#anyway we need more news soon

[ittybittybumblebee]

Oughfhrgrhhgh bigtop burg

#bigtop burger #btb #ittybittydraws #my art #im so sorry for not drawing the other chracters more truth is ive not quite figured out how i want to draw them yet #impromise i donr only think abt cesare and steve #but i do think about them most iom sorry they are my favourites <3 #anyway Hi im thinking about burg show again im here im drawing burger people again Hi #excuse my absence but i am back i wanr to draw more #and i hope new episode come out soon pretty please plaess please please amen #we need our stevie backkkkk #ayway sorry for tag ramblinf zbjdvvcbhgffgngfn

[goldkirk]

I opened Pinterest for the first time in months.

That made me realize a lot about how bad I was actually doing and how much of a Waffle House Index use of Pinterest is for adult me, apparently.

I hadn’t realized it had grown that foundational to me in a healthy-brain-exercise-and-hobby-joy way. Nice to know moving forward! It’s another sign I can keep track of and use to spot correlation/indicator patterns earlier my behavior.

I love this kind of thing, it makes me so excited!

#personal data hacking is my passion #someday I’ll tell a story about the most notable times I tracked things or hacked my own mental processes from childhood to now #including the fear of spiders and bed wetting and behavior changes and posture and heart rate and cursive and putting kitchen items and #trash away as soon as I’m finished using them instead of never ever or ages and ages later #I’m so proud of that #you have to give it time and still commit. chaining thoughts and routines and behaviors really works #we are not separate brains and bodies and external environments #anyway I’m gonna go haha I used up he last of my energy burst on Discord and here and I need to go rest and lie on the floor and probly doze #love you all be back soon bye mwah! #add to journal #trauma evolution #my Waffle House index #this is going to be a fun new tag I’m so going to have fun with this and I bet it’ll be a helpful example reference for other people too #more than just for future me! #so excited so proud of myself so happy so grateful for hope about me really trusting that my ability and my behavior and my performance #are able to and going to yes keep getting better #long many-milestone path-journeys of potential #like when I was a little 6-7 year old kid-team athlete looking ahead at a concept of a future with me over time getting #stronger and cleverer and faster and slicker and calmer and even happier and more and more capable and able to accomplish! #a gift. all this time I didn’t think I’d have and have been living anyway is such a gift. #knowing that I truly have future time to grow and explore and change and improve in even though I still can’t FEEL or IMAGINE that future #time yet. also a gift. #the time I will one day realize I can imagine a future and imagine myself alive? will be a gift. #breath is a gift. experiencing life is a gift. other life is a gift. rhythm is a gift. motion is a gift. awake is a gift. color is a gift. #such a great expanse. all of it new. all of it eternal. all of it me. all of it nothing I’ve ever known before. all of it all of it #all of it. gifts. #gonna go have floor time now. this would be such a nice time to re-re-regain my ability to cry! #mwah I love you future me. take care of your hand and thank u for writing all this down 💛 #hey little star whatcha gonna queue? #my poetry

[keeps-ache]

there are a couple changes i would make to the keyboard if i could:

wiggly exclamation mark

bleeding heart emoji

varying snake emojis (more poses would be fun)

question mark with a little heart for the dot bc, well,

more explosions

and that is all thank you

#just me hi #i need these a lot #wiggly bc it makes a lot of sense #i am saying something but with a sort of ~~~~~~ to it!! #/bleeding heart because the other night (it musta been about 3 a.m.) i was looking for an emoji to really get my point across and i sadly #realized that i had imagined the existence of it. the disappointment was immense <//3 hfhs #/SNAKES. need i say more? :> #do i know a lot about them? not yet. am i scared of them? yes. but i love them a lot thanky #/i am asking a question but it's with love #<3 #/explosion emoji my beloved #we NEED to diversify hfhsvb #a mushroom cloud would be cool :3 or one that clearly has shrapnel in it #or one with a little heart that's like the exploding head emoji. because it's like that #i'm mentioning hearts a lot bc the heart is willing but the brain is. trying #//anyway in the other newsings i'm remaking those pi.e refs again lmao 👍 #ik they're only so many months old but man i changed some of the designs a bit during those months hfhs #funny how i made refs because i thought 'oh i haven't changed their designs in forever - it's not like it'll happen anytime soon yea?' #and then.......... #oath's design has changed the most minimally during these - how many ? two‚ three-ish years - so i thought Ahh nothin'll happen #but Then-- #aura has morphed So many times - she was at least 3 different people before i actually Got her so hfvhs <3 #kinda knew that would happen. but she's actually changed the least so Lollll #hid's usual look has not changed at All - only his actual form‚ which i tweak every second day or something #and i've neglected kira so badly fvfsh - so now i've added and removed and swapped things for her in worldrecord time ! i think i've got he #in a way i like though so :D #but bc of all these changes now i gotta make new refs bc they are Inaccurate #not a big deal. but oh it IS #wonder how long it'll take me this time lol :) only one way to know ehegh #//anywho ciao ! i've got the things and stuffs to be doing.. ooo toodles :33

[maxgicalgirl]

Archive 81 tv show made Melody Pendras straight we cannot trust podcasts in the hands of mainstream media !!!!!!!

#archive 81 #I have mixed feelings about it and as soon as they introduced Gal Pal Annabelle to replace Actual Girlfriend Alexa it should have been a #red flag #conceptually I really liked what they did to flesh out the first season #but they took it in a completely different direction by the end and at that point it’s not even the same thing anymore 🙄 #like you can’t even pick up anything from the original’s season 2 because they reconstructed the narrative so much #idk man its not like they’re going to make any more of it anyways but I still felt the need to come on here and bitch #honestly main stream adaptations of podcasts scare me like I revel in exposure for things I like but ultimately so much gets lost in #translation #like archive 81 podcast is weird and nonsensical at times and Tape Recorder Man’s adventures in the Upside Down just don’t translate to a #general audience ? so they gotta bring in reasons for it to make sense like satanism and witches and demons #when that was sooooooo not the point of the original #like seeing how much they had to adjust to appeal to an outside audience makes me almost glad the wtnv tv show didn’t get green lit #can you imagine ???? how the fuck would they get five headed dragon Hiram McDaniel on my actual television ???? #standing next to a Cecil Palmer with a canon appearance no less #like adaptations are cool and they CAN work sometimes but if you’re going to have to break and bend the world in order to make it to the #point where it’s a new thing entirely #ESPECIALLY since we live in a world where audio drama is not respected as a creative medium #at that point I’m just like leave it alone it’s fine on it’s own #anyways archive 81 is an interesting experiment into what live action podcast adaptations COULD look like but you can pry lesbian Melody #Pendras from my cold dead hands and that makes the adaptation automatically inferior imo #I guess she could be bi but when you remove Canon Girlfriend and instead make her kiss a man ? not likely #I am just talking to hear myself talk now goodbye #max rambles in the tags

[todayisafridaynight]

Sorry everyone i finally found a color-accurate suit for aoki im going to be so annoying

#snap chats #IM LYINNGGGGG. about being annoying. ok no im not #i dont know what im lying about POINT IS YEEAAAAHHHHHHH #the place i go to was having a sale and i was like LOL. let me visit #i wanted to get new clothes anyway and then i walk in and what the fuck i see. //screams// #i wont get more accurate glasses. unless i see them in the wildBUT FOR NOW UGH. im so sick #i almost wanna post cosplay pics but 1.) my camera’s a gym sock 2.) im bad at selfies 3.) we dont need to see my mug more than usual #‘snap how are you still weird about your face you stream your face regularly’ lmao right 🥰 #not everyone watches streams tho… nor does everyone watch the vods.. which are only link accessible #just havin My Face out there in the open…. wo Ah… #anyway if i cosplay aoki during a stream no i dont #ok bye I Should Really Get Food. or start heading home at least stream soon AH

[silenthillbunni]

📓🕯️🐇🖤pt.2

#only 30 tags lol i ran out... so furthermore #we only get one life. im gonna try as much as i can to enjoy the little moments. nd to not give up on myself nd my life #i will die one day anyway. why rush it. i'll enjoy as many books and as many walks and songs and tv shows as possible #if i get a loan nd have more money i wanna bleach my hair nd dye my hair green #and later this year i think i might change my name #it was the name i wanted to change to from the beginning. but i was in such a bad headspace i just picked eden at random #i do kinda like it now nd im attached to it but i more feel like this other name actually is me. my birth name nd my current name dont feel #really right. so maybe. i havent decided yet. like i rlly dont know. im also attached to this name for some other reason. like it's who i am #to a person i rlly like and if i change... will i be anything to them? i cant put it into words but that makes me hesitate #but it's unhealthy to stay attached to someone i cant truly have even if i want to. so i mean. idk im just weird abt it #but i do kinda wanna change my name (to embla. my mom wanted to give me that name but my dad was like nooo >.<) i am not 100% sure tho so #when i've been getting used to going to school nd working out at the gym. nd after my surgery nd i have more energy #i will try to face my avpd and try apps for making friends. there r two apps where u can find new girl friends!! maybe i can try that #also like i've never tried apps but i think maaaaaybe i can use bumble to try to find friends and women to date. potentially. idk..... #rn it's hard for me to think in those terms bc. i mean i am hung up on someone!!!! i cant evwn imagine dating or being intimate w anyone els #sometimes i feel like.. they're the only person i've ever felt like it'd even be possible. who i'd event want to do that w #not only physically but emotionally. so ig it's even harder to let go bc im so scared i will never feel like that w anyone else #but i rlly need to try to make the most of whatever life i have. the world will collapse soon anyway #that makes me even more sad that i cant be w who i wanna be w nd do what i wanna do but #all pain will all be completely descimated eventually. it's not forever bc life isnt forever #i've just never felt this before. like i want smth to be real so bad but if it happened once surely it can happen again? right? #i wont spend my life alone without intimacy and love and comfort nd support nd understanding right???? :o hope not #im still so sad nd exhausted rn. nothing in my life is working nd theres no repreive nd no help #it gets sooo hard to endure everything sometimes when everything just keeps piling up and gets so heavy it feels like im drowning #nd atm i dont feel like i have any anchor. nothing that keeps me grounded nd im just floating away nd im constantly being overwhelmed by my #feelings nd emotions. im like a stupid little kid who dont understand how to handle what im feeling. or make rational decisions #i feel so ... stupid and useless. i dont know what im doing. i have no idea. i have no compass. its so scary

[tianhai03]

hey everyone sorry for the silence, i was trying very hard to catch up with school work that i didnt manage to hand in on time. anyway i made a full body 3d model of my oc lucifer for a digital sculpting assignment :)

i posted a lot of the making process of this on twitter and i’ve also compiled everything into a moment that you can find here! go take a look if youre interested in watching me and lucifer suffer <3

(and also bonus dmc5 render looking pic of him bc a friend asked me to do it as a joke. my son is a dmc5 character now)

#he took abt 1 month and half to finish bc not only was i new to modeling and sculpting humans i also kept procrastinating lmao #i learned a lot though! and despite almost having multiple mental breakdowns over this it was fun #it was always a dream of mine to make my own 3d model of an oc so this is literally a dream come true im very happy for lucifer #i'll definitely be doing more with his model in the future; im planning to optimize it (bc the polycount is like. 8mil) and then rig it #so i can make him do all sorts of cool poses. maybe even mod him into some games. like idk. dmc5. who knows #anyway thats all from me for this week im fucking tired and i need to rest. i literally stayed up to 2am for two days just to finish him lol #i'll go back to posting art soon hopefully </3 #my ocs #lucifer(oc) #how should i tag this so i can find him easier in the future... #lucifer becomes 3d #yea ok there we go i'll just use that. if i ever post any more 3d stuff with him i'll use that tag lmao #okay now lucifer's gonna hibernate for 3 months after the suffering i put him through and im gonna go back to drawing. see u guys later <3

[wild-at-mind]

If you ever see me becoming one of those transmisandry people, please fucking call me out immediately.

#it shouldn't happen though i am too triggered by MRA-lite material #i can't see that changing any time soon even though i haven't had exposure to the content for like 10 years #the transmisandry discourse on this site melts my brain it's awful it's just online stuff being argued about more online stuff #this is not the same as me saying i will never be treated badly for being transmasc i am not stupid i know that happens #and i am fully committed to fighting the patriachy which has nothing whatsoever to do with my individual manhood or anyone else's #it's a system and yes gender and how we fit into the patriachy is made extremely complicated in trans circles and that's ok! #i promise it is you don't have to design a new system that cis women and trans women are using to do oppression on specifically trans mascs #we're all being fucked over by the patriachy and how the fuck does it help to be divided #but in reality let's face it i can say this all i want but the real reason i'm never going anywhere near being a transmisandry person #is because i was exposing myself to MRA-lite content at a formative age and harming myself in the process #even if i didn't know i was a trans man guess what it would have harmed me just as much if i did have that awareness #and honestly when i see transmisandry discourse all i see is that fucking triggering stuff again #all it does is nitpick whether patriachy is real with tiny examples it doesn't talk systemicly and it doesn't help men in the slightest #it pays lipservice to marginised men but it has no interest in talking about the fact that men are usually simultaenously #oppressed and oppressor at the same time- this is not accusatory it is just factual #it's true of the queer community too and basically every community #but we can't seem to talk about it without just harming each other and blaming and not seeing each other as human #the internet makes it all so much fucking worse this stuff can't exist without it #anyway i'm super rambling but these are genuinely very triggering topics for me i have unfollowed people i LOVE becuase of this #and i still love them! unfollowing on a social media isn't a referendum on that i just can't see that stuff and i need it gone from my dash

[476b]

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#hm well. #i finally cut ties with the guy ive been seeing for the past 14 months #since im moving and im not his primary partner anyways even thiugh he was mine #and so it isnt even a real Breakup i just told him i didnt want to keep hooking up #because i need something more than what we have and if i have him to fall back on i wont be as commited to really finding someone #hes respectful and agrees and everything is fine #except that it still hurts really bad #like i let go of a leaky liferaft in open water #it wasnt great but it was the best i had #but its fine #i plan on having fun this month #and seeing old friends and making new ones #and ill be happy again soon #i should have done this months ago but... i like him.....

[killmebythebeach]

Just finished today's jrwi and WHATS THIS?! ******* ******** WITH A STEEL CHAIR?!?!

#jrwi spoilers dont listen to unless youve finished 79 #holy. FUCKING. SHIT! #oh my god i knew that would happen as soon as i aaw a shitpost predicting it like. a month ago when gol first got orbed. #okay. the asteriks is niklaus hendricks btw #the way i SQUEALED AND STARTED LAUGHING OUT LOUD #but also like gil. doesnt get to know if what he did is what the elders wanted. he never heard their verdict #i hope he doesnt care. i hope that last (GUT WRENCHING) monolog made him realize he doesnt need their approval #if hes doing what he thinks is right with his new experience #i ALWAYS miss gillion but i dont realize how much until hes ACTUALLY THERE #cant wait for desire daddy to gaslight gatekeep girlboss our boy #im just HOOOOOOO #i hope this isnt the end of the tidestrider mini sessions cuz i do NOT trust grizz and charlie to leave gil with niklaus for that long #like if theres a gap gils gonna come back all fucked up and brainwashed by niklaus or smth #okay i was sort of thinking niklaus WAS the doctor though. so im even more excited to meet the doctor now #cuz i was really hoping JAY would finally get the niklaus treatment to bring gil back so we could have 3/3 #but im down if gillion gets cripling debt #and the way he was like 'cant let you die before i cash in that favor' or whatever OOH HOO HOO #anyway im on the edge kf my seat im all bzzzzzz anyway later skaters #jrwi #jrwi riptide

[nerdie-faerie]

It seems to really be hitting my mum just how young she was when she had me in light of her upcoming birthday

#+Extra #like on the one hand she feels old cus its a big birthday coming up but on the other hand it seems to only just be hitting her just #how young she is to have a 22 year old daughter which is frankly old news at this point she was always too young just in denial #we had a very odd conversation last night in which she started off by saying that my soon go be 18 yr old brother and the 19 yr old #definitely arent responsible enough to watch the kids for a couple of hours while she gets her hair but then that its ridiculous that an #under 18 yr old (her phrasing) cannot open a bank account without a parent because she was entrusted with an entire human being at that #age and so he should be able to open a bank account by himself and i was listening like no thats the wrong conclusion its the opposite the #adults in your life shouldve been more concerned about you also what a revisionist recount saying that no one was concerned about you #having a baby at the age and it was probably because my dad was an adult so they felt they had no need to be concerned when i know all of #your family tried to express concerns that you wouldnt hear which led to years of animosity during my childhood staff at your college also #expressed concern as did your friends you just dont wanna admit that now. also how can they not be trusted with the kids for a couple of #hours when youre 15 minutes down the road as basically adults when 1 is going off to uni in September supposedly and the other has #basically moved out already and i was left entirely alone with the kids at younger than 15? #the sexism and gender stereotyping continues to perplex me #anyway hoping no one got to the end of this rant to add that im once again reminded that my birthday is actually just a day for my mum to #mourn the youth she missed out on by having a baby stupid young

[loverboybitch]

knit sweater i made drying out after i dyed it in my kitchen sink.//.

#uploads #fashion #fibres #the color is kinda weird but i like it alot that really washed out wine red #gonna fuck around with this more still myb do a little bleaching and some more dying but for now she rests #also shrunk a bunch lowkey after i washed it so hope i can stretch it back out a bit we will see #reflecting several hours later now that its mostly dry and i got to try it on #i think the color looks kinda washed out cause i wrung it out really realyl hard when i was washing it #i feel like that wasnt super smart cause i do wish it was a bit darker but also maybe i just need a darker dye mix #but i really was squeezing that shit to get the water out and i think it probably desaturated the color a bit #lessons for next time #also rewrote and made a edited version of the pattern ive been working with so its more my own #changed a couple things so im gonna try and make another sweater soon i think #gotta figure out what wool i wanna use maybe ill go back to the galler yarns WOW wool but also the mohair was really nice #i have a ton of fine alpaca but ive been using that for my woven project instead and its alot thinner #idk how it would look esp cause im using such big needles #maybe i could size down and try that but id have to really figure out a whole new pattern n knit counts idk maybe #anyway just thinking out loud cause its 5am and i cant sleep but i also cant work on sweater anymore cause its just chilling #n i need bleach n some other stuff #also gonna knit a trim for the bottom and sleeves fuck weaving it thats too hard #but then im gonna have to figure out how to dye it so it matches but uhhh haha idk #good thing its kinda a tester

[senseiwu]

September is either gonna be the break i need or it'll break me

#we're moving offices and the new one isnt ready yet but we need to be out of our current office by september #and i still dont know whats happening with me #so. i might have a break. i might need to find another job for that time #cause it could be a few months before our new office is ready. #im thinking of maybe trying to stream more and do commissions and stuff to make some money #i hope i know whats going on soon so i can make plans #i really dont want to look for another job in the interim i hate job hunting no one evrr hires me and rhen i have to get used to a whole new #place. and #thats.hard #i was thinking it wasnt worth seeking out a professional autism diagnosis but. with my vision alone since im.not legally blind i dont #dont qualify for the disability support pension #but if i had an explanation for why i cant really work more than 15 hours a week mentally... #maybe ill qualify. and maybe theyll consider adhd too. though i think that needs to be under management for a while first #anyway. #AAAAAAAA #so much is happrning man oh my god #im so #ive been holdikg on to any bit of happiness ive had this week #like finding a 2 litre bottle of solo #i cant take one more bad thing

[sanstropfremir]

I love your point about maximalism and embracing the spectacle being backbones of kpop and part of what sets it apart from other genres because I think that’s very true. I don’t listen to kpop expecting some heartfelt authentic song that I personally relate to. If I wanted that, I could go listen to any singer at almost any bar in my city sing about their depression or something. I want like an insane fantasy unattached from my regular life that isn’t about girls/cars/money, which is the only alternative reality you find in most western pop. Bonus points for insane production to go with the insane lyrics rather than just more of the same 2-4 measure instrumental motif repeated for an entire song.

(Also, gotta say - SM had serious confidence showing up in America with lyrics the level of cringe of Jopping, because a lot of Americans have way too many mean opinions that they shout confidently, especially at non Americans. But honestly SuperM’s unironic embrace of the cringe made me like Jopping even more. It’s also a crime they didn’t promote their full album in 2020 more. I know it was the early pandemic and they couldn’t figure out what to do if they couldn’t come to the US, but that album was 100% bangers and it deserved more)

exactly! even within the k music industry you can find musicians that make 'authentic' music, it's not that hard to find at all. but you cannot expect it from idol music, because idol music is a specific form of performance. idol music is engineered to be about spectacle; you cannot separate the visual element from it because it was essentially formulated for television and large scale broadcast. expecting idol music to forgo that element is like expecting the same from an opera. the point of an opera is that it is every art form combined together to make the greatest spectacle story possible, and kpop has exactly the same function, just crammed down into four minutes instead of four hours.

#superm w #superm #not to get on my kpop is the modern analogue to opera soapbox again. but i'm right #there are ways that are possible to 'trim down' spectacle performance like kpop and opera to tell less grand/more intimate stories #ive seen a couple very beautiful small scale 'true story' operas and of course there's things like hadestown #(which started life as a concept folk album) #but the thing that ppl need to remember is that as SOON as you intend a story to be seen by an audience it ceases to be 'authentic' #bc you telling that story INTENDING to invoke a response. and you formulate the decisions you make when creating that work #in order to get the strongest/most effective response. therefore it cannot be 'authentic'. #and that's ok!! i promise its fine!! human brains do not care if a story is not true!!! #anyways. i havent gotten all postgrad academic on something in a while so here you go new followers yes i am always like this #people will say superm is cringe and just a cashgrab but i always got u #i also wish they could have done more to promote superone bc the tour that that was going to produce would have gone SO fucking hard #the pandemic has robbed so much from us (superone promotions and second superm world tour) #i also wish they could have done more to promote superone bc its literally SO good #im glad we did get the stuff that we did bc a lot of it was fun and cute (the with you tvn stage <3) #answers #text

[thedeadthree]

coming in remarkably Late to ask for 🎵🎵 + iryna and maybe 🎵 + iryna/raul 😌

AJ YOU DEARIE PIE YOU! the sweethearts of my heart! those two ! iryna the fool in love and her affections for the dearest dear ever raul!

OCS AND SHIPS + SONGS ASKS

🔪 — IRYNA PASTERNAK

ONLY HAPPY WHEN IT RAINS — garbage

i’m only happy when it rains // you know i love it when the news is bad // why it feels so good but feels so sad

WITCHES TALE — jah phnx

such a pretty depression // blood spills cheap thrills make for great art

💀⛏ — IRYNA X RAUL

VIVIEN — ✝️✝️✝️ crosses

i saw you in the water clutching to my hand // falling deep into your dripping heart again

#🌸: aj #jendoe #oc: iryna pasternak #leg.ocs #x: iryna x raul #x: i saw you in the water clutching to my hand #oc: raul alvarado #friends ocs #leg.asks #leg.txt #listen ​we gotta make a ship tag for them WE GOTTA SOON 🥀😭 #i was thinking water references for new harbor and them <3 and this line from this song fit really well with that? #i have to find more songs with them in mind <3 there’s also a song that also fits for olgie + logan that would be cute for iryna + raul too! #she believes in the healing art of arts and crafts and another line for her ‘thank you for the tragedy i need it for my art’ energy <3 #also if u listen to c*rosses and the lead voice sounds familiar it’s the lead singer from the d*eftones other project <3 #IT TOOK ME EONS TO FIND THAT OUT I WAS LIKE I KNEWWW SOMETHING SOUNDED FAMILIAR skjsjzjx but anyway ! #babies babies ty ty so much for the ask! our gothic grumpy girl and her grumpy leader boyfriend <3 grumpy together! 💀🖤 #AND UR FINE DEAR ur not late at all <3 i posted the ask game at like a super late hour UR ALL GOOD DEAR <3