#at least I don't have work tomorrow I guess

[yletylyf]

WIP Wednesday MLC edition

I've never remembered to do this in time before! I'm working on a fic where Di Feisheng decides to kidnap Li Lianhua to save his life in episode 13, instead of threaten Fang Duobing. Li Lianhua's cooperation remains about as you'd expect for a good while, but now they're finally communicating:

Li Xiangyi broke the silence first. "I thought you needed the Yang leaf for yourself, to break through the eighth level of bitterwind poplar," Li Xiangyi said steadily. "It was only a guess that it might work," Di Feisheng said dismissively. "I'll try it if anyone ever finds a second flower." Li Xiangyi stared at him, his pupils very large. He breathed shallowly, and seemed to find no words. "You said you don't need me to live a long life," Li Xiangyi eventually managed, sounding distinctly hurt. Di Feisheng didn't know what to say. Without Li Xiangyi, Di Feisheng being alive didn't mean anything. Maybe the truth was that neither of them were destined to live long lives. Either way, he wasn't going to explain himself to Li Xiangyi. Li Xiangyi peered back down at the paper, running a finger over some of the characters. "It's not certain to work," he said eventually. "The Yin leaf will work on anyone, sure. But the Yang leaf might not cure me. I've had Bicha poison for so many years and my inner power is too spent." Di Feisheng frowned. The flaws in this logic were painfully obvious. "And what if you spent this time building up your inner power instead of resisting it? We should be dual cultivating together, and when you get the wangchuan flower, I will feed you as much of my power as you can take. Bitterwind poplar seeks survival in dangerous situations. I think with it, your odds would not be so low." Li Xiangyi bent his head so that Di Feisheng could not see his face. He didn't say anything. His chest rose and fell very rapidly. But when he looked up again, he seemed calm and unaffected. "I see," he said. "It wasn't that I don't know you. It's just that we've been misunderstanding each other these days." Di Feisheng sighed, and bent down to take his boots off. He sat down on the bed next to Li Xiangyi. "We can talk about dual cultivating tomorrow," Di Feisheng said wearily. "It's late. Can we put the candles out and sleep?" "You want to sleep here?" Li Xiangyi said, giving him an inscrutable look. "Is your fortress missing a bed suitable for the alliance leader?" Jiao Liqiao had cornered Di Feisheng in what was theoretically his bedroom yesterday, wanting to help him change and bathe. He could not bear to sleep there tonight. He didn't say anything, but waved a hand, putting out the candles, and then lowered himself down onto the bed. Li Xiangyi made a sound that might have been laughter. "At least this bed is larger than the one we shared in Lotus Tower," he said, settling down beside Di Feisheng. It was much larger, although Di Feisheng was not sure that was a good thing. It had been nice, to be that close to Li Xiangyi, brushing against each other's limbs, waking up almost entwined. He fell asleep dreaming of Li Xiangyi's skin.

#mysterious lotus casebook #wip wednesday #dihua #my fic

[wikiangela]

tease tidbit tuesday💀

tagged by @alliaskisthepossibilityoflove @daffi-990 @fortheloveofbuddie @disasterbuckdiaz @hoodie-buck 💖

hi! so, yesterday I randomly opened the doc with the buddie death cast au - which is a fic I started writing last summer on vacation and never got back to it but then made progress lol it's gonna be MCD, which i know is not everyone's thing so feel free to ignore this 🤣 it's basically buddie in the universe of the "they both die at the end"/"the first to die at the end" books so it's gonna be sad, sorry lol (I never even read mcd, idk why i'm writing this but this idea just wants to be written i guess haha) gotta put this weird mood I've been in lately to good use and finally write this 🤣 not sure if I'm happy with this snippet, but it all needs editing, the first two snippets were written on my phone and haven't been edited yet lol

I posted two snippets so far, gonna link them both snippet 1 | snippet 2

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“Is all of this clear, Eddie?” she asks in the end.

“Yeah, sure, whatever.” he says shortly. He should've just hung up immediately. Or cancel this stupid subscription after Shannon died. Sometimes he wonders if maybe people who get the calls and coincidentally get into accidents, for example, just give up and refuse to fight because they think it’s their time. Not like Shannon could do much, her injuries were too severe when they got there, but the point stands. Maybe they get more reckless, thinking it doesn’t matter anyway. 

There’s a short pause on the line, but then Jane speaks up again, her tone softer, more sympathy seeping through.

“I know it’s not easy to accept, if you’d like some help with that, on out website you can find therapists and grief counselors specializing in-”

“Listen.” Eddie interrupts. He’s spent enough time in therapy. He’s not doing it on his supposedly last day. “I know it’s all bullshit. I don’t care. You said what you had to say, I listened, for whatever reason.” he rolls his eyes. He really should’ve hung up, or not answered at all. “Is this conversation over yet?” he asks and is met with another moment of silence. She’s probably wondering what everyone else always is: why is he even spending money on this if he doesn’t believe. He has an answer ready to go, but that’s not what she asks.

“Can I ask you a question?” she says quieter, whispering, probably not allowed to go too much off-script. 

“Sure, why not.” he shrugs. He’s wide awake now, anyway, he’s not in a hurry. Not like he’s dying anytime soon.

“If it was your last day, how would you spend it? You don’t have to answer, just think about it.” she adds quickly, her tone much softer and gentler now. Eddie’s mind immediately supplies a picture of Christopher and Buck, just a casual hang-out, like usual, maybe going to the movies, or the aquarium, or the planetarium, something fun for his kid. And later a gathering with the rest of their family, maybe a barbecue at Bobby and Athena’s, with Maddie and Chim, and Hen and Karen, all their kids, just everyone having fun together. Yeah, that’d be a perfect day. “There’s no harm in spending today just like this, if possible. Just in case.” Jane adds, still whispering. He doesn’t tell her that’s more or less his plan, anyway, for the evening after his 12-hour shift. During which nothing will happen to him, because Death-Cast doesn’t know shit. “Well, lastly, Eddie,” Jane’s voice is back at normal-volume, tone strictly professional but sympathetic, as she recites the end of her script, “on behalf of everyone here at Death-Cast, we’re so sorry to lose you. Live this day to the fullest.”

Eddie hangs up without a word.

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#tease tidbit tuesday #death cast buddie au #buddie wip #buddie fic #buddie #wikiangela writes #my writing #fic snippet #my wips #angst #buddie angst #mcd #i don't know how yet but eddie will die in this one bc apparently ive been in the mood to break my own heart lmao #i wanted to say maybe i'd share smth happier tomorrow but i don't think i have any happy wips im actively working on rn??? #there are happy wips in general but im not really in the mood/inspired for those rn #ran out of happy when i finished the natalia fic i guess lol #who even am i lmao what's with all the angst and sad im usually all about fluff 🤣 #(gonna share some more of alive shannon tomorrow!) #btw if you haven't read the books and have questions hmu but also i'll try to make everything clear in the fic lol #but also SO recommend the books they're so good and so sad and I think about them like at least once a week (the prequel wrecked me)

[kozidraws]

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#gonna ramble about irl here so people don't have to read it unless they want to #so because I got covid and couldn’t leave my bed I've essentially lost my job #I've told my manager I'm okay to go back to work #even if my body is still sore #but she's only given me a 3 hour shift a week #and you guessed it! #it's the late shift #the one where it takes me almost 2 hours to get home from #she's being so petty with me #and I am so behind in rent #I've applied for government assistance and I have a meeting with them tomorrow #I really hope they can help because I feel awful #I'm also annoyed at myself because I can't find my knee brace ANYWHERE #I thought I could find one for around $10 but nope! #the closest stores selling them are like $25+ so that's fun #I don't know when I'll be able to draw again #I'm so stressed again about money and secueing work #hopefully once I can get govt assistance at least I can enjoy life again #also I tried to ask the zine that still owes me money if they could finally send payment but they still keep delaying it with excuses #I'm so desperate it's shameful

[confetti-critter]

The night is young and I am free to do whatever my heart desires but unfortunately I have once again found myself trapped in the Time Prison and so I

#the good old 'I don't feel like doing anything including doing nothing and I want to go to bed but I know I'm not tired' #WEH. #I'm enjoying typing but I don't want to commit to practicing typing for real so I'm just making excuses to type more #I was looking at custom ESC keycaps because I was thinking about that whole community of ppl obsessed with keyboards and like I get it I #like the clicky clacking and keyboards can look so pretty but some of those key caps man wtf. #why would you want 3D transparent donald duck ESC key from temu what is wrong with you #saw a set of key caps that were little kittys with little kitty ears n I was like fuuuuuuuuuck #49.00 USD probably 100000 CAD+shipping goto helllll #I was thinking about what if I had like confetti keycaps and a custom kittycake esc key or like an actual little cake and matching desk mat #or even just a new cute mousepad cuz mine is old as fuck and I spilled vegetable cream stew on it once #and then I was thinking like sighhh and wouldn't it be cool to have arcade carpet on the stairs leading down to my basement hovel and #rainbow lights along the ceiling corners and what if I painting my bedroom like I wanted to do and sighhhhh #I haven't been wasting my money buying shit like that but I'm thinking about it again. #but the same thing stopping me from doing anything at all is stopping me from wasting my money which like that's good I guess??????? #gosh I really like typing why did I stop doing daily typing practice #oh yea The Thing Stopping Me From Doing Anything At All #meow meowm meow meow meow #ok I really gotta tear myself away from my computer and brush my teethses and try going to bed #I already played minecraft earlier it's fine I didn't do NOTHING tonight it just feels like I did #and tomorrow is another day #and next week is a short work week thank fucking christ almighty #literally cuz its easter sunday and he was in that tomb but he escaped or whatever he did #thanks jeezy boy #you maybe shoulda milked it for like half a week at least #moved the big ass boulder like have an inch at a time #*pause for laughter* #that s from my new stand up comedy routine do uiuop like it djfskll;askjdgflksjdflksajdflksjdf the dsjalkjfolidasfgjoiweljsdalkjflskdjflak #meowww #I am the only one I know on here who 'talks' this fucking much about absolutely nothing #I do all this and my poor followers can click read more and spend time reading alllllll this garbage

[thotsfortherapy]

i used to be really nervous about going back to my hometown because ‘what if i run into someone i don’t like‘ but like. the few times that has happened the people who have done be dirty have just 100% ignored me/run away from me. even despite me trying to be like heyyy. lol. which i guess means im a lot more confrontational than other ppl....

#lowkey bothers me though cause im like bruh you were so rude to me in highschool and youre gonna act like im the bad guy........ #can you just own up to it and we can get it over with?? now it's awkward!!! #like im so down to have a positive interaction and not have to have this bitter taste in my mouth anymore.. #also the way that multiple of these ppl work at a starbucks that i frequent #and had to take my order #LIKE I GAVE YOU MY NAME YOU OBVIOUSLY RECOGNIZE ME #idk i feel like if it were my me i would just apologize and get it over with #cy says stuff #personal #truth is i am a lot better with confrontation than other ppl but that's cause i was forced to learn those skills at a younger age.. #it is kind of cringe that ppl don't wanna face their past or own up to their past mistakes ngl #anyways... my friend invited me to go to starbucks tomorrow and i am probably gonna run into the same girl who would spread rumors about me #and constantly update me on my ex despite me asking her not to #and also called me stupid for not doing well on a quiz i literally wasn't there for........ #thing is no one liked her i was just nice to her cause i am a nice person.. and then she was so mean to me... like wtf... #and when i told her i didnt want to sit next to her anymore cause she was mean to me she started bawling #like damn girl okay i still dont want to be your friend though cause you kind of suck #and i guess she still holds that against me to this day lol. or at least the last time i saw her which was like. december #anyways im hella jetlagged and i woke up at midnight again. intrusive thoughts go brr #it'll be fine i am strong

[wickedhawtwexler]

i am genuinely having the worst day i've had in a very long time!!!

#on top of all the shit i have already complained about today: i was supposed to have an appointment with my doctor today #to refill my adhd meds and she never showed up and i have TWO (2) pills left before i have to resort to the meds that barely worked #i found someone on zoc doc who has an appointment for tomorrow afternoon but last time i tried to book thru zoc doc there were issues #so idk!!! i'm probably not going to get an appointment until next week. so that's fucking great!!! #i literally scheduled time off next week with the intention of focusing on my writing but fuck me i guess!!! #at least i have time off so i don't have to be a worthless piece of shit at work!!!! #i'm trying so hard not to have a full on sobbing breakdown at work lmao #m.txt

[catchmewjsn]

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#honestly they moved me to a different office right now so im not alone in my place anymore and tbh i should not be complaining bc at least #this one gets warn fast and im not in the open first to call usually and all but idk i feel like an intruder there and miss having lots of #place and the fact noone seen my screen etc and just overall i would prefer sitting next to the guys but also 😶 idk i just dont like anyone #hearing my phone calls etc and also i fucked up at work today BADLY but noone knows yet and this sounds like i fuck up a lot but i always #called the smaller mistakes this too i guess shskd also i almsof argued with a man who's our client on the phone but for gods sake i do know #i am right and idk if he's making me feel stupid or something or is he using one of my mistakes for his own good idk idk idk it will be a #nightmare to make this work now #and also we are having some kind of meeting with food etc tomorrow in the office upstairs but also rhe atmosphere is so not it and dudes not #at work tomorrow and he should be the one in there and like idk it all works like a fucked up chaos i also almost argued with the d irector #today bc of this lmao almost on dude's behalf bc tht waa the situation that pissed me off first #and i got to walk or catch a bus home tomorrow and like my mind does work so fast and keeps overthinking lately 😕 #walking isnt the best best for me tbh #also i made plans with my friend and i do hope i open to her during the weekend bc i want to talk about everything so badly but at the same #time idk like i cant talk about personal things anymore (except here) she doesn't know what is making w suffer 😔 #i think i made a decision about monday tho not the best one but both were bad so at least here i am... #anyone i am still helpless and that's what the sentence will end at bc i don't want to say the same thing again and again and again #anywya i have to delete this bc its too much details soon

[pikachu-deluxe]

tried to play some ctgp today but turns out i had to download 70+ updates bc i hadn't played it in years oops

#had to wait like 6 hours for it to fully update #did play like 20 minutes offline tho #just to test out the stuff i put in my stuff folder in case i broke something #i did in fact break the menus bc i shouldn't be replacing menu files in ctgp to add custom character portraits #that's literally all i changed #but the menus break bc i guess ctgp adds some stuff there that's just gone if i replace it #like the arrows to change between cups and the extra cup logos #so it was just a glitchy mess it was a miracle it worked at all #i'll just take the menu files out of the my stuff folder tomorrow #bc i don't really need those for the custom characters to work it's just for the menu to look nice and #to have the custom characters' portraits appear instead of the original ones #the only thingi need for the characters to work is just the kart files and stuff not the menu things #so yeah #i also need to remember how to play mkwii again #bc i kept bumpinginto things or going into the offroad at least a few times per race while i was testing if it worked #and burning out bc i have the mk8dx timing in mind whenthe countdown starts #i'll go online tomorrow tho once i rember how the game works

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#sometimes u have a day thats just so. i cant even. its seems 2023 is my year of rage #directionless rage. i guess im mad at me but instead of being directed inward it just goes out into empty space #im just fucking. im at my saturation point #its a good thing i stopped taking measurements yesterday and went to the store tomorrow bc im so fucking #mostly bc i noticed a problem with the code for a paper that is fucking less than a day away from being locked in on acceptance #and now its like fucking i have to go through and change a lot and im also less than 48hrs away from another massive project starting #that will occupy my whole fucking waking nightmare of a life. so its a good thing im level headed. its a good thing i can accept my fuck #ups with honestly. bc im so fucking. ive had it. im up to fucking here with everything and i just want it to be done #im fucking full of bitterness and black bile and i want to break things. and whose fault is it? fucking mine #bc im too fucking exhausted constantly all the time to fucking pay attention to what im doing and notic that a fucking function isnt #working properly. fuck u fuck u fuck u. so what r we gonna do abt it? #idk well see what my boss says. i already texted her that news and its good bc at least i caught it but god its so fucking irritating #god. will i b told off for this? maybe. i probably deserve it. haha if so that will send me for an absolute tailspin. i cannot stand to #feel ive done something wrong. even when i kno i have. last time i had a total freakout meltdown and made v bad choices and that wasnt even #this bad. so its a good thing im currently fairly stable bc the desire to make bad choices is very strong #im just so sick and tired of everything and i want to let things implode bc im vindictive against myself. but we must not do that we must #be reasonable. so idk we may have to withdraw the paper. whatever i dont give a fuck. itll get accepted elsewhere. i dont fucking care #leave me alone to dissolve into the dirt and set my data ablaze to be helpful to no one. erase my Prospective impack. i don't fucking care #anyway today sucked. i might have to stay up all night trying to fix this. ensuring that i fuck up the start of the looming project yayyyyy #i hate it here. i stopped having fun over a year ago #itll b fine. im just fucking. im full im impotent rage #unrelated

[mystery-star]

My mental health: Do something and get active! Being passive all day is gonne make you have another mental breakdown! My migraine: No, don't you dare. Move just one muscle or focus on something too long and I will give you a headache from hell! Mental health: But bro, she needs to do something or she'll crumble. Maybe sleep? Migraine: LET HER TRY AND SEE HER FAIL. Me: Thanks guys, really. I'm supposed to cure both of you right now.

#this is fun #i need to see the doctor tomorrow so i can be declared sick for longer #like i kinda wanna work but don't have the motivation #aka headache is in the way #just the perfect combo for that situation #if i could at least get rid of the migraine #then i could focus on healing the rest #oh well #I guess I'll watch a movie downstairs #to quote my mum 'some silly funny little movie you have seen before and needn't focus too much' #sounds like Mystery alaska to me #which i still need to finish

[angiestown]

oh my fucking god okay

so back in early april I ordered a pair of earbuds. over a month went by and no updates from the company about them being shipped or anything, so I email them like "hey what's up where's my earbuds??" and they replied very quickly like "your order has been shipped out, here is your tracking number :)". the tracking shows that the label was created right after I emailed them, but whatever they showed up like a week later and they're great. pretty good quality considering they were only $30

then a month later I get an automated email saying my order has been shipped. I assume they just realized they forgot to close out my order. I click on the tracking expecting it to say delivered, but it's a new tracking number for a new package so I guess I'm getting more earbuds?

then a week later a completely flat package arrives at my house. earbuds got run over or something during shipping I guess and now I gotta deal with hazardous waste bc of the damaged batteries. I hum and haw whether I'm gonna just leave it at that or push my luck and email them about it, but I look up online and they just got bought out by a massive $75B company so I decide fuck it and give it a go. customer service is super nice and they're like "we'll mail it out and send you a tracking number in 1-3 business days :)"

well anyway over two weeks go by and no email so I was gonna leave it, but people keep pestering me bc they want to see a conclusion to this story, so two days ago I email them asking for an update and they reply very quickly like "your order has been shipped out, here is your tracking number :)" and again the tracking shows that the label wasn't created until after I emailed them, but now it's expected to show up in two days so I think they sent it with faster shipping to avoid pissing me off lmao

anyway two very thoroughly bubble wrapped packages arrived at my house just now, each containing earbuds and stickers. so yeah if you want good decently priced earbuds check out jlab I guess but don't tell them I sent you lmao

#IN OTHER NEWS my dad has been out of work since early february bc of his back #just under two weeks ago he was supposed to go back to working full time but then he got appendicitis and had to stay home again #thursday he was supposed to go back to working again but now he has covid bc he was in the hospital for a night #and also I probably have covid now too I've been feeling the symptoms creep up on me all day #he says it's the least painful thing he's dealt with this year #and so far my symptoms are mild enough that I don't think I would've noticed if I wasn't actively monitoring myself #but we'll see how I'm doing tomorrow I guess

[kittyhazelnut]

i am losing my fucking miiiiind

#i have a new years eve 'party' with a few friends tomorrow and I made the mistake of mentioning to friend N that I was gonna make cookies #and fudge to bring because. you know. i like cookies and fudge. duh. self-explanatory. i want to bring cookies and fudge. #and N (who i stg needs to be With Her Friends at least six days a week or she will die or something) was like 'we should bake them #together that morning!' #and i knew i couldn't say no because any time I say no or that I don't want to do something or that I don't like something it becomes #a fucking interrogation so i was like fine. whatever. we can bake them together. #except THEN she said that she doesn't like fudge!!! so let's not make fudge!!! oh but actually she has a gReAt cookie recipe from her #baking class last semester! we should use that! and we should make cupcakes too! #and i'm like GIRL????? THE WHOLE GODDAMN POINT WAS THAT I WANTED SOME MOTHERFUCKING FUDGE???? #so fine. whatever. i just made fudge and I can cut it up tomorrow and bring it like i'd planned #because i knew if i said i really wanted to make fudge with her she'd get all pouty and 'pretend she's fine' but not really #and i didn't want to deal with that. i know how to make fudge. i can make my own fudge. #and then she mentioned that she didn't really like vanilla cupcakes but hey we can totally make both vanilla and chocolate cupcakes! #which is great because i like both! so that works out really well! #well i offered to bring the vanilla cake mix and guess what. #no come on guess #you'll never guess #she said i didn't have to worry about that because she doesn't really like vanilla cupcakes :D #GIRL??? WE HAD THIS CONVERSATION???? #AND she said she'd buy the ingredients and waited until today and then had a panic attack and didn't leave the house SO that's gonna cut #into our baking time tomorrow. which honestly I would be thrilled about if her two solutions were either I meet her at the store at #baking o'clock OR she goes shopping first thing and then we still meet at her house at baking o'clock #like no! go buy them! i'll meet you at baking:30 #I'll meet you at baking + one hour #i lack the mental capacity for this I stg #i wish she had more than three friends because she's the only friend I see on a regular basis and it's still not nearly enough for her #OOOOH FRIEND H WITH THE CLUTCH! SHE SAYS SHE PREFERS CHOCOLATE CUPCAKES SO WE'RE MAKING BOTH NOW #you know. if we have time. since we have to buy the ingredients first. #it's gonna be a trainwreck i already know it #we baked together one (1) time and that was my birthday cake (and I tried to say I didn't like x flavor and she was like 'but whyyy it's so

[parakeetpark]

I'm super ill so I'm rewatching The Phantom of the Paradise in between sneezing and blowing my nose. Every so often I switch to a different film with William Finley in it that I'm watching purely because I need More of Anything Related to POTP Now or I will die

Also I'm considering trying out making video edits because of this film. There's not enough content to fuel the hyperfixation and I'm gonna do the "make the Content You wish to see in the world" thingy. I know they take a lot of work but I'm so hyperfixated and ready to dive in

#this has been a really weird time mostly bc this is NOT how my hyperfixations manifest #i do not rewatch films immediately after first viewing. usually i have to wait at least 6 months to watch again #and yet #I've rewatched Nope 2022 a few weeks ago and now I'm on a SECOND rewatch of POTP after my initial watch 3 days ago #very very bizarre brain vibes happeninh #i think it's because I've been really poorly and unable to get out much? and I'm finding ways to Rewatch that feel novel enough #like novel enough that my adhd brain is able to concentrate on the same film so soon #it is really odd being aware of changes in your behaviours as they happen #also I'm ill enough that i can't concentrate on anything difficult so it's good to watch something i know I'll enjoy and is easy to process #brains man #can't wait to die tomorrow at work while thinking about potp constantly #also usually i don't get so overwhelmed by any media hyperfixations. usually I'm focusing on my gardening #BUT i can't do that atm so i guess my brain's like U Gotta Do Something #phantom of the paradise #phantom of the paradise 1974

[blockofhoney]

i think i might be sick. just a little bit

#paq.txt #my throat's felt weird pretty much all day #it's like. dry i guess? #n my nose feels stuffy despite not being actually clogged #my mom is sick rn too but i don't think these are the same symptoms?? #oh well. at least i don't have work tomorrow

[trans-xianxian]

I literally got like 13 hours of sleep last night what the hell

#I fell asleep on accident at like midnight woke up at 2:30am then immediately fell back asleep after taking my meds and woke up at 1:30pm #I guess my body was preparing me for tonight (72 degrees on a saturday night and the gm is going to be there for three of them) #hey but at least. I don't have to work tomorrow when its 75... #ghost posts #text

[starpros-sunshine]

It's is especially at one in the morning that you realise how ridiculous "I shouldn't go take dancing classes even though I desperately need a hobby that would let me fix the issue of me being so ridiculously short of breath that they genuinely worried about my health because, well, i can't dance." actually sounds. My brother in Christ you're supposed to learn how to do that there.

#apparently I have the same lung volume as someone with copd according to the tests #i don't have copd though I don't think so at least #too healthy for that #sigh there's some classmates of mine who dance I could ask them where they do it but....hmm thats always more embarrassing #when there's people you know so mean #I'd have no issue teaching tht myself but problem one is learning wrong technique can in a lot of things result in health problems #and problem too is that you can't really do stuff you need two people for alone #i don't even wanna /dance/ you know I just think knowing the standard stuff would be nice #i can walz kind of #as said you don't really get good when your partner is a blanket #but I can so the leading position in a standard waltz #ahh and I don't know if that would work out anyways I graduate next year would it even make sense to start something new now #but I really do need a hobby thats not. nothing actually I have video games but I consider those a hobby i just play them in my free time #to relax you know #it's not like I'm actually doing anything much #i mean I am #but I don't know if I'd call it a hobby #reading also isn't really a hobby to me I read in the evenings before bed i don't think thats already hobby status #and drawing lost hobby status when I picked the art major now it's something productive #but I don't want to do like. actually hard sport or anything in that direction i don't want to take up swimming again for example #i just want to do something with myself i guess #but this is all hypothetical anyways for now i better worry about my theoretical tomorrow and pray i know the question #please don't let me fuck this up #delete later