#anyways maich (make) has been through some stuff and i didn't want to write poor representation yknow

[orionangeline]

Tfw you're daydreaming about being in an interview for a book you never got around to writing and now you really want to read it but oops it doesn't exist but at least the author seems cool

#no it would have been a very angsty im in middle school and im SO full of angst and run on sentences and I like edward cullen and the fae #and also I don't know how to separate or transition ideas so theyre all gonna be smashed together versions of my favorite books type thing #to be fair I started the idea around middle school so #no but the amount of 'huh that's probably not a good sign mentally' things I put in it #idk how people dedicate books to their family when I would die if my family ever saw any of my wips #if I ever actually write/publish anything its definitely gonna be under a pseudonym for sure #at least the main characters are all nonbinaries and or slightly magic and or a really big wolf who is a mother hen #god the tumblr posts about how they had potential or the book was problematic or oh god the horney fangirls for my emo mc #the fanart of the mc and their best friend the fae wolf who the interview revealed could turn into a humanoid but only in faerie #the interview also revealed that the main characters name was main character y/n shortened to maich ryan / ryan maich #anyways I mean ive seen worse things published im just too lazy to write it/ remember more than a basic plot and some cool scenes #I would however be wildly amused by messing with the fandom if I did write it and it did gain a fandom #i had some cool ideas for the format but i never would have handled it properly #there was some stuff that would've needed a lot of research and not just the places that the mcs traveled to #like the book would've been formatted like ur the mc/in mcs head like first person right but mc always refers to themselves as 'we' mentally #and it's eventually revealed that you (reader) are like. an alternate personality right but I have no clue how to not do that... poorly #anyways maich (make) has been through some stuff and i didn't want to write poor representation yknow? a middle schoolers idea of how #how some of that would affect a person was really inaccurate but also imperative to the plot unfortunately #eventually I'll do enough research that I can make a good reworked version probably maybe idk its sorta cringe in general lol but #but I really want to write about the characters #-well about the mother hen magic wolf that adopts a useless gremlin who won't take care of themselves #also it was going to be a romance between the two human mcs but I had no idea what a romance really looked like from the inside so it ended #ended up being a really homoerotic best friendship thing that was very awkward and also maich dies at the end #then the interview reveals that wolf actually dragged maich back to faerie before they died but maich thinks they're dead but! #they live happily ever after basically #see bc the story made me sad that maich dies for other mc at the end so i made it less an allegory for trying ur hardest and still failing #and more an allegory for like. cutting ties and just moving somewhere new if you have too many bad memories but now you get to be #a forest cryptid with ur dog and sometimes talk to a bitchy tree lady and her wife the river. also for no reason whatsoever the moon and sun #are brothers and fall for maich and they get chased away by wolf and that's why wolves howl at the moon it's to keep dumb gods from their #best bros. also wolf used to run with the wild hunt I don't make the rules