there is such a trauma to daughterhood. it comes from the lack of agency - not only from being born as a woman but existing in the world as a child. an oppression on top of an oppression. people make jokes about girls with daddy issues but nothing compares to the kind of trauma you recieve from having a complicated relationship with your mother. people talk about it so often. and it's one thing to have a mother who hates you which is always awful, but often it feels worse to have a mother who doesn't. to have a mother who is simply exhausted by the fact you were born. a mother who doesn't hate you, but loves her men more. a mother who maybe wanted to be a mom, once, and then came to realize what a thankless job it was. and she didn't want to hate you, but it was hard to love you and even harder to like you. a mother who doesn't hate you exactly, but never outgrows her desire to be attractive and beautiful and makes you her enemy in that way. or a mother who has nothing more to her than being a mother and clings to coddling you in a way thats suffocating. so many daughters develop deep empathy for the mothers because they were women, daughters, girls once. everyone deals with it differently. but at the end of it, you still need a mother and that is the most horrible and wretched part of all. the trauma of being alive, of being a woman, and of having a mother but still needing one. such a uniquely miserable feeling
oh man. i picked up the sidestory to @just-a-carrot's five-arc horror epic a couple days ago and i'm so glad i did. i'll probably be talking nonstop and/or drawing about it for days
there's a handful of whiteboard doodles with other characters under the cut, but rly i just wanted to pay a homage to the scene that hit me the hardest... enjoy
Tw mention of non-con, fetishizing gay men. Putting this out there first that this is coming from a non-aspec adult gay man. Many people have said this before in many fandoms, both in the past and present, that there really is something weird about people who consume media and IMMEDIATELY shipping or making something out as sexual between two characters. Even two characters that have only interacted one time. These two characters are usually AMAB or male-presenting. I wasn't uncomfortable with this type of people before but when they became more and more obsessive about their ship/s to the point you wonder if they're watching the same show as you, I began avoiding them like the plague. By obsessive I mean in the earlier plot of the show, some EclipsexSun shippers have messaged me and my boyfriend (for context, we like cosplaying as human versions of the tsams characters), asking us if we could cosplay Eclipse and Sun doing sexual things, including non-con, for them to "enjoy" or to "inspire" them with their art and fanfics. I threw the block button like a chancla to their faces so fast. Because why in the absolute hell would you ask that? To literally strangers on the internet? They were adults, mind you. They know what's right and wrong. And I am sad to say that it is STILL happening to this day. Honestly, it made both me and my boyfriend scared anytime we see an EclipsexSun shipper following/liking our posts because we couldn't tell anymore. We couldn't tell if they're just harmless shippers or very porn-brained, fetishizing gay men shippers.
There is no more quiet part, they are just fully saying out loud that they think trans people even existing in public is a harm to children akin to sexual violence.
I'm so tired of liberals telling me over and over and over again that I need to just reach out and talk to these people. They see my very existence as a sex crime, they think I need to be exterminated out of public life and then exterminated for real. These are fucking fascists. I'm so tired of being a rhetorical chip used to shame others, I'm sure you'll feel smug satisfaction over your conservative uncle that you were right while he's carting us off.
I'm sorry, there is no bridge to bring us to a middle ground between "I think I have the right to exist" and "I think your very existence is a crime" that doesn't end poorly for me.
There is no hand I can reach out without getting pulled by that hand straight down 6 feet under to my grave.
do you guys ever think about how Wyll is introduced as an archetypal fantasy hero, but then it turns out he’s a warlock, who made a pact with a devil. Do you ever think about how Ansur is described as this fantastical dragon of myth, but then when you find him, he’s turned into an undead monstrosity. Do you think about how when Wyll does the right thing, he is punished to become more monstrous. Do you think about how as Wyll’s warlock powers grow, his spells get more horrific. Do you think about how Ansur was killed by his closest friend. Do think about how Wyll was cast out by the most important person in his life. do you guys ever think about Ansur and Wyll.
Between Paramount’s endorsement of Israel and the fat jokes from the Cinemacon trailer, the Keanu casting is just another nail in the coffin for this movie.
I haven't seen anyone else mention this, but about a month ago they banned porn sites in my state. Like-- you can't open a private tab, you can't sign in to access it, you straight up cannot open or look at porn websites like Pornhub or XHamster or PornMD etc here in Texas without a VPN. This shouldn't be considered a legal thing to do. They didn't directly ban pornography here, but they might as well have.
And it may not seem like much. It starts with small things like this, and then-- what next? Are they going to ban LGBTQ content for being "inappropriate for children?" Next they might just outright outlaw pornographic material altogether. The bar is just going to keep getting raised, and don't think it won't.
This is not okay. I hate the sanitization of the internet.