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mecachrome · 14 days

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very selfishly would love more of ur thoughts on oscar accommodating and mirroring lando.... as an insane landoheadTM ive been watching lando slowly match oscar's energy in the past year and its been driving me insane and ur SO right that oscars done the same thing!! kind of crazy kind of losing my mind would love to get more thoughts out of u

!!!!!!!!! hi kira i would LOVE 2 talk about this. also this answer may or may not be 2k words long

god there are so many Angles and Frameworks and Contexts through which it is possible to examine 814's dynamic that i constantly feel unhinged about it. and probably sound unhinged as well…… pls note that all of this is pure insanity from my insaneperson brain ⚠️ ;__; ok where to begin.

to me the thing about 814 mirroring each other is that in reality it's actually a metaphor for many different things ❗️ on one hand you can interpret it Literally as in a strictly physical sense—the idea of mirroring someone as running parallel and positioning yourself firmly opposite each other, as constructing intricate rituals in order to NOT touch the skin of other men, being so specifically magnetically repulsed that any contact is accidental and fleeting and causes you to spring away as quickly as you'd met. but then there is also the other sense of mirroring that is….. more amorphous and conceptual, e.g. how oscar has in many ways indirectly orbited lando his entire career and how although they've only been teammates for a year now lando has technically been a primary reference point of his throughout a majority of his teens. AND what i think is so interesting about that too is that if you look back at oscar's Evolution As A Person, you could argue that he's been purely Himself As He Is Now for a very long time... yes there've been minute fluctuations in maturity and just general cringeness and muscle growth and cheek fat etc. etc. but at least outwardly in how he communicates with other people and displays his mentality / innate habits / mannerisms he's basically been his fully realized adult self since he was like 17??? which obviously cannot be said of lando norris who has grown massively in appearance and perspective and assuredness and so on from the ages of 17 to 21 to 24. yet this constantly evolving & changing your_choice_of_lorde_album Growing Pains lando has always been a sort of distant static fixed point in the future of oscar's mind… hmmm. that's just part of it tho

basically 814 as they are now are sooo fascinating to me because again They Do Not (Consciously) Touch but they've still very gradually managed to build off the foundations of oscar's subconscious teenage mirroring by turning it into something… well perhaps not quite fully intentional (and isn't that almost better in the end!!!) but certainly more self-aware and generally conscious. basically: the Negative Space of landoscar's demonstrated "affection" is where their reciprocity lies! if that makes sense.

and i guess what i'm trying to get at is that… on surface level, it's easy to say that 1) Oscar has always only ever been himself (generally true) and that 2) As the guy who came into f1 at 19 and was continuously expected to meet his more extroverted teammates' energies lando is the one who's habituated to experiencing marked change (also fairly true), but this still obfuscates equally important facets of their personalities: i.e. that oscar may be the more ~intellectually~ inclined of the two (which also who Cares. completely totally off-topic LOL but personal pet peeve of mine is people acting like there is a discernible difference between a-level maths and whatever private tutoring lando did after dropping out when their job title is lichrally F1 Driver…?! both are negligible fractions of fractions of whatever postgrad coursework the team's Actual engineers have done!!! but anyway), my personal argument is that really oscar is so consistently himself BY having zero concept of himself. whereas lando….. actually does possess a very strong inner character and intense, at times destabilizing self-awareness but also boasts a higher eq that enables a very high capability for social camouflage.

……????????? this is like a 10-paragraph intro. What am i getting at.

so basically. Yes. mutual accommodation……. i think my main point is that despite lando's strong baseline character and idiosyncrasies and particularities and fussiness and general weirdness, He Can, when necessitated, (as long as it doesn't completely contradict his moral impulse etc. etc.) soften that edge and adapt to another person's expectations—Even if just to maintain bearable social rapport & conversation. whereas on the other hand oscar can sometimes actually be a lot more malleable because he doesn't really hold strong conviction in much outside the few non-negotiables in his life ??? (read: racing...) like yes he's still competitive in challenges and is pedantic as shit but also he kind of just Doesn't care……. so basically he's the perfect fit for lando. because he DOESN'T expect anything from lando and lando DOESN'T need to camouflage himself for oscar and because oscar interprets things straight-forwardly and at face value and reads lando's intentions in good faith and honestly probably like 30% of lando's overthinking is a result of people constantly assuming the worst of him so i think on some level it's like 👉 👈 when you're both a little weird and also weird in these little different ways but in the end those minute shifts are what make you compatible and fit you back together again ?!?!?!? as i said it's the negative space of it all.

so really landoscar are not totally "opposites attract" but they're also not identical "mctwins" or whatever because Nuance and Secret Third Thing and what's truly critical about their mirroring is basically that 1) they don't EXPECT the other person to do it 2) they don't INTENTIONALLY do it and 3) it only happens because they're intensely aware of the other person's personality and mannerisms and appearances... bref IT'S ABOUT THE CATALOGUING!! like lando saw oscar in 2023 for the first time and immediately went oh you've gotten taller? oh you have big arms now? and they can't help pointing out each other's hair and ALSO >portrait painting (gets ko'd) "do you like purple?" "...uhhhh i can do now" like WHO SAYS THAT? ANDDDDD this was after oscar had picked purple to begin with but lando was like Nooo you can't do that :/ so oscar changed even though he'd argued that he'd "already committed to it" literal moments prior. Many such cases (i'm not finding a chair anyone?). they make me feel insane.

right let me just finish up with a few more moments (if you're still reading i'm sorry) but Vocabgifset is kind of a rough overview of how, at the very beginning, i think oscar did come in with a very undefined approach to How To Be A Teammate ? and was ready to treat lando as he'd treated rob and logan and fred and whomever and maybe even reflecting the atmosphere as reserve at alpine a little bit idk—essentially more visibly abrasive and pedantic and generally annoying. Also (ahem) perhaps how he'd seen lando act around carlos and daniel before... Guy who has carlando tweets in his twitter likes. 😔

but of course lando REALLYYY doesn't like being unnecessarily corrected over ultimately inconsequential things and again his demeanor is far from bombastic when it hasn't been demanded of him, so i think oscar quickly recognized that in his character and learned to just play along with what lando liked and wanted—not because he was preoccupied with lando getting annoyed at him or thought that lando was sensitive or whatever and not because he himself is a pushover because of course there is a healthy & endearing amount of push/pull to their dynamic but just because he sincerely respects lando and with that respect understood that he didn't need to "force" their dynamic when it would prosper by just being himself and more importantly letting lando be himself……….. Or something.

which imo is basically the basis of their current communication style: a lot of wordless meaningful looks & expressions (because they're both entirely honest people in different ways) (SEE: VIRGIN RADIO UK) (the thing Is that lando has no verbal filter but oscar is the one with 0 control of his expressions and deeply revealing permablush), oscar always folding to whatever lando says in an interview, jumping into frame and following along lando's message in the british f4 anniversary video, listening to lando's music through the walls of their driver rooms, and of course any instance of their Soft Talking Voices such as → "yeahhh you're up there" "aww (genuinely a little pleased and flustered)" and CAT 5 behind the scenes smoothie convo and oscar patiently waiting for lando to finish speaking and not wanting to enforce his presence but always being there and ready to help him….. like the worst part 2 me of the "well-represented" video is that andrea turns to lando first and tries to help him but lando is Still processing and Not listening so THEN he looks at oscar to be like um i don't know the word and that's when andrea looks back at oscar expectantly 🥲😭😩!!!!!!!! what if i dyed. honestly. the category is truly just oscar being susceptible to Lando Norris…………… i could go on.

also >RANDOM MOMENT TOTALLY NOT IMPORTANT but the yes/no challenge is so devastating on every conceivable level and yet One thing that i do not think is discussed enough! is the way oscar physically leans into lando's space on the table every time it's his turn to answer the questions and Specifically how in round 1 the media people were trying to get his attention to tell him to put the mic pack into his pocket but he was soooooooooo focused and fixated on lando's face right up until lando turned to speak to the camera that he didn't notice for like 3 minutes. GAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH. argh. the problem with oscar is that he's SINCERE. truly. "are you ready oscar piastri?" [zero hesitation whatsoever] "i am ready lando norris 🥰"

of course it's not like oscar doesn't introspect whatsoever because obviously he is very capable of self-assessing when something is important by an objective measure of success (aka recognizing deficits over a lap), but relative to lando's specific brand of overthinking & online lurking habits then oscar very much does.... basically underthink??? yes he overcomplicates simple ideas by being too literal but really as a person & conscious being he's great at living in the Present and filtering out excess noise. er... i won't delve too much into the ojp Learned Behaviors of it all and why he's so charming to older people specifically but basically Wwyd if an F1 driver microdosed autisticswag? joking. mostly. but i def agree re: your tags that oscar is never actually consciously trying to be a WELL AKSHUALLY guy because it's just fundamental expressive compulsion alkdsfhaldfh.

also specifically one of my favorite tiny little 814 things OAT is when lando says something unexpected or ridiculous and oscar parrots it back all high-pitched and breathily and disbelievingly like? Girl. this is super jank but perhaps you understand....... 😔

in the end it's getting asked >what have you picked up from lando and oscar saying Well everyone hmmms but not in the Special Multifaceted Uniquely Expressive way that Lando does ! whom I not only know well enough to intimately recognize this mannerism from but have also elected to mention multiple times in this interview. and at the end of the day...? maybe that's romanze

is this anything… idk. also i offer you the jankiest gif ever because i had to remove zbrown to fit them together (Which perhaps is also a metaphor for reaching each other Across The Distance NO PHYSICALITY REQUIRED!! ok i can't just keep saying see: [another random ass example] so i'll stop now but also see: eyebrow raise knowing smile at the end of the sim city video.) anyway why's this such another crasyinsane little moment of how they communicate with each other?! is it just me ?????????

alskfhsfd ok i'm so sorry. thank u for letting me ramble incessantly 🧡

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kaurwreck · 22 days

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If you want can you post your skk hcs? I was rereading you fanfic snippets of them and just wanted to know what you try to add in when writing them?

ty for asking about my skk headcanons! i'll share the ones that you can nearly always presume to be "canon" in the fics I write.

Chuuya has a vulva + internal reproductive organs, but with so few memories prior to the Sheep, he doesn't recall having an assigned gender divergent from his own and has always known himself to be a boychild. He's rarely been prompted to think anything of it: the Sheep didn't make a fuss when he started menstruating, although Shirase did defer to Yuan to teach him how to manage it once they realized; Mori educated him on his options once Mori became aware but was otherwise unfazed and had forged Chuuya's koseki anyway; etc., etc. Which isn't to say Chuuya doesn't pursue and receive gender affirming care, only that he's both self-assured in his own and rather naive regarding matters of gender and sexuality. (i.e., insofar as trans is a useful framework here, he's trans.)

Dazai is ashamed of his sexual attraction. Not in his sexuality (as in preferences), but he thinks his sexual attraction is, generally, an imposition and a vulgar burden he thrusts onto others. This doesn't stop him from feeling it and pursuing others. It's just one of the many contours of his self-loathing.

Dazai and Chuuya weren't completely no-contact for those four years, but they talk about it as if they were.

Chuuya has a Port Mafia-subsidized penthouse with an aboveground wine cellar. He still frequents the Agency dorms; he doesn't like Dazai snooping around and making messes in his penthouse. Or stealing his wine and wine paraphernalia for wine fraud, which happens sometimes and has, previously, fucked with the integrity of Chuuya's cache of Romanée Conti vintages.

Chuuya is a workaholic and very driven in his commitment to his organization. Dazai cherishes and serves at the leisure of the hand that feeds him but isn't. Quite as career oriented as Chuuya.

Both are polyamorous more or less. But exceedingly possessive of the other in hyperspecific, sometimes toxic ways.

Chuuya has extensive irezumi beneath his clothes, much of which memorializes his loved ones. (Including Dazai, but most everyone knows better than to acknowledge those pieces.) Dazai, meanwhile, doesn't have any tattoos; he can't tolerate the needles (whether hand or electric). Dazai will join Chuuya during his sessions, though, if only to bother him in ways Chuuya can't do anything about while being tattooed.

They don't negotiate anything, which is usually fine. They work it out one way or another when it's not.

They have several intricate rituals to navigate around each other's severe intimacy issues.

While they were both in the Port Mafia, there was a strict mandate against Dazai riding passenger on Chuuya's motorcycle. Enforceable by any member of the organization regardless of rank.

They're technically legally married under Dazai's birth identity (Shuuji Tsushima); that's also the identity with which Chuuya has a joint bank account and multiple tax fraud schemes (in which Akutagawa and Gin are also implicated as dependents), among other things. (Note: I've unilaterally decided Japan recognizes same sex marriage in bsd-verse, especially given the plethora of anachronistic, fictitious, and quirky policies, ministries, levers of governance, etc. canonical to bsd-verse that preclude the canonical existence of several of Japan's current irl legal institutions, including its constitution as amended.)

#soukoku #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd dazai #bsd chuuya #fic wip

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fan-clan-fun · 4 months

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This isn't fan clan related, but I'm curious. If you were to take the four clans (excluding SkyClan) and make them more unique, how would you do it? What I mean is what physique would you give ThunderClan? What distinctive skill would you give RiverClan? Will you give WindClan special customs? What about ShadowClan?

Gosh this is gonna be a long one. It's entirely possible I have answered something like this in the past, and if I have, and this answer is changed from that... well people grow and change too. So let's see what my thoughts are on the clan today. First off, I would focus on what miniscule stuff we get in the books and expand on it. Thunderclan - A very martial society, your rank is earned primarily based on your physical abilities, fighting, hunting, etc. I imagine their ceremonies and expectations revolve around that. They are loud, proud, obnoxious in some ways. They are... almost like Americans with how patriotic they are. Only partially kidding. They are the ones most likely to uphold the strictest niceties of the code, or pretend to anyway. Culturally, they are very into the mythos of heros, telling grand stories of cats who came before, and their exploits, and they value their lineage greatly. Oh, this hero was my sire's great great grandfather, and he did this. It also shows up in their naming conventions, as many kits are named after past heros, or cats the parents respected or want their kits to be like. Aside from attitude, they have skills primarily geared towards their forest environment. They should be able to climb trees, navigate through dense underbrush, and fight off the more abundant predators. As a result, bigger, tougher cats have thrived, whereas the smaller slimmer body types are not considered as attractive and are not as well represented. Scars are considered the height of beauty, as they show off the strength and prowess of a cat. It means they fought something and survived. Windclan - With the introduction of the tunnelers in the special edition, I feel like there's an interesting dichotomy to be found in Windclan. Ultimately, as much as I like it, and even would like to explore it, I feel like there was good reasoning for the tunnelers to be done away with. That said, those skills could be repurposed. To me, what marks Windclan is its ability to be adaptable.

With all its open spaces, I think Windclan would be well served as a semi-nomadic group, that has one or two different camps that it moves between based on the weather and prey density. For the winter, I imagine they shelter in a system of caves, which are maintained and cared for by a small group of tunnelers. In summer, they have an above ground camp, set at a somewhat high point in the territory, where they wouldnt get flooded out during a storm. As a result, cats are taught a wide set of skills. The clan works together at every step of the way, and a take down larger and faster pray like rabbits as a result. Windclan cats are used to traveling long distances, and being friendly with outsiders for a variety of reasons, information on movements of other cats or groups of them and food sources for example. I see Windclan as having the biggest territory, but also the sparsest when it comes to prey and population. Windclan is a very collaborative clan, they sing and tell stories to pass the time as they travel, building on one another for fantastical tales that bring hope and excitement during the bleaker times. They revere the stars, and the wind, and use the sky as their guide to travel. Their spirituality is focused on Starclan as a group, rather than individuals. There are many intricate stories and rituals that the clan performs under the stars, each season and each moon. Names hold great meaning, but are also often ethereal and based on feeling, rather than any particular meaning.

Because of the need to be agile, and survive long distances of travel, sleeker, smaller cats have thrived in the clan, as they require less food and are quick on their paws. Windclan cats rarely meet an enemy head on or one on one, using their agility to ambush and confuse any source of danger. Shadowclan - An ever practical clan, I see Shadowclan as having the smallest and least desirable territory, meaning this clan does what must be done. They are willing to bend the code if they need, in order to get what they want. At the same time, they are fiercely loyal to friends and family. Not necessarily the clan as an image, but the ones they care about. If you are looking for innovation, clever resolutions to problems, and independence of thought, Shadowclan is where you will find it. They'll propose puzzles to solve around the fresh kill pile to keep their minds sharp. There's little fear in this clan, nor much room for being picky. If something is edible, you take it, you bring it back.

Shadowclan often find themselves being called sneaky or duplicitous because they are willing to compromise the code, or use others to get what is needed for the clan to thrive, but really, its about survival. No hard feelings. They've learned to hide, to watch, to learn, that ambush and guerilla tactics are far more effective, and less likely to lose a clan member, than head on confrontation. As such, dark pelts are preferred, but otherwise, if it helps you survive? Thats all that matters.

To some of the other clans they appear irreverent, but to Shadowclan, its just common sense. Starclan isnt alive right now, they are gone. Sure they might be able to help, but might not. Cant rely on them and wait for them to help. Its better to do it yourself. The same can be said for names. Prefixes arent given much value, based only on material things, but your suffix? Thats what defines you, as it shows the skills and challenges you went through to get your name. There's often a fierce competition amongst apprentices to not end up with the same suffix, to be the best in the group at certain things. Riverclan - Riverclan are the epitome of work smarter, not harder. They have the most prosperous territory of the four, with a mostly guaranteed food source throughout the majority of the year, aside from the coldest winter months when things freeze over. The clan makes it its business to know everything there is to know about water, how it flows and pools, how to swim, how to manipulate its direction for the clan's benefit. All kits are taught how to swim from as young as possible. It's said that Riverclan apprenticeships are the hardest of the clans, as apprentices are expected to learn a lot, and take on a lot of responsibility. But once you become a warrior, you are much more prepared and settled, confident in your abilities. And by being aware of their skills and limitations, it allows warriors to know what they have to do, and how long it takes, and allows them the time to relax after. Many warriors seem lazy or childish, because they are reliving the childhood they never had, now that they are old enough to do so. But having the most prosperous food source, also makes Riverclan targets. They have developed a reputation of silver tongues, but also of being pushovers. At the same time, while other clan war far more frequently, Riverclan find themselves the peace makers and neutral arbiters. They are generous with their food and their resources in times of need, leaving other clans often in debt to them.

The physical traits that make a Riverclan cat effective, are thick fur to protect the body from cold water, and an ability to store fat easily. When Riverclan cats do end up in a fight, they don't back down or hide, they take others on directly, their fur and extra padding a layer of protection.

Their worship of starclan is rather traditional, but also not fanatic. They invoke Starclan for blessings regarding the weather, ask them to intercede about rain and storms. There is a belief that Starclan, like the stars reflecting on water, are reflecting in the living cats. Some Riverclan cats even whisper about reincarnations, that just like water comes from the sky, and returns to it, so do cats and their spirits. This means that like Thunderclan, many cats are named for cats from before, or names that have to do with water in its many forms. Well, I said it was gonna be a long one, and boy howdy it is. I havent written on canon clans for a hot minute, but I could probably expand and think on this more, I might never stop if I started though. Maybe this will give others some inspiration!

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claudiaaaana · 11 months

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Here me out, secret agent/spy AU where Natsu is a field agent and Lucy is his support, basically feeding him his Intel through a piece in his ear while he's on missions. They rarely ever spend time in person, rather they bond almost entirely through banter while on missions.

Honestly, this reminds me of Healer—a kdrama where the guy was also kind of like a field agent and he had this woman (no ship or anything, this lady was way too older) who was his partner through the ear thing. She would arrange his missions, get the information for him, all through the computer BUT!! They didn’t know each other personally, he didn’t even know how she looked like, only she knew him physically because she would always see him through the computers and everything.

Now lemme drop some headcanons for that:

•Lucy’s office is a mess. Scattered books, manila folder, and files all over the place, a map with red strings pinned to her wall and ceilings, book shelves attached to the wall like a whole fvcking library, the place is always dark as she sits in front of the computer, being the only source of light in the room. She always wears skimpy outfits and likes to chew gum a lot, which drives Natsu insane when he can hear it through the earbud, not to mention he has super sensitive ears. She wears glasses sometimes. She’s one of the youngest in the organization Fairy Tail (lolol, can't think of any other name) because of her hacker skills and her tactician brain, and she gets paid very well, but she doesn’t have a fancy house or anything because she’s just horrible at being responsible with her money. She just buys lots of pink cars, pink motorbikes, and books. And just recently, she purchased different types of whips, and a set of latex. And she doesn't have any idea why she bought them, let alone where and when to use them.

•Anyway, quick background. Basically, Fairy Tail is a home for missions, agents, retired CIA, military or whatsoever. Their main vision is to destroy rings, auction and underground markets that sell women and children for -----graphy and blood rituals. They also take requests from the government, sometimes helping the paramilitary from destroying the terrorist. They also once unraveled the dirty secret of the previous government, some of them funding rings and auction. The previous gov can't overthrow their org since they're worldwide 🤷, and has several co-org like the Sabers, Lamia, and Mermaid. Has several warehouses and hq where they can take care of their saved victims and give them shelter and protection before reuniting them with their families. If they don't have one, FT gladly takes them in. Their org is invisible. The main hq, which is sitting in the middle of the busy city, is a tourist hotel. Some of their hq(globally) are restaurant, boutique, arcade, hotels, resorts, apartment, and etc. It takes any form and names, but they are all in one org, to not look too suspicious in the eyes of rivalry and corrupt gov. With Mira as the receptionist of the main hq, when someone slides a gold coin with intricate insignia of their org on her counter, she knows who they are, what is their position and rank based on the carved symbol on the back of the coin, and she exactly knows what to do with them (just watch John Wick. But the coin in JW is not exactly the way I describe it above) And Lucy is not working in any of their hq, she decided to have her own apartment and make it her own workplace instead. But from time to time, she would pay a visit. Only Mira and the manager (of course, Makarov) knows the faces of their field agents and hackers. While the agents themselves didn't know their support (their hacker partner) faces and identities, their support exactly knows who they are. Some field agents didn't even know that they already bumped their support in the middle of the street.

•Natsu's first meeting with Gray, and they almost killed each other. They didn't know each other, and didn't even know that they're co-field agents of FT. It just happened, you know, bumping into each other's shoulder in a banquet while they were in the middle of their own mission when they started throwing punches. Got them punished by the second arm of the manager, Erza. And finally learning each other's identities, they would still be at each other's throat. But seriously, they started to have a drink in an exclusive club after their tiring mission. They wouldn't admit it to themselves but they became the best of best friends. Still trying to kill each other, tho.)

•Natsu is a mess. Literally, a mess. He could look like Natsu with his hair down (idk, I like him more if his hair is down or wet🤷), but his role as a secret field agent forces him to use a black wig sometimes and other things, which he hates—no, loathes since it reminds him of Gray. He didn't have any other choice. With his unusual hair color, he'll be doomed if someone recognizes his trademark. Have this intricate dragon tattoo in his back. So whenever it's his duty, he needs to cover it with full coverage cream, can't take the chance of the enemy catching a glimpse of his tattoo if he ever ruined his attire, especially if he was wearing a tux.

•One day, he has this very difficult urgent mission and Lucy sends him a box, with a letter neatly folded inside, "Use this attire for tomorrow.” (Sometimes, field agents are obliged to wear a dress code like for example a tux, camouflage, waiter uniform, etc., according to the higher ups orders). So when Natsu opens the box he sees the female clothes: a tight sexy ass dress, heels, blonde wig, some makeup, full coverage cream to cover his tattoo, skin tone silicone gloves, fake silicone boobs and butt, a flash drive, and some special firearms with silencer. Fresh from the bath and with only a towel wrapped around his hips, he curses under his breath and brushes his wet hair back. He picks up the earpiece from his nightstand, and puts it in his ear, ready to wage war with her. It's not like it's her fault, it's the higher ups' order, anyway. Becoming a bait.

•Because she needs to hack the cameras of the building or whatsoever to keep track with him, whenever Lucy sees Natsu fights and manhandle someone, she can't help her mind but to wonder what would it feel like to be manhandle or headlock by him. And Natsu would literally yells at her because she's not answering him.

•They like to troll each other. But Lucy is in different level. She LOVES to troll Natsu as she talks to him through the intel earbud, in the middle of their assignment. When he has to talk to some people to get information, she would sometimes tell him the things he has to say, and sometimes she says random shit like “Fix your uneven eyebrows” or "I fvck with your mom" and since he's obedient as a fvcking dog, he would literally say it. Out loud.

•Like I mentioned before, they have never met personally. Natsu always complains and whines about the fact that she does know how he looks, but he doesn’t. After a mission is over, they *insert romantic ballad from kdramas* have some cute talks at night while Natsu wanders the nights of the city by himself. There are moments when they just stay silent...not really knowing what to say, and Natsu can’t see that Lucy is repressing a smile, and sometimes it’s like “Uhh, uhm…okay, so… I guess we’ll talk tomorrow". And Natsu would be like, “Oh, s-sure, yeah, if I need anything, uh, I’ll call you”. Lucy: "Don’t bother me too much, it’s really annoying having to listen to your whiny voice 24 hours at day. I'm done.” Natsu would snorts, and then she ends the call with a smile sjhsfkhdjghsddgja.

•Natsu smokes sometimes, but he's not a chain smoker. He just smoke to calm his nerves or if he's stressing the fvck out. So whenever Lucy see him through the camera or hear him inhaling the cancer stick, she will raise hell. She will constantly reminds him not to smoke nor litter. And guess what? He will listen, grumbling something under his breath as he crashes the stick in his fist before flicking it right to the trash can. He has this whole pack inside his drawer, and when Lucy got tired of scolding him, she said she hates the smells of it and hates people smoking it. He throws it all away in a heartbeat. Literally, emptying his drawer and throwing away all of his lighter.

•Natsu always tells her that one day he will take her out for dinner or for stargazing because she had mentioned before that she loves staring at the sky covered with twinkling star, and Natsu know some spot perfect for that. Lucy makes fun of him, but at the same time she feels a little bad because for some weird reason, the policy of their org doesn’t allow the field-agent and their support to meet personally? Who knows, but that increases their frustration when they are starting to like each other. Natsu has never seen her, so he literally ends up falling in love with her voice only. Sometimes, he spends time talking to her about how he thinks she looks.

"Brunette?"

"Nu-uh."

“Ginger?”

“Nope.”

“Uh, are you tall?”

“Jeez, are you really expecting me to be a super tall ginger or brunette porn star?”

“What? I wasn’t—!”

“I'm super short, you would probably have to look at the floor to see my face.”

•And he makes fun of her and her height, which ends up of him eating her series of curses and screeches before she cuts the connection.

•One day, he asks her if she has big boobs, big butt and wide hips. Lucy dies in embarrasment and ends the call.

•The fact that they’re constantly talking through an earbud DOESN’T GIVE YOU AN AMAZING NSFW THOUGHTS????👀👀👀👀👀🔥🔥🔥🔥 INTENSE AND MIND FVCKING ORGASMIC PHONESEX!!!!

•Talking about nsfw, imagine how intense their first encounter would be, after talking through a little device for years without being in front of each other…They would probably stay up all night, eating each other out, fighting for dominance, and fvcking each others' brains out. ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) idc what anyone says but Mashima's artwork definitely confirmed that they were both sub and dom. You know, that chain thingy.

•Also it’s super bad for Natsu because sometimes Lucy gets into trouble with the organization (Lol, let's reverse the role. She’s a rebel here—Actually, no, they're both rebels. Idc), and they sanction her for days, even weeks, and she’s not allowed to speak to him or any of her co-workers friends out of work, so Natsu feels super worried all the time because she doesn’t get the chance to warn him first. He was given a temporary support, and he hates every minute of someone giving him instructions instead of Lucy. She just disappears and their organization is very dangerous (they’re spies, so they get into trouble with other people quite often) so he’s always scared that something bad might had happened to her. She then returns telling him that she’s fine, that she just got sanctioned for answering back or something. He then gets super mad at her, and she would give her rebuttal, "You're no better than me, idiot! Don't tell me you've already forgotten about the last month issue? YOU GOT SANCTIONED AS WELL! AND WORSE PUNISHED BY HER!!! BY ERZA!!!" And he would be like, "Oh, yeah? Then let me tell you something." And then they stays up late all night bickering and annoying each other. But once they're done and finally cuts the connection, there's a smile on their faces as Lucy laid her head on her pillow, while Natsu blows out a thick icy smoke from the cold as he rest his arms against the bridge railings, and looks up at the dark sky.

•Natsu once picks up a strange blue cat while still in the middle of the mission. Literally holding the poor blue cat close to his chest as he bangs his assailants' head against the table and wall. And he can hear Lucy's little cheer through the ear piece. They become fur-parent for this blue cat (we know who it is).

•Lucy also gets a bit salty when he’s on a mission and he has to flirt with a girl to get information, or when the girl starts flirting with him. Natsu doesn’t know how to flirt, so he’s always asking her to tell him things to say to the girls. As a little revenge, Lucy says “Tell her that her hair smells like spicy chicken salad". And oh boy, Natsu thinks that the smell of spicy chicken salad is really good, he loves that food, but the girl in front of him takes that as an insult and ends up slapping him. Lucy giggles at the other side, even if that will get her into trouble with the organization for not helping Natsu in the mission.

•I LOVE THIS SO MUCH. Lucy gets in trouble one day like one of their enemies storm her work place and abduct her to get information out of her, and Natsu's next mission is to retrieve her.

•Well, you know, the night before the retrieving-Lucy mission as he prepares, he gets anxious. Literally freaking himself out. And itching to inhale his old addiction (after meeting Lucy and becoming his partner, she became his new addiction, tho). And now that she's gone, he can't help but to light the devil. With only a first puff, he immediately regrets it. With the cigarette stick resting in between his lips, he can hear her in his ears. Angry adorable voice scolding him. He grits his teeth, nearly crushing the stick between his lips, before he chuckles softly and forcibly pulls out the stick out of his mouth and throws it away in the river under the bridge. He looks up at the night sky(his usual spot) and whispers, "I'm sorry, I littered again. Please, come back home. It's getting lonely here."

•Just imagine trying to stay calm as he infiltrate the enemy's base. But he can't help but be brutal to them. Silently yet brutally ending them with a bullet, and not giving them any mercy. He will stare at them dead in the eyes, asking them with only one question in his head, "Where is she?" And probably his eyes will be the last thing they see as he sends them off dead when they can't give him the answer.

•Imagine him first time seeing her personally. (well, he has already seen her in the picture before the mission). After an agonizing two weeks without hearing her voice, he finally hear her calling his name. She's here, in the flesh. Her in a not-so-good situation, tied up, black and blue bruise, blood, but she's putting up a fight. And him going in a rampage, sending someone in hell with his death burning glare. Insert dramatic kdrama OST.

#nalu #lucy heartifilla #natsu dragneel #fairy tail #fairy tail 100 years quest #natsu x lucy #Jannaaaa writes

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Bengiyo's Queer Cinema Syllabus

For those who are not aware, I have decided to run the gauntlet of @bengiyo’s Queer Cinema Syllabus and have officially started Unit 2: Race, Disability, and Class. The films in Unit 2 are: The Way He Looks (2014), Being 17 (2016), Naz and Maalik (2015), The Obituary of Tunde Johnson (2019), Margarita With a Straw (2014), My Beautiful Laundrette (1985), Brother to Brother (2004), and Beautiful Thing (1996)

Today I will be writing about

Being 17 (2016) dir. André Téchiné

[Available on Amazon Prime, Runtime: 1:54, Language- French]

Summary: Damien lives with his mother Marianne, a doctor, while his father is on a tour of duty abroad. He is bullied by Thomas, whose mother is ill. The boys find themselves living together when Marianne invites Thomas to come and stay with them. (from IMDB)

Cast Sandrine Kiberlain as Dr. Marianne Delille Kacey Mottet Klein as Damien Delille Corentin Fila as Thomas Chardoul

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There is something I desperately love in film and television that I certainly do not talk about enough, and that is when an object or a setting acts as a character within a story (i.e. the Poor Boy shirt in Only Friends or Wilson in Castaway). While I have a background in technical theater and I am a slut for lighting design especially, I have realized over the past few months of writing immense amounts of media analysis that I never really set out in watching a show with a particular technical element in mind to discuss (by which I mean I did not go in to movie with the intention of paying attention to the costume design and discussing it’s significance). But in Being 17 what very quickly became apparent to me was the weather, the landscape, and coming out the other end of this film, the weather felt like a character all on it’s own.

The film begins and all we see on screen is white, snow covered mountains, minimal dialogue, just the sound of snow crunching beneath feet, sniffles from runny noses, etc. During the entire first trimester of Thomas and Damien’s school year there is snowfall for as far as the eye can see. I recognize this is probably a strange place for me to start in writing up my thoughts on this film, but I am working my way through the Race, Disability, and Class Unit of the syllabus right now, so I think paying attention to setting is vitally important. Especially for this film, because Thomas is Black, Thomas is poor, and Thomas is the adoptive son of a white couple.

Personally, I don’t think the movie does a deep dive in to the subject of race, but that does not mean that conversations about race do not exist in the film. I just see them being placed there more subtly. In the way that the only thing our eye can differentiate in the vast blanket of thick, white snow, is a backlit, black silhouetted figure trudging across the screen. Thomas is the only Black person in his family, Thomas goes to a school with very few people of color, Thomas gets invited to stay with Damien’s family who are also all white. And I loved that in the beginning of this story, when Thomas is reserved, withdrawn, aggressive, and self-isolating that there is almost no place that he can go to escape whiteness. The whiteness at school, the whiteness at home, the whiteness at Damien’s, the whiteness outside.

And literally just now as I was writing that up I realized that there is one place that Thomas frequents in the movie, especially when there is still snow on the ground, and that is a lake at the top of a mountain, where the water is black.

Anyway, I say all this because the weather in this film is a character to me, a physical manifestation of the feelings between Thomas and Damien. In the first trimester, in the winter, the feelings Thomas has for Damien are ice cold (or at least appear that way). Damien and Thomas are actively hostile to one another, Thomas especially initiates a number of fights between himself and Damien (oh the intricate rituals that allow men to touch the skin of other men). Damien recites poetry in class and Thomas trips him, Thomas can’t solve a math equation and Damien insults him, if they are in the same space for more than thirty seconds blows will be exchanged.

We learn in the first trimester that Thomas’ mother is sick, that he lives up in the mountains on a farm and travels three hours round trip to get to school, we learn that his mother is pregnant, and that Thomas is a consolation child. I love how much subtlety there is in this film, how much a single line can reveal so much about a character’s behavior. Soon after Thomas learns of his mother’s pregnancy, he is talking with his father about all the failed pregnancies that had happened before Thomas. Thomas asks his father “If she had [birthed a child], I wouldn’t be here?” to which his father, smiling, light hearted, and jokingly says yes. Yes, if Thomas’ mother had had her own biological child, then they would not have adopted Thomas. The line is delivered, the actors react in such a way that an audience might not see the emotional impact, until the scene cuts to Thomas sitting in bed, staring out the window.

Tom’s mom goes to the hospital, and Dr. Delille suggests that Thomas come and stay with her and Damien for a while. The reasoning is that Thomas is falling behind in school, he has a long commute, he works the farm at night. It is very difficult for him to concentrate on his studies. The Delille family lives closer to the school, they are close to the hospital where Thomas’ mother is staying. Thomas wants to be a vet, he knows that the more his grades slip the slimmer the chance that he can make it to vet school. But he is incredibly resistant to the idea of staying at the Delilie’s, saying he loves the mountains, he wants to be able to help take care of the farm, and despite the fact that these are both generally true for him, you can see and understand exactly why Thomas is pushing so hard to stay at the farm. He has heard mere days ago that a successful pregnancy of his mother’s would have resulted in him never being adopted, and now here is a pregnancy that is seemingly going well, and his parents are suggesting he move away from home and go stay with another family.

I want to make it clear, this is not a conscious or insidious effort on his parents’ part to get rid of Thomas, they genuinely want him to stay at the Delille’s because they believe being closer to school, and having a smart adult around to help with homework questions will help get Thomas’ grades up. But we know that is where Thomas’ mind is wandering because he makes a half-joking comment to Dr. Delille about it: “Finally, a real child,” and to Dr. Delille’s credit, she does not let that comment just skate by, telling Thomas “there are no fake children.”

Now that Thomas and Damien are living under the same roof and have been forced by Damien’s mom to call a truce to their constant fighting, they are starting to tolerate each other, to get along, to be able to share space. And when they do want to fight, they make a plan. Thomas picks a time and place, and both of them drive in the same car to the middle of the woods to fight each other. Rain falls, and they pause their fight to retreat to a cave for shelter, sharing a cigarette after they just beat the shit out of each other. [It is here where Ben’s voice popped in my head with his commentary on how boys fight, get it out of their system, and then are chilling with each other very soon after they’ve fought. This is a very accurate depiction of that observation from Ben.]

Thomas takes Damien to the lake he hikes to in the middle of the night, and wouldn’t you know it, Thomas and Damien sharing more about themselves, growing closer to become friends, happens at the same time that the snow begins to melt. The warmer months are approaching, and so too is Damien and Thomas’ relationship beginning to warm up.

With less pressure on him, more time to study, and a shorter commute, Thomas’ grades start to improve, and one of my favorite scenes in the movie is when Thomas’ teacher tells the whole class he got the highest grade, and Thomas is trying to hide his smile. I love that this film takes the time to show that Thomas does actually really care about school. That he cares about his grades. And I think adjacent to that, it adds additional weight to Thomas’ initial refusal to leave his parents due to his fear of being replaced. Damien starts his gay awakening, at which point we get a “I don’t know if I am in to guys or just you” moment.

And it is at that point I remember this whole syllabus is a warm up to BL, which makes me much more tolerant of the passing gay for you trope. (That said, considering the number of posters of men Damien has in his room, I think he is definitely queer). At the place in the story where Damien says this to Tom, there have been zero conversations about Damien’s growing feelings for Thomas. So, props to him for just coming right out and saying it. But with that comment spoken, the summer months are approaching. All the ice has melted, we start moving towards lighter clothing, fewer layers, and well, wouldn’t you know it the boys are getting along.

Where before Thomas would never be caught dead in the same space as Damien, even walking on opposite sides of the street to go back to Damien’s house so it didn’t seem like they were together. Now, they are sitting next to each other in class, they are acknowledging each other’s presence, they are talking and smiling, where everyone can see them. The weather is warm, the ice is gone, and the boys are sharing awkward, quick, exploratory, and messy kisses that bring Thomas’ internalized homophobia to the surface.

Thomas hits Damien, is expelled from school, is made to return to his home in the mountains, and he stays there until Damien’s father dies, and Thomas’ own father drags his sorry ass out of the house and makes him go to the funeral. Damien’s mom spirals in to a major depressive episode, and Thomas is the first person to drag her out of the house, and to get her outside. He takes her to the mountains, the mountains that he loves, and they get out of the car and they are surrounded by fog.

Which, again, on the subject of weather being a character, the weather being reflective of the emotional state of the characters. Thomas is a child, taking care of an adult, an adult who has just lost the love of her life, and who cannot see the sunlight through the clouds. Thomas wants to show Dr. Delille something beautiful, but she can’t see it yet. Thomas moves back in to the Delille’s house to help Damien take care of his mother. She steadily improves, the sunlight returns to the mountains and there is greenery as far as the eye can see. Things are bright, and colorful, and rich just in time for Thomas to get cool with his feelings for Damien, and fuck him.

And, god the sex scene was cringey in the best possible way. The fact that I recoiled at Damien using his spit as lube, and Thomas just inserting his penis in to Damien’s asshole without any prep, I was like, “if you’re gonna show cock and balls, why are you showing such irresponsible- oh yeah, they are literally seventeen year olds having gay sex for the first time” which makes it work quite well for me.

By/For/About

I would put this somewhere between By and About Queers or By, For, and About Queers I think. Fun Fact though, the title, Being 17 came from a 1870 French poem called ‘Roman’ by Arthur Rimbaud, who was a gay man.

Favorite Moment

My favorite moment is after Damien’s dad’s funeral, Thomas finds Damien practicing on a punching bag. Thomas who at this point has run from his feelings for Damien, head butted Damien after Damien kissed him, and had initially refused to go to the funeral says “I’m with you, for your Dad,” which results in Damien sobbing in to Thomas’ arms. Which is glorious on its own, but to follow it up with them having to pry themselves apart from on another because Dr. Delille has walked outside, to follow her together, and then have to physically manhandle her and bring her back inside their house so she didn’t injure herself was just so expertly done. Full of love and tragedy, and was equal parts beautiful and heartbreaking to witness.

Favorite Line

“They tell me things will get better. I know they’ll get better. I even hope so. But I also know that I won’t have accepted his death then. I’ll just have forgotten he died.”

If I had seen this movie a month ago, it is likely that I would have had a different favorite line. But as it so happens there has been a surprising amount of death happening inside and on the outskirts of my life recently, so these lines just hit different.

Score

9/10, it was a little slow for my tastes and it did not capture me emotionally the way some of the other films I've seen so far have, but it was all very well done, especially considering that it was filmed in 8 weeks.

#being 17 #being 17 the movie #being 17 (2016)#queer cinema syllabus #queer stories #gay film

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There is no one from my past that I want back romantically. I’ve healed past all that and made peace with things thankfully. But there are ppl I miss being friends withhhh 😭 like this one girl. It’s a little messy with her bc she was one of my ex best friend’s hs gf. He introduces her to that friend group and I don’t think she liked me much at the time bc I was super close to that friend (and I was his first kiss Idek if she knows that lmao) anyways yeah we were just mutuals for years. Then ended up unfollowing each other on stuff. Which is fine, no hard feelings we weren’t close lol

Fast fwd to peak covid she hits me up out the blue. Refollows me when my ig was still public and id write my silly deep descriptions, DMs me on ig on some “I know this is random but I’ve been feeling lost lately and I just read some of your IG posts. I aligned with all that you said, my soul is calling to you and I really feel like I need you in my life” and some “it feels like every cell in my body is aligned, my ears are ringing, I really feel like I needed to hit you up. Your energy is pulling me in” And I’m like uhm…. Ms girl? What? lol. Me being who I am, a part of me is like omg she feels called to meeee and sees meeee but another part is like …😀? You are this man’s ex hitting me on some “crazy” shit. It was like a couple paragraphs of saying verbatim what I said and how she was feeling lost in life and clicked on my post and then it all started clicking. I responded back kinda vaguely and then days later she’s like hey I didn’t mean to scare you but I never felt that aligned and something so right in my life and was just so excited. And I’m like okay you got me lol let’s be friends and talk about spirituality. Bc I was also going through like a second awakening during 2020, like another huge spiritual journey. This was a phase of me just talking to new ppl on tiktok, tinder, etc, old friends, etc.

People told me not to trust her. They said don’t do it. But I’m glad I trusted her when I did. We’d talk about the most small but intricate stuff bro. From h0lly w3ird, to the stuff that starts with an A that’s depicted in monsters inc (I was going DOWN all types of dark rabbit hole conspiracies with others too during that time, it’s sad but it’s what’s happening behind the curtains)… all the stuff you can’t talk about on social media basically lol to spirituality. Deep rooted, ancient practices, rituals, astrology, medicine, holistic approaches, etc. or even random shit like how a leaf resembles human veins, and that the whole of one human represents a whole of one tree, and how it plays into a whole ecosystem of things. And how trees and humans are similar to one cell. Theres millions and billions, and yet it can be narrowed down to just one for our brains to try and comprehend the endlessness of the universe. Or like this one time I sent her a pic of the trees while I was in nature at this park I’d go to a lot during covid, that helped me heal a lot and I’d go on walks with my family and that started our little walks and talks, and for the first time ever I was close to my mom, bc of those walks. But anyways I sent her a pic and was like hey I thought of you and I sent a voice memo I think idk. But I remember her being like “I wonder what the birds are saying when they chirp.” And I was like YOOOOOO that really rocked my world. Like what are they talking about amongst each other? What other conversations have they had today? What are their day to day lives like? What is their level of consciousness? Do they realize they do the same shit everyday but that everyday is always a little bit different? A different route to fly, a different bug to eat, a different person they see at that same moment just going about their own consciousness? Do they realize the earth is dying around them? We all cross paths and yet never bat an eye to each other and not realize how fucking cool but random life is. We had a lot of talks like that. It felt like someone really got it. How mysterious and infinite life is. Infinite infinities, infinite everything it hurts my brain to think about. It’s all happening at the same time. Every timeline, every life, every fucking thing. Our death our past lives our future lives are all happening at the same time!! Are you even real? Am I the only consciousness and everyone else is a projection that was randomly set by the simulation? Why am I in this particular simulation? WHO am I really? That’s a scary theory I try not to align with that one. I need to stop my hearts beating fast.

Wait one more. Another random thing that came to mind is why do I feel pain if I bang my hand on the counter? Or a hard surface? What makes a surface hard? Why instead of pain, why don’t I feel happiness or yodel (yodel is never apart of my vocabulary idk why out of all words that was what I thought of)? Who decided that the feeling of pain is the appropriate reaction for when you bang your body part on something? What is pain? Why does emotional pain hurt more than physical? I know why, but who in the simulation made the rules like this???? Why does it rain from up above, but not from the ground up? Why does it rain period? WHO looked at the rain and said “yup let’s call this rain”? My mind always thinks like this sober bro that’s y I can’t smoke bc then I really start to see the world happening all in one moment it’s too much.

Going into my memories thinking about this is making me feel a little weird. Like I should leave her in the past. Which I am! But I’m always like no it’s okay let’s go through these weird feelings i didn’t need to bring up and explore it even if it makes you feel weird for the next couple hours or days. Just to revisit them.. I’m allowed to reflect.

Back to the original plot of the story, I had to cut her out my life tho bc she betrayed my trust. We started to like each other a little but she was in DR with her grandma for the summer. We’d talk almost everyday til she got back and we were suppose to meet up then she stopped responding for a bit. Something was off and she didn’t admit to it at first. Til she randomly tells me like hey.. I didn’t know how to tell you this but I moved in with my ex bf bc my family didn’t wanna take me back in (which is why she went to her grandmas in the first place). I felt so fucking betrayed. I stopped talking to her and she would text me hoping to forgive her and that she really missed me. I already knew she wasn’t the most trustworthy person to begin with, when I learned the tea as to why ex best friend and her broke up. I can’t really go into too many details, it was something she did, but she never told me herself so idk. lol but yeah. Even months after that, I accepted her apology bc it wasn’t really that deep in retrospect. But then I had to cut her off bc she said something while I was in my relationship about having a dream about me and we made out…. And once my gf found out about that bc ofc that’s gonna have to come up. There was other little things too that happened with her where my gf was like no she cannot be in your life if we’re in this relationship bc that’s disrespectful and she’s crossed boundaries. Which I agree. I cut her off out the blue tho, even after we had a convo about us being on good terms. It sucks but sometimes you gotta do what’s right to protect your relationships energy. She even re requested to follow me on IG over a year ago tho and that’s just a bit messy. Messy girl. That right there proves she does not take loyalty in relationships seriously. But is that unfair to say? She’s in one tho with a man traveling living her best life. Hope she’s doing good. Okay edit……. I found out she’s pregnant?? What is life. Congrats tho fr

Idk what the point of this was. I was feeling nostalgic this morning. I’m slowly learning that just bc you miss someone doesn’t mean they need to be in your life. Past me would be like BUT BUT WHY, WHY CANT PPL JUST GIVE INTO THEIR EMOTIONS :( But now I’m like I get it. Logically sometimes things are left better untouched. It’s a balance of knowing when and when not to do something even if you really want to. And even if the good intention is there, life’s about reading the room and trusting the universe. Not trying to bring things back to life when it’s better left untouched or at least untouched in this moment. Maybe it’s done for the rest of your life, or maybe just for this period of time in your human experience. It’s like when the media makes more and more sequels of a movie that was better off with just the one movie. Like Toy Story 3 and 4 wasn’t necessary. It was cute. But it tarnishes a little the image of how beautiful Toy Story 1 and 2 were. Or like jersey shore family vacation, like y’all need to dead that already. Again, it’s all about reading the room. You can’t just give into your impulses. That’s a main struggle I have too. So I’m trying to become more disciplined. That’s part of what life’s about (s/o to my Virgo north node🤪🥲).

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So Halloween is almost here. Well it’s like two months away so not really, but me and my coworkers have been discussing what to wear to work. (Personally, I’m stuck between dressing up as a hot dog or a banana.)

Since I’ve been reading your sugardaddy Anakin au, I wanted to know if you had any cute Halloween/fall thoughts or head canons for the couple. Like matching costumes, costume parties, etc.? (Also, if you wanted to write a snippet, I’m not against it 🥺) . Anyways, it’s just a thought that popped into my head whilst perusing Amazon for a costume.

LOL ok all i can think about for a sugar daddy anakin/reluctant and terrible sugar baby obi-wan is that obi-wan is not into halloween at all because he is an old man ok he doesn't need nor want to celebrate whatever series of intricate rituals halloween is.

but anakin LOVES halloween and he loves couples costumes and the fall activities and he's just BEGGING obi-wan to come pick pumpkins with him because the October light through Obi-Wan's auburn hair would just be---just gorgeous.

and anakin obviously is the sole planner of the company (mandatory) halloween party and so obviously as The Love Of His Life, obi-wan HAS to attend and obi-wan is reluctant, but he knows how much this means to anakin so he's agreeable up until the point anakin insists on couples' costumes.

then he tries to put his foot down. 'darling, can't we go as vampires or something?' (anakin squawks because this is Too Mundane and Ordinary!!!)

finally, obi-wan is like well.....there's ONE couple we could be.......i would enjoy it a lot......

and anakin (tail wagging) is like 'me too! who is it!'

and obi-wan (asshole) is like jack and rose from the titanic or it's vampires, darling.

(because he thinks anakin is going to put HIS foot down and insist that they can't dress like---like a tragic couple!!!)

but instead anakin goes very quiet and thinks about it for several seconds before he agrees with alacrity and insists that he's going to be jack. obi-wan wants to protest, but well. the hair colors match.

so night of the party obi-wan gets ready in like some bastardization (and absolutely tailor made and expensive) version of rose's evening gown (shorter though, with cuts up the side and better sleeves) and anakin is wearing suspenders obi-wan already likes way too much

and when they go to the party, anakin stops him right before he walks in and pulls out the biggest gaudiest sapphire obi-wan has ever seen in his life, surrounded by diamonds. 'careful with that,' anakin says much too smugly as he holds the door open for obi-wan. 'only it's real.'

#asks #sugar daddy anakin au #sugar daddy anakin wins another fight in the 'i'm going to spoil obi-wan kenobi if it's the last thing i do' battle!!!#the jewelry store does not do refunds on custom made pieces obi-wan finds out later (nov 1st)#its the closest thing to hate sex they ever have after he hangs up the phone

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I really like your take on Levi, and now I wanna hear what was your Marxist critique on Levi.

Levi being transfem is interesting, though I can't really detach from Levi being tranmasc because the brainrot said so. I am aware there are trans men who also crossdress so it would seem like an interesting idea to have Levi dress in a feminine manner (probably courtesy of Marina) as a way as to not only distant himself from his past but also help him understand that he doesn't need to conform to society's standard of what a man should be. Wouldn't be surprised he initially accepted conscription because he tried to live up to that standard.

transmasc levi is a perfectly valid interpretation as well! if a character speaks to you in some way that makes you connect deeper w them, then kudos rock n roll my dude :3

anyway, k so basically the Marxist critique was like “levi’s suffering as a child soldier is somewhat presented as a depressing, unchanging ‘fact’ of reality is kind of disingenuous and peddles the harmful idea that everything awful in this world is ultimately unchangeable, and any attempts to change it is ultimately pointless.

‘because the funger world has the old gods who (though they have supposedly left) hold ultimate dominion over every event, then everything levi and to an extent all characters suffer is merely a machination of their existence. because the old gods exist, there is a sort of “reason,” the series posits.

‘and yeah, this is somewhat true to our reality because the systems that govern our world are quite intricate, vast, and unknowable—like a god beyond our comprehension— but it’s just that, a system, not a rule like the old gods of funger.

‘basically, Funger does this thing that i hate with most series where deeply bad shit happens and says “well, that’s just the way things are” to some extent—most attempts by people to break out of the cycle just repeat it once more, as per design.

‘levi—and every character’s suffering—may be resolved on an individual level (as they are in my interpretations bc i’m a whiny pissbaby who likes happy endings), but that still doesn’t really aid in addressing the root issue, does it? because that “root issue” is often ultimately presented as a result of otherworldly influences, beyond comprehension.

‘another Marxist critique is how the narratives of history have been ritualized, the world is ultimately controlled by the “Great Men” of history who decide how the next century should proceed. that’s literally how the New Gods operate, and though it’s mostly to emphasize how history continues to repeat itself, Funger doesn’t really acknowledge how humans have made real change. not through some kind of “great man” who was just Better than every other Guy around to cause any sort of change but

‘in a sense (and a potential counterpoint to my critique), you can interpret the ending A of Termina as a Marxist revolution—a collective movement of the people to unite as one and overturn the previous regime. the characters who get absorbed into Logic describe the process as something warm, like sleep, as they become something infinitesimally greater than themselves. the events of the festival can be metaphorically interpreted as a set of workers being pushed to their breaking point—individuals who have been largely cast out of their society and isolated from their work who now have “nothing to lose but your chains.” but i’d have to see where Mr. Haverinen takes Logic bc this interpretation is already super shoe-horny.”

But I didn’t go with this “opinion” mainly bc it doesn’t really address Levi too much and also bc I don’t really like presenting this opinion as something holistic. Like, this isn’t how the Funger-franchise is meant to be interpreted, and it’s point of view on suffering is less of a critique on class, power structures, the narrative of history, etc and more a reflection on a basic human condition: life sucks. Sometimes, you can’t do anything about it, but you persevere anyway. Here’s how you can use it for the better. But ultimately, this shit sucks, and sometimes that’s just the way it is.

It’s less concerned with solving problems and more focused on sympathy, suffering as empowerment, learning from it, that kind of thing. And I’m okay with just interpreting it as that bc that still is meaningful in its own way, and I think you get the most meaning out of a work of you view it from the perspective of how it’s meant to be interpreted.

Not to say that critiques or different POVs are completely irrelevant—the contrary actually. They reveal the deeper complexities abt the work or provide a fun reinterpretation for the sake of it. But ultimately, I didn’t think I’d be giving a genuine analysis if I analyzed Levi with this heuristic.

tldr; not everything needs to be disco elysium, unfortunately

#also every Marxist critique lowkey sounds the same #fear and hunger termina #mr president interviews

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🍭🧡💛🥂🩶 for whoever you'd like >:)))

pairing asks!

🍭 What's something they can never agree on (big or small)?

kaida and andy cannot agree on anything and they never will agree on anything because disagreeing with each other is 1) their love language and 2) the biggest and most intense competition in their lives next to trying to "be better than the other" at loving each other. best movie of all time, best place to have dinner at, best food in general, etc etc and so on

it started at arasaka when they first met because they hated each other (sexual style) and even now many years later they're still on their bullshit but affectionately so. they know where the line is and know they shouldn't cross it, it may seem very heated on the surface but they're just doing a bit most of the time LMAO

🧡 Who said 'I love you' first?

kaida did, 100%. it's in xyr vocabulary a lot more than it is in andy's; where andy has rarely used those words for anyone, maaaybe his ex wife alana a couple of times but whether or not he meant it is a whole different story, kaida nowadays REGULARLY tells people that xe loves them or at least cares about them, just in case xe never gets that chance again

saying it to andy for the first time would've been an accident, almost. if kaida were to put too much thought into it it'd've felt weird in a way, considering that they're both to a certain degree responsible for the horrors some of kaida's friends went through (andy to a higher degree. which is where the fun is at because it makes everything so much more complicated). so it definitely was something xe blurted out in the heat of the moment but xe definitely meant it. and then starts saying it more too :^)

💛 What are their favorite activites to do together?

they both love to just exist in the same space together, not necessarily doing something together but just being close to one another :^) they're both in their 40s and not as adventurous as the rest of the extended blorboverse gang in terms of going on gigs and seeing the city and such, so they mostly just stick to the same kind of routines and go to work and then go home. mainly kaida used to party a lot more when xe was younger but nowadays xe just wants to go to bed tbh

andy does love to do kaida's hair for xem!! kaida has insanely long hair and it takes a while to brush it and style it, so having andy there to help is always nice :^)

kaida really likes to go on shopping trips also :^) and andy hated it at first. and he would mostly look like he hates it. but kaida's smile would make it all worth it and then he realizes that it's actually not that bad at all and he did really need the new clothes. so at the end of the day they're both still enjoying themselves anyway. and kaida would know that andy doesn't actually hate it because xe knows him and his facial expressions well enough by then to tell when he's faking it <3

🥂 What does a night out look like for them?

kaida knows a very good sushi place in some alley in japantown, hidden away from the busier streets which means it's always nice and calm in there (but never empty), so usually when they go out together that's where they go for food!! xe's taken andy there before back when they still worked at arasaka (and still. you know. hated each other. "hated") and nowadays it's essentially Their spot :^)

they don't really have loud and busy nights, generally it's just going out for food and then going for a walk in the city ^_^ kaida is always wearing something that's not warm enough for the later hours so xe always ends up stealing andy's coat. he knows xe'll get cold so he's always wearing a nice warm coat for xem. and xe knows that xyr clothing isn't warm enough but that's on purpose because xe loves stealing andy's coat. intricate rituals

🩶 Which one apologizes first? How do they apologize?

this is a tricky one because it would mostly depend on the situation. nothing gets left unsaid between these two since they both have pretty strong personalities and aren't one to let someone walk right over them, so generally when they have a disagreement of some sort everything gets talked out pretty fast

both of them want their apology to mean something so they're not one to apologize as soon as possible. instead, they want to have a moment to explain themselves to the other to make sure that there's at least an understanding of the problem or what was initially misinterpreted etc etc, and then after that they can collect their thoughts and apologize to each other

andy would generally be quicker to apologize, even though kaida would do it like. right after. but especially for andy there's this subconscious fear of "what if this is the last time we'll ever talk and i'll never get another chance to say this again" so he tends to waste no time after talking things out, whereas kaida may need a little longer to get xyr nerves to settle a little more

#asks #devilbrakers #ask:love as destruction #pairing asks #THANK YOU >:^) these two are insane and i love them so much #andy belongs to red reaperkiller and kaida belongs to meee <3 #very interesting enemies to lovers arc. i don't talk about them very often but mein gott are they in there

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