#bashes head into the wall gchvbcvc

[autisticbyleths]

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#vent in tags // #i am. rly not in the mood to talk aboyt this atm i just need a place to get it out gchvbcvc #amazing how my family says shit and i just fume with anger huh #my mom: i never know what [dead name] wants #me: u could. u could ask. it is rly not that difficult #im so unbelievably angry whenever i think about this #just. how my family treats me in general #one half of my brain is oh theyre ur family u have to love them #and the other half is just. Absolutely Not #sometimes i feel like more of a machine then a person to these ppl #everytime i show any hint of a personality or interests outside of being timid and a doormat for them they get angry fchcvcvc #sometimes i feel like im faking rly hard and how i act just... isnt genuine. idk. im blunt and talk too much #how i present myself isnt normal to most ppl gchcbcvc #im just tired. my family doesnt love me #they love the idea of me and me being quiet and not saying stuff back to them #i just wanna nap. im so tired #im so tired and idk how to word shit better just talking to them makes me angry #i do my best to reach out and be vulnerable #its never about my pain or feelings bc haha guess just letting ppl irl walk over me is all im good for #bashes head into the wall gchvbcvc