as an eldest sister, I think that peony would be the oldest, and then a younger brother, and then the littlest sister. I’m curious, what would you name them
That's my order too!
I want them to have Chinese or Japanese names, the latter running off the fact that both Kaito and Rikan are Japanese names so the Imperial family--although situated in China--is probably originally Japanese. I don't have any names set in stone, but I like Kaminari, Yutaro and Emiko.
If the first two kids are going to have Peony and Rikan as a part of their names (whether first or middle names), I'd love Emiko for their third because then Iko also gets the special family name treatment.
Anyway these are just placeholder names for me, I'm open to others! As long as it's not Marie Rose Elizabeth, as I've seen some fics name kaider kids. To those names, I say:🤨
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Sometimes I go crazy because of my parents.
I'm sure you do too.
Because their expectations even today are so fucking high, and they make me feel really, REALLY shitty after I don't do something that they wanted. They don't appreciate me much, because they think too much of it would go to my head.
I'm never, NEVER in my life ever heard my parents say "I'm proud of you" or "I love you". Never. And I understand that people have different love languages and shit but sometimes they make me feel like they don't have one.
Then one day, my mom goes all out and asks me why I don't share everything with her, or why I'm not her best friend or why I never say I love you to her, or anyone for that matter. And in that moment, all of the times when she didn't listen to me when I shared something, pretended that I don't exist, just rambled on about her day and problems without ever asking about mine. I can't pretend that it doesn't hurt, whenever I'm saying something, she randomly cuts me off, or changed the subject, or comments about how I look, or my body.
It's their fucking fault that I never knew how to say I loved someone. And I'll always unconditionally love them with all my heart, I'd put my life in danger for them, and I'd do anything to keep them safe and happy and comfortable.
But that's not enough! Sometimes, we need to hear words of appreciation, sometimes we need more love than presents because they fucking don't mean anything if I don't spend time with you for God sakes! Not every kid has their ass up their head, or get spoiled if you love them too much, because that doesn't exist. It hadn't happened for so many years, and it won't happen ever.
I am truly grateful, for what they give me, how much they sacrifice to give me and keep me the most comfortable, but man! I don't want that, I just want your attention sometimes, I'd be a lot happier with that than any present you could ever give me.
So, if there's any parents here, please, please I beg you, appreciate your child when they do good things, support them when they fail, and it doesn't hurt to say I love you once in a while yk. Tell them you're proud of them when they're feeling low. And don't always deny them of going out, because it's not always to fuck around, sometimes they need to be with someone who understands them better than you do.
It's hurts to hear, but their friends are more of a help than you can be. If you want that place in your child life, you have to take efforts too, you can't just magically gain that position. Denying them every single time is only gonna sow a seed of resentment for you in their hearts.
And others, I know how it feels to feel like your parents don't love you, or underestimate your problems or don't give you enough credit. If you ever wanna talk about, I'll always be here, for whoever is reading this, if you wanna rant and talk about stuff.
And if anyone doesn't tell you, I will, you're enough, I support you, I love you, and I'll always try to be there for you.
All the love,
Kats❤️
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I don't think I actually do want to run the shop, okay? That's what my temper has been trying to tell me. I'm trapped.
You know what's crazy? Even when I was a kid, I would pray to the blue flame to be good enough to fill my father's shoes someday. Because this place is his dream. But I never once asked what I wanted to do.
I think that's because deep down, I knew it didn't matter. Because the only way to repay a sacrifice so big, is by sacrificing your life too.
- Elemental (2023)
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