#are doing just without the label LOL

[elnathsstar]

Listen, I am aromantic, but it's getting cold and dark and I so desperately want somebody who I can cuddle under my covers with, somebody I can teach to dance, somebody I can drag outside at night when we're supposed to be inside, and it's so cold that it could start snowing any minute, or maybe already be snowing, and then we would go and sit in the dark at the lake with the lights while listening to Taylor Swift and sharing my headphones, and then dancing around outside to mirrorball and not caring who sees us because we are so madly platonically in love with each other that we only care about the other. I want somebody to drag around charity shops while I plan my Halloween costume, and my birthday outfit, and the outfit for the various Christmas parties I will take them too- even the one hosted by the church that I usually end up just sitting in a side room watching whatever Nativity movie they put on for the entire time. The kids would ask if we were dating, and we'd just look at each other and giggle, while my parents and grandparents who are watching us bicker over an Uno game are thinking about how pure our love is. Kisses are always an option, but never pushed for, and even if the other person liked me romantically they would be okay with and understand how I don't feel the exact same way, but I still love them so so much. Like a platonic soulmate. We would share clothes, and I'd save them a piece of my birthday cake, if they weren't already there for it. We would go on walks together, and they would be one of the first people I call when the cold weather is affecting my mood or my health, and then they would come over unprompted with something sweet and a hoodie. We would both chill on my bed, not caring about how cramped it is or the fact that my bed is a high rise so we can't sit up straight, because we don't have any trouble with being close to the other, and on days where it may be hard to be physically close to someone, they would sit back patiently and read me a chapter of whatever book we had picked up, pausing to add their own witty comments and applauding me when I guess what will happen next accurately. We wouldn't even necessarily be 'dating'- and we wouldn't label what we had as romantic, despite the dates and the kisses and the cuddles, and we'd both be fine with it. We would just exist together, in the same space, comfortably.

I want to be wanted.

#but i know i wont get something like that because i push everyone away and cant stay emotionally stable or happy #and nobody wants to be in a relationship with somebody who doesn't like them romantically and doesn't want to label it as #a romantic relationship despite all of the things that you're doing which are romance coded #I want somebody to love without having to LOVE them. #But I would love them more than anyone and anything else #just not romantically. #But nobody wants that. #I want to be able to teach somebody to dance. #(I was gonna post this privately but realised some people might relate so yeah just have this lol) #aromantic #aroace #arospec

[kiisaes]

mha is like an estranged awkward father to me. i try not to make my connection to it obvious but i secretly care a lot about it (sometimes against what i desire) and when ppl talk serious shit about it i get defensive. like yea i understand that it's not the best series writing-wise, it's got a good amount of problems and that its mere connection to me makes me cringefail ... but i'll always find some sort of unexplainable comfort in its arms despite its flaws bc there's still a good amount of it to genuinely enjoy without a constantly ironic state of mind that all media must be critiqued with nowadays and i don't expect anyone to understand this odd relationship but myself

#every time i hear that mha fans are cringe and have bad taste i'm like well yeah. but also hey. watch it #like protecting my pathetic father who does not need protecting but i'll do it anyway bc it just feels like i should #it's not at all a horrible series the way everyone labels it and i think its popularity caused such a societal whiplash #like oh it's mainstream now! time to pick on every flaw it has and reduce it to typical shounen shit #without addressing its actually decent and sometimes stellar aspects #it is not as overwhelmingly enjoyed like certain anime i've gotten into lately but that's ok. i'm fine with that #it's a mid to mid-good series with good characters (with exceptions) and great artwork and ok storytelling #i remember when mha was super praised and considered incredible like 5 years ago .. lol how times change #anyway. just wanted to type this out bc i think mha fans get an unfairly bad rep sometimes for doing nothing all that out of the ordinary #just for having an interest in a not-very-enlightening piece of media #and that kinda sucks #also bc i started watching mob psycho and it's really fucking good LMFAOOOO #bnha #mha #becki rambles about stuff

[dandyshucks]

i still feel a lot of weird shame about being a man-liker now (i used to not be into men as a general rule for YEARSSS because i'd had one too many bad exps with them in a variety of ways) because I worry it somehow makes me "not queer enough" or smth dsjfkl but . also ... I think the way I like men is in a very gay way. like there is nothing cishet about the way I like men fdsjkl and I'm not sure HOW that is, but the friends I've spoken to about this agree that the way i like men is in a distinctly gay way LFSDHFJKL

#I DONT UNDERSTAND HOW. like what exactly differentiates it. but apparently it is very true bc ppl have told me without prompting LMAO #i am ... bisexual? idk i dont put a label on my sexuality at all. i barely put a label on my gender fdsjkl i only do it when i have to #i am aspec in some way and i like ppl regardless of gender so . shrug. #it just happens that i am apparently in my man-enjoyer era right now FHDSJKL #also mandatory disclaimer: there is nothing wrong w being cishet or het or whatever fsdjkl this shame i experience is strange and personal #it is not smth anybody SHOULD experience fsdjkl #im trying to work thru it and move past it but woof dsfjkl it rly bites me sometimes #vent // #sort of LOL #dandy.cmd

[kyouka-supremacy]

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#Woha... Alright read the chapter 🫡 #It's just. I get where Fukuchi is coming from and I feel like after rereading it the whole thing was a little more clear but... #Did it *really* have to be so complicated. Like dude did it **really** have to be so complicated. #Maybe it had to idk. After all I'm always the first to say that a complex reality can't be reduced to simple axioms– #and that semplifications never bring anything good. #But at the same time was there REALLY no other way #Couldn't you promote your ideas diplomatically instead. Couldn't you become a democratic activist or politician. #Couldn't you write a book‚ person named OUCHI FUKUCHI #Also couldn't you? Talk about it with someone before executing your crazy plan so that anyone else might have pointed to you how crazy it i #But I suppose the whole central theme of this arc ultimately was “people who try to do everything by their own are destined to fall” #And to an extent it does still feel kinda self-contradictory of a plan. Like ahah my plan included not to make anyone suffer!!! #[turns half world population into a vampire] #Like c'mon? Violations of human rights can happen even without killing people dude #(Also Akutagawa) #(Like I get it he's only one (1) person. But he's also the only (only) person for me so I can't bring myself to ignore him y'know) #Mmmmmhhhhhh that's of the main things ig. I YELLED when they brought up Max Weber and the what-is-a-state question #That's like. One of the main questions my whole life studies centers on. #The adrenaline that gave me to see it mentioned in my current hyperfixation ahfjvafjhcvlawsvfblwhkv #This chapter was just so so political theories packed I felt like I was just still studying lol. #I feel like this was a true “get why bsd is labelled as seinen”. #You just can't do this kind of in-depth political theory discussion in shonen manga ig #What else. Still patiently waiting for ss/kk 😔 #random rambles

[baconcolacan]

I really wish the binary genders weren’t socialized so differently sometimes. It’s so easy to cuddle up with my girl friends and even say I love you to them, but not with my guy friends….it makes me kinda sad

#neil talky #being pinoy its still possible to do this bc of our culture #but its still not to the extent I’d like it to be #Its really hard sometimes to show my bros I care without being labelled as ‘too gay’ #like yeah sure they know I’m gay but also fuck outta here??? #You’re my FRIEND I can love you??? Doesn’t mean I want to date you good god #Sorry I’m just kinda frustrated like #I was there when you cried and told me about how much it hurt #but I cant even hold you and tell you I love you without making it weird #SIGH I’ll probably compartmentalize this later #Also probably why I project such a close male friendship with the ew gang lol #so close they can kiss and hug and shit #LETS GOOOOO

[none-tadashi-left-hiro]

Is my toxic trait psychoanalyzing other people and thinking I’m the exception because I’m actually soooo observant and aware of the signs

#I mean people just say Some Things that make me think they can’t not be dealing with self worth issues #like someone said they hate bugs bc what purpose do they serve other than to be annoying #so it’s fine to kill them or whatever #and I’m just like I wonder what that says about you 🤔 #but guys I’ve ended up being right before #it’s also because of things they’ll just self admit sometimes though #like saying they feel like they’re not a helpful person or they’re feeling worthless #and then acting all confident #and trying to act like the high bitch in charge despite knowing nothing about what is going on #and I’m just like hey do you have imposter syndrome #and they’re like yeah #am I toxic for asking that #even if it’s based on Several Observations #some of which they openly admit unprompted themselves #someone was like how dare you analyze them without consent meanwhile #they’re spilling their own guts left and right already like #I’m just naming what I observed in behavior and giving it a label #genuinely is that toxic of me though lol #I mean it’s really easy to do with toxic people bc not toxic people like don’t have issues to psychoanalazye as much #like to me it’s like going hey not to armchair diagnose but maybe talk to your doctor about if you have ADHD #bc based off observations #you can fucking tell #I have never been wrong abt someone having adhd #bc paradoxically I realize I am not immune to being wrong about someone #I’m just very observant idk #the without their consent response is throwing me off #like I get offering unsolicited advice #but I think going you have imposter syndrome vs asking hey do you think you have imposter syndrome #are two very different things

[artekai]

I also can't help but fear for the future of my aroace Aloy headcanon 😔 That exchange at the end of Talanah's quest does feel like they were setting something up, and now we have "[Seyka is] unlike anyone Aloy's ever met"? 🤔

It would be great to have Aloy be explicitly queer and have that be integrated in the plot in a way that cannot be skipped, don't get me wrong! But 1. I'm not raising my expectations, and 2. it was a nice run with aroace Aloy if they do choose to go in that direction :')

#understandable if they want to confirm aloy sapphic just as they confirmed lis of course! i just #idk. i don't necessarily think they need to experience attraction the same way/use the same labels because of dna #but that's subjective. it'd be great if aloy was explicitly queer in any case :') #i could just do without the casual amatonormativity in those lines either way you know? :') #idk. maybe i'm reading too much into it again #but my blog is my place to read too much into things so you signed up for this lol #or maybe the fandom's speculation got to me haha #ramble #bs #ok now time to go watch the meet seyka video and make more assumptions

[satanfemme]

re: that post I reblogged yesterday(?) about how dogs can be/are dangerous, and my tags saying they aren't human babies. I'm thinking about that still cause, honestly imo, soooo many problems with how people treat dogs seems related to the fact that most people see them as a 1:1 equivalent to a small human child. infantalizing them to a cartoonish degree. cause it's like, yes they need so much help navigating human society, and it's our job to care for them either way -- that's literally the evolutionary relationship our two species have. but an adult dog is still gonna be a fully autonomous living thing exactly the same as you are as an adult human. different social rules/'types' of intelligence/evolutionary niches doesn't negate the existence of a dog's internal world, thoughts, wants, and opinions. u might not be able to fully relate to those thought processes or understand them, but your understanding isn't what gives them worth.

(ntm it's entirely possible to better understand dog behavior with simple practice/research, but maybe that's just my personal "inclined to understand dogs better than other humans" neurodivergence talking idk lol)

obv example, but that's all why small dogs (who are easier to physically control, and therefor easier to physically treat like a toy/baby) are so frequently reactive -- their autonomy isn't respected otherwise. meanwhile in a lot of cases (tho nowhere near all unfortunately), large dogs can more easily demand respect before resorting to reactivity. and that's why we have to bribe the dogs at work so constantly lol. if a guy who's stronger than me doesn't want to follow me somewhere or go into a kennel for me or whatever, I simply can't force him even if I try. he will just stand there, and no one can stop him. so instead we need to work together to reach a mutual agreement; it's two-way communication. in the same vein: one of the first things I was trained on at work is how to respect dogs' consent/ask for their consent with things whenever possible. these considerations are super important in treating dogs right... and yet how frequently are they ignored/not-considered by humans cause a dog is seen as unthinking or lesser?

anyway this is just an incomplete thought tangent that doesn't even touch upon the way human children are wrongfully denied autonomy as well, or how worth isn't remotely tied to intelligence anyway. but u know. just something I've been thinking about while dealing with bad dog owners/potential-owners every day & while contemplating "hecking pupper furbaby" culture

#ofc I call phineas ''baby'' but it's just a term of endearment LOL. I respect him as his own guy too #as I'm sure a lot of ''my dog is my furbaby'' people do too #working with dogs for this long has just started to make me a lil weird anyway maybe. esp at my current job where - #- all my coworkers r big on animal rights/advocacy type theory and explain how their pets r like roommates to them instead of toys/babies #or rejecting the ''pet'' label altogether which is interesting even if I don't really get it personally #etc. and if I were like 2% more functional/less neurodivergent I'd be going vegan rn LOL I'm being converted #literally can't even eat meat anymore without being a lil uncomfortable which 😭 is great in a mindfulness/awareness sorta way but - #- sucks when I kinda have to eat meat at least sometimes </3 not enough alternative options where I live for my lifestyle #whoops this was another tangent in the tags I just noticed. rambly post. it's been a long day and my head's disorganized <3

[therevengeoffrankenstein]

jem is so trans-coded i'm being serious.

^ trans colors.

#myevilposts #jem and the holograms #music #as a trans musician myself who is hoping of being a jem-level rock star i have to seriously think #about when and how i am going to come out and if i want to try to be stealth or not. #bc i want it to be like. an open secret bc i so desperately do not want my band to be labeled 'female-fronted' bc. um. it isn't. #but i don't know if i can be stealth as a trans man. i don't know if i WANT to be stealth. #i just kinda want it to be an open secret that i'm trans without having to come out #bc i want it to be up in the air but still obvious enough. and this is obv stressful as hell for me to think about #and could be very simply prevented by my coming out early on in my public career but like. i don't know if i want to do that lol. #if only i weren't a front man. unfortunately i'm a fame monster and want it more than anything. #and then there's coming out to co-workers/collaborators and such.... g-d. more worried about that than anything #if we somehow manage to get on with anyone i idolize ya know lmaooo. #Youtube

[leatherbookmark]

hopping around different blogs is fun.

a post on blog 1: i find it a little weird that -- don't get me wrong, the barbie movie looks great with all the doll-like details, i bet the actors had great fun and i'd like to see it myself, but -- people are getting excited about marketing of this movie. they're acting as though mattel's 3985* deals with 837* different companies are something new, exciting and creative instead of... 3985 deals with 837 companies spanning many different areas! this movie is a commercial for a doll! isn't this kinda weird?

*numbers made up

a post on blog 2: i don't think any sane adult doesn't realize that this is a toy commercial! it's rather obvious.

a post on blog 3: boo hoo 'the barbie movie is capitalist propaganda' i don't give a SHIT marx won't fuck you. did you do this for transformers too? do you think only stupid girls who like pink need the reminder?

like, oooooh! things are happening!

#shrimp thoughts #earlier today i got into a bit of an essay reading spree (as much as my brain allowed me lol) #and it got me thinking about like... associating oneself with products/aesthetics/companies as a way of self-creation #this is me. i love [fashion brand] you won't catch me without my k*nken and here is my room in which you can see posters of [movies] #it's very... human to get excited about things and feel it more the more others get excited because. community building #at the same time i've noticed it myself that it's so much easier to label yourself a [thing] girl than to like... Look Into Yourself #who am i? what defines me? these questions are difficult because how do i know that? with what means do i obtain this knowledge? #should i create myself as i want or should i observe myself with the eyes of others instead? ...let me just say i like plants and overalls #and i feel like when someone says something you perceive as a critique of the identity slash community you associate yourself with #it's... hurtful? but at the same time. hm. i don't know actually #like chances are these posts are talking about completely different things and not vaguing each other or even similar posts #maybe posts that blog 3 vagues really were obnoxiously condescending! who knows! that being said DESPITE being a small-brained #shrimp who would honestly love to win soooo many moneys and just do whatever i want all day instead of being an Independant and Competent #Expert In My Field (this sounds scary and stressing). i still would like to avoid falling into the 'just let me ENJOY things and don't try #to make me hate femininity because it's not working! pink and shopping can be empowering' hole. #idk!! i listen to k/pop and am part magpie. i can't quite pose myself as like anti-capitalist intellectual #but i do want to achieve at least a small brain! someday!! and boy do i hope my brain energy days don't end before the books arrive;; #2am thoughts. wonder if my mother goes to sleep earlier than at 4am today because its getting annoying

[reenaria]

currently having a queer identity crisis on this accursed holiday

#but actually. i’ve realized that like. 95% or more of my attraction to men has been comphet #i thought it wasn’t because i’ve been more or less identifying as bi since i was 11 #so like. i figured if i didn’t like men at all i would’ve figured it out sooner? #it wasn’t until a couple years ago that i resolved to stop dating straight & masculine guys because i feel like i’m performing for them #and my current partner of 2.5 years is amab and socially perceived as a man but he’s bi and sees himself as ‘void of gender’ #which is also the way i see him but not the way most people see him #he does get mistaken for a woman a fair ammount though. which brings us both a lot of joy lol #but anyway. my crisis is that i’ve been feeling more and more detached from the bi label because i feel like it implies attraction to men #and i’ve known for a little while now that i’m almost exclusively attracted to femininity and androgyny #and primarily attracted to women in general #like if i weren’t with my partner i would 100% be out there dating women and maybe? identifying as a lesbian #but i feel like i have no claim to that label especially with my current partner who is not a woman and is much more androgynous than fem #idk. do i keep calling myself bi? it feels like i’ve slipped away from it #i’ve been using queer a lot more lately because umbrella terms are the only thing that seem to make sense to me anymore #i know labels can be super complicated and unhelpful in some cases but i also want to know where my place is in the community ya know? #i feel so confused without a solid label and it’s causing me a lot more stress than it should #(also my partner is such a blessing and said he’d be supportive if i ever felt i needed to leave him to be with women) #(like he said ‘i’d be sad for a while but i’d still be your best friend) and i was just 🥺 #this may be even longer than my last tag novel lmao i just hate the idea of putting this stuff in the body of the post #anyway if any pals/mutuals read all that and have any insight or advice i’d be curious to hear #reena.txt

[robinsnest2111]

rotating the concept of trans/nb/non-cis chrissy in my brain 👉👈 (with a bunch of platonic eddie/chrissy thrown in for good measure, also chrissy getting adopted into the steve-robin-eddie-and-by-extension-all-the-other-teens friendship circle)

#been thinking about this for a couple days now #and it's 99.9% due to me projecting my own gender journey over the years onto chrissy lmao #because man do i relate to trying but failing to live up to others' expectations. wrt weight/gender presentation/social circles/etc #and the never quite fitting in with the other girls. going the tomboy route #but also not fitting in with the boys the way you so easily used to in kindergarten. #gone are the carefree days of just being A Kid. no thoughts wasted on wether you're a boy or a girl #but society telling you to pick a side. preferably the one you were assigned at birth or else! #feeling miserable but leaning into feminine things HARDCORE because yeah you enjoy certain aspects #but mostly because you feel you have to make up for never being what society expects the ideal woman to be #never feeling quite at home with that label. or with your birthname or pronouns for that matter #but then. slowly discovering that what others want you to be does not matter. at the end of the day you gotta be comfy with yourself #just. chrissy getting a supportive friend group. experimenting with presentation and gender without judgement #and just getting to be Chrissy. no gendered expectations attached. just Chrissy. 🥺💕💕💕 #sorry that uhh.. turned into a big personal ramble here lol #i may have hardcore imprinted on chrissy oops

[seungbo-today]

sometimes i feel like im nothing without my art? like ..... if i didnt draw fa no one would be or want to be friends with me??

#or like without my fa #would people think im a weirdo n label me as one of the 'weird' fans and warn others to not follow/interact w me #or like when i reply to or even say things that may not always be 100% appropriate? #but bc i make pretty/cute fa or fanmade merch i get let off a lil more easy or smth? #like if i make 'ugly' art would people behave differently to me too? #im just waiting for like an expose thread or whatever on me #this is twt specific bc i dont really post art here LOL #im sure ppl here thinks im weirdd but like im p sure tehyre not gonna care too much and if i do get 'called out' or wtv on here #its for smth thats actually v serious not me saying things like #i think the moles on so n so nose/neck wtv is cute i wanna kith #🐝