performer/hooker!eren x reader
summary: everyone has a dream but eren's can't seem to get keep his grasp on his dream and the woman he wants.
inspired by banks-poltergeist + this edit
warning: smut, angst, cursing, smoking, mentions of addictions, mentions of prostitution; eren is a hooker. minors dni
'you mistake all my mistakes for my good girl nature'
A/N: i dont know what this is, I felt sad and this song made me feel some type of way. im sorry if it sucks, ill probably delete it later.
everyone has a dream
Eren stood still, everything was a blur.
all the voices, the cheers, the 'i love yous' were drowned out. he stood in the middle of the stage, his group mates moving back as he was in the center.
he smiled, panting as he tried to catch his breath. he was finished.
eren sat in the dressing room, staring back at his reflection. he finally reached what he always wanted, stardom. his music was on the top of the charts, his face plastered all over the world, everyone loved him.
but why did he feel so empty?
his phone vibrated in front, taking his attention away from the mirror. He frowned as he picked it up, then his heart dropping. It was a message from you.
'this is the last time, meet me at hotel xxx'
he took a deep breathe, placing his phone back on the table. he just stared back at himself, his reflection being too much to bear.
it made him sick to his stomach, realizing that this is the man he is now. he hated it, everything, and everyone.
but not you, anything but you.
your moans filled the room, the once cool room turning hot with temptation. eren panted, moving back against the headboard as one hand griped your thigh, his other hand with a cigarette.
your panty expression danced in his eyes, all beautiful and in control. you continued, moving up and down on him, trying your best to pleasure him one last time.
"I love you" he whispered, gripping the side of your face. you didn't respond, just continuing.
"I'm a coward." he continued, taking his cigarette to his mouth breathing in all the smoke. you kept silent, still moving on top of him, panting out loud.
"I want to marry you"
his words sent you over the edge. you cover his mouth, gripping one of his shoulders as you continued to bounce up and down on his cock. eren moans against your hand, whinning for more.
you hated him, how could you not. he took everything from you. every ounce of happiness was pumped out of you bit by bit.
he couldn't blame you, he still remembers your old conversation.
"Eren you need to stop this"
eren's lips were on your neck, his hands on your waist.
"everyone knows, eren"
you bring your phone up, showing him the latest articles.
'Singer Eren Jaeger fucking women for money, seen with mystery girl at hotel. Is this the end of his career?’
he felt a bit of heat start to form on his face, his hands up in fists, gritting his teeth. your eyes widen, realizing what he was feeling. he was angry.
eren then gripped your wrist, his other hand snatching your phone as he threw it across the room. it landed on the floor with a thud, the screen cracking a bit. you didn't have much time to react as he turned you around then pushing you on the bed.
your body quivered as eren started to crawl towards you. he towers over you, his body intertwined with yours. your body was basically trapped, eren's presence pressing you down on the bed. His hand was on your throat, another by your thigh.
"they tell me to stop, that this is an addiction, that this could end my career" he growled, then stopping to take a breath. “well why would I?”
he starts to kiss you, your body melting in his arms. you kiss him back, not understanding his words. he brings himself back, starting to undress himself and you do the same. you sit up, almost bare, placing your hand on his chest as you pant, waiting for him to continue.
he undid his pants and takes his cock out, pumping it a bit in his hands. he looks up at your whimpered face. you nod, reassuring him you still wanted him. he pushes you back, placing himself at your entrance.
"my face and body are worth more than my career"
he thrusts himself into you, a little to hard. you scream, your nails digging into his back. he continues, in and out, stretching your walls. you moan, begging him for more, just wanting to be filled by him.
eren didnt care, for once he didnt care. he would have to apologize, reassure his fans that all the rumors are false. he would hide for a bit until everything blows over. then act like nothing has happened.
he fucking hated that.
all he wanted was to be with you, to hold you, to love you.
he just wanted you.
"I expect full payment" he pants, then bringing the cigarette back to his lips. you take yourself out of him, eren groaning a bit into the cigarette. you get off him and start putting your clothes back on.
He brought the cigarette out, sweat dripping down his face. he could still feel the presence of your marks on his body. he wished you would kiss him one last time.
you takes out your phone, going straight to the app as you transfers the money to his account. His phone tinged, the little message on the screen showing that he have received your money.
you knew that after this he would meet with another girl. then another girl. then another. then he would go home, take a shower, and start practicing for his latest song. You couldn’t help but feel sick to your stomach.
the thought of him with someone else. being held in their arms, bouncing up and down on him, whining their name. your hands went into fist, so tight you felt your nails dig into his palm.
eren didnt seem to care, puffing out a bit of smoke as he scrolled through his phone.
You start for the door, completely ignoring eren. before you would kiss him goodbye, and he would tell you that he would meet you again. but not this time, never again. your hand was on the door knob when his words stop you.
"I ment everything y/n"
you stood there, just looking at the wooden door. you felt the tightness in your throat, tears starting to swell in your eyes. you wanted him, you did. but he was too addicted to the game, loving how his body mixed with others. the money, the sex, the sneaking around, its all eren cared about. thats just the way it is. you left not looking back, the last time he saw you.
Eren sat by the window in his apartment, everything a distant dream. he has everything, the money, the women, the fame. what more could he want?
he took the cigarette into his mouth, puffing out the smoke shortly after.
its been at least a year since he last saw you, your smile, your body, your taste all a distant dream. each day he loses you more and more. the worst part is he cant remember what you look like anymore.
he had everything, but nothing compares to you.
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