#anyways I'm feeling so many normal emotions about this show its crazy /j

[lemonlimetoast]

Ok so like many people have been like "oh the way ed looks at stede, the way stede looks at Ed, the way the look at each other" etc and yes very true

BUT it's important to me that they look at each other differently.

Everytime stede looks at Ed with love, it's like a look of relief and calmness and belonging (which fits with the theme of him not really feeling like he belongs as a fancy lad or as a pirate until he meets Ed).

Everytime (or a lot of the time) Ed looks at stede with love, it's a look of amazement and also just like idk how to describe this... But it makes sense because he's amazed at how much stede can bring into his life and be so new and genuine and how someone like that could care so much about someone like him.

#finally tagging this one properly bc i have no personal post attached to it #ofmd #our flag means death #stede bonnet #ed teach #i dont know what to tell u guys im seriously deep in this show #and i took lit in hs #i forgot what was actually called #i think it's also interesting how stede presents himself as emotionally mature he still has a lot to learn about himself #and how he often doesnt do what he tells his crew which is to talk about it #like a lot of his convos w ed have undercurrents of him having background feelings #like the iconic tub cry scene hes very much there for him but also like ur not still gonna kill me tho right #which is fair #and the kiss scene where ed talks about running away he seems hesistant even before he gets threatened in the woods #and we as an audience know its his own insecurities but thats ed at his completely most vulnerable #hair down no beard white shirt no cool facade and having just explained his feelings and kissed stede #and he obviously perceives it as wow stede saw me at my most me and decided that he didn't like it and left #anyways I'm feeling so many normal emotions about this show its crazy /j #midnighttalk #BTW hair up is his fancy lad mask/shield/presentation and beard is that for pirating #which is why he starts hair down then as he wants to get fancier and esp for stede its up #then abandons it for stede and to be really himself #then down again bc hes fallen apart then down still because of his emo era and him not wanting anything to do with him anymore #beard is shorter bc he abandons jt fully for stede in 9 then gets stubble following that so its like piracy slowly creeping back #then w the makeup he forces it back on amd goes whole hog for piracy again #andd then cries jt off because he doesnt want to go back to who he was and in many ways cant #ok i keep adding onto these tags my bad but it also has to do with how ed ties sm of his self worth to stede after the fine things scene #and like in general but THATS really the pinpoint yk #and stede doesn't really change like that outwardly i think #also has to do w how for stede its about belonging and and for ed its about who he is fundamentally..... and for both its about living