#anyways back to yearning

[ruporas]

thinking about wolfwood (ID in alt text)

#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum #from awhile ago! i forgot to upload it here i think #i realized looking back at this. wolfwood has shrunk even more. DFGMKSGMS im sorry everyone has to bear with that. short woowoo #is engrained into my bones.... but anyway. im a big fan of vash yearning if that was not obvious from my previous comics. #not to say wolfwood doesnt do the same ofc... but im just thinking about vash's layers of repression in emotions and how he holds it #all together for the most part.... and when he yearns it's not like a dopey lovesick smile or anything. his cheeks are red but he's all “:( #bc he's Shy about it. and troubled by how much he's thinking about ww. but he can't help it and even less so when ww is right there #it's a very honest expression from someone like vash i think. and wolfwood can start to tell when he's faced with it and in turn #also gets embarrassed . silly the both of them #ruporas art

[disabled-dean]

HOT take but I am rotating a 27-year-old Mary in my mind, who isn't really fit for motherhood and doesn't stick around- but who blows through the bunker every once in a while with a group of rowdy young hunters and shitty gas station souvenirs, cleans her gun at the kitchen table, calls dean "baby", and leaves

#give me 27 year old Mart or give me death #like the dissonance here would have been soooooooo good can you imagine #Mary behaving almost exactly like Dean did back in the day (she's 27 dude) #but sometimes regressing into having a four year old #only her maternal instincts never aged past still illicitly living the life while having a toddler #but now dean is grown up and she doesn't have to take care of him or pretend to know how to cook #she just blows through town with shitty gas station souvenirs and the nostalgia for a life she wasn't equipped for #and is relieved to have gotten out of- one she relives a little heavily and doesn't have the tools to recreate or pantomime #also dean mommy issues winchester having to recon fully with a mother who is 15 years younger than him #spending his whole life yearning for motherhood and getting only a whisper #and having to face that #anyways that's the good supernatural that lives in my head #spn #Supernatural #mary winchester #mary posting

[biblicalhorror]

Aroace Riz real but also Fabian is SO clearly in love with him and Riz has no idea

#honestly fabian might not even fully know yet #a core part of fabians character is that he is so deeply afraid of rejection that he is never going to pursue the people he actually wants #i do think he likes Maezy a lot but i think he only knows how to pursue hot toxic women that will discard him at a moments notice #which in a way protects him from ever actually dealing with heartbreak #is he a gay man dealing with comphet? ehh maybe #i could see that #but I think the vibe i get is more about how he has these platonic friends he completely adores and is fully devoted to #and then in another category he has the people that he does not have any actual attachment to that he will allow himself to pursue #and crossing the boundaries in between those two categories or allowing himself to pursue someone he really cares for #would require a level of vulnerability he is in no way prepared for #in his home life he has an emotionally detached mother who is well liked but kind of floats through interactions on a surface level #and a father who is extremely concerned with fame and glory and attention but doesnt seem to have ever stopped moving in his life #genuinely fabian does not know what a safe loving partnership would look like #and we see him constantly oscillating between emulating his mother and his father in relationships #but just beneath the surface is a little boy who wants so badly to cling to his loved ones so tight and be squeezed right back #with no way of knowing how to even ask for that if he wanted #and riz is his best friend in the world and he knows on some level that riz is simply not interested in having that kind of relationship #not on the level fabian needs #but that also makes riz a safe target for these feelings of devotion #theyre just friends! just besties! fabian never has to reckon with his own loneliness or harmful patterns #if he channels all of his yearning for closeness onto his best friend #anyway! this boy needs therapy #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #fabriz

[cinnamorollbf]

ok but feeling a boy smile against ur lips during a kiss >>>>>>

#(this has never happened to me) #anyway disregard my last post i was feeling silly goofy #back to our regularly scheduled programming #dante rambles #txt #gay #mlm #mlm love #mlm yearning #t4t mlm #t4t yearning #trans mlm #mlm post #t4t #mlm thoughts #achillian #t4t love

[mishapen-dear]

Cant sleep so im thinking about ayhalo

I think its like. one sided. qaypierre WOULD smooch that demon and take him on dates. qbad would not recognize anything as a romantic gesture. aypierre could throw a bouquet of chocolate roses at him and bad would just be like ! thank you :}

like they love each other, absolutely. they TRUST each other, to the point where i’d even say it gets in the way of bad seeing aypierre as anything more than a good friend. that’s his guy. The dude always in his corner. Friend resource label: team mate (coparent) (down to help kidnap people). bad doesnt do classic romantic relationships- all of his relationships are INCREDIBLY queer, but the closest he usually gets to what others read as romance is a classic chewtoy4chewtoy dynamic. He LOVES to fuck with people and he loves to get fucked with and if there’s a nice jawline or pretty muscles included?? huge bonus !!

he’s got something- not kinder, with aypierre? not calmer, either, but stable, maybe. pierre has proven, over and over again, that he’s on bad’s side. Spying on tubbo, encouraging bad’s pranks, the kidnapping- i can’t call it a reliable dynamic, not with how paranoid bad is, even when he trusts, but there is still a feeling of understanding that, wherever pierre’s limits are for when he cant support bad (or genuinely turn against him), it hasnt been reached yet

aypierre, on the other hand, i dont know enough about to be absolutely sure but there are some Vibes. ironically, i think hes feeling like his relationships are unreliable. max was going to have their baby, and then he wasnt, and then he left him, then max fucking died. plus whatever is happening with him and ayrobot, which probably leaves him feeling like he cant rely on Himself. like he had, if not a little crush on bad, at least some Interest in him, before. as well as several islanders. i remember the days of the Bed Threat.

but thats part of it, too? because those flings didnt have that emotional connection, and i always got the sense that he started looking for that with maximus, to Love and Be Loved rather than pure lust. To care about someone, genuinely, and be cared about in return. but he didnt get that with the flings, and We know that max was using him, but i dont know if he did, but maybe he had a feeling about it and maybe he also had a feelinf about maximus’ feelings towards bad and maybe- there’s something about that? A little push of not-spite-not-projection onto bad.

because bad IS that reliability, right now. he’s a fucking gremlin. a bastard. a prankster silly guy. he trusts aypierre and aypierre trusts him and they dont share everything but so often, when it comes down to it, it is them against the world. them in the corner, caught, aypierre shouting about kissing as a cover for their crimes while bad runs giggling away from him.

#qsmp character analysis #qsmp shipping #<- because i DO think bad would be down to ~fornicate~ #but i dont think pierre drifts into that chewtoy zone enoufh for bad to get that Obsession #theyre kidnapping and escaping buddies !! who share food and secrets and strategies !! #but bad would do the same with the other french yknow #god i could go on for YEARS about how queer qbad’s relationships can get that demon is full of LOVE and that love is QUEER #i could make an argument that even his parenting style is affected by his queerness #in the way that he takes on all required roles for the eggs and cares for them SO MUCH #and SO OBVIOUSLY #as a dad/uncle that you dont often get to see in fiction #to the point where he is still in some way seen as a mother figure #but thats a whole different post #anyway this is part-analysis and part-silly written at ass-o’ #clock in the morning #if i remember ill come back to tag the ship for filtering purposes but i dont wanna throw ‘i think its one sided and exacerbated by grief #and general yearning for love/stability in an ever changing world’ when prople are just tryin to make em kiss #i respect the kisser causers have fun yall im enjoying seeing it #god i need to sleep #ayhalo

[poems-of-a-lover]

when boys are trying to get comfy in bed and theyre sleepy and theyre stretching and they do the little whiny sigh <333

#its me im boys this is me actually #i am a very. very tense person. and i often forget to relax like my shoulders and my back and everything. #so when im trying to get to bed i finally remember to relax everything so i can sleep its such an experience jskdhfjkshdfkj #anyway. wanna kiss someone. #sfw #mlm sfw #mlm #mlm yearning #mlm post #mlm love #gay mlm #mlm thoughts #t4t #trans mlm #mlm blog #t4t yearning

[tragedydenji]

i just? izuku is now quirkless again and injured, but still trying his best as usual.

i am reminded of each time katsuki pushed him down in their past where izuku was in the almost same state of being(minus the life threatening circumstances).

i cant find the panel but i am thinking of the one where kid!izuku was standing up for a kid being beat up by katsuki.

sure reminds me of this one in ch 419:

its just... when he's in this state(quirkless n injuried) katsuki is never far away so... im just delusional because that's what keeps us alive sometimes.

but i wish that for each and every time katsuki pushed him down in this state, he will be the one to extend his hand and step in again(because phew chps 403 & 404 were amazing) to do what he does best. show izuku what it means to be his hero.

#bnha spoilers #spoilers #idk if he still has the base quirk where its just ofa strength but the rest are gone #i think kid!bakugou's problem was that he didnt have the capacity for self reflection at that young age #like bro was hit w what he considered at that point the bane of his existence pretty early #bkdk #bakudeku #bnha 419 spoilers #mha spoilers #anyway this is just yearning and delusion #baby needs his own words thrown back at him “you looked like you needed saving” #if its a quirkless ending i am all for it because a quirk never defined izuku's worth as a hero. it has always been his heart #im not saying katsuki has to save him like hes a damsel but that he has to rely on others #boy has been standing in front of others for so long let someone stand in front of him for him #but well no doubt katsuki stood in front of izuku metaphorically when shiggyafo tormented n killed him

[melit0n]

It came to me in a dream

#this bough has been broken through #and I must be someone new #but change is what I fear the most #but I am human #so it's inevitable #and time will sew my wounds shut anyways #so what is there to be afraid of? #happy new year of yearning everyone <3 #sleep token #st #when the bough breaks #take me back to eden #one #mel's rambles #mel's photos #worshitposting

[tanzdoesthings]

having an assignment where the whole topic is “is it worth it to suffer for art” is really making me think.

#tanz talks #it’s weird. i don’t believe suffering to achieve a nebulous greatness is good. #but i actively do it anyways. i sit here and i yearn to create and get recognition #as my hands ache and i lose sleep just to try and take time back #the process of creation has a cost. and it’s very small. but it adds up. #i am pulled apart by school and then work and then go back to my place where now i need dinner too #all while being disabled. #and i just. take time i shouldn’t take and make things. #because if i wasn’t making things and actively doing that #i would probably drop out of school or something i couldn’t handle it. #it’s not worth it to suffer. the system im in makes me suffer anyways. #whatever. i need to fix some things but i need the energy to do it first. #which is a problem. #but. i keep going so. yeah.

[cake-by-thepound]

That man spent the last 7/8 years (ii’m still a little fuzzy on the timeline tbh) actually yearning for his wife, holding on for dear life to his memories (and fantasies lol) of her, clinging to it to remain sane and not losing all hope, doing the craziest sh!t to try to get back to her. That man CUT his OWN hand off just to try to see his wife again. He endures all that. And then the second he thinks him getting back to her would actually put her in danger, he does what he absolutely refused to do this whole time and let her go. And essentially dies. Naaah, men don’t be manning like that no more !!!!

The literal embodiment of “He’s a good man, Savannah.”

#rick grimes said he’s bringing yearning back #and i love that for michonne #although she really coulda used that other hand #but anyway #rick grimes #the wifiest wife guy of all time #richonne #twd towl

[notsoevilmagistrate]

Nick drives me fucking crazy because the first chapter was literally just “Gatsby’s not like other girls :(“ STOP SUCKING HIS DICK HES IN LOVE WITH YOUR COUSIN!!!! HES DOWN SO BAD ITS PATHETIC!!! Nick stop being a funky gay dude challenge IMPOSSIBLE.

#he’s weird and always lost tho so I mean kinda real #but me writing this gay book about a man and publishing my yearning out into the world? #couldn’t be me #anyway back to your regularly scheduled tags #the great gatsby #tgg #nick carraway #the great gatsby nick #jay gatsby #daisy buchanan #??? #idk if she counts but she can be here #natsby #natsby’s great but consider…one sided natsby #HA who am I kidding that’s practically canon L #(I’m gonna sit in a corner and cry now thinking about how Nick went to Jay’s funeral and not Daisy #and soak all my tears out like a sponge before letting them all out again) #:3

[plantanarchy]

the good workplace news is that the structure of new greenhouse is finished. it sure is a structure.

the bad news is that it probably won't be a functional greenhouse in time for spring growing and also that in the meantime maintenance and badly needed improvements for every other greenhouse has just not happened

along with stuff like... making sure we have the pots we need. having any kind of covered structure to store pots (used to keep new ones in one of the houses that came down). all the heavy machinery operators needed for moving pallets of pots and filling pots diverted to fixing the greenhouse

#i yearn for being allowed to drive the forktruck... #god i would pick so many heavy things up and back down again #it makes me cwazy that stuff is scattered all over the property exactly where it doesnt need to be #and my boss fixed the golfcart just to use it as a mobile tool cart rip so i cant haul shit in it evwn when hes not using it #and we are ALSO moving the entire nursery structure so the tractor and all our big carts are occupied too rip #anyway what was i complaining about

[fionnaskyborn]

Was tagged by @oceancamp to post my current five favorite songs! (They should invent a stages-of-grief-esque model that encompasses and accurately describes both types of anguish I had to go through making this list - the one of limiting myself to only five songs, and the one of trying to put as little videogame music on here as possible so that I don't end up looking like an absolute goddamn geek, which... I am... Oh well!)

Thank you so much for tagging me - here are the songs!

Heaven Pierce Her - War Without Reason

Tatsuro Yamashita - Love Space

This specific arrangement of Death And Republic + Meet Again

Winger - Junkyard Dog (Tears On Stone)

The Protomen - Light Up The Night

Is it courtesy to tag other people after you've been tagged in a post like this? If that's the case, I'll tag @spiralled-fury, @solradguy, @swamppossum, @five-by-five, @northstarring, @ineedmoredragons and @tbonechessor!

#logs #ya don't have to participate if you don't want to‚ from what i've gathered - it's all just for fun anyway :] #The link to Yamashita's song is actually a link to a website that hosts city pop songs‚ since those keep getting taken down on YouTube due #to the strictness of Japan's copyright laws with regards to music. Uploads of Yamashita's songs in particular get taken down quite #frequently... The rest are either Bandcamp or YouTube (in case of Junkyard Dog) links #Very out-of-character of me not to put a Кино song on here‚ haha #I had a hard time deciding whether to put HOLD BACK THE NIGHT or Light Up The Night here‚ but ultimately decided on Light Up The Night #because... hoo boy #okay storytime. i've known of the protomen since somewhere around 2021. got The Good Doctor in my recommended feed‚ clicked on it because #i thought the album cover was cool + the title was appealing‚ but i never really listened to anything theirs beyond that song after that. #fast forward to 2022. be me‚ watching the greatest videoessay on planet earth (Steak Bentley's Metal Gear Solid 4 Was A Mistake). #the fucking MONTAGE comes on‚ and I fall in love with my second Protomen song. second fast forward to 2023 going into 2024‚ finally got #around to playing the Violence update. i learn of the name of level 7-2. the widest‚ most mischievous grin appears on my face. #i enter the level‚ proclaim ''ULTRAKlLL IS NOW A STEAK BENTLEY REFERENCE'' and blast the song as i get my ass beat by every single thing in #that level. #and let me tell you. getting mollywhopped ten thousand times by the FUCKING GUTTERTANK TRIO AT THE END OF THE LEVEL WAS. not a pleasant #experience. but the song made it better. :) (i played the level before the balance patch came out and uh let's just say i had more deaths on #that level than on 2gabe and 1gabe. SEVENTY-FOUR. FUCKING. RESTARTS. JESUS /CHRIST/. #goodness how i yearn to make a 3d animation of v1 going through 7-4 with that song in the background as a tribute to the man himself but #alas i am a student who has everything in the world but time #thanks for the tag again!! ^^

[quirkle2]

I DELIVER MORE QPR CONTENT

#qkdraws #suncaster au #suncaster warriors #suncaster legend #qpr wars and ledge #the legend of zelda #legend of zelda #tloz #loz #loz au #zelda au #my hobbies include making my character designs needlessly detailed and complicated #and then loudly complaining to my annoyed friends abt it whenever i draw them next as if this isn't my own doing #anyway . im tired #wars' hair looks weird and wavy in the back cuz of the braids :) #in da one where they r sittin together :) #legend gets to infodump to his bestie cuz i said so #and Every Time wars will look at him Like That #some of these r based off of hcs i have already shared and some r from the deep depths of my yearning for what they have <3333 enjoy <3 #i want somebody to picka me up and twirl me around when they're happy like wars does . [doesn't have that] life is cruel . #also wars bundles ledge up in his scarf when he gets cold and u better believe he looks so incredibly fucking small in it #teeny . tiny boye #LOOK at their height difference . look how fuckign small he is #Swamped . Engulfed in that scarf #[ominous chanting] forehead kisses. forehead kisseS. forehEAD KISSES. FOREHEADKISSES. FOREHEAD K #dear fuckign god im reaching the 30 tag limit ok im shutting up now . im so sorry GVIYEAGVI

[quillandrapier]

This is so Thomas coded hrjdjf

#I searched mitski to listen to yearning music #thomas thorne #bbc ghosts #Anyway #Fuck that mitski post yesterday got me back into it

[poems-of-a-lover]

babe what's wrong u barely touched ur loser boyfriend (me)

#its nearly 1 am #also i had to take my hoodie off a bit ago bc i had to run thru the rain earlier and i just put it back on and its still slightly damp >=[ #its not bad enough to not wear it but its cold #anyway who wants a loser boyfriend. i am here. #mlm #mlm yearning #mlm post #mlm love #gay mlm #mlm thoughts #trans mlm #t4t #mlm blog #t4t yearning #sfw #mlm sfw