#at least i get the day off ig

[sheepstiel]

why would you want ai destiel kissies (flat fast food burger) when we have destiel kissies at home (actual homemade soup, main ingredient love)

#idk. i think my main issue is just seeing other desitel art in the tag struggle to get notes at all #when even seasoned fandom artists aren't getting as much notes these days it's hard to even start as a new fandom artist #trying to find a style and getting a little validation etc #and then you see this detailed realistic but slightly off stuff. and ppl love it. and you're never gonna draw like this. #or even if you draw like this. you spend hours and hours on it and your back hurts. #idk it's a teeny bit frustrating :/ #also no hate to that person ig they just wanted to see their favs kiss. #if you do post your ai kissies creations please at least tag it as ai. maybe even make it clear in the post so that ppl can see it #in reblogs as well.

[deus-ex-mona]

honeyworks w h o i only know honwyworks

#i leAVE TO TAKE A SHOWER FOR 15 MINUTES— #eugffffgkkdkkkskssk flower usage prevails again #didn’t listen to the preview but im guessing hiyoko’s song is gonna be about the fansa scandal(?) #hm. who knows~~~~~~~ #either way ig the stream’s gonna be about this (+ comiket) lmao. manifesting no lxl album reveal as of… n o w #beggin them to drop the lxl album release date already so that i can take. like. three days (at least) off from work for the album release— #i hope the nagisa song gets a pv though~~~~~~~ i miss him smmmmmm

[todayisafridaynight]

so magical that yakuza 1 and shadow the hedgehog came out the same year........ 2005 the best year for sega honestly.....

#snap chats #AND DAYS APART TOO IN JAPAN (rgg1 dec. 8 while shadow was dec. 15) #the gap is significantly wider for US releases but thats not important..... #japanese kids were winning on christmas i swear #'snap why are you bringing this up' isnt it obvious. i am playing shadow the hedgedhog #and i keep thinking about daigo playing shadow and then later down the line just talking to mine bout it cause he can be a lil sillay #i hope he had dreams where he and shadow got to be besties. and by Him And Shadow i mean he dreams himself as sonic #because obligatory Same VA Joke Is Obligatory IF WE CAN GET ONE (1) W FROM RCS VOICING DAIGO. LET IT BE THAT AT LEAST. #for me..... let it slide for me..... yes ik it was jason griffith voicing sonic (and shadow) back then but let it slide this once.. #i refuse to acknowledge modern shadow. unless it's from that one uhhh fuck what was the cartoon called #its on netflix Point Is the one time shadow was actually like his old self girl i sobbed. too bad sonic was a dipshit though #a soul for a soul ig.... i think its ok just this once.... #im getting so off topic but this is how i inflict my other interests upon you lot #i trap you into reading a post vaguely about rgg and then i make it about something else :) #look at my pfp you fool. i legally have to talk about shadow the hedgehog like once a month ok let me have this #while im here. like /i/ know this game is nine years long but sometimes i forget HOW long #326 endings and for what. because they love me thats why. #fym 'revenge at last' is only ending 11 that seems like the third route or so you'd take (only black doom missions) #ok ive talked long enough. anyway bye im gonna uhhhh god idk.... i keep getting distracted #i started watching kagerou while my sister was playing mysims the other day but i got too engrossed by her playing to continue #mysims was like. A White Whale of sorts in my house for a while since it was one of like five games my sis actually played #and it was her fave but one day 1.) we lost it 2.) our wii stopped working. since that day she's blamed me for losing it #WELL then i found it and i got the wii u working SO all that can stop now 👁️👁️ ok ive fr gone on too long #unfortunately i cant talk about EVERYTHING i want to lest i just turn this into a general games blog. but i wont i prommy #for now. bye fr i think my sis just got home actually LMAO

[mirrortouchedsea]

getting motivated to work on that kaokana fic finally and i have added like 1k this week.... so much progress for me i'm so happy

#not writing #shay speaks #not guaranteeing the next chapter will be soon i'm still unsure #of when i want to end this one and start the next #but this one is only like.... 2k words right now? #okay google docs says its 1.4k words rn so yeah #we are making progress i'm hoping to get 4k or so at least before i decide to start ch4 #and then i have to edit it and all that jazz obviously.... but augh i'm just happy to be working on this again #and i edited my bb fic a lot today since my beta has given feedback on like 7 pages of that #AND i quit my job at joanns so i should go back to working only 5 days a week instead of 6 #and maybe i can get more motivation to write. i think part of why i'm writing more is the fact that i qui t aamfpdiosd #i am already feeling better knowing there is an end in sight to these 6 day weeks #my boss was chill about it she understands and i'm not going to like #slack off just bc i put in my 2 weeks #but yeah. thats my life update ig mapsdfiomsdpifodjs #big bang fic is looking very nice so far after edits and i'm excited to get that out #again its probably going to be split in two idk if i want to try and finish it before whenever i end up getting to post #mostly cuz like. idk i'm probably still like 4k out from finishing it and noooooo thank u. maybe another day #it's at the word count minimum though thats what matters

[lynxalon]

ive set a monday alarm to go to the doctor because im so fucking depressed i cant imagine anything worthwhile about tomorrow so. wish me luck babes im gonna try really hard to go at all, for a referral to a new psyche+maybe therapist i desperately need meds

#every once in a while i think. what the fuck is wrong with me why cant i just. live like others do #and its like. ohhh ive been unmedicated for goin on 4 years now an that directly corresponds to how little ive been able to do in that time #unmedicated depression+anxiety + untreated agoraphobia is quite literally killing me #sorry to be so depressing on here but i just. dont want any of my friends to wonder where i am one day #im just trying to post stuff so i have to stick to going to the doctor #cause i wanna be okay n shit #no plans to go anywhere rn but im pretty passively suicidal #so ya im just. trying to be okay rn. really fucken hard #not a lot worth it rn. not very wanted around anyways. irl at least. sucks. #not to sound hopeless but ya im just tryin to have Some hope ig #ough. fuck man. its been a long time since ive been this bad off #it was comin and i knew it especially cold turkey off meds but. goddamn i really hoped i could get on meds b4 i got this bad #://////

[capricores]

i am begging on my hands and knees for twitter astrologers to stop making tweets daily saying shit like "stop paying attention to your sun sign, the moon is the real you/most important sign/your actual sign/etc"

#twitter astrologers are probably the most incorrect terrible astrologers of all social media platforms lmao #which is sad cause theres some rly quality astrologers on twt ive seen here and there #but for the most part.. youre better off getting info from ig #cause at least on IG its mainly harmless memes not trying to spread clear misinfo #not that its actually that deep its just astrology but still.. pls #luna.txt #twitter astrologers read one single actual astrology book/reference old astro texts for once challenge #(instead of getting all ur info from other twt astrologers with no actual studying at all) #i guess to each their own everyones entitled to an opinion but pls.. why would u fight for such a clearly incorrect opinion #i will reblog this with another rant lmao im sorry this is seriously not that important and at the end of the day- #-it doesnt matter im just being dramatic and irritated bc im having a Time

[indigodawns]

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#my guys getting a ~new diagnosis at 25 is EXHAUSTING??? #at least as a chronic overthinker ig bc whew #every day i swing from oohhh yep im definitely autistic to noooo i don't think i fit it enough esp sensory wise and blabla #i make eyecontact (but now im thinking about it and it's like being conscious of your breathing yk?? and then it's like. is that why #it doesn't feel that natural suddenly or??? and if im a little uncomfortable i stop making eyecontact but ig that's ~normal) #and then with noise and light i don't KNOW i don't know if it's all bc im paying attention now #like you see MAYBE im just pretending my depression symptoms/self-dislike are autism but what actually happens is just that #and i wonder like is my almost compulsively picking at my nails or scabs (i know) stimming or? and what stims would i like how do you KNOW #anyways. had autism group therapy last week and it was v chill and lowkey and also relatable at times though we didn't cover that much #but the overhead lights stayed off and that was great bc i hate u massive tl lights (but im prone to migraines so who knows!) #anyways. my mum did say it makes sense to her and my sister accepted it in a heartbeat JDMDMD and she studies psych and had to #deal with me growing up and bossing her around (our strongest soldier) #and on holidays it takes me a week to get settled usually but i THOUGHT that was depression bc i feel isolated and lonely for a while #so yknow??? sighhhh i am discussing this in therapy but i wanna KNOW i want facts so i can speed through the acceptance process cmon #(i know.......) #anyways. if you're still reading 1) mwah and 2) input is always welcome #insofar any of this made sense

[shrekshugebadussy]

haven’t heard from my dad at all today… very interesting…

#happy birthday to me 🙃 #kinda surprisingly kinda not i also haven’t heard from my aunt #but at least my coworker and boss can actually get me a card and even some gifts even tho i never expected them to #idec about cards anymore bcuz ik they expensive af now #but at least a text would’ve been nice #ik there was a couple times i didn’t text ppl on bdays until 7 or 8pm so like i get it if they text late due to a busy day or whatever #but like #with everything that’s happened with my dad #he’s just being petty #a child #cuz sometimes i’m all for being petty but over this?? he’s a child #i mean it’s 9:30pm so there’s still time on the day ig idk #just bummed out ig #kinda wanna cry #i’ve been a bit of a bad headspace lately idk i just feel off #depressed 🤪 actually #but anyways #i had a wonderful bday tho! #my mom and brother got me wonderful things and i went over to see my grandma 🥺 #mine

[gaylotusthatexists]

me proud of myself for cooking that doesn’t look like something a four year old would eat, ignoring the fact that i used frozen pre seasoned chicken, frozen vegetables, and microwaved rice.

#better than chicken nuggets and chips ig #consuming vegetables for the first time in like over a month let’s goooo #frozen vegetables are great when it comes to sensory issues tho bc usually i. cannot stand vegetable but when i’m having a rare Good day #there’s a few i can cope with but buying them fresh? absolutely fucking not who knows when i’ll use them they’ll go off #at least with frozen vegetables i can keep them as long as i need to eat when i am able to #same with frozen chicken actually. i tried to get fresh chicken and was gonna season is myself (i do have all the stuff to do that) but the #chicken. went off before i got chance. bc i had no energy to do the seasoning part. #but with this i don’t have to :) bc it’s already done for me :) and i can use it whenever i am ready #the rice has also been sitting in my cupboard for like two months but that’s bc i was waiting until my brain will allow me to try new thing #i’ve had rice before so i know i like it but i don’t have it very often so like. gotta convince my brain first. #it’s nice tho i will be buying more microwave rice i think.

[deus-ex-mona]

kawareeeeeeeeeee~~~~~~~~~

#(aka me when my acid burns randomly start throbbin’ when i bend over :( it’s very inconvenient) #in other news ​this week absolutely s u c k s can i trade it in for a better one— #first there was that acid spill. which. like. ouch???? but the mark is still there and is apparently very obvious. which sucks #then the day after the acid attack™️ meself and one other guy were called out under the assumption that we were doing unnecessary overtime #with the ‘unnecessary’ part running off the basis that there’s a low sample volume bc one single monday had fewer samples than usual #and we were singled out j u s t because our taxi claims for last month were through the roof due to the fact that we live across the country #like??? hellooo????? why are you treating it like it’s my fault that i have to pay upwards of $24 (at least) to get home??? #and??? excuse????? why are you extrapolating the previous day’s sample volume to the previous month’s workload as a whole???? #but. m a n. the way the mildly higher up lady abruptly shouted at me for asking a question just. pissed me off. for some reason. #she was talking in circles regarding the future of our taxi claims #so i asked if we (now) had to submit a second claims form for the transport company dudes to compensate us #and she yelled at me to stop talking before i could finish :( sadded and annoyed tbh #though i get the feeling that she hasn’t liked me ever since i left some results she asked for between her desk and some other guy’s desk #and someone else had placed their notebook or sth atop it so she couldn’t find it. and she blamed me for it. ha. #that was a few weeks ago though. so. hm. i wonder if she’s still mad about that… #either way. i applied for a couple of jobs that are closer to my place bc screw travelling across the country for an hour every day #s c r e w hour-long train rides i’d rather sleep #i prolly won’t even get the other jobs but. oh well. that’s life ig

[todayisafridaynight]

me and my sister went to the mall today and we ran into hot topic so fucking fast it was unbelievable. me and my sister are literal opposites when it comes to fashion. she picked pink, pastel shit like she was trying to be all uwu kawaii meanwhile im just standing here with my arms full of emo and goth shit, i legit felt like daigo and masato with all this emo drip i had walked out with. (p.s. they should put yakuza stuff in hot topic if they havent already because i have yet to have any yakuza related things in my room </3 also hot topic is like the only store i will shop at)

im so sorry to say these words to you but reading this reminded me of my immortal

#snap chats #I ALSO HAVE NO ROOM TO TALK THOUGH CAUSE I LITERALLY JUST GOT BACK FROM HOT TOPIC AND SPENCERSLKEAKVJA #rubbing off my fucking eyeliner as we speak im no better than a goffick and im sure the stuff you got was actually real fire and im jealous #i actually wore my hakuho pin out today- i pinned it on my back jean jacket. not to flex on you or anything 🥴 #i remember the day my college friend said something about me being goth and i looked like a dumbass saying 'im not goth...' #when all i ever did was wear black. and tbf i toned it down a LOT while i was at school. i wanted to be normal-passing 😭😭 #that aside i only went in to get jewelry and a new belt chain. also a kirby keychain and nail polish #but like it was that Blackheart brand so you know i just wanted it for the skull container and the name. also i was running out #my hot topic really doesnt have any clothes- or at least clothes i fuck with like its mostly skirts and puffy-sleeved shirts #and yeah those are epic and awesome but they're not my style yk. love it on other people just not on me #i usually get my clothes from like. express or skate shops. very different fashions as you can see LMAOOO #like today i got this really pretty crane shirt and then like. i got a black-and-white striped long sleeve with a skeleton hand patch LMAO #UGH im pissed i didnt get the red and black variant too but i didnt think bout it til i already left #i want to get new boots- the ones i have now are great and i love them but i want something chunkier #my 'goth' fashion is really lowkey honestly like i hardly consider myself goth cause of it- its very casual ig #ignore the fuck-you amount of rings i wear ok. theyre pretty..... also they have certain meanings sometimes #like i wear an owl ring cause it reminds me of my sis since she loved owls growing up and went to a uni with an owl mascot #i wear a dragon ring sometimes cause dragons remind me of my dad. for whatever reason. #idk its cause he tried to convince me i was born year of the dragon when i wasnt ?? idk funny guy lmao #and then i already said i wore snake stuff and crosses cause I Hate My Mom. also i was born a snake #also my dads a christian so :] i will wear two cross rings and a cross necklace tyvm love you pops i wish you were around more #uhhh did i want to say anything else. idk im just dumping about my emo bullshit thanks for reading ☠️☠️ #if this wasnt my yakuza blog id actually just show the haul i got today BUT i will spare you lot from my emo bullshit #ok ill kill the tags here now im SILLY

[alientitty]

goin into this shift feeling under the weather (psychologically) wish me luck

#I wanted to get into better shape over my 3 days off but ig one can only get so far..at least it's a short one

[hyperionswrath-a]

In case anyone was wondering why I am quiet - had a bit of both a mood and energy dip / spiral downwards so I took some time away. Nothing super serious but some things just still drag me down and drain my muse. Did use the time to get some RL things sorted though so it’s not half bad.

I’ll try again to be here more tomorrow and work on the promised things!

#⸻ ˖𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐎𝐅 𝐃𝐈𝐒𝐂𝐈𝐏𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐄 / 𝐉𝐄𝐓 𝐑𝐀𝐌𝐁𝐋𝐄𝐒˖ #.x. thankfully friends were there to pull me through the worst / take my mind off things #.x. but man some days I still... don't feel 100% safe around the rpc. sounds weird but it is what it is ig #.x. it'll pass but it's still upsetting that its affecting me even after weeks so guess that's where the bummed out feeling comes from #.x. plus ye ol' feeling replaceable. Head is just in a funk I suppose. #.x. ANYWAYS. hopefully I'll get a hang of things tomorrow. if not... at least you know I am back on the struggle bus trying to get over it

[dont-offend-the-bees]

Entering my Dread Pyrate Blackbeard era (ensconced in blanket fort, eating sweet preserves straight from the jar, writing depressing song lyrics and crying)

#mr. bees speaks #Folks turned on the news today and I literally curled up like a dead spider #Say what you want about being in covid survival mode for a week locked in your bedroom with nothing to do but recover #Does take the pressure off coping with the rest of Life for a bit #Now I'm back with some fresh chest pains and like... Yeah being sick Ed and isolated sucked but fuck #At least I could be naked whenever I want ig #And focus more on my immediate physical health than like the end of the world and rise of fascism idk #I'm so tired I'm so tired and sometimes it's like the only thing getting me from day to day is like #Well if I curl up and die now I'll never know what happens in my TV shows #Wwdits and ofmd fuckin holding my mental health from the brink like spiderman with the train ahsbdhsbdhdhsbd #God its an exaggeration of course I have lots of people I wanna be alive for #But then they're struggling to so its like AAAAAAAAAAA WHEN DOES IT STOPPPPP #Anyway I'm fine I'm. Fine I am FINE

[violentdevotion]

alas, despite my feminism I still fall victim to the whims of my body

#ameera speaks #im coming on my period and cant sleep because im sad and anxious iver nothing #i remember when i tracked my ed at the worst of it i noticed i had a cycle of every 30 - 25 days and fonding out that it coincided with #pms and the other day i had the urge to throw up for no reason i was just chillin then BAM voices in my head telling me if i dont rhrow up #rn im gonna explode ( id didnt do it woooh !) #this isnt me going booooo feminism stinks its just me being annoyed. i remembered being in highschool and when people would say #stuff about women being emotional id get pissed off and its very annoying to acknowledge igs true. for me at least. #while im here. this is unrelated but i remmeber one person who said stiff about this was like a counciller in the school id visit with my #friend because they wanted me there and i remember getting sooooo pissed off at them at the time because they were getting all this support #because they asked for it and wow. im a terrible person. #🧕🏼 < holds everything in and treats her own feelings as a joke only to get pissed off at everyone for not seeing shes hurtinf and getting #mad at the people who have access to the resources she refuses

[astrxealis]

god there's so much stuff i want to get into (i am thinking of league, warcraft, diablo)

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #oopsies. riot and blizzard LMFAO <//3 #okay putting aside for now their reputations i have always been interested in these three games/series #apparently my dad actually played wow and diablo before !!! very cool of him <3 #one day i will rope him into ffxiv. he likes ff too and mmos so i do hope it is likely >;)) #I DOUBT HE EVER PLAYED LEAGUE THOUGH but ik he was at least into dota 2 because i remember watching #it because of him back when i was much much younger. so yeah #diablo... i only really know the trailers and that lilith seems pretty cool #the trailers are sooooo cool <3 sometimes i think i don't like that kinda stuff but actually i really do fr hehe #league is something i've known ever since i was young as well but i never realized i could have easily installed it all this time #and wow uhh IDK ig hearing stories turned me off + before the free trial had a limit right #idk how long ago that was though. but yeah never seeked it out either so yeah #i find them all interesting despite hating the companies and i reaaally want to try them out at least #even if i doubt i'll get into them a lot ultimately but yeah i want to try them out fe #fr* RAGGHHHHHHHHH TYPO I CAN'T EASILY CHANGE AS I'M ON MOBILE RN