#are genuinely horrendously traumatizing

[kaijubonemoisturizer]

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#goes through like twelve genuinely actual traumatizing horrendous experiences in the course of a week. is fine is okay is normal. #has to consider the possibility of an outcome that a.) didn’t occur and b.) would only have been a problem in my own head if it had due to #consisting entirely of my own maladaptive hang ups. weeps cries throws up. why. unreasonable way for my brain to be reacting

[forgiveness-in-the-misery]

The bathroom scene from Buffy the Vampire Slayer still stands out objectively as just one of the worst things in a show or movie.

The idea of reminding the audience that Spike is a villain doesn’t work that deep into the narrative, but even then there were a million other ways to display him being evil or morally conflicted, ways that didn’t involve a out of pocket attempted rape scene.

Place aside filming it made both actors uncomfortable and both to this day are still pissed about the entire thing and how bizarre and random it was.

The scene didn’t have weight. It was sudden and gross and hellish and then sort of slowly became just this thing. Nothing about it was handled well narratively speaking.

Plus it being what drove Spike to end up accidentally receiving a soul. Other than temporarily driving him insane with guilt a soul made no major difference in Spike as a person. Spike had never been a good vampire, he wasn’t good at being a man in the era he was born into and he wasn’t good at being a vampire.

As a human he was gentle and shy and soft and lovely. Traits that had him mocked and teased and pushed out, seen as “strange” and “unmanly”. Then we see him as a vampire and he’s unique as Dru is unique, he is beyond capable of love. This man, this monster fucking loves intensely and it is his biggest trait as soon as he is introduced.

He is nothing like Angel. Angel as a human was a rude sexist drunk and a bit of a prick. Angel as a vampire was as demonic and horrendous as any monster could be, even with Dru he drove her insane then turned her, he can pretend he loves her just to toy with her, but he would kill her if she proved useless to him. Being cursed with a soul is solely the only thing making him a “good” person. Every time he loses his soul he is dangerous.

But Spike isn’t like that. Even before being chipped, even before the soul he was complicated and complex, he was protective and intense and emotional.

The show if Whedon hadn’t been insistently bizarre about Spike could have explored so much that was already laid out. What does a soul even mean? What does it mean if Spike sand soul is capable of compassion and guilt and love and kindness? That he can break down sobbing when Buffy died, that to honor a promise to a dead woman he watched after her teenage sister? What does it mean that Angel without a soul uses every kindness and softness Buffy and Giles and others showed him against them? That her vulnerability becomes something he can torment her with.

What does a soul mean or matter in this case? Is Angel a good person in any real capacity? His soul given to him as a curse is genuinely the only thing making him be good. And there is something about that that makes Angel terrifying as a character for me. Don’t get me wrong I love Angel good or evil, I love him more in Angel the series, but in general it is difficult to really take him necessarily as good.

While Spike on the other hand is more in line with a human, he isn’t good or bad. He is traumatized and hurt and angry and in love and so human despite having a demon soul.

And these complexities could have been explored. Not a pull it out of left field sexual assault scene.

#buffy the vampire slayer

[magical-girl-coral]

Hi! This is vile.

Only the antizionist holocaust survivors are your heroes? So the ones who are too traumatized to go to their country of origin don't deserve your sympathy? If a victim of a pogrom feels safe in Israel, you will send them death threats? You, a random goy with no personal connection to our generational trauma, decided to be enough of a degenerate to choose which genocide survivor is allowed to speak out loud how they lived their life after losing their entire family?

This is fucking horrendous. This shouldn't be fucking normal. Any person who genuinely thinks likes this deserves their blog terminated. It's not like they have anything to offer.

#antisemetism #Jumblr

[lakesbian]

was doing a bit of Thinkin about bakuda due to my worm reread liveblog. she is very much a stereotypical fiery asian woman with blue eyes--shitty mundanely racist caricature alongside savage-yet-honorable lung--but it feels like there's just enough meat there that it's easy to imagine what bakuda could be if worm was really really good instead of just really good. which is why i was sitting in the shower for 10 minutes rotating her in my mind.

this little background detail:

Armsmaster nodded, “Not surprising. She’s new. What we know about her is limited. She made her first appearance and demonstration of her powers by way of a drawn out terrorism campaign against Cornell University. Lung apparently recruited her and brought her to Brockton Bay after her plans were foiled by the New York Protectorate. This is… something of a concern.”

combined with what her powers imply about her could have some genuinely interesting implications. i'm getting into "imagine if this part of worm was better" mode here & not "analyzing what's actually explicitly in the text" mode because what's in the text is very shallow but you can dig something out of that.

she has a tinker power, and tinker powers are powers that result from traumatic rock-bottom events the person with the power saw coming from a mile away--the type of thing you desperately try to build yourself an out for, but find yourself inevitably, horrendously railroaded into anyway, to the point where it would take a miracle to escape from. and that's what the resultant power is--the type of miracle you were hoping for, coming far too late to solve your problem, and fantastically extreme in its ability to solve the sort of problem you were dealing with without actually solving any of your underlying behaviors which led you to that problem in the first place.

and what, precisely, is her tinker power? Exploding Shit Real Good. she very much comes off as the literal version of finding yourself in the midst of a shitty institution, one stacked against you, one expecting you to break yourself to succeed in it, and thinking "damn i kinda wish this entire building would explode rn." it's very easy to imagine her being the type of person some would call passionate and some would say needs to calm the fuck down, very intelligent but swamped by university's increasingly difficult barriers to success and fiscal safety, perhaps expected by society as a whole to serve as the model asian woman in a deeply racist environment--smart, hardworking, successful, and still subservient. you know, all the type of shit that would have someone going Damn I Wish This Building Would Explode And We All Die in their head every time they attend college. i've seen it put forward before that she triggered after just. abruptly failing/being locked out of something academic despite all her effort, and that's what i can envision for her: struggling to keep her head above water, knowing that she's failing to meet expectations, knowing that she's eventually not going to be able to scrape by, socially or academically. her head goes under, so to speak, everything she's been working towards is fucked despite all the effort she put in, and--having always been the type of person to explode when something that unfair or awful feeling happens--she triggers, and literally explodes. proving to the university that she's talented, she's good at something, she's got something to be proud about no matter what anyone says--and if the system won't let her have anything after all the time she spent breaking herself to fit into it, then fuck the system, she hopes it explodes.

so. thats my 2 cents on bakuda but if she was more interesting. hopefully that makes sense 👍

#parahumans #worm #wormtime 2 #wormtime 2 arc 1 #bakuda #i think she deserves to be allowed to be nomral person amounts of angry for understandable reasons #instead of just like. fiery asian girl trope #also can she have brown eyes. please #im not saying please im not asking. brown eyes

[lady-charinette]

Convince me to watch Buddy Daddies, if you please?

*sips tea*

I will make a powerpoint presentation if this very biased, very comprehensive list still doesnt convince you.

Reasons to watch Buddy Daddies:

the songs are catchy (listen to SHOCK by Ayase, you'll be dancing in your living room or crawling on the walls)

its a hitmen trying to parent action rom(?)-com with very relatable fresh parent moments, yakuza domestic violence scenes and a short if on the nose critique on Japan's bogus complicated paperwork process while Kazuki and Rei try to enroll Miri into daycare and forging getting all the neccessary documents and forms together

features a motherly, overzealous best friend with past trauma-coded hitman Kazuki, who's more the 'brains' aka strategist of a hitmen duo together with deadpan, possessed-by-a-cat-spiritiually hikikomori who knows his way better around a gun or 100 than he does in a grocery store Rei.

the best assassin ever doesn't know how to cook for shit, his signature dish is french toast

the mothers of the other kids Miri plays with at daycare oggle Rei and Kazuki (understandable since they're two hot single dads ahem)

there's a mom group chat where the chat explodes with messages like "OIL BARON?! I KNEW THEY SMELLED OF OLD MONEY!", "they r hot :D" & rumors about the family situation in general

the jokes/compliments the mom's give to Rei "he's very cool! he has that hitman aura!"

Miri's biological dad gets killed during a deadly altercation with Kazuki and Rei in a shootout, her only other biological relative is her mom, who abandoned Miri in order to pursue a singing career with an abusive boyfriend but is trying to get around & wants Miri back

Kazuki is a deadly housewife

central themes: family relations, blood doesn't mean shit, the horrendous struggles of raising a kid with 0 knowledge of how to raise kids, sacrifice, implied stigma of two men raising a child alone + stigma against single mothers, generational trauma & overcoming trauma as adults, sometimes the only light at the end of the tunnel is your completely platonic co-worker who offers to cut your hair, a warm bath and gets your life together so you don't die alone

Rei has an undercut

Miri is the cutest ball of energy and sass that only a small child possesses

some boy has a crush on Miri but gets the Death StareTM by her two overprotective Papas

the tough, cutthroat life of a kindergartener

the overlapping themes of how important family is & how biological family can have the types of people in your life you absolutely want and have to cut off in order to be healthy, adjusted adult

love being the driving force to overcome obstacles, grief being the love with nowhere to go and the suffocating emptiness being replaced by a mismatched found family of two assassins and an orphan toddler who cook together and win races together

the food looks good

how grief and generational/familial trauma can cripple people in different ways and how traumatized people can heal together and become each-other's strength

alcohol is not the answer kids (oh and killing too)

the concept of motherhood: Ep 3. feat. Kazuki's sexist comment about mothers that are incapable of hating their own children. Misaki (Miri's mom) resents her daughter for destroying her dreams, Kazuki says that raising a kid is supposed to come naturally to a mother. He changes his tune later when he sees how difficult it is raising Miri & how Misaki genuinely tried until she was disappointed and traumatized by her own life & the arrival of an unwanted child.

the concept of fatherhood as introduced by Miri: "A papa is someone who will save you from trouble!". Whereas the fathers through the rest of the cast can be either described as "tormenters", "absent" or "sir"s.

good character building for almost all the characters

Bad Guy Ogino gets killed in a very poetic way, *mwah*

speaking of: creepy assassin Ogino keeps a notebook of people he's killed & what their last words were. Basically the teenage girl journaling experience but for deranged assassins

all in all you'll fall in love with the characters and laugh and cry until you dehydrate yourself

Send me another ask if you end up watching it & tell me what you think! :D

#buddy daddies #bd #miri unasaka #kazuki kurusu #rei suwa #anime rec #ask #anon ask #anon

[la-pheacienne]

There are many ways a shipping experience can be heartbreaking and traumatizing. The most obvious one is when you ship two people who have chemistry but never become canon. Bad. Another way a shipping experience can be traumatizing is when they become canon but then separate and the entire relationship is discarded in universe as a mistake or a moral failure of one of the characters. Extremely bad. But there is nothing more traumatizing than shipping two characters for years, desperately wishing for them to become canon and endgame. And then finally, finally they do!!! We get what we wanted!!! And it's so horrendous and badly written that you prefer to lose your eyesight than watch them ever again. You genuinely feel like the biggest clown. Bonus trauma if you know that they could have been good if the writers cared more about the themes and the story. They should have cared, since it was their endgame ship! But they didn't. The second case is much better than the third one because at least in the second case, the ship is definitely not endgame so it makes sense the writers didn't care. But this? How can one explain this?

#delena #This post is about delena #tvd #i'm still not over this horrendous show #the vampire diaries #damon x elena

[txttletale]

ok, thank you for the answer irt worm! now what about all of the other wildbow webthings?

pact is pretty good it's a horror story about a trans-coded guy called blake who goes through horrible things nonstop for a million words. the pacing's absolutely fucked (blake goes to toronto for basically no reason and ends up stuck there for like a third of the book lol) but the world's very evocative and the story has a fun take on magic that plays with symbolism and narrative in a way that makes it worth reading

twig is also pretty good. it's kind of like a biopunk espionage thriller about plucky teens becoming horrendously traumatized young adults in a world where frankenstein was real and the british empire conquered the world using nasty flesh monsters. it's nonstop body horror and weird social intrigue and the back half is a genuinely grueling to read slog through the protagonist having a total fucking meltdown but it is (like most wildbow works!) just bursting with cool ideas that could have each fueled an entire novel on their own

ward is the sequel to worm and its bad and not good because 1. it was obviously barely planned out compared to his earlier work and so a lot of it makes very little sense and story arcs get dropped like hot potatoes, 2. around this point wildbow started paying a lot of attention to fan reactions and writing in direct response to them which is the mind-killer, 3. at some point it starts feeling like wildbow was just straight up miserable writing it and hated doing so and it shows

pale is set in the same universe as pact but isn't a direct sequel. it was meant to be a short little murder mystery and by all accounts started out really really good with great characters and a fun mystery and cool concepts. however now its 3 million words long and a lot of people think that by Not Ending like two million words ago it's written itself into being a load of unreadable garbage by now. i havent read it and probably wont ever because 3 million words is a lot of words

#worm #pact #twig #ward #pale #ask

[okmack-22]

interruptions- gareth emerson

gareth emerson x fem!munson!reader

summary: eddie walks in on his sister and his best friend having !sex!

warnings: mention of sex, but no genuine smut, cursing

you had to be kidding. eddie looked at you and gareth in complete surprise and disgust. one of his best friends sitting in his little sister's bed. it was a horrendous sight to see for the poor boy. him shutting the door and consistently screaming "WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK" at you two as he left.

you were completely embarrassed. eddie had caught you and gareth in the middle of fucking. literally could have been the worst time for your older brother to walk in the house. in his perspective, he just wanted to ask you if you wanted to hang out. but you had.... other plans. and he was traumatized.

gareth was just as embarrassed as you, maybe even more than you. he didn't expect his best friend to walk in on him literally fucking his sister. he was so embarrassed that tears were pricking in his eyes. after eddie shut the door, gareth immediately pulled out and laid down. hiding his face in your neck.

you held his head and tried to stop the tears that were coming out. you weren't sobbing you just had some small tears from being scared and embarrassed. you looked at gareth. he was literally terrified, also not to mention utterly embarrassed.  

you could hear the small sniffles coming from him. you felt horrible. you kissed his head and he slightly pulled away. his eyes were slightly red from the tears. you had never seen him cry. sure you had seen gareth upset or embarrassed but you had never seen him cry. knowing that stroking his hair calmed him down you immediately put your hand on his head. stroking his hair as he wrapped his arms around you.

"hey it's okay, if eddie has a problem with us that's his fault," you whispered.

you shimmied your body helping yourself turn to look at your boyfriend. one hand still in his hair, the other now holding his face. your thumb rubbing away the extra tears that fell from his eyes. he nodded, complete putty in your hands. you motioned for him to sit up. knowing that you two would need to brave up and confront eddie, the hell-raising older brother. gareth sat up but didn't move and neither did you. you looked at your feet, completely nervous and hiding your body with your knees to your chest. gareth didn't take his eyes off of you. the tears had stopped after you pet his hair. he may have been a big baby when it came to you but if he needed to protect your relationship you two had tried so hard to keep a secret he would do anything.

thanks to eddie shutting your door gareth had felt confident enough to put his clothes on. and find you some new ones since the others were nowhere to be found. he grabbed one of his old t-shirts you had stolen, along with a pair of your sweatpants, and some new panties. after putting his clothes on he helped you get up. you put on your clothes and immediately after, gareth snatched you up in a hug. yes, he was scared to talk to eddie about your relationship but he knew you were even more scared than he'd ever be.

you two stood there for a little while longer. this time it was your turn to cry. you didn't believe a single thing you had told gareth. you would have a big problem if eddie had a problem that you and his best friend were in a relationship. the guilt sank in. you were full-on sobbing. your head in gareth's chest as he held you. mumbling small words and phrases. one of his hands started rubbing your back. trying to calm you down. small kisses were placed on the crown of your head.

"hey, hey, y/n it's okay. as you said if eddie has a problem with us being together that's his problem and there's nothing stopping us" he said to you.

"it's just-" you choked a sob out.

"it's just what baby?" he asked

"he's my big brother, your best friend" you sobbed.

"and what about it? there's absolutely nothing and no one in this world that would stop me from loving you," he said.

you couldn't help but try to smile. it was hard though. he had the confidence you just had. if you were to ask him if he was scared he'd put on a tough guy facade and tell you no, and you knew it. but what you didn't know was that he didn't care if he was scared. he loved you. and that's what was helping him stay strong.

"it's just eddie sweetheart, he's gonna be okay," he smiled at you.

you nodded. wiping the stray tears. your sobs dying down to just some occasional sniffles. gareth moved his hands to your face. his big thumbs wiping the tears. you looked into his big green eyes. they were full of love. love for you. he looked right back at you. the smallest but comforting smile on his face. he leaned in and pressed his lips to yours. moving in sync for a few seconds.

as you two pulled away he immediately pecked your face. peppering you with kisses. small giggles erupted from you both. he was trying so hard not to move his lips down to somewhere else. but your childlike giggles were music to his ears.

there was a loud knock on your bedroom door startling you two. you knew who it was. it was eddie. the only other person in the house, though he wasn't supposed to be. the embarrassment sinking back into you. gareth looked right at you. you were cemented to the ground. he let you go, but you grabbed his hand and followed him. gaining some confidence. you knew you had to. you couldn't let gareth do all the talking. he would crumble. and his ego was already broken, due to eddie walking in on you two at your most vulnerable state.

gareth opened the door. eddie looking just as embarrassed and uncomfortable as you. eddie peeked in to look at you. you peered at him around gareth's arm. the comfort of his body shielding you.

"you uh, you wanna talk," eddie asked.

"kinda have to man" gareth spoke up.

you all walked to the living room. you couldn't speak. you hardly even wanted to move. the anxiety making it hard to even breathe. your feet padding across the hardwood in the kitchen. eddie had already planted himself onto the couch. looking at gareth as he sat down beside him. now they were both looking at you as you slowly (but surely) made your way to where they were. you sat on the floor. not knowing where to sit since both boys were on the couch.

"so uhm, why didn't you tell me. i mean I'm now permanently scarred" eddie looked at you and gareth.

"didn't want you to be mad" you mumbled.

if they were being honest they weren't expecting you to speak. but nonetheless, gareth was proud of you. he knew you could do it. face your older brother and tell him the truth. no matter how hard it would be. gareth reached down to grab you and pull you to the couch. you now being sat in between your brother and boyfriend.

"if you two would have told me I wouldn't be mad. just would have had to have a talk with gareth." he stated.

the anxiety still there in all of you but slowly going away as you heard him say that. you nodded squeezing gareth's hand. him smiling. you leaned into his shoulder. eddie looked at the both of you. he seemed happy, still uncomfortable at what happened that made you three have the talk, but still happy to see his little sister find someone. he could tell just by looking at you two now that you loved each other.

"I'm happy for you y/n, you know out of anyone at hawkins you found a good one." eddie smiled.

"I'm sorry we didn't tell you sooner man," gareth said.

eddie nodded, knowing what could have gone through your heads. if he was being honest he had hidden some relationships from you, so he knew it wouldn't be fair on him to be mad at you. he was slightly uncomfortable at knowing that you two were having sex, but still nonetheless happy for you. he knew gareth would treat you properly.

"I don't really wanna see yall do that again so next time, leave a note, warn me ahead of time that would be really fucking great," eddie said.

you and gareth laughed at eddie. nodding and telling him that you would most definitely let him know so this didn't happen again. eddie then got up and told you that he was leaving and that you two could carry one with it.

gareth looked at you, making you look at him. a small smirk formed on his lips and you rolled your eyes. he was immediately in the mood again but you were still slightly embarrassed. he leaned in for a kiss, you granting him permission but swiftly pulling away a few second after.

"can we just watch movies for the rest of the night, I'm kinda tired" you muttered earning a sheepish smile from gareth.

he nodded and pecked your cheek. knowing that you were exhausted from the good cry you had and the embarrassment. he didn't want to push anything onto you, especially sex. you got up and he soon followed. you two picked out a movie to watch and put it into the VHS player. gareth grabbed the blanket that he bought for you and you both situated yourselves on the couch. all you two wanted to do was be wrapped up and cuddling the night away.

#gareth emerson #gareth emerson imagine #gareth emerson x reader #gareth stranger things #gareth #gareth stranger things x reader #fem reader #stranger things fanfiction #stranger things x reader #stranger things 4 #st4 #st #eddie munson #steve harrington #hellfire club imagine #hellfire club #hellfire stranger things #gwydion lashlee walton #stranger things x you #stranger things season 4 vol 2 #gareth x reader #gareth stranger things imagine #eddie munson gif #eddie munson st4 #eddie #munson reader #munson

[gemini-forest]

What happened to your twitter? I went to follow but it wasn't there? Did something happen to it? Like did Elon take it down??

What? No Elon didn't take my twitter down.

I did. I have been meaning to take it down for a while actually. The environment Rise Twitter made it really hostile for me to really wanna post or do anything. That and it genuinely was messing with my mental health. So I took it down.

More of an extensive reason and tangent under cut if you wanna read

I don't necessarily hide that I draw NSFW. I never post it on a public platform because well, it's smut, and I am aware I have those udnerage following me and when my following here got bigger I stopped hinting to it or promoting mainly for THEIR saftey.

Everyone I draw are of age, very clearly of age, and I'm personally not ashamed of it. I'm an adult and on my own private platforms I can post it. Whatever.

But Rise Twitter made it a much and I do mean MUCH bigger deal than it needs to be. Attacking artists who draw F!Leo (who is a 38-41 year old MAN) smut or suggestive for example and got mad and they start that shit like every week.

I've seen Don get canceled with the same misinformation multiple times with no evidence, I've seen Pine get attacked for drawing an adult man. I got attacked and blocked out by half the community because I defended those who draw adult FICTIONAL MEN.

I get if you're not wanting to see that stuff or it's not your thing, or even it makes you uncomfortable. Like for me my Patreon is ABSOLUTELY optional. You're of age and wanna see that? Cool. I draw a lot of Jayden n Leo there, even some Eliot sprinkled in.

But don't attack us accusing us artists of the WORST TITLES EVER. I've seen an artist get called a fucking pedophile. Or a zoophile. It's honestly just disgusting. People's mental healths have been effected so negatively and not wanting to draw turtles IN GENERAL.

Again you're more than entitled to not like that kind of stuff. That's absolutely okay and you're valid. I fully and 100% understand, you're seen and you're heard.

But don't go at adult artists drawing ADULT CHARACTERS because you don't want to see it, especially if you're underage. We're in our own spaces. We don't want those who are uncomfortable with that to see that our stuff.

In the end it's just feels hyper hypocritical that we're treated like predators for staying in OUR OWN lane when those same people who call us the worst things possible, also draw underage characters getting mauled, eaten, excessive gore, experiencing extremely traumatic events, oh and drawing a 16 year old shoving his tongue down another minor's throat on a public platform.

This isn't me bashing those who draw that stuff, it's okay to tackle that kind of topics. But I find it hypocritical of people who is willing to villainize NSFW artists posting privately and respecting public platforms, who then draw the most horrendous and gruesome shit I've seen with minors.

If one isn't allowed to exist the other shouldn't either.

#ask gem #a huge tangent

[izunias-meme-hole]

"JACK NAPIER"/THE JOKER

"Want to know how I keep smiling?"

HERE'S THE FUNNY BASTARD MAN!!

Despite being a VERY well known gangster before his transformation, "Jack Napier" was a very secretive man, keeping his own history under wraps, and has no actual documentation of a true name, or birth date. However what was known about Napier was that he was the right hand man of Carmine Falcone's rival, Rupert Thorne, and he was often called to either "clean up a mess", or eliminate anyone who went against Thorne. However all of that changed after he got set up at Ace Chemicals, and met The Batman. Napier walked out of that encounter with raw blood red lips, chalk white skin, green hair, and a damaged face, and when he went to get surgery for his face as quick as possible, Napier ended up with a permanent grin. Finding all of recent circumstances absurd, Jack goes completely mad, convinced that life was just some big joke, and if that were the case he'd be the one sharing the punchline. So after killing Thorne and taking over his enterprise, The Joker was not only born, but fully prepared to cause chaos, ruin lives, and share his twisted works of art with Gotham City for his own amusement.

My Joker here is pretty much just a marriage between B:TAS, Batman 89, The Dark Knight, and The Arkham Games. A psychotic gangster who fell into a vat of chemicals, got some facial disfigurement, and began to see life as one bad joke, becoming a literal mad clown as a result.

After meeting Batman again, bro just got worse. Granted he was never truly fine to begin with, but not only did he become more unhinged and destructive after getting his chemical bath, but he became obsessed with The Bat after his second encounter with him. Now what sparked this obsession? Batman deciding not to kill him. Joker was confused at first, but he slowly began to piece it all together, and now had a long "game"... one that he planned on winning.

Harley Quinn is still brought to his side, and he's still a genuine piece of garbage to her, but he ditches her and almost kills her for real the MOMENT she successfully captures Batman all by herself, right under his nose. And they were around each other for 19 years.

This man is responsible for almost poisoning Gotham via a parade, turning Christmas Eve into Batman's most stressful night, a riot at Blackgate, the creation for Two-Face, the creation of Harley Quinn, the creation of Clayface, the near-death of Barbra Gordon (who doesn't get crippled here and isn't Batgirl at that point yet), the traumatization of James Gordon, the death of Jason Todd, the endorsement of Project TITAN, a takeover of Arkham Asylum, the mutation of Killer Croc via TITAN, the traumatization of billions, the deaths of billions, and his final atrocity; turning Tim Drake into a mini-him through torment. This isn't his entire rap-sheet, but it's literally just half of the horrendous shit across the entire franchise along with some new shit that seems like it came from the old school comics. Like this man is likely to fill Gotham PD with actual pigs in cop costumes once as a more harmless prank just a day before doing something actually horrid.

The only limit to his cruelty is that whatever he does has to be peak comedy in his eyes, and if it doesn't reach that he'll actually be annoyed. Like bro didn't even plan on killing Jason Todd, he just wanted to send him back to Batman all broken down and beaten, but he was enjoying it too much and ruined his own work.

He still has some of his connections with the mob, and uses them for some of his schemes, however he's also willing to manipulate some mentally ill fellows from Arkham into helping him.

Enjoys a lil' internet trolling and memeing.

If he had a voice actor (That isn't Mark Hamill because he has retired from voicing the man due to the passing of the GOAT Conroy), it would be either Troy Baker, Michael McKean, Chris Hackney, Joe Zeija, Daemon Clarke, Mick Wingert, or Haley Joel Osment.

So yeah. This is My Joker.

#the joker #joker #jack napier #batman #dc #dc comics #my art #my stuff #Batman: Dark Nights #(one behind the mask) mun izunia

[opinated-user]

i went through your whole "lily orchard is lying about cancer" tag, because id never heard any allegations like that against her before, and im genuinely speechless. things like stockholm or her predatory behaviour are massive holes shes dug for herself, but this is a new low. there is absolutely no way she is getting out of this disgusting lie. i hope this is the tipping point for some of her fans to realise her horrendous behaviour - it certainly was for me. ive thought of the things shes done to be gross, but this is genuinely unforgivable. ive lost one family member to cancer, and saw another beat it over the course of 4/5 years (2 of which where during the pandemic as well), and absolutely nothing she is saying in her story adds up. shes a horrible role model and i GENUINELY hope at least some of her fans stop supporting her because of this and LO gets in some serious shit.

i have lost two family members to cancer and recently i had to see the funeral of a very dear friend who lost their own battle. i have seen the child and spouse they left behind being traumatized through the whole experience. so you can believe me when i say that when it comes to this specific lie, this specific issue, i genuinely have lost whatever trace of respect i ever had for LO as a person. cancer is not just a sickness for the person who has it, it's the pain and suffering of the loved ones around who know can't do anything to stop it or help.

this year i had to see this woman open and publicly blaming a child for being groomed by an "actual pedophile", according to her own words, and that alone was a huge blow. but now i have to see her make a ridiculous mockery of the pain i had to see, in those i loved, and there's no words enough on this planet that can ever express the kind of disgust i feel.

Moral recently made their announcement they would leave their blog in hiatus indefinitely because they realized they pity LO. i don't have pity, even though she's pathetic. i don't know what i have left now after this. she just lost the nicest, most compassionate of all her critics.

#lily orchard

[winns-stuff]

LO RANT:

The new episode had to be the most rushed, underwhelming, predictable and overall worst fight ever. I’m sorry I just cannot take that episode seriously to save my life, it doesn’t even feel part of the storyline it feels so random and weird that it doesn’t even feel like… Real?

My first annoyance with this episode is that.. The fucking fight was absolute dog water, there was barely any sort of real power from both of them showing during it. Persephone was just whooshing around mud?? Like that’s going to defeat motherfucking KRONOS the god who literally had the world crumbling and started a damn war for years! The god who scarred the 6 traitors and traumatized them and left scars for years, even giving many of them nightmares. The man everyone was worried about, was defeated by a boring ass super sized Persephone. I am just so extremely disappointed with this whole fight, I mean honestly how fucking long was that fight advertised in the comic? It was supposed to be some world altering threat and that’s all we fucking got are you serious. I’m sorry but I just cannot accept that that’s how the Kronos plot story ended.

About Kronos, I wanted him to be a lot more scarier or at least intimidating I’m so sick of every single God just absolutely fawning over Persephone, I’d much rather him treat Persephone like she was just a power source (like she’s meant to be) than to be a replacement Rhea for him to be with and rule the world together. It was so completely unnecessary and honestly really cringe about the way that Kronos randomly drooled over her that was so annoying I genuinely wanted him to have like… A god complex. (Get it) Overall I feel like his potential and his character got ruined because he was talked up to be some very scary and powerful being yet got destroyed by Persephone who still cannot control her damn powers or it doesn’t seem like she can since she can’t use them for jack shit unless it’s to make vines.

Something else that bothered me about this “fight” is the comic trying so hard to make Persephone so “unbothered” and “badass” genuinely it was so hard to read to be honest. Like something about it ticked me the fuck off, it just did not give what it was supposed to give and it sent chills down my spine in a horrendous way. It was just terrible honestly.

Another thing that bothered me was Persephone herself, like I said before there’s nothing scary or dreadful about Persephone I’m so tired of seeing “aesthetically pleasing” gods when they’re in LITERAL TRUE FORMS I’m not saying that all gods should be terrifying I’m just saying that I’m tired of all the gods being so pretty and polish and stuff, there’s so much potential in letting the art form be more raw without always needing to make it pretty. I just wish we could see more forms of Persephone outside of being “sweet innocent and kind” we’ve been seeing this side of her for three seasons now and it’s getting annoying. What is even the difference between Kore and Persephone? If Rachel was going to make it seem like Persephone has two sides she needs to make them very freaking distinctive.

Another thing that bothered me was the unnecessary film crew. How the fuck are they even awake..? Isn’t every citizen in The Underworld supposed to be asleep or am I going crazy? Anyways they literally did not bring anything to the scenes and they weren’t very funny at all honestly, just why were they there? I don’t get it. This is just a petty nitpick by the way just wanted to add that there.

Another small nitpick was her crying… A-Fucking-Gain, that’s so annoying to me we get it Persephone would never wanna destroy the man who is literally a threat to everyone and the one that is currently putting YOUR MOTHERS (and hades or whatever) life in danger. We know she’s so kind and empathetic that she would never wanna murder anyone boohoo, we get it please stop shoving it down our throats. It’s just annoying that Persephone just cannot be wrathful with zero regrets.

Anyways I can say that Tartarus’ design because that was genuinely the only good thing about the episode for me. It was so nice to look at and they really did serve, glad that they were the one who finished the fight and not Persephone because the whole point wasn’t to make Persephone specifically to go up against Kronos and defeat him. But yeah, good on them for doing what Persephone couldn’t.

But that’s the end of the rant. Sorry if I came off a little aggressive this rant but the whole thing really irked me because it could’ve been so much better and they’ve been dragging that fight on for seasons and it was so disappointing. But like I always say I’m very biased and I’m talking completely about how I felt about it and my own thoughts, please don’t take any of this as fact because it’s not but if you do agree with me that’s great, and if you don’t that’s also great. These are just meaningless rants and I do not want anyone to use these as fuel to insult people who enjoy and love Lore Olympus because that’s not what this is supposed to be. What’s good for others may not be good for you and you should never shame someone for that because that’s completely and utterly illogical.

#lo critical #anti lore olympus #anti lo #lore olympus critical

[nevarroes]

hello with the greatest of compliments i think cas is the cuntiest durge i’ve ever come across and i adore him and love the way u draw him and gort SM <3 what are some defining personality traits cas has or things that would become obvious about him if you knew him???

thank u so much, happy you like them🥺🙏🙏

as for his personality… idk how far youve read into Caslore (I need to link that tag in my pinned later brb) but in case you haven’t heard much of him let me just warn ahead of time that he’s not very pleasant, beautiful on the outside nd rotten inside archetype💜

If i were to just like… name some character traits sims-style then I’d say his memorable traits are that he’s short-tempered as hell and very easy to enrage. However aside from anger outbursts and how he acts with Gortash he’s actually more introverted than you’d think and someone that doesn’t tend to talk more than necessary with people he doesn’t care about, generally just has a very cold and icy vibe laced with a feeling of superiority over most if not all people. He’s also vain as shit and conceited, very proud of his looks and knows how to use them to get what he wants☝️ He’s disrespectful and doesn’t accept any type of authority (gods included), he’s blunt and he’s destructive due to his nature (devil that was tainted by the Abyss)

If you dig a little deeper and if you actually knew and analyzed him you’d know that a lot of his really horrendous traits are more or less a defense mechanism for his insecurities, Cas is really a deeply insecure and traumatized person at his core tbh but this is something he’d never accept or even know himself. Anyways on that note he is insanely possessive and jealous, approaches most things in a very “revenge on the world for what happened to him” manner, he’s emotionally constipated and he’s kinda sexist in an err…. misogynist gay man stereotype way. If you’ve never dealt with one irl to know exactly what I mean then be grateful but if u did… yeah😵‍💫 He also looks down on any non-infernal race nd he’s just a very hateful person in general that doesn’t wish well on anyone

I suppose to not completely just shit on him though I’ll say that he has great self control and restraint in many cases, hes a very disciplined person. Also when he does care (Gortash) he turns into a far more genuine person that does actually manage to show some affection but in a way where… for his own pride he needs to balance it out still with being rude and teasing and a bit of a bastard still. He’s also, again this is only with Gortash though, pretty devoted and protective and would give his life for him no questions asked even if he himself went through so many hardships before that just to stay alive to keep fighting for his own freedom (this is also kinda what it boils down to btw. person that was never truly his own man his whole life)

anyways hope that erm… gives a bit of an insight, its a bit more detailed than anticipated even if it’s still not quite everything but yeagh🙏

#blakemail #“relevant traits” but really its just a list of why Cas is a walking red flag #my beautiful princess with a disorder #gortcas hate-off wld go crazy but Cas has more free time to spend making peoples lives horrible #cas lore

[jesus-in-the-womb]

In response to your comforting from SA flashback for Eddie, I would like to ask if you could write a prequel (if you’re comfortable doing so) where the reader tells him about her trauma? If not, I understand, I’m just in the situation where I might have to tell someone in a situation like that soon and it would be comforting to know someone (Eddie) would be accepting and kind.

Hi Darling! I hope you are well and enjoying your day/night... I'll happily do a pt.2/prequel to 'Safe Haven'! I would, however, before I begin, like to give my own piece of advice not through my storytelling. If you ever find yourself in the situation of telling someone about your SA experience(s) and or PTSD, please make sure it's someone you can trust. If it's a SO, make sure that when you're comfortable enough, tell them trigger spots/words, it can really make or break a relationship when living with PTSD from SA. Stay safe, be patient, and be loving &lt;3 TW: MENTIONS OF SA, PTSD, LIGHTLY DESCRIPTIVE SA... please read with caution.

Fingertips grazed your skin, the pads trailing lightly down your body in a sensual manner. It felt good, erotic even, although it was meant to be a friendly touch of the waist. You'd befriended Eddie Munson nearly 2 years ago, spending almost every waking moment with the boy. He became someone you trusted wholeheartedly, with every bone in your body. You'd bet your life on the boy, let your soul dance in the palms of his hands in the face of danger. You knew he'd forever protect and care for you, no matter what.

So, when your best friend of two years, placed his palm on the small of your back, you instantly froze. Your body tensed, your stomach churning with nausea at his hand placement. Eddie, of course, noticed your displeasure, removing his hand and stepping away.

"Woah, hey. You okay," he cautiously asked, moving to stand in front of you, picking up on your distant eyes when they did waver, even as his chest obstructed the view of whatever you were staring at. He panicked when you began to hyperventilate, severely concerned for your well-being, "Y/N, what's wrong? What happened?" he'd never seen you like this, his body moving faster than his mind, placing a hand on your shoulder lightly, cupping your cheek softly with the other. He practically cooed sweet words into your face.

When you came too, you'd found yourself standing awkwardly in the middle of a parking lot, a Denny's parking lot to be precise. Your eyes went wide as you realized what had happened, an episode coming to you quickly without warning. You immediately began to apologize, practically begging your best friend to forgive you, he just stood there with a concerned stare, soaking in your teary eyes and heavy breaths.

"What was that?" he asked, genuinely never experiencing nor witnessing a PTSD episode.

"I-" you paused, honestly not even sure if and what you should tell him, deciding on being as honest as your words would let you, "can we go somewhere more private?" you would tell him, but privacy was something you ached for, not wishing to tell all of Hawkins, Indiana, about your traumatic experiences.

"Of course, come on." He fought tooth and nail with his own reflexes, trying his hardest not to wrap his arm around your form again.

You'd quickly followed him to his van, sitting in the passenger seat and deciding this was the best you would get when it came to privacy, placing your hand atop his; which was attempting to turn over his horrendous engine that had begun to sputter the second the fob turned.

"I have PTSD," you blurted, quickly realizing that he had no idea what the hell you were talking about, "it's- it stands for Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I developed it a few years back, from something bad," he nodded, flipping his hand upside down to hole yours, offering a comforting squeeze for you to continue, "my dad had this work buddie," you trailed off, watching as his eyes widened a little before he began to focus again, choosing to speak when you had concluded.

"He touched me, did things to my body, u-used me." you let a sob tear through your throat, emotional pain igniting across your body, setting it alight with sufferance, "It's been years since this happened, but it's still a part of me. I have- have parts of my body that, if you, you know, touch a certain way, I guess, it takes me back to that place." you shrugged hoping this lackluster story would suffice in terms of answering the metalhead's questions.

He waited until he knew you were finished, gently squeezing your palm once more, "I'm so sorry, Y/N. I wish I would've known sooner, to know how to help you, but I know why you didn't tell me." as if reading your mind, he sent you a soft smile, wiping a tear from the apple of your left cheek.

"I won't let anything like that ever happen to you, ever again." his words were firm, a statement rather than a light announcement. You sniffled, grateful to have a friend like Eddie Munson. He made things like this easier to talk about, conversations that are meant to be awkward, he flipped them and made them feel as easy as reciting the ABCs. You were thankful for the breath of fresh air he offered, never taking it nor him for granted as he laid his heart out for you on a silver platter.

This was extremely hard for me to write. Although I feel as if this was a bit lackluster of an SA talk/ PTSD explanation, it was difficult for me to go into detail.... some things in this wrek, I genuinely relate to and it sucks that I do. Thank you for requesting something like this though, SA talks with loved ones is extremely difficult and hard to avoid. thank you for the support <3 love ya!

#stranger things fanfiction #stranger things #fanfiction #eddie munson x reader #eddie munson fluff #eddie munson fanfic #eddie munson #tw sa implied #slight angst #panic attack #ptsd tw #talk about SA

[lakesbian]

Amy Dallon, 25 if you please

25. What was your first impression of this character? How about now?

ameepy.....the ameeby. the ameeby dallon. i initially knew her primarily as That Insanely Comically Homophobic Predatory Lesbian Trope Worm (Book I'm Reading Now I Guess) Has and i was very much not expecting her to have anything interesting going on. because, y'know, "lesbian who Appears normal invading a safe space and being, unbeknownst to everyone else, a threat to a perfect cishet girl whom she corrupts and ruins" is a classic horrendous eye-roll inducing predatory lesbian trope. the thing that was sort of objectively bizarre to realize the more i thought about her is that--despite still being Wildly Homophobic--worm does literally make it textually explicit that she does harm because the environment she's treated as if she's invading was deeply harmful to her, and she's fully a result of awful and traumatizing circumstances. like, the entire moral is "actually there's nothing inherently wrong w/ her, but she was treated like there was, and it left her so isolated she broke down and hurt someone in a moment of desperation." so despite being some of the most homophobic shit ever and also in a very much ideologically flawed book from 2010, she is a genuinely interesting character with a lot of commentary on the harm of the nuclear family and esp. the idealized white all-american nuclear family. would not really change anything about her were i to be in charge of editing worm to be less bigoted short of making the racialized elements of her treatment intentional & textual

#ask

[ministrationz]

i don't know what azula anti needs to hear this, but absolutely NO ONE who is worth listening to is seriously making the argument that azula hasn't done anything wrong, or that she's been the perfect child. what we are saying is that azula was a VICTIM of her fathers abuse and mistreatment by her mother, and that it heavily impacted her actions. yes ursa was in a bad situation, yes she was being abused by ozai, and yes she had very little personal liberties, but no matter how you spin it, that's no excuse to treat azula less favourably than zuko, nor is it an excuse to make azula feel unloved. the opinion that ursa can do no wrong and did no wrong to her children because she was abused is out of touch with the reality of what it's like to grow up in an abusive household. abuse is unfortunately a cycle and leads to EVERYONE in the household being negatively affected. this does not mean that anyone asides from the abuser is blameless for harm being done to children in the household.

azula understands that ursa was in a bad situation. she knows that her father was abusive. we see this in azula in the spirit temple. that does not, however mean that azula could not have been negatively affected by her mother's actions. azula was not born evil. she's a traumatized teenage girl with NO support system. she was left alone with her monster of a father from a young age and had to internalize all her struggles to survive. of course she can't manage relationships, and doesn't have healthy coping mechanisms. she has been groomed into being at her father's every beck and call. ursa treating azula differently from zuko and making her feel unloved from a young age, whether it was intentional or not, definitely made these issues exceptionally worse. when you have no one around you who genuinely makes you feel loved, and when the one person in your family that should have made you feel loved leaves, you're going to turn to the only source of it you can find (ozai, in this case), even if it means you act poorly or put yourself/others at risk.

ursa's parenting left azula traumatized, and i genuinely do think the reason many of you cannot understand that ursa did, in fact, make many mistakes is either because you are looking at ursa through the biased perspective we got in the show, or because you simply have not been in these circumstances in the past. abusive households are toxic to everyone. just because one parent is abusing everyone in the household, does not mean the other parent can't inflict harm, either. that doesn't make them any less of a victim, but it doesn't negate the devastating lifelong effects their behavior will have on their children.

was ursa in a good position to be a good parent? no. her situation is absolutely heartbreaking and i wish she had gotten to live an easier life. it is completely reasonable for her to struggle with parenting properly. you can't expect someone to take the best care of their children when they're in a terrible situation. does that excuse the impact she had on azula? no! not at all. while it's important to acknowledge how ursa's abuse influenced her behavior, ursa was not a good mother to azula and that is an objective fact. how do you see azula's breakdown at the end of the show, or her breakdown in The Search, or her visions in Azula in the Spirit Temple, and still think there was no issue with ursa's parenting? no child with a healthy relationship with their parents grows up with these feelings, let alone starts HALLUCINATING their parent haunting them. i won't even go into ursa forgetting her children and having kiyi because i think it's just absolutely ludicrous and completely inexcusable.

so many of the arguments against azula are textbook victim blaming. yes, azula conquering the earth kingdom and trying to kill people on behalf of her father was WRONG. no one thinks it wasn't! however, EVERYONE that should have helped azula FAILED HER. she is a product of her horrendous environment, and not acknowledging this while you grant a character like zuko, who unlike azula had people around him to support him, the benefit of the doubt when he acts out negatively for the EXACT SAME REASON without hesitation speaks for itself. no one is saying azula is a good person. no one is saying azula should not have been held responsible for her actions. what we're saying is that she is a person, not some evil caricature you can use to express whatever internalized biases you have. she has depth and should be treated as such. she is not some bogeyman you can levy your most heinous accusations towards.

on that note, please stop calling azula anything on the lines of psychotic, psychopath, sociopath, etc. you are showing how ignorant you are on mental health issues when you use these terms in this context.

#azula #tw abuse #ursa #as someone who grew up in a severely abusive household a lot of the takes i've been seeing make me feel like i'm losing my mind