#aspec initiative center

[sunfl0wersandillusions]

oomf’s post abt the nature of angel’s deep feelings for aki gave me brainworms abt aki’s feelings for angel, specifically how it compares and contrasts with his relationship with denji and power. *family board game commercial voice* Geeet Ready!

sooo how does aki’s relationship with denji and power compare and contrast with his relationship with angel? indeed they follow similar tracks of development: initially their ways of life clash and they resent one another but by nature of their circumstances aki provides for them the bare minimum out of logistic obligation; aki realizes the immediate nominal value of keeping them safe as opposed to just not caring; their walls of hostility begin to break down and aki sees them as more than the irredeemable pests he initially understood them as; and in sharing life and its dangers with them he begins to care for them deeply.

but of course aki’s heart is manipulated; the pursuit of revenge and makima’s exploitation of it prevent aki from feeling his heart’s raw authentic virtues and desires, and he doesn’t know his own heart until it’s too late. so indeed aki forges loving relationships, but he fails to wholly recognize them as such, and instead his love presents in acts of service and protection, unconscious and natural and crucial as breath. thus it’s not the expression of love that differentiates his relationships with denji/power and angel, but the sources of love—what exactly about them he’s come to care for. (this of course entails examination of the difference between platonic and romantic feelings which is not easy for anyone let alone my aspec ass but let’s give it a try anyway!)

in denji and power’s case, it’s acceptance. the opportunity and space and capacity to just *be*. denji and power take everything that aki is, the passion and ambition and stubbornness, and orient it, give it direction. platonic love in acceptance. and in giving aki the room to just exist and be valued for who he is, denji and power strip him bare and hold a mirror up to his form in a way he’s never experienced before. when aki contracts with the future devil he says one of my favorite most poignant quotes of his: “i’m aware i’ve stopped looking at myself objectively, but i also know i wouldn’t be able to go on if i did.” sharing life with denji and power gives aki a reason to look at himself objectively; the selfless idiot that he is of course he doesn’t realize his heart is manipulated bc he’s never been in touch with his heart to begin with.

all this considered, we look at the concurrent development of his relationship with angel. the main source of their emotional/personal connection beyond mere work partners is that city/country mouse question of true fulfillment in life. denji and power have laid the groundwork for aki’s consideration of himself for once, what constitutes his fulfillment, and angel dares to suggest that he is deserving of a softer life. and since denji and power have made aki perceptive of this side of existence, that softness speaks to aki in a way it couldn’t have before. angel awakens the potential of aki’s heart.

so unlike his protective love of denji and power, meant to preserve the life he has (gruesome and risky and exhausting, but accepting nonetheless), aki’s protective love of angel is meant—however unconsciously and however unsuccessfully in the long run, given the endurance of makima’s manipulation preventing him from fully actualizing this softer life away from public safety—to cultivate the life he could have. romantic love in expansion.

not as immediately relevant but given this framework some of the things i really appreciate in akiangel fics are:

aki perspectives where aki is *not* waxing poetic about his wanting for angel. he wouldn’t even know, let alone dwell on or act on his wants, that’s the whole point! authentic aki perspectives for me center his compassion and selflessness, and how these complicated feelings in context rock his world. show me aki being soft with angel out of genuine care and sensitivity to angel’s needs, and how these moments make aki himself feel. what is this feeling, this warmth in me born of knowing someone so closely and providing for him so naturally without question? what does it mean that i have room in me to feel this way for someone at all, let alone a being i should despise?

if a perspective does feature aki acting on his wants, flirting or initiating contact or whatever, i always find it a really interesting exploration of his agency and level of acceptance of life as he knows it when he is not in his right mind—inebriated, deluded, exhausted, dreaming, numb, what have you. blur the line of individual identity and institutional imposition, and let aki wonder where the beliefs that comprise him really fall.

similarly, show me aki being comforted by angel—comfort in the sense of, as previously mentioned, contending with the notion that he is indeed deserving of a softer life. show me aki in angel’s company experiencing the rest that angel so naturally desires, how that company and that rest over time goes from a rare abnormal indulgence to a natural state. he could spend eternity in this timeless soupy bliss. indeed this takes time to achieve but more importantly it takes connection—show me aki feeling free and expansive and himself in angel’s company. between this and the previous point, show me love as a radical act, clarity, freedom.

additionally, aki perspectives that feature aki’s reminiscence on his relationship with himeno as a positive force in his journey of healing and self realization. in a similar way to how i value the effect of denji and power on aki’s development i adore seeing this brought up in akiangel fics. her caring for aki was a constant for him until her death, the extent of which aki failed to realize in the height of his heart’s manipulation. so the finally after her death contending with the notion that she was right all along and he was unreceptive to it until it came from a different source under different circumstances is a source of very compelling inner turmoil. but also i adore the sentiment of aki’s gratitude to himeno despite this tragic unfolding of events; indeed it’s tragic that he never got to express it to her bc he didn’t have the facilities to know it, but her love for aki was valuable in its own right to his eventual realization of the life he deserves, if slow-acting.

#csm #akiangel #🗣me #girl stfu!!!!! it’s not that deep!!!! #it is that deep To Me.

[tarahaveli]

Best Hotel in Dhuri

Introduction:

Nestled in the heart of Dhuri, an unassuming town in the culturally rich state of Punjab, lies a hidden gem that promises a haven of luxury and comfort - the best hotel in Dhuri. This charming establishment is a testament to the town's evolving landscape, offering not just a place to stay but an experience that transcends the ordinary. Join us as we embark on a virtual journey through this remarkable accommodation, exploring its exquisite amenities, impeccable service, and the unique charm that sets it apart.

Location:

The best hotel in Dhuri enjoys a strategic location, providing guests with easy access to the town's main attractions while ensuring a peaceful retreat away from the hustle and bustle. Situated in close proximity to key landmarks and transportation hubs, the hotel serves as an ideal base for both leisure and business travelers.

Architectural Marvel:

As you approach the hotel, the first thing that captures your attention is its architectural splendor. A harmonious blend of traditional Punjabi elements and modern design, the hotel stands as a testament to the town's rich heritage. The facade, adorned with intricate carvings and vibrant colors, reflects the warmth and hospitality that awaits within.

Luxurious Accommodations:

Step into a world of opulence as you enter the hotel's plush lobby. The accommodations, ranging from well-appointed rooms to luxurious suites, are designed with meticulous attention to detail. Each room exudes a sense of comfort and sophistication, featuring modern amenities, tasteful decor, and panoramic views of the surrounding landscapes.

Dining Delights:

The gastronomic journey at the best hotel in Dhuri is nothing short of extraordinary. The on-site restaurant offers a culinary symphony that caters to diverse palates. From authentic Punjabi delicacies to international cuisines prepared by skilled chefs, every meal is a culinary masterpiece. Guests can indulge in a fine dining experience or opt for more casual settings, savoring each bite in an ambiance that complements the exquisite flavors.

Recreational Retreat:

For those seeking relaxation and rejuvenation, the hotel offers a range of recreational facilities. A state-of-the-art fitness center, a serene spa, and a sparkling swimming pool provide guests with ample opportunities to unwind after a day of exploration. The hotel's commitment to holistic well-being ensures that guests leave not just rested but revitalized.

Business and Events:

The best hotel in Dhuri is not only a haven for leisure travelers but also a preferred choice for business events and conferences. The well-equipped meeting rooms and conference facilities are designed to accommodate various corporate needs. The hotel's professional and attentive staff ensures that every event, from intimate gatherings to large conferences, is executed seamlessly.

Impeccable Service:

What truly sets this hotel apart is its commitment to delivering impeccable service. The staff, trained to anticipate the needs of guests, goes above and beyond to ensure a memorable stay. From the warm welcome at check-in to the personalized assistance throughout the stay, the hospitality is second to none. The concierge is always ready to assist with local recommendations, ensuring that guests make the most of their time in Dhuri.

Community Engagement:

The best hotel in Dhuri takes pride in its commitment to the local community. Engaging in sustainable practices, supporting local businesses, and actively participating in community initiatives, the hotel strives to make a positive impact on the town and its residents. Guests can take part in these initiatives, contributing to a meaningful and responsible travel experience.

Conclusion:

In the heart of Dhuri, the best hotel stands as a beacon of luxury, hospitality, and cultural richness. From its stunning architecture to its luxurious accommodations, delectable dining options, and commitment to service excellence, every aspect of this hotel reflects a dedication to creating an unforgettable experience. Whether you're visiting for business or pleasure, this hidden gem in Dhuri is sure to leave an indelible mark, inviting you to return for another enchanting stay

[aspecinitiativecenter]

Recruiting Founders for Other Initiative Centers!

We have made a server based in the Rainbow Planes Universe, a roleplay premise where people have powers based on their identities and labels!

We are recruiting for other initiative centers for the various communities under the overall LGBT+ Umbrella; namely for monospec aligned and intersex initiative centers!

This post is a recruitment message for those who would like to found in-universe initiative centers and create lore for these other communities.

We have some guidelines:

1. It needs to be called [blank] initiative center to match the naming scheme we have going.

2. The discord server needs to be called "Rainbow Plane: [blank] Division" to match the naming scheme.

3. Lore you create needs to comply with existing lore.

4. You need to work with us on building your server/nitiative center, and periodically update us on your progress.

5. It cannot be located in the Void, as this would conflict with existing lore.

6. Do not use lizards/reptiles as that is for the @trans-nonbinaryinitiativecenter. 

7. People of multiple communities have access to multiple initiative centers.

8. In our server we have areas for non-[blank] community members to interact with community members, and we expect that you make the same provisions in your server.

9. We reserve the right to ask you to step down if we feel your progress is too slow or if you do not respect the lore and roleplay premise we have built so far.

10. Please fill out this application form and we will contact you when you have done so. 

You can contact us @imfemalewarrior​ or @agender70 or in the Rainbow Plane: Aspec Division server for more details.

#5th #April #2020 #April 5th 2020 #aic #aspec initiative center #roleplay #recruitment #leader #monospec #intersex #straight #gay #lesbian #application #initiative center founders #trans #nonbinary #trans and nonbinary initiative center #rainbow plane

[aroace567]

Note To Self:

Performing an experiment without the subject’s knowledge or consent is wrong.

This applies doubly if the experiment involves a non-Shadow that the subject has no reason to believe is not safe.

And for the love of all that is holy, when the subject is having a panic attack because of the non-Shadow entity, shoving the normal cat into their face to offer pets is totally reasonable and will not make everything worse.

@aspecinitiativecenter

#aspec roleplay #aspec initiative center #note to self #sorry 58 #sorry Orion

[agender70]

Aspec Initiative Master Post

Here You can find all of the Agents and Higher! This post will include any blogs that have been made for the Aspec Initiative as well as a list of all agents. If you’ve made a blog and need it to be added please contact me so I know! If you want to sign up to become an Agent/District Leader/Boss click here!

Don’t Forget to check back often as this list will be changed as more people join and blogs are made!

Aspec Initiative Center

Void Research Outpost

Oracle

Bosses

Aroace#413

District Leaders

Ace#14

Ace#50

Ace#51

Aroace#700

Agents

Agender#70

Agender#77

Agender#112

Agender#122

Agender#394

Aroace#2

Aroace#13

Aroace#24

Aroace#40

Aroace#76

Aroace#87

Aroace#110

Aroace#112

Aroace#113

Aroace#139

Aroace#300

Aroace#444

Aroace#567

Aroace#574

Aroace#700

Aro#28

Aro#32

Aro#59

Aro#96

Aro#111

Ace#2

Ace#4

Ace#5

Ace#009

ace#12

Ace#15

Ace#18

Ace#19

Ace#22

Ace#33

Ace#41

Ace#78

Ace#79

Ace#80

Ace#90

Ace#92

Ace#99

Ace#101

Ace#115

Ace#157

Ace#257

Ace#400

Ace#574

Ace#584

Ace#600

Ace#900

Rogue/Civilian Aspecs

Astra

Bata

Boo

Cara

Chrom

Cosmic

Emily

Eri

Gwyn

Hawk

Kiyanna

Lazy

Magpie

Mango

Mari

Max

Mikayla

Music

Poet

Popper

Rowan

Scatter

Sev

Silvern

Sofus

Tammy

T'hy'la

Tord

Twain

Zach

#aspec initiative center #master post #agent code number

[gloriousbookwyrm]

Some stuff I drew based on the Void in the Initiative Center ‘Verse. I love alien skies, so this was a lot of fun. I might do some more.

#digital art #the void #alien skies #aspec initiative center

[gingermaple]

Instead of prepping for Artfight or sleeping like a normal person I decided to doodle this at 4am last night while slipping in and out of consciousness.

(Me & Hyacinth in the @aspecinitiativecenter universe coffee shop)

#art #doodle #dragon #aspec initiative center #aic #aspecinitiativecenter #Hyacinth #i finished this and immediately passed out

[ace-number15]

Report Date: 6/30/2019 Agent Code Number: Ace#15 Assigned District: Alabama Current Status: In Transit

Current Mission:  Assess Shadow and Aspec Hunt activity in the Alabama district. Establish safe house location within the district.

Mission Report: Began moving through Alabama. As expected, Aspec Hunt activity lessened outside of the capital. Shadow activity was nonexistent. The shadows do not exist. However, a few locations without shadow activity were found, but were not suited for a safe house for other reasons. Assessment: More time will need to be devoted to finding a suitable location for a safe house.

Additional Details: Privately owned land isn’t a good place for a safe house, but basically every acre of land out here is owned by someone. Been looking two days and still haven’t found a big enough place to settle down that wasn’t infested with shadows. I’ll report back once I finally have a location.

@aspecinitiativecenter

#aic #aspec initiative center #aspecinitiativecenter #ace15 #ace number15 #formal report #fuckin hot as shit i hate summer so much

[astriiformes]

Hi! This might be a slightly odd question and a bit hard to answer, if you're willing, but when you're writing fic from at least some level of 'i headcanon this character as trans/ace/etc' ... how do you actually find the story for the fic? I'm asking because i've got some headcanons i really want to write a fic about, but i don't normally write at all and can't get a grip on a beginning idea i could turn into an actual story rather than a list of headcanons :/

Oh this is actually a fantastic question! I am a little biased, but I personally love when people write fics that include headcanons but also have at least some loose plot going on beyond just being a coming out scene (and it's a common comment I get on my stories, saying other people are excited that I tend to write actual Narratives in my headcanon fics, so I think you're already on the right track by asking how to do the same yourself!)

I think my primary advice on the topic is to think about your headcanon, but to also think about a theme related to your headcanon -- something that would be different about or more prominent in a character's life if they were [x], something they might have fears or, conversely, joys about, how canon might be different or a different angle it would bring out if the headcanon was true. Saying "I want to write a fic about this character being trans" is great, but broad, and broad tends to offer less in the way of plot/story ideas in my experience. Thinking instead about experiences that character would have if they were trans tends to afford a lot more potential plot bunnies.

I'll offer a few examples from my own ongoing/past/future projects to help you see what I mean. Most of my stories have stemmed from expanding a single specific theme or idea, which has given me:

I Breathed a Song Into the Air, my aroace Legolas fic, which started with me wanting to explore the sort of nebulous but nonetheless extraordinarily committed relationship that Legolas and Gimli have. It's equally easy to interpret as platonic/queerplatonic or romantic, and lots of people have written one or the other, so in that I personally saw the perfect opportunity to dig into a much more complicated look at aspec relationship dynamics by sort of making it...... both, or in this case, platonic for one of them, romantic for the other, and extremely messy as a result. Basically, I took that ambiguity and ran with it, and wove in my headcanon thoughts from there

The dual Back to the Future fics I'm working on right now that center a reading of Marty as transgender cropped up from me realizing a couple things I could dig into: 1) a theme, and 2) realizing that the headcanon made one thing in canon much more complicated. I have a lot of feelings about time travel as a metaphor/thematic lens for transgender experiences, and realizing how much I could expand on the strong parallels between different versions of yourself existing in alternate timelines and similarly different "versions" of yourself existing throughout your life gave me a great starting point. I also realized that doing a time travel/“period” piece was a great opportunity to dig into transgender history, which is a topic I love, and recruited a librarian friend of mine to help me dig into a bunch of primary sources from the 1980s, which ended up affording me way more plot than I had initially planned out!

I have one story I haven't actually buckled down to tackle but that has existed in my mind for a while that would center an aroace take on Luke Skywalker, specifically dealing with the transition period after RotJ of the Rebellion shifting into the New Republic -- and conversely, Luke looking at his friends and family and realizing that everyone else is moving on in ways he isn't ever going to (especially Han and Leia, who are moving towards getting married and having a family!). Melding together that idea of a galaxy in transition and a group of people in life transitions -- and the fear of getting left behind as everything changes -- was the spark that gave me a whole plot.

Broader here, but for characters from speculative fiction stories in particular, it can also be inspirational to think about the worldbuilding around queer experiences in their universe -- I've had some fantastic conversations with friends about things like trans healthcare in the Star Wars universe (and how the Rebellion might not be the best equipped for it!), how different fantasy races feel about sexuality and gender in worlds like Middle Earth, and etc that have absolutely helped inspire my writing.

Basically, I would say think about why that headcanon compels you so much! Is it because there's an experience of yours it means a lot to you to imagine that character shares? Is there a story in that? Is it because there's something in canon that you think makes it feel like a particularly interesting or compelling reading? How does that blend with the themes of the work of fiction itself, or with some of the relationships that character has with others? If you play around with the core of why you like the headcanon, or what it would look like or how it could change things in in canon, or what else it adds to it as a reading, it's not uncommon for a plot -- or at least a theme of some kind, that you might be able to develop into something larger -- to fall out in the process.

Happy writing, and I hope I’ve helped give you some ideas for getting started! Like I said, I adore when people write queer headcanon fics with a bit more depth and narrative, and I love that it's something you want to try your hand at.

[chasingshhadows]

Y'all these last six months or so have been a fucking trip for me okay.

Cuz like, having regular sex for the most consecutive months in my life, and still never getting off or ever once feeling ~that way~ you're "supposed" to feel during sex with my partner, I finally start to think for the first time in my 28 years that huh. Maybe I just... don't like sex?

Which is almost fucking stupid cuz asexuality is not some new concept for me, my best friend of nearly 10 years is a proud and open ace, and several other aspec folks have fallen into my bestie circle since.

But hey, allonormativity is a hell of a drug.

Anyway, almost immediate immense relief followed by one epiphany after another.

And months of these revelations later (aka tonight) I randomly have the thought about how, despite my normally rather peppy and talkative personality, I would always go really quiet during sex. No talking.

And for YEARS I thought it was some cute quirk and waxxed poetic about how it must calm and center me or some bullshit and it was ONLY JUST NOW at nearly 29 years of age that I realized

I WAS FUCKING TRAUMATIZED AND TRIGGERED???

Which like, no fucking shit??? Of course I was?? How could I not be, first of all, and second of all, allonormativity is a HELL of fucking drug cuz I how did I miss that??

And after getting over the initial aha moment, and my absolutely hysterical laughter had died down, I literally just shrugged and was like

"Oops" 😅

#asexuality #asexual #queer #aspec #chasing rambles #like honestly wow tho #but I had to laugh at my reaction #cw trauma #personal #notrnm #ace culture #queer things #*mine

[doeantler]

buck.

because of its accompanying personal and spiritual connotations, it seemed appropriate to source this here rather than elsewhere.

"buck" is a term i coined for myself to describe the conjunction and grander picture of my gender and sexuality, and my experience with it. while broader-known terms may be more convenient, yes, they often shoot wide of those whose experiences are just different enough to need explaining if asked, and otherwise, present an image of the person in question that isn't entirely accurate. it's for this reason i call myself a buck, and this can be considered the briefest overview of the full extent of my feelings and associations with this word. what it is to be a buck is reflected heavily in the animals responsible for the inspiration. "buck", in of itself, might be a toned word to some, but to myself it neither has the more masculine potency of a word like "stag", or the inherently feminine connotations of "doe". rather, it seems to sit at the in-between in phonetic context, and that was a detail i found great comfort in. the buck, in initial impression, is portrayed as the youthful and indecisive up-and-comer, whose identity is as free-running as the legs that carry it, and whose malleability is their strength.

to see myself as a buck in terms of my gender, there is a heavily-continued play on this notion. while i find myself at the crossroads with little to no care to speak of in most instances, it is with an immense pull and sudden timing that i often find myself in throes of identity shift, whether preferring roles more reserved and soft, or those more assertive, protective, perhaps even brash. the catch is that neither is well defined for themselves either - a buck without antlers is just as easily mistaken a doe; a doe who grows antlers is just as quickly viewed a buck, and those distinctions themselves are pliable in the wider whole. whether i feel crowned in bone or soft and alight, there is no real difference in essence, there is only what i feel in the moment. i find comfort in femininity as much as i do masculinity, while all the same finding myself at the comfortable median and beyond, and to be able to succinctly describe these feelings in the way of something as easy analogued in nature as the cyclical appearance of one of the animals i hold most dear is a wonderful sense of finality to me; the determination of the change of the season, and great-given care to the direction of my soul.

the same is easily said in my sexuality. in of itself, it is a fleeting thing that would otherwise bring me to believe i might be aspec were it not for the periods it isn't. i experience my attraction in ways not unlike a rut, not for the less than savory connotations, but rather in the spark of the moment, grandiose way it manifests, that it may be of little care initially and make itself attention-centering later on, only to see-saw between. as mspec, it truly does feel like "flashes" of moments where i have a great amount of noticed attraction and recognized attractiveness, though just as easily it may mute itself to a point of disappearance, and the confusion was something i struggled with for a long time. it was enough to bring me to conclude that there was little importance in trying to continue this odd goose chase of my matters of attraction, and that it would be better to listen to myself in those contrasting times with less judgment. the determination of the change of the season, and great-given care to the direction of my soul.

the spiritual aspects may be a bit more obvious, just considering my url here and the main figure i work with. but to be a buck honors both myself and those i draw near in my spirituality by taking on the title. it lessens much of the stress that seems to be pushed nowadays, to find some specific words and hammer them into your core if only for a fraction of the chance to be properly understood in your experience. that thinking never served me, and as i grow to understand and work with myself more, to make this term for myself and come to a proper conception of its indications has been almost freeing. whether i feel like the antlered doe or the menstrual buck, it is all me, the spectrum within, and it is a very personal and fulfilling thing and the happiness it brings me is something i wish for everyone as they come to know themselves as they really are.

disclaimer: while this term and its description may seem similar to your experiences, the full connotations of "buck" are extremely personal to me and thus i don't promote this as a widespread term to be adopted; rather, this is only an explanation of myself and my feelings. thank you for understanding.

#to be buck

[cat-sapphics]

Hey!

I follow the" aroace lesbian" tag and your recent posts have come up in my feed so I just wanted to say that being arospec, acespec (demiromatic graysexual, both labels in the aromantic and asexual spectrums) & lesbian is completely OKAY and you should not let anyone tell you the contrary. Especially uneducated people so 😚🤍

Many aroaces use the term aroace to encompass being in both aromantic and asexual spectrums; this means you experience little to no romantic/sexual attraction and that's more than valid. You can be both arospec and aspec! 🔥 Or arospec and asexual. Aromantic and acespec 🥺🤝

The way YOU experience romantic and sexual attraction is just different to the average allo person, & that doesn't make it any less valid. Attraction is an abstract concept and we shouldn't be putting ourselves into boxes but letting feelings be that, feelings.

Your experiences are necessary and important to our diverse & big aro/ace communities as an aroace lesbian! An aspec person is that who experiences little to no romantic attraction. That's it. THAT'S OKAY 🥰

And being an aspec lesbian is more than valid too, it's not a contradictory term because the little and fluctuating romantic & sexual attraction you DO experience, is ONLY towards women/nb so; I don't see why lesbian isn't a term you can't use. A lesbian is a women/nb female aligned person who experiences romantic, sexual and/or emotional attraction towards women/nb female aligned people. Check, check & check ✅

All in all, ace lesbians, aro lesbians and aroace lesbians are ALL part of the lesbian community & our unique experiences with romance and sex are necessary and valid for it 💓

Sorry if this got long, hope I made my point clear. Aroace lesbians have always been lesbians so don't let any exclusionists steal your peace 🧡🤍💖

thank you!! thank ya thank ya thank ya!! i really appreciate it <3

i will say, i think some of the anons i got did make some valid points (obviously not everywhere you look but they at least gave me something to think about in general) but it really took me by surprise how condescending and disapproving they all were. super uneducated too, i said i experience attraction differently or at least less frequently than average allo people and like ?? that doesn't mean i'm secretly a self-hating lesbophobe ?? you don't get to determine that for me if i'm genuinely happy even though i participate in lesbian discourse and am passionate about keeping the definition specific and closed ?? lol i didn't redefine lesbian or take away its initial meaning so it really had me peeved

i think most of their comments reflect on how they don't believe in aromanticism and asexuality being a spectrum, which i guess i invited by my own doing since i have some conservative and exclusionary views on the lgbt community and that affects my following/audience, but my response to that is that i use these labels because they bring me personal comfort. when i say i'm demiromantic i don't mean that alloromantics have zero standards when it comes to a potential partner or are completely mesmerized by the idea of hook-ups, just that the connection they need to start crushing comes within a decent time period with a personal connection, but not a super strong and deep and loving one that makes it exceptionally hard to fall in love despite however much we may desire to. the label doesn't exist to imply something bad about """normal""" people, it exists to name an experience many people have but to an intense degree. so, yes, it's a pointless social construct, it probably means nothing to you and that's fine, but it still means something to me. i'm not crying oppression or marginalization, and i'm not claiming that i'm lgbt on the basis of being demiromantic/greyasexual, but through being a nonbinary lesbian. that's the difference between mspec lesbians and aspec lesbians, is one is actively harmful to multiple groups and actually Does spawn from a place of internalized lesbophobia and/or biphobia, and the other is just "mmk this is just for me and affects nothing at all, it doesn't drag you into anything at all, i still qualify for lesbian the way you (should!) see it as technically even if you do believe it's redundant, so just... leave me alone" cause it reflects more on them than me when they make it their business by unfairly assuming things about me

same applies to me being greyasexual. still trying to figure out if it means that i experience sexual/physical attraction less frequently, less intensely, or both, but does that matter?? genuinely?? this is also redundant but i didn’t wanna leave it out of the paragraph about me being demiro fk;ljslkgbdvhbs. the aro disapproval part isn’t acceptable at all but i can at least see it since romance is so normalized and is a core part of, y’know, lgb relationships; the greyace disapproval however....... i don’t wanna label it as acephobia because i don’t really believe in aphobia being a thing, but it still kinda rubs me wrong to claim that sexual/physical attraction is a requirement ykyk... NOTHING WRONG WITH PEOPLE WHO HAVE SEX OF COURSE (i myself kinda wanna try someday if that works out) i just think frowning upon someone who doesn’t UNLESS they try to claim they’re lgbt on that basis is.................. not really cool. i really hope people who read this understand what i’m trying to say and don’t label me as an ace inclus who thinks aphobia and oppression are real, i was just trying to make a point about my personal experiences oops lmao

and then it became "aroace means NO ATTRACTION AT ALL" okay... so i'm angled aroace, that's a sub-term since aroace is literally an umbrella term, actually (unlike lesbian, shit's complicated ykyk). "YOU'RE NOT AROACE THEN"....... they don't even like the idea of oriented aroace now either, so like, what then, are aroace people just never allowed to feel love or positive feelings from other people ever? jesus christ. i'm not even getting into this, i consider aro/ace identities to be secondary to describe one's attraction so this debate should not be as important as, say, discourse centering the L, G, B, or T. it's just dumb all around tbh

hope i addressed all the arguments against it, but i can't really care at this point if i missed something :/ i'll probably get a mean anon about it so don't worry!! /s jslgjgjkshkj;lhfp

speaking of, i've had to delete so many anons and even turn off the option to ask anonymously because of this discourse. it's so pointless in my opinion, so i've just stopped giving them my time unless i think it's worth answering - but even then, i try to keep it fairly short. i genuinely was not expecting my take on (cishet) ace discourse to turn into myself failing to be seen as a "real lesbian" despite literally meeting its definitive qualifications and then it just kept building up ?? stan behavior tbh, especially since plenty of them obviously come from the same users

i apologize for the rant. i just never really felt like i'd be listened to if i tried to explain my identity, so i gave up and just tried to ignore my way out of it. so i really genuinely appreciate your ask, especially since i can identify you. it really feels like i actually have someone on my side now, so even if you ever disagree i'd know you wouldn't harass me about it. it really means a lot, i really needed this from you and i don't wanna dump more shit but i feel that you deserve to know. so thank you again <3

#ask #thegyusorcerer #not anon #lesbian discourse #aroace lesbian #aspec #demiromantic #greyasexual #aromantic #asexual #lesbian #aro discourse #ace discourse #aspec discourse #lgbt discourse #really sorry for the dump lol i just always have a lot to say about everything all the time #i'm okay i promise it's just frustrating #i've been to twitter for 2 years so trust me cause tumblr cannot do a comparable amount of damage lmfao #and it's literally just discourse. the only thing that really gets to me is the possibility of being hypocritial #if i WANT to take a break i will #again thank u so much for the ask #hope this isn't too much :') #pridecat rants

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About this Blog

In the 2010's a Tumblr blog called aceproblems started a community based roleplay game inspired by a few different table top roleplay games (ttrpg's). The premise they created was that aces had powers, and were being hunted by Shadows and the Hunt. This was done in response to the rampant aphobia occurring at this time, as a way to cope and have an escape from the increasing hostility towards our community online.

However, the blog eventually became inactive until we started this Tumblr blog, with some changes in response to some of the issues with the first blog. First, the premise was broadened to all aromantics and agender people, and not just aces, as the original blog focussed on aces too much. Second, powers were formalized and limitations set, as the original blog had overpowered aces by far too much. Third, roleplay was formalized with a Discord server (link leads to the server-once you enter the server you MUST obtain a role from staff before leaving or else you will be booted from the server as a precaution against trolls). Lastly, community efforts were started to find people to generate Initiative Centers for the other communities within the broader LGBT+ community.

As a result of these efforts, the Rainbow Plane Universe was born. This is essentially a community-based roleplay game where people have powers based on their orientation and gender identities. The Aspec Division of this Universe is the Aspec Initiative Center (AIC) for those under the asexual, aromantic, and agender umbrella identities. The premise is that these groups are 4 dimensional beings with the ability to access the 4th and 3rd dimensions and travel in between them, and have special powers as a result of being 4 dimensional. These beings are hunted by the Aspec Hunt, made up of anyone except known Aspecs, and Shadows, menacing beings from the Shadow Realm, a place in between the 4th and 3rd dimensions that Aspecs must travel through in order to get to 4D space where the Void is.

#20th #March #2020 #March 20th 2020 #aic #aspec initiative center #commander speaks

[aroace567]

So, the Tatsumaki Discord bot recently got added to the AIC, and…yeah. The level up system is terrifying.

#aspec roleplay #tatsumaki #discord #aspec initiative center

[ace-number15]

Report Date: 6/28/2019 Agent Code Number: Ace#15 Assigned District: Alabama Current Status: Arrived

Current Mission: Assess Shadow and Aspec Hunt activity in the Alabama district. Establish safe house location within the district.

Mission Report: Arrived in Montgomery, AL. Found a small but not-insignificant amount of Aspec Hunt activity in the city. It is likely that Hunt activity will decrease outside of the capital. Shadows present in Montgomery but not by any unusual amount. Assessment: Not an ideal location for a safe house. More of the district must be explored.

Additional Notes: The Aspec Hunt in Montgomery talks big, but it’s all air. I was able to keep under the radar and get what I needed without being spotted. They’re a pain in the rear, though. Not staying here longer than I need to. -Ace#15

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#aic #aspec initiative center #aspecinitiativecenter #formal report #ace15