#autumn ramblings

[f0rever15elf]

Brains are weird. Emotions are weird.

Why the hell am I feeling guilty for not being miserable? Why do I feel guilty for being in a good place financially and health wise? For having a good, loving family? For having supportive friends and a job I love? A job that affords me funny money to do with whatever I please after bills and savings? Why do I feel guilty for not viewing every new awesome advancement in society with a negative light? “Gov is gonna ruin this” “People are shitty and this will never go anywhere.” “Ok but like this can do anything right now so why even bother?” Why do I feel guilty... for not being depressed? For being happy with my life, and grateful for what I have? 

I shouldn’t. I shouldn’t feel guilty. I worked for where I’m at, and I’m not without costs that I accrued during this journey. But I also know my journey was no where near as difficult as others. 

But I shouldn’t be guilt for not being miserable. And I know that. So... why am I? 

#personal #autumn ramblings #delete later

[sadgirlautumn]

#I’m curious because I personally don’t like them because I usually just tune it out sjjsjsjsj #autumn rambles #polls

[risetherivermoon]

honestly i was expecting an acoustic version of On My Way like they did last season but the more epic version with all the teens singing was sooo much better,

i think it really encapsulates the season and just the teens in general, very cool very good i loved it so muchhh agggshdghsg

#ik some ppl r unhappy with the epilogue but personally i loved it a lot #dndads spoilers #dndaddies #dungeons and daddies #dungeons & daddies #dndads s2 #dndads #autumn rambling #🍁

[andillwriteyouatragedy]

#tis the season #september #ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd tv #ofmd ed #ofmd izzy #autumn #fall #personal ramblings

[defectiveferalfreak]

i rediscovered @nicktoonsunite and @choraa ‘s art like wowie did they inspire me to dip my toes into NUverse??

also i cant believe Dib and Zim basically waltzed into NU:GoD, like WHATS UP B*TCHS WE  GONNA HELP WHETHER U WANT IT OR NOT like can u believe that lol

#nicktoons unite #nicktoons unite globs of doom #nicktoons unite GoD #i find it ironic its called NU GoD #invader zim #dib membrane #iz zim #iz dib #ive been sitting on the doodles ideas since end of AUGUST. basically so long that i started to hate them lol #i have a lot of thoghts about nicktoons!Dib&Zim but almost no concentration to draw much of it #because helooo fandom interest change like autumn leaves #but i fell in love with possible nicktoons universe with those two assholes in it so they WILL live rent free in my head #so many details of this doodles that i want to talk about but im afraid to start rambling #so im just gonna sit and hope someone notices those little things #throwing this nicktoons!IZAU into the void so i could stop obsessivly staring at unfinished doodles. also gonna go cry over nicktoonsunite a #and choraa awesome OG4 art like those are fucking goals #and lack of fics for nicktoons adventures ;( like i wish someone was brave enough to write some cool NU advnetures <;( #danny phantom #fairly oddparents #the adventures of jimmy neutron: boy genius #spongebob squarepants #if someone asks me about this au i probably wont have much to say because its all very vague but i will most likely go feral lol #i wish i could finish my iz star wars au doodles ;( theyve been in my files since summer haha

[lazylittledragon]

i swear i still make art sometimes but right now it’s just cinnamon sugar blondies

#ramble #food #i’m fully immersed in autumn cookery #my free time is at a solid 0 but sometimes i get silly and bake at 10 o clock at night

[phoenixkaptain]

A story like Thousand Autumns is very subtle in its romance.

Shen Qiao has only ever known his sect. He knows it very well, because of this fact. He knows the people, he knows the rules, he knows the daily doings and who is doing them. He knows every blade of grass and every stone. He’s like a lonely mountain flower, on the highest peak, unseen by any but a few birds and unknowing that there’s more it might never know.

When he finds himself away from his sect for the first time, he’s confused. At most, he’s gone to the base of the mountain, maybe the fields surrounding that, but no further. The flower was plucked and tossed aside.

For a man stumbling blindly in the world, literally and figuratively, there really isn’t a better guide than one that knows just about everything. And that’s, without a doubt, Yan Wushi.

Yan Wushi has lived longer than Shen Qiao, has been more places than Shen Qiao, and has fought more battles than Shen Qiao. Yan Wushi is the perfect example of something out of reach even for someone out of reach. He’s the only one who could answer any questions asked of him, but especially the questions that Shen Qiao would want to ask him.

And there’s no question in my mind that Yan Wushi doesn’t fall for Shen Qiao at first sight, but he’s certainly attracted to him. Not in an overtly sexual or emotional way, but Yan Wushi, the way his character is set up? It’s impossible for him not to be fascinated by Shen Qiao.

He knows Shen Qiao is the very picture of a peerless immortal. He’s well aware that Shen Qiao is considered untouchable by even the people closest to Shen Qiao. He’s most aware that Shen Qiao is Qi Fengge’s (coughhndisputedcough) favourite disciple, and honestly that’s enough for him to overwhemingly want to mess with Shen Qiao.

There are a lot of reasons for Yan Wushi to fall for Shen Qiao. Most of the people in the novel fall for Shen Qiao, after all, there is a precedent.

But the one I’ve seen questioned is Shen Qiao’s affection for Yan Wushi. Where does it come from? When did it start? Does Shen Qiao even fucking like that asshole?

The easy answer is: yes, he does. The novel tells us that. Shen Qiao, despite everything, does fall for Yan Wushi’s, um, “charms” in the end. This is made clear.

But why? A thousand voices cry out. Why the fuck would any reasonable person like Yan goddamn Wushi in any capacity?

Well, there’s your first mistake. Shen Qiao is not a reasonable person.

Shen Qiao as a character is absolutely terrifying. He could absolutely destroy the world given half the inclination, but he just doesn’t want to. He’s already considered unmatched before he’s pushed unceremoniously off of a mountain, and his journey only increases his strength. He isn’t quite equal to Yan Wushi, but he’s the only person Yan Wushi ever sees as equal to himself.

Shen Qiao’s best and worst trait is his patience. He’s unwavering. He really just embodies taoism, especially as it’s presented in the novels. He is the picture of a river that doesn’t stray from its path.

Which is why it’s hard for him to reconcile his own attraction to Yan Wushi, but let’s all be clear here. Yan Wushi absolutely starts seducing Shen Qiao on day fucking one. If he could’ve (if Qi Fengge hadn’t been there) he would’ve tried to eat that cabbage when it was just a little sprout. Shen Qiao is unpracticed in most social interactions, to be frank, but he’s especially unused to romance and Yan Wushi really is his first introduction to being hit on.

Yan Wushi is far from good, at really any point, to anybody but especially to Shen Qiao. But that doesn’t particularly matter because Shen Qiao chooses to forgive him, again and again. And I really think, after giving Shen Qiao to a confirmed terrible, awful person who has already promised to do terrible thing to Shen Qiao, that Shen Qiao himself wouldn’t forgive literally anyone else for doing that. And he shouldn’t, because it was really fucked up, but that still doesn’t matter because Shen Qiao ultimately DOES forgive Yan Wushi.

What am I saying? I’m saying that Shen Qiao fell for Yan Wushi first. It is the only way the story makes any sense. Shen Qiao is annoyed at him, he’s furious at him, he’s so fucking pissed he could kill that man, but he likes him. He likes Yan Wushi’s company. He likes that Yan Wushi gives him a challenge. He’s exasperated, but he likes it.

Shen Qiao forgives Yan Wushi SO MANY TIMES. Yan Wushi humiliates him and mocks him and is the absolute worst, but Shen Qiao forgives him and more than that, Shen Qiao always is waiting for Yan Wushi to come back to bother him more.

Is there more to Shen Qiao’s attraction? Probably. Is it a daddy kink? It could be. But I honestly can’t help but read it as Shen Qiao falling for the absolute pits of a man that is Yan Wushi. Shen Qiao likes that old bastard and decides to spend the rest of his life with the fucker and he is just too much of a block of ice to show it.

#thousand autumns #qian qiu #shen qiao #yan wushi #yanshen #long post #it’s been a while so #extra long post #the inane ramblings of a madman #listen i realize that this is an unpopular reading #but the story just makes more sense #if you read it as shen qiao coming to terms with his own terrible taste in men #there are so many other who shen qiao could have with just a thought #but he has the worst taste in men known to man #and qi fengge KNEW #and that’s whY QI FENGGE ENCOURAGED HIM TO STAY ON THE MOUNTAIN #IT’S ALL CONNECTED #look i promise it’s all connected i promise #just look at my corkboard and you’ll see it- #xiao qiao er asked qi fengge who that handsome guy was #and qi fengge immediately planned how to make it so his precious baby would never ever leave #qi fengge has suffered for so long without us knowing #but i uncovered it #🫡 you’re welcome #how much sleep did you get last night kacie? #about fifteen

[noxious-fennec]

Got the opportunity to color one of @metfell 's lovely pieces!! It was delightful :)

#hi met i hope you don't mind me tagging you #this was absolutely lovely i hope you like my contribution #I'm not big on coloring that's not my forte usually but i do hope its up to par #i tried to keep the autumn cosy ambience going #i also now realise i drew his white streak the way i usually do its a disease and it's incurable #thank you for offering this!! it's very honouring #like truly in earnest your art is so so cool and beautiful i cannot state that enough #ok maybe I've done enough rambling for today alright bye #my art #<- only half

[yelenadelova]

feel like pure shit just want disney channel monstober back

#el rambles #disney channel #monstober #halloween #nostalgia #I MISS IT #in my dreams it’s a chilly autumn night and i’m watching monstober eating jack o lantern pizza

[cixrosie]

SASSY NICO SASSY NICO SASSY NICO SASSY NICO

OH HES PISSED AND HES OVER IT AND HES RIGHT

(he can take his anger out on me)

#nhl #new jersey devils #hockey #autumn talks hockey 🏒 #devils lb #autumn rambles 🤍 #nico hischier #nh13

[f0rever15elf]

So my mom has this recipe for cheesy zucchini casserole that has been one of my favorite dishes that she has ever made and it makes me super nostalgic. Well I have a bunch of zucchini in my garden that I don't know what to do with because they're the size of small baseball bats literally bigger than my forearm and taking up an entire shelf in my fridge so I decided to make the casserole! It's super simple and warm and I just really really love it and I want to share the recipe with you guys! My lactose intolerant friends I'm going to apologize now because there is so much dairy in this recipe.

I wish I had a picture to share but I got ahead of myself and put the one I made today up already 😅

Tools:

Baking dish, I use a 9x13

Skillet

Oven or toaster oven big enough for your casserole dish

Steamer basket and a pot for it

Cutting board and a sharp knife (dull knives are dangerous!)

A way to shred cheese if not using pre-shredded

Ingredients:

1 egg

1/2 to 1 cup bread crumbs, unseasoned, plus about a third cup for the topping. I use panko

Lemon pepper seasoning, to taste. I used a few table spoons. Less is more, and you can always add, but can't take away.

About a cup to a cup and a half of sour cream

1 to 2 cups cheddar cheese, plus about a third a cup extra for the toping. I use sharp or extra sharp.

1 large sweet or yellow onion. Red or white will also work.

Several cloves of garlic. Measure it with your soul. My soul told me 5 large cloves.

Two to three large zucchini, whatever variety you like. Mom also uses yellow squash sometimes as well.

A couple table spoons of a neutral oil

Assembly

Preheat your oven to 375 F.

Cut your squash in half width wise and in half again length wise.

Add the squash to your steamer and let it go. Watch to make sure the water doesn't all evaporate out or ypu could scorch your pot.

Let the squash steam until it is fork tender all the way through. It will look more translucent.

Let the squash cool, then carefully with a spoon, scoop out the insides onto some paper towels, leaving the skins in tact for later.

Squeeze the squash insides in the towel to get rid of excess water.

Dice your onion and add it to a skillet with your oil. Sauté on medium to medium high until translucent and a little golden. This will take several minutes.

In the last minute of cooking, add your garlic, minced or crushed or measured out of a jar. Do you, boo, just get it in the pan. Sauté about 30 seconds or until fragrant.

In a large bowl, add your cooked onions and garlic, your egg, sour cream, cheese, lemon pepper seasoning and stir to combine.

Add the squash insides and combine.

Add your breadcrumbs a little at a time until the mixture has thickened. It doesn't need to be super stiff, but you don't want it runny. You may not use all the breadcrumbs, and that's OK.

Grease your baking dish.

Using the reserved squash skins, carefully line the baking dish.

Add your filling and spread evenly.

Mix your reserved bread crumbs and cheese with about a teaspoon of lemon pepper seasoning and spread it evenly over the casserole.

Bake, uncovered at 375 for about half an hour, or until the center is set and the top is golden brown.

Enjoy! Be careful, the filling will be like lava at first.

#food #recipes #zucchini #autumn ramblings

[sadgirlautumn]

Booty shorts that say “Aaron Dessner is like a sister to me”

#autumn rambles

[risetherivermoon]

headcanon that Nicholas also played the drums in the Jodie timeline, but instead of a drumset he was a percussionist in the school marching band

#thinking thoughts abt him #spinning the narc around in my head #dndads #dndads s1 #dndaddies #dungeons and daddies #dungeons & daddies #dndads odyssey #narcolas #nicholas foster #nick foster #nicky foster #nick close #nicky close #nicholas close #jodie foster dndads #dndads jodie foster #autumn rambles #🍁

[redbleedingrose]

since ur drabbles are open… thinking about girl dad!Eris and reader having another baby and Eris wants to name her Lucy after his baby brother 🥹

heheheh another babe for girl dad!Eris ???

If I am being so completely honest, I think it is gonna be a long long time until girl dad!Eris and you have another child. One fae pregnancy is extremely rare, and the fact that you had a twin pregnancy??? Almost unheard of in Prythian.

Eris for sure wants more children, I think it takes you a long time to be ready for it. You want to spend time with your twin babes, and your pregnancy with them was very, very difficult... it makes you less than excited to be pregnant again. And Eris is fully aware and ready to wait as long as you need, and is content if you decide you don't think you will ever be ready for another.

And to clarify, I think Eris would truly really pray for another girl. I think he has his own insecurities when it comes to having a son. He truly feels more comfortable with having daughters he can spoil and love on to the fullest extent. The thought of having a son... it makes him fear (even moreso than he does with Marwa and Twila) that he will act like his father.

Needless to say, I think Er has a lot of trauma he is working through, and You, Marwa and Twila are the reason he feels so inclined to do so. So, at the end of it all, it will take some time for him to be ready for another babe as well.

Now, your thought, dear anon, is a very sweet one, and I have had thoughts as well. So, maybe I can share some Girl Dad!Eris lore for the class since you brought it up so kindly!! <3

It takes a very long time for there to be reconciliation between Eris and Lucien, not for Er's lack of trying. Lucien is deeply, deeply scarred by what Beron did to him and Jesminda. And the role that Eris played, or at least the role that Lucien thought Er played, is one that broke their relationship.

Prior to this, Er was the only brother Lucien actually loved and was close to, and visa-versa. Eris truly adored Lucien, ever since he was a babe. Eris tells you later on, in the darkest hour of night, while he is wrapped up in your arms with his face buried in your chest, body shuddering from sobs, that he always knew that Lucien was different from the rest of them, from the rest of his brothers. Er's mother came clean to Eris years after the incident with Jesminda, but part of Eris already knew. And Eris thinks that there was a part of Beron that already knew. And maybe that is why what happened with Jesminda, is because of Lucien's crime of being born.

Eris' relationship with Lucien is honestly really difficult for Eris to talk about, he rarely wants to, even with you, his closest confidant, his best friend, his wife, his mate. It is not something he wants to spend time dwelling on, though you know, and he knows, that Eris will spend an hour a day, at least, thinking about how things could have ended differently, if he had just tried harder.

Eris was made aware of Beron's hatred for Jesminda the moment Lucien introduced her to their family. He caught the dark, hungry glint in the evil high lords eyes when she introduced herself as a young maiden coming from the rural farms of Autumn. As the eldest son, Eris was responsible for a lot of Beron's duties (in secret of course). As such, the night after Jesminda was introduced, Eris was summoned to Beron's office and was made aware of the plan to ruin the young loves relationship.

Eris spent a long time, with lots of effort, trying to put off or ruin Beron's plans. And he was often successful. What Eris counted on, was Beron letting things go between the two young loves. Eris counted on this being Beron's attempt to "protect the family image." Eris truly believed that if he delayed Beron's plans that many times, that eventually his father would give up.

What Eris didn't count on, was Beron's utter hatred for Lucien. Eris didn't count on the fact that the plan was to ruin Lucien's life. By the time Er figured out what was going to happen to Jesminda, it as already too late. Jes had already been brought to the prisons for her end, and Lucien was already being held back by their second oldest brother, Dragos.

The way that Eris explained to you, and he only has once because he really hates talking about this night, is that he grabbed onto Lucien to make sure Dragos didn't kill him right then and there. But with that, with his intent on protecting his youngest brother, he had to force Lucien to watch the beheading of his first love. It is not something Eris will ever find forgiveness in himself for. He will never forget the wails and shrieks of his youngest brother. And he will never forget the ringing silence that came after.

All that Eris had in his mind, trying to tamp down the sheer panic running through his arteries, pumping through his heart, is getting Lucien out. Once Jesminda was murdered, Eris wasn't sure what the fate of Lucien was. So, while he and Dragos were dragging Lucien away, when they were finally out of the sight of Beron and the other brothers, Eris released Luc and used the dagger hidden against his forearm to stab into Dragos' carotid. Lucien was soaked in his second eldest brothers blood as he scrambled away from Eris, but Er didn't let him get too far, winnowing the both of them out into the depths of the Autumns Forest.

"Go," he hissed between clenched teeth, shoving Lucien towards the spring border, "I will hold them off." The shouts of the other Vanserra brothers approaching closer and closer through the forest, Eris couldn't bring himself to look back as he shouted at Lucien to "Get out of here! Go! Leave and never ever come back!"

Eris described this night, as one of the worst ones of his entire life. He lost his most beloved brother, possibly forever. And he would never be able to explain himself. He would forever, in the eyes of his brother, be an enemy and one of the reasons Jesminda is not alive.

You coming into Er's life brought a lot of hope. A lot of strength for Eris. Centuries of planning to assassinate his father are finally carried out because there is nothing more that Eris wants, than a world where he can love you freely and openly, without putting you in danger. After Beron is... eliminated... Autumn Court flourishes under Eris' rule with your help as high lady. Eris has long let go of hope that one day, maybe Lucien will forgive him. But he has hope that he will build his own family, one that he will love and protect forever, one that he won't fail like he failed Luc.

Lucien, struggles with his emotions regarding Eris. He has long remained confused and angry and hurt about the night Jes was killed, and it takes him centuries to work through all of the trauma of it. And he has to do it without his oldest brother, without his mother. He has to do it alone. After that night, Lucien thought he would be alone forever, without a family.

Of course, as time passes, wounds heal slowly. From a distance, truly peripherally, Luc watches the Autumn Court flourish under Eris' rule with the new high lady, you. Lucien was stunned that Eris even created teh position of high lady, he always assumed that the woman to marry Er would live in a loveless marriage as lady autumn as his mother had. Lucien didn't think Eris would find love. He didn't think Eris would let himself have love. Despite these changes, Lucien remains wary for several more decades.

It is not until one fateful evening, in the middle of Summer while Lucien is in Day court, the truth of his conception being exposed after Beron's death, that Luc receives a letter with delicate, beautiful handwriting addressing him as "brother." It doesn't take long for Luc to figure out, that the handwriting belongs to the High Lady of Autumn, you, his brothers wife and mate. You never told Eris you were writing Lucien this letter, because you didn't want to get his hopes up, but you wrote to Lucien imploring him to come visit one day, if only to meet his new sister in law, if only to see the changes that have brought true joy to Autumn Court. In this same letter, you inform Lucien that you are expecting. That he will be an uncle, and that you hope to the mother, that you pray to the gods, that one day your babe will be able to meet their fathers favorite brother, their youngest uncle. Lucien, as you expected, does not respond to your letter.

At least, not right away...

Part 2 coming soon!

A/N: this is unedited but part 2 is coming tomorrow hopefully, Thursday evening at the latest 💞

#rose rambles #rose answers #girl dad!Eris x reader #girl dad!Eris #eris vanserra x reader #lucien vanserra #lucien vanserra fanfic #acotar fanfic #acotar hcs #acotar drabbles #autumn court #eris vanserra #eris vanserra drabble #eris vanserra fanfic #girl dad eris lore #marwa and twila

[callas-pancake-tree]

#bug race 3.0 or something #also there was no pufferfish emoji this is homophobia #autumn rambles #polls

[lazylittledragon]

just wanted to take a photo of the fallen leaves and percy decided it was time to zoom

#ramble #percy tag #it wasn’t this place but earlier i saw a beautiful autumnal tree with fallen leaves and i was just like #overcome #i fuckinf g love aUTUMN