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[arionawrites]

the constant battle between wanting to post about my wip’s but also wanting to actually just work on them without sharing like it’s my little secret

#aritalks

[noturordinarybigirl]

LMAO

So, I graduated from highschool last Friday! :D

And my mother

She could have bought me so many things

Idk, food, chips, makeup, art supplies, etc

But no

She got me a maid outfit

Like

MOTHER???

Anyways, catch me at the next convention as a maid 👌

#aritalks

[arikaluvss]

⚝ Welcome to Ari's Garden! enjoy your stay~

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‧₊˚✩彡Hello!! my name is Arika!, She/Her, enfp, Gemini !! Enha (Jungwon) and lessera (eunchae and yunjin) ults !! anon's are welcome! please pick an emoji so i could identify which anon are you if your going to send an request orr ask! Thank youuu !!!

ᐟᐟ☆ Anon!-🦢,

(looking for moots !! everyone is always welcome! rlly want to be friends or moots!)

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© arikaluvss

#arikawrites! #arikatalks

[3-million-subscriber-yter]

I wanna write an essay on why Kevin and Dan have such lovely communities compared to other creators stop me pls

#aritalks #don't enable me dont enable me dont enable me dont ena #callmekevin #rtgame

[thompsborn]

so i slept 13 hours after having a Very Bad Day yesterday and woke up to the avengers campus pictures and now

i am in a GREAT mood

i am VERY well rested

i have sudden motivation to work on my revolution fic again because lunella!!! and miles has a locker!!! and lunella miles and peter are like siblings in that fic!!!!!

avengers campus looks like a fic come to life and i am now trying to plan a way to go to disney and see it with my own eyes

and i hope yall are all having a good day :D

#aritalks

[moved-account1]

People always clown on hajime for not knowing what a octagon is, but can we please talk about the fact he doesn't know what an elevator is?

#cmon hajime i expect better from you #hinata hajime #sdr2 #dangaonronpa #i guess its expected after the whole octogon thing #AriTalks

[idontfangirl-ifanwomen]

Doctor: You have 12 minutes left to live.

Me:

#i keep seeing this game everywhereeee #i wanna play it so badly #also kudos to the guys at ign for posting this video #it was exquisite and quite possibly the closest ill ever get to actually playing the game lmao #untitled goose game #text post #aritalks

[pokewoozi]

Hey what happens to you today?

WOW ANON THANK YOU FOR ASKING omg i srsly thought no one would send it so ily anon. this is all going to be under a cut

you dont have to read all of it actually lol. very long and probably boring.

so last friday, a friend of mine who also happens to be my brother’s friend, asked me for a dance at prom. it was his last day at school and he chose this opportunity to ask me. at the time, i wasnt thinking straight enough to actually comprehend what he was saying (cuz i was internally freaking out) but i still said yes. today, we had an ap exam and i wrote this huge ass note asking him about what he said and what he meant. i wanted to clarify that he wanted a dance and not actually take me to prom.

anyway when the exam was over, he turns to me and my group of friends and says that this would be his last time seeing us or something along those lines. i wasnt paying attention ONCE AGAIN. hes already almost at the other side of the parking lot and i take out the note yelling “HEY (his name)” he turns around and i throw the note but the wind blew it and so it didnt reach him. it wasnt going to reach him anyway but oh well. i yell “GO GET THAT” and so he does. i tell him not to read it now but later. i run away and then my friend goes “but (his name) said that he’s not going to prom”

i freak out because i didnt want him to feel pressured into going. however my friend was the only one out of our lil group that heard him say that so i couldnt be so sure. lets just say i was panicking so frkn much omg

so hours later he responds thru fb eventually saying that he meant only for a dance. he says why he asked me and that hes liked me since the beginning of the year. tbh this part of the isnt so much important lol. anyway his reply was so cute. it also seems like he never said he wasnt going cuz he put “See you at prom”

his reply tho got me in tears because he said that the reason why he didnt ask me out at all was because he broke up with his last gf cuz he was too preoccupied with college preparation. he didnt want to hurt me. when i read this i cried several times omg.

idk how im gonna face him when prom comes tbh im very antisocial

#ily anon #how would you feel if a friend suddenly confesses #i was so flustered #aritalks #anon #ask

[moonprincessvhstapes]

word vomit -read if you please i guess

I hate being surrounded by people who probably think I’m a nuisance and can’t do anything right. I think one of the worst things for my self confidence has been becoming a drum major, and yet it’s afforded me some things I couldn’t live without. I’ve had people be down my back from day one criticizing my every move, and it’s never been people “I shouldn’t care about” it’s always the people who I thought would support me most. I thought things would be different from last year with how horrible a singular person treated me but now things are bordering on worse. At least last year there was a “villain” somebody with clear cut malicious intent that could be blamed and you could go “yep it was them” but its different this year. People who were supposed to come out of the dark with me ended up pushing me farther in while it feels like they get to leave. I get nagged on for everything. everything. I don’t understand. I’m one of band directors favorites, or at least I tell myself that because he’s also one of my favorite people and has helped me through a lot so i think i just want to think that. I’m president of my music honor society, I get nagged about that all the time even though im doing better than last years president. and a drum major, who is inept at being a leader i suppose. the one my band director used to go to all the time. Now I feel like ive been pushed out of the frame and i do nothing! And i think a lot of its in my head but my fellow high leadership nag me so much about every little thing and its like!! I guess i can’t do anything. Im a child incapable of individual thought and agency. And the worst part is theyre my friends. They arent bad people, they take care of me. Which is why i can’t and probably never will say anything.It feels like a circle of debt. How can i be unhappy with them when they buy me snacks, or drive me places. They’re more like extensions of parents at this point because i just get nagged so much. They argue everything i do or say. Im always wrong. Ill always be wrong, when am i not wrong? Ill never know. I make them laugh so they keep me around. Im like a court jester who they drag around and when im not making them laugh at a time that suits them im a fucking dipshit! That’s all I am.

And ive been pushed out and away from the one person who made my four years of high school bearable. It’s dumb but im super sad I dont hang out with my band director like i used to. Theres always so many people in his office all the time and i can never get a moment, but when I do it always boosts me up and im my happiest ever when im just hanging out with him. I feel empty when I make other people laugh, but my comedic qualities never feel soul sucking around him. Im happy to make him laugh!! He’s the true mentor I never had growing up. My parents christened themselves as examples of what not to do, though they still inspire me and have positive qualities and traits ill pick up. But my bd (band director) was the person I saw and said “I want to be like him when I grow up” and now it feels like im not special to him anymore. Like its stupid, hes a teacher ill stop talking to in essentially a month when i graduate but the thought of not having him around is unbearable. My band room used to be home but its not very much like that anymore. My bd is the best ever because I feel like he believes in me. He always tells me I need more confidence because he says he knows i can do more and be more. That means the world to me. I just couldn’t hurt him or break his heart though by telling him that the reasons my confidence is an empty shell of what it was because im in band right now and the people surrounding me. I just cant do anything right. I dont mind criticism, it is necessary, I understand it is, but everything. Everything is argued. I cannot do anything right, no good is done by me. 

And my friends can be under the guise of “we just want to help/we care/etc.” all they want but every time. every time i say or do anything. im never right. its grating and draining. theyre grating and draining. I bet if they saw this right now theyd just correct my grammar and disregard everything else, despite my writing this fervently with hot tears, because thats pretty symbolic of how things are for me right now. I think im not as effective of a leader as i used to be anymore either because theyve pushed me out of my spot. Not literally or even in the context of my band/clubs leadership. Like mentally and emotionally. Like i dont do things like i used to because im so used to being wrong or argued or something. I dont trust myself like i used to. WHich is why my bd always tells me to  be more confident but he doesnt know why im not. I cant do anything right. I dont want to hang around them anymore. 

They also make fun of me for my interests. theyre into cool and worldly shit like space and science but i like music. Music is the one thing im good at. Im of the best in our band and dammit i am fucking better then them at music but they still argue me on my music. i tried to give a presentation in english class about music in poetry one day and my one friend tried interjecting with music shit that they thought they knew but i ended up correcting them back DURING my presentation because i was talking to inexperienced people and i didnt want to spread misinformation. And yet they didnt interrupt anybody elses presentation. And like I cant like my anime or my art stuff without it being written off as stupid all the time. Like i use the term weaboo/weeb all the time and it never really bothers me except from them because anytime at all i mention something about anime/manga its immediately “Lol weeb” so i just dont talk about a very big thing that makes me happy. But they never shut up about space or science, and i listen because its noble, its cool to be into space and science, but the arts are just wholly less important i guess. I just live my life around them written off, useless. They “take care of me” so i dont talk back but if they knew how i really felt which theyll never understand, theyd know im just floating along. Its their world and i live in it i guess. I can feel them peeling away from me and just being friends with each other, and im not even mad about it. I hope it happens, theyre probably better for each other than they are with me at all and i hope i find people in college who will listen to me. 

i know its unfair to blame them for not understanding when i also say im not going to tell them anything, but theyve set a precedent in the past for not listening, its not like i havent tried. I just think things have run their course. 

I love music, my bd is the main reason i want to be a music teacher like him, the kids i teach at the middle school are also reasons i want to teach music. I just want to leave school already and then maybe i can start rebuilding myself into what i used to be. Just a humorous person who loves music. 

#aritalk #i wanna cry #but its like theres nary a soul to go to

[arionawrites]

read a wonderful heartstopper one shot and had some thoughts, looked back to read what i wrote before saving the bookmark, and decided i wanted to share these thoughts outside of ao3.

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[Image ID: a screenshot of the website Archive of our Own. At the top, it reads “Bookmarked by ‘misc bookmark fuckery (thompsborn)’” with the calendar date to the right, reading “17 Dec 2023.” There is a note added to the bookmark, which reads “this is so sweet and so heartwarming yet incredibly and beautifully thought provoking at the same time. the butterfly effect is so real and wild to think about because a teacher puts two students together without a thought and nearly a decade later those students are taking a huge step into their futures with one another all because of something as simple as a seating chart. love is formed in accidents and happenstance and it grows in the intentions that follow and to not only recognize that, but to then take that recognition to look around the room and think of other differences that can be made from a simple starter action? that is becoming aware of our impact on the world. miniscule, sure, but certainly always there. we leave a mark wherever we go. i slowed down when the light turned yellow instead of trying to make it before it turned red and maybe that stopped a car accident from happening. i gathered the shopping carts scattered all about the parking lot and put them in the cart return because i had the time and wanted to do something kind for workers who are already underpaid and mistreated, maybe that saved an employee from having to gather those very same carts out in the rain for the 10th time that day and that little bit of extra time for them to stay inside and warm stopped them from getting a cold. when i turn left, something different happens than what would have had i turned right. when i change my words on a second thought, the day proceeds differently than it would have if i had said what i originally intended. we make a mark on the world and the flowing of time and to approach that with tenderness and good intentions is to be a human protecting the timeline of humanity as a whole, even if in the most miniature of ways.” Below that are four buttons side-by-side, reading from left to right “Edit,” “Delete,” “Add to Collection,” and “Share” /. End ID)

#heartstopper #aritalks #narlie #they have another ship name uhhh #nelspring #i don’t know how else to tag this lol i guess that’s it #also even if you don’t care about heartstopper or even fanfics in general i highly recommend that one shot #it’s not long yet it still hold a lot of warm meaning and makes me very happy

[noturordinarybigirl]

The juniors only have one braincell and

Lan Shizui has it

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Los Juniors solo tienen una neurona y lo tiene Lan Shizui

#the juniors #lan shizui #jin ling #lan jingyi #ouyang zizhen #AriTalks #mdzs #the untamed #mo dao zu shi

[3-million-subscriber-yter]

Kevins cursed screenshots from his new video part 1

#aritalks #callmekevin #call me kevin #cmk #he okay??

[somebodywithawifi]

Happy 4/20 to mad mike and mad mike only

#aritalks #mad mike #crankgameplays

[thompsborn]

ok whaddup im ignoring all of my educational responsibilities for the sake of my sanity and also i’m pulling an all nighter to watch the friends reunion at midnight which means i’m not sober and i’m writing a lot fellas

tpc update finally because i have just a tiny bit more to write and i’m gonna be awake all night and that’s the first thing i’m working on is tpc !!

also rewatching the fresh prince reunion at least once while waiting for the friends reunion because i’m apparently gonna cry about ten thousand gallons worth of tears tonight whoop

#aritalks #tw: mentions lack of sobriety #im just a tiny bit high #not enough to fall asleep but enough that i am Chill #life is a Vibe right now

[moved-account1]

Sorry for not posting last week, I was really busy and didn't have the time but my next are related post will probably be midway through this week

#aritalks

[idontfangirl-ifanwomen]

I just got home from work and I didn't know my cat was in my room so I went inside and turned the light on to grab somenthing and

He gave me the most resentful stare

I am so so sorry

#i cant believe this #i could feel his hatred towards me omg #i am so so sorry sweet boi #personal #aritalks #cats #caturday