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Kageyama likes Yashiro but gave up on him too soon...

I know that Kageyama has some haters in the Saezuru fandom but I’d like to think that somehow, both of their personalities are the greatest factor as to why they did and could not work out as a couple. So here’s my theory:

Both Yashiro and Kageyama were infatuated with each other but both are shy to admit it and eventually resigned to the fact that neither can fall in love. Now I can hear people disagreeing with me right now, but let me explain.

Let us put emphasis on the last box. “Now he always brings me band-aids whenever he catches me with scars.” It’s touching, I know. Given that no one actually bothered to give Yashiro that kind of care that he needed but seriously?! We all know Kageyama’s magical obsession with scars but I think that pity is only half the reason why he gives Yashiro the band-aids.

I mean, come on guys, does this look like pity?!

HELL, NO! IT DOESN’T LOOK LIKE A FUCKING MEDICAL EXAM!!!

In my opinion, he started giving those band-aids because it really distracts Kageyama, to the point that he does not realize this himself. Kageyama may have at least thought that he is weird himself (honestly with a fetish like that?) but Yashiro did not judge him for it, so he used the situation to his advantage. I’d like to think that this must have been a dream come true for Kageyama, obviously since no one was willing to bear with his weird fetish. And Yashiro states that they have been doing this for about two fucking weeks.

TWO FUCKING WEEKS, EVERY SINGLE DAY. AND IT DID NOT END THERE!!! THEY JUST HAD TO FIND ANOTHER PLACE TO DO THAT!!!

To hell with it, these two are fucking oblivious fucking idiots ugh, it’s annoying me!!!! They just had to deny this and deny that and ugh. And look! They both look so fucking depressed because none of them wanted to clear up the suspicion, of what their relationship really is.

Sheesh man, this is really tough... But you know what, this is not going to work anyway. Why is that? They met in a very compromising situation (being classmates and all) but suddenly it became a very uncompromising situation (with Kageyama starting to touch Yashiro like this). I think the reason why Kageyama was afraid to ask was aside from the fact that it isn’t his business, he is afraid to be rejected by Yashiro, his first and only real friend.

And what does Yashiro do? Slap reality on Kageyama’s face.

Oh Kageyama’s reaction on this one is so fucking real, hahaha! To other people it might have looked like he was just in shock what I first saw was a pained reaction. I bet Kageyama was already starting to question his feelings at this point but Yashiro made the wrong timing of telling this right at that moment. It made Kageyama feel that he was being compared to the infamous stepfather of Yashiro’s. It’s like... his mind translated Yashiro’s words to:

“My stepfather sexually abused me since I was a kid, now don’t you realize that you are abusing me too while using your weird fetish as an excuse?”

If you word it like that it just seems...ouch man, you don’t have to shove it in my face. Nevertheless, he was glad that Yashiro opened up to him.

(That face though... Kageyama really looked like Doumeki ;_;)

Anyway, I think that this is the moment where Kageyama had to reevaluate his approach towards Yashiro, the exact moment where he decided to just be friends with Yashiro. In his mind (although this is not what Yashiro intended to do) Kageyama has wronged Yashiro, so he wanted to atone for his sins (if you want to put it like that). But still, he wanted to be close to Yashiro.

(We all know what this did to Yashiro, huhu)

I think some part of Kageyama thought that Yashiro is angry at him (as he seemed very glad to see Yashiro at the wake of his late father) and thus the relief on his face. But seriously, this scene is so unfuckingbelievable I don’t even want to believe they did not get together. like, ugh. WHY?

Okay, I’ve been dragging this too long, I need to stop ranting.

So going back to the point, what went wrong? I think it all went wrong here, in this instance where Yashiro confesses to him (this is the closest thing to a confession Yashiro ever said to Kageyama) and as we all know, Kageyama leaves the scene. Many people have said that it was rude for him to leave but Kageyama here, cannot fully understand Yashiro’s thinking. Actually, more like it led him to an unfortunate and painful conclusion.

(Note that this is the moment where Kageyama stopped resembling Doumeki.)

I know a lot of people found it rude for Kageyama to leave but if I were to insert my theory here, I would say that Kageyama was irritated by the fact that Yashiro could joke about something like that, given that if Kageyama really does have feelings for Yashiro, it would give him false hopes about Yashiro liking him. Also, considering the reason why he stopped touching Yashiro, he obviously does not want to cross that barrier because he cares about Yashiro.

One of my proofs of how much he is “fond” of Yashiro is this scene when he’s talking with Doumeki. Given that Kage is pretty much shy, I doubt that he can actually admit to Doumeki whatever it was he felt way back when. But the thoughtfulness on his face here is just so... idk. So sad..unfortunate...

OH just how stupid these two idiots are, ugh...

In any way, this started the misunderstanding between the two of them.

Yashiro thinks that Kageyama is self-centered

Kageyama thinks that Yashiro is the one who is self-centered.

Without really asking one another what they are really thinking, they both dismissed each other’s actions as such since they are both shy to ask anyway. Yashiro is too shy to admit that he likes Kageyama that he had to lie and pretend that he doesn’t while Kageyama has been lying to himself that he can only be attracted to women (given that it is what is expected from someone like him, the son of a doctor) while in truth he actually cares about Yashiro so much. In this part where he saw Yashiro went manic after someone insulted him, he didn’t ask why but he comforted Yashiro in the best way he can. (thus the hug)

(They didn’t show Kage’s face here but I can tell he’s hurt too ;-;)

Most importantly, they both are only infatuated with each other. Since Yashiro disappeared from Kage’s life, his infatuation for the latter eventually diminished. We all know Yashiro, he still had this twisted desire for Kageyama since then.

BUT OF COURSE, IT ALL VANISHED THROUGH THIN AIR WHEN KUGA AND DOUMEKI ARRIVED IN THEIR FUCKED UP LIVES!!!

As opposed to what I was saying earlier, Kageyama met Kuga in an uncompromising situation (wherein Kuga was beating one of Yashiro’s subordinates) and both settled for the compromising situation (which is to live together.) I know that Kuga is often compared to Yashiro, and honestly, I believe this is one of the reasons why Kageyama was initially attracted to Kuga, because he reminded him of a side of Yashiro that he rarely ever saw. Besides… Kuga is like the virgin Yashiro, so technically this will work for him. (He’s really perverted with the way he attacks Kuga btw… I don’t think someone like Yashiro, with a trauma and a huge hatred for men, can actually tolerate Kageyama’s perverted desires so yeah… you get that…)

Which is why, if Kageyama met Yashiro in an uncompromising situation back when he still looks and acts like this big oaf (which is barely 20 years ago), his reaction will most likely be like this:

Since Doumeki met Yashiro in an uncompromising situation (wherein Yashiro is being fucked by a detective) and later settled for the compromising situation (the bodyguard and boss drama), Doumeki’s interest to Yashiro just increased and made him want to ask questions. After all, Doumeki is more like the honest Kageyama for me. Like I said, Kageyama is really shy with his feelings and if he’s partnered with Yashiro, someone who is really shy as well, there will be no closure for the both of them. In fact, I think Doumeki asking Kageyama there about what he felt towards Yashiro was the closest thing to a closure Yashiro and Kageyama had since they never have really been honest with each other.

That is why I think Doumeki is perfect for Yashiro, hihi!

In any way, I’ll make a separate analysis for Doumeki and Yashiro’s impending relationship soon, so yeah, sorry for dragging this too long! So, what do you guys think? Let me know your thoughts, everyone!

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