#anyway this stream was fucking great

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

*tries to organize my thoughts*

*remembers i'm not in school and therefore beholden to neither heaven nor hell nor any man's grading system*

*joyously shredding & tossing all my carefully arranged 3x5 mental notecards into the air like so much beige confetti. raising my arms in victory, cheering raucously until i accidentally inhale bits of homemade confetti*

(*coughing up itty bits of paper like a cat evicting a hairball with a firm understanding of tenants' rights*) wait wat happens next

#i marie kondoed my thoughts and *i* feel great. but now my stream-of-consciousness has escaped containment #so many innocent bystanders at stake #every time i try to organize my thoughts i run out of plastic bins and have to make a trip to the container store where i get even more dis #racted so. you can't just hand me THIS brain and NO catalogue OR library classification system #and expect me to single-handedly sort through all this nonsense? bad form but fucking form not in my job description #aNYways. formal education sure did a FUCKING NUMBER on us huh #(a number i measure not in gpa or dollars of student debt. #but in the number of therapy sessions & medical debt it will take to recover.) #seriously folks. our education systems are...innately traumatizing for a huge number of students. and we NEED to address this. #the fact that it is culturally common for adults to have anxiety nightmares about school/exams...even decades later? #that is not cute. it is Alarming. #no one--much less entire generations--should be spending their developmental years in an environment of chronic stress & pressure & strain #and yet that is the reality for millions and millions of pre-teen and teenage and young adult students #this isn't healthy and it serves and empowers NO ONE #...except of course the many exploitative educational & financial & debt-collecting institutions thriving from the current balance of power #and of course it's a nefarious and powerful way to sabotage/erase the middle class #which billionaires and the wealth-inequality creators they finance couldn't possibly have any noteworthy interest in whatsoever #it's not like there's an elite group of people with huge financial incentives to drain/steal resources from the masses... #anyways sorry for going all Conspiracy Theory on you. #obviously the billionaires who control the vast majority of our resources and news and political campaign funding #are not tied to every single itty bitty social issue and i'm a silly billy to imply it #please tell elon musk to ignore this tweet i am so subservient and acquiescent #mr musky u r so good at inheriting slavery-built mining fortunes & buying other people's companies #& building rocket ships & fancy cars that do NOT explode/catch fire & also NOT running billion dollar companies into the ground #mr musky u r so talented genius billionaire playboy with 10 kids and ex-wives who find you creepy af babe u r basically iron man

[blueskittlesart]

deeply refreshing to see someone critical of Swift who also like, genuinely likes her. Like i'm neutral to positive on her, but the online discourse has been absolutely rancid. flipping between "Taylor Swift has never done anything wrong ever and she's a fucking genius" and "Taylor Swift is the worst lyricist of all time and also a bad person" is exhausting, so thank you for like. nuance or something lmao

not to make it serious for a sec but i genuinely think that being able to like things that are bad is really important. like I think that it's an important skill to be able to look at something and see what you personally enjoy about it and then take a step back and acknowledge that objectively it's flawed. and to also be able to acknowledge that liking something isn't necessarily an identity or a moral stance. and i think that fandom space in general could really benefit from more people taking the time to learn how to do that. it's okay to like things that are bad

#people ask me sometimes why ill occasionally talk about something i like and then go 'but it's bad' and the answer is usually because it is #i love teen wolf. i love genshin impact. i love detective conan. and i fucking LOVE taylor swift. that doesnt mean theyre good #it just means i like them. and recognizing their flaws actually helps me better identify what i like about them! #it's like. in my mind bad > good is the x axis and i like it > i dont like it is the y axis yk. they're not mutually exclusive #tldr it's not that serious. we can all relax a little #irt taylor swift i do also think she has done some real harm to her fans in enabling them to deflect all criticism of her as misogyny #and i don't think it's fully the fault of these people who are parroting that response bc so much of her marketing has deliberately #reinforced this idea that to be a swiftie is to be a part of a sisterhood and that any attack on taylor is an attack on all of those women #who are in that in-group. when that's obviously not the case. but she's marketed herself as. for lack of a better term. 'girl music' #to the point where it makes her fans feel as though any criticism of the music or the woman responsible for it is an attack on their #personal experience of womanhood/girlhood/sisterhood/etc. and that's how you get all of thess bad-faith accusations of misogyny #i don't necessarily think this was her deliberate goal with her marketing tho because like. on first glance such a strong sense of communit #among fans sounds like a great thing. the friendship bracelets i got at the eras tour movie are really genuinely special to me. #but it does present a problem when your fans are unable to separate how they feel about the community and experience your music has fostere #from how they feel about you as a person. especially when you are a billionaire who absolutely CANNOT be above criticism in this economy #anyway. tldr i love taylor's music and i don't think swiftie hivemind is as deliberately malicious as it may seem #but it's obviously necessary to be able to take a step back and look objectively at what you're participating in. #anyway stream ttpd or don't idc <3 #taylor swift

[riacte]

so hey guys i finished dungeon meshi yesterday and i'm still thinking about it

#ria.txt #i spoiled myself so at first i was like 'this is bonkers wtf are they doing in those last few chapters?????' #but then it was like. yeah. i see #love those ch when it's just clearly putting the squad into Situations #also. izutsumi #what i really liked was how tightly the protagonist and the deuteragonist were wound up in the overall themes #the plot the themes the conflict the characters it was very neatly connected #hence i am also now accidentally invested in whatever going on between laios and marcille #not just platonic not romantic not enemies i just think they work well tgt and deeply care for each other its great watching them develop #it's the leader + most trusted advisor / anxious girlfailure + the annoying freak she's somehow attached to vibes #haha that rabbit chapter with marcille. hahha i was like what the fuck man. it was funny and then boom whump [tears streaming down my face] #those shapeshifter chs were sooo much fun esp seeing other chara's perceptions of each other. stealing that #the changeling ones were great too elf senshi is the fucking funniest he looks sooooooo unserious #marcille's evolving perception with death starting with saving falin and saving the squad and her nightmares of outliving everyone- #-and her dad and her 'temper tantrum' and UGH when at the end she said she was fine with falin not coming back.... WAAA. OUGH. #i think dunmeshi handled the trope of 'prophecy of chosen one becoming king' pretty well and it makes sense why laios is the protag #the worldbuilding is so thoughtful as well i liked seeing different characters with different worldviews interact #very solid and well rounded series wooo #the main 4 has such a fun dynamic together #anyways. dunmeshi au..... #more like borrowing the worldbuilding bc charas are too nuanced for a one to one comparison #ren is like some prince of his own species but he's like 34th in line and no one cares about him so he fucks off to eat monsters #which is why he's both snobbish AND a total freak when it comes to his food taste #false is originally in for the money from ren and plans to scam him but unfortunately the cringefail swag captures her #martyn is Obnoxiously Clueless and thinks he's smart but he's not. he's resourceful but also pathetic and crazy #stress cant cook but she thinks she does so everyone goes (≖_≖ ) when she picks up a pot. they delegate her to killing and chopping duty #the mvp is iskall who keeps on saving everyone's asses and somehow has resources for everyone #i think ren is actually aware false is going to scam him but he has too much money to spend anyway and he thinks shes cool so he lets her?? #and somehow she doesnt take the money and run. and goes back to eating monsters w/ the party. everyone is crazy

[revvethasmythh]

Veth and Fjord make a really entertaining duo because of the way that they butt heads and argue most of the time, but I’m also so interested in all the compelling ways that they are very similar people. Obviously, their personalities are fairly different on the surface level, but many of their underlying issues are the same, as they were formed by bizarrely similar backstories. They were both severely bullied in their childhoods, causing serious self-worth/self-esteem issues that have lasted their whole lives, and they specifically both grew up being told they were ugly and strange by the kids (and adults) around them. They then escaped those damaging environments in the best ways they could—Fjord by ending up on the Tide’s Breath, coming into his own under Vandran's guidance, and Veth by marrying Yeza and having Luc, presumably establishing her own household and getting her out of her childhood home, where her brothers were a main source of the bullying she suffered from. Both instances have them reaching for independence from those who had harmed them, struggling to step into a semblance of better futures, though neither quite manage it in its entirety.

Then tragedy to strikes them both (Sabian’s betrayal; the goblin incursion). And though the circumstances of these tragedies were quite different, they both end the same way: water in their lungs. Both of them utterly changed in the act of drowning, neither of them in control of the outcome. They both become something new and other, something more dangerous than they once were. For Fjord, this is something of a gift, an opportunity to remake himself as he searches for answers. Veth, in a roundabout way, wants the same thing he does. But she doesn't want to remake herself into something new--she wants to remake herself into what she used to be.

This renders Veth and Fjord as something of mirrors to each other. Two people who should not have so much in common, but can see those similarities in the other anyway. Their backgrounds leave them with such similar issues that it's practically inevitable that they butt heads and argue and don't get along half the time, even though they do care about each other. We're talking about two people raised on self-hatred--they probably have some mixed feelings about seeing so much of themselves in each other. And I just think the way their stories are so symmetrical really deepens both of their narratives once you zoom out enough to see the way that their lives reflect each others'

#holds them like marge's potato: ''I just think they're neat'' #anyway stream Under the Water by The Pretty Reckless it's a fucking great veth&fjord song #I mean okay but ALSO a lot fjord's story is about asking what it is to be a good man #and a lot of veth's is asking what it means to be a good woman #their stories are SUCH reflections of each others it's a little insane actually #veth brenatto #fjord #fjord stone #critical role #the mighty nein #is this well written? no. but that's what I get for trying to write so late in the night

[paperlovesadness]

Biggest Miles Kane fans (in order):

Alex Turner

Miles Kane himself (rightfully so)

You & me Tumblr friend. (And his mum)

Generally people with taste 👌

#that's it; that's the order #LOOK AT HIM VIBING TO HIS OWN TUNES AS HE SHOULD #I strive to be at least a quarter as confident in myself as this man is #he's doing it so well too. I just love it for him. It's honest and pure and just beautiful #the way we all used to be our own number one fans when we were very small kids #fighting with other kids over which one of us was 'the best' 'the coolest' or whatever it was #we all loved ourselves at one point. It's natural. it's self preservation. it's a great instinct #then society kills that and we need to fight for any remaining bits of it to be able to lead happy lives #well anyway #the way Miles Kane is proud of himself reminds me of that #it's not cocky or arrogant. It's not a persona or act. It's done the pure amazing way we all used to do it. And should strive to still do #Miles Kane seems to be very in touch with his inner child and it makes me very happy 💛 #(go stream his music!) #// #my posts #Miles Kane #Miles fucking Kane 💘

[laesas]

Maybe 'Why Don't You Stay' is more about Kim asking himself why he didn't fight for a relationship that was so clearly making him better. He's saying out loud that Chay did nothing wrong, that being with Chay was the first time Kim felt like he had a purpose and a home. He's admitting to himself that love was actually what he wanted and then he's asking himself why he left anyway when every bone in his body was screaming at him to stay.

#the you in why dont you stay is kim grabbing himself by the shoulders and shaking himself violently #which is great because it saves me a job #kinnporsche the series #kimchay #kim theerapanyakul #kimhan theerapanyakul #''why dont you stay'' as shorthand for ''what the fuck is wrong with me why did i go out of my way to fuck that up'' #look at the thai translation rather than the world tour version and then come tell me I'm right. :') #like its the voice of Chay in Kims head going ''why didnt you stay why wouldnt you choose this'' and kim not really having an answer #because leaving Chay didnt keep him safe #from drugs or from the mafia lifestyle #so Kim is left wondering that if it didnt matter either way then why wouldnt he choose Chay #but he realised all of that too late and now he's stuck and theres no going back (but there is he's just dumb and self-loathing) #anyway #stan jeff satur stream why dont you stay or something #jeff satur #kimchay wip #mine

[minamotoz]

said i was done w dsmp related content on this blog but i need a bit more time to cope w how these two ended

#my art #dream smp #jack manifold #tubbo #i didnt watch tommys stream at all bc i literally cannot stomach watching anything w dr*am #(hence why the only streams i actually tuned into were both jack and tubbos last streams) #i have a hell of a lot of criticisms w how the story ended. like a fuck ton that i'll probs get into some other time #but like. 80% of the finale from tubbos pov was fuckin awesome #maybe thats just bc i love cnukeduo a ton #i think the way they play off each other is great #and i love the way ctubbo is like . so insanely pissed at cjack but still offers him room for redemption #bc he sees how torn cjack is and how genuinely remorseful he becomws once the weight of his actions sets in #i jsut love these two a lot idk #and the CALLBACKS dont even get me started #if me in 2021 found out that both thr manishroom and the triple ts would be called out to BY NAME #in this stream #i probably wldve died #anyways thats my rant this finale couldve been so good if the triple ts had survived and properly healed #AND FUCKKKKKKK DREAM🗣

[breadboylovin]

me earlier today driving home to scrapyard knowing full well those last 3 songs were gonna make me cry like a bitch

#text #quadeca #i genuinely enjoy crying in my car i was having a great time. feel bad for anyone who drove past me though #ALSO TO BE CLEAR I DID NOT ACTUALLY CLOSE MY EYES ON THE FUCKING ROAD IM A GOOD DRIVER #anyway stream guide dog by quadeca

[set-phasers-to-whump]

Day 4: Share a TV show, movie, or any media that gives you the whumperflies!

ok I talk and write about this show a lot so this will not exactly come as a surprise but. babylon berlin!! especially in the first two seasons the whump is basically continuous and even when gereon isn’t actively being hurt he’s still generally kind of sad and miserable and he’s so cute and so much bad stuff happens to him and overall it’s just lovely :) my personal favorite whumpy episodes are 2x03 and 2x08 - in 2x03 we get a great flashback to a really traumatic event and then gereon gets on a plane for the first time and Suffers, and in 2x08 there’s a fantastic water rescue scene, drama and pain on top of a moving train, and a lovely emotional breakdown. here’s a list of the first three seasons’ whump if anyone’s interested!!

#whumpmasinjuly2023 #wij23day4 #i say things #there’s also evidently a fourth season which is hidden from the world for unknown reasons #or it’s hidden from the legal streaming service world #very easy to find elsewhere #though the site I found it on shows quite low ratings for the episodes lol #we will see. but the three seasons on Netflix are so so so good #I fucking love this show ok #and the books it’s based on are also great. while we’re here. #there’s a lot of good whump in them that’s not in the show #in one of them gereon ends up in like the wilderness delirious with fever and gets cared for by this guy that lives out there #it’s great #anyway enough from me. but if you haven’t watched this show yet go do it I prommy it’s worth it <3

[dogtheories]

💙💙

#soda.png #brockhampton #always feel so embarrassed putting music fanart on peoples dashes even though that was what i started out posting on tumblr lol #anyway . can you tell when i started to get tired and put less effort into painting . #these are all ref'd from screenshots i took during the stream btw lol so the reason some look muddy is bc #the stream kept dropping out and running at 360p and also nobody fucking stands still except joba dom and ciaran so . #didnt have great refs for some

[catzgam3rz]

My uncle gave me all his D&D 3.5 and Pathfinder books last June and I never actually got around to sorting them but I guess today is the day ;w;

(Yes all four boxes are full of books and they aren’t sorted so that’s up to me too!)

#rambles #personal I suppose #if I finish this today I’ll be impressed with myself lmao #but I’m glad I’ve finally cracked them open and started to get them out lol #I also found a list online for the D&D books which is great because I had NO clue where to start #anyways next stream will have a new background! so that’s fun! #there’s gotta be at least 300 something books here he gave me a lot of Pathfinder campaign guides he’s so fucking cool

[swashbucklery]

i used to run cross country on the road where they filmed the bus scsene that buffy takes to leave sunnydale, before a chunk of the road fell into the ocean (pretty sure they also used it to film the end scene of DEBS) and I used to think about how Buffy was THERE. but your tags about the use of full of grace and that scene and the vibes — it’s been years since I thought about it but it all came rushing back. just. SO good.

There was something so - like, when that show was airing I was a few years younger than Buffy's canonical age, so in a lot of ways she felt like my cool older sister. I remember being like, I'm sure once I'm sixteen I'll also be mature enough to fight demons etc etc.

And now that I'm a grownup, I can look back at the show and both see its problems and see it's strengths. I can also look back at the extra layers that kid-me could not have picked up on - the way that in hindsight, sixteen is so young and one of the horrors of the show is the way that this girl, who is in many ways a kid and actually keeps saying please let me be a kid, is responsible for the entire world. The ways that translates into a metaphor (unintentional, let's not give Mr. W any credit here) for the ways in which girls are socialized and the ways that high-achieving, "strong," "smart" girls are still squeezed through the mold of misogyny and expected to be so much more than just to be enough.

Season 2 was the year I started watching the show and so it'll always be the season that Hits for me because it was the year I really started to get long-form TV and fall in love with characters in the medium. Buffy was my first fandom and the arc, at the time, of Angel turning and then Buffy having to put aside her heartbreak and fix it was. I don't know if it was actually something that hadn't been done before but in terms of what I could access on TV in my world, it was the pinnacle of the art form. I remember writing quotes from Passions in my teenage diary and being like Wow This Show Is So Deep, I Know How To Appreciate Art Now.

This was also, you have to understand/remember, pre-streaming anything. This was the year I learned how to use the record function on my family's VHS player so that I could watch the episodes without waiting for them to play in reruns. This was pre-Napster. If there was a moving song on a show you had to track down the artist, hope they had a CD out, get a ride to the mall to go to your local HMV and then buy the physical disc. This was also the era when there wasn't necessarily 100% crossover pop-cuture wise; if an American artist was Big it made it to Canadian stores but there were a lot of California indie bands that you just couldn't listen to if you didn't live in the US. Sarah McLachlan is Canadian and "Full of Grace" is the last track on Surfacing, which was an album everyone had at the time because "Building A Mystery" and "Adia" were huge on the radio that year. So it was also like - being able to sit with those feelings because I could actually access that song and listen to it again, you know?

#this is also incidentally one of the reasons #that i will fight the entire internet over dawn summers #and the internet backlash over her #because fuck you i was in this show's fandom and i was dawn summers' age #it was SO COOL to see a genuine teenager on this show #as a way of subverting the late-90s teen tv trope of teenagers that talk and act like adults #and i will never forget that feeling of super relating to like #yeah there's a character who gets to have buffy summers as her cool older sister #that's amazing #and then have the entire adult section of this fandom talk ENDLESSLY about how ANNOYING she was #anyway the point is season two was great #dawn summers is great #i have grown up to be giles and i'm embracing it #and there are things about how tv could be accessed in the 90s and early 2000s #that fundamentally shifted how fandom was even possible #and i love reflecting on it #not because it was better per se - teenage me would have KILLED for on-demand streaming and being able #to listen to official show tracklists on her iphone hours after the episode aired #but gosh was it a different way of relating to media #fandom nursing home roommates association #j swashbucklery mcinternetface: professional cryptid #night of the living anons #btvs

[rotisseries]

my uncle brought me a massive weeb library today and it was simultaneously astounding how much was there (5 terabytes.) and yet incredibly disappointing occasionally (hit or miss as to whether extremely well known titles would be there?? no inuyasha? or trigun?? revolutionary girl utena but only the movie??)

#technically its not only anime there is other animated stuff in there. such as the 1978 lotr movie. and futurama. and fucking vee ell dee #it's mostly anime though so I'm calling it the weeb stash #i haven't had wifi for a bit though so this is great I can watch stuff now without streaming #mha is in here I think I'm gonna watch s6. like I already know what happens there but I need to see it anyway #refresh my memory. see the dabidance slay. talk to hella about it cause obviously

[daincrediblegg]

Babygirl I’m obsessing over actors who don’t even have gifs in their tags on tumblr dot com

#I’ve reached a new weird niche actor interest level and that level is Albert Finney #I thought it was bad at the beginning of the jh reign but I was a fool we can go deeper #nobody even actually posts about this guy HAS NEVER posted about this guy #anyway I watched Tom Jones tonight and had a fucking rip roaring good time about it #somehow the fella is in just some really great shit what can I say #I can’t wait to watch that romcom he was in with audrey hepburn that’ll be fun #but my god I can’t wait to watch tom jones again with stream good god what a fun time

[zorasapphires]

ive had a shit week ok and also like i need to pay eastlink but the site is down. i need an installment system on my fine but they wont just give u one they have to get you to upload all your income info first and i cant deal with that. i go ok ill buy that wifi extender ive been meaning to buy and the jaycar website is down. i go to play ffxiv and theres an update, of course i forgot i havent played in 3 months of course there is an update. and itll take over an hour to download.

i still havent got a full nights sleep in my new house. i slept til 12:30 today to try and catch up on sleep (i usually wake up at like 730 on the weekend)

anyway these are just the small things i wanted to vent about lol bigger things happened and im just o|-<

#a student walked into my class and started beating up another student so that really kicked my week off #ive been teaching 2 vce classes im not ready for #and just generally Not Feeling Great about teaching right now #oh and the real estate agents got back to me and they wont fix the things i requested bc there not bound by law to fix those things #my fucking bad for wanting to live in a nice house :) #anyway i hate them so much that now i dont even want to garden anymore bc i dont want the landlord to benefit from MY gardening #as u can tell i have a lot of pent up stuff i did not mean to type this much #thoughts live stream

[thegeekyartist]

It's 2am so I get to be a hater:

I hate crossovers and I ✨hate✨ musical episodes!!

#theyre always bad!! #ALWAYS #the writing has to tie itself in knots in order to make sense #why are they singing? can other people hear them? are they all magically great at it? #will they acknowledge they dont normally sing? #and then the songs are also usually bad! #if the show itself is already a musical then its fine #(yes even glee. it was never trying to hide what it was) #but theres no reason for them otherwise #alternatively #crossovers are just excuses to get more people watching a show #and while they've always been bad #theyre even worse in the age of streaming when that sort of thing doesnt really equate to more viewers!! #people arent tuning in weekly so why bother breaking your shows formula and writing styles to accommodate a different show?? #even the eps of Frasier where the cheers cast would come back #those are notoriously TERRIBLE episodes! #and theyre all from the same fucking show technically!! #anyways #that is my Rant of the Day #personal #tv #television