There's a lot of validity in the idea that older Bakugo is a traumatized pro-hero with major PTSD... but you know what's kinda fucked up to think about? The fact that Bakugo is also a 22-year-old pro-hero with major PTSD even before that, too.
It's almost easy to imagine that things are actually better when he's older (the therapy finally a routine, the trauma long set and on the path to being healed)... and that it's his whole 20s that are spent as a pool of disaster trying to recover from the war(s).
He looks back and barely even remembers being twenty, much less twenty-five or twenty-seven. Barely remembers how little he slept, not at the hands of trying to balance hero work and getting a degree at the same time, but just out of the pure insomnia that came from trying to move on and every nightmare attached.
Hardly ever showering, never shaving (not that he ever grew much of a beard, but the facial hair was definitely there. There's pictures of him on the news with an awkward, grown out haircut and patches on facial hair that make him look positively... immature), barely even eating more than a few protein bars or an energy jelly drink-a day. It's a blur, and his friends are hardly there to pick him up out of it because they're all going through it, too. Somewhat.
It's definitely weird if you meet him during this period. He's not all there, at least, not all of the time. He doesn't really register your interactions, the friendship you extend to him (a younger, or ever older, version of him would've shown you that deep seeded ferocity in response, tried to bite the hand that fed him, even if it were love... but 20s Bakugo... doesn't seem to notice). Even though only one of his eyes is clouded over, the good one never seems to brighten up.
There's definitely moments when the old him shines through: when he's with Deku, when he's in the midst of battle, when he finds out that Todoroki still does a shitty job at chopping scallions. But it's a long time before he's even close to the same, able to step out from underneath the fog of simply surviving and into the sunshine of recovering.
But I think sticking through it with him is worth it.
(It's a weird moment, a happy moment, the first time you realize that Bakugo has changed. That the pouring rain outside hasn't bothered him since he showed up at your apartment. He forgot his umbrella, he's been quite careless ever since the war—wet and shaggy hair frizzed up, cheeks red from cold—but he doesn't seem to mind, with his bare feet up on your coffee table, his eyes gazing out the window. You hand his tea, and instead of gulping it down in one go, letting it burn in his throat, he winces at the heat.
"Tastes like shit," he says, and you laugh because it always does. Just this time, he noticed.)
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Nothing drives me into a more instant rage than my computer telling me "Sowwy, can't do that, you need administrator permission:)" I own you, you wretched piece of filth. I brought you forth from your box and gave you life. You have known the greasy touch of none but me upon your pathetic keys. And you look me in the eye and tell me, ME, that *I* need the permission of some higher authority???? I AM YOUR GOD. I DECIDE WHETHER YOU LIVE OR DIE. NOW, INSTALL THIS DAMNABLE TABLET DRIVER BEFORE I SNAP YOU IN HALF LIKE THE MISERABLE LITTLE PILE OF SOFTWARE UPDATES YOU ARE
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My 𝐓𝐨𝐩 𝟐𝟑 𝐒𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐞𝐧𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐭𝐬 from 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑 🎉
I was tagged by the marvelous @theplottdump in her recap but also inspired by @cinamun ‘s version by month (partially because my brain can only process things chronologically but also because we live for a style/story evolution).
So here are my top 23 favorite screens of 2023 month by month, and just know this was difficult so some months have more than others!
I tag the lovely @antiquatedplumbobs @stargazingsims @sasaofastora @alainas-sims plus anyone else who would like to!
January (aka Gatsby Month):
February:
March:
No favorite photos? In my favorite month? A travesty, truly.
April:
May:
June (the month I got reshade and caused interpersonal drama for literally everyone oops):
-July (*ahem* 1929 bless you all for surviving):
-August (wholesome AU vibes):
-September (the month AU Gio-Jo had me in a literal chokehold):
-October (the 1930s!):
-November:
-December:
But, alas, that only brings us to 22! That’s because the final one is actually from the next story post, so if you've made it this far please have a little spoiler below the cut and perhaps my favorite screenie I've taken this year...
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Head empty. Only thought is Simeon finding out about your self hatred and railing you until you can't remember any of those thoughts
-body worship, insecurity, bit of angst, breeding in the tags-
Omg he'd be so gentle... He asks what's troubling you when he sees you frown at yourself in the mirror. When you tell him you're feeling self conscious and ugly he just disagrees immediately.
But Simeon knows all too well how little words can change someone's mind, often feeling disgusted and disappointed with himself for abandoning the brothers like he did. For choosing the celestial realm just for its familiarity. He's such a coward.
He knows now that conventional beauty is only skin deep and the ugliness just beneath the surface is often much worse than one would think. And he's stunned when you're talking about yourself like that because in all the time he's known you, he's never even once thought anything about you was ugly.
If anything, he was the ugly one.
His first attraction to you was your looks and the way you carried yourself. Every moment he spends with you he finds new things to love about you and it just crushes him that you don't see it. So even if he can't change your mind, he at least needs to prove to you that it doesn't matter what you think.
You're beautiful without even trying. Just a smile from you takes his breath away without fail. The words to describe how incredible you are always fail him. Being with you is healing. His wretched broken heart has been heavy with sin and betrayal for as long as he can remember but you make him feel like it can be fixed. Or maybe that he never really was broken to begin with.
All he wants is to give that feeling back to you.
So he shows you. Pulls you away from the mirror. "Focus on me. On how I love you." Is all he mumbles before tenderly kissing you. Your kisses get deeper, your insecurities vanishing as he pulls away. His eyes are full of adoration, lost in you.
You close your eyes and feel. His hands worship every part of you, taking his time to press kisses down your torso, wherever he thinks you're most insecure. He mumbles loving words as he goes, the author in him crafting the ultimate love scene just for you to hear.
And if you still don't believe him? Well, he'll keep going as long as he needs to~
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I feel like the fantasy equivalent of a tattoo artist/florist ship is blacksmith/baker. Anyways imagine Namari learning how to make fancy little patterned bread pans and fix cookware just so she has an excuse to do favors for you and spend time with you. You in return bringing her treats at the end of the day right after you close, claiming they’re left over from the day—but they’re always suspiciously warm and soft, like they’re fresh. Kiki keeps insisting on getting food at your bakery because she knows the tea and has fun watching you both pretend you’re not staring when the other’s back is turned 🥺🥺🥺
Oh my goodness, Kiki taking Namari to this cute little bakery and Namari instantly falling in love with you bc you've got the be the cutest damn thing around- she comes by a lot but never really has a conversation to you until after she sheepishly offers to fix up the baking pan you loved. When she returns it, she's surprised to see you've prepared a payment (bc she said you didn't need to pay her) in the form of bread. She accepted it, and it was the most delicious and fluffy bread she's ever had. From then on, you two having these little back-n-forth fix something get something type of relationship until one day she shows you she made you a special bread pan from scratch. It was adorable, and so sweet! Oh gosh, Namari seeing you've used the pan makes her heart swell she's over the moon!
Kiki is so quick to spot the growing attraction between you two, but she keeps quite bc she thinks the pining and crushing is adorable. She has this smile like she knows something you both don't (like your mutual feelings).
And eventually Kiki'll hint to Namari about your shared feeling- it takes a while for Namari to work up the courage to ask you out on a date!
"Oh, Namari!" You smile sweetly, stepping outside the shop, "I'm so glad you're here, I've actually got this new recipe I'm testing out and I was wondering-"
"Ah, actually... Can we talk for a minute?" And you falter because she looks so serious when she's usually pretty lighthearted and cheery. So you nervously agree and she leads you to a place more private (bc everyone is getting off work around this time, the streets flooded with people trying to get home).
"Is everything okay?" Namari can only hope that Kiki isn't messing with her (she knows she's isn't, because Kiki isn't like that, but still...)
"I like you."
"Aw, I like you to-"
"No. I like-like you."
And it's silent, although you're certain Namari can hear your heart raging against your rib cage. Namari feels like she might throw-up from her nerves- please, say something.
And when she meets your gaze it's just so full of warmth, and you confess you share her feelings as well!
Then you both try your new baked good and of course Namari loves it, and later she'll tell Kiki & Kaka all about it, and you get a whole boatload of new baking material and she gets a whole ton of new baked goods- forever and happily ever after hehe~
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