I have a realistic and dream ambition. My realistic ambition is to become a physical therapist. Yeah, I’ll have to work my ass off and go to school for a shit ton of years but ultimately that is an attainable goal (and fuck anyone who says it still not). My dream, on the other hand, is much different. I dream to work in the music industry, like manage or work in a record label or something. For my One Tree Hill watchers, I wanna be Peyton Sawyer with red bedroom records. Music is this thing in my life that fucking powers me, makes my life worth living. If I could do one thing, it’d be that. Simple. And I realize I said realistic and dream ambition, but I could do either and I don’t have a single doubt about that.
I am the hardest working person you’ll ever meet. I’m smart as shit. You know, I’m surrounded by some smart fucking girls at my school. Some are arrogant pieces of shit but others are truly great, intellectual people. The thing is, they are perceived as so much more than “someone like me”. I said it. I don’t take a bunch of AP’s, I am not the class president, I wasn’t even inducted into National Honor Society. But fuck that. That shit is called labels. People see I don’t fall into those types of categories and automatically assume I’m not one of the smart kids that’s gonna make it big someday. The shit they don’t see, that only I see and know, is what makes the difference. It is my drive. My hardworking and ambitious attitude. If I put 100% of my mind to school 100% of the time, I’d be categorized as that bullshit. Easy. I know I’m smart. I see these insane colleges, I see that it has a high GPA and ACT score, but I think “I could go there and fuckin succeed”. And you know what? That attitude right there also makes a big fucking difference. I know some smart ass kids who procrastinate and complain and, even though its clearly not true, think they are stupid. I have the opposite mindset. I KNOW I will be successful one day. I know I’ll make it out better than half my school. When you just fucking believe you can do something, you can do it. So when all those AP students complain and say they’d rather die than do their next assignment, I’m gonna be making it out better than them. And this isn’t a fuck you to the smart kids, its more of a fuck you to anyone who thinks i’m not good or smart enough. I’m gonna own that fucking record label when I grow up. The smart kids will be listening to the artists that I signed and made fucking famous while they drive to their box office job. No disrespect to that, of course, but just saying. Also, I’m probably the smartest person in my family. Neither of my parents went o college, and they are smart, but I outwit them even at 16. My brother is smart, just doesn’t have the care or the desire to do good. My extended family, thats a bit different, but I wish to come out the way they did and beyond.
I work hard, and I work harder. And I’m not perfect and heading for Harvard necessarily, but I’ll still end up just as successful or more successful than anyone else I’ve met in this life. And to all those people who shit on people that aren’t in the honors and AP’s, just wait. Those extra 40 hours of homework you get every week that drive you insane doesn’t mean shit unless if you make it mean shit for the rest of your life. Just make whatever you do worth it and do it with more ambition than anyone else and a mindset that you WILL be SUCCESSFUL. Believe in yourself, and fuck anyone that says otherwise.