#as well as replying to people idk

[erabu-san]

Guess what~? A leak said Cyno is getting a Second Story quest 😍😍

THE KING IS BACK✨✨✨

Bahahfhzha there is you and another anon who send me ask abt the leak !!

Yess !! I am excited to see my Sumeru cast again waaah I miss them !! 😭 glad to know we are going to know more about Cyno's lore ! I am so curious about this Sethos, and how important he might be in Cyno's story !

#genshin leaks #genshin leak #i hope people who didn't wish to see leak block the tag kskdkd #reply #but I always expect nothing so I won't be disappointed #i want to know morr abt his curse or the spirit he possess or know more abt his origin idk #but !!! yeah i prefer to not expect nothing and just be surprised #we are well fed

[derpinette]

when i exchange a message whether i receive or send one i have to immediately shut off my device & walk some laps for a few minutes to shake off the adrenaline rush

#i try to forget that ever happened so i can relax because otherwise i get heart palpitations & headrush my uterus drops ETC #so i have to stay off of whatever site i just used for like an hour but now i have messages sent+received on every app #i can only escape to yourube & it sucks #also even anonymously i exit out of the thread/tab & ignore that tab for as long as it takes me to forget #& then i check back on the replies hours later or days even despite not ever posting bait i just get nervous #( but not always... خلّي أيامك أحلى ) #currently hamster walking everywhere in my house & it took me a day to reply back ( was too busy agonizing ) #could have been a month like last time. or year like the other two times before. IDK why i even bothered #WHEW #that one screencap i already posted before with the courage the cowardly dog picrel Shockingly not posted by me #but i might as well have i do the exact same thing & when people are nice to me i ride that high for a week if not more #the high i got from crushing it at scribbl with randoms in 2020 i rode for like two years & then the *** livestream in 2022 #i am still riding today & ALWAYS WILL best days of my internet life for Serious look forwards to it annually cured me completely #from suicidal ideation. THANK YOU WOMEN. ^_^

[fisheito]

hey kids! time to explain!

#FISHEITO TRIVIA TIME!!! WOWEE!!!! #i started fisheito as a side blog under an older account #an account that accumulated numerous past fandoms and followings #i intended to keep eito as a true sideblog. a separate tiny island to post my art and just. keep my distance #unfortunately... there were too many nuca opinions i wanted to reply to (positive) from the ppl interacting with my art #every time i wanted to join the convo... i held back. bc i didn't want to associate fisheito with my defunct old tumblr #i think requiodile going off about hot slit summer was the breaking point #i could no longer keep my silence. #THESE PEOPLE UNDERSTAND ME. THEY UNDERSTAND MY NEEDS. I MUST ENGAGE WITH THEM MORE PERSONALLY!!! #which pushed me to create an entirely new main account (fishnineo) and transfer ownership of fisheito to it #because. eight. nine. sequential. it came after the eito #so i could freely reply to nuca stuff with a blank slate #you'll see responses from fishnineo/fisheito interchangeably bc tumblr changes the blog source depending where i respond from #idk. i think if i respond from the dashboard it's nineo. and if i respond from my activity page it's eito #it doesn't matter which account u @. i'll see activity for both when i log in #i keep the main (fishnineo) blank in case i ever need it for non-nuca purposes #because as we know too well by now... changing mains is a pain

[mari-lair]

some of you are too comfortable on Anon so I am disabling it from my asks for now, chill.

#i love asks truly i do! I adore when people show interest in aus or arts or analysis or canon BUT #don't vent on my inbox?? #or ask things that will put me on fire when you KNOW I can't reply privately to Anons?? #or give me 'reasons why i shouldn't like' someting I explicitly love? #ugh #...honestly idk if i am just anxious from a long day and misinterpreting some of these cause one was *explicitly* antagonistic #and another gave me twitter flashbacks #but i am just deleting them i am too old to argue with what might as well be a kid #i'll bring anon back tho is just for now i usually love anons #i got a lot of old ones i haven't replied to yet anyways so i shall stop procrastinating on that

[rithmeres]

genuinely these panels are going to make me ugly cry

#i'm not back for real yet i think i want to stay away longer. i'm just here to put more things in the queue and answer messages #i really enjoyed trimax vol 4 idk something about it was less miserable than 1-3 #might have been the first volume that i wasn't grimacing the entire time i read it. or maybe i'm just desensitized now. #unironically this prayer is soooo beautiful to me. give us this day our daily bread. not bread for the week not bread for a year #just enough for today. #lately when i've been praying it just looks like #please for the love of god please please please please please PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPL #things are not looking good for the community house.. lots bureaucracy with the city. and the church that funded us is falling apart #i don't know what i'm going to do if we get shut down it's the one thing in my life that's worth anything #all those kids... where are they going to go. who is going to help them. where is the neighborhood going to get their food. #in two days it will be the anniversary of [REDACTED] and i am so so so scared #just sat in my room today and fruitlessly scrolled thru jobs im not qualified for & tried not to think about thinking about killing myself #i don't WANT to kill myself i don't want to think about it i hate thinking about killing myself i will never ever kill myself or even try #but there is a demon or perhaps a ghost or evil wizard that tells me there's an easy way everything can go away. and it's A STUPID. BITCH. #please do not reply to this post i know you all mean well but i just don't think i can handle it. #talking about it i mean. and hearing people say nice but empty things. #i just wish i had someone to sit next to me. #personal #i don't want to go to church tomorrow :( it all feels so fake and i do not ever feel fed.

[hood-ex]

🐯 you were probably the first dick blog I ever followed and I still think of you as a huge dick blog

Valid, interacting with bigger blogs can be nerve-wracking. I kinda just shoot my shot with them like:

#there are only some people in fandom i know of that i might be a bit intimidated to talk to #well tumblr fandom #i'm not as familiar with the people on twitter or reddit so talking to some of those people might be more intimidating #although the people on twitter i've reached out to before were nice so idk i just try to be nice to them alskdja and usually it's fine #ask game #replies

[mattodore]

okay so because previous anons asked about sex, I wanna ask about aftercare, how they act after sex? oh and i’m curious how their sex life change after being together for a while

xoxo <3

their aftercare isn't always aftercare-101, if i'm honest. theo is very bad at it and doesn't really... ever... do that for matthias. and matthias may be very good at giving aftercare but theo is incredibly resistant to it. i mentioned earlier that theo really gets off on praise, but... he also flinches away from it. he's so twisted up about so much of what he wants and he's really, uh... well. he makes it really hard to get close to him and offer comfort despite how much he desires it. matthias can't say certain things without scaring theo off (and i mean, like, theo will quite literally run away), so he has to talk around what he wants to say and what theo needs to hear to prevent theo from bolting before he can bring him down.

matthias takes a long time cleaning theo up and massaging his muscles after, and he'll hum or talk to himself in polish so theo knows he's still there touching him (but isn't stirred before he comes to himself on his own by english he can understand). when he's finished, he'll ask theo very simple yes or no questions that let matthias know how theo's feeling without outright asking how he's feeling. he also checks on theo throughout the day, but he has to be even more subtle there or theo starts to feel smothered. is your body okay? do you want me to get you dressed? does your head hurt? do you want me to read to you? he focuses on asking about the physical and what theo wants to do rather than theo’s emotions. matthias has learned that asking if theo's feeling okay after is a quick way to trigger a very, very negative response in theo. it's one of the reasons why i think matthias is constantly asking theo in the heat of sex how he's feeling, because that's when theo is so preoccupied by the physical aspect that the emotional effects leak out without him fighting to keep them in. it takes a few months for theo to get comfortable with the feelings he has after sex with him before matthias can really give him proper aftercare. that’s why the sex they have early on is never anything too crazy. matthias coaxes theo into a better place first.

​i also think it’s important to clarify that it’s not like they’re always having kinky sex. still, theo usually needs physical touch after vanilla sex as well. matthias himself always craves conversation afterwards, so he waits for theo to stir awake (because he often falls asleep after sex) or come back into his body fully to talk to him.

as for changes to their sex life after they’ve been together for awhile… i believe i've talked about this before, but their sexual dynamic turns on its head after a few years. theo starts to take control of the reins and gets more comfortable asking for and doing what he wants. with theo he just has a lot holding him back and it's only after he's grown as a person and worked past a majority of his intimacy issues that he can act on the desires he's been burying waaay down. there's a sort of brattiness that theo starts to have a lot of fun with during sex—a lot of pushing and prodding, withholding, insulting... matthias is having the time of his life lmao, like he loves being challenged and pushed around. matthias takes on a more submissive role during sex as they age, which is fun for him. plus it's kind of the dynamic they've always had outside of sex anyway. of course, there are never any set roles in their sexual life so i'm not saying that it's always like that, but theo enjoys telling matthias what to do and how to do it. they have a lot of fun with it.

#river dipping #asks #anonymous #oc extras #nsft #theodore doe #matthias evanoff #a burning house to live in #echthroi #finally done..... actually patting myself on the back for being able to answer all of these in a day and a half like #normally being asked anything abt my ocs takes me forever to get to bc i just take everything so seriously #......................................exhibit a: this reply jnjhkjfnghk #my ocs are just really complicated so i feel like i have to really expand upon each new bit of information #like theo is NOT ! well adjusted in the slightest #and while matthias can read people very easily it doesn't mean that there aren't times where he messes up #theo is very closed off and he will lash out at the slightest thing that spooks him #and he also... is not really experienced in having good sex yk? so he's so bad at aftercare which i guess is like. well. #good thing your partner is someone who's used to being left to his own devices after experiencing major physical and emotional stressors #matthias can usually take himself out of a scene just because of the nature of his past... #but i think theo does pick up on what matthias does for him after awhile and he tries incorporating it into 'aftercare' #but................. i don't think he really understands what all he should be saying and doing for a few years like not until he's #domming matthias more frequently and has taken the time to look at The Internet lmao jkfjnhkjn i imagine it shocks him a bit #matthias may be good at sex but he does have his blind spots and those normally involve himself… so he never told theo that what he does #for him should be reciprocated………… additionally matthias is very much a giver not a taker #like he doesn’t expect or even really want theo to ask how he’s feeling. but that doesn’t mean he doesn’t need that. #….have been rereading this for the last thirty minutes idk why this is what i’m like Yikes ! about responding to 😭 #whatever post ‼️ theo isn’t good at sex i’ve said it before who can be surprised he gives zero aftercare

[jakejeffreyperalta]

girls will literally be happy until their brain randomly convinces them that all their friends hate them because someone's text was a little TOO serious sounding which means they find you ugly and stupid and hate you with a burning passion

#how i love being a person who thinks all the time and has nothing to think except for thoughts #also there is literal crack in gracie abrams's voice wtf #i know you're a fault line. but i'll break too. #I SEE YOU EVERY NIGHT IN MY SLEEP ANTICIPATING EVERY BAD DREAM LIKE FALLING WITH A KNIFE YOU CUT DEEP YOU CUT DEEEEP #anyway i literally hate myself a lot right now and i think im so ugly and stupid and nobody really likes me #and my problems are generally smaller than other peoples' #like idk #its invalidating when you're complaining about something and someone's like 'well at least you dont...' or if im complaining about school #and someone's like at least you dont have ____ subject #like. ok. remind me never to say anything to you ever #its also so invalidating when you're trying to explain to someone how you are and they're like 'but you're literally happy' #i just end up feeling so stupid and idiotic #maybe because i am but. you know. like how do you even reply to someone saying that to you

[elvhendis]

Went to my therapist partially in hopes of getting an autism assessment but he was like eh and sent me home with an adhd questionnaire instead 😳 not something I'd seriously considered up until this point but uh maybe?

#he was like #you're giving the vibes #I actually don't know how experienced he is with autism though #i have a feeling that he thinks of autism more in the more outdated way idk #also not trying to fish for a diagnosis but I would feel so relieved if there was a reason for me feeling so out of place all the time #i told him I feel like I'm acting out a different personality in front of every person I meet and how I hate it #because people never get to know the real me and Idk how to turn it off #and he just replied: well to me that just seems like you're able to adjust really well to people! #well... you could see it that way... but it's not intentional and I hate it 😭 #personal

[fudge24-7]

Wondering if tumblr is really good for me

#fudge does a talky talk #idk im just thinking #i keep on going to reply sections (bad idea) #and find myself getting into arguments #but what im most concerned about is how #idk harsh i feel im becoming? #like i try my best to somewhat be polite even in repkies but I find myself failing #and i feel like the hostility in tumblr reply sections in general might be a part of that #idk i probably just need to stay away from replies #i geuss whats concerning as well is that i usually tried to avoid arguments in the past #it felt like a pointless waste of energy that wouldn't change the other oersons mind anyway and woukd juetclead to anger on both sides #maybe in some ways its better that I'm more open to the idea people won't always be closed minded but #idk if thats worth the amount of aggression that usually comes with using tumblr reoky sections #or if replying and argueing at all is really worth it #or maybe I'm just blaming tumblr for a me problem idk #because I'll admit deep down kindness is not my first instinct #it is unfortunately to insult and attack perceived threats #i try to manage that but i don't always succeed #maybe tumblr doesn't help but idk #I know I don't usually make posts like these but #i geuss i should in case this leads to me not using tumblr as much? idk if thats going to haooen honestly but I'm thinking #In case it does i felt i should post this so people would udnerstand whats going on #i geuss i don't exactly owe anyone that but #I also wanted to get this off my chest #the more i think about it i think this is more of a 'tumblr bringing out the worst in me' then 'tumblr making me act a way i usually wouldn #idk what haplened with the reoly sections though i really used to not do that #geuss I've been desperate for human interaction? and getting into arguments is easier then starting a freindly conversation with someone #and idk maybe I've been feeling frusterated and like I can't really express my feelings to the people around me #so I've also been craving being able to actually say I don't agree with something #vent post

[randomnameless]

So this may be an odd ask, but if you could pick a real-world culture to be the basis of a Fire emblem nation in a future game, which ones would they be?

Hmm...

Given what Fodlan did to Almyra...

I mean, we're on par with "Verdane was inspired by Persia" from Jugdral, and we're not in the early 1990s anymore, so I'm not really trusting IS with any "real world culture" anymore.

But for some sort of revenge bias - after Almyra and TS, well, Hyzante - I'd like to see IS, try to get designs and clues from the Middle East, but without the 1800s bias that ultimately created Almyra.

I know FE isn't like, an Assassin's Creed game so you can't explore "real world cultures" that much, but if they could just take inspiration for clothes and designs from one "real world" place without slapping obvious prejudices it'd be nice.

#anon #replies #i was thinking about the Golden Sun series recently #sure some villages and locations aren't well developed #but you could see the devs tried their best with the limitations of that time #iirc irl there's a real statue that was used as the model for the Ankol ruin puzzles #and you don't have that much 'those people are savages' claims because even the obviously african themed kibombo #is actually a culture with a very powerful spirit guardian who nets you the necronomicon #even if it's only nods here and there it's a welcome addition #but FE imo shines when it takes inspiration from clues and aesthetics from real life or not but more importantly #when it creates a real state/country which makes you think ah yes this is not any random country this is idk Crimea or Daien #Fodlan really dropped the ball here even if I still think Adrestia and Faerghus from the few things we see and find between the lines are #very different in mindset and governance #alas more differences will have to be found in the 10k years of lore

[stealingyourbones]

Re: you are playing half-life

1) GOOD IT'S GREAT, needs a bigger fandom outside hlvrai. Also maybe look into Black Mesa- the fan made modern remake that is *absolutely beautiful,* one of the few games that would probably actually be worth $60, but is actually only $20, and is a faithful recreation with modern technology.

2) siren pups are called houndeyes! Headcrabs are probably p obvious, but also, the squid face dogs are bullsquids, and the three-armed aliens are vortigaunts!

3) pleas don't slander my boy Barney Calhoun like that he's just a security guard not a cop and in fact is canonically, actively anti-cop/anti-facist in HL2 please he doesn't deserve to have his game rejected like that PLEASE LOVE MY BOY-

Ok im sorry that's all I'm done I'm just passionate about these games I hope u enjoy them ok bye <3

!!! Oh bro you’re so good!! I absolutely LOVE people talking about things they’re passionate about and have a bunch of facts to share!!!!

I KNOW THE NAME OF THE HOUNDEYES NOW!!! Today is a good day :)

I shall play Blue Shift then fuck yeah!!! Was just about to start Half Life 2 so I’m glad I found that out beforehand and play everything in series! I’m absolutely gonna check out that fanmade game that sounds so cool!

As a kid I was pretty much fully isolated from video games as a whole and honestly it’s been a BLAST playing games that are spoiled or well known for many but completely unknown for me! I finished playing the Portal series a few weeks ago and MAN I now know why it is on such a high pedestal!! The games are wonderful and the characters are absolutely iconic. Currently going through well known earlyish PC games, the Doom games, Portal, Half-Life, and slowly chugging my way through chronologically so I can see how video gaming as a whole progressed and evolved! It’s so neat! It’s really hard trying to play a few games though, lots of games expect you to know a lot of stuff so I have to watch lots of videos to make sure I’m not forgetting a Super Important button that does a Super Important Game Mechanic. It’s so cool tho!!!! I’m having such a great time!!!!!!! Thanks for the ask my guy!! :D

#bones replies #if ANY of y’all have reccomendations for games PLEASE tell them to me!!! #y’all I didn’t realize games were so expensive it’s WILD but understandable for like super well crafted and long games but WOW!!! #is cool tho! #first game I ever played on PC was Manual Samuel to get a feel for controls… my biggest mistake #Half-Life #half life is such a blast and it’s funky and fun!!! #I’ve only accidentally broken the maps twice but both were fixable by reloading saves #the F6 key is a lifesaver dude #I’m so bad at games because I really don’t understand what I’m doing but I’m having so much fun!!!! #took me 37.6 hours to finish Half-Life on hard! google says it should take me 12 hours #but I’m getting better!!!! #tutorials that half life games give you beforehand are SO nice dude!!!! it’s really cool because I don’t know shit #I’m rambling but dudE #that fuckin god raspy ass bitch suitcase man with the green portals #idk who he is and I’ve made it my MISSION to not search up his name until I’ve fully completed the series bc- #people go INSANE when I describe him as the crusty dusty suitcase motherfucker and I want to keep myself in my Unknown State because- #I want the true comedy of whatever I’m saying to hit me then. #i don’t care WHAT that suitcase fuck is. he’s a lil bitch who owes Gordon rent money from sending him to stasis without closing his lease #I’m super excited about these funky vide of games if u can’t tell

[kxllerblond]

Happy Tuesday everyone, I will now be unloading unsolicited opinions about the RPC.

People take 'This is a hobby!!' way too far to the point you are not taking into account other real people also exist and are only thinking about yourself and it can come across as scummy and self-absorbed and a lot of people use the 'just a hobby!' to excuse this shitty behavior and an inability to communicate with other hobby enjoyers like adults.

No one should get mad at people for dropping threads or not being active, but it's also super shitty to just ghost people and go 'teehee just a hobby so you aren't allowed to be upset!'. Like, yeah, you have limited time and a real life but so does?? everyone else on here?? It's super not cool to just invalidate people who are upset their limited time is, in their view, being wasted.

Obviously, I'm not defending people that don't just unfollow or block and move on and who get passive aggro about it all. And I'm also not calling out the people that don't do much but are like PRESENT to some degree even if it's just ooc shitposting.

I mainly mean the people I see who refuse to do threads, to answer asks, to communicate when stuff is being dropped to some degree, to participate and be social in any capacity and then get kinda pissy when no one wants to send them shit anymore. Like you are entitled to exist and participate in this hobby as you see fit....but it is a social hobby. You HAVE to give to get and if people pin you as someone who only takes, they're going to stop giving. None of us have little meow meows that are so interesting that we can just expect people to frolic to them and gush about them and shower them with interaction without some sort of reciprocation.

And, frankly, I don't think there's room to complain when that happens. You can't have your cake and eat it too in this scenario. You can 'this is just a hobby!' your way through things how you like, but you also have to realize the consequences of that and you can't be upset when they come down on you and your blog.

#like I KNOW there are ppl here i am chill with who do not interact with me as often as before because i am a notorious thread dropper #and not everyone can do that short thread. drop. new thread. drop. manner of rapid rping #and thats FINE. i accept that consequence. #and there are ppl im chill with who i dont send memes to much anymore because they never answer them or never return the favor #doesnt mean im mad about it doesnt mean i fault them for it. ppl have lives. but that the consequence and it involves me redirecting my tim #and energy to send memes to ppl who DO engage in return etc #there's just been this sudden surge in like....entitlement ive noticed. and it's just sort of co-opd what used to be a message #directed at ppl that were being demanded to reply to things the same day etc like it was a legit /good/ message #now you cant even like unfollow someone without them being like ITS JUST A HOBBY HOW DARE YOU UNFOLLOW hostility because someone is choosin #to take their business elsewhere so to speak so they can have fun with this hOBBY. its so...weird ykno #we dont owe anyone anything but a lot of ppl forget the second half of that which is #yeah but other people dont owe us anything in turn either #cw long post #cw negativity #well i mean only if you see urself in this post i guess OOP. otherwise man idk #dont get pissed at ppl for not hobbying to ur speed or standards #but also dont be surprised to learn ppl are different and have different paces and shit and WILL move on #if theyre not getting enjoyment out of the pace you're hobbying at #ur not entitled to their attention just like they're not entitled to urs ykno

[mrpsychokiller]

i have an actual vicious petty anger for the "celsius vs fahrenheit discourse" (and general discourses for metric vs non metric system) cause it literally just boils down to people being unable to fit in their heads the idea that different people from different cultures will do things a different way, and the way they do it feels right and natural to them, and doesnt mean the one YOURE used to is the best one??? i literally feel like im going insane cause i dont know why thats even a thing people care to discuss

#like idk if im caring too much about something thats not supposed to be serious #but like yknow i joke with my american friends like ''americans will do anything but the metric system'' #or ''can you translate this for normal people please'' #i know its jokey #but then i keep seeing people making posts online rising ARGUMENTS to PROVE which one is the BETTER SYSTEM #and then people getting in fights with each other in replies #and i feel like im losing my mind like whats going on #its real weird and also gets weird once i have to start seeing white americans talking about how their systems are the ''best'' ones and #''non americans need to cope'' #which yknow. does not really rub well on me #but anyway ill probably have to delete this in five minutes once someone decides im being problematic #🧃

[theneighborhoodwatch]

MATPAT DROPPED ATHEORY ON GAME THEORY???? FOR SOME REASON????

cool! i will not be watching it <3

#anonymous #ask #i got a reply on my first post about matpat talking about how “well if we want him to make good theories we have to do (xyz)” #and i was like hmm. no i think you misunderstand. i do not want him to touch it at all actually. #but since we can't have that the next best thing is to just pretend he doesn't exist #although i definitely think clown and co. could benefit from some kinda #“hey if you're thinking about making a WH video maybe email us first” disclaimer. as like a General Statement #but idk shit about how that would work and i don't got any control over that. i'm just a fan who got lucky #also i would prefer that people messaging me about matpat doing something with WH does not become like. a regular thing #in the same vein as i do Not enjoy hearing about whenever welcome home is trending #sorry 2 be a hater

[wantbytaemin]

by the way i know i joke about being awful at replying but in all seriousness i really, actually, notoriously am and i Promise it doesn’t mean i don’t care like whenever i say i care about you i mean that so so deeply. it’s just my mind works in ways wherein time is relative and i forget so easily (not about people! but about having texts i need to reply to). like i promise you it’s not you if ive ever responded enthusiastically i still 100% mean it

#i KNOW it sounds bad to basically say ‘well that’s just how i am. deal with it’ but idk how to express it differently #promiseeee i care and also LOVE double triple quadruple texting it reminds me and then i reply !! i know it’s a hard thing to deal with #sometimes for some people and i wish it could be different like i have Tried. i’ll keep trying too but meantime. *bey voice* I CAREEEE