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myfuturejournal-blog · 7 years

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Forgetfulness 2/10/17 & 2/11/17

Yes, I forgot to post yesterday.. well I didn't forget. I thought about it but got sidetracked... smh xD

2/10/17

Yesterday was pretty nice, I woke up and went to my live class and even though I went to bed around 9pm like my goal I was still tired and dozing off during class so my dad had to keep coming in my room and waking me up. I have this weird thing where when I go to sleep hearing someone talk, my mind incorporates them talking into my dream and I even get this thing where I need to do something like sign off of class or go get breakfast and my mind will trick me into thinking I have done it because I have the most vivid dreams of doing that exact thing! My mind is a weird thing... anyways. I took a 2 and 1/2 hour nap after class and woke up still tired but I didn't want to not be able to sleep that night so I got up and started doing some stuff to wake up. I realized I left my headphones at my sister J’s, which a lot happened with her. She lied to me about going to the gym on Saturday (Today now) and in the worst way possible. She is going to this giant basically garage sale that we have been asking what date it was for a year and she always told us “I don't know” and that is the least worst thing she has done to us, she doesn't act like my sister she just acts like I am a not even her sister I am just a 3 year old who doesn't understand words and this is all for another post on another day... on a happy note though, my dad finally took me to our gym so I got to try out all of the machines. I first got on the treadmill for .30, I traded into the elliptical for .20, went back to another treadmill for .30, and finished off with a mile on the stationary bike :) I feel really good about it and I hope we can go again in the morning! My dad and I watched this show The Carbonaro Effect for a good hour or two. I talked to my mom around 12am-1am and got a bath because I was itchy from this rash I’ve had we think I am having an allergic reaction to something which is really odd because I’m not allergic to much. Anyways I got out around 4am and went to bed around 4:30am. My parents were having an argument yesterday also so they didn't talk much yesterday or today...

2/11/17

I woke up from the most vivid, real feeling dream, I dreamt I “came out the closet” I guess to my dad but as gay? But I’m bi... anyways... I don't remember a ton of it since I didn't write it down when I woke up but my dad isn't really pro-gay/lgbt+ at all so I haven't talked to him about it or whatever but I don't feel the need to. Anyways he kept telling me it was wrong and stuff and even called me “Becca” instead of my real name so I decided to be petty and say “Okay bye Phil” since that isn't his name. There was a few things he said that stuck out to me but I don't want to go over the full dream now... I woke up pretty late at about 1pm and not much other has happened, I painted my nails and toenails and I have an ostomy bag so stuff happened with that early this morning, long long long story... Anyways... I have decided to start a routine if that makes sense? I want to post it next. Routines haven't worked out for me in the past but I am determined to make it work! This blog-ish journal-ish thing really motivates me and I’m happy I’m sticking to it :) Tonight my plans are just studying anatomy and physiology and creating my documents or at least starting on them. I will be updating tomorrow though!

I probably forgot something but I want to do better tomorrow and I might post a few things tonight from earlier posts and if I don't I should tomorrow morning or afternoon! I think that’s all xD

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