fnvjfnbjgnjb I really hope this isn't weird but I am actually so desperate to hear some of your rosekiller headcanons (the more fucked up the better < 3)
hello!!!! i am. actually…. would you guys murder me if i said i didn’t think about rosekiller like all that often….. when i do think about them it’s normally prompted by things that saints @foursaints (lord and saviour of the rosekillers) posts. but. just for you, my dearest futurequibblerjournalist, i’ve been racking my brain for some vaguely interesting things to say. so:
to start off, in terms of characterisations, in my mind, barty is a ‘worshipper’ and evan is an ‘investigator’ if that makes sense - like my barty (and again this is heavily influenced by my whole barty michelangelo variant thing which i never shut up about) is someone who will completely offer himself up to, in this case, evan, like he’s trying to get under evan’s skin both idiomatically and literally, there’s this whole kinda masochistic self-dispossession thing going on which is him just entirely putting himself in evan’s hands, at his disposal, a ‘whatever rosie wants, rosie gets’ kinda thing (and all the things that rosie wants are a little fucked up… like evan wants. a rib, let’s say, and barty is immediately offering his up, like take mine please take mine i have a few to spare, and they do the surgery, no anaesthetic, lots of eye contact, and it’s the most romantic thing that’s ever happened to either of them… evan likes to run his fingers over the stitches before they’re fully healed up, maybe pull a few out, just to see….)
anyway i digress but also kinda not a huge digression bc that leads me on to evan as ‘investigator’ - disclaimer!!! evan as a character is a lot more nebulous to me than barty, like i feel like i haven’t entirely grasped him yet so allow me some wiggle room please and thank you but. evan is curious, that’s his central characteristic in my mind, he just wants to like… see, to understand. i think he doesn’t care much for people in terms of them being like actual people, he cares more about. how they work i guess biologically, like how their bones connect to allow them to move in particular ways, how the neurons in their brains do things (i’m really not a steminist i’m sorry guys) to make them say things and act in particular ways. his like. life mission. or whatever. is to figure out how ‘humanity’ works if that makes sense….
and barty is a bit of an aberration in some ways bc he doesn’t interact how he’s supposed to interact and he doesn’t move how he’s supposed to move and evan is curious, bc he normally doesn’t allow anything to bother him but barty is just. a bother. like in general. and evan wants to crack barty’s head open and get a good look at his brain, prod at it, investigate it, and barty would let him. barty would genuinely actually let him and that sort of power, someone being that devoted to you, is a little heady in a way that evan has never really experienced and barty would do anything bc he sees evan and he sees someone who wants to dig deep beneath the surface of him, someone who wouldn’t flinch away from whatever ugliness their digging revealed, bc both of them are so rotten at their cores imo, and he sees a sort of ascension, a higher purpose maybe… it’s absolute body and soul devotion, it’s ‘he could physically cut my heart to pieces and put it under a microscope and that would be divinity’
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Ugh, I need to get behind this defeatism mindset… the thoughts “Everyone hates you so you’ve gotta prove yourself!” and “If you’re not creating you may as well be dead!” keep cycling through my head, and whenever I go to shut them up, there’s an obnoxiously loud voice telling me that I have no alright, because they’re all true, and by shutting them up I’m being selfish and self-serving. I don’t know how much of that is truth and how much is my own brain being hardwired against me. I’m afraid to make a guess and get it wrong.
So, uh, wish me luck with the writing! I’ve gotten a paragraph down so far today, which is certainly better than nothing, but I’d like to aim for a full page and an actual release sometime in the week, because that’ll shut my brain up for at least a day or two.
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it's me "do the do" anon. iirc this was requested as "the aftermath to gabriel and v1 Doing It" onstream https://clips.twitch.tv/GleamingVastAsparagusNotLikeThis-IHf87cgI835ScS0h
also while looking for the clip i found... this from one of his turbo overkill streams.
https://clips.twitch.tv/FaithfulUninterestedDuckAliens-deyfSu_ep6uMSMGK (for context i think he's reading off the Official gabe body pillow item description)
Many people think the b in bussy stands for boy, but it actually stands for bot. The more you know! (Cough. someone should request that. Cough)
(Help)
These are good. Very. good.
It will take me a bit to post them cause I need to find the YouTube timestamps as well.
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