#apam

[abs0luteb4stard]

I still feel this way about my own father's death.

Second open heart surgery, triple bypass, 91% blockage in at least one artery. A necessary risk if it meant a full life after heart surgery.

All was well, until he threw a clot from that, it went to his brain causing a bad stroke.

Neurology left us in lurch. Dropped the ball for the first year or two.

Diagnosis: VASCULAR DEMENTIA

That goddamn clot killed the brain tissue. It deteriorated his brain over 5 years. That's the average lifespan of someone with Vascular Dementia. He made it just barely into a sixth year. And only because we tirefully (yes we were very broken down tired at that point) without help of any kind kept him going until his appetite and ability to swallow finally ended his life.

There were some fun days, some jokes, some hugging and kissing and buddy days. But there was a lot of fucking suffering. Mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually. The confusion, the bizarre things he'd do and say, the physical attacks. The moments of clarity which were like teasing us that he's back to himself only top disappear again for months.

And Death isn't easy. I was there for it. It looked hard for him. It was excruciating horror for me, and for my mom she handled it differently, maybe or her profession girded her better. Maybe it was my already fucked up psychological problems that made it so much more drastically worse for me, that and my deep closeness with my dad.

I wish I could find what Mandy Patinkin did in his scenes with the six fingered man, a short moment of catharsis. I'm still anguished about my dad's death. Granted its only been a year and 8 months for me, but it's there everyday, every second.

#mandy patinkin #The princess bride #behind the scenes #dvd special features #special features #my journal #my thoughts #apamnak #apam #Apu

[morethansalad]

Serabi Tepung Beras / Apam Saus Kinca (Vegan Indonesian Rice Pancakes with Coconut Sauce)

#vegan #sweets #desserts #pancakes #indonesian cuisine #malaysian cuisine #singaporean cuisine #southeast asian cuisine #serabi #apam #rice flour #tapioca starch #glutinous rice flour #yeast #pandan #coconut milk #jackfruit #coconut sugar

[fmarkets]

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#News #Stocks #Market #Earningsreport #APAM

[alzayus]

Tet Apam

Dua ikat pelepah kelapa kering rapi disiapkan. Cuprok Tanoh (periuk tanah) kecil nangkring di batu bata yang tersusun.

Api dihidupkan menyambar pelepah kering. Cuprok tanoh di atas bata dibaluri garam. Terasa panas, sekejap kemudian, adonan cair dari tepung beras dicampur santan dituangkan.

Seorang ibu terdengar menggumam "Allahuma barik lana, fi rajaba wa sya'bana wa balighna Ramadhana" (Ya Allah, berkahilah umur kami di bulan Rajab dan Sya'ban dan sampaikanlah hingga di bulan Ramadhan).

Api di pelepah terbakar ditiup hingga membara.

Tutup cuprok tanoh di buka. Adonan telah menggumpal dan masak sempurna.

Adonan itu telah menjadi Apam. Pengganan paling banyak dibuat di bulan Rajab. Bulan yang padanya segala kebaikan diyakini mendapat pahala berganda.

Bulan yang menjadi tonggak ibadah, yakni adanya perintah salat bagi kaum mukminin.

Khanduri apam kemudian menjamur pada bulan ini di berbagai gampong di Aceh, khususnya di Pidie.

Berharap berkah dan juga demi menjaga budaya indatu, Tet Apam lestari.

#TetApam #Apam

[victorsoma]

Wa Ko Koay aka Apam Makoke

#Koay #aka #Apam #Makoke

[bellasdonna]

Apam Balik / Peanut Pancake

#Apam #Balik #Peanut

[courtneyalamedabooks]

Apam Beras @ Apam Nasi

#Apam #Beras #Nasi

[distributioninsensible]

Apam Beras @ Apam Nasi

#Apam #Beras #Nasi

[bluebuzzybug]

guess what....? 😄 #nofilter #instashot #instamood #foodie #foodies #snacks #apam #apambalik #rainysnacks #yummy https://www.instagram.com/p/CpPc38EJFMJ/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

#nofilter #instashot #instamood #foodie #foodies #snacks #apam #apambalik #rainysnacks #yummy

[abs0luteb4stard]

I'm sure I have little value to anyone except my mom and dad. And my dad is gone forever. After that last one, my mom, - I will have no value to anyone.

I only carry on in my father's good faith with a lifelong wounded spirit because he'd want me to keep trying.

I feel like one day it's possible I'll leave my mom in favor of my suicidal ideation. Then she'll be alone.

I don't want that. But it is my one big fear. Among the rest..

I may hold out and continue this cursed fucking life. Maybe she'll die first, old old age 105 years old, if we're lucky. Butt after that I don't feel like there's any guarantee that I might live another day or a year or 10 years.

I'll really have nobody then. None of our extend family are any good. Or friends in my age group. I like them, but there's no connections in my life like my parents. Nobody that will listen to my humor or laugh at things. Or hug me for real.

My parents are my soulmates in that sense. Nobody has ever really understood me or cared for me or given me the benefit of the doubt. Truest Unconditional Love.

I've tried so hard to find natural closeness. They're often empty or forced. At worst they take advantage of me. Or they don't respect boundaries. Or they judge me. Or abandon me.

The future is a lonely place for me with half-friendships and careless idiots. There's a few people I like, but they're far away or have better social and self independence abilities. Or different lives that I am not something that fits into. Even for a visit every few weeks or months or at all.

#my journal #my thoughts #apam #anyam #parents

[lyrics724]

Makuna

Aaaaaaaah it’s Apam on the mic again Baby nice o All nice o She dey put my heart on fire She too fine o too fresh o She my queen and heart desireBaby nice o All nice o She dey put my heart on fire She too fine o too fresh o She my queen and heart desire Oh girl you know say Things be okay Peace don dey Girl I need nobodyOh girl you no say Things be okay Peace don dey And I need nobodyLorlor…

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#Apam

[garimpasso]

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[bharatlivenewsmedia]

Bamboo helps conserve ecology: APAM vice-chief

Bamboo helps conserve ecology: APAM vice-chief

Bamboo helps conserve ecology: APAM vice-chief Nagi Reddy said bamboo plant is a crucial element in the balance of Oxygen and Carbon Dioxide in the atmosphere. Nagi Reddy said bamboo plant is a crucial element in the balance of Oxygen and Carbon Dioxide in the atmosphere. Go to Source

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#apam #bamboo #conserve #ecology: #helps #india #news #vice-chief

[formulaonedirection]

Anyway speaking of food I killed it at the roti kirai/roti jala at family iftar last weekend I made it all by myself for the first time OKAY

#but tell me why my mom sent me a recipe for apam balik saying do it this week.. ? #that's beyond my abilities luv

[ahollowgrave]

I've been trying to queue things more so as not to spam people, idk if it's working or if it's just double spam (':

#ooc #why am i here i should be working !!! #but also... i love whene my things have clearly been queued and they get a lil boost a few weeks later #and i hope you guys like that feeling too #the queue is 700+ rn and its a mix of odette posts like words and aes and shit #and a lot of other people's stuff from the last few months #i only have it set to post 7 times a day so its slow going #mayhaps i think too much about apamming people but anhHHHHHHHHH #too much to share and not enough time to share it all

[animepopheart]

★ 【Apam】 「 珊瑚宮心海 」 ☆ ⊳ sangonomiya // genshin impact ✔ republished w/permission ⊳ ⊳ follow me on twitter

#sangonomiya kokomi #kokomi sangonomiya #genshin impact #anime girl #anime art #artist: Apam