#anyway this was an ordeal lmao

[skitskatdacat63]

His bullfighting days aren't over quite yet.

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#GET IT??? HIS *BULL*FIGHTING DAYS....hahah yeahhhh im so clever..... #suddenly had the urge to draw old man version matador nando bcs DC randomly called him a matador during quali #and im like oh my god....dc....youre so right.... #hoping this piece works as some kind of blood sacrifice for his performance in about 7 hrs :) #get it blood sacrifice??? and hes cutting his hand in this piece??? #thats supposed to represent two things. #1. hes doing a blood pact/sacrifice so his performance goes well #2. hes testing the sharpness so he can slay the bull!(and the...horse? 🤭🤭) #had a very interesting convo w Suzuki abt the implications of matador nando #based on a meme i made 😭 abt how our fantasy is that hes gonna be the bullfighter. hes gonna slay the bull #but the reality will be that he looks upon the bull from a distance #hes meant to kill the bull to overcome it. but he just ends up longing to be the bull. he fails.. hahaha get it.... #lmao angst aside i think its kinda funny how i can have this reasoning for the matador au in two eras #thats long the old man has been here. has had two distinct periods of challenging the (red) bull #ANYWAYS!!!! hope ya like!!!!!! i think this is pretty relevant hopefully 🤭🤭 #quite happy w this one even if it was less of an ordeal than most of my drawings #waaaahahhh hes so handsome!!!!! handsomest guy!!!!!!! #lol scheduling this like an hr before the race cause as i said. its an offering. its a sacrifice. i pray to the racing gods #tw blood #<- just a bit 🥰 he was originally just gonna be holding the sword but i realized ouch! sharp!!! #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #catie.art. #fa14 #f1 art #f1 fanart #matador au

[fivewholeminutes]

A Series of Small Offerings

PART ONE -3- When the Bough Breaks

You don't really love, you just hate to be alone

Me: hee hoo I've got backup

My backup: runs out in 3 days

Me: 👁️👄👁️

In my defense, I redrew the bog piece twice and this one THREE (3) times (and I am still not happy with the result). Black heart is supposed to represent not being able to love. Lame, but I gotTA MOVE ON I HAVE DELIBERATE PLANS FOR CALCUTTA

#look at me finally learning how to draw hands properly bc of this series!! #cause I seem to have a lot of ideas with hands for it #anyways #a series of small offerings #sleep token #sleep token fanart #alex vs the mortifying ordeal of having her art perceived #i love so many lines from this song but i've had such a hard time visualising any of them aaaaaaaah #small disclaimer: i'll probably draw many hands with black claws #and it's not always going to be the same person i just vibe with clawed hands lmao

[mommalosthermind]

So this happened:

Me: “I feel like I wrote Lisa kinda snotty in this passage, d’you think she could pull off snotty?”

Him: “Not really? If you want bitchy then you need Yae Miko, Lisa’s kinda normal unless you’re late with a book.”

Me: “…Lisa’s vaguely condescending though.”

Him: “Yeah, I can see that. Miko can be straight up mean but Lisa would be like, ‘Careful cutie, keep that up and I might forget your safeword,”

Which I can fucking hear, and it is thus completely not my fault that this immediately popped into my head:

(Lisa/Jean/Kaeya under the cut)

Teatime is meant to be sacred, you know. It’s a darling little ritual to break up the day. Peaceful, harmonious. If, lately, it’s also come with a delightful side of spending time with Jean, and occasionally Kaeya, well, that’s just two more reasons for teatime to be important, don’t you think?

Sometimes, though, not even the fear of Lisa’s wrath can keep Jean’s underlings from interrupting.

Lisa’s fingertips rub circles into her temples. In all honesty, she tuned out whatever crisis this is ages ago. Her tea’s lone gone. The other two cups, so carefully brewed, are cold. No one’s touched the assortment of sliced fruits, nor the biscuits.

It might be selfish of her, to be sad over such a silly thing, but really, is it? Jean works so hard. Lisa all but bullied her into routinely meeting up like this, and Kaeya’s no better. Yes, she’s sad about the loss of their quiet rest, the lack of time together, but at the heart of it, Lisa’s upset at how the rest of the world is intent on working them both into an early grave.

Varka’s in for an earful when he returns.

Half an hour. That’s all she’s trying to give them. Half an hour to breathe.

Instead, Kaeya paces the length of the rug, voice rising and falling in its most persuasive tones. Jean stands behind her chair, one hand curled over the back. Bruises are beginning to darken under her eyes. How much more lovely would she look, if she was simply allowed a full night’s sleep? How broad would those shoulders really be, if they weren’t coiled so tight with tension? For that matter, Lisa’s willing to bet Kaeya’s lip would swell so much sweeter if the teeth sinking into it weren’t so rife with worry.

Irritation spikes in Jean’s voice, calling Lisa back to the present. She purrs, “Careful cutie, keep that up and I might forget your safeword.”

They freeze. They always do. It’s adorable, really, how easy it is to trip them up like this.

Jean’s flush is a thing of beauty, much darker than Lisa can usually pull out with a single line.

Lisa tilts her head, and blinks.

Neither of them have moved. They’re simply… staring at one another.

Her brows bunch together. Hmm. Perhaps she’s overstepped.

All at once, Kaeya animates, a too-loud laugh filling the space between them all. He waves an extravagant hand in the air, ambling back to Jean’s side. “Be careful yourself,” he says, glancing from Jean’s red face to Lisa. “Lines that like are liable to lose you the soft domme reputation you’ve so pointedly cultivated.”

Lisa smiles, making sure to allow it to bloom slowly. She watches a lovely shiver work its way up Jean’s spine.

“What I’m hearing is you think I’d make a good domme,” she says, and allows her smile to curl into sultry as the edge of Kaeya’s lip tucks between his teeth.

Jean’s inhale is sharp.

Like the blustery thing he is, he opens his mouth as soon as he catches her looking. “Is that so? Do good dommes often ‘forget’ safewords?”

“Only with permission, darling. After all, it would be my job to take care of you, wouldn’t it? That includes giving you the punishments you want.”

Kaeya’s eye is blown wide enough to lose its star shape.

“Although, I do find myself far more interested in giving out praise over punishments. And I wouldn’t need to punish the two of you, now would I?”

“I feel,” Jean squeaks, stopping to clear her throat. “Oh my goodness,” her hands come up to pat at her still-burning cheeks.

Kaeya attempts what Lisa assumes is meant to be a laugh, but it comes out more like a rough breath.

“This is maybe not a work appropriate conversation,” Jean says, still squeaky, still red, still staring at Lisa like she’s never seen her before.

Lisa stands, and watches how they swallow in unison.

And then the door bangs open, Amber rushing in with another fistful of papers.

“You will not believe the amount of nonsense,” Amber exclaims, only to stop dead and stare at the three of them. “Um. Is everything okay here? Is this a bad time?”

Jean shakes herself, once, twice, and when she pulls her gorgeous eyes off Lisa for the first time in ages, Lisa finds that she’s had quite enough of that, thank you very much.

“It is, yes,” she says before Jean can dive right back into whatever inane thing needs her attention now. “Go ahead and drop that anywhere, and we’ll get back to you later, okay?”

Amber’s already nodding, her eyebrows pressed tightly together. “Yeah, yeah, okay, and I’ll tell Wyatt not to let anyone else in for now.”

The girl’s gone in the same rush she arrived, door thunking closed behind her. As an added precaution, Lisa activates her personal wards, watching both doors glow a faint purple.

“Did I know you could do that?” Kaeya asks mildly.

Jean’s already moving to collect the papers Amber left behind.

Lisa tuts. “Jeanie, sit.”

Jean sits.

Jean sits, and then an absolutely baffled expression takes over her pretty face. That flush is back in full force.

“Good girl,” Lisa says, leaning one hip on the table across from her.

Oh.

That flush goes so dark Lisa’s a little worried the poor thing’s gone dizzy.

Goodness, if this keeps up, Lisa is going to be the dizzy one.

“And I believe that’s my cue,” Kaeya chirps, easing around where Jean’s still gaping up at Lisa. “Mind undoing the door long enough to let me out?”

“I’m afraid I do mind. Your turn, sweetie. Sit down for me.”

“Aha,” Kaeya says, but his feet stop moving.

“Jeanie baby?”

Jean slings one arm out, tugging Kaeya in until he sits across her lap, held in place with her arms around his hips.

That one blue eye slides from Jean to Lisa and back again, as though he can’t decide where he should be looking.

“So good for me,” Lisa says again, delighting in the way the two of them melt into each other. “Aren’t you two just the prettiest little kittens I’ve ever seen.”

She sits back down, leaves them to press into each other, lets them keep their eyes on her as she starts preparing them all new cups of tea. When she looks up, Kaeya’s slouched down to cuddle into Jean’s shoulder, his arms wrapped around her middle. All three of those gorgeous eyes are fixed on her, exactly where she likes them best.

“Now then. I think we have some new things to discuss, and you two darlings have some safewords to pick out.” She winks, and relishes the way two sets of teeth sink into lower lips. “Don’t worry. I won’t forget them unless you want me to.”

#Momma writes #genshin impact fanfic #lisa/jean/kaeya #Lisa/jean #lisa/kaeya #kaejean #kaejeanlisa? Does this one have a dedicated ship name? #kaeya alberich #lisa minci #jean gunnhildr #this is messy as fuck but it’s a tumblr fic i slapped together while yelling at my partner for giving me brainrot so it is what it is #im so sorry lmao #Now. The real question. Is do i clean it up and slap it on ao3 or pretend i never wrote this #Anyway: Lisa just wants to take care of her idiots: a thread #The mortifying ordeal of posting fic

[can-of-slorgs]

Im dying at your tags on that last anon 😭😂 youre now the dr.sloth pinup artist that neopets needed

Not the title i wanted to craft for myself when i started this blog but hey, it brought us such good memories like

#vin answers #vin memes #neotag #sorry i thought i had answered with this but apparently it didnt save the draft or whatever!! D: #but hey you get a 5-min meme out of it so everyone wins #god the things i put my poor grundo through HJSKDAF #this whole ordeal was one hell of a rollercoaster and I'm glad i was part of it #i don't think i've ever drawn dr sloth that much in such a short time if ever lmao #and don't get me wrong its been great #just not something i had thought to be involved in after just 1 month of starting this blog JHSDJK #specially as when i first got into the neotag i was basically nobody lol #i think everytime i draw the guy he's more and more pissed LFMAOO #hey neopets team hire me i can... draw dr sloth in the most sus way possible without it being pleasurable i guess HJSDF #anyway thanks for the ask and sorry for the late response i swear I thought i answered this!! #the grundo's name is Volks by the way i treat him as a sona but technically he's just some guy #that's it im done

[lab-gr0wn-lambs]

I think one of the biggest things that's helping me feel more certain in my transition is the realization that I am extremely good at enduring. I've learned to endure pretty much anything. I can be in a situation that I hate and just switch off and ride it out until it's over. When I was a kid it was because there was nothing I could ever do about it. I hate long loud boring gatherings but I'd have to stay until my parents took me home many hours later. I hate traveling but I'd have to endure it for weeks. It's taught me a great deal of patience, I do it all the time now. I endure long journeys, events I didn't want to attend, trips I didn't want to take, people I don't want to hang out with... It's an important skill to have. but the thing is, I was subconsciously planning on doing that with my gender dysphoria for the rest of my entire life. I WAS doing that for years, not even trying to explore what that horrible feeling was. I'm the endurer! I endure! I switch off and ride it out until it's... over.

Maybe this isn't one of those things I have to put up with. Maybe it's time to stop enduring my life and start enjoying it.

#hey look it ends on a haiku #aint that neat #gender dysphoria #tw dysphoria #personal #i will say ive been much worse at enduring things in general lately #probably why im just now realizing this whole trans shit #jen if you're reading this and thinkin ''bitch you aint endure those last two family trips very well'' i knOW dont worry i know lmao #and this isn't me being like ''oh woe is me to be invited on a free vacation so horrible'' i just find traveling an unpleasant ordeal #im a creature of habit i need space and freedom and quiet but i come along to be polite and sociable and grateful #but i hate traveling. ough. #anyway theres that disclaimer ok bye

[barbieaiden]

alfira just casually gave me the coolest clothes ever

#look at them oh my god so pretty and shiny #i also finally found a cloak but it doesn't match the clothes but #i am wearing them anyway #also astarion is plotting murder #on me #i wish i could recruit alfira and rolan lia and cal #i don't hate my companions but idk if i have any strong positive feelings towards them either. you know #except karlach i really really like karlach #i like astarion in concept but i am having a little bit of trouble getting over the whole #disapproved 15 times because i was helping SLAVES ordeal like #yeeeeeeeeeah #gale is giving me strong anders from da2 vibes and it is making me uncomfortable lmao

[potential-fate]

Might actually get my computer back on Tuesday. Hopefully.

#its been an ordeal 🙄 and by ordeal i mean i wanted to kill a man for being useless. but w/e. its fine #anyways #theyre replacing my hard drive with an SSD so hopefuly it both works and is even improved. #im like 90% sure the gard drive is the problem so hopefully thats all they need to do :) #second time is the charm #like by that i mean the first place literally did nothing and when i called a third time #they said theyd need another week and a half #and when i asked what theyd done they had literally no notes on what theyd done. #I'm like 99% sure they just fucking left it on a a shelf and forgot about it #so i got irritated and just picked it up and took it to geek squad instead. #who told me “yeah should be able to fix it in three days.” #nonsims #sorta at least. #i mean it is my simming comp and why i CANT sim now so #its like sims adjacent lmao

[almightyhamslice]

latest commission for @mysteriousdragon2 ft Holhol and Weather Forecats lolz

Weather Report is impressing Hol Horse by controlling clouds and lifting them off the ground!

I actually forgot to post a shit ton of my latest commissions here!! oops. will post them shortly.

#commission #commissions #art #JoJo's Bizarre Adventure #art commissions #mysteriousdragon2 #digital sketch #Hol Horse #Weather Report #clouds #I drew this on a call with Dragon lolz #the audio was RLLY fucked up tho liek it was kind of an ordeal lmao #fun anyways

[xannerz]

roblox death noise

#vigo's pancreatitis is better now btw #he's bounced back really well and i cannot overstate my relief #but the entire ordeal and vet bill broke me #*i* haven't bounced back from it #like i've already been shouldering a lot and that made me snap lmfao #so i've just been like moseying along day to day waiting for the evening so i can go back to sleep #talking takes too much energy. so does just. yk. emoting like an average ass person lmao #i feel like terrible company. idk #cant draw cant write cant exercise can barely walk my dog #and i hate it b/c it feels like i'm fishing for excuses #ive had therapists tell me i'm very self-aware and i dont mean that in a 'i got a good grade in therapy' type of way LMAO #but in the 'if i know then i know then why am i here spinning my wheels and boohooing' type of way #like despite my own bad habits i wanna consider myself a person who has at least some hope and ambition #but i've just been super like done. lmaoo #but lately i just cant. i cannot envision a future for myself. not w/ the way things are. #these are things that *should* be independent of me but aren't. so i get roped into taking care of things. #over and over and over and over again. for over 10 years LMFAO #anyway i'm just vaguely whining no advice is being requested ty : ) #xangoeswah

[msmargaretmurry]

hello tumblr pals! it is wip wednesday, a day that has been been making me increasingly forlorn the past month or two as i've been struggling with some big anxiety/depression around writing and finding it very hard to get words onto the page. i am trying to be proactive about finding my writing joy again and would love it if any of you feel compelled to do either of the following:

- share with me a scene or line i've written that has stuck with you since you read it! and/or

- share with me a specific thing you're excited about in something you're working on!

#honestly i find the ordeal of admitting i'm sad on social media fairly mortifying #but apparently stewing in my feelings and occasionally vaguetweeting about it doesn't help very much #anyway also feel free to ignore this lmao

[paupersnail]

My Malkavian got married to her demon possessed sire and immediately got dragged to hell with him for a week long honeymoon. I have not been normal since.

#my art #vampire the masquerade #malkavian #nyx Fischer #I gave up drawing nyc skyline and I gave into the allure of free use stock photos with rendering effects and hella blur #the stone in her wedding ring is a mountain in hell #allegedly if a mortal looks at it too long they start going insane so that’s romantic #anyway marrying her fucking killed him lmao #which was the goal!! they had to kill him that was the coterie’s whole ordeal and goal right now #but that mother fucker got on a knee and nyx said ‘yeah betraying my coterie is so fucking worth it right now’ #yay women’s wrongs 💕

[skitskatdacat63]

Some matador studies :)

+ ref pic I like but couldn't even attempt to draw 😭

#its funny how your brain can randomly turn on #no one saw it (i hope) but i posted some other matador sketches last night #MAN they were not great imo. i only kept one of them for this post lmao #like i was referencing pics and it was just not working in my brain except for the one #and then i came back to it just now and boom suddenly i could ref poses very well?????? #istg i either struggle so bad and have to trace the pose to check shapes and its a whole ordeal #or like now i randomly can look at pics and get the pose down pretty well #not perfect obv but i drew these all in like 50 mins so ????? pretty good no? #just having a severe matador moment #like i wanna draw more of the AU but i need to study poses first #something i actually really dont do a lot cause its often frustrating #but wow these were quite fun! #not worrying abt the end product yknow #i love matador pics so fucking much #bcs you never have to worry abt: is this unrealistic? is this too flamboyant? #cause man the pics are fucking insane #i think the legs are my favorite? theyre all just very slayful i guess. idk how to describe it #but it always feels like a dance #anyways! maybe more matador nando soon #i think i said before but ah....really wanna draw him bloody #catie.art. #matador au

[feverdreamsandlucidnightmares]

I was talking with my older sibling and I brought up trigun bc what else is going on in my life and I mentioned that I like body horror. And they were like yeah I bet you do,,, How the fuck am I supposed to take that? What are they diagnosing me with, what evil have they foreseen lol

#they were like I raised you of course you’re a little fucked up and of course I know #which like first of all I’m considerably less fucked up bc they helped raise me lmao #but do I take it as like a new way I’ve been told I’m exhibiting fatherless behavior or what #anyways #the mortifying ordeal of being known #siblings #fever’s vibe check #feverdreamsandlucidnightmares

[volivolition]

what's the theme you're fucking going for here voliiii!!! what are you fucking getting at!!! what are you trying to say, what's the point??

#still working on this drama chapter in Swept Up. they're. confusing to work with? from an empathy standpoint at least. #skill who is trying to honestly understand the other skills VS skill who is just always lying and putting on an act. #and then theres the whole thing that im not going to spoil yet but the dynamic. fuck man. i dont even know what im trying to say here #lying is bad? no i dont care about that. honest communication is important maybe? i feel like i need a central theme for this. #and i dont want the theme to be ''empathy good'' because low-empathy people are also good and i love them!! and also: #empathy is a flawed character!! i try to portray this. i dont like moralism/centrism which empathy believes in and is the main skill for #empathy you stupid centralist (affectionate) i know this is just because you don't know how to make everyone happy. who can fix this? #you dont think you can fix this! you feel too much debilitating sadness to make meaningful change!! responsibilite to others more capable #still. i do depict empathy as often kind on a small level because i think that's in character. empathy just helps you understand. #i guess this fic is also a ''empathy doesn't mean kindness. kindness is a choice you can make afterwards but empathy just means empathy'' #but that's not a centralizing theme that all the chapters share. its also about vulnerability and the mortifying ordeal of being known #urgh. i'll think about it some more. knowing me its probably another ''love (in all forms) is the meaning to life'' type story lmao <3 #i need to make a skill chart for this harry. all i know is that Volition is his skill signature but Empathy is his highest stat #hyper-empathetic harry with the rsd that comes from adhd!! haha!! suffering. everybody fucking hate you. this is based on me btw lmao #i was working on voli's chapter which has a flashback and child empathy! new to the mindspace looking out through harry's eyes and crying #the world is full of sad people and it's just too much for a lil guy! the backstory i have planned for this like. huh okay. wild. anyway!! #oh shit ive made a fucking breakthrough with the drama chapter. its not a theme but its something i figured out at least. we stay winning!! #chemi chats #task: swept up

[dizzystqrs]

i'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're about to cry. i know your favorite songs, and you tell me about your dreams, think i know where you belong, i think i know it's with me.

#hi #i dont usually edit so this was an Ordeal but.... this post was in my mind so vividly LMAO #emma gilbert #rikki chadwick #<3 <3 #h2o just add water #rikma #rikki x emma #ive had this in my drafts for a while idrk know why i think i forgot to post it? anyway have it now <3

[moe-broey]

It's like a soap opera in here........

VERY messy and minimal cause I honestly didn't want to focus too much on this LMAO but. As a fanartist who is jumpscared by canon sometimes I always have to ask myself, "Okay what is the funniest thing I can do with this information"

I mean come on. The sitcom potential is off the charts (this hypothetical kid is gonna have the most bullshit life ever)

(my Summoner goes by they/it!)

#fire emblem #feh #i'm imagining moe pulling a professor sada #sada SPECIFICALLY bc (even though the topic makes me v squeamish personally) #the concept alone is SO outrageously funny to me. #though the god child won't be of flesh. key difference there i guess LMAO #also the idea of alfonse appointing himself step father is SO fucking funny to me #almost like a phoenix wright situation where this random baby is suddenly in the picture and he's like. okay. bet. #i am now going to dedicate the rest of my life to this. #ANYWAYS I'M. ON SOME ADVANCED SHIT. it's not enough for me to say 'i have a thing for alfonse sorry' #i have to make it into the stupidest most unhinged ordeal imaginable. #fe alfonse #fe seidr #sharena #moe tag #my art #not tagging the whole tree. btw. too many of them. #summoner oc