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murobrown · 3 years
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#it's 2:AM I'm stressed as fuck from every single thing that happened and will ever happen#let me just vomit my thoughts so that I stop thinking about bad things#and to just keep myself entertained...I feel like I watched whole youtube in past hour#i love all animals but cuckoos can fuck off...I hate them#it's messing with me that we all have different voices...how? are there people that have the same voice? what is my voice?#i really miss having math because I feel like I'm just getting more and more stupid with each year...my brain needs exercise#i used to be such a good student at high school#i knew every capital in Africa#i was the best in philosophy#and psychology#now all I can do is swedish on a level of a toddler...all that in 5 years#i feel like I'm failing at life#my brother is 20 today...and I still feel like he's 15#recently I just can't stop thinking how stupid US are and how they influence every single fart in the world#i think world would be a better place without US ...I can only wish that Vikings would never land there#also isn't crazy that in the past people just didn't know about other parts of the world#history always messes me up it's crazy...like it all happened it doesn't seem real#it's always the stuff you hear and read about but never really realize it happened#another thing that makes my brain overheat is when I realize that the whole world is happening right at this second#as I'm typing this there is someone dying or giving birth or having breakfast or petting a dog#you are alive right at this second as me and I think it's nice to be alive together :))#also I keep thinking...are bonsais happy? or are they suffering? is it normal?#aren't they like those poor messed up dogs that are suffer because of years of breeding?#also few days ago I learned that the water we use here for flushing the toilet is normal drink water and it makes me sick#it's such a waste!!#it's because it could be dangerous for kids that would decide to drink it...#kids are fucking stupid and I'm saying this as someone who used to eat play dough and soap bars#always when I'm up this late I think about cars driving at this time and think about people in them and their stories#i don't like night...I never did... it's really scary and it feels like a different world when everything changes to evil#when I was kid I was so scared of sleeping...like I'd it getting darker outside and go into panic mode
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yoongsisbae · 3 years
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Get to know me!
Thank you for the tag @smasmashin you’re cute, after reading your answers I think I love you more now 💕
when is your birthday? I'm a libra and think fall is the best season, to give you an idea of when I was birthed.
what is your favorite color? blackpink (black and pink really is tho)
what’s your lucky number? I think anything 6 figures and above would be pretty lucky
do you have any pets? I have kitties. I am a cat mom.
how tall are you? 5'6" or 171 cm
how many pairs of shoes do you own? I went through a period where I needed all the wacky alt shoes influencers wore, so I have about 30 pairs of overpriced heels and boots I cannot part with, and now I love slides because ✨ comfort ✨ so around 10 pairs of sandals and sneakers.
favorite song? How dare you make me choose just one. I guess at the moment Patrick Watson - Je Te Laisserai Des Mots. Of all time? Probably Love in the Ice by TVXQ, but it has to be the live version.
favorite movie? I love Inception too! I've watched it way too many times. And Cruel Intentions. And Requiem for a Dream. Sexy mindfucks are my thing.
what would be your ideal partner? Someone who can make me laugh all the time, someone who is smarter than me, who can beat me in an argument (a panty dropper), likes to explore, artistic or who appreciates art so I can drag them to museums, dominant, why do I feel like I am describing Kim Namjoon.....BTS really be the standard huh.
do you want children? nah
have you gotten in trouble with the law? don't ever have car sex, police will somehow find your car every. single. time. 😭😭😭😭
what color socks are you wearing? I'm not wearing any socks, but if I was they would be black.
bath or shower? bubble bath 🛁
favorite type of music? I like anything between rock and classical 😌 as long as it's not country 🤮
how many pillows do you sleep with? 6 not an exaggeration
which position do you sleep in? on my side clinging to aforementioned 6 pillows
what don’t you like when you’re sleeping? I don't like pants. I need my legs bare.
what do you have for breakfast? coffee with a side of coffee
have you ever tried archery? back in grade school. I'm aight. I'm no katniss, we might starve to death if I have to actually shoot something.
favorite fruit? banana, cucumber, eggplant....actually it's mango.
favorite swear word? Fuck (n.) ex: you stupid dumb fuck; you fuck; you fucking fuck.
do you have any scars? I have cuts on my legs because I'm clumsy and trip and bump into everything.
are you a good liar? Hmm maybe 😏
what’s your personality type? INFP - the mediator
what’s your favorite type of girl? me thinking, there are different types? I thought we were all just type awesome.
left or right handed? left handed
favorite food? dumplings
are you clean or messy? messy, but I clean a lot, why is it always so messy 😭😭
favorite foreign food? thai too! or korean
how long does it take for you to get ready? an hour unless it's for work then 5 minutes
most used phrase? "you're annoying/I’m annoyed” also “I love you” 😅😅
are you a good singer? nah I wish, I’ll leave the singing to BTS.
do you sing to yourself? yes, mostly in the car with the music blaring to drown out my off key notes
biggest fear? dying alone (dark turn there)
do you like long or short hair? long hair, but I am always tempted to chop it off.
are you into gossips? is it about me? no? then no.
extrovert or introvert? introvert
favorite school subject? in grade school, writing (shocker). In university, philosophy, mainly because philosophy professors come from a different planet I swear.
what makes you nervous? phone calls, why can't I just text my doctor? 🥲
who was your first real crush? the most popular boy in 6th grade who I thought was the cutest boy I've ever seen even if he did have a big ass head, and if I can flex for my shy introverted kid self for a moment, he did not like me at all until I talked to him alone and turned on my charm and he had to be dragged away by the popular girls because I was making him laugh too much and they were definitely jealous he was paying attention to the shy quiet girl. In the end I was rejected, but that boy had a brief crisis for enjoying my company so much so I wasn’t even upset about it 🥲
how many piercings do you have? how fast can you run? I mean I did a 5k like 4 years ago, and I had a yellow number so I wasn't complete shit. I have 4 piercings.
what makes you angry? The news. God I miss Colbert and Jon Stewart, they made the news at least bearable, laughing through the pain was the only way.
do you like your own name? I mean, I didn't get to choose it.
what are your weaknesses? so you can use them against me? No thank you. One of my weaknesses might be extreme paranoia.
what are your strengths? I am quick to fix problems under pressure, while people are freaking out, I already figured out a solution, the hardest part is to get them to stop freaking out 😅😅.
what is the color of your bedspread? White
color of your room? Off white
I tag: @inkofyoongi @birchandspruce @aliceoracleollormusic @kiwilogical @joonie-tunes @bangtan-army @aviwasabi21 @gukieater 💜💜💜
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i read through all the 'get to know me uncomfortably well' questions and honestly i couldn't pick because i'd love your answers to any of them so idk just answer the ones you feel like answering? is that allowed in these ask games? idk i'm making it allowed (also have a great day!) xx
Hi!!!!!! Oh my god you’re blessing my night with this message because let’s say... I haven't had the best day today, and I’m sure that’s allowed in these ask things, i mean are there even rules? I do’t know how many i’ll be able to answer but I’m going all in so let’s go
2. How old are you? 19 such an ugly age let me tell you
4. What is your zodiac sign? taurus and i’m not really into astrology and stuff so i don’t know if i can relate to my sign or not
5. What is your favorite color? i really like earthy tones, and i’ve always loved dark colors but i’m trying to broaden my horizons in terms of colors, unsuccessfully this far
6. What's your lucky number? i’m not sure if it brings me luck but i’ve always loved the number 5, maybe bc it’s my birthday, i think it’s really nice overall
7. Do you have any pets? yes!! i have 2 cats, i love them so much even though they’re not the friendliest cats in the world you know. I used to have fish but they kept dying not matter how hard i tried! It makes me a little sad but in the end it was just too much work and if i wasn’t able to take care of them properly i’d rather have no fish honestly
8. Where are you from? i don’t like to say these things but i think it’s pretty obvious if you pay a little attention to what i post every once in a while
9. How tall are you?i’m 1.64 or so, which is like… 5.3-5.4??? I’d like to be a little taller tho
11. How many pairs of shoes do you own? I don’t own many, this year i bought some winter shoes but i just realised all my summer ones are either a little too used or i just don’t like their style anymore so yeah i should do some shopping (if only i had time to do that hah!)
12. What was your last dream about? i don’t remember very well but i think i saw my economics teacher riding a bike with no pants after i’d been fined by the police for having a water balloon war in the middle of the street, I wasn’t happy about that. I’ve had many dreams i was able to remember these last days, but they were more like nightmares i’d say, many of them about being kidnaped, other studies-related (i failed my math test again, i had to retake my college-access test… just terrible), and other were with people i actually know, which wasn’t the best thing ever honestly
15. Favorite song? Plant life by owl city, i’m going to paste the answer i wrote to explain why it’s my favorite (Plant Life by Owl City, that song just describes my soul at a spiritual level, like I could choose 1564 other songs by Owl City that describe me as well but this one is the one that I can relate to when i’m going through the worst times, but also gives me the hope that things will get better idk. And it’s funny because I still loved it before I had the level of English to understand the lyrics, and then I found out what they meant and i was like “woah this actually speaks to me in a way i can’t explain” it was a really weird feeling idk, that song is just me)
16. Favorite movie? billy elliot, actually it’s been a really long time since i last saw it. I remember i watched it like 7 times in a row in one week when i first saw it, i just loved it so much
17. Who would be your ideal partner? Just… someone that i’m 100% comfortable with, which should be a given, but apparently that isn’t that easy to find. Idk i’ve been thinking a lot about this lately basically because some of my coming decisions are going to be based on who i want as a partner, obviously not in a serious-for-life way, but in a way that i deserve right now. I’d like to have someone that doesn’t make me feel inadequate like almost everyone does, that doesn’t make me feel like a temporary asset in their life until they get want they want for me and just don’t care anymore. I don’t know, recent experiences have made me realise I need to figure out what I want and fight for it, not settle for someone just because it’s convenient, or because i don’t want to be alone... because in the end, if someone is making you feel like shit for being who you are and it’s acting like you are not important, even though they’re willing to be with you (even if it’s just for the physical part) that clearly makes you feel even more lonely
18. Do you want children? I’d say my #1 fear in life is getting accidentally pregnant (i know that shouldn’t worry me that much if i use protection and stuff), i meant a good reason i’m so wary of having sex is because i’d go crazy just considering the possibility that the condom failed or something. I think this answers the question, i really don’t want children, idk if i’d be able to take care of a kid, and above all, i don’t want to. Every time i see a kid in the street or in the public transport i pray he/she doesn’t interact with me because i just find it so so so difficult to be nice to them, basically because i don’t know how . Then i also look at their parents, their tired look, and don’t get me wrong, I’m sure they love their kids and all but I don’t think everyone can find happiness in having kids, and I don’t think I’m one of those people that won’t feel complete until they have kids or stuff. Furthermore, I’m not willing to sacrifice my body and to suffer the pain of giving birth, that doesn’t even cross my mind. So if I consider the possibility in the future i think I’d adopt.
20. Are you religious? I already answered this so I’ll just paste it I’m sorry this is so lazy (i was raised catholic and as a child i was really really devote, i truly believed in god. But you know, as years go by, then you find out you don’t agree with a lot of things the Church preaches (being in a catholic school doesn’t help, i will never forget the day i heard a priest telling literal 7-year-old girls that their only duty in life was to have children). My environment was really really conservative and I was lucky to somehow realise how fucking wrong some of the stuff they were teaching us was, sadly, i still see a lot of kids in my school being brainwashed… it’s crazy to see the way some families think. Anyways, that contributed to me getting distanced from everything religious-related. Now i could say i’m somewhere between agnostic and non-practicing. I still pray every once in a while but i’m not sure if i truly believe it or it’s just out of custom, i just feel too hopeless and detached from everything to believe there’s something greater than us… this question is too hard!)
24. Baths or showers? I used to hate taking showers just because I didn’t have the strength to go through all the process of taking a shower but I’ve been trying to fix this mainly because 1) Personal Hygiene and stuff 2) Even though i don’t have the willpower to do it, i always try to think about how nice it feels to be clean after a shower, or how relaxed you are (even if it’s for a short period of time) after taking a bath. So yeah I don’t like either of them but they’re obviously necessary
26. Have you ever been famous? I haven’t been famous but I’ve been mistaken for a famous people more than once. The first time i was very young and a man asked me if i was that girl (idk who) that was on tv and I said no, and the other was more recent, last year, when someone mistook me for a youtuber
28. What type of music do you like? I love instrumental music, specially orchestral but i also adore celtic themes. And i hate to admit it but i love electro pop, the owl city - type, even though many people (aka my dad) may think it’s not the Best Quality, but i mean who cares at least I enjoy it
33. What do you typically have for breakfast? I’m a mess so most of the time I have a coffee so I don’t die of tiredness throughout the day and if i have time i eat some fruit and cookies, not a lot honestly, which isn’t the most healthy thing to do but hey idc
34. Have you ever fired a gun? No. I really, really hate guns.
37. Favorite swear word? I never swear in public, just when I’m alone, I don’t think I can choose any word!
38. What's the longest you've ever gone without sleep? Maybe 24 hours, the thing is that i sleep very, very little, but i always end up sleeping anyway
41. Are you a good liar? Even when I’m actually telling the truth there are people who don’t believe me so yeah hah not really
42. Are you a good judge of character? i’m really good at getting the vibes of people, sometimes i think i’m just overreading everything but a high percentage of the time i end up being right, so yeah not only regarding people but also with other aspects of my life… i like to trust my gut. However, i don’t always say it bc i’m afraid i might be wrong, but when my suspicions are proven, I’m like yeah i was right how weird hahahahhhhhhhhh, i amaze myself in this aspect honestly
46. What is your personality type? i think i’m intj, but i remember retaking the test a few months later and getting another result but yeah i can relate to the architect type, introvert, cautelous, focused on analysing rather than acting blah blah all that stuff (i love this stuff)
49. Are you an innie or an outie? Innie 4 life, because I’ve tried to force myself to be more outie and let me tell you that didn’t go well
50. Left or right handed? left!!!
51. Are you scared of spiders? I’m really scared of them but i also cry every time i kill one bc i feel sorry for her (but it’s either my life or hers i’m sorry) although most of the time when i see i spider i face my fear and i put in in a box or something to release it outside
52. Favorite food? i’d eat ice cream every day of my life for every meal all the time just give me all the ice cream
58. Do you have much of an ego? My ego is so tiny sometimes i forget it exists and let people step on it like it’s nothing
61. Do you sing to yourself? I perform to myself, i love singing alone in my room. I used to care about my neighbour hearing me but you only live once right
62. Are you a good singer? i wouldn't say i’m a bad singer, nor a good one bc the problem is that my voice is not very strong, so it’s very hard to hear me. But yeah, i’ve been complimented for my singing in some occasions, and i really enjoy doing it on my own (i still don’y know how i was able to sing in public the only time i have done it)
63. Biggest Fear? that i’ll keep missing stuff due to my anxiety, oh that and having unwanted kids obviously
64. Are you a gossip? it’s always interesting to hear stuff and be aware of what happens around you but i‘ve always said that things would be better if everyone just… minded their own business a little bit more, you can’t get mad at someone if they don’t want to tell you something, it’s their life and they don’t owe you all the explanations after all
66. Do you like long or short hair? i have really long hair and i’d love it if it wasn’t so so so hard to maintain… i’m pretty tired of it honestly and i know i said i’d be cutting and donating it this year but… it’s such a part of my identity (which is so silly but it’s true, i’m introduced to some people as “the girl with really long hair”) and… i don’t know i think i’ve enough changes this year, so i’ll keep it for a little longer
70. Have you ever been scuba diving? i’m so scared of the sea i think i’d die
71. What makes you nervous? sadly, even the most insignificant stuff makes me nervous, and apparently, ignoring them doesn’t mae them disapear! so yeah i’m basically suffering at all times due to stupid stuff, i’ve just learned to ignore it enough so it doesn’t interfere with the rest of my life (most of the time it works but it’s mentally draining now that i think about it)
77. Have you ever drank underage? I’m one of those people that can say that never drank alcohol until it was legal for me to do it, I didn’t do it even when my mom offered me something at family gatherings… yeah i think that’s the reason i drink so much now
80. How many piercings do you have? I don’t like piercings for myself (i obviously don’t have a problem with other people having them) but i just think it’s an unnecessary way of mutilating yourself (i hate needles)
86. What are you allergic to? Ironically, I’m allergic to cats, even though i have 2. It comes and goes, and it’s not serious, i sneeze a lot, my eyes itch a little sometimes, but i’m willing to pay that price for my cats honestly
87. Do you keep a journal? I do, but it’s been months since i last wrote mainly because i always feel like shit after writing, so now i can’t bring myself to do it, that’s why i post so much about my personal life in here, because i’m not able to journal but i also don’t want to forget about what happens in my life
90. What makes you angry? Anger is a weird concept for me. I get angry very often, but I’m angry in general, not at anyone in particular, I just find myself unable to get mad at someone, the anger instantaneously turns into sadness, so I don’t know what’s worse. If I’m being mean to someone (most of the time my parents are the victims) it’s not because of them, I’m just angry for no reason and I just can’t keep being nice.
Hey congratualtions if you made it till the end, i was really bored so i answered a lot. Thanks for the message again 🐱🐱🐱🌳🌳🌳
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