#asexual looking for love and love only.

[privateolives]

This is probably because I grew up watching 24/7 animal planet, but what finally made the allo/aplatonic thing click for me were the nature's of big cats.

Lions are powerful, regal creatures who are uniquely adapted to pack life. They need these connections to live a healthy life; A lonely lion is a miserable creature indeed.

Jaguars are solitary, beautiful creatures who live happily solitary. They prowl their lush world with self-sufficient majesty. A jaguar is not lonely without a pack. In fact, forcing jaguars to share space with others they do not enjoy is just as damaging as forcing a lion to live alone.

A lion may choose to head out on it's own for the most part, but in the end must return to the pack to thrive. A jaguar can choose to trust and enjoy the company of others, but they never feel the need to form a pack.

Is a jaguar selfish for this? A psychopath, a narcissist or any other such horrid assumptions? Is it a less moral creature than a lion, who seeks others like it to thrive?

Is a lion pathetic, or needy, or selfish for wanting community? For requiring contact with others like they require water? For their inherent need to string complicated webs of relationships that may seem silly or dramatic to others?

Of course not. These are ridiculous questions to even ask.

They are simply lions and jaguars.

In fact, is a jaguar that chooses to spend time with you not as magical as a lion's love? For a creature that needs no bond to thrive to still enjoy your presence enough to share it a time? Is a lion who can prowl the night alone not impressive in its strength and resilience? Is it not awe-inspiring in its ability to conquer a life it was never wired for and reign still?

Are they not both beautiful and awe-inspiring in their own ways, without being wrong?

Alloplatonics. Aplatonics. Are we not both special and beautiful in both our bonds and self-confident happiness equal, in each our ways? Is there not unique beauty in lifelong bonded packs and magical encounters that need no perpetuity to carry life forward?

Are we not but lions and jaguars? Neither wrong, neither selfish, but just different and beautiful creatures in each our ways?

That's how I've come to see it, anyway.

#lgbt #aspec #lgbtqa+ #asexual #aromantic #aroace #loveless #aplatonic #alloplatonic #animals #I woke up at like 3 in themmorning to write this so I apologise for weird wording #I'm not awake enough to go hunting for the videos but if you want to see more about the equal majesty and difference in cats bonding #I suggest looking up Kevin Richardson's work with lions and panthers #I love animals. I hope I didn’t come off as degrading to anyone by using them as comparison #I can assure you the association only carries the deepest respect from me. #anyway all the aro discourse floating about made me think of this issue again #and how explaining allo/a-platonic needs has been a difficult task in the past #you're all valid no matter your labels or shapes or spots or manes #remember that when an orientation you don't understand comes to the lgbtable your job isn't to test them #it's to make room

[alicornze7]

Have this drawing of a scene from @denny-artsss’s fanfic

There would have been another one but I can't bring myself to lineart it rn

Please don't ask questions...

#Don't look at me #Ribbun #fanfic fanart #tadc gangle #tadc jax #This particular scene is pretty detailed in it's description #I AM NOT INTO THIS STUFF #ERMM IM ACTUALLY ASEXUAL🤓👆 #Motivation went yeet #I blame the exams #They took away my artistic motivation:( #But rlly I was thinking of like this cozy/romantic bath thingy with rose petals and scented candles #Except the only other date is myself left alone with my thoughts #I love spending time with me #self care is important

[mintaikcorpse]

Me reading a fic where the person had an identidy realization that they were in he aroace spectrum and now they were figuring themselves out(I finally found something that understood me and a romance I could relate to after all these years)

#love loses! you're on the aroace spectrum and you dont fucking know what you are but you're definitely on the spectrum #but it's so hard to explain bcuz how do youve never had a real crush on someone but also have had platonic feelings for someone #and dont want to do the romance thing but also still want to have a queer platonic relationship and do romance things? #YOU DONT #IT DOESNT MAKE SENSE TO ME BUT I JUST KNOW #ESPECIALLY BECAUSE I CANT JUST GET CRUSHES ON PEOPLE IT TAKES YEARS I'VE ONLY HAD 1 CRUSH THROUGHOUT MY LIFE #AND I JUST WANTWD TO BE FRIENDS WITH HIM #I thought that was just me but the author was projecting and explained perfectly what i was going through #and ik i say “I cried” a lot when talking about something but i did actually cry #had to put my phone down bcuz it felt so nice to be understood #idk just venting and rambling lol #aroace #ace spectrum #gotta keep a journal on this bcuz i want to explain to people but it's so hard for even me to grasp #and i feel like they won't believe me anyways bcuz ive tried to himt st it but i just get weird looks #its annoying but it is what it is #aromantic #asexual #lgbt #queer #talking #rambling

[ghostradiodylan]

Can we just talk about Kaitlyn’s response to kissing Ryan for one second? (You know, not that we do that perverted het shit in this house /j)

Now if you’ve only ever made the correct choice kissed Dylan, you could be forgiven for thinking Kaitlyn is pretty into Ryan. She looks a little pouty about not being chosen here.

[Also oh my god she’s so tiny the beer bottle is huge in her little Barbie hand I want to squish her 😍]

This is right after the “shall we?” She doesn’t look unhappy… but she looks a little trepidatious. She does not look like she’s won the kissing Ryan Erzahler lottery.

Is it because Dylan’s giving her a real cunty side-eye? Hard to say.

[Look, they're besties and he'd literally die for her, but he's thinking about cutting a bitch right now.]

Pre-kiss. Does she look excited about this? She kinda looks dead inside to me.

[Why does she look like she’s thinking, did I leave the oven on?]

Immediately after…

Does… does she look pleased to you, my guy? She kinda looks like she just realized she doesn’t actually like men disappointed to me.

She kind of cringe smiles at this line. You would, right?

I just really want to know what kind of direction they gave Brenda here because my girl is NOT happy. There’s, like, a silent ‘ugh’ in this face! And we don’t know why! Is it because she’s worried about Dylan’s feelings? She didn’t seem that worried about him before the actual kiss. Is it because of the awkward silence that accompanied it? It’s not like she knows everyone would have cheered if he picked Dylan, only we know that.

Then she sits down and…

Well, guess that happened.

She looks significantly happier about Dylan kissing her supposed crush.

She could just be putting on a brave face for her friends, but Dylan can’t even see her yet and she’s already smiling.

And, of course, the game further affirms this because we don’t get the ‘disappointed’ chyron regarding Kaitlyn if Dylan is chosen instead.

So, I totally respect everyone’s right to ship them as a throuple, but when people say SMG should have just made them a canon throuple in the game I have to disagree, unless they were going to fundamentally change the characters and their reactions to each other in order to do it. (Other than Kaitlyn’s reactions here, writer/director Will Byles says Dylan is gay, not bisuxal, and we know he’s canonically pretty jealous.) And that’s not just my compulsory monogamy speaking, I actually think Nick/Abi/Emma would be a perfectly workable throuple and I’m surprised more people don’t write them that way.

But mainly I think Kaitlyn just… really isn’t that into Ryan. And I do wish we got more insight into her character on this topic and just in general. Is it because she knows Dylan likes him more than she does? Is it because she’s actually a lesbian suffering under comphet (or completely aro/ace and just not accepting it) and she had to tell Jacob something when he asked who she thought the hottest person at camp was, so she picked the brooding loner who never talks to anyone because that seemed safe? Is she secretly harboring feelings for Jacob and that’s why she’s so hard on her childhood friend about his relationship with Emma?? There’s just no way to know.

#the quarry #I love Kaitlyn very much but she is an enigma #is she a lesbian is she asexual is she in love with her oldest friend I DON’T KNOW #does she only have eyes for her beloved stick? #someone tell me the answers!!! #imagine if Ryan kisses her and she gives him this look and then he tells Laura ‘she has the hots for me’ lmfao #sir. no she does not #more proof Ryan is autistic and can’t interpret facial expressions #kaitlyn ka #ryan erzahler #dylan lenivy #bonfire trio #I love these three the most by a wide margin #bunny blathers #overly in depth analysis

[beans-in-your-socks]

writing and learning about Romeo and Juliet as an aro-spec person is so funny to me. like, "True love"? yeah nah fuck that. "love at first sight"? guess what? according to basic human psychology, impossible. i was saying to my English teacher how it was unrealistic for someone to fall in love with a person they'd met an hour prior and she went "ohhh, you say that now! but just you wait! it'll happen to you one day!" and me an my friend shared an all knowing aromantic look and i turned back to her and said "i wouldn't be so sure". like gurly pop be so fr

update: i wrote a parargraph long rant about the psychology of attraction in my romeo and juliet essay and how shakespear has created an unattainable unrealistic ideal love XD

lets so what my english teacher thinks abt that lol

edit: Update! i got the highest mark in the class LMAOOO

#for context #the whole concept of love at first sight is attributed to a rush of endorphines and adrenaline that you get when looking at someone #aesthetically or physically attractive #who you would be willing to purue a romantic relationship with #so there's technically no romantic attraction present #since you only know them and feel attracted to them based on their appearnace #just the possibility of it developing in the furture #so therefore #“love at first sight” isnt exactly possible #aro #aroace #arospec #aromantic #asexual #romeo and juliet #jwhbfljdbkjbdak

[madwormm]

aroallos and alloaces are valid and straight aspecs are valid and cis aspecs are valid and if you disagree then OUT!!!!!!!!! YOU ARE EXILED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#aromantic #asexual #aroace #I saw ONE aphobic post and my aroace rage IGNITED #I did NOT successfully avoid the horrible aphobia that ran rampant on this site several years ago only to see aphobia literal DAYS away fro #20 fucking 24 #invading the tags with positivity because I love to see it and everyone looking through them deserves love <33333333

[transgender-png]

elsa is an aroace queen and everyone insisting she's a lesbian can pry her from my cold dead hands

(pun not intended)

#aromantic #asexual #aroace #headcanon #elsa #queen elsa #im so sick of ppl saying shes #a lesbian #shes clearly aroace #look at the opening scene #frozen 2 #she was never into romance #or kissing #even at a very young age #and she never shows any interest #in ANYONE #throughout both movies #in fact #the only one we know she truly loves #is her sister anna #it was elsas love for her #that saved anna #“an act of true love will thaw a frozen heart” #and we saw #it doesnt have to be romantic love!!! #sorry lesbians #but shes with US #i will fight and die on this hill #for a million years

[ceo-of-the-pluto-defense-squad]

reblog if you hate love.

#not to sound dramatic but if an asexual even looks at this post i will commit a crime #this post is for aromantics only <2 #aromantic #aro #arospec #aro spectrum #aromantic spectrum #aroallo #aromantic meme #aromantic memes #loveless aro #lovequeer #fuck amatonormativity #love loses <3

[cynyxx]

aroace leo valdez

#thats it thats the post #my entire character arc was struggling emotionally with being the only one of the seven w/o a love interest #but i fell in love with calypso and base my self worth off of dating her now 🥺 #look at my character development 😁 #BULLSHIT #SAY IT TO MY FACE RICK #SAY IT TO MY FUCKING FACE #percy jackson #percy jackon and the olympians #heroes of olympus #trials of apollo #anti caleo #leo valdez #aroace leo #aromantic #asexual #aroace #for a fact he is aromantic #not like somewhere on the spectrum just 100% aro #also prob acespec but i can understand him just being aro

[icewindandboringhorror]

I still very loathe the Media Trope of ‘’cold genius man doesn’t feel emotions and never has relationships... UNTIL.. one random relatively bland Preddy Woman comes along and warps his entire personality and ability to think, his heart has grown and his seeming asexuality has evaporated, he is now Normal :)” or whatever like... AS a walking generic hermit archetype myself.. we would NOT act like that .... just let people be detached weirdos in peace, you cowards .. OR, don’t bother to write one in the first place if you find us too boring to exist realistically in our natural state lol.. pathetic 

#the only exception to this is its okay if he develops some pesudo-romantic psychologial fixation on one of his long suffering male sidekicks #or assistants or whatever (since this character acrhetype ALWAYS has some sort of like Straight Man Every Man helper to follow #him around and be an audience stand in. sometimes multiple like a whole team of assistants. sometimes just one etc.) #like a strange not-entirely-romance-but-mutualy-unhealthy-comedic-codependence w someone you worked w 25+ yrs COULD be in character. sure. #ASIDE from that one exception though..... just keep them aromantic and asexual.. why would someone who has been that way for their #entire fucking life suddenly be like ''well I've known this woman three weeks but she's really hot! whoops!'' #''guess I'm going to act completely out of character! sometimes booba so booby it fundametally alters the dna of me personality. you know ho #w it is'' .. like shut up.. explode #It's not that I project personally onto these characters (writers are bad at writing them and they're generally annoying as shit) BUT just #like... coming FROM the perspective OF a cold detached ''robot'' seeming hermit freak.. like textbook scholar wizard man locked #away in a tower somewhere type personality... You just watch shows sometimes and you can SEE that the writers are trying to write #the Character Archetype that is your actual realworld personality and you're just like 'we do NOT fucking act like that!!!' lol #you know ? like .. i don't actually care about the characters themselves but more just.. the principle of the thing. staying true to what #has been set up. You can't be like ''oh yeah this is your typical cold detached hermit weirdo with zero interest in human relationships for #the most part blah blah blah'' and then 5 minutes later be like ''WAIT GUYS!! LOOK! they're still NORMAL! look they love booba #too!!! haha hashtag Relatable!!'' .. what have you done to him.. you've massacred the archtype.. cowardly fool #Also I'm referencing them as male because this character archtetype is usually male but the same thing can apply for other gendered versions #of the archetype. it's ALWAYS annoying. no matter what it is lol. GOD AND IT'S even worse when they're supposed to be like hundreds or thous #ands of years old like.. some sort of supernatural being who's ''above it all'' because they've seen the world's cycles for so long #and blah blah and then it's like ''omg.. suddenly into romance.. for some reason all 900 years of my life nobody has ever been good #enough but YOU.. random ass person who I met 30 minutes ago and are completely average in every way or maybe you have like one #special power or are smart or something but apparently somehow I've lived 900 years without ever meeting a single other smart person #or whatever but WOW.. you... instant soulamtes.. I am no longer aromantic and asexual. I am also no longer smart.'' #at least if it's a human with a normal lifespan you can be like 'well they were only 30. maybe they genuinely did just have their first #sexul awakening' or something but.. you're telling me like.. 900 years??? 1000 years?? and NOW they're like 'whooa!!' lol #Which obviously all aroace people are different.. all people with autism or schizoid pd or any other mental illnesses that can sometimes #lend people towards that type of 'weird hermit' archetype are all different. plenty of these people WILL have relationships and sex and desi #re those things. but it's like.. if you are OBVIOUSLY setting out to write that one VERY specific archetype within the broader archetype #then GO ALL THE WAY!! you cant have someone be like HALF-detached partial-hemrit sometimes-maybe-genuis or whatever #or I guess you can but like. it should be that way from the beginning. it's the random sudden shift in personality thats jarring

[boomerang109]

happy aro awareness week

#just almost put some tags on a post where it probably wasn’t the right place #and so im making my own post instead #i don’t think im aro at this point in my life #but instead im just so grateful for the aro community for teaching me that it’s okay to love however i love #im 21 and ive never been in a relationship never kissed anyone #and there have been times where ive been real sad about that #but Valentine’s Day happened and I just. wasn’t worried about finding anyone or relationships or whatever #i was just happy to wear red and hearts and celebrate platonic love yknow? #and if romantic love finds me that’ll be epic and if it never does that’s okay I have incredible platonic love in my life #i just feel sad sometimes that people feel so trapped looking for a partner like it’s their only option #so thank you to aros for showing me that I can just be me no matter what that looks like #(and obviously aces cause as an asexual that’s obviously a big part of that journey. but it’s aro week so this is about the aros) #anyway I need to eat and do homework before class so ✌️

[tr1ppykay]

I hope you know that there’s always a place that you’ll be welcome, even if you’re thrown away from other places due to your identity.

You’re a bi genderfluid man, and anyone that tries to change that (other than you) or take the piss out of your identity can try to parry the crowd of bees I just guided towards them

hi thanks, this means a lot. logically i do know that there are queer spaces welcoming to me, its just that *finding* them is a complicated issue. i tend to socially isolate because of trauma- growing up, my ADHD symptoms were mocked by both my peers AND authority figures in my life- i was severely bullied by other kids for being weird, and my parents/teachers regularly treated me as an annoyance/burden/mistake. I default to assuming that everyone always wants me to leave because of this. so when i try to meet other queer people like me irl, and the handful of assholes decide to tell me I should leave because "women" who like men or "women" who decide to become men aren't welcome, it reinforces those thoughts and sours the whole experience. its equally a me-problem and a problem of how people like me are perceived in queer spaces. if had no trauma, I would be able to shrug the assholes off. but then again, if there were no exclusionary assholes, people with similar trauma to mine would be more welcome- and i don't think queer people should have to fully heal from trauma to feel safe in their own community.

my experiences with ableism, antimasculism, and SGA-superiority all come together to create the perfect cocktail that leads to most queer spaces excluding me. I think my anecdotes speak to this specific intersection between my identities as a neurodivergent bisexual transmasc.

#transmasc #transandrophobia #bisexual #biphobia #antimasculism #trip talks #ask #snowiewowee #sorry i kinda rambled here and in tags #but genuinely i would love if people reblogged this #ive coined the term 'sga-superiority' to be a more accurate term to describe this than biphobia/heterophobia #mostly because 1) i am not straight and many queer people who also aren't straight/mspec are equally affected by this #asexuals/aromantics esp come to mind #(not to say queer het ppl aren't affected but its not specific to them only) #2) other words are broad and don't specify the experience of being ostracized from queer spaces for looking 'straight passing' #i would love for the term to catch on. i think its valuable for discussing how this prevalent attitude affects many different identities

[kenzie-ann27]

charlie's comment on how mac's hatred of women later became a thing stemming from his sexuality and how both dennis and charlie need to do some self-reflection as to why they also hate women is really interesting to me, especially since I have come to the conclusion that charlie is probably asexual?

with dennis, it could definitely be a thing of either him being gay or he genuinely hates women and wants to turn them into skin luggage, but charlie hating women because he simply hates everyone as an asexual person would really be fantastic. we don't get that much representation as it is, so having just that insane pepe silvia white trash green man representing us would be welcomed with open arms, honestly.

#i am lowkey tired of the fanfic representation of ace characters where they only exist to define asexuality to the audience #then disappear or weirdly offer relationship advice as like the third wheel #like with mac charlie would not change at all as a character because this is really just how he is #plus i love the defense of people bringing up his obsession with the waitress #i also had a weird obsessive thing when i was in sixth grade where i just talked to this boy nonstop online for like two days i guess #as i look back on that super cringey moment now i recognize that i didn't really have feelings for him but i just was trying to do #what i thought i was supposed to do when i had what i perceived to be romantic feelings for another person #and i can see charlie doing the exact same thing where it's like he just doesn't understand how relationships or romance or sex works #because that's not who he is! he's just trying to overcompensate for his lack of any attraction to anyone! #anyway #charlie kelly #always sunny podcast

[worstloki]

New favourite genre it’s called Thor pining for his younger brother for like a full bunch of centuries only for him to confess and Loki to be standing there having no clue like what

#Loki: wait WHAT #Thor: I like you. I’ve liked you for a while. #Loki: [literally zoning out rn. he thinks Thor is perfect so something like this doesn’t make any sense] #Thor: 🥺😭😭 #love me some Thor feeling guilty about it on top of not having the perfect image he’s expected to #Thor: I know you’re my brother and I wouldn’t ever risk losing that but it’s the truth #Loki: (asexual and still thinks attraction is a joke) ok ok this is fine we can manage this #Thor: DONT TELL MOTHER #Loki: DO I LOOK LIKE IM GOING TO TELL ANYONE #thorki #Thor/Loki #huge fan of Loki being horrified bc he’s got bro feelings only but thinking bout it romantically and being like hmm maybe it wouldn’t be bad #anyway these bros are need to talk more #Loki: never doubt that I love you #Thor: (dying inside trying to no homo their relationship so hard) thanks. #Thor like I can’t tell him why the mourning hit me way harder than everyone else bc it would have anyway. *says we all mourned you* #Thor like wowoww my crush of 850 years came back from the death looking murderous... kinda hot tho #living the life tbh #if only it wasn’t his brother ya know #which becomes even funnier if he’s told they’re not brothers because it’s like. #wait so if you fools hadn’t adopted him we could’ve #Thor blaming Odin and Frigga for his failing love life is hilarious #Thor not being able to reject Loki as his brother even if they don’t share blood vs not wanting to be brothers bc that means he’s not wrong #Loki will be looking at Thor like he’s everything to him and Thor is there sweating like haha brother y doth Thou tempt me like this #loki: *literally oblivious. wonders why Thor is growing so mean over the centuries. feels like there’s a distance between them. sad.* #thor: WE ARE GOING HUNTING AND HAVE TO SHARE A TENT I AM NOT GOING TO SURVIVE THIS AGAIN #loki: why won’t he snuggle anymore :( #Thor will be like I have no choice in this situation but to speak the truth and confess and Loki is like YOU LIKE MEN?????????

[autisticlee]

I have so many characteristics that make me feel like dating would be absolutely impossible to do and navigate, because they're such undesirable things that no one wants. i

if someone DOES want/are ok with them, there's so few of those people that they either already found someone, or they're out of my reach/we'll never meet. and that's if THEY match what I want as well, which then makes that pool even smaller.

i'm autistic. i'm asexual/aromantic. i'm trans/nonbinary. all things that make dating extraordinarily difficult to begin with.

i'm also not smart, rich, socially acceptable, or conventionally useful. i'm not physically attractive/don't match societal standards. i'm not likable to most people and can't even make or keep friends. my interests are very weird and niche, and it's hard to find people who share them.

if I can't figure out how to make and keep friends, how am I ever supposed to date? that's many levels ahead of where I am, almost end game. i'm at level 0. the tutorial level. except my tutorial glitched out before I even started and won't work. so I can't advance.

yes, I have good characteristics that people would be lucky to have (like loyalty, willingness to communicate, honesty, going out of my way to be there for people I care about, etc) but those things don't overshadow the ones above. first impressions kill me. my most noticeable traits kill me again. I can't lie or mask. no one gets to the smaller "good" traits or they simply aren't ever enough.

this is why I never tried to date and never even thought about it until now. I gave up before even starting because I knew it would be a dead end, a waste of time and energy.

i'm going to complain further under here, despite already making like 10 posts about the exact same bullshit:

"until now." so, I need someone who lives in canada to date me so I can move there from US and be with the only supportive people I have in my life lmao. my closest friends, my found family, who meet my needs, respect my boundaries, go out of their way to help me, and reciprocate everything mutually and equally. they actually want me in their lives. it's not one-sided, for the first time in my life. I don't question their motives or loyalties like every other friend I had in my life. it's genuine and real and they've stuck with me for like idk 5 years now? meeting irl (which usually ends my friendships for some reason...I guess people don't like me after meeting me outside of my internet persona?) it was solidified even more that we are the found family i've been wanting and needing my whole life. why do they have to be in a different country that has an extremely strict policy for being allowed to move there?!

so back to the dating thing a big problem is that I have too many barriers that I can't hide that make people uninterested or dislike me. I also can't control other people. people are unreliable and difficult as hell.

throw on top wanting to date someone specifically to move countries and they might question MY loyalties and think i'm only using them. when actually, I genuinely also want someone who can be part of our found family and be my life partner.

unfortunately, I know it will probably never happen, since it's not even about "trying" or "not giving up." I literally don't know how to try to find someone. like where to look?? social medias are collapsing and I get ignored everywhere. dating apps are for more hookups, polys, cheaters, and bots/catfish than real partnerships. I have no clue how to make people like me because who i am hasnt done me any favors ever in my life. waiting around for someone to come to me first just wastes my time! plus i'm picky as hell and can't accept just anyone.

people keep telling me "keep waiting you'll find The One! don't give up! I was in a similar position and i found someone!" that doesn't help me. it doesn't give me hope or whatever. I prefer actual helpful things like "I'll help you get there!" if you want to "help." I prefer to look at things realistically and live in the moment. not a future I can't see. and in this moment i'm stuck in a shitty anti-lgbt state with unsupportive and unaccepting family who don't treat me very well and no irl friends i can trust and rely on. no one can say that will for certain change in the future. things don't always magically change for the better and if you aren't prepared for that, you'll always be stuck in one place, waiting. i'm not being negative. it's more dynamic than that. it's more "I need an alternative in case this truly is a dead end." i'm simply not getting my hopes up for disappointment and fooling myself into believing that doing nothing and waiting will help, while life passes me by.

but I also can't do anything. because I don't know how/what to do

and by can't do anything I don't mean in life in general. I mean about getting out of my parents house so I can be free from them and fond a safe and comfortable place. I can't afford it alone obviously. I unfortunately need other people on my life, as much as i wish i could be a lone gremlin human and never need others. and that's the part I have no clue how to do. if the only humans who want me aren't attainable, then what? i've tried for over a decade and only had failures because people are unreliable and turn on me without warning, after i'm the only one who puts effort into trying to help us escape our situations. i'm TIRED. I can't keep trying to do everything alone and end up hurt and betrayed by fake friends. i'm so tired.

(if anyone reads this, don't try to comfort me because it won't work. if you relate, you can share that because that's fine. if you want to help me by being a candian who can sponsor me to move there then that's even more acceptable 🤣 if you find you cant stand me after im permanently there, i'll appreciate your help and let you go lmao)

#autistic #asexual #aroace #aromantic #nonbinary #transgender #dating #relationships #why an i even bothering to tag this? it's a useless ramble and really dumb rant lmao #it feels kinda embarrassing to suddenly care about dating after 30 years of NOT. but its for a good cause. i need my found family..... #lowkey hope no one is reading these dumb posts lmao. i noticed i got a handful of followers here now. dont look!!! 🫠 #i internally laugh at desperate people who think dating will solve all their problems and now here i am #wanting to date to solve a problem thar can probably only be solved that way LOL #but it is kind of different. im not desperate for someone to date for love and affection and attention #i just need help and support for a goal i cant realistically reach alone 🥲

[aroaessidhe]

2022 reads // twitter thread

The Fae Keeper

conclusion to The Witch King duology!

Wyatt, Emyr, & Briar are trying to convince the other kingdoms to follow their lead abolishing oppressive systems, & start to uncover secrets about their society

environmentalism, tech + magic

#The Fae Keeper #the witch king #aroaessidhe 2022 reads #i love this #im so glad they look like kids on this cover!! #so queer and trans and i loved the asexuality discussions #better than some fuckin ace lead books honeslty lmaoo #the bit near the end that had a bunch of different POVs was a little weird but i think it worked well!! #they really go to aotearoa for like a third of this book sdkgkjfgfd #i was......hesitant about that LMAO buti trust an indigenous author more than others i guess #it was maybe a little weird they were only in like the countryside with no sense of like. civilisation. #maybe that's just how i interpreted it sfsdfs but like....if youre just a couple hours out of auckland its either farm or bushwalks #not like....uninhabited wilderness #also it didn't use the ā and also the māori character's names were.......well they show up in the first result of #a shitty website with 'māori baby names' but they're more commonly english. idk it just struck me as slightly odd #I'm nitpicking it's better than most american authors would do lmao #asexual books