#at peace its just idk i love it a lot

[corpsoir]

listen i love fucking around with a characters design and headcanons and AUs and shit just as much as the next guy but at some point you just gotta make an oc man

#this has nothing to do with anyone specific btw i just keep thinking about this bc . i see a lot of it and im like who is this guy #and then i read the tags or description and apparently its a canon character and im like Huh. #idk just make an oc love and light <3 if youre already having fun being creative and all you can just make your own thing yk #peace and love on planet earth #corp.krax

[shleemies]

2015->2023

It gets better

#was looking at old photos and put these side by side. wow #in the first pic i was miserable malnourished and so depressed i didnt think id make it to 2016 #the second pic was a few months ago in too lazy to take w newer one today lol #im still depressed but not like i was. ive come so far and its so hard to see it from day to day sometimes #i never thought id live long enough to go on hrt. top surgery felt completely impossible #but i got to live #i got to transition #i wish i could go back and show that scared kid how far we've come #idk these pics just had me feeling really sappy #maybe one day ill make a more intentional transition timeline post #but these photos really show a lot #transgender love transgender peace transgender joy #it gets better i promise #sounds fake and shallow but it's so fucking true

[glfry]

The scrapbook from Super Mario RPG. Reblog if you agree

#they make me so emotional and happy and glad and yeah #Peace and love on planet earth #the fact that mainly mallow writes in it because he’s enthusiastic about it #the fact Mario only writes at the beginning and what he writes are just things he heard #the fact geno is usually pretty positive in his entries and always notes that he doesn’t think a lot of the guys they thought were bad #*fought #also the fact his soft spot for children shines through #man. mannnnnn #also the fact that there’s red and blue washi tape for the polaroids (Red = Mario. blue = geno. they decorated it together. I am normal) #also because there’s no way they’d have actual pictures of some of the scenes and the fact the image in the menu shows the pictures being- #-drawn makes me hc it that either mallow or Mario drew the pictures #idk. its silly #smrpg #Mario #smb #super Mario Bros #super Mario rpg #smb geno #mallow #smb mallow #smrpg mallow

[milkpansa-archive]

j-hope - more 

happiest of birthdays to you darling @ipromisedthesunset ♡

#bts #bangtan #jung hoseok #jhope #hobi #ftd: be #shelby ☀️ #zzarchive #tosnimeat #cianshine i know you like bangtan so i hope you dont mind the tag! #anyways. shelby darling hi!!!! #happiest of birthdays to you love!! i just realized idk your timezone but it's 4am for me rn so i hope that counts as on time adajgkfh #we havent talked in a bit but pls know i adore you lots and every time hobi pops up on my dash i think of you <3 (i hope you dont think that #is weird. youre just the number one hobi lover in my head) #i hope you have the most wonderful day full of love and light and laughter and peace and that you get to spend it just the way you want #i wanted to make you something really really lovely but then i got covid and my energy is still a bit non-existent sorry :( also ps hates me #and kept crashing so yeah. this is not a lot. but i hope it makes you smile either way <3 #pls pls pls ignore that the coloring doesnt match :( i couldnt get the pinkish coloring to work on all the scenes so now its just. three #different colorings ahdjkshl. at least hobi's pretty always!! #sending you all my love and all the hugs (((hugs tightly))) may you be happy and healthy always love bye now im going to bed <3

[elftwink]

hello gay people in my phone have any of you read Winter's Orbit by Everina Maxwell. if the answer is no. can you PLEASE so I have someone to talk to about it

#good idea generator #ITS REALLY GOOD its a sci-fi [maybe space opera?] where space nobility have to enter into a politically strategic marriage #in order to maintain peace between their planets. i could say more but im afraid of spoilers #or rather im afraid ill say something that will spoil it for someone else i went in blind #literally only read it bc it was a sci-fi in my local librarys pride month display #and it was sooooo goodddd i loved it a lot #five stars. cannot understate how much i loved the characters #theres some cool worldbuilding details too but those are def better just experienced #esp since theyre kinda small and not central so telling you them would be overhyping it imo #JUST READ IT. DO YOU WANT TO READ ABT GAY PPL IN SPACE OR NOT #its on overdrive. but idk how overdrive works so i may actually have to return it first LMAO

[girlwithfish]

i wish my ex would have just walked away if he couldnt handle my bpd and stuff instead of permanently traumatizing me 😭

#whatever though #u cant put two mentally unstable people together it just doesnt work out #he just enabled the worst of me and vice versa i guess idk. he had so msny issues like violence and aggression #its hard not to blame myself 😸 #but idk i didnt make him do a lot of the violent things he did so i try to tell myself that to balance it out nd have a #logical view of it #it was his choice to like. attack me and smother me basically soooooo yeah bpd or not u dont treat anyone like that lol #and recording me having episodes is crazy and when hed play it in my ear or over a speaker bitch ur fucking psycho😭😭😭😭😭what #i hate this man so much. lol #woudl love to release some hate and be at peace but idk how to do that without feeling like im absolving him #or forgiving him #idk if i should forgive him. lol.

[mothheart]

I do think if you have a pretty big fear of death, outer wilds is a good game to help you maybe feel just a little less dread about it

#i have so many feelings like #it IS an incredibly tragic game. theres so much pain and grief in it #but it also has a lot of comfort. for how its addressed you dont see anyone with an overwhelming terror in regards to #death in general or acknowledging their inevitable death that is Very Imminent #of course we also have chert (which i still havent recovered from. my god.) but i think it balances out #i dont know if the end is Really the travelers in some mystical mysterious quantum version or just the hatchlings memories but #especially then it really drives it home. they arent afraid. they dont want you to be afraid either #and theres the prisoner and their people who Did absolutely fear death and what the eye of the universe was capable of #but in the end even the prisoner is able to make peace with it. they can see it isnt something to be feared #as much as you might feel it- everything /isnt/ meaningless. everyone and everything will die one day but the things we did and learned #and the ways we loved all matter and they will impact the future. in one way or another those memories and actions carry on. #for better or for worse #its okay to be afraid but you cant let that fear control you or paralyze you #idk i just really really appreciate seeing such a positive and comforting outlook on endings and death #as someone who hates endings and fears death #especially seeing so much nihilism #and i just kind of really latch onto bittersweet media. its comforting for me lol #anywho... #outer wilds spoilers #outer wilds #death mention #miles rambles

[widevibratobitch]

do i let feminism lose and spend all of my savings on a rhinoplasty or do i continue to just. live Like That lol

#kms idk what to do #it's doing research on best surgeons in your country hours while your friends with normal noses are sleeping #anyway it's been a great little vacation and i had a lot of fun but the absolute fucking dread whenever someone is taking a picture #and i cant control how it looks. is ruining all the fun. #i said fuck it once today and then saw that picture my friend took of me and wanted to yeet myself into traffic straight away #the worst thing is im obsessed with big unusual conventionally unattractive noses. i love them. #but mine is not this hot sexy aquiline kind. its just a huge round bulbous fucking potato in the middle of my face #its the kind of nose no one will ever find pretty or hot or even interesting. its just comical. it looks like a fake clown nose. #and while it is indeed very in character of me to have a fucking clown nose attached to my face 24/7 forever #its literally making me wanna wear a paper bag over my head #goddd idk. cause like. what if something goes wrong lol knowing my luck it definitely could #and then uhhhh idk i guess i really would just kms lol #funny thing - didn't even really notice it before uni. like i always knew there was something seriously fucking wrong with my face #but could never put a finger on what it is exactly #and then this uni friend made that one comment about my nose and suddenly everything clicked into place #you're absolutely right queen the fucking nose aka the CENTRAL thing on my face is the main culprit here lol #anyway not a day has gone by since then that i wouldnt look into the mirror and felt awful and pathetic about it <3 #i am ready to go against all of my ideals and just do it. ill have no money left but maybe its worth it. to get a little peace of mind. idk.

[coffin-flop]

i know my cat knows i love him but does he know how much?

#this question haunts me #I'm literally cryinc bc it's a 'holiday' (but also fuck thanksgiving it really is and should be a national day of mourning for indigenous #communities to honor the genocide and the continued violence they face bc of american white supremacy and colonialism) #but like i do have nostalgic ties frkm childhood and im thinking abt how weird life has been #since my mom and I REALLY started growing apart (bc i started to understand things and she started spiraling) #but how none of my holidays feel lonely even whem i mostly spend then alone bc my cat almost always snuggles with me the whole time #like okay yeah this is what its all for in the end #this is what i live for lol #anyway that holiday talk sounded sad but actually it's really happy #when i tried to do holidays w the immediate fam i used to stress a lot and usually experienced something traumatic #so like it's so nice to have quiet peaceful holidays with my angel of a cat who's been here thru it all #the first time he headbutted me was when i came home from my mom's on Thanksgiving the last year i spent it with hwr #idk i just love this lil dude. hes neen a constant for almost 7 years now like wow #also sometimes i hang out w friends or facetime friends after their fam gatherings or friends who also dont celebrate #i was interested in going to an indigenous day of mourning march however i am still feeling pretty awful after my root canal 2 days ago #so i will try to go next year

[bumblingbabooshka]

YOUNG TUVOK: I was sent against my will. VULCAN MASTER: Then I suggest you leave. YOUNG TUVOK: I'm not a prisoner? VULCAN MASTER: Only of your emotions, or so I have been told. YOUNG TUVOK: My emotions free me.

#haters will say he's neurotypical #Young Tuvok wishing he wasn't Vulcan can actually be something that's so powerful #the alien feels like an alien bc to him he is not an alien but he /is/ weird...he WISHES he were an alien then everything would make sense #His teacher was like 'Tuvok you need to see what's behind you' and Tuvok was like NICE try MORON I don't have any eyes behind me #'....I meant....(sighs) Tuvok I was speaking metaphorically-' YOU CAN'T TRICK ME!!! #I love teen Tuvok #I love him as a character and as a method of recontextualizing adult Tuvok #it hypothetically (not used in the show) gives a lot of depth to his character to have been a troubled teenager on the verge of becoming #without logic...literally got kicked out of school and banished by his dad. You'd never imagine that if you saw Tuvok in canon #I love how Tuvok goes from wishing he was not Vulcan as a teen to taking a stubborn pride in the fact that he's Vulcan when he's an ensign #and I mean stubborn in a good way #Tuvok is like...when you think as a teenager that you're a weirdo and you're abnormal and you're fucked up #and then you realize what exactly was causing that and you get fucking MAD when people call you weird and fucked up #and then over time you calm down into an adult canon Tuvok who's completely at peace with himself and no longer trying to prove anything #to anyone #idk I just love him #and all his implied character growth #also I love how in snw its established that there are like facilities established to help people who are struggling with their logic #but Tuvok still got sent to some fuckin caves to deal with it because his family's religious /j #also fuck Tuvok having the same haircut his whole life I'm giving him long hair #Tuvok art #st voyager art #st voyager #bea art tag #the caption is a quote from the voyager ep Gravity #neurodivergent tuvok #autistic tuvok #? perhaps

[journen]

Lol it really hit me just how sad it makes me that theres a v high chance this is the last time we will see Ewan as Obi

:(

#yeah i know its possible he can come back #idk if they will do a season 2 #probably not and #i dont wanna grt my hopes up for anything like that #and then be let down #but damn #at least he found peace within himself by the end of the season #that makes me happy #and #its what he deserves #but i just love this character so much lol and he’s been through so much its sad that this is probably the last we will see Ewan play him #im v sad hahah #obi wan kenobi spoilers #owk spoilers #kenobi spoilers #lol today has been a lot and i think imma need a month to really think on these episodes and come to terms with how i feel about it all #i have a lot of feelings about a lot of things atm i need to sort out HAHAHAHHAHA

[corpsoir]

Bog body bog fae cryptid bruno

i'm thinking more like bog body bruno being found in a thousand years still looking like he's just taking a nap in the bog!! peaceful, sleepy but content expression eternally preserved on leathery skin. very much tollund man vibes (ok tollund man probably died under pretty violent circumstances he just happens to look peaceful lol)

or like, future bog body bruno having just ended up in the bog, slowly sinking into the water in the peat moss and heather ^_^ im so normal about bogs and jjba btw can you tell.

idk i just keep thinking about him being a walking corpse for half of vento aureo and it inspires meeeeee. idk, corpses and death and stuff is very like, artistically inspiring to me, if that makes sense. theres a reason my url is what it is !!

oh and look up the tollund man and bocksten man if youre comfortable with looking at human remains btw!! the bocksten man has a really cool reconstruction made of him at the museum he's at ^_^

sorry this was such a long answer and the tags makes it longer sghjdkss

#i just. really like bogs and bog bodies #and i love making art that like.... idk makes death seem peaceful and less scary or something to dread #<- this is coming from someone who for YEARS has been so afraid of death yet here i am. studying dead people lol #its therapeutic in a way to like idk make beautiful and heartbreaking art about death #and i like combining it with the narrative of vento aureo and bruno because. i just like it #plus VA just inspires me a lot and i see so much potential for cool art with a lot of visual storytelling and symbolism in it #sorry this is such a weird thing to want to draw maybe but. #im kinda obsessing over bog bodies rn since im supposed to write my bachelors thesis on them #smilesssss so widely #ask

[inloveforevr]

Rethinking my idea of love and how I feel like i’ve invested a lot and put myself on the line and i dont think its reciprocated but at least i tried. I tried

#i want to give myself the acceptance and love i give others #there was one moment i was looking at this guy and i just looked at him and felt a peaceful acceptance.. of his humanitg #i find it difficult to do that for myself #it feels so much easier to love someone else and root for them than do it for myself #perhaps because i can see the person physically. #idk #i care a lot but it feels like in this scenario its too much

[zhuhongs]

last anf post for the night but damn. a lot of what was discussed in the story rlly reflects some things ive been thinking deeply abt as of late. esp the whole theme of choices and there is no right choice, there is the choice you make and how you live with it and there are a million possibilities but if you get so caught up in those possibilities you only miss out so be messy and reckless and pick up the pieces later bc it all falls into place. not everything is permanent but everything moves you into where you need to be. and yea

#correction for next tag: taichi and touma*** its 1am and im running on 5hrs #also i love hiw taichi and ichinose had to take some time to get together #like im sure they dated other ppl in that time and grew and actually came together when they were older and healed. #i really do love when stories don't just have characters always stay with their first love. bc thats really never a good thing #nothing wrong with going back to ur first love after trial and error. i do think someones first love is incredibly special most of time #and yea. idk. blue flag was what it was but overall it was incredibly thought provoking to me. really reflected a lot #when i first read it 2 years ago a lot went over my head but as ive grown and done many of the things the main cast has and sat with it and #made peace. the more and more the story hit #sleep

[realnielsbohr]

hmmm having. a time <3

#everything just kind of yeah. #Ive had a long as hell day. #I literally didnt get home until 9 30 #and I didnt get to relax at all bc I had so much gd homework. #I am doing my last thing rn but fuck dude!!!!! #I also am like...its that time of the month so I am feeling bad and gross and sad #and I dont think my scholastic portfolio won anything and just :( #I put a lot of work into it. and I really thought I would win SOMETHING. even an honorable mention would have been fantastic #this has taken me down abt 5 pegs abt my confidence in my skills. yayyy #idk I am just having a ROUGH night. I am going thru it peace and love #I need to do my hw so I can go to bed I just cant #and tomorrow is going to be bad too. AUGH!!!!! #I cant ever catch a break dear lord #I have been feeling so good and confident recently ofc I had to get fucking knocked down like this!!!! ofc!!! #never going to try anything again ever /hj #ok one more thing I prommy #I think I royally fucked up a project......aughgggghhhhhh #ben talks #personal #I will probably delete tomorrow I am just having the worst time atm #and I needed to get it off my chest <333

[yourbleedingh3art]

I didnt even read the response yet i just read one teensy part of it from the imessage preview but it tells me most of what i need to know :He missed our friendship/our connection/the way we'd talk and share intellectual things w each other but not in the "missing a lover makes you realize you want to commit to them" way. In the "U were a cool person and i miss ur cool energy" way i think. idk. I dont really want to be his friend I want to be his fucking girlfriend (Im not a girl but the word feels right here.) So it's weird bc i think he's extending an olive branch just to be 'friends' and idk how i feel about tht im not gonna ever really see you as just a friend

#blog post #I had to know what path i was walking down #And it's not the path of love and kisses and marriage #So WHY WALK DOWN THAT PATH? #I date to marry #I have to protect my peace #This mf has a lot of power to threaten my peace because i know how desperately i want to be liked and loved by him #If i can already anticipate that i think #i need to just be an individual #idk he texted me and i was like fuck yes hes back Hes back in my life thank god i missed him so much hes back #But its like Umm #Is he back #Ok maybe before. i strt typing my paragraphs i should read the other texts #but basically he said niothing has significantly changed since the last thing he said to me which was i dont want a relationship with you #so like Why set myself up tog et played #cuz what do i still want.