stay between us," His voice is soft, like the gentle lap of waves against the shore, as he sets their body down against the bed, his hand lingering against their cheek with something almost like reverence – and if her eyes do not deceive her, affection. "Lady Furina."

She does not hesitate to agree.

"Well– well of course!" She huffs, crossing her arms over her chest and frowning at the feeling of her wet clothes clinging to her skin, a heavy weight that feels like it's dragging her down. "Just what do you take me for?"

He doesn't deign to respond.

It only makes her fume more.

Not that he seems to notice, unbuttoning his heavy outerwear and tossing it on the bed, rolling up his sleeves and focusing on the injured– er..yeah, she really needed a new name for them. Calling them imposter felt wrong.

"So long as you understand, then we will have no problems." She huffs again, pouting and puffing up her cheeks, sitting down on the other end of the bed with only an occasional glance towards him as he worked at peeling away the ragged clothes and examining the injuries marring their skin.

She suddenly felt out of place.

..What was she supposed to be doing?

As if noticing her sudden quietness, Neuvillette sighed, his back turned to her though his attention very much falling upon her. She really hated the feeling like she was being dissected whenever he looked at her. It was unnerving. She doesn't know how anyone else handles it..

"If you are so eager to do something, Lady Furina, then please have something brought up for when our..guest awakens. They will need to recover their strength."

Finally! Something she can do. She perks up, her heels clicking on the floorboards as she darts out like a bullet, unable to stay still for so much as a moment.

Neuvillette, for his part..

Feels an odd sense of serenity as he stares upon the troubled features of the..guest. A peace that lessens the burdens upon his shoulders, the weight of a nation upon his back.

He cannot hear the rain, anymore.

..It must have stopped.

#sagau #genshin sagau #self aware genshin #genshin impact sagau #self aware genshin impact #fic tag #imposter au #focalors #furina #neuvillete #a family can be a dragon an archon and his 300 other children who reverse adopted him #u date him its a package deal sorry #u now have like 300 children g-dspeed #also tagged spoilers on neuvi's part bc its kinda a spoiler??? sort of #also this can be read as platonic or romantic on neuvi's part #can u tell i like focalors btw :) #also gonna be swapping between focalors/furina bc SOMEONE sent me a theory and it sent me spiraling im gonna be ill #u know who u r and ur days r numbered #can be read as romantic between reader & neuvi but only bc i know focalors rubs it in his face she found the actual creator first #anyway can u tell focalors is my fav pt2 i wont shut up abt her its terminal atp #focalors.................. #anyway *doesnt post fr months. randomly drops a 2k word fic. leaves and doesnt elaborate* #starts out v serious ends v silly #wrote this in one sitting im gonna go pass out now gn

[swiftispunk]

good morning @mrsmando and i are currently conceiving a joel miller city bus driver au for exactly no one but ourselves

#you know like. he picks you up for work every morning until he starts to recognize you #subtly offers you free rides #picks you up late one night after work and jokes about how he's only ever used to seein you in the morning #bus is totally dead and he makes a comment about being ur personal chariot for the night #some creep gets on and sits beside you even though the bus is empty #joel's watching the entire interaction like a hawk in his rear view mirror #the second you start to look uncomfortable he's pulling that bus over and kicking that dude off by the scruff of his neck #detouring the bus to drop you off right outside your apartment and make sure you're ok #leaving you with his number but /not like that/ #just wants you to reach out if you ever need anything or if there's anything he can do #just so apologetic you were ever made to feel unsafe on HIS bus #anyway #i have lost sight of normal at this point #now you can all join in whatever brainrot this is too #mimi tag #joel miller imagine

[hurglewurm]

me: keeps drawing random one-off fanarts from things that aren't currently big at all

also me: why no notes on my arte

#grateful for all of u lol #but why no notes !! lol !! i want attention i want engagement #i need to be LOVED and sharing my art is the vessel through which i ascribe my self worth... #it's like how if you have a long list of movies to watch ur still more likely to just. #watch some random movie you heard about 2 minutes ago that seems interesting. if u have spare movie time #bc it's lower pressure or smth #idk brother ! idk #im just chillin here in my cave drawing things apparently only i want to see and like maybe 5 other people #welcome to my cave #alligates says things #yo being an artist on the internet is genuinely awful. social media is not built for my delicate ass #even popular artists (i might technically be a popular artist) like i Know it sucks babe. i know #anyway 'no notes' generally in the past i could hit like. 500 ? with relative ease ? sometimes #yall i'm struggling to hit 100. why 7 reblogs and 35 likes. this is not the way #i'm a creator on the internet complaining about numbers ! not really gonna stop me tho #let's be honest whether or not i'm getting attention my ability to draw or not is contingent on. my own psychological ass. and little else #thank u for listening. it is my bedtime. goonite #if you read all these tags... idk. tell me the name of your favourite flower !

[kim-woonhak]

My top songs (of the first half) of 2023 ✦ Boys Planet edition ✦

tagged by @lunetual @jikyu @leewonseo @lee-minhoe ty 💕

I've listened to over 300 new releases from over 100 different kpop artists this year so picking my top songs felt like an mnet-level survival show 😭 the irony that i never watched Boys Planet AND one of the songs is literally a Peak Time song is not lost on me ! 🙃 but i wanted to pick a trendy format so here we are 😈 anyways i included albums instead of songs that didn't make the cut since there's too many honorable mention songs that i have had on repeat this year 😭 but most of them are in these 22 albums (oo-li is on here twice and istj isn't out yet !)

if u like my gif template, here's the link ! pls credit me ty <3

tagging (no obligation ofc and if you've already posted will u tag/send me so i can see 🥺): @bahngentertainment @chrisbangs @coupsnim @dakbees @dive-in-the-blue @hannahbahng @hyunfelix @ingblr-s @jinniebit @kyubins @losergirlz @quokki @shorelinnes @starcatching @userjiung @userwoodz @wabisaba @woodziecup @yohanblr + anyone else who wants to share just say that i tagged u <3

#tag game #song recs #flashing tw #*ambiv.gif #ok i didnt have to go so hard but it's the holidays so i had a free day hehe #im actually very proud of my coloring for some of these gifs especially the BSS one .. had to borrow some mvs for the b-sides without vids #anyways yall shouldve seen the spreadsheet i had to use to get to 12.... also the biggest tragedy was number 13 was skz topline :(((((( #one thing about me is that even tho i love my noise music i also LOVE my ballads :') and clearly i love my boy groups 👹 #i tried to limit to 1 per album & artist except i can't do that to woodz so he got an exception asdfsdfjj OO-LI IS TOO GOOD IT'S UNMATCHED #i have so many other faves..... nct dream best friend .. nine (onlyoneof) beyOnd .. kep1er lvly .. holland number boy .. newjeans omg .. #epex sunshower .. enhypen bills .. dkb more than 100 reasons .. cravity groovy .. boynextdoor one and only .. blitzers macarena .. #billlie eunoia .. bae173 gt .. atbo next to me .. agust d haegeum .. (g)i-dle queencard .. cupid fifty fifty .. golden child weekends .. #ive kitsch .. jinyoung cotton candy .. kim jaehwan lucky! .. lee chaeyeon knock .. mark golden hour .. lun8 wild heart .. nct djj perfume . #sf9 puzzle .. stayc teddy bear .. purple kiss sweet juice .. &team firework .. tripleS rising .. viviz pull up .. xg left & right .. #.......just to name a few slkjdflajfdjlf DO U SEE HOW HARD THIS WAS :'( i DIED !!! #OK BUT IF I DID MISS UR FAVE PLS SEND ME IT I WILL LISTEN

[iceeericeee]

I wonder how many tags i can add on to this

#there must be SOME kind of a limit otherwise posts would get suuuuuuper duper long like is it just 30? #idk but i'm going to find out by simply maxxing out the character limit for each tag and finding out the limit of tags for each post lololo #this is gonna be great. i just have to remember to type without ever using the comma. it shouldn't be too hard right? fuck i almost typed #the comma i'm already bad at this smh my head. also if your still here i commend you. you have a better attention span than i do. #i'm already starting to get bored holy shit this is not happening. i gotta power through this. FOR SCIENCEEEEEEEEEE. or somethinggggggggggg #but fr idk what else to say. maybe just saying that i don't know what to say will be good enough? but does that even count? #I don't even know anymore. ffffffffuck. this is gonna be a while huh? also holy shit if you're still here omg u deserve like. a prize or #something because u definitely didn't have to stay and read all of this bull shit. lololol i typed out bs but decided to just spell the who #thing out just to make it go by faster. i'm so lazy. this is only the nineth tag HOW will i make it to 30. i am sobbing the adhd is adhding #very hard rn. are you still here? bruh this is insane. i have somehow managed to keep ur attention this long and it's just me spouting #absolute balderdash. wait do you know what balderdash even means? i don't care if you do already i'm gonna tell you anyway. balderdash is #basically just another word for nonsense. boom. you learned something new today. balderdash equals nonsense equals this damn post. #why did i decide to do this in the first place. it was a dumb idea. i don't know if i can even keep going. this is only the *counts tags* #it's the 14th tag. we've got a long way to go boys. men. soldiers. comrads. friends. besties peeps. marshmallows. #where was i going with this? oh yeah. trying to max out the limit for tags. dang i almost typed a comma there. i haven't done that since #i think the third or fourth tag. dang that feels like such a long time ago. not for you guys probably. it feels longer because i have to li #type it all out and stuff. so it's definitely gonna feel longer for me. are you still here? good lord don't you have better things to #be doing than reading all of this? we're already on tag number 18. it feels like i should be on the thirtyeth by now. or however it's spell #'toast' you might be wondering 'why are you typing out the names of the numbers instead of say '9' or '5'?' well you see. young one. #this is a strategy i'm using to make each tag slightly longer. even if i don't know how to spell it. it'll make it just a little bit longer #anyway. i got off topic. not that there was ever a topic to begin with. unless it's about making this as long as i can. #which i am apparently good at doing. i guess. are you STILL here? do you seriously have nothing to do? i guess i'm flattered you stayed thi #whole time. instead of reading something else you stayed here. with me. listening to me talk. on the twenty-third tag. oh yeah its tag 23 #except now it's tag twenty-four. how crazy is that. this little talk is almost over. only 6 tags away if memory serves right. this's strang #i kind of don't want this to end. but i know it should. after all there is a limit. but all things must come to and end at some point i gue #i'm running out of things to say. it's probably a good thing it's almost over. hahahahah............... but i don't want to go. i don't wan #to leave this post. i've worked so hard on it. and for what. just for it to end. are you still here? yes? good. i'd hate to end this alone. #thank you for indulging me and my craziness. the end is only 2 tags away now. you can go ahead and leave. i'll be okay on my own. really... #...you're still here? i- i don't know what to say. i suppose a toast is in order. perhaps. for this journey. this stupid dumb post i though #would be fun. i'll make it short. it's the last tag after all. this was fun. but i will never do it again. so long as a i live. i'll miss y

[munchboxart]

Hi ok so there's been some big discussion in regards of the next Big Run due to datamined information that has been found. I'll be cutting this if you do not want to read anything about it

So there's been information found of egg count numbers for the rewards for the next Big Run that has not appeared before (Coxxs is a reputable dataminer, usually leaking stuff related to Salmon Run and such).

What has been speculated is that they are adding set threshold goals for the rewards, rather than keeping the "top x%" scores. It's been speculated this is due to the lower amount of players playing Big Run and with the scores rising each time.

Ok so the next section is just my opinion on it like ALWAYS LMFAO but if that's what you were only interested in, then you are free to stop reading.

I am kind of disappointed. I'd be less so if the scores were higher to simulate a bigger challenge + to be more in line with earlier Big Run scores that were around ~140 eggs. Like my non Salmon Run friends can get like, 130-140 easily, and even in Freelance I get higher scores.

I know there's some people that's going like "oh but that takes away the incentive to grind for a higher score" and others going "well it's not stopping you from grinding for a higher score technically". And yeah, but what I think is missing from this conversation is that it's lost it's replayability (unless you don't play Salmon Run much and/or don't care about the score).

Big Run is treated like Splatfest but for Salmon Run, and the reason why some people play the whole event is for their team to win right? Splatfest has a goal, which is why Big Run tries to have that same sort of incentive but with top % scores. To take that away and set a static threshold, then what's the point of playing after you've reached it? Sure you can get extra scales but like. Salmon Run is a secondary mode, a LOT of people doooo not give a fuck about it, so I do not think the extra scales would be enough unless you're mega Salmon Run brained.

I think the bigger problem is that it's probably just a game design issue rather than an "Overfishing" issue. Especially going back to the "Salmon Run Splatfest" comparison, as at least for Splatfest it's more generalized, while SR is more competitive and skill based. The whole Overfishing argument is another topic in of itself that I do kinda wanna talk about but maybe not this time, especially since a lot of people have already said their peace about it (will just say that it's a stupid argument).

I hope they add just some sort of bonus for people who do reach top 5% or SOMETHING because I still do think this is kind of lame. But also this has not been confirmed from the official devs yet so we don't know for sure. My annoying ass will be back to this post if it is or is not for confirmation.

#hi spoilers in the tags too dont read #close ur eyes and dont look at this #anyways idk my feelings abt it are def biased as salmon run fan number 1 #so it is gonna sound gatekeepy (sorry) LMFAO my opinions on it are stronger than what i worded it to be on here #but my sentiment still stays true to what i said #long post #etc

[excitedrainbow]

so so excited for Burrow’s End and so so frustrated with the biggest parasocial fans telling anyone who was discussing what other TTRPG systems could be used that they should never question the expert GMs, please just leave us to our (loving!) conversations!

there are always going to be dickheads who talk shit and rudely tag in the people/performers they’re referring to, but most of the time any fan critique or discussion I see of D20 comes out of being big fans of both the show and TTRPGs, is super respectful, and no one is tagging in anyone involved with the show. yeah some of us get tired of how often DnD is used in the recent games, because it isn’t always the best system for the story and there LOADS of other TTRPGs that would be cool to use!

for this season, most of the discussion went DnD???? Again???? > wait it looks like there’s a bunch of combat and monsters > probably not suited for Wanderhome/other suggested TTRPGs > what other animal TTRPGs could work > Aabria is an incredible GM and she’s worked with other systems before so her choice of DnD for this story is interesting, let’s see how this works out for the story > oooh this is what Aabria has said about using DnD, ok cool, can’t wait to be emotionally hurt im so tired of seeing a loud minority of people increasingly butting in on respectful conversations to say “they like DnD! they play however they want to! they’re the performers why do you question their choices?” Or “omg how dare you have the audacity to question them” or other bullshit like that. if all you want to do is never have conversations about TTRPGs or cast/GM choices etc. and never want to hear any respectful critique or discussion then I think your fandom experience is going to be poorer, but that’s your choice. you don’t have to start shit with other people just because you can’t stand that they’re lovingly but thoroughly discussing/critiquing this form of media and not putting the cast on pedestals. parasocial attachments to vaguely famous people aren’t new things but god they are getting worse and making the experience of fandom more awful

#there is also a marked decrease in media literacy #and an increase in people starting from bad faith #the number of times I’ve seen people go WELL FROM YOUR TONE IT READ LIKE #and there’s literally no text anywhere that supports their interpretation #also people are allowed to be a little frustrated before a show airs #most of them will watch it! most of them will adjust their opinions! #WOTC are a very flawed corporation and DnD 5e is a big monopoly in TTRPGs!!!!!!! #there are so many other cool TTRPGs it would be cool to see them used for the right stories!!!!! #aabria literally said this in the tags of a post on tumblr #and most of us read those tags and went OK INTERESTING #and we love her as a GM #like open ur mind to a richer fandom experience and to the FUN of other TTRPGs #and don’t put people on pedestals #Dimension 20 #TTRPGs #god sorry just had to vent I hate the increasing number of fans going YOU CANT CRITIQUE THESE PEOPLE HOW DARE YOU #ALSO I love DnD despite its origins and history it’s so fun #I also LOVE other TTRPGs! #anyway curate yr fandom experience I end up blocking most of these people especially on twt #you wanna block me go right ahead we will all be happy

[suremarkj]

who: @cursedflesh​ where: outside of terry’s place (doxxing :elmo:) what: that’s our grandma!

if there was one thing mark was sure of, it was that leo was going to be seeking terrence walker out. and if there was one thing mark was sure of ( so... that would make it two ), it was that he, as the man who had introduced her to the genealogy websites, could not bear to be responsible for any disappointments she may encounter in her endeavors ! ( any disappointments at all would be a shame, but to be actively responsible for them ? well... ) lucky for him, with some followers in high places, terrence walker was decently easy to place... he never thought he’d be alright with this so-called ‘doxxing’ ( a real invasion of privacy -- the house he actually lived in was as off the grid as possible for a reason ), but queefburglar69 finally came in handy. “ tell you what, a little old woman’s gonna stop by any time now -- ‘bout yea high, ” he began, putting his hand level to his shoulder, “ and she’s gonna be real excited. gonna tell you she’s your great-great-great-great-something-grandma, and you gotta at least pretend to be happy, ‘right ? name’s leo -- might introduce herself as leonarda with a real long last name -- and, boy, she’s been fuckin’ waitin’ for this. ”

#interactions ! #interactions || terrence ! #interactions || terrence 1 ! #1) u can choose if he knocked on his door first or if theyre in the hall or whatever :elmo: i just :elmo: didnt want to draw it out AFHOILD #2) i was also gna mention how MAYBE she'd already beat him to it but omg so unlikely!! then didnt #(see: so this can obvs be after terry/leo thread. doesnt have to be but might make more sense given the circumstances! #again ur choice! but anyway <3 he's just thinkin <3 doesnt know how leo wld've found him first!!) #3) this is the most mark has talked in his entire life ever. #4) starting to think i shldn't have numbered these tags but i totally put 6'3 and 5'0 in a height comparison thing #so that i cld get an accurate measurement for where mark's hand shld be <3 #5) mark? calling someone one year younger than him 'boy'? wow! who wld've guessed!

[gibbearish]

so like i want to talk more abt what suicidal means but the problem is "suicidal ideation presents in two general forms, active and passive. the thing most people think of as suicidal is the active version, where the person *actively* desires to be dead and/or is making a plan to get there. the passive form however gets almost no attention in media so many people experiencing it are unaware they are even depressed, much less passively suicidal. some examples: not wanting to experience death but feeling like you wouldn't mind if you didn't wake up tomorrow or just stopped existing; feeling deeply exhausted with just the entire concept of being alive; even feeling like you want to run away, change your name, and start a whole new life; none of these look like suicidal ideation to most people because they don't involve actively doing anything to get from point a to point b, especially the more abstract ones like the start a new life thing - but remember that in order to truly start a whole new life, you have to destroy your current one. it's not suicidal as in wanting to actually DIE die, it's just. wanting something close enough to scratch the itch. but just because you haven't booked the ticket doesn't mean you don't still revisit the 'vacation activities at point b' tab occasionally to daydream, yknow?" is i think very informative and specific, but its also quite long and run on-y so people are v likely to tap out like a third of the way through it, whereas "suicidal doesnt necessarily mean wanting to die" is way shorter and therefore catchier, but is also the kind of nonspecific phrasing that gets you a thousand angry anons about how you said all suicidal people are just pretending they actually want to die or some dumb shit. so it's a fun line to toe

#especially when youre far too lazy to dig up sources however if u google passive suicidal theres a lot of info #pretty front and center altho you will get jumpscared by the size 1000 font suicide hotline number #or maybe you wont but i sure was. why was it so big #in this house we simply post both as part of another hashtag relatable post in the hopes that the two for one bargain #will entice viewers to read the whole thing and go 'wait but /i/ feel like that what do you mean' #and then make a meta joke about it in the tags so the viewers think we're hip and cool #nah but seriously i see ppl not knowing abt this . so much and every time im like !!!!!!! no youre not crazy youre not supposed #to feel like this!!!! #so its one of the things where im like nah idc if im being annoying abt this as long as i hit the one (1) todays lucky 10000 who needs it #this one i dont remember seeing on any articles but id like to propose also that having trouble imagining your future can count too #and like obviously all of these have exceptions right like. ppl can just want to start a whole new life for non suicidal reasons #but if theres a pattern of these things or you find yourself being drawn back to one over and over again thats #when you should start being like ok somethings afoot #like the imagining ur future one you could easily have trouble visualizing things or even just Not Be Especially Imaginative #...or... it could be that deep down you dont feel like you /have/ one so your brain just. steers away from the subject entirely #and ykno. knowing which one it is is usually pretty helpful LOL #anyways. sorry theres no paragraph breaks i could not for the life of me figure out a good spot for them #/suicide #/suicide mention #/suicidal ideation #/depression #/death mention #and of course i think also like a lot of things this is more of a spectrum than a binary like obviously 'run away and #start a new life' is def a bit less active than 'id be ok w it if i didnt wake up tomorrow' but theyre still both on the lassive side #passive* #eugh im rambling now and not even in the slightly contained way the post itself is #im hitting post without rereading for the 40th time otherwise ill remember another tangent so if theres #any errors left my apologies

[marinsawakening]

[Timmy Turner voice] I wish every Links Meet AU that uses Marin as a phantom to haunt and traumatize Link goes to hell no matter what

#No I am not vaguing any specific links meet au bc ive already seen four different ones that do this #Fun Fact! You can give ALTTP!Link different character conflict! #That doesn't butcher the themes and ending of one of the games! #And reduce a female character and arguably LOZ's first complex character to a flat source for man angst #Marin would murder Link if she found out he was remembering her and Koholint in trauma and tragedy #Rather than treasuring its memory and celebrating its existence #GENUINELY framing Link as wildly traumatized by the events of Link's Awakening the way so many ppl do #Completely destroys all thematic coherence in the game's ending and makes it wildly unsatisfying #Yes Koholint disappearing was sad. No Link did not kill an island no it would not haunt him like a ghost #It's a treasured memory and a net positive experience! I have OPINIONS on this and I'm CORRECT #And I'm calling out Links Meet AUs specifically bc those are the biggest offenders #Of stripping everyone else of depth and focus for the sake of white boy Link #If ur lucky then Zelda still has character depth but everyone else* is shit out of luck basically #*Exceptions apply ofc #Lots of stuff that's not links meet aus also interprets Marin in ways I don't personally like #I am picky #Some of which I'd argue are just. Bad. #But at least they often make an effort with her character #Links Meet AUs are the Link Only Show tho and I'm ANNOYED bc I WANT TO LIKE THEM #I AM A SUCKER FOR MULTIVERSE SHIT. U DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH THIS PAINS ME #Anyway. L + ratio + you did not consider the thematic implications of ur fanproject and it annoys me :( #My posts #Loz #Link's awakening #update when i first made this post i was genuinely not intending to single out any specific links meet aus #however i have since crunched the numbers and two thirds of the marin tag on ao3 is linked universe #and i would like to make it clear. i have no real issue with the actual comic or its portrayal of marin #mostly bc marin has not actually appeared or been addressed in the actual comic at all #however i do hope the linked universe FANDOM goes to hell no matter what

[byanyan]

don't u love that I went from working oldest to newest on my drafts to working newest to oldest?

#I feel bad bc those ones in the middle just end up sitting in there longer #but this is what's working for me now and it's working weirdly well & I'm trying not to jinx it #so I'm just rolling with it :x #I'M GETTING THROUGH THINGS AGAIN that's what matters but I feel bad if I was getting closer to Urs #and now suddenly it's gonna be even longer before I get there abfkgdh #but I usually have stronger muse for the newer stuff so like?? it's def flowing better this way #let's me keep up with the new stuff while also making my way toward some of the older #it was more daunting to do it that way before when I had like 60 drafts but at 30?? I'm kinda just chillin suddenly idek #........i hate the number of typos writing tags on mobile causes me jfc #ANYWAY. point is I'm doin stuff again and also I love u guys I hope ur week's been going well 💜 #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don’t @ me.

[dandyshucks]

crikey,,,, 3 thousand notes on that post,,,,

#djfkdl so sceery #i gotta stop looking at it fjdkld #but numbers sometimes help my brain if theyre nice numbers #and three thousand is a very good number in the brain bc the colours of three and thousand match #and they also both begin w a TH :] #if u visualize the word in ur brain... would it not show up with a colour? like as if the text is coloured? #bc apparently not many ppl have that but fjdldl i feel like it is normal ?? my sister and i used to compare colours of the alphabet #but ive mentioned it to ppl casually and they thought i was crazy so ????? #and then apparently its synaesthesia but idk i feel like its just normal LMAO #anyways im rambling ACK THE CURSE STRIKES AGAIN DHDKDL i will leave the tags and go get ready for the day LOL #maybe i can design that butch character during my hospital group today hmmm #catch me drawing hot butches in my fucked-in-the-head YA social group WHEEZE #dandy.cmd

[ars0nism]

while yeah the popularity of m/m ships is (partially) rooted in misogyny (bland love interests leading to everyone shipping the main characters with the best friends), its also because the majority of fandom is made up of cishet teen girls who really do not care for f/f romance, a concerning amount of them even being disgusted by sapphics. heartstopper's popularity in contrast to most f/f projects failing or being canceled isnt because m/m is more accepted, its that the straight men who fetishize lesbians do it more often in porn, whereas straight women are more likely to consume actual romantic media. you see this in fanspaces where the female characters ARE wellwritten and have chemistry with each other and how m/m still overshadows f/f on the ao3 tags of such fandoms. in this essay i will-

#tired of tik tok sapphics blaming mlm for us getting more rep when really its just a case of fetishization and misogyny #the only reason achillean media gets blown up more is bc straight women are more likely to consume romantic media than straight men #its like the whole 'trans women have it worse than trans men' debate. the struggle isnt comparable bc theyre rooted in different issues #of course theres overlap within these issues but at the end of the day the discrimination we face isnt identical #i wholeheartedly support wlw getting shows. im genuinely looking forward to first kill actually it looks really cool #this is just an observation i made specifically in destiny bc the ao3 destiny tag top relationships are mostly m/m or f/m #last i checked at least #but they do have fascinating characters. hell like three of my favorite w/w ships (two of which are canon) come from there #but yeah i only involve that one bc its been my number 1 special interest for a while #there are more media where it would make sense for f/f ships to be popular #like if we removed straight women from the equation ao3 would lose 80% of its fics but the balance between m/m & f/f would be a lot better #this also isnt an attack on straight women idc about straight women yall do whatever this is specifcally #about the straight women who fetishize the shit out of mlm & then turn around and be grossed out by wlw existing. ur not cute #anyway idk if this is coherent im miserable and exhausted and dizzy iwas just thinking about this #shoutout to ronance btw i hope you grow ur a wonderful ship and i love you #shoutout to arcane too im in a server with a bunch of sapphics bc they all flocked to that show like FLIES #its wonderful i love them #im not sure about the cancellation rate though. netflix is just a little fucked up i guess

[creatively-cosmic]

THIS IS FOR EVERYTHING.

#pokemon #pokepasta #pokemon blue #blue oak #blue's tears #abandoned lonliness #i tag it as both bc . listen its a whole thing ok #sometimes you have a pokepasta and also general pokemon spin . and you incorporate elements of all ur favorite things into how u write guys #blues entire ass story is based on like four different (and slightly conflicting) pokepastas. and i am having the time of my life #sometimes you peep the horrors and realize your rival bestoe was replaced and lose it a little trying to find him #and also you are a little unhinged and try to kill the impostor taking his place #madness in feeling like you lost everything . the only believable explanation being that some kind of curse is following you #and you take desperate measures to set things right. not because you are truly hateful. but because theres nothing left to lose #sometimes all you have to fight with is the manifestation of your grief because you have no other choice. #as for what happened to the real red dw about it (glitchy red) ((and ketsuban)) #the gen 1 boys are FINE everything is FINE #anyways im normal . anyways #glitching #eyestrain #missing numbers

[bumbleblurr]

my argument for why we should blurrbeerod

#i think they are varying degrees of dumbass andbfmfn #theyre sillay ur honor #blurr is the one trying to keep the other 2 out of trouble though ajdhfj #and bee indulges roddys rowdy streak #and other details ive thought abt but cannot remember rn #anyway give me a moment to be brave enough to put this in the tags #tfa #transformers animated #blurr #bumblebee #rodimus #blurrbeerod #zippy cube joke number 420

[mbti-enemies]

How do I know which one of you is posting?

You don’t 👀 …. not every time at least

#Ngl I think we have some calling cards but you’ll have to figure it out bshsbdh #i think we made a post on this before acc?? #anyways as we said then… calling card number one…. infj writes far too much in the tags of her posts #ask #Acc intj does smt too but mine are WAYYY too much idk it’s a probability game #ha when tumblr comes out w tumblr wrapped watch the longest tag be urs again #can't WAIT till tumblr wrappped aaah