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jamietarttsnorthernattitude · 2 days

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If you would like to share more of the Sunday Snip (or anything you're working on) 🌹🌹🌹🌹

Thank you my wonderful friend. The basic premise is Jamie struggling during the Zava era and then being injured when they run the decoy play with Zava in the role of the decoy. I'm trying to find a good bit I haven't shared yet. I'll share more after the cut.

Right now, it's broken up into three chapters:

Jamie's POV from Zava through being injured in a match.

Ted's POV from the same time period.

Alternating POVs from the hospital after Jamie is injured.

1 and 2 are first draft finished but three needs a lot more (and might end up being split in two, you know how it goes!)

My problems so far are sticking the ending, and Ted's POV.

But for now, here is a snippet:

“Zava does not run decoy.” “You do now,” Beard said. “Let’s try it.” Jamie sighed. This was not going to go well. And it didn’t. Or it did fine enough, Zava ran through, attempting to draw the defenders. Ted didn’t give Zava the instructions he gave Jamie about wanting him to win an Oscar at the ESPYs. No, Zava got a well done. Jamie was so thrown off he’d missed the net completely on the first run-through. On the second, he’d hit the crossbar. By the third, when Jamie hit the post, he didn’t miss the frustrated looks from his teammates. “Maybe we should have Colin do it?” Isaac suggested. “Jamie’s got this,” Roy said. “Jamie, you feeling alright today?” Ted asked. Like he gave a fuck. “Yeah, sorry, Coach.” The 4 am training was catching up to him. Jamie attempted to go to bed at a reasonable time, but this week, he found himself staring at the ceiling most nights. By the fifth try, Jamie finally found the back of the net. “Don’t worry, Jamie, not everyone can be Zava,” Zava said to him as he roughly clapped him on the back. His hand lingered a little too long for Jamie’s liking, though Jamie wished he had never touched him at all, and Jamie shrugged him off as if Zava’s hand had burned him. Prick.

#jamie tartt #ted lasso #fic: false confidence #i'm feeling it a bit today so have been working on Jamie;s POV #thank you my lovely friend #ask box is always open

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ask-mangle-the-sad-one · 3 months

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*tick tick tick, chonk, the clock struck 9:59, spring Bonnie was sound asleep, everyone else was asleep as well, except for mangle, the anticipation was killing her...*

“I need to find something to do…*looking around she saw toy Chica and toy Bonnie sleeping on the stage toy Freddy was sleeping on the floor next to the stage and balloon boy was sleeping where he normally sat mangle was getting more bored when*” “hahahahah i am so sorry but I just hahaha it’s hilarious how many times you forget that I exist it’s *weaseing laughter*”-ebo “well do you have any ideas?”-a slightly annoyed mangle “no…”-ebo “I thought so.”-mangle *getting really bored mangle starts humming*”hm hm hm hmhm hmhmhm hm hm hm hmhm hmhmhm hm hm hmhm hm hm hmhm hm hm hm *starts over*

#mangle rp #mangle #rp #ask box is always open #I don’t think anyone is going to know what she is humming #She has a plan and she needs the night guard for it #😑😐😶🥱

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jamiesfootball · 8 months

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dumbest reason(s) someone on the team got injured

In no particular order:

-rolled their ankle thinking there was one more stair (Ted)

-pulled a groin muscle trying to step over a chair at movie night (Isaac)

-tried to catch a thrown water bottle with his mouth (Jamie)

-forgot to duck getting something out of his locker (Colin)

-got distracted reading a book on the exercise bike and when he got off the bike he tried to 'pedal' instead of walk (Sam)

-turning around while tall in a shower (Jan Maas)

-slipped on a banana peel (Zoreaux)

-tried to exit a pull door by pushing while running away because it was his banana peel (Dani)

-burned his mouth on some tea and talked with a lisp the rest of the day so he just didn't talk (Roy)

#ask box is always open #afc richmond #ted lasso #jamie tartt #roy kent #isaac mcadoo #sam obisanya #dani rojas #colin hughes

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thirteenemeraldcats · 2 months

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in one of your tags you mentioned-

'one of the things that gets chatted about A LOT in teaching is meeting students at their point of need- which ted does NOT do with jamie'

I would love to hear more of your thoughts on this! Both in terms of what that concept entails, and also what you think Jamie's point of need was at the time versus what Ted saw the situation needing

(You have excellent tags btw, don't know if anyone's mentioned that)

I HAVE MANY THOUGHTS ON THIS THAT I LOVE THAT YOU'D LOVE TO HEAR!

(I have more thoughts than I anticipated, this got errr, long. Whoops)

(potentially necessary/relevant background here is I am a high school teacher 👋)

Okie dokie, so, one of the principles of best practice in teaching is the idea I tag-rambled above; meet both the individual students and collective class at their point of need. Essentially this means practising differentiation in teaching and adjusting how content/ideas are communicated to students based on who they are as learners and people. Particularly if a student is performing outside the 'average' (either exceeding or still developing), this means adjusting to their needs by (among other things) curating differentiated resources and adapting delivery style. Differentiation is especially important in an all-abilities classroom, unfortunately public education is perpetually underfunded and overcrowded so everyone's just out here doing their best (the decent people of the world at least). BUT! WHILE I'M ON IT! SPEAKING OF THE THINGS I'VE TAG RAMBLED, the education system's (global) inability to adequately differentiate for students of different-abilities, particularly students with ADHD, ASD and Dyslexia, is perhaps the greatest failing of the whole dang thing and if anyone who ever stumbles across this is neuro-divergent and feels like they were a bad student or couldn't 'keep up' in mainstream education- THAT WAS NOT YOUR FAULT. You don't have to break yourself to 'fit', school is MEANT to bend for you. (Particularly when you're young, ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU'RE YOUNG)

ANYWAY, the fictional football of it all!

We don't see a lot of Ted actually coaching in this show (stick with me). The scenes in which he 'coaches' are typically him and various other coaching staff standing on the sidelines while the team skirmishes or occasionally runs drills, so me saying Ted doesn't differentiate is more based around his patented Ted-talks. NOW, Ted PROBABLY knows the team fairly well as individuals, particularly in season 2 and 3, purely by having spent quite a lot of time with them, despite this the only times we really see him 'adjust' his style with the team are ironically season 1 (examples include conferencing Jamie and Roy in 1x04 For The Children, and allowing/facilitating Nate's speech in 1x07 Make Rebecca Great Again). The moment that always sticks out to me as most significant is when he goes and seeks out Keeley's advice on how to get through to Jamie in 1x02 Biscuits.

Side note: I will be forever obsessed with Keeley jumping straight from 'blowjobs' to one of the four operant conditioning techniques (positive reinforcement) when asked about this. That woman is a very fascinating puzzle of a person.

Ted recognises that his typical perpetual-optimism-style isn't cracking the Jamie-Tartt-nut and seeks out a different opinion. This kind of collaboration and whole-system approach is key in teaching too, either by tapping the knowledge-well of a student's broader school context or the difficult-to-crack student's parents.

SO, having gotten the Jamie-Tartt-cheat-code from Keeley he DOES meet Jamie at his point of need, speaks clearly to him and communicates what he needs from him. AND IT WORKS! Temporarily! During the conversation between the two in Ted's office we see Jamie engage, he even practises self-reflection! Granted it's about his left foot cross, but still! The nut is cracked.

Jamie even maintains the perspective Ted has taught him for about two seconds while talking to Trent, until Jamie's other (definitely not positively-reinforced) behaviours rear up and he reverts to what James others have taught him.

On the other hand.

Multiple times throughout the show we see Jamie be visibly or verbally confused by Ted's communication style. Ted often talks in meandering metaphors that Jamie doesn't seem to be able to follow. We verbally hear him state 'Why doesn't he just say that then, do you know what I mean?' in 2x07 Headspace after Beard has to translate Ted's 'peas and carrots/beefchunks' analogy to 'starters and reserves'. Then there's the infamous 'What the fuck are Denver Broncos?' from 3x09 La Locker Room Aux Folles. The only notable time we really see Jamie 'get' one of these metaphors is the sewer-system-tunnels from 3x01 Smells Like Mean Spirit.

(His understanding of that specific metaphor, along with his use of the magnets to demonstrate total football in 3x07 The Strings That Bind, and a Watsonian-perspective of his near perfect mimicry of movements he saw two years ago when executing the decoy play in 3x12 So Long, Farewell, are actually all examples I use to head-canon Jamie as a primarily visual/physical based learner. For whatever that's worth!)

NOW! Ted's willingness to seek and apply alternate techniques in season 1 when he should know the team as both individuals and a collective the least, coupled with his inability or unwillingness to practise differentiation in later seasons when he DOES KNOW THEM is why I don't think Ted is meeting the team, specifically Jamie at their/his point of need. Any person's ability to differentiate behaviour to meet the needs/requirements/comforts of the individual or group they're talking to is increased the more they know them. (We all do this in life, consciously or subconsciously we typically try and 'match the vibe' of whoever we're communicating with [doubly so for people who're engaging in masking.])

Ted should and does learn more about Jamie as a person and his background as the show progresses. He listens to Jamie vocalise both his internal justifications for his actions and his reflections of those justifications/actions in 1x06 Two Aces, he sees him being explicitly physically abused in 1x10 The Hope That Kills You, he listens to him describe a spiralling mindset in 2x02 Lavender, he sees him being explicitly verbally abused in 2x08 Man City.

Of course, one of the fascinating things about Jamie is how much he learns and grows over the course of the show, and there are instances in which I don't think Ted is recognising that (primarily his dismissal of Jamie in 3x03 4-5-1 and not utilising Jamie's knowledge of total football as a resource from the beginning in 3x07 The Strings That Bind).

Ted understands and has previously applied Jamie responding well to positive reinforcement, yet at multiple times in the series doesn't respond in a way that reflects his perspective being informed by that knowledge. Essentially not practising the appropriate level of care/caution when interacting with/around Jamie.

There's not intervening on Jamie's behalf in 2x03 Do the Right-est Thing or 2x06 The Signal when the team and Roy are targeting or ignoring him respectively. The assumed absence of any follow up to the events of 2x08 Man City, the Zava of it all in season 3, and of course the eternal 'forgiveness' kicker from 3x11 Mom City.

POINT BEING. And to actually answer your inquiry lol, I think Jamie is someone who needs clear communication, ideally bracketed in positive reinforcement based operant conditioning as a learning technique (reward behaviour you want reinforced by offering something desirable [praise in Jamie's case]) and visual/physical aid/references for concepts; as a LEARNER.

AS A PERSON, there's more. Ted can readily infer from all he's heard and seen that Jamie's a victim of child abuse. The long term damage to the adult psyche that abuse during formative years has is astronomical, it literally changes the foundational structures of a person's brain. And yet, again, we never see Ted even acknowledge this. Jamie in 3x11 Mom City, incidentally compares his father to Freddy Krueger, Ted elaborates on the comparison, then Jamie reiterates that Freddy Krueger's 'fucking terrifying'. Ted doesn't reassure Jamie (the requirement of his point of need), he gives him a Ted-talk (and in doing so doesn't differentiate his perspective/communication technique).

As far as what Ted thought the situation needed... search me I've got no idea. I do think Ted projects onto Jamie a hell of a lot. That he gets Jamie's personhood and life experiences all tangled up in the emotions he has about his father's death and his consequent perceived abandonment, his insecurities about his own ability to parent Henry and even in his own inability to clearly communicate with his mother. I do think Ted relies on his own forced optimism to 'get by'. Like how a great white shark dies if it stops swimming, if Ted stops being 'Ted', if he stops swimming, his past and his fears and his feelings will catch up to him and swallow him whole. (For what it's worth, I do think Ted is more unwell than even the show explicitly tells us, much like Jamie experiencing ongoing trauma due to childhood abuse, the effects both short-term and long-term as well as potential causalities of having a parent die by suicide are... grim.)

(Essentially the entire fandom has talked about basically all of this at one point or another, I'm just using slightly different language.)

NOW! These characters are fictional (obviously) and I am judging them based on real-people conventions and the best-principles of my own profession, as well as my background in theoretical psychology (which I think I forgot to mention and is also probably [??] relevant). My Doylist-perspective of Ted and his coaching/communication style is ...kinder, but if I get too sucked into the narrative it results in either brief tag-rambles or... whatever this thing I've just typed is. I think it's been too long since I've written academically, my thoughts have gone circular 🫠

ANYWAY! I hope this made something-approaching sense! Thank you again for asking to hear my thoughts! Always happy to word vomit!

ALSO, thank you for saying my tags are excellent (you are the first and currently only to say so!) - The tags are where I send my thoughts to die (in a 'I must banish them to move on' kind of way rather than a 'I'm strangling them' kind of way) so you saying they're excellent is even MORE flattering than you realise! Makes my brain want to purr 💚🤣

#what do i even begin to tag this slab of text as YEESH #ted lasso #jamie tartt #theodore lasso #ask box is always open #come hit me up for teaching rambles or psych rambles or fandom rambles or general rambles ANYTIME #readwing #jamiesfootball #oh shit trigger warnings #suicide #child abuse #if this indeed makes no sense i would like to blame it on the fact i've written it while drinking wine through a straw #(it's my friday night okay)#i'll post this in the morning when i've had the chance to read it while NOT drinking wine through a straw #hola- it is now morning and i'm only slightly hungover! win!

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sagechanoafterdark · 3 months

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It's always gonna be the suspenders kink with Mike.

Mike wearing the suspenders is an absolute thirst trap. I'm weak.

Snap!

SNAP!

"Ouch, god damn babe."

"Shhh, hands to the side baby."

SNAP! SNAP! SNAP!

Mike groaned under you. His cock twitched with each snap of the suspenders against his already pink skin. The sting sinking all the way down into his bones and straight to his cock buried to the hilt in you. Even the bite of his zipper made his cock jump and twitch as you looked down at him with stern and focused eyes.

"Come on baby," he cooed under you as hands caressed up and down over your thighs. "Ride me."

SNAP!

He hissed through his teeth with that one as you frowned down at him. Lips pursed in mock annoyance as your fingers played with the strap again. Pulling it back, SNAP, it cracked against an exposed nipple. Mike winced with that one, his chest flush with arousal and lightly welted with little pink stripes from his punishment.

Squeezing his cock in the way you knew would make him groan and plead under you.

"You're not in charge here," you reminded him with a scolding tone. Clenching in just the right way you knew would make him groan and push him to the edge of begging again.

A flush of pleasure ran through you as you held his cock inside of you. Power and lust mixed in your blood as you gave a few jerks of your hips and Mike struggled to stay as still as possible.

A soft string of curses fell from his lips.

"Who's in charge, Michael?"

Groaning deep in his chest, as his fingers dug into your slowly gyrating hips.

SNAP!

"Who?"

"You are," he gasped out, hands loosening against your rolling hips as he swallowed around the knot in his throat. "You're in charge, baby."

Rewarding him with a soft caress against the pink welted flesh of his chest, it pulled a sigh from him. Mike looked up at you through heavy lashes, fluttering along with his shuddering breath as your fingertips neared his nipple. Hissing and hips jerking against you as you seized a nipple in a tight pinch. The sensation went straight to his cock, throbbing inside of you with need and the effort it took to hold back.

It passed after a moment, Mike's labored breaths sounding loud in the quiet of the room.

A hum of approval sounded in your chest, "Good boy." You praised, leaning down and capturing his lips in a hungry kiss of tongue and teeth.

"Now," you husked against his swollen begging mouth. "Make me feel good."

#oops my fingers slipped #mike weiss x reader #mike weiss x you #mike weiss x f!reader #Mike Weiss x you #Mike Weiss x reader #Mike Weiss x f!reader #Mike Weiss #Puncture #Chris Evans #suspenders kink is strong #sage responds #ask box is always open

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abubblingcandle · 2 months

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Well done on compiling the spreadsheet! I've been thinking of doing something similar to keep track of my wips for ages but I've yet to sit down and actually do it, it's a lot of work!

How about number 42?

It is but I was laid in bed last night and was like stewing on one of the ideas and thought ... "I've never actually written down anything about this idea, oops" and so did this today!

@thirteenemeraldcats also asked for 42 but also another one so I'll do 42 here and the other in reply to that ask :)

42 - The 16 year old Jamie fic

So this fic is inspired by what I learnt a few months ago about Archie Gray at Leeds United. Quick Archie summary but he is a 17 year old Leeds wonderkid from a family of Leeds United players (his grandad, his great uncle, his dad all played for Leeds for the majority of their careers and his younger brother is in the youth set up). He's made it into the starting line up this year and he pointed it out in a post match interview that according the FA and Leeds rules ... he has his own private changing room because it is a safeguarding risk to have a minor changing and showering with adults.

This just got me thinking about what if Jamie hadn't been 23 when he was loaned to Richmond, what if he had been 16? This wonderkid who Man City don't really know what to do with coming straight into the Richmond starting line up and desperate to prove himself to everyone including his idol Roy Kent. His dad moving down to London with him. Not really being included in the team and team bonding as they just go out drinking.

Then Ted arrives and Jamie's never had a coach like Ted. He doesn't know what to do with it

Roy huffs as he watches Jamie bat away the hand Colin was offering to help him up off the floor. The kid's blue grey eyes were misting over with tears of frustration but his lips were pressed together in a mask of fury directed at the grass itself. Roy remembered being like that. He remembered being called up and touted as the best thing since sliced bread at an age where your main worries should be whose dating who and how you were going to survive your exams. But unlike Jamie, Roy wasn't a champion asshole about it. He took the hits, he paid his dues with only the token bullshit expected from an up and coming star. Then other younger models came through the ranks, Roy made his big career move and all that strife was history. It had seemed like the worst thing ever at the time. Now it was just remembered as a stepping stone. "Get the fuck up Tartt, your fault. Get over it," Roy growled, kicking the ball away from Jamie's feet and pinging it back over to O'Brien for the goal kick. The death stare from the young striker would have unnerved a lesser man. Roy glared back until Jamie flinched first and rolled to his feet.

#candle writes #ted lasso fanfic #jamie tartt #roy kent #ask box is always open #wip number game

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gascansposts · 14 days

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Dnd ocs! Okay left from right are KenKen the Kenku bard, Alder Nightwood the elf rogue, Sereithia Aetherialis the triton Ranger and Fei Sundancer air genasi monk! They are traveling group of musicians and dancers, with KenKen and Alder being the main musicians while Sereithia and Fei are the usual dancers! Sometimes they switch it up and all four of them can sing, dance, and play at least one instrument, but this is usually how they present themselves. KenKen is currently middle aged, and the Party Dad (tm). Alder is around 19-25 for elven age range. Sereithia is around her mid 20s and Fei is an older teen at about 17-19 in age range! I’m actually pretty happy with these designs and i think I’m finally getting how colors work!! Yippee!!

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rainbowdelicsunshine · 8 days

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I need yall's opinions on something

Does this hoodie look drab/dirty/like it's never been washed?? Cuz my mom told me yesterday that I need to get rid of it, replace it, or outright stop wearing it cuz as she said it "made other people think I look homeless" despite only ever getting compliments with it and I've only had it for a year

Here is the hoodie in question (note that it had been just washed and dried when I took this photo)!

Please tell me if my fashion senses are complete shit or not like my Mom was trying to imply (but she told me she was only trying to ""help me"")!

Thanks!!

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nickelkeep · 3 months

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WIP Game

I was tagged by @imbiowaresbitch. Don't you get enough of my wips? LOL

Rules: In a new post, post the names of all the files in your WIP folder regardless of how non descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them and then post a little snippet or tell us about it. Then tag as many people as you have WIPs. If you don't write, list your art WIPs!

"Damsel" Dean

Cullrian

Destiny Renfaire

Heat/Rut Clinic

In Vino Veritas

Ring Pop Fic

Trin Macrame

Siren Fic

Mystery Town

Ash's Return

CasBenny Purgatory

Crossing of Swords

Leather Librarian

This isn't all of my WIPs, but the others are for bangs, so not talking about those.

tagging: @bleuzombie, @cr-noble-writes, @wigglebox, @casblackfeathers, @envydean, @kingdumbass, @anyreiart, @queerwolfsstuff, and anyone else who wants to play

#wip game #ask game #ask box is always open

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haikyuu-and-more-haikyuu · 5 months

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Ok, so I know these two have barely interacted but the potential friendship between oikawa and suga! I can't explain it, but I feel like it would work so well 🥺?

I can actually see this too.. when I think about it.

So while Oikawa and Sugawara has different personalities, they are both good at analysing people and good at gooding/teasing others. It will be kind of like meeting their match.

Oikawa can tease Suga about his height, but Suga can fire back with that now they have secured a spot in Nationals; he have gotten more confessions and good luck charms.

I think the dynamic will be similar of the rivalry between Daichi and Kuroo. Since they play the same position and so on. I also think while suga is less of a flirt and more quiet, he is not afraid to tease and to tell others what's on his mind. Like this is the guy who just yelled at everyone to calm the fuck down when Karasuno went up against Shiratorizawa.

So their the kind of the friends that can tease and make fun of each other, but also the friends that can talk out their separative frustrations with each other regarding volleyball, school or their self-image.

I also think it's interesting because both Suga and Oikawa had to step down because of Kageyama. While Oikawa grew resentment and anger towards Kageyama and even forgot how fun volleyball could be for him because he ties to much of his self worth to his progress in the sport. While Sugawara's blow was "less" in the sense that they had only been on a team for a couple of weeks, before he himself "stepped down". He told Ukai to make the right decision for the team- it still was a punch in the gut for him. It was still something he had to sacrifice. I think they can help each other work through their emotions regarding that situation.

(there was no gif with them together so this will be it).

#sugawara #sugawara koushi #sugawara & oikawa #oikawa & sugawara #oisuga #sugaoi #sugawara x oikawa #oikawa x sugawara #oikawa #oikawa tooru #haikyuu #haikyuu!!#HQ #ask #ask me anything #ask box is always open

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polyamorousmood · 6 months

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Okay so I'm super aro but also shaking hands with polyam people like YES technically in a way they're opposites (lack of romo love vs multiple romo loves) but like! We're all vibing in a denying ananormanitvity in our own ways! I adore y'all!!

Also shakes this blog around like a rag doll /affectionate positive etc

- Loveless aro who stares at your blog from time to time but has to stop because I smile to the point of my face being sore + WAYYY too emotional and cries sometimes aahzgzhs- In a good way to be clear!!

Also very less important thing but holds polyam ships very gently they're all so neat aough shakes them around /affectionate

YESSSSSS!

We are siblings-in-arms 🤝, we are friends🫂, we are partners in crime🦹, we are locking eyes and giving each other a single firm nod of understanding and comradery, we are allies fighting literally the same fight⚔️.

My rights to choose the family I want is the same as your right to choose the family you want. The more we say "any relationship can be as important as --or more important than!-- romance" the sillier it becomes to champion a single romantic connection as one's life purpose.

Our fates and our fingers are twined, my aro friend. We will lift the other up when one stumbles, and we trek to the brighter world together. 🫴 Take my hand

#aro/ace #aromantic #polyamory #amatonormativity #ask box is always open #I love you in whatever way is most comfortable for you sweet asker. We will hold hands so tightly no one can possibly Red Rover us apart

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jamietarttsnorthernattitude · 3 months

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Favorite whump trope?

Oh this is hard. Love the hiding an injury scenario and the whumpee thinking they are alone/unloveable/uncared for and then eventually is just loved on by one person or a group.

#most all whump is cat nip to me #thank you my lovely friend!!#always happy to talk whump #whump whump whump #whump tropes #ash asks #cross country questions #ask box is always open

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ask-mangle-the-sad-one · 1 month

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Mangle! Ebo! I found a secondary power source I can use to let Ebo wander wherever he likes!!

”wander?”-ebo.

Are you thinking of taking him and one of my legs aand the other hand?

#mangle rp #mangle #rp #hello #ask #fnaf rp #yay a ask!#ask box is always open

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jamiesfootball · 3 months

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29 for the whump dialogue prompt perhaps?

"Tell me where it hurts, and be specific."

He doesn't know how it went wrong so fast. He never fucking knows.

"Get him out! Get him out of here right the fuck now!"

He never knew how it was that his dad could ruin everything as quick as upending a box, shaking out the bits of Jamie - smacking the box for good measure to knock out all the stubbornly clinging fists - until he was nothing better than something his dad went and spilled on the floor. A fucking pile of Legos for people to dodge around less the sharp pieces of him prick the the soft padding beneath their feet.

"Everybody, shut up! Jamie, Jamie, bruv, breathe. Breathe. In and out like. Can you do that? Does it hurt?"

It felt like being underwater, it did; or like they were in an indoor pool. Sweat all dried until it was cold and clammy. Everything echoed, a public's worth of voices shouting to be heard over each other ("What did you hold me back for?!" "Me?! You were right there!") while the walls bounced everything back, and over the din came Colin's voice, both muffled and clear- "I heard something snap."

Dr. Sharon was going to be so disappointed with Jamie. Jamie was going to walk back into her office with the crumpled up portions of himself bundled in his arms, and she was going to frown, polite and quiet and judging while Jamie lined up all the pieces in front of her, trying to explain to her what he'd done wrong and begging her to show him how to make it better.

"Beard's got it from here. Him and the boys in security 'll figure it out. Now, how's our- is that blood?"

Because he was a coward, he'd serve the best parts of himself first. The chunk of him that hadn't meant to let any of it happen. The lump that understood how his presence on the pitch led to the team losing. The slice of him that had honestly, stupidly thought his Dad would be so caught up in his own team winning that Jamie's own garbage performance would go unnoticed (amateur thinking to go with amateur playing). The ration of him that hadn't been rational at all - had opened his mouth to argue when he knew better, didn't he, lad? Should know better by now. He hadn't been given the signal. Couldn't be trusted with his own words - had to wait for someone to tell him it was alright, otherwise look what he'd get?

"Tartt? Are you listening?"

He'd show Dr. Sharon the slab of him that wanted to do right by the team, and she'd tilt her head to the side and remark that the slab looked a bit spoiled now, didn't it?

Something brushes his shoulder, a touch so lacking in violence it doesn't register as real.

"Come on. Jamie. You need to let us get a look at you. We need to know where you're hurt."

He never fucking knows.

Something strong grips the back of his neck. There's nothing left of Jamie now; just bundles of raw nerve endings telling him run and hide and the dislocated parts of his body reporting back that they're not capable of either right now. His lungs aren't working right, and there's no running or hiding anymore - there's just smaller. Tugging close the pieces of himself - the broken tiles of himself - and sweeping them close in his arms where they're less likely to get shattered any further. There's retreating, dropping deep into the recess of his head, anything to spare himself from witnessing the ugly spectacle he's made.

The grip on his neck disregards what he wants. Cups the delicate space below his jaw between two hands. Examines him while Jamie flutters in his grasp like a moth avoiding the light.

"Jamie, this is serious. Tell me where it hurts, and be specific. We need to know if we need to get you to hospital."

Point to any piece of him, where his dad's gone and left him on the ground.

"Fuck it, he’s not answering. Somebody get the medics."

#whump prompt #ask box is always open #jamie tartt #fuck jamie's dad #injury #abuse cw #my fic

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