#attend an extremely important life changing town hall virtually while literally everybody else goes in person because my life is hell. then

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mutuals i am hanging by threads. THREADS

#let’s recap. covid test tomorrow 8am. then 2 hr meeting in which the facilitation guide for the scariest session i will ever facilitate will #be (deservingly) torn to shreds by the two people who intimidate me most on the entire planet. then one hour of self-inflicted torture as i #attend an extremely important life changing town hall virtually while literally everybody else goes in person because my life is hell. then #two hours of retreat coach training DURING WHICH I HAVE JUST REALIZED LIKE 16 HOURS BEFORE IT HAPPENS I WILL BE GOING FIRST TO SHARE A #FORMATIVE AND IDEALLY TRAUMATIC MOMENT FROM MY LIFE AND I HAVENT EVEN PICKWD WHICH ONE OR PREPPED MYSELF FOR IT AND ITS 16 HOURS AWAY. and #also im like describing what all of the sessions are gonna bw and i have to study that and get it right bc i messed up so bad last week. the #then i go home suffer all weekend except for some brief multi-hour stretches of respite including hopefully the bonfire except i will be #constrained bc i won’t be allowed to go onto the field bc my parents will be there. then on Monday i have a root canal at 7 and then will ha #have to be late to work by an hour so i can go back to campus when my brother needs to be there bc my own responsibilities don’t matter #apparently. then i go to work class advising then go home again to celebrate my brothers bday then come BACK and go to work class meetings #etc normally Tuesday and Wednesday except tuesday is the scariest session i will ever facilitate and i have fucktons of homework. then #wednesday morning i get up early for ANOTHER covid test and then come home in the evening pack up eberything and thursday drive 9 hours to #new hampshire and miss school / work / homecoming stuff for 4 days so i can commemorate the loss of my grandmother and then drive back #9 hours home and get ANOTHER covid test and also there will be covid tests in New Hampshire too. so in conclusion my life is fucking awesome #purrs #delete later #probably cuz that’s like a lot of tmi. i am going to have a breakdown i am going to have a breakdown like literally there is no fucking way #i can do this without having a breakdown. god fucking help me LOL